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i need to think about AMC Armand for a minute. About his passivity. I find it frustrating as a viewer, but I’m also deeply compelled by it. His most infuriating trait is what makes him so interesting. When he says “I could not prevent it,” I don’t think that he sees that as a lie. It’s not the truth, but I think he believes it. He’s so powerful and could at so many points take agency in the narrative, yet he chooses inaction. He lets Lestat destroy the cult, lets the Paris coven hold the trial, lets Louis kill them after, lets Daniel uncover the truth. He accepts whatever happens to him and makes it his life regardless of whether or not it’s what he wanted.
Claudia is a foil to this nature. She’s not the most powerful, but she always takes an active role in her own story. She makes her own choices even when they put her at risk. It’s why I don’t think the two of them ever could have gotten along; their natures are inherently opposed to one another. Even their similarities drive them apart—they both hate the reflections of themselves that they see in one another because of how their mirror reacts to trauma.
#this is long and rambly cause I’m literally just musing to myself about them. it’s crazy when they’re ur two favourite characters lmao#i empathize a lot more with Claudia because react the same way—I hate accepting injustice and letting life happen around me#amc iwtv#interview with the vampire#(also I’m always paranoid about posting character analyses cause I feel like ppl will tell me I interpreted it wrong and call me stupid lol)
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how's the other guy holding up
#submas#emmet#sketches#//#submas angst#this JUST in you can draw fanart .#THEY DON'T TELL YOU THIS BUT YOU REALLY CAN JUST POST LIKE. MOSTLY UNFINISHED DRAWINGS THAT ONLY CONVEY SOME OF WHAT YOU MEAN. AT 4 AM !#see it's very hard for me because i have a lot of serious THOUGHTS about these characters but#not the patience for the necessary care that would go into drawing them properly. or writing fanfiction long enough to get the point across#either way#i have a lot of thoughts on pretty much every aspect of how i think everything happens for SOME reason but I PERSONALLY#i personally think that emmet would take leave from work#maybe i will make a proper post about this another time but i was like#thinking just about. as much as he loves his job. he loved it when he was doing half a job built for 2 people. and the other person#was one of his favourites in the world#i don't think it would really bring him any sense of normalcy. to go do his job alone#and i don't think that keeping gear station in optimal working condition ''for when ingo gets back'' would necessarily be his top priority#the priority rather would be to try and get him back LOL#and it's important to ME that emmet actually succeeds in this#for a variety of reasons. but it's 4:30 am and i'm a little too tired to get into the intricacies of my imaginary reunion scenario#this is unrelated to that but i have also been thinking about like. i bet emmet would hate condolences#my friend said something that made me think about this a while ago but y'know#''i'm sorry for your loss'' do you literally not know that he likes winning more than anything else 🙄#anyways that's enough of that. i have more to say but maybe not in the tags. and another time
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Little animations for my DR tic headcanons!! To be so clear this is *not* me trying to create good rep, this is explicitly me projecting my own tics onto some little guys using gimmicky plot points and then making art about it! so like. grain of salt and a little ableism cw 👍
Chiaki who freezes and shudders in overstimulating environments, ostensibly because her tics are triggered by sound/light/motion — but then in Ch.6 you learn she was actually just lagging when the computer had too much stuff to render nearby. This makes it even more disorienting postcanon when they remember the real Chiaki, who had a slightly different personality and completely different tics. Most of them were omitted from the AI because it was averaged from the memories of several students (including Hajime) who never noticed or mistook them for fidgeting — helped by the fact that her tics vanished whenever she was focusing on a game. It's convoluted but in a way that I think suits the source material lol.
Kokichi who is an expert at making tics look intentional, because he'd rather come off as "annoying on purpose" or even pretend to mock the disorder he secretly actually has than just admit there's a part of himself he can't control. And he certainly doesn’t need anyone outside DICE realizing the tics are a very honest indicator of his stress levels. He treats his own outbursts as cues to whine that he’s bored; he makes meaningful eye contact with Shuichi whenever he can’t stop blinking, because he knows it’ll make Shuichi lose his mind trying decode a Morse code message that doesn't exist; and in the killing game he pairs his motor tics with the straitjacket uniform and a cringy Joker impression to create some campy caricature of “crazy” that scares the people who are idiots (Kaito) and makes everyone else think he’s just doing an offensive bit — which, for better or worse, he kind of is.
#danganronpa#chiaki nanami#kokichi ouma#kokichi oma#sdr2#ndrv3#tics#danganronpa 2#danganronpa v3#tics tw#tic mention#tic disorder#mild flashing#my posts#my art#animation#gif#fanart#fyi i have this hc for chiaki because by default i give tics to literally any character whos vaguely digital or robotic#(so yes kiibo too but i have nothing interesting to say about that atm)#kokichi i thought of because i was planning a cosplay and thinking about how incidentally ticcing in a straitjacket -#- could quite possibly make me look like i was just *pretending* to have tics in some kinda weird problematic larp???#BUT i also just like the image of him suppressing tics all day then having a full on attack every night the second he enters his room#because 1 real and 2 i think it would sum up his vibe pretty well#+ in general nd kichi also just makes the uniform a little playfully ironic like the rest of his aesthetic??#ALSO. i scrapped a ramble on the oumota dynamic that happens in this setting bc it was tonally discordant but. if anyone wants that lmk lol#full disclosure im fighting through like 7 layers of cringe to post this. if only for my fellow tic havers out there. amen
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brienne but she's wearing 1949 cocteau's beauty and the beast inspired fit!!! this is the inspo pic i used if ur curious.
gonna be posting more of this redesign thing (and also jaime's ver) some time in the future but i just wanted to share this one <3
#brienne of tarth#asoiaf#mine.#u know literally just as i finished colouring this i found that some theater made an opera version of this batb#and they made belle's dress BLUE...which is a win for me and also not bc they made it light blue#but here it's supposed to be velvet.. idk if it comes across as velvet but that's the fabric of choice lol.#but im gonna ramble because i really like the concept... i love brienne in pearls!! i feel like pearls will be her jewellery of choice#and i talked abt this before in some post but i think tarth regalia would have a lot of pearls just bc they're an island#and i think they would export pearls alongside marble lol#i love brienne in silver and pearls BUT the reason why the flower thing on her cape is gold bc in the film#the pearl chain was actually a gift from the beast. so she's wearing jaime's gift. and i made the cape more silvery white (leaning on white#to resemble his cloak so it's like... jaime gifting her his white cloak..... hihihIHIHIhhihihihihi......#tbh i drew that concept before too BUT I JUST LIKE IT!!!!!!!! i want it to happen actually....please....thank u..#also the feathers in her hair is bc i want to accessorize her in a brienne way BUT ALSO supposed to be like the plumes knights wore in thei#helm. she's wearing trousers in the fit btw only the upper half of the design is based on beauty but the silhouette mimics beasts' more.#but anyway i really like this design!! bc it's a bit ott but also not in a way that seems out of character for her? idk LOL
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SCORE: A HOCKEY MUSICAL (2010) ↳ Directed by Michael McGowan | Starring Noah Reid, Olivia Newton-John, Nelly Furtado, and Wayne Gretzky's Dad?!?
#was no one going to tell me that this masterpiece exists??!?!?#literally just found my new comfort movie omg#to be clear its bad (very bad) but in a great way#noah's singing really carries this because those songs are actually horrible lol#“to him - i did not - my heart or saliva - forsake” is a real lyric like omg how can u not be obsessed#the line brawl turning into a dance number.....GENIUS#my only qualm is that that boy is gay ! hello!!#also he looks like jeff skinner to me and i’m imagining this was semi- what the transition from figure skating to hockey was like#how did this open the toronto film fest.....like who let that happen...#watch for free at the linked youtube url!#score: a hockey musical#noah reid#olivia newton john#nelly furtado#nhl#hockey#hockey movies
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Ok so Wild and Wars are going together in the dungeon right? And that's great for them (maybe), but I ALSO want to talk about how Time and Four are going together!!
Because of THIS

(from doodles pt.3-link (heh))
Most of us have seen this before I think- and I've seen people saying they want confirmation on if it's Time saying 'you never cease to impress me little one' or not. The older doodles are still said to be canon- so I ALSO would like confirmation on it.
Also there's this ask from a bit ago!

The ask mentioned Time knowing about the four sword- and Jojo didn't correct them or say otherwise, and said most have confided in him. So I think it's reasonable to assume Time knows Four's secret from the doodle. And I want to see it in the story!!! and they're going together in the dungeon! (with Wind too of course!!)
also small brag that I guessed and said months ago that I wanted Time and Four to go together. They have Wind too, and I am VERY excited bc I wanted to see them together and now they ARE fhxvfgxgdgd
Obviously we don't know what Jojo's planning, and I have no idea if this will come up or not. But it'd be really cool wouldn't it?
Art by Jojo @linkeduniverse au
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#linkeduniverse#linked universe#lu time#lu four#I've been wanting to rant about this for so long#they're going together they're going together they're going together#the tallest and the shortest#time literally swings his sword over fours head while fighting#peak comedy and stuff oh my gooooooosh#hehehehehehehe#also worth noting that simply being around four is practically therapeutic because of his awesome calming nature#which Time really needs right now#I wanna see Four demand to know what's wrong and make Time confide in him like he has to Twilight twice now lol#which probably won't happen but#I LOVE THEM#I LOVE SEEING TIME WITH THE YOUNGER AND SHORTER ONES HES SO HAPPY AROUND THEM#YEAH#I love them so much TT#I don't scream as much in the post so I get to in the tags#bye lol#hugs to all if I said anything offensive as usual let me know#<33
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In which Persephone is told she can't game the system- (TEXT EDIT)
no art was edited here, just text to make this more realistic to how this scene WOULD have gone if it was an actual courtroom with real rules LOL I find it a little weird that Rachel wrote a courtroom drama arc like this and then twisted it this much to benefit Persephone because like... clearly she was inspired by courtroom drama shows, and I can't help but wonder if she got all of her basic courtroom knowledge from like, Spongebob or some shit LOL
#it literally could have been a forum or something a little more#idk#GREEK ???#get tf outta here persephone#choosing your own boyfriend as your attorney#he shouldn't even be a judge on this case let alone an attorney#wtf was zeus thinking#where the FUCK is athena#athena would never let this happen#this edit means a lot to me because the trial arc was basically my canon event where I started to doubt LO and Rachel#like i had had so much suspension of disbelief up until persephone chose hades to be her attorney LOL#and then the eris twist was the last straw#lo critical#anti lore olympus#lore olympus critical#antiloreolympus
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i think you can be as critical about the venezuelan opposition and maría corina and edmundo as you want but arent venezuelans allowed to choose for themselves even if the options arent perfect? are you willing to justify electoral fraud and police brutality, class inequality, bad management of resources, lack of maintenance of the country, breach of the law, lack of investment in health services and education etc etc just because the person doing it is someone you like or because you don't like the other option? are people at fault for wanting something different?
#i don't like idolizing politicians either in fact i dont think anyone should#a government official being good to the people would literally just be doing their job#but there are reasons for how much people love maría corina as of now and it's because shes one of the few members of the opposition#that has not completely given up on us or just sold themselves to the regime#from the days of chavez and when nobody would pay attention to her or think she would accomplish anything#people are allowed to have hope#and im very sick of this tendency to dehumanize other countries(particularly those from the third world)#and act like they cannot defend themselves or choose for themselves#when they try they are told not to and to let others do the job. how fair is that?? who are you helping?#if maría corina and edmundo fail us it would just turn into what we are already living through. we know it already#if they keep their promises and things go well or at least better then yay!#but we know what's going to happen under maduro#the country will keep deteriorating until everybody either dies or leaves#or people will keep living miserably#i thought people liked the idea that you shouldnt have to work out of your ass to have your neccesities covered!#well people are exploited here on the daily and don't have access to half things they need#let alone pursuing their dreams. theyre not allowed to dream#it's either we die or we don't die for me#i want to see my country healing thats all. you think maduro will give us that? absolutely not#it's always like this with countries that others view as just a land of natural resources or as a land of dumb poor people to project onto#just allow us to see where this goes. it's what the people chose. respect it.#oh ok vent over#Venezuela#this is very messily written i havent had breakfast yet#not to mentionnnnnnnn people on other places know what it's like having to choose for the lesser evil but when vzla does it it's wrong. lol#chavismo is not going to save anyone other than the regime. even chavistas themselves die under it#a lot of us were born under chavismo and want to see life outside of it
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Wow.
When we watched the first episode (both halves) of Over the Garden Wall last night, my husband and I had this exchange:
"So the townspeople are skeletons dressing up in the pumpkins and stuff?"
"Yeah."
"Creepy."
Which doesn't sound like much, I know, but something about that struck me:
People's first impressions probably ARE that it's creepy.
And I totally forgot that was a thing.
Like, for me, I don't even really see it as creepy anymore? It's literally just things like "a place for the placeless", "a rest for the lost", or "the complete inverse of the Beast" to me. Not "here's where the undead dress up as jack-o-lanterns".
To me, it's "Come Ye Thankful People Come", not "Come Wayward Souls" (even though we hear the tune played there).
I look at it and see concepts like "harvest" and "peace", and that's why I like Pottsfield.
But most people, on first glance, see concepts like "creepy" and "morbid", and that's why they like (or dislike) Pottsfield.
And that's just so foreign to me at this point, I had to stop and think about it.
#it's also funny because i feel like I'm turning into guidesman woodsman myself#because (spoilers) he kinda forgets to tell the boys about Pottsfield's whole deal with the skeletons#i wondered a little if that was realistic with how he's been watching over them#and i previously chalked it up to “he is terrible at communicating”#which is still true#but honestly now it kinda makes sense#if you'd seen Pottsfield the way he does for as long as he has#it'd be hard to think of it any other way#ESPECIALLY as something creepy or morbid#so while he still needs to work on communication this particular failing is understandable#(because it literally happened to me lol)#over the garden wall#salt and light#otgw pottsfield#otgw enoch#otgw woodsman#guidesman au#in the tags#also no hate to people who see the creepy side more#this is literally just me realizing that you exist
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tfw the merman you've been befriending for a week while you visit your best friend has the most dysphoric day of his life and all he can think about is ovens
#tmos has art#eridan ampora#sollux captor#erisol#homestuck#mermay#forgot i could tag that tbh lmfao#anyways. takes out my notes of what to talk about in the tags of this LOL#for one. do you know how funny it is that slothrust has a crewneck design called '3:11 i look at the clock' its PERFECT#of COURSE im using that as the spare clothes aradia happens to have that eridan can wear. time and 311............#second point. literally the only reason sollux is competent in being supportive in the second bit is because hes in like. t4t support mode#'ah shit this guy just found out his human body does not match his gender i know about this at least' lmao#thirdly yeah i WAS thinking about jerma and his aversion towards ovens making this <3 eridan is so jerma coded to me sometimes#and finally; fun fact i apparently originally designed seahorse merman eridan on new years eve back in 2018 LOL
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people on The Internet Dot Com keep being absolute idiots about thea muldani so here is your reminder that she's a ravens success story — she grew up in an environment where she was asked to give her all and engage in incredibly unhealthy practices, but the result of such sacrifice was that she was rewarded for it with US court and a pro team. she was part of a cult and "left" in the sense of gaining physical distance, but all of her experiences reaffirmed that the toxic ravens environment was the most effective way to a successful exy career. it is fucked up that she believes others should go through the same thing in order to be "worthy" or "good enough," but i simply do not understand why so many people look at her and think that she should be crucified for being a representation of a finished, successful raven. especially not if she's unable to recognize abuse in others, which tbqh is something that is very common in cult-like settings. you don't want to look something-that-could-very-well-be-abuse-happening-to-others in the eye, because if they're being abused, then you could potentially be being abused, too, and what do you do with that? do you have any idea how hard it is to come to terms with that reality, especially when you are told day in and day out that this is the only way to get to the top? that this is how you make it in the sport? that someone who is being harmed by the coach or the team captain absolutely deserved it? that people who can't hack it are weak, but you're not weak, you're one of the best, you'll do whatever it takes?
is it extremely shitty that she blames jean for his own sexual assault? absolutely, yes. but she doesn't have the whole picture, and it's clear that jean intentionally deceives her (with the comment about him being fragile/clumsy, etc.) and lets her believe he had more agency in his sexual experiences than he truly did because it's a coping mechanism that also serves the purpose of letting her fill in blanks so he does not have to explicitly tell a lie. besides, if there is any singular raven that both kevin and jean view fondly, wouldn't they want her to believe whatever it took so that she didn't ask too many questions? wouldn't they both want her far removed from the reality of the moriyamas and human trafficking, because her uncovering the truth would put her entire life at risk?
people can have friends that are imperfect or do not understand them completely or that fuck things up sometimes. i get that jean's experiences put people on-guard when it comes to how he interacts with other characters, but god damn. she was his mentor. she taught him everything he knows about being a backliner. she made horrible and judgmental assumptions about his experiences. all of those things can be true at the same time. does she not deserve the opportunity to change upon receiving new information? does she not deserve the ability to take a step back, as ravens are dropping like flies and all eyes are on evermore and the perfect court, to consider that maybe she was a victim in all of this, too? that plenty of people are capable of making it to the top without calling another human being the master and turning a blind eye to the king beating his own men? that maybe kevin and jean and all of them were terribly wronged? why is she the only person in this series who's not allowed to grow as a person by developing a more nuanced understanding of rape and sexual assault and learning how to be a better friend to someone who had no choice?
also someone tried to "gotcha" me by saying thea and jean aren't friends because she uhhhh (checks notes) calls him a teasing nickname and says "i'm going to break your ribs" as though threatening your friends (especially ones you play a contact, violent sport with) is the worst possible offense ever in the same book series that people regularly ACTUALLY fistfight each other and pull knives on one another. i'd argue that these are actually huge indicators that they do like each other, because she's probably one of the only people in the world who he can express himself around and even say things like "i'm not from paris" exasperatedly. you know, like you do when people you care about tease or poke fun at you. those are actually probably some of the most normal interactions jean has pre-TSC, especially as she is not needlessly cruel to him like literally everyone else in the nest is. and not only is thea one of the only people who has any sort of comraderie with him and who makes the effort to see him after his injuries because she cares, but she also makes it past wymack and kevin and renee and neil guard-dogging him. does that seriously mean nothing? do you think renee fucking walker (who was ready to brawl on-sight at evermore) would have let someone like zane waltz into abby's house if kevin said a single negative word about him?
i have seen some incredibly wonderful and nuanced takes about most characters in AFTG, but at the same time, the way thea is treated and criticized in a more severe way than literal murderers in the series for her possibly-willful ignorance is utterly crazy to me.
idk. just some food for thought
#sorry not sorry but thea hate is a little wild to me#she's not my favorite character ever but the way people perceive her as THE LITERAL WORST EVER NO MERCY NO FORGIVENESS is insane#i just personally think it would be cool to see her come to terms with what happened to kevin and jean#and i don't know#maybe grow as a character a little?#because she's able to look at the ravens and think that perhaps they were all wronged?#call me crazy but the concept of a character that has room to develop is sort of the point of fucking literature?#how do people forgive how andrew treats others but get so overprotective over jean + kevin that they decide thea deserves the death penalty#this is a long rant i doubt anyone will actually read lol
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it's so funny to me when people just believe that john is straight because he said "i'm not a homosexual" once because
1. you are believing the words of a 13 yr old who was 12 the day before.
2. people forget that he's 13 when he said that, and that he is not old enough for a proper romantic relationship.
3. john egbert doesn't think. in fact, he'd rather not AT ALL. like. EVER.
4. why would he think about ever liking a girl? can't he just say it out right if he does?
also, this part in a nutshell:
karkat: DO YOU WANNA BE IN A RELATIONSHI-
john: i am not a homosexual. 👍
5. god king of repression had you fooled FOOL.
and the most ironic part is that it's the same shit homophobic parents say like "yeah, but when you were 13 you said you liked girls soooo"
#homestuck#john egbert#homestuck analysis#hs analysis#hs meta#IT HAS BEEN 14 FUCKING YEARS#man :/#there is literally no need to post about this only if homestuck fans could actually read#john egbert was queer this whole time? the horror!#literally what his gag was all about lmao#argument happened in twt about johns gender/sexuality instead of saying that hes just queer couldve just ended everything#LMAO#a twt qrt mentioned that this post was about defending my yaoi ship? which is literally not? theyr using it as a reason hate on me lol#i love john egbert so much its painful. dirk strider can die because he failed ME so idrc
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scary monster under my bed (essay i haven't started)(due tonight) maybe if i snuggle very cozy under the covers it wont see me and i'll be safe
#it's not real if i ignore it#this semester has honestly been an all time low for my grades lol. B-B+ range in multiple classes.#senioritis is so real#and it happened to me#also maybe the slow creep of gifted kid burnout#lol#and the worsening migraines#and the undiagnosed autism#the adhd is diagnosed so at least i have some meds going for me those are life saving#but i'm secretly scared because they are stimulants so they give me energy and let me concentrate#but also when i'm off them i'm literally a zombie#cannot function#I don't want to be dependant on meds#but without my stimulant i am just sleepy#anyways third essay of the week lets go#hype squad#on sunday i can crash#just gotta make it until then
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varric giving rook his shaving mirror to keep kind of hits different when your rook is a trans man I have to say
#rye is an elf so no amount of blood magic adjacent HRT is going to give him a beard. but it's the thought that counts lol#(listen it's his own blood I think he gets to decide what to do with it within the bounds of his body right lol)#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#varric tethras#oc: ellaryen ingellvar#rye getting blackout drunk for the first time in like ten years approximately three days after leaving the necropolis#and varric being. so so kind about it. hawke stayed with varric in the hanged man for a month after leandra died#because varric was genuinely afraid what would happen if he was left alone and hawke couldn't face going home#he gets it. it's okay kid. happens to the best of us. I'll get you some water huh. did I ever tell you about the time hawke and I#found that guy who'd been selling deepstalkers to nobles as pets and --#and rye with his defenselessly flayed-open heart slowly and gently being put back together again. is something. that is so personal.#to me. literally and figuratively#undying loyalty engaged immediately. of course. OF COURSE. how could he ever have felt differently.
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The Trojan Horse/La guerra di Troia (1961)
Ignore the complete mischaracterisation of Helen and the inaccuracy of events, you need to see this sequence of how Paris dies. It's absolutely WILD.
#helen of sparta#paris of troy#menelaus#trojan war#tagamemnon#The Trojan Horse (1961)#film#*waves* hello its me. back again with another old movie clip.#I guess this is just what I do now. I've fallen down a very niche rabbit hole here haven't I asdfghkjj#I skipped around this film for the fun of it and then proceeded to stumble upon THIS juggernaut of a scene that left me :O#just speechless really. there's so much inaccuracy going on here but you've got to admit they made an incredibly tense moment.#this is the most villain-y helen I've seen I think. Not a fan of how she's depicted here at all lol#but the imagery of helen refusing the sword and dealing the fatal 'final blow' with the TOUCH OF HER HAND... absolute cinema#the red dress to match with the achaeans' red clothing... already changing alliances.#and need I say anything about the crown? and literally everything that happens between menelaus and paris here? It's NUTS#poor paris. what a gut punch of an end to your life :( the directors were out for your blood in this movie#(fyi. if the voices sound unsynced/stilted it's because they're dubbed)#rn i dont intend to watch this film further. im just neurodivergent + delight in finding shiny new objects related to my interests#teehee c: a collector of weird and obscure information at heart <3
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had a very nice realization about peace, especially spiritual peace, the other day. (Been brewing for a while.) and it’s just: peace is for the non-peaceful.
#very obvious of course#but it’s just—-#it’s hard to explain how messy I feel all the time#in all areas of my life#what a grubby little gremlin I feel I am#with my unfinished projects and my half-done things and my unsorted through internal life#and my room that needs vacuuming and my bathroom that needs dusting and the text messages that need answering#and the relationships that I feel need attention or fixing or solving#and tbh counseling has been helpful simply because my counselor is just like ‘girl if you don’t chill’#(kind)#like. she’d just like you’re doing FINE#everyone doesn’t have the dishes finished or everything in order at all times#so I’ve been able to kind of see the ridiculously high expectations for myself I just walk around with#and/or just the pressure I feel to have everything DONE#but even all of that aside it has just been dawning on me that—I can have peace in those contexts#not only once everything is ‘sorted’#because it’s not that I don’t think I deserve it or whatever! that’s not exactly the issue#it’s just literally my brain is like ‘peace is for people who have their shit together’#‘and that isn’t you’#and it just !!!!! isn’t true!!!!!!!!#even if I were as grubby as I think I am (and sometimes I think I AM)#it doesn’t matter. you can still know peace. God still loves me#in the middle of the mess#my WORST states have been when I felt like I had to get myself spiritually in order before God could come#sort of dusted and vacuumed metaphorically speaking I mean#and of course there is work to do#but that happens only with God and because of God and IN God#so I don’t have to wait#can’t explain how often I have heard people talk about peace and been like#‘not for me though’ but it actually IS lol. it I s. beCAUSE I am grubby!!!!!!!!
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