#((she just got home sick :))

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

my mum keeps responding to my covid precautions with “i get it, you’re not ready yet”. like no i just don’t do them anymore. i don’t really need to eat at restaurants or go to crowded places or be in public without an n95. i can watch the movie at home. i can get take out. an n95 is just uncomfortable sometimes but doesn’t stop me from doing anything. i love not getting sick

[ghostreblogging]

Jazz thought she knew her parents. I mean they were idiots and stubbornly held their awful beliefs but she always thought that when Danny finally tells them . Reveals his identity they would turn around.

Jazz loved her parents. Even with their ghost obsession. She still believes their love would conquer that. That they would feel regret for their many threats and attacks against Danny

Jazz also loved Danny. She loved how much of an idiot her little brother could be . How he would always try to look out for his friends and sister. Even if he could be a little gremlin.

That illusion shattered when one day when she came home Danny was not to be found anywhere in the house. Weird, there was no news about any fights... He must be out with his friends

Three hours . It took her three hours to realize something was wrong.

A non breathing Danny.

A broken portal.

She just kept hitting Maddie and Jack. They weren't moving anymore.

She needed to get away.

She needed to get out.

She gathered her brother up.

12 pieces.

Too much blood.

Then she woke up in Gotham. It's fine.

She got herself an apartment. A job . She sewed her brother back together. He'll be fine. He recovered from much worse. Before she knows anything he'll be back.

She - his heart still beat so softly that it might as well have been her imagination. BUT still that must be because he's a halfa. It must be it. Otherwise. . . no use thinking that.

There is a smell of rot and burning flesh coming from his room. Must be a halfa thing. If only she had access to the far frozen. She has been trying to build a portal but it's been hard. The blueprints themselves are almost unintelligible, and she can't understand the mad writing of jack and Madeline.

It was another normal day. Ah well the new normal. Jazz had been trying to clean around the areas around the sutures.

"Jazz." She perked up. It had been months. May-

"You can't keep doing this.". Danny was still stiff as a corpse. And that pulse is still as soft as ever. But she knows her little gremlin was still alive as he can be.

"Please, remember? You always told me to take care of yourself. Take your own advice" and Danny was right. Well even if it was just a hallucination. He was right. Jazz should maybe take a break. After all for the last few months she had been only focusing on Danny and the portal.

So came a different routine. That led to meeting Jason.

And they became closer. And he became frequenting her apartment. She made sure to lock Danny's room. The guest room.

After a few months. Jazz finally introduced Jason to her little brother.

Jason found no pulse. He found a corpse on the bed.

[secondarysefikura]

Modern sefikura idea. Cloud and Sephiroth meet in a psych ward. Cloud recovers and gets out eventually. But Sephiroth misses him.

Cloud’s biggest issue is when he’s off his meds or symptomatic he tends to get delusional. So if he tells someone he’s being stalked or another patient escaped and broke into his apartment. The first question people tend to ask is “are you taking your medication?” Not “do you want to call the cops?”

Oooo, I really like this. Especially since you can imagine that in most cases, whoever is asking Cloud if he has taken his medicine is probably trying to be genuinely helpful. Zack or Tifa or whoever is being told about this "stalker" who "broke into" Cloud's apartment genuinely want the best for Cloud. They just don't realize until it's too late that they're making things worse by making Cloud feel isolated as no one believes him.

Now to develop the sefikura of this a bit:

Sephiroth believes himself to be a god and starts trying to start small cults to himself, which is what causes him to be institutionalized. He takes a liking to Cloud, who he is easily able to sway by feeding into and manipulating Cloud's delusions.

Although the two became close in their short time together, staff realized they needed to seperate them if they wanted either Cloud or Sephiroth to get better. It becomes even more clear the two need to be kept apart when Cloud starts getting better and Sephiroth starts attempting to (intentionally or not) sabotage Cloud's progress.

After finding the proper medication, seeking therapy, and getting connected with a service animal trained to help him recognize when he is hallucinating (that's a real thing by the way!), Cloud is released from the ward.

Sephiroth, meanwhile, is fuming. How DARE these people take Cloud away from him? How DARE they correct him anytime he refers to Cloud as his puppet, his doll, or his cherished one? And most importantly, how DARE they talk about Cloud leaving this place and forgetting to worship Sephiroth as Cloud "getting better." He ought to destroy these humans and take Cloud back by force this instant!

As much as he wants to, however, he bides his time. Rather than letting on how much he hates the people who "took" Cloud away from him, he plays nice and gains their trust. Then, when he's trusted enough that he isn't considered flight risk number one, he makes a break for the streets.

Of course he doesn't leave without taking a few things with him: mainly a variety of different sedative pills.

At first he doesn't plan to use them on Cloud since he assumes that Cloud will run back into his arms the moment they are reunited. But when Cloud gets frightened by "being stalked" and starts asking his "friends" for help, Sephiroth realizes he has no choice but to switch Cloud's medication with identical looking but very different in function pills.

[nostalgic-muffins]

ena: akito

akito: thats what kohane used to call me...

ena: thats because thats your fucking name

[nedsseveredhead]

im a little over a year into my new desk job. and it is crazy to me that the most dread i ever feel (job related atleast) is oooo bed toasty warm i dont wanna get up. like. i have not had job related suicidal ideation in a year. thats crazy to me. especially with how frequent it was at my old job. i still have nightmares about my past jobs. i havn't shaken my retail voice yet (which confused my coworkers when i switched from that to regular voice after i got comfortable around them). and its just so wild looking back now how working retail just effects your brain. like there has got to be studies done on this cause what the fuck was all that

[rosesradio]

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[hermidetta]

Andrei wakes up, head pounding in protest. The memory of the past few hours is a blur of desperation, following the group of survivors towards uncertain salvation. He doesn't remember exchanging a single word with anyone between leaving the monastery and passing out in the shelter, somewhere south of Garreg Mach.

Now, though, he looks around, gaze finally landing on the first familiar figure.

"Bernadetta!"

Ignoring the pain in his legs, Andrei stumbles over to her side. He'd heard that the Black Eagles house was off on a mission the previous month, and assumed she'd been part of the team sent out. Had they returned just in time to get caught in the attack on the monastery?

"...You're injured." He reaches out a hand, warm magic briefly, instinctively pooling at the tips of his fingers... before fizzling out, exhaustion or apprehension or something else entirely rendering his efforts futile. He grits his teeth in frustration. "I can't—" a shaky exhale, then, "—You'd be better off getting this looked at by someone who knows how to heal properly."

If he couldn't help her in the moment, then he'd be useless sitting around doing nothing. Andrei turns away, intending to return to his earlier spot, but looks over his shoulder at her once more.

"If there's anything you need of me, let me know," he says, "As long as it is within my power, I will see that you do not come to further harm."

It's a promise he intends to keep.

bernadetta has loved and lost before. in both cases of it, she had gotten both back.

now she has lost them both all over again.

andrei is the second to find her—and immediately does bernadetta spin around to him, eyes wide and quivering at his injured state. unsurprising, but still upsetting. nearly all of them had fallen in the ambush.

"andrei!"  she near sobs, arms reaching out, uncertain, unknowing. her hands jolt and twitch around him without touching—wanting to support where he stumbles, wanting to accept any weight, but too unsure where he might hurt. too scared she might hurt him worse.  "you're okay! y-you're— i mean, yeah, we're both injured, but you're alive! thank goodness!"

bernadetta does not want to lose any more than she already has. bernadetta shakes her head vehemently, the purple tufts—some matted—whipping about.

"it's okay."  her nicked fingertips hover by his, nearly catching them. his frustration seeps, acid aimed at himself, and bernadetta knows it more than anything. that is why she insists:

"it's okay. i-it's not you. it's"—a meek gesture at their surrounding chaos—"all of... this. um, thank you for trying."

for bothering. for caring. just like he had all those months ago, with mr.—...

her heart sinks. where her satchel is one stuffy lighter, her chest feels like lead. no bear, no good luck ribbon, no security of razor sharp lilacs that always seemed to make her feel like she could do anything in the world. she is shaking. her face contorts for a flicker, scrunching as if the dam had burst, but bernadetta quickly swallows her hiccup and twists her features back into milder distress. that is the best she can do.

because she still has people to protect, too. the one right in front of bernadetta turns, but before he leaves, her mousy fingers catch the very corner of his sleeve.

"let me know, too. a-about you. promise?"  light as a feather and just as unassuming, she hooks her pinky finger with his. just the briefest, fleeting touch. they're meant to be alive friends, after all.  "and if i find anything you can use, i'll bring it right over."

[plangentia]

oh my god i hate being at home

[helianthus21]

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[illogicalghost]

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[aaandbackstabbed]

Matilda McDuck and Goldie O’Gilt would be best friends

[pigeontheoneandonly]

I'm weak and foolish

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[kirby-the-gorb]

[tommygotwrittenoff]

i need them to put eddie in a coma so he can have his own little coma dream realization

[foggysirens]

there’s a sort of clawing desperation that rips you up from the insides when you’re trying to be an adult and have your own life but then the very same people who are telling you to do just that continue to treat and berate you like a child and refuse to see you as a person with adult concerns and needs and you are left trying to juggle these two selves that they want to exist as one but only if both halves are agreeable to them and follow orders but they also throw it in your face that’s you need to make your “own decisions” and i want to throw up :)