#this is just so damn unfair

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

[jackass-jones]

Thinking of vlr Akane is so conflicting cuz on one hand I’m so upset that she doesn’t ever get a moment to just rest and enjoy being alive again I’m upset that she just gets deeper and deeper into this role she’s built for herself and she loses her humanity and will never ever be that girl who died in the incinerator. But on the other hand, I need her to get so, so much worse I need her to be so obsessed with perfection she has this unique ability to change the course of history and she will burn everything and everyone to the ground in the blink of an eye if it means she can "reset" and get a perfect timeline and I desperately need her to never be satisfied with anything because really, is there anything that’s worth all the damage she’s caused?

[whaliiwatching]

different anon than the other one but I think when Hobie first took HIS mask off in front of Noir, Noir was also blue screening but trying to act like he wasn't because Hobie is like the prettiest guy and he does it every day and Noir didn't want to make an ass of himself in front of such a looker🙏🙏🙏all hail the people who designed Hobie

all anybody knows about when noir first saw hobie with his mask off is that nobody could get him to move or speak for fifteen minutes

[smile-files]

i am in shambles. what the heck :(

(luke realizing that he views layton in a familial light, just as layton views him... aaugh...)

[bacchuschucklefuck]

love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

[kelin-is-writing]

My heart is broken in million pieces…

[cobaltfluff]

what is his deal ???

[dirtyoldmanhole]

not gonna lie i loooooove all the different flavors of guilt that gunter would have if he gets romantically/sexually involved with corrin.

off the top of my head you've got a choice of:

* guilt over the obvious age difference and yeah, i'm gonna say it: him raising corrin as a father figure (corrin's line lol). it's not *not* a skeevy look. even if they start their relationship years after the game events (doubtful, with his age). personally love how their S-support indirectly acknowledges this with him dancing around a way of getting her to reject him without either one of them acknowledging that he has feelings for her in the first place. mind games right from the start!!! (fuckin. hilariously backfired on the old man when he realizes corrin's even more thirsty for him.)

* sort of related with the above re: the mentor/mentee power differential guilt at bare minimum. this one kind of lessens as corrin grows into the authority of a royal, but it's pretty obvious she still has a authorital respect towards him in every route. i know for sure he'd have occasional pangs of guilt as to if he's taking advantage of her trust there.

* garon's "father""" connection with corrin. >:)c and just. holy fuck the potent hatred gunter has against garon and it bleeding out on corrin in the bedroom. him wanting to possessively mark corrin-as-garon's-heir as his (-and then him having the understandable horror/guilt over that.)

* (conquest-specific) guilt over not telling corrin about his late wife and all the skeletons that would dredge up. i honestly headcanon that in cq he never mentions his history to corrin just to let sleeping dogs lie and avoid painful questions, but it forever remains a kind of albatross around his neck. that's not even counting widower's guilt on some level - he's human, it happens.

* (revelation-specific) guilt over whether anankos manipulated any affections/lust for corrin just to get closer to her... >:3c (what if hell, he's right?)

* revelation also has loads more with guilt over his possessed actions. and then guilt if they're fucking while he's possessed and he can't tell corrin anything. and and and-

* more generic guilt that a commoner (and punished for being a commoner) knight lusting over his liege/princess, especially if you introduce pregnancy/children/heirs as a factor.

* we're straying into blatantly headcanon territory briefly here but [mumbles something about my sadist/top/kinky thoughts >_>]

* more benign guilt over him being obviously older and dying earlier/being dependent on corrin when he becomes invalid. lots of conflicted feelings about wanting her but realizing it's a selfish want when he's going to break her heart by dying at minimum 20+ years earlier even if you introduce some magical shit.

like dear lord

the guilt with the already potent chemistry i see those two having would be one hell of a cocktail of unresolved sexual tension, and i don't think it goes away even if they do consummate it .....

[hindingfromtheworld]

I finally figure out how to draw Johnny.

What was the reason, what was the fucking reason for killing him off ???

[hood-ex]

The desire to have a No Capes AU where the Titans crew go to a boarding school and sneak out at night to read poetry in a cave...

[intotheelliwoods]

Gonna ask this to a few people that inspire me, but how do you take inspiration from things without feeling like whatever you make is just bad in comparison? Or like a downgraded version of the thing(s) that inspired you?

(If this is too negative feel free to delete/ignore, I'm sorry)

Oh gosh this is such an interesting question since, I dont think I really have feelings of thinking my version is bad? Or that I am just a copy?

I am honestly just grateful my work became as popular as it is in the first place haha- low expectations going in to begin with. That and, I am very aware my art style isnt as defined and polished as other peoples styles, but I have come to terms with this! And hey the improvement in my own artwork over the past year is a massive trip if you go back through some of my older stuff- I am improving, slowly.

I mean, 2AL started by complete accident, and was "inspired" from me wishing the Leos from OMO or MNMC would hug it out already- but if you were to compare 2AL to one of those, they are very different. Hell even comparing OMO and MNMC, same starting point, but still very different.

I think my only advice to other people trying to make an AU is to try and find some core theme/idea and work around that, rather than gather a bunch of little things from other sources you like into a big pile. Find some key message to start up a base with.

[ko-glitch-101]

dreamtales favoritism

ok, we all know canon dreamtale is a mess, but i want to point out the blatant favoritism towards dream.

Dream got his name cuz he was a dreamer. And nightmare? He got it cause hes the opposite of his brother. Tell me that isnt already fucked up.

He gets the most screentime, often steals the one of other characters as well (Nightmare *cough*)

hes the strongest and only he can defeat nightmare. Bruh

Dream is also always in the right, cause god forbid hes ever wrong or flawed. Like he doesnt trust ink anymore cause ink has different views than him. And the narrative SUPPORTS THIS (cause joku had a fight with comyet about drink so now she doesnt want anything to do with ink)

His only flaw is being "too kind" but it isnt really shown in the comic. At the start, maybe, but now its barely ever shown (I mean that his kindness is barely ever shown having consequences other than positive)

Hes also the knight and damsel in distress? Because joku says hes very strong yet she in rvery ship hes drawn in hes always a weak crybaby.

Casually he cant feel hate cause hes a "precious pure boy", like girl thats not how it works-

In conclusion: canon dream is clearly jokus favorite and that evolves in unfair writing. The only reason nightmare exists is to be evil and to give dream character developement (not defending that stinky goop man, just stating the obvious)

[lilfriezatyrant]

this demon I swear.

[sailorsally]

Misha graduated with honors. He’s extremely smart he just doesn’t want ppl to really know that part about him.

well then he is doing a bad job. tbh i don't think he is hiding any of it, i think we are just too accustomed to people who are smart to have different career paths than him. plus being silly doesn't exclude being smart, on contrary some of the smartest people i know are some of the silliest.

[desertthorn]

Update on my situation:

While driving to work the car stopped working. Just suddenly the gas pedal stopped working in the middle of an icy intersection in 8°F weather. My ex-would-be-father-in-law did his best to keep control of a suddenly uncontrollable vehicle. Oncoming traffic didn't even slow down. I hate the drivers here. But at least no one hit us. I suggested we try backing into a side street and luckily that worked. After restarting the car we tried driving back instead of continuing to work. Thank gawd we didn't chance it cuz a block later it did it again. We managed to get back and we are ok but we were both very shaken up. He joked later joked how people in his life would say it was God's way of telling us we needed to stay put. My ex-would-be-father-in-law told me that that's what's gonna happen. For now at least. I will be staying at least one extra week and we'll figure it out week by week moving forward. It's not the end, but I got a small refrain. He was initially planning to help put me up in a hotel for a few weeks to give me more time, but with what just happened, it won't be this Friday. So I'm staying put for now. This whole mess is so stupid. And completely preventable. I'm too tired to write more. It's been a really weird day.

On the bright side, I got a job interview on Monday. I don't think it's any better than what I have, but it's worth giving it a chance. If nothing else it's easier to get to.

[sampilled]

just remembered how hard life is for omegas