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Gonna ask this to a few people that inspire me, but how do you take inspiration from things without feeling like whatever you make is just bad in comparison? Or like a downgraded version of the thing(s) that inspired you?
(If this is too negative feel free to delete/ignore, I'm sorry)
Oh gosh this is such an interesting question since, I dont think I really have feelings of thinking my version is bad? Or that I am just a copy?
I am honestly just grateful my work became as popular as it is in the first place haha- low expectations going in to begin with. That and, I am very aware my art style isnt as defined and polished as other peoples styles, but I have come to terms with this! And hey the improvement in my own artwork over the past year is a massive trip if you go back through some of my older stuff- I am improving, slowly.
I mean, 2AL started by complete accident, and was "inspired" from me wishing the Leos from OMO or MNMC would hug it out already- but if you were to compare 2AL to one of those, they are very different. Hell even comparing OMO and MNMC, same starting point, but still very different.
I think my only advice to other people trying to make an AU is to try and find some core theme/idea and work around that, rather than gather a bunch of little things from other sources you like into a big pile. Find some key message to start up a base with.
#asks#no seriously 2al was by COMPLETE accident#and then it exploded so I kept it going#oh well#also like!!!!#seriously#the people you are probably comparing yourself too#chances are just have wayyy more experience and practice than you#like!!!! dude sometimes it hits me how many of my friends and other “big blogs” are either#1. professional artists who do this shit for a living anyways#or 2. have been drawing digitally for way way longer than me#digital art is still new territory for me so I am giving myself some slack here#that and I have no interest in art for a career#this is just my side hobby!#yknow!!!!#for FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!#and wheres the fun in going#“damn this person who has years more experience than me and draws for a living is... somehow better at drawing than me this is so unfair”#answer: theres no fun in that#but also fr-#I have only been doing digital art consistently (in this style specifically) for.#a year-#deadass.#I have not done much art before all this outside notebook paper doodles#and the occasional once every month or two painting#all this is so new to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#im learning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I deserve to give myself so so much slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I have also improved so much in the past year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#oops tag ramble
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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JAYCE SHIMEJI YAY !!!
i fear i went actually insane trying to make this and i still want to make viktor’s so err well good luck future me
also here he is if anyone else wants a little rapidly multiplying idiot
#shimeji#jayce talis#arcane#arcane jayce#i made myself promise to only upload to twitter once i finished viktor’s as motivation but this isn’t twitter so…#jayvik#ok its like implied please dont explode my brain#once im done with viktor’s im never making one of these again i feel like i lost several years of my lifespan#i had organ failures with organs i didnt even know existed#i kept going ‘just one more’ everytime i told myself i would take a break
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*i inflict soul crushing pain onto the positive character yet again* <- he cannot keep getting away with this
#Frankie castoff if you don’t want to be sad then don’t be so fun to draw saddd#love this guy 10/10 character to hit with the evil pyschic exploding you with my mind pain#also don’t worry about me lol!! I don’t mean vent art in a negative way- I am good 👍👍#I don’t like to typically call things ‘vent art’ because everything I make contains some part of my soul#but the phrase ‘the artists barely disguised vent art’ kept appearing in my head and was too funny not to included hehe#anyways hashtags go brrrrr#castoff#Frankie castoff#Frankie#castoff comic#castoff fanart#castoff webcomic#digital art#Cata’s art stuff
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again and again, fandoms do this same shit dude. points to my very large 'you can be pissed at a characters actions and not really like them as a person and still enjoy their character without having to excuse what they're doing' sign. like I was just dealing with this shit with Curly Mouthwashing and now its the same thing with Cait Arcane.
watching the first 3 eps, she was legitimately pissing me off. its supposed to. media is supposed to make you FEEL things and convey a message. I love Caits character a lot and really enjoy her writing, but people legitimately just going 'yass get ur revenge girl, reasonable crashout' is hurting my fucking brain.
Like do you not understand that Vi's parents dying due to unreconciled oppression from enforcers is not the same thing at all as Cait's parent (the. oppressor.) being killed in rebellion ?? and Cait comparing those two things and acting like how she is now is fucking ridiculous. and her trying to mold Vi into someone 'civil' because shes 'not like those other filthy stupid undercity dwellers' is fucked up and toxic.
Does it make sense for her character? Yes! Did I enjoy the writing? YES. And I hope they don't backtrack and just magically fix things because i love the tension and the angst. But its fucking stupid and she pisses me off. That doesn't mean I 'cant handle' her character. She's just becoming an antagonist. Like oh my god, can people stop just blindly standing by every single decision a character they like does and try to excuse it all? characters being morally grey makes them interesting, don't piss me off.
#it was the same thing with stanford too#people kept being like 'wow youre being so mean to him :( do you even like him?“#newsflash. hes a character and he cant hear me. he wont feel bad that im calling him a dick. like grow up#i love stanford more than anything he just is a dickbag#my head is going to explode#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane s2#arcane s2 spoilers#vi arcane#caitlyn arcane#cait arcane
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i think about this scene constantly
#the fact they met when they were both at their most vulnerable n found comfort in each other im gonna explode#like GOSH the fact it was azi who decided to hug ursula even tho she just met her.......#her starting off as someone who always kept to herself and was closed off to others#to deciding to do that likeee i dont even know how to explain it properly but it makes me insane AZI MY BELOVED#n ursula being taken off guard by it at first but immediately hugging back like you can tell she needed that so so bad oughh💔💔#scavengers reign#azi scavengers reign#ursula scavengers reign#also doesnt ursula's hand kind of lingers when azi lets go off it after they start walking..? i might be crazy
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A Journey To Love 一念关山 | Episode 24
#userdramas#cdramasource#a journey to love#cdramaedit#liu yuning#liu shishi#ren ruyi#ning yuanzhou#ajourneytoloveedit#*mine#while i was watching i kept thinking wow i need to make gifs#and now that i have files i forgot everything i wanted to gif#anyway i love them so much i'm going to explode
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local cat gets hurt and stresses the fuck out of their lamb
+ the thing im writing
#he got uuh. shot by a follower this is why his face is like that#hes fine#he was just out for some days ans their nerves got frayed beyond reason#lamb is gonna 'exile' the follower and by that they mean hes gonna get set loose for narinder to hunt down once hes feeling better#freaks. the both of them i hope they explode#they barely kept leshy and heket from tearing him (the follower) apart limb from limb btw and i find it funny#siblings <33#after working on Actual Stuff this feels so good lets fucking goooo#forgive the sketches i needed to get it out of my brain and fast#cotl#pebbles (me) ramblers#my art#true devotion#narilamb#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#narinder x lamb#tw skull#?#sure lets go with it#lambert#i need a name for my au so bad hh#cotl art#cotl fanart
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#ryo aoki#masato arakawa#snap sketches#for once Not a commission i just. literally have not drawn anything for myself all month#and im going to explode if i dont grant myself ONE (1) government mandated break#also i was compelled. images kept attacking me#have to remind people that i still do in fact like rgg and i am still mentally ill#ok im gonnatry to finish one of my like. ninety comms tonight so i can finally get more time to draw more stupid shit like this BYE
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i was babysitting a 3rd grader and i fell making a fort and he went “bruh ur so sigma” and i was like 🤨 and he then went “….no it’s actually a good thing it means ur cool”
moral of the story i am so cool to a 3rd grade boy that he had to
1. say out loud that i was cool
2. pretend he wasn’t saying i was cool cause that’s embarrassing(?)
3. thought i was SO cool that he needed to rectify and inform me he was actually saying i was cool
#random#i knew zero (0) slang and he kept using it all#he’d be like ok we’ll do u go to (insert highschool here)#and i’d be like well i’m 22 not 16 so uh no#and he went YOURE A REAL LIFE ASULT NOT A KID??#yea dude i am grown actually#then he just stars in his eyes went; does that mean you go to COLLEGE??#i said yes and he nearly exploded he thought that was the coolest of the cool#also i said i liked babysitting him and he actually got confused and went uh u like babysitting?#and here is where i was like okay obviously they are only babysat by teens who need cash#and i was like well duh dude if i didn’t like babysitting that means i wouldn’t like hanging here with you rn#and he went ..u like hanging out with us? huh. that’s so sigma dawg#and i went yes okay darling now put ur bonnet back in and go to bed pls it’s 11 pm
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what if we were in a zombie apocalypse but we fell in love and piss nick the fuck out
#yes im talking about left 4 dead 2 LOLLLLLLLLLL#don't get me wrong i fucking love nick i just know he's going to hate it WLWKAKSJSJEJAKAK call me and ellis a liability WIQKALAKAKAK#ive been playing a lot of l4d2 i miss EVERYONE. i miss the campaigns UGH#ellis is currently blorbo to me. i just think making an oc to twirl around with him would make little jil so happy because she liked him sm#little jil likes him so much she shipped zellis to death and projected hard on zoey 💚💚💚💚 WAKHWJAA someone tell her about yumeshipping!!!#all of my friends have their token yeehaw hillbilly kinda guy ITS MY TUUUURRNNNNNNNNNNNN#well hes from georgia and he has a really cute southern accent#i remember nick mockingly calling him AEEYLIS with the accent#~ rambling#careful. i might explode about l4d2. i know too much about this game and kept it to myself because nobody knew wadahell am sayin /silly
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Hi @gingerandcelery my good friend and brother in Mir @gingerandcelery! I was your gifter this year!
I made you a fic with accompanying art entitled "Time After Time". It’s about Amir getting into an unfortunately large shenanigan — one that involves the delicate concept of time. Fortunately, some of your favorite Jake and Amir characters might be able to help... if he'll let them, that is.
Full arts in better quality under the cut because AO3's embed feature is horrendous with quality. Fair warning though, you might want to look at these after you read the fic, since they are beats in the story and thus spoilers!
Hope you like it and happy holidays to you :)!!!
#jamir#mirmir#gullieship#jakey#my art#fic#my fic#gift exchange#janda gift exchange#i had SO much fun going insane over this. like a ridiculous amount of fun#hehe i want to attack u personally. since u make such awesome edits and fics that attack me personallly#and ur super niceys to me.#so there. get exploded :)#i did NOT anticipate that this was going to be like 12k words. i really didn't. i thought i would do one art#but then....... it kept GOING so i had to do moRe#its weird iim not used to writing with old era voice#i still cant believe i somehow managed to tie it into canon in a way that actually makes sense skgmsgsdfsdf#anyways. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA GIFTS#screams loudly
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hey
#so i've been dealing with some irl stuff recently#nothing too bad. it was just really frustrating and exhausting for me. and really putting a damper on my mood and my art#and i'm sorry if i've been acting a little weird or not saying too much or anything#or if i've been kinda inactive for the past few days#but i'll be okay!#i just wanted to let you guys know what's been kinda going on#i'm slowly working on something really sweet involving Hugo and Noa. so that's been making me feel better#i need something happy and soft between them lol#also! I've been playing The Quarry recently!#the writing is kinda stupid and almost all of the characters act like they don't have a brain. but that's what makes it so fun!#and i'm pretty sure the devs did that intentionally. to make it seem more like a campy monster flick#i'm really enjoying it so far! the werewolves are really cool!#also it's really funny to me how they just pop like balloons whenever they're transforming#i thought it was gonna be a slow transformation. but no. their skin just immediately explodes off#and then they somehow get it all back when they turn back into humans? idk how that works but it's pretty rad#also also! the thing with the tarot cards is really cool!#i missed a lot in the beginning because i didn't know what i was looking for#and the fortune teller lady in between chapters kept getting mad at me for not finding any#but i eventually started to get it! when the game decided to really put one in my face in chapter 3 lol#and the thing with the tarot cards representing the different characters in the game got me thinking about what card Noa would probably be#i think Seven of Swords would be right up her alley#because it's associated with deception. dishonesty. betrayal. and acting strategically#and it could also signify self-deception and confessions. which is all very true for her character#aaahh now i wanna make a tarot card design for her!#but that's an idea for another day#anyway sorry for sorta rambling a bit#i hope you all are doing okay
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So I’m on the third season of downton abbey. I’ve scrolled through the tag. I’ve gotten a couple things spoiled. I assumed I would have seen any posts about major character death.
Sybil’s death took me COMPLETELY off guard what the FUCK. I was crying so hard it’s not even funny I fully could not see my screen at points.
#I DIDNT EVEN STOP CRYING AFTERWARDS THEH JUST KEPT HITTING ME#Cora talking by her bedside and saying ‘you’ll a always be my baby’ SOBBING#Mary and Edith hugging. Tom holding the baby. I am going to explode#THE SERVANTS REACTION. THOMAS ACTUALLY CRYING THE WAY HE WAS SO GENIUNE WHEN HE SAID HE LIKED SYBIL EARLIER#I was so sad I geniunelh got distracted from Thomas and jimmy being homosexual#what the fuck yall#was that really necessary the drama around the baby could have been like. Tom wants her to be catholic. they don’t want to live at downton.#WAS RHIS NECESSARY#downton abbey
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i am GENUINELY SHELLSHOCKED at the new inanimate insanity episode
it was amazing???? SO. GOOD???
also taco was there so thats always a win
but yeah i giggled and screamed and jawdropped to my heart's content i had a great time
#i SWEAR i SWEAR I SWEAR I SWEAR THIS EPISODE WAS SO FAMILIAR#let me yap a bit please#i have a very VERY faint memory of a bit of an episode from a show#i dont know what show but it was a show#and there was this researcher guy and the whole plot was that people were randomly dropping dead#(LIKE THE II EPISODE)#and the thing was was killing them could only be seen by the person about to die#(DO YOU SEE THIS???)#the people described the weird entity as like a mummy walking towards them and when 30(?) seconds had passed they instantly died#so the mummy ends up going after the researcher and in the limited time he has to live he configures all the info they have on the entity#and he realized that its like a soldier from a war long ended kept alive by machines(?????) inside of it#and the way he lives is by surrendering to it and allowing it to pass on#AND 3GS SAID SOMETHING ABOUT NEEDING TO SURRENDER THE MISSION#the little evil phone creature i feel like also kind of died while in the process of completing a mission to it kind of makes sense ???#anyways thank you for coming to my yapping session about my very faint memories#explodes#inanimate insanity#ii
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I'ma need someone with some semblance of sanity to remind me to keep track of how many times I tell myself "I can go further"
#I don't babble here very often so I shall change that a little bit#I'm making a 2024 sendoff splatoon video#and it's taken me all month so far#why? because I kept telling myself 'Wait a sec! I have free will! I CAN GO FURTHER!!'#And what started as a simple video with 4 matches that I was really proud of#EXPLODED INTO A WHOLE MESS OF 13#THIS THING WENT FROM LIKE 15 MINUTES TO A WHOLE ASS HOUR#I definitely pushed myself and I can only look in the mirror and ask why#bit off more than I could chew BUT I STARTED BITING THAT MOFO WITH EVERYTHING I HAD#CUSTOM MUSIC EVEN FOR THE WIN POSES#AND TEXT COMMENTARY THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING#WHICH IS A LOT HARDER THAN IT SOUNDS#I am....quite baffled but it's almost done#soon...I shall have my freedom
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