#🦈: vent

[clown-around-and-find-out]

what i've learned thus far in my life is if a neurodivergent person has a personality they're annoying. but also if a neurodivergent person doesnt have a personality they're annoying. if a neurodivergent person acts how people want them to they're annoying. and if a neurodivergent person doesnt act how people want them to... they're annoying. basically, i've learned that as long as you're neurodivergent somebody will take issue with you, find you annoying, say you're too much or not enough.

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD culture is

I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU but God I could never. You are innocent and I am a dirty beastly monstrous thing. And I'm sorry. And I loved you once. Even stars collapse and become supernovae or blackholes.

—🐾🦈

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[shark-bytee]

i feel this needs to be said.

the whole situation right now is handled so incredibly poorly, not just by the sc mods, but EVERYONE.

emily is a fucking weirdo. sc mods should have handled that as soon as it was brought up. it was handled poorly.

however. you can't just post a callout without. evidence. you need to actually have evidence at the start or who is going to believe you?

to the people who say "don't harass the mods" and then have tags like "fuck pansear" are being hypocrits. you are also harassing the mods. yes i saw that tag, if you've removed it now. no it's not ok.

to the people who are accusing ALL THE SC MODS of being zoophiles and pedos are fucking crazy. stop. you have evidence against emily. don't accuse the mods about this, especially as you say "ohhh don't harass them."

this whole thing is a mess and could have been handled much better if the sc mods did something first OR a full doc with the evidence was actually posted first.

this community should have been a safe place for everyone. instead it's become a cesspool. i don't wanna be a part of this community anymore.

and i don't think the sc mods are in the right. emily is a fucking weirdo. but. the accusers aren't completely in the right either.

i'm disappointed, frankly, with everyone involved. i have nothing else to say other than do better.

[casp1an-sea]

the second I’m not interacting with people I get so depressed but at the same time I don’t want to interact with people

[candy-cloud-system]

Does anyone else just kinda silently nod and think “me too man..” whenever you see a baby cry in public

Like. I’m not even annoyed by you little guy, if I could I’d be on the floor screaming and crying too

Lowkey jealous

[adoredelora]

Please, I need more cat pictures 🙏🏻.

-🦈.

Here!!!

[water-waker]

Is it normel to not remembr when killing ppl or not. I jist know i did afer missions sometimes, like heres blood on my clooths but i don remember doing anuthin...

[moepoyo]

𓈒⠀⠀𓏸 ⠀@/moepoyo⠀𓇼

∘𖦹↣ poychi or buneyeˏ shi/pyoˏ blk + seasian & othersˏ gmt-4

➥ early 2000s boygirlyˏ acubi × gyaruˏ self proclaimed softgirl bimboy ✿

✿ labels 𖦹 sapphilleanˏ boygirlˏ tfemˏ tmascˏ transsexual manˏ femnullˏ transmascfemˏ transfemneuˏ intersexˏ turigirlˏ lesboyˏ gaybianˏ cistransˏ pan lesbianˏ bipanˏ oriented aroacefluxˏ sapphicˏ achilleanˏ transnullˏ abrosexualˏ bigenderˏ genderfluidˏ demigirlˏ librafemˏ soft nb achilleanˏ soft nb sapphic。

✿ microlabels 𖦹 bat twinkˏ monachoricˏ ingorseamourˏ carobonbonneˏ viscerangliereˏ zombiememoryˏ jesterionetteˏ scholarnosˏ permawoundˏ permabruisedˏ jesterroucheˏ chrevatuillerˏ visanequerieˏ princestickerˏ loser protagonist archetropeˏ slasherval ( all categories )ˏ monaloserˏ monafreakˏ monaweirdoˏ finalboyweirdoˏ fight club gayˏ may add more。

✿ kins / forms 𖦹 puppyboyˏ puppysealˏ capybaraˏ kemonomimiˏ eurasian otterˏ harp seal pupˏ doeˏ reindeerˏ alpacaˏ spanish fighting bullˏ inugamiˏ nekomataˏ pikaˏ sika deerˏ lynxˏ alienˏ vampireˏ dhampirˏ werebeastˏ flying foxˏ standard poodleˏ chinchillaˏ lambˏ otter rexˏ yellow throated martenˏ spotted hyenaˏ african wild dogˏ maned lionessˏ golden tigerˏ blonde raccoonˏ honduran white batˏ vampire batˏ sea bunnyˏ will add more。

✿ fav aesthetics / subcultures 𖦹 cyber y2kˏ acubiˏ cybersigilismˏ acubiˏ coquetteˏ cinnamon girlˏ americanaˏ downtown girlˏ cottagecoreˏ moruteˏ jojifukuˏ gurokawaˏ sceneˏ gothˏ cutecoreˏ cutegore ( nothing irl )ˏ bimbocoreˏ bubblegum coquetteˏ fawncoreˏ dolletteˏ softgirlˏ juminocoreˏ moeˏ moe swagˏ jirai keiˏ hime gyaruˏ kogal gyaruˏ sweet lolitaˏ puppycoreˏ princesscoreˏ weebcoreˏ neetcoreˏ hikkicoreˏ kidcoreˏ nostalgiacoreˏ vaporwaveˏ himekajiˏ gloomy coquetteˏ decoraˏ harajukuˏ mcblingˏ coconut girlˏ frutiger aeroˏ cleancoreˏ barbiecoreˏ heisei retroˏ manba gyaruˏ may add more。

✿ favorite media 𖦹 fight clubˏ the matrixˏ the og screamˏ sawˏ men in blackˏ archerˏ resident evilˏ goosebumpsˏ guardians of the galaxyˏ the witcherˏ texas chainsaw massacreˏ halloweenˏ monster highˏ the witchesˏ hocus pocusˏ supernaturalˏ ghostbustersˏ beetlejuiceˏ nightmare before christmasˏ corpse brideˏ coralineˏ gremlinsˏ breaking badˏ venomˏ jumanjiˏ lady and the trampˏ good omensˏ who framed roger rabbitˏ falloutˏ air buddies franchiseˏ pupstar franchiseˏ my little ponyˏ mean girlsˏ ruby gloomˏ twilight zoneˏ miss peregrine's home for peculiar childrenˏ little shop of horrorsˏ may add more。

✿ alt names 𖦹 lolaˏ lottieˏ honeyˏ chicitaˏ krystalˏ marinaˏ laceyˏ cassieˏ bambiˏ parisˏ dakotaˏ ashleyˏ kandiˏ cloverˏ makoˏ brittneyˏ toriˏ lukaˏ lukalaiˏ

DOB; dec. 13th ↝ DOrB; oct. 30th

face claims ↯ voice claim 🍙 & 🍙

art credit in order; korilovesanrio, qtsin, korilovesanrio, keiiyen, blueberrivv. layout by my okaasan, @anxiousmaid! dividers by cafekitsune, pinned banner by chilumitos, pixel by pepoyo.

[thelightthatruins]

The Things™ my uterus and brain make me go through during my period is insane, like what do you mean I am inadequate and all my loved ones view me as an afterthought like girl you are outta your damn mind !!!

[clown-around-and-find-out]

hi mutuals im back. smiles. sorry for such sporadic activity lately compared to how i usually am ive been going through a lot irl LOL ^^;

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD is[vent, im sorry]

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT

GOD

FUCKING DAMMIT

I was getting better I was getting better I WAS GETTING BETTER WHY

WHY WOULD YOU TEXT ME

WHAT THE FUCK

I WAS TRYING TO BE OK

IM TRYUNG SK HARD TO BE OKAY FUCK YOU FUCK YOU

I JUST WANTED A FRIEND. I JUST WANTED A FRIEND

Everything is going wrong

—🐾🦈

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[shark-bytee]

boy i sure do love fandom drama when i am being actively harrassed at school. so great. makes me feel awesome as a human being. wow. i am a true believer in humanity. anyways i am going to go fuck humanity and feed the crows.

[casp1an-sea]

God I hate feeling so cripplingly lonely all of the time. People can say “oh you just need to get out more” “you should go do something fun” “reach out to your friends” no you don’t get it. I close myself off because I feel so lonely. And yeah doing so probably does not help with the loneliness but I need someone to reach out to me not the other way around. I need to know that someone cares about me that they’re thinking about me. If I do it myself it doesn’t help with the loneliness. Just hanging out with people doesn’t help with The lonelyness it has to mean something. But I can never directly tell people this bc that makes me feel like I’m fishing for it. And maybe I am a little bc I do desperately crave something to help with whatever the fuck is going on with me. But that makes me feel so guilty and god idk. Fuck depression

[candy-cloud-system]

How we stare at our therapist when she tells us we have trauma that is affecting how we react to things. How we stare when she says we’re once again showing symptoms of disorders we have /silly

[alienabductees]

the strongest will lose. your strength will be the gun to your head, the knife to your throat, the poison in your drink. it doesn’t matter how they hurt you, don’t you understand how sad they are about it? they can do whatever they want to you and nobody will ever know but the moment you fight back they will scream your crimes from the highest peak. the knife in your gut is swiftly removed and placed in your hands, your blood smeared on their body. you can explain your pain with eloquent metaphors or in screams and sobs; the outcome is the same. but he’s so much stronger, i could have never hurt him, they will say, and it will be a lie. it will always be a lie but you cannot find the words to defend yourself. the proof is piled up against you

[adoredelora]

What are the names of your two cats? Could we perhaps see a picture? Please?

-🦈

Vivi and Cupid!! I can't find Vivi rn, but here's a photo of Cupid :3