#💜 // - emil vents

[dollkichi]

I feel like I’m too greedy when it comes to others love. It’s never enough, I always want more. I won’t be satiated until I have all of their love. I want someone to love me back the way that I love them. Love me so much that I can’t handle it anymore.

[dollkichi]

Can someone like. Give me a tutorial on how to tear my heart out. Please and thank you!!!

If anyone wants it afterwards, it is up for grabs. First come first serve so be quick!! ♡⸜(˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

[dollkichi]

I like doing things for others. It makes me feel needed. It gives me a purpose. Please use me to your hearts content. Don’t throw me away, I don’t know who I am outside of you!!

[dollkichi]

Growing up with people being obsessive over you from a young age and also being ignored at best or treated harshly at worst by everyone else is a nasty combo. I haven’t ever known normal so I crave the abnormal, it’s the only way that I feel truly loved. (ｰ ｰ;)

[dollkichi]

I dreamt about you again. I wonder if I came back to you, would you react so kindly? …Most likely not. I hope that you’re doing well.

I’m so pathetic

[dollkichi]

Could you tell I was terrified of you by the end of it? You scared me so so much. I was and still am afraid of you yet I think of going back so often. I know better though, whoever is waiting for me isn’t who I’m wanting. The you I dream of, the one that isn’t unnecessarily cruel, is the one I want and even then I just have a constant feeling of dread around that version. You haunt me even in my sleep.

[dollkichi]

General Tags:

#💜 // - emil yaps : exactly what it says, I yap. #💜 // - emil loves : obslove posts, if aimed they will have a tag #💜 // - emil answers : answering my inbox #💜 // - emil reblogs : reblogged posts #💜 // - emil vents : vent posts

About Others:

#💍 // - for better or worse : my platonic wife @rawringzombie, I love you <3 #💖 // - my dearest kitty : one of my best friends and my muse, I absolutely adore you #💚 // - far away friend : I miss you, I wish things had ended differently. #🪦 // - digging up graves : posts about multiple people that I have no contact with anymore.

My Anons:

#🪻 // - 💋 anon #🪻 // - 🍓 anon #🪻 // - 🥥 anon #🪻 // - 👤 anon #🪻 // - 🩷🎮 anon

[dollkichi]

Do you know how terrifying it is to watch your other half warp into something unrecognizable? We no longer fit together.

[dollkichi]

I’d stay within my dreams forever if I could. You’re still there. You’re still you. You didn’t turn into something cruel.