#you cant tell me these kids were mentally healthy

[ttkinnie]

Tormented by the thoughts of Kisaki's possible upbringing. Like you can't tell me a kid who dedicated his entire life to a girl who was kind to him for five seconds was not somewhat neglected. Bullying at school? Absent parents? Like they weren't even at the same school, they went to the same cram school!

From his bedroom, you can tell his family is pretty rich (tons of books and like three pc monitors at thirteen plus gaming console and a TV? Okay dude) so the parents spending all of their time at work is plausible.

Also him at like 11 being all superior thinking he's the smartest guy around= putting all of his value in his intellect -> parents that probably ask for the best results and nothing else?

And the fact that he's so alienated from the other kids even at cram school. There's gotta be some flavour of bullying in there, especially with how common it is in Japan plus with the timeline (the 80s and 90s being the worst in terms of bullying -I have a source for that lmaooo this my researcher bias).

Because I wonder what turned tiny shy Kisaki into a criminal in *checks notes* two years.

[i-cant-sing]

Hmmm I could get tired over any fandom but.... batfam???? Yall would never see me tired of talking about them.

Like think just how absolutely batshit crazy they'd go if reader fractures her limb or something. Maybe reader like slips off the stairs or falls from a swing or something, and the batfam- they have to watch it all happen in slow motion, and nothing- there's absolutely nothing they can do to help you. It's scarring for Dick to watch the color drain from your face as you drip to the ground. It's scarring for Jason to hear the nasty crack as your bone bends in an ugly handle. It's scarring for Tim to hear you scream in pain. It's scarring for Damian to see the blood pour out of your body. And it's oh so heart wrenching for Bruce to hear you cry into his chest as he carries you to Alfred to get your cast done.... how hopeless he felt, unable to soothe your pain.

But things only seem to go even more downhill from there. As you recover, the family has silently decided to double down on their paranoia and be even more coddling and protective of you. You wanna walk down the stairs? Nope, here comes big bro Jason to hold your hand- or better yet, carry you around in his arms. Why risk you even tripping over air?

Wanna get something from the top shelf? Stand back, dont need the shelf or something heavy falling over your head and cracking your skull open. Let Dick pull the cookie jar down for you- but why are you even eating cookies this late???? You need to get some healthy nutrients in you, lest you should have weak frail bones. Heres your broccoli.

Wanna play video games or go on socials? Well, no more! Dont need you getting influenced by the violent storylines and bad news from around the world- Tim wouldnt your mental health to be affected. If you really want, you can use his laptop... under his supervision.

What the fuck do you think youre doing staying up past your bedtime? What do you mean youre too old to have a bedtime???? Get your ass back in bed before Damian drags you back like a gremlin and REMINDS you of the bedtime he has set for YOU, because he doesnt need you becoming an insomniac and turning insane. He will not be the one to bust you out of Arkham asylum (he absolutely would, but hed be complaining all the way) just because you decided you didnt need your 10 hours of sleep!

Wanna go to your therapist? Well, you cant cause he suddenly moved far away and every other therapist in gotham is a maniac in disguise. Bruce doesnt get why you cant just talk to him about your feelings??? Dont you trust him? Your dear father, the very man whod hold you in his arms and shield you from the scary lightening when you were young? The very man who you would ramble on to about everything and anything, including tattling on Damian locking you in his room and throwing a tantrum when Jason took you away when you were all kids? You can tell him anything sweetie, even if you wanna bitch about the batfam... it'll hurt a bit, but hed be okay (absolutely has big sad eyes when you tell him how everyones just too suffocating for you and you wanna leave them)

[candysharkart]

hi would u be willing to talk more ab ur belcher hcs that theyre all schizoaffective? :]

i can defs try! i cant promise i have really anything "smart" or insightful to say, cuz my husband and i just kinda draw from our own experiences :o

(if u are reading this and dont know what schizoaffective disorder is, im writing this w/ the definition of "a combination of schizophrenic symptoms and mood disorder symptoms like major depressive and bipolar disorder")

bob has felt the most schiz to us from the start, he's got his voices, which feel way more like he's acting as a mouthpiece for the objects he's talking to, rather than him just doing a bit. he knows its not "real" but also. it is to him. (i think hes also had some? hallucinations? but most are drug or stress induced and he also has a lot of cartoon dream sequences so...?) he struggles with paranoia and anxiety, and he's had pretty manic and depressive episodes in the show. i think he tries his best to stay grounded and self-aware with his delusions. he's very skeptical, and gets really irritated by misinformation. (probs also an affect of his autism tbh)

we also have a hc that he's more irritable and negative in the early seasons bc he's on meds that arent a good fit for him. (we dont really have meds hcs other than that. they might not be able to afford them)

linda's symptoms arent as obvious beyond her delusions like the raccoons and the cemetery stuff, but i think she's taught herself to suppress her issues so she could better support gayle who had more disruptive ones. her parents seem like the "stop being mentally ill its annoying" types. she has her own instances of paranoia and anxiety, but she mostly tries to smother and ignore anything negative she feels. VERY manic and impulsive tho. i think she also has some hallucinations in show but im drawing blanks on specifics.....

i would personally say tina is pretty depressive, but she's good at trying to cope in (mostly) healthy ways. her family is a good support system for her! she does have the most instances of visual hallucinations that arent cartoon bits (she seems to have them a lot when shes feeling guilty...) her anxiety and paranoia reminds me a lot of bob but also of gayle. they have similar outburts

gene has the least examples that i can think of.... i think he considers ken to be pretend and is just joking about him being real bc it annoys bob (compared to tina who thinks her horse Jericho is maybe...a little real) but i think he has some other hallucinations tht arent like that. hes surprisingly anti-social! he definitely often views himself as superior to the kids he knows. gets that from his dad lol. and his mania and impulsiveness are very much like linda :) he doesnt have depressive episodes as much as the others, but they hit him really hard :(

and louise! shes paranoid and has lots of aggression issues! to me she is also very depressed. (the puppet ep is esp relatable to me lol........) and she's VERY manic in the ambergris ep! i think she also has a couple instances of voices similar to bob's? but its kinda hard to tell the difference when shes still a kid who plays pretend with her toys. her talking to the taffy dummy feels more like what bob does tho.

i hope? thats the kind of hcs you were talking about? ive been trying to think of the right words for like 3 hours now. im very bad with words and so much of this stuff can also be attributed to other brain stuff, and one person can have a lot going on in one brain! so i hope i dont upset anyone with this post. thank u for ur time :)

[kingcunny]

What's your opinion on Viserys and Otto after the Episode 4 confrontation? There's such a difference between what Viserys says and implies to his face and what he says to Rhaenyra.

When Otto makes his report to Viserys, he immediately clocks what Otto is trying to do. (And makes a clear distinction between Aegon as Otto's blood and Rhaenyra as "mine own." OOP.) And then as he's scolding Rhaenyra, he acts entirely oblivious. "What vulture?" Is he putting on act for Rhaenyra? To counter her trying to put blame on someone other than herself? Is it more conflict avoidance?

And THEN he fires Otto, and he's like, "I think you killed my dad. Or at least you were gleeful at the opportunity his death provided you." There's some deep suspicion and resentment going back yearsss in that conversation that had nothing to do with why Rhaenyra wanted him gone.

oh my god viserys accusing otto of killing his dad makes me INSANE. cause no one wouldve told him that? the fact that we never hear daemon or any other character accuse otto of the same thing means this is a theory viserys came up with on his own, and has been just quietly holding onto all these years. and that theory sounds like the paranoid jealous ramblings of a kid on some “youre not my REAL dad” type shit. like Obviously the man who came in to take his fathers place MUST have killed him to steal his position and power. but viserys was like 24 at the time.

about viserys theory, i believe the unknown is the scariest thing of all. humans have a need to try and make sense of the unsensable. i think viserys theory about baelons death comes from that same place. viserys not understanding how his father could go from “a hale and healthy warrior and dragonrider at the peak of his ability” to so feverish and racked with pain that he cant even get out of bed and finally dying, all in the span of 5 days, is terrifying. he doesnt know what an appendix is, a ‘burst belly’ doesnt mean anything to him (just like his own illness, appendicitis would be both undiagnosable and untreatable in their time) . but poison? treachery? thats simple. thats understandable. he can point at someone and its *their fault* his father is dead.

this doesnt take away from anything ive said about viserys and otto before either. even with the belief that otto mightve killed his dad, what other father figure does he have? baelon is dead, aemon is dead, vaegon doesnt want anything to do with him. jaehaerys is so ill at this point hes calling viserys by the wrong name half the time. otto is the only one he has to cling too, to seek that parental affection and approval from. and after seeing how he takes care of jaehaerys during his final years, and prepares himself for being king, viserys starts to put his resentment on the back burner. otto is just a faithful and loyal servant, he has to be. jaehaerys trusted him after all. viserys was just blinded by grief.

when otto comes to viserys to report what rhaenyra is doing the first thing viserys does is almost engage in a strange game of chicken? like he refuses to accept ottos implications of what rhaenyra and daemon were doing, makes him "speak it, plainly" almost either *daring* him to say it or maybe giving him a chance to back down. and i think this is a part of his conflict aversion, if he can pretend its not real then it isnt. but otto doesnt back down, even when viserys tries to offer the out of "youve been lied too", either because he *is* trying to ruin rhaenyras reputation or because he believes viserys should know the truth. (theres that scene right before this were otto looks very upset. either debating whether or not he should tell viserys or trying to mentally prepare himself for what he knows will be a very difficult conversation? considering ottos conversation with his brother in ep 3, im leaning toward the latter, hes just been given a very real reason to discredit rhaenyra. aside- i would KILL for the rest of the hotd script to be released) its the confirmation that his daughter and brother have betrayed his love and confidence, and ottos refusal to let viserys remain delusional, to speak it into being almost, that upsets him so much. because now he *has* to accept that this is the truth, to deal with each of them, and the knowledge that Someone Else Knows. (both otto AND alicent now) and im wondering if the distinction between "your blood" and "mine own" isnt a freudian slip at this moment, both revealing that he does not view alicents and his children as 'his' and a resurfacing of those old paranoias about ottos ambitions with the new knowledge that otto has been spying on his daughter.

speaking of daemon actually, something interesting when viserys confronts him, he doesnt directly accuse him either. ("my daughter. wont you even deny it?") he tries to offer daemon an out too, for him to offer up some other explanation for what happened last night. but daemon is all too happy to take credit for taking his nieces virginity.

so when viserys finally confronts rhaenyra about it, he doesnt ask her what happened. just implies that he knows. where she challenges him that he hasnt asked her the truth of it, and he replies it doesnt matter what the truth is, only perception, HIS perception. it doesnt matter what really happened now, just what *he* believes is/isnt true. and both otto and daemon have forced him to accept that the truth is that rhaenyra slept with daemon. but he still doesnt directly accuse rhaenyra of this, because even though hes been forced to accept it, hes moved on to the 'covering it up' phase. if he can pretend it didnt happen, then it didnt. daemon is gone, rhaenyra will be married, it didnt happen and even if it did it wont happen again.

i think when rhaenyra calls otto a vulture it takes him aback a bit. cause how many times in those early days, when viserys believed otto was responsible for his fathers death, or at the very least jumped at the opportunity his death provided him, must viserys have thought of otto in the same way? i think he is feigning ignorance here, for two reasons. the first as a way to shift the blame, but not rhaenyras- his own. his own guilt of letting a man who he does not trust to become so close to him. to have allowed himself to become so reliant on someone who does not have his familys best interests at heart. the fact that otto is using him for his own gain, and viserys even suspected him of this and yet let it happen anyway. the second as a similar sort of game he was playing with otto, to see if rhaenyra will confirm his suspicions about otto. to make her 'speak it into being' so to speak. unlike otto however, rhaenyra does not hesitate to accuse him.

and thats why when viserys fires otto, he does not bring up rhaenyra, but instead the thing that originally made him suspicious of otto - his fathers death.

[c-regression]

some more rottmnt headcanons, warnings are next to the numbers. if i missed any tws, tell me.

1.

•when they were younger, splinter went into a severe depression, so raph had to raise his brothers.

•when he first met april, it was weird, since she took on the role of the oldest.

•it was the first time he could be a kid, and just play with his brothers as a brother rather than a parent.

2. (disordered eating & sleeping)

•when donnie gets invested in a project, he'll forget to eat, sleep, and drink water.

•the only thing he consumes is coffee in these periods, causing quite a bit of weight/muscle loss, depending on how long it lasts.

•leo's taken note of this, and has memorised how donnie acts before hyperfixating.

•if he recognises it, he'll go out and buy a case of water and some protein bars, along with vitamins to keep his twin as healthy as he can.

3.

•leo has insomnia, and will often lay awake for hours.

•because of this, mikey picked up the habit of going to him after nightmares, since he was the only one awake, and mikey wasnt in the mood for donnie's infodumping.

•after a particularly hard mission, leo will have his room set up for a 'sleepover', knowing mikey will have a nightmare.

•mikey, in turn, will bring fluffy pajamas, a fairytale book, and melatonin for leo, in an attempt to help him fall asleep.

4.

•raph doubts himself, a lot.

•all of the turtles do, really, but raph's self doubt haunts him.

•he constantly rethinks battles, reminiscing on what he could have done differently, how he couldve protected his brothers, etc etc

•this started the turtle pile tradition after a mission, because as much as leo trusted raph, he didnt want his 'big bro' to be alone in that mental state.

5. (suicide attempt)

•leo will often sacrifice himself, fully expecting to die, with the excuse of it being an impulsive decision.

•when donnie catches onto these patterns of depression and self sacrifice, he questions leo.

•leo ended up breaking down and telling donnie everything, and he wasnt allowed to be alone for a while after that.

6. (meltdown, harmful stim)

•raph is usually the first to notice when donnie is about to have a meltdown.

•having to raise them all, he sort of noted that donnie will start pacing, hitting his leg, and scrunching his eyes before a meltdown.

•it hurts raph so much when he cant do anything as his little brother throws himself against the wall and bruises his head because of another meltdown.

•however, he knows he can help afterwards, by just being there.

7.

•after the krang, draxum had explained to leo that his spine and leg muscles would likely never fully heal, and he may need a cane or wheelchair.

•upon donnie finding out, he begun making a dozen different wheelchair and cane blueprints for his twin to choose from.

•leo was still a bit insecure about the ambulatory wheelchair thing, but hey, the blue chair with jetpacks and purple ribbons was pretty cool!

8.

•casey still sometimes calls leo 'dad', and it breaks everyone every time he does.

•leo's response is never judgy, and he usually doesn't acknowledge it unless casey's talking about his future counterpart, which is when he'll say 'im proud of you, buddy', or something along those lines.

•although casey sr has taken the role of giving her son a childhood he missed out on, leo still has a big part in it, and he knows he'll always be 'dad' to casey jr.

9.

•raph age regresses, and he tends to be pretty insecure about it.

•he was especially embarrassed when mikey had found out; he was supposed to be the 'big brother', the role model!

•but mikey loved the idea of being an older brother for a bit, and took.up the role of sitting raph when he was small.

•it made regressing easier for raph, and gave dr. feelings more coping mechanisms to suggest.

[tragedyofromance]

@woodswit thank you tagging me and yea this is abt me

1. are you named after anyone?

Yes I am, my mother names me after a famous Russian song writer Nikita bogoslovskiy ( not Russian lol so it was that was the reason why) but I like it as it mean victorious, or leader to victory

2. when was the last time you cried?

6 months ago, it's generally a pattern I do one big cry maybe a whole day or whole afternoon just silently im not really a sobber, unless im forced to talk about it then I guess its more obvious that im crying otherwise a watery esque eye my eyes doesn't get red, You really wouldn't have guess anything, which at times can be sucker since if it was a bit more obvious the ppl around me would ask even if i would have denied it. But that would have still felt nice. But since they usually cant tell and is being completely normal i just feel like i should go along with it, and then the next day its over i do try to cey again but i just cant, i always think i cried it out so theres nothing more and then when 6 months comes in the cycle continues. It's not necessarily healthy, but you know what, whatever,

3. do you have kids?

No, and thank God, right now I'm just not in the mental state or maturity level to look after, provide for another human,

In saying this I do want to have a child, 2 :D, but I want to be mentally capable, and have enough finance saved to create the village that my child would have, (baby sitters, night nurse, travel nanny, doula care, my afterbirth message therapy, postpartum in home care helping with cleaning or making meals) though I may not use these services I want money there so that if need it it'll be there in case of post partum depressiob, I work in childcare some parents and colleagues i work with do not have any help, or only grandparent help and that can also be taxing on the parents not necessarily financially. So it can be emotional struggle and which could lead to a strain in the emotional and physical relationship between the couples,, which I see can at times turn into into resentment when you think your partner is not doing enough, or not feeling supported. Which can lead to feeling too overwhelmed and not being able to enjoy being a parent ( like I don't understand why some ppl say have usually boomer grandparents say have back to back children and in the next 5 years it'll be easy and calm like what about during it, and also why do I want to struggle or look back and not have too fond memories like that never made sense 2 me

so yea before having a child I know I want money saved to cover all these for atleast the 8 months before even thinking of a having a child, I mean in my culture grandparents will look after and stay with with with mother for atleast 6 months to look after both child and mum but still for safety sake.

This was a really long statement lol

4. what sports do you play/have played?

Hockey, netball, tag rugby

5. do you use sarcasm?

Yup. It's the best

6. what's the first thing you notice about people? Whether or not they're performing or being genuine.

7. what’s your eye color? Brown

8. scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings get nightmares

9. any talents? Artistic creations, and cooking I'm very good :D

10. where were you born? Kuwait

11. what are your hobbies? Social media, sculpting with, creating art in many different ways, music i can literally drive for hours, just before reaching home i go the longest way possible, i also enjoy going for a walk when its windy for an hour or more, i want to do wood carving, and forging a knife, and learning to sow and create beautiful clothing

12. do you have any pets? Yep had two and one died

13. how tall are you? 5'3

14. favorite subject in school? History

15. dream job? Teacher for right now, im working on it now, and possibly a professer in the future

Tagging my mutuals i wanna know

@qinaliel @riahchan @trinuviel @tuesmonoxymore @inlovewithastark @tiny-little-bird @timeforwolvies @tubbylita @nutellaninja0001 @thelawyerthatwaspromised @fedonciadale @ben-barnes-is-my-husband @mediiciis @israfel00 @rissa-rey @yol101 @kitnjon

[agentkikirogers]

Mentions of implied rape sayings and well ableism of course.

I went to a "doctor" yesterday and we were talking about other amputee patients they had. They mentioned one who had cancer out of nowhere and lost both legs above the knee. He said the man was very healthy and would do marathons and had a beautiful fiance. He expressed sympathy for the fiance on how "tough it'll be for her". Um, for her? Yeah sure all parties will deal with what happened but the man is the biggest focal point.

He mentioned another man this one in his 70s and married to his wife for a long time until he lost his leg and she left him. The elder said he couldn't blame her.

Being on dating sites are hard too after a disability in my opinion. People constantly tell me "I don't need anyone to be happy". Okay so why do YOU have someone? That line hits different when you are disabled. Another is "I see tons of disabled folks on tv/YouTube that are married or have kids you can too!" Or suggest you should date another (same or similar) disabled person.

So you go on sites. Now I have more than just a leg loss so there's other things to disclose and talk about. Unfortunately I have alot of health issues on top of being an amputee. Nevertheless people are nice but no bite. People look at you different and treat you lesser than an abled bodied person.

"Man you must be easier to access now without legs" or "you cant run away from anyone now thats the perfect woman" is not a compliment but extremely rape vibes. There's fetishers too. My friends have them often I've encounter a few but it's uncomfortable. Asking to do things with our "stumps" (hate that word but) is really creepy. Why would you want someone to not escape? "Can you have sex still if you are disabled?" For most of us, yeah. Also why is it a burden to date us? Look at Shane and Hannah. Why do people assume someone is dating us for money or other nefarious reasons? Interabled relationships do happen and CAN last. Some of us do need a caregiver and sometimes our partner can take care of us but still be with us.

For me I don't need a caregiver so someone wouldn't really have to take care of me. The only thing I would neeed help with is outdoor chores or things requiring ladders. I wouldn't say dating somebody that is disabled is a burden there's a lot of situations that you might have to deal with when it comes to their mental health if anything or just the physical limitations but even dating another abled person comes with limitations and dealing with hardships so we're just similar in that aspect.

I would say that dating disabled in the gay community is harder than in the straight community in my opinion just from stories that I've heard from other queer folk about it and I can see why it would be and it sucks that it would happen more in that Community than a straight Community you would think that we would be more open and accepting of others that are different than the societal "Norm".

What are you thoughts? Disabled or abled comments are encouraged.

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AU: Dean & his ducklings. After Dean gets called to the principal´s office to pick up the ducklings:

(Dean arriving at the school and seeing the ducklings seating in front of the principal´s offive)

Dean:...

Claire:...

Emma:...

Jesse:...

Kaia:...

Alex:...

Krissy:..

Bobby John:...

Jack, waving: Hello, Dean!

Dean: Hi, Jack. How are you? I was fine until I got three panic calls from your principal asking me to come pick up 7 of my kids. So would anyone like to tell me why I got said calls from your principal and why I had to plead for him not to expel 5 of you?

(cue ducklings talking all at once)

Dean, exasperated: Enough!!! One at the time. Emma, you start

Emma: I plead the fifth?

Dean: Cute, but no. One of you will tell me what happened or else...

Claire, mocking: Or else what? You will ground us?

Dean: Worse. I will sinc Sam at all of you and make you take 6 months of his “healthy emotions” classes

Krissy, horrified: You wouldnt

Kaia: You cant

Dean: I can and I will, unless somebody tells me what happened

Bobby John: They called you because I fell asleep at class. Again. The others got into a fight

Jesse: Snitch

Bobby John: I already suffered three of Sam´s classes, at this point is everybody for themselves

Alex: Harsh but fair

Dean: I will ask again, why did you start a fight?

Kaia, blurting: We didnt have a choice, they were bothering Jack

Claire: Some assholes where insulting and bothering Jack, so we told them to knock it off 

Emma: But they wouldnt listen and we decided to teach them why you shouldnt mess with one of us

Alex: Technically that was only Claire, Emma, Krissy and I

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I love the posts about Castiel loving bees and I just had this random idea that Jimmy was allergic to bees, of course this doesnt affect Cas until he is human, then he learns it the hard way and Dean has to take him to the hospital so the doctors can  treat Cas´ anaphylactic shock:

Cas, in the Impala with Dean after being released from the hospital: If I had a coin for everytime that I loved something so much that almost killed me, I will have two coins, which isnt a lot, but its curious that it happened twice.

Dean, trying to keep conversation: Relax, buddy, you will be fine. So besides bees, what is the other thing that you love so much that almost killed you?

Cas, with no filter: You, obviously.

*Cue Dean seering the Impala´s wheel and almost crashing into a tree. To this day they deny that this is how they got together*

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So I had this thought about that when the justice league figures out Billy´s identity there is a big fight about who is going to be his mentor, the biggest contestants being Batman and Superman, at the end they had to make a compromise and now Billy is part of both the superfam and the batfam

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Dean, Cas and Charlie at a party

Random guy: What a beautiful lady

Charlie: Thanks

Random guy: Now, which one of you fine gentleman is third wheeling for this beautiful lady?

Charlie: That would be the beautiful lady

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AU: Where nobody but the Winchesters, Cas and Jack know that Lucifer is Jack´s bio dad, so whenever they met someone they know, everyone gives Cas and Dean a second glance before Dean tells them that he is not Jack´s bio dad. Nobody believes him though, especially since in here Cas and Dean are dating (that was after Jack was born not that anyone believes them either). Also ignoring canon they end up resucitating Bobby:

Bobby: Well, boy, I am glad you finally get your head out of your ass and get together with Cas, the kid is a surprise though

Dean: Yeah thats... Wait a minute, I am not Jack´s bio dad, why does everyone keep thinking that, Sam, tell them 

Sam, teasing: I dont know, I feel like I have a shortage of  memories of those months

Dean: No, just no. How would that even work?

Cas: Well, actually Dean, since I am an Angel of the Lord I could leave a little bit of grace behind when we...

Dean, putting a hand over Cas´ mouth: Okay, stop, that is not what happened and you know it

(Disbelief noices from the peanut gallery)

Dean: Guys, you believe me right? Guys? Alright whoever thinks that Jack is Cas and I biological son raise you hand

Bobby: *raises hand*

Jody:  *raises hand*

Donna: *raises hand*

Claire: *raises hand*

Rowena: *raises hand*

Crowley: *raises hand*

Garth: * enthusiastically raises hand*

Dean: ....

Dean, facepalming: Jack put your hand down

Jack: *Slowly lowering his hand*

Jack: But you are my father Dean and I love you and Castiel, you are the best parents anyone can ask for

Dean, crying: Okay *Hugs Jack*

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[helpformylove]

I'm worried my girlfriend is being abused.

Hi, i've made a new blog for this post as I don't want to share too much personal information.

for a bit of backstory, this post is about my gf, 14mtf, not me, as you can see by the title. she's not allowed to use social media and i'm concerned for her well being. some details may be inaccurate or vague but this is just from what i know.

at the surface she has pretty basic strict parents. can't close her bedroom door, cant use social media or download too many things on her phone, phone is heavily monitored, etc.

first issue i'll talk about mainly revolves around their impacts on her mental health. first off, as i stated before, she's trans. also bi. they're homo- and transphobic trumpies. not off to a great start. she has a younger sister who's 9 and the favorite child. her sis asks for something? no doubt she'll get it. she asks for smth? 50/50. favoritism is bad in general but it's just too much. hard to describe but it's wayy too obvious to say the least. it seems like they hate her. they yell a lot too. the slightest mistake will result in a harsh scolding, even if it's just something like forgetting to do the dishes. horrible for a kids mental health.

now, the physical stuff. the thing that has recently made me so concerned that i decided to make this post. for starters, my gf has not been taken to the dentist in years. she said she probably has a cavity and it hurts. not good. next, the food she's given. breakfast and lunch are always "find something" and during school, she buys lunch from there. for dinner, it seems to be the same thing or fast food most of the time. rarely eating out somewhere good or homemade food. meals usually include cereal, little bites muffins, bagel bites, pizza rolls, or snacks. not nutritious at all. now we'll talk about frequency and amounts of food. they tell her to stop eating so much. she is very skinny, not quite underweight though, has a bmi of 17.6. i feel like telling someone who's already built like a skeleton and trying to eat a healthy amount to stop eating isn't the best course of action?? especially when it's already obvious how much you eat fast food (gfs words, not mine). she's also yelled at whenever she complains about hunger or tries to go against this. last week my gfs parents didn't order groceries for days. she said she was struggling to find food in the house for about 3 days. when she finally got groceries, the only food she had to eat was white cheddar popcorn. not good in the long run. today, there were people coming to install lights in the cabinets. she wasn't allowed to go downstairs or eat while they were there, meaning she didn't get food for the whole day until around 2 pm. similar is said for when the family's cleaning lady comes by every other week, not allowed to get in her way. before she ate today, she said she was starting to shake, couldn't stand for long, could hardly move herself, was in pain, and barely had any energy.

there is obviously an issue here and i'm not sure how to deal with it. i don't want her to deal with this until she's able to move out but i don't know what would be the best course of action. i'm worried about her. If you don't have advice, the least you could do is reblog.

i don't want to seem so desperate but i really am. it feels like things keep getting worse for her and i don't want it to get too bad.

thank you so much for your time. if any more information is needed for a solution please tell me and i will ask my girlfriend about it. thank you again.

[candle-wax-and-polariods]

I think the reason i can do it with a broken heart is one of my favorites is because it essentially is what cheer was for me. i had to be a real tough kid who handled her shit because you cant cry at the gym (side note suppressing my tears is now an automatic response and it has to be rlly bad for me to cry now), i faked it till i made it, it was essentially lights camera bitch smile even when you want to die (lights as in stage lights, camera as in action shots, and bitch smile because i would always tell myself that exact thing in my head before my teams set), all the pieces of me shattered while the coaches kept demanding more, i was hitting my “marks”, i was so unhealthy that i had to pretend like every day was my birthday otherwise i wouldn’t be able to get out of bed, i cried alot on the way home from practice but i was so productive, i ignored crucial red flags that i wasn’t in a healthy environment, i was sure i could pass their “tests” (spoiler i couldn’t i was never enough for my coaches), and i was miserable but nobody even knew. thats not to say i only had bad experiences because i had good ones (granted mostly towards the end after going to a healthier gym environment) but i had good memories at that gym that i actually still cling onto. i remember messing around with my teammates that actually were nice to me (didn’t have alot) before warmups at a comp, i remember the prayer circles that we had, i remember giving and receiving pep talks before going onto mat, i remember what it felt like to hit 0 at big events, i remember doing one girls mom doing my hair (that girls now my closest friend btw) i remember the first time i didn’t have to actively try to hide my sexuality from my teammates, i remember the conversations with my flyers before practice and how fun said conversations were. i will always hold onto those memories even if the sport fucked me up mentally

[tomato-puppy]

reading about other people's cute relationship moments is truly painful.

like, i stopped caring about being in any kind of commited relationship after the disaster that was year 2018 for me. It was really like... I just lost any conviction that this was a situation that works out well for me. It's obvious I'm never in the headspace where I can take care of other people anymore, that I'm really not always emotionally present and that I often don't want to be physically present. I just wanted to dedicate any of the energy I had to try to make my own life better.

But it was too late. I was spiraling out of control and then in 2019, bang, burnout, completely fucking dysfunctional, lost all objectivity and mental stability. And it's only moderately improved since. and with how hard the road has been to recover, and with the weird relationship that happened between me and my last ex, I just kind of stopped thinking about it. Like, there was no more future for me to look forward to. I didn't matter if anyone would or wouldn't be in it.

Now I'm contemplating my failure to properly take care of my needs or to give life to any of my aspirations. I succeeded in becoming just functional enough to be exploitable in the workforce. Nothing else. And having lost whatever I had going for me before 2019, being well enough to want to socialize but having no ability to do so, my thoughts come back to the whole relationship/partnership thing.

It's lost to me. Just like my ability to be creative, and my sense of wonder that I still had bits and pieces of. I'm not a person I would have dated, or befriended. Perhaps I would have wanted to out of pity, but relationships built on pitying the other are not a healthy or fulfilling thing.

Yeah thats the word - fulfilling. I think all relationships fulfill some kind of need or desire or yearning or whatever. And I've nothing to give to anyone. I don't even have anything to give myself.

Now that I'm this broken, I find myself yearning for another. Some kind of closeness, Intimacy, familiarity. Tell me about your day, about the things that excite you, that drive you. Tell me the things that hurt or scare you. Be yourself with me so that I can be myself with y-

wait. no. cant do that, remember? how can I be myself if I'm not sure who that person is, and when I do know, my reaction to this guy is to hate him with a visceral and violent rage filling my lungs? Is this the person you want others to meet?? is this who you secretly hope someone might fall in love with?! LMAO you're pathetic. You can't remember who you were before anymore, and you've no idea who you'd want to be... you don't even know what to call yourself. you literally don't have a name anymore, remember? you took it off because it didn't fit well, like all these other skins I ts you've worn in the past....

who are you? who is this looking back from the mirror? who is it that you think you could be in other people's lives?

nobody is going to infodump to you. nobody is going to kiss you. nobody will cry on your shoulder. nobody to laugh with. because you're nobody in other's lives. you took this away from yourself.

go on. Go to the bathroom. turn the lights off. Look into the glass. DON'T. LOOK. AWAY. lock your gaze with it. remember when you were a kid and you would get lost staring into the eyes of dogs and cats? remember that one dog? remember the feeling you got when it felt like you were falling from up higu into a dark pit inside her pupils??? this is it. this is what you're looking it. you made yourself this. the thing staring at you from the mirror is the creature you wanted to be all those years ago. you made it, Vlad. why aren't you glad? why aren't you happy?? is it because you didn't think about how stripping yourself of the things you claimed tainted you, you would also tear away the distinction between it and you???

it's too bad. this thing looking at you, you could lose yourself in it's eyes. Just like that dog all those years ago. you're so much alike now. only the thing you created is hostile to you and you're stuck here alone with it... and you cannot have anyone come over because you're afraid that they will see it too

you will watch other people live the lives you dreamt you could before you took an axe to the life you've built by then. you will suffer because you cannot reach out and touch the humanity you long for. you will wither away and die in solitude because you cannot break out of this cycle. but hey, you're not all alone.

this thing will be in here with you, until the end.

[peachyproserpina]

its literally a rant that i need to post somewhere so im not blowing up peoples DMs with this bullshit please scroll past.

I wish I could just exist and have it not be exhausting or exist in a way that I don't have to cope in such an unhealthy way. fuckin tiktok has been nothing but like AuDHD and like slf help shit and its making me realize im older then i ever thought id get to. a whole fuckin 12 years after the fact and my healing is up to me and just UGH. its alot. im also having a whole thing about being stuck working and never able to fully enjoy myself due to the crush weight of being in the US and im gonna try to put myself out there this weekend at the bars / parties im going to have to deal with the constant self rejection and the recjection from others and im not like SUPER ready for that again. I jsut think about the dude who told me I was coming on too strong for asking him out, then as my friend is cursing him out he fucking asked her out infront of me. That sounds so dumb and middle school but i just havent been able to stop thinking about it. He saw me too.

I don't register as a person to so many people here. I hate it. no its obviously a me thing. if i wasnt so fucked up and fat people would like me. I know I have been talking about this and myself all day and im sick of thinking about myself but i cant stop. and legit ive just been crying all day because like im responible for my own healing even though i wasn't responsible for getting hurt in the first place and i just hate it. I also know I need to take steps to really take care of myself and better myself so I can be a good partner and a good parent but shits hard. and the worst part is i know im so exhausting and all i do is complain about my situation like im not the one responsible for gettting myself into it. and all i do is bitch and whine but take not action and i hate it so i cant imagine how yall feel. I just I don't know. It's this constant battle of "I have to change the way I think about myself because this isn't healthy" and "this is litterally who you are" and im so exhausted all the time. ive burnt out my FAWN response and I just don't feel like I've been giving those around the love and attentiveness they deserve from me and I hate that most of all I think. It's so hard to actively listen and i used to be able to be so engaged and attentive and I don't know what happened other then getting exhausted. Everyone deserves so much more from me but I can't give it. And I really just feel like all I do is talk about myself and my issues and i hate it. I also just became socially aware earlier this year and my whole childhood has changed. I was so used to people abusing/beating/yelling at me or directly telling me that they don't like me as I was growing up that all those little like bullying behaviors and like things never clicked in my mind that they were malicious until this year. I know it doesn't matter and it shouldn't impact me as much as it does specially considering this shit was like 20 years ago but I dont know. I grew up believing people liked me and now I'm finding out that people didn't actually like me. It's just jarring and it;s so dumb. Plus its been feeding back into my life now. I am so painfully socially aware of myself that I don't want to leave the house.

I dont want to meet new people because they are just going be mean and cruel to me and I wont know it. And again ignorance is bliss and like i wish i still was unaware. and i know this has just got to be some kind of mental health issue. Its anxeity or something making me feel like this and like I know i shouldn't care what others think of me. But I also want to just like... date and go out and have fun and whatnot. I feel like in order to do that you have to care about what people think of you in some capacity. I don't know. life is hard. this is too hard. I'm not gonna find someone to have a family with and im pretty sure im infertile so i cant have kids anyway. so like whats the point. Might as well waste my life away on the internet and just..... be that old office lady who never had kids or got married. and shes great at work, so kind and nice, and it just makes you sit there and think 'what is wrong with her.' like there has to be something so broken and fucked up with her that she can keep a job for 30 years but no one wants to live with her. thats who I am. I'm not ready to accept that fate because I dont WANT to be that person but I am. I might as well try to fuck around and get some dating in before it's too late for me. this was stupid. I shouldn't post it but im going to. in some fucked up hope that this will fix me. When the only thing that would fix me is losing 200 pounds and getting some normal fuckin hobbies.

[spiderling-space]

Hey so this thought has been on my mind for like ages and I think that you'd be able to write a headcanon about it in a wonderful way, so I'm presenting this idea to you hehe ( I love ur blog so so so much btw!)

So let's say that whatever miracles of seven happened, that Yuu overblots. Being constantly pushed around by other students by being magicless, solving the idiot trio's problems, trying to survive overblots and dealing with Crowley's neglectful ass cheeks sure is not easy. With all the piled and bottled up negative emotions, Yuu like the previous boys, overblots. Yuu wasn't that hard to defeat cuz you know, they're magicless, but the twst boys did struggle and Yuu's quite the challenge too. So what if, after Yuu's overblot, they had a full on mental breakdown. Not like crying mental breakdown, they're full on SCREAMING, their voice are cracking too, and very painful to hear. They started to unconsciously harm themselves so they have to be tied down to prevent to hurt themselves further. How would the dormleaders react to that?

(Sorry for my English and if I ever break a rule, it's OK if you decide to not do this too. Btw I got this idea when I watch ATLA aka Aang the last airbender, for reference of the breakdown of Yuu just search "Azula's breakdown" that practically how their breakdown looked like :D)

I cant write headcanons because you basically wrote everything. I will just make comments and additions to this. first I mention the background, secondly Azula’s breakdown so non ATLA watchers can understand a little and lastly, MC having breakdown like Azula. For the record, I could write about ATLA for pages since it is something I love since 2005. LOL This became a bit meta xd

You can join the discord server here 😉🤣

Firstly, the back ground:

I was 7 years old when ATLA started airing. I’d be excited to get back home to watch ATLA after school. Azula’s breakdown was awful back then when I first watch it as a kid. And of course, when they aired the episodes again and again. I rewatched again because I remembered the show being dope when I was in 12th grade which was stress relief while studying for university exams, and then I rewatched last year and even founded a Zutara server. Now I’m getting back to the point. In the last two rewatching, I saw Azula in a different light and her breakdown at the end of the show was understandable. I can recommend some ATLA meta that you might like. 

Secondly, Azula’s breakdown: 

Azula lost everything. In the flashbacks, you saw she was getting along with Zuko, laughing and playing tag until Ozai’s influence on her grew while Ursa showed more affection towards Zuko since Ozai basically hated Zuko. These two triggered each other and it grew like snowball effect which came to the point that Ozai-Azula and Ursa-Zuko. She didn’t get love from Ozai, she was just a puppet, someone to empower him more, not his daughter meanwhile to Ursa, she was a monster. Azula was 8 years old  Ursa disappeared. Imagine how this would affect the child. After this, she had estranged brother that she was jealous of because of Ursa’s love, a father who manipulated her, and an uncle who was too in pain to do anything and he was more focused on Zuko. She only had Mai and Ty Lee as “friends” but it was toxic and Azula used fear to control them. After Zuko got banished, Mai and Ty Lee went to their own places, leaving Azula alone with Ozai. Just when Zuko got back, she was being like the last times, cruel teasing, Mai and Ty Lee with her. Later, Zuko went away and probably got lectured by Ozai for her lie. Mai and Ty Lee stood against her. In the end, she had no one. Ozai didn’t want her with him either because he only wants power. Being alone drew her to the edge. In the Royal Hair Washing, the girl sje fired had her face. Her self hatred was palpable. She started to reflect this via Ursa, the mother who thought her as monster and didn’t love her like she did Zuko. I believe she would have had breakdown if she actually killed Zuko. At the end, she couldn’t handle it anymore. Being all alone, not being loved, self hatred and finally failing at something which is something she knows Ozai would never tolerate like he did with Zuko. This 14-year-old wouldn’t be able to handle it anymore and had breakdown.

Now last section, MC having breakdown like Azula’s:

Let’s see the things MC went through:

Stripped away from home

Doesn’t have much memory of it

Is thrusted into a world so foreign to them, where everything is foreign to them. There is no familiar thing that can make them recall home or feel at home

Is forced to study things that they have no prior info where the others have prior info and they are expected to ace the tests. This puts on pressure on regular students, can’t imagine the pressure they would feel since they barely understand the magic.

Is treated like trash by everyone at least once. From the first moment they came to Twisted Wonderland, they were like dirtbag. Dire gave them a house where they could get Hepatitis A to C, tetanus, hypothermia and any other disease. They have lived in that state for months and the house barely got fixed by the end of exams. They got belittled or used by almost all characters at least once. Examples: Vil calling them nobody; Azul trying to take the only thing they have from them, the dorm; Riddle calling them uneducated because not having magical parents; Leona acting like they are a toy in E2; Jamil literally manipulating their choice; sometimes NPC characters talked; Cater making them do his work etc.

They are given more than a person should handle. They are not certificated psychologist, they aren’t superhuman, they don’t have super healing... They are just human but has to fight enemies than can easily kill them if it were not the magic users around them. They are given the task of dealing with the emotional breakdown of the other people.

All of these are building up more and more. Maybe they started to get along with people after the belittlement and being used but every new character does this. At one point, it will be too much and they will think “they are only nice to me because I did a favor to them. If not for that, they wouldn’t be nice to me” which would lead to self doubt. When one starts doubting themselves, everything else starts to go down. Also, new characters treating them that way adds salt to the wound.

MC isn’t a professional psychologist. They can’t handle other people’s issues without taking a toll at themselves. They don’t even catch a break between everything.

Dire is deliberately keeping them away from home as they all do the errands he say. To him, what MC wants doesn’t matter much. The game doesn’t show but if MC has family and friends or pets, you can’t tell me that they wouldn’t miss them once or see, hug them or know their state, alive-dead, healthy-sick etc. 

Lastly not being invincible. The end of Episode 5 shows this well. They couldn’t stand against Grim who isn’t as powerful as the other overblot characters. They are mortal who can get hurt easily.

Now all these build up meanwhile we don’t see an MC centered chapter, how they are etc. It’s all about the others. Maybe there were a few chapters asking if MC is okay after everything but it feels like it is in the second plan. 

Everything that I mentioned can lead to a breakdown like Azula’s. Everything is just too much to handle and they don’t talk with a professional about it. When they finally let out everything, it feels much better, screaming out their lungs, lashing out like all of them did. They are finally letting out all of their emotions, crying and screaming; yet still feels better than bottling everything up. They think maybe that’s how overblot characters felt.

All in all, everyone in NRC needs a counselor.

[jackassbroadcast]

Hello im a Tommy enthusiast who watched that one stream where he monologued to foolish for like hafe an hour bc i heard it was a cool stream or wtv to realize how much amazing character moments it had that barly anyone in this damn fandom is talking about so ill fucking do it

(Only after finishing this i realized i wrote 1.7k words LOL OOPS)

If u dont know what in talking about its this stream (apologies for linking a clips channel the actual vod on foolish's channel is deleted by now)

Also heads up /rp /dsmp every time i refer to someone here by name is their character unless stated otherwise bc writing c! Before every name Is tiring LOL

Also // suicidal idealization , death mentions

The conversation starts off with foolish and tommy mining for Wilbur, and foolish questions how simply mining will solve the problem to which Tommy reponds with "they dont get solved, do they? It just ends uo with some madman screaming 'Hes solved it!' And now look at him." And how he wants to "prevent the problem before it goes outta hand" something that clearly references Wilbur and his destruction of lmanburg, which paired with him collecting stone for Wilbur as the way to stop said problems he believes if he does anything he can for Wilbur and support him by his side enough this time around, that he wont do anything like thay again, which as im writing this makes be realize by doing that we learn hes blaming himself for what happened to Wilbur in November 16th and pogtopia and a whole, by not being enough for Wilbur in his mind.

The conversation continues, foolish off hand asks why would tommy want to stop Wilbur? Weren't they friends at some point? To which tommy leads foolish to lmanburg and tells him the story of the nation (how it was him and Wilbur's nation, how they made it to espace dream's iron fist and how they held an election "which puts your life on the line, which is good- if you're confident but- perhaps we were too confident", how they lost)

Tommy: "You know the phrase: 'treat other how you wanna be treated', foolish? People dont ever listen to it. Wilbur- he decided he wanted to be treated poorly so he treated everyone around him poorly "

This Tommy quote, to me at least, so so amazingly strong in conveying how understanding he is? To the world around him. Like-

I have not seen one person bring this quote up, and yet its (at least to me) shows such growth and understanding in Tommy i saw little to nothing like it in other streams. It shows he understands, he knew Wilbur didnt change just because, he knows he was struggling, that he thought everyone around him were againt him, were going to abandon him the first chance theyll get- and he thought he deserved it. So he, as a last way to defend himself against that, hurt them first, abandoned them first, so theyll see how much of a 'bad' person he was and take him out- and tommy saw right through that, possibly understanding it more after exile.

This next qoute was talked about much more but i still wanna bring it up

Foolish: "Do you believe in second chances?"

Tommy: "Oh, no I don't really believe that its not really a thing for me foolish its just that-" *sigh* "- i believe everyone has a little bit of good in then and this is not about giving him a second chance or a third chance- its not about *chances* foolish. Its about not giving up on the poeple you care about. "

Which. I mean. I dont know how healthy that mindset is, but comign from Tommy it makes so much sense.

Techno, tubbo, eret, sapnap. These are all people Tommy used to be extremely close to, had either a war or had been betrayed by them, and yet still found it in his heart that he still cares for them, with all of these, they did horrendous things, that hurt tommy physically and mentally, while also not being once or twice, but a contentious thing, but while tommy is to this day still effected by their actions he still found it in himself to forgive, because he knows he fucked up too, a lot, and he knoes they learned from their mistakes just as he had (except c!techno FUCKKK c!techno mf doesnt learn SHITTT) and he knows, when the time comes he knows hed want the people he hurt to forgive him too. (And he wants Wilbur to do the same)

Next qoute i will cut to a couple parts because its really so good and full of character i had to bro

Foolish: "Do you consider yourself to be the good guy or the bad guy?"

Tommy: "It really depends who you ask, isn't it? Yknow? If you asked dream he'd say im *his little toy that he plays with* you know? It doesnt.."

This part really stunned me when i first heard it because, and correct me If im wrong, but i dont think tommy ever acknowledged how dream sees him, and  how right he has his viewpoint too. Just the fact tommy is so *painfully* aware of how dream doesnt even see him as a person anymore but just a toy to mess around with for a while than just throw it away when it get too boring really hurt me. Someone give this kid a hug

(Continued) Tommy: "...foolish, honestly? I used to consider myself 'the good guy', you know? The fuckin'- second in command! But these past- these past like six months or so, foolish, everything got so much harder than it was before. Because before it was just us vs bad guys, it was all so clear! But- its not been 'clear' for so long, right? It wasn't; 'these are the bad guys! These are the good guys!' Now it's : 'he's doing this and it makes him a bit worse-' i mean, it all got so complicated, so- i don't know. Depends who you ask."

He says this, in response to foolish asking if hes a good guy- but its awfully similar to if Wilbur asked him if they were the bad guys. Because foolish just asked about him, and yet in his answer tommy made sure to keep using the words "us, he's, guys" as if hes not really talking about himself, as if hes explaining how Wilbur was wrong. Which he was. Also something interesting ive noticed, he says "the last 6 months or so", which indicated that with Wilbur he knew better to follow his word and leadership- with Wilbur he was always on the right side but when he lost him he felt much more lost alone, and couldn't trust himself enough to be on the "right side" .

Foolish: "I dont know, it all seems strange because just from, you know- hearing from others and, you know, learing a little bit, its seems like you've been the hero, you've been the villain, the conqueror, the savior, and, even now, i have no idea what you exactly are."

Tommy: "that's up to you to decide, isn't it? Im just- *uh*  i dont know. These days, foolish, I'm a little weaker than i used to be"

Foolish couldn't be more right with what he said, another example of this we see where a character acknowledges tommy never sticks to one thing us Charlie when calling him "tommy fron nowhere" which shows more how he cant stick to one thing, during the course of him on the server he had been friends and enemy with nearly everyone, been on pretty much all sides, and while never really intentionally, being in the center of conflict. When foolish says he doesnt know who tommy is anymroe at this point and all Tommy says in return is that "hes a little weaker than he used to be" does to show he misses who he used to be, with lmanburg, with Wilbur, when he knew who he was, now he doesn't know who he is anymore, but still so desperately want to be more demonstrated by the lines coming rigth after that one:

(Continued) Tommy: "..I'm not- I'm now who i want to be, but-"

Foolish: "Being honest with you, Tommy, that's the same case for me as well."

Tommy: "...heres the thing, foolish, unlike you i dont really have a choice. I have to try and be who i want to be, because if i dont, very bad things are gonna happen in this server. And now that Wilbur's back i can't- quite frankly *no one* can risk that. So i dont really have a choice."

Tommy want's to change- he wants to be better than he is now, to be closer to who he used to be, no matter how impossible that might be, but he also sees it as an immediate thing, he wants to change now, or asap, which is why hes collecting stone for Wilbur in the first place- old him would've done that with ease just because Wilbur asked and he wants to have that back so badly, asap. The way he talked about this reminded me of when he tried getting over his trauma stream before he went in the prison to kill dream: he knew he wasnt the best but he tried getting over that asap to go kill dream asap. He didnt wanna take the long road of years of healing and instead thought he could get over it just like that, and that experience clearly didnt teach him anything because now hes trying to slide back to the relationship he and Wilbur used to have and ignoring the drastic changes they both had plus the bad moments that were the reason they feel out in the first place, or maybe he knows, but at this point, after everything that happened to him and the server, he doesnt care anymore? He knows hes not the same he was and he'll never be the same, because thats not how it works, but his mentor, president, big brother is back after so long tommy felt so lost and alone he thinks maybe, this time around, with Wilbur, he could try and be better again.

[khaleesiofalicante]

"To love someone long-term is to attend a thousand funerals of the people they used to be" -Heidi Priebe

Istg this chapter is my will to live today bc I'm feeling kinda anxious without reason. Always happens once in a while. So, thank you for this great distraction!!

Magnus being so worried for Alec🥺🥺 and all the texts😭 (Also him bitting his nails is so relatable)

Too early. Too soon. Too needy. Too invasive. Just too much. This reminds me of trsom when both Magnus and Alec were thinking of moving together but they were both like "No. Too soon. He won’t like it" like babes, you are beautiful idiots💙💙

Really all the foreshadowing of Magnus' past is driving me crazy jdhdjdhjd but I will fight everyone who hurt this man!! I have a knife🔪

Alec drunk like this is so funny😂 Magnus is really pretty so I cant blame him

“Dads can be like that,” Magnus tells him gently. “Easy to hate. Hard to love.” So we are going with the family issues now huh?? Ok, ok. No need to call me out

YES THEY ARE BOYFRIENDS OFFICIALLY 😌

That really was a shitty move. At least he admits it🙂 THEY ARE JUST BEING SO FUCKING PETTY. DUDES. YOU BOTH NEED TO CALM TF DOWN

Goddamn mental autocorrect. Magnus Bane. Ouch 💔

Although I think they are hard to reach, Magnus do has limits when it comes to people

The wedding ring hurted more than it should have😭

ALEC RETURNING THE SHIRT AND MAGNUS RETURNING THE HOODIE. I'M DONE. (Also it was a dick move to show that other hoodie) My first thought with that scene: Hoodie by Hey Violey doesnt fit anymore :(

Thomastair making out😂😂also Alastair has a great point and we know it Alec!!

Calry keeping and eye on Magnus🥺 ALSO YES CALL HIM OUT GIRL!!! she is totally a wine person

Magnus was clutching the shirt and we all know it!!!

"You also promised to love me forever!" Right where it hurts💔

I was about to have a heart attack when Clary told them Max was in the hospital. That was scary ok?!?!!

MARYSE. MARYSE IS THE MOST WISE AND BADASS AND LEGENDARY WOMAN. CALL THEM OUT WOMAN. ALSO “If you ever get the boys hurt in any way, I’ll report you to child services. Don’t test me!” IS FUCKING SCARY MA'AM. HAVE A NICE DAY 💙

“Bapak,” Max whispers in his sleep. “Bapak. Come back. Bapak. Please.” OMFG I WAS ABOUT TO CRY OK?! 😭

“Please stop hurting him,” THIS>>>> David delivering heartbreaking quotes as always💙

GOD THIS MAVID INTERACTIONS ARE KILLING ME. I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO SURVIVE THIS🥺

Malec, Sizzy and Jace to the kids: Rule number 1: Never piss off Clary, if you know whats good 🙂

David you want to be Max’s date!! Just tell him please😭

Who is Selena talking to? I NEED NAMES JDJDKD

✨HERONDALE-FAIRCHILD FAMILY SUPREMACY✨

How do you find someone who is hiding? Maybe you don't. Maybe you just hope to know enough about them to know where to look and you hope a small part of them wants to be found👀

“Did he ask you to lie to me?” AHH GIVE THIS BOY SOME LOVE MAX!!!

Grindr. Now this will be interesting👀😂

I'm doing a thing. Every time I feel like I'm going to scream while reading this, I take a sip of water as if it is wine (bc I cant carry wine wherever I go, that would be weird. Also illegal but thats not the point) So, thanks to you, I'm gonna end so fucking healthy

Byeee. Take care💚 AND YOU ALSO GO DRINK SOME WATER!!

The quote has a bitch crying. It's me!

ALSO OMG YOU GENIUS YOU.

This is an official petition/request for all of you TLND readers to read the fic with a bottle of water next to you. Take a shot water every time there is an angst scene/line. DO IT YOU HOES.

I'm eating papayas right now lol. I'll drink water (and my tea) later ;)

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

I read an interview where Linda said she loved Paul but if he didnt treat her right she'd take the kids and leave and she also screamed at him to ne a man when he was in his depression slump. I think there's an idea that Paul walked all over her but that interview made me rethink. She's a lot tougher I reckon. I feel like Paul had no choice but to get his act together cause she would have left him in the dust if he didnt shape up.

*I should preface this by saying that im not the most knowledgeable when it comes to Linda and Pauls relationship - I know quite a bit about it, but this will definitely be one of my less informed takes.*

I tend to lean towards this belief too - though nothings cemented for me regarding my opinions on Paul and Lindas relationship, because I feel its quite difficult to gain a real insight into it. But it seems like Linda wasn’t the helpless figure that some people might view her as, to some degree.

I think that Paul was attracted to that independence Linda had about her; I guess if you wanted to get a little Freudian you could link it back to his mother, Mary, because she was effectively the breadwinner of the family. But even straying away from that, you can see that Linda wasn’t necessarily the most conventional woman. She didn’t wear makeup often, she didn’t shave her legs, she was a single mother, and she had established her own career. She was really just sort of doing her own thing (good for her!) and I remember Stella saying in an interview that she really admired how her mother was married to one of the most famous rockstars on the planet, and she rarely ever wore makeup. Linda was definitely a bit of bad bitch!

I think if Paul had expected just a broad, generic “wife” figure who he could just treat however he wanted too, he would not have got with Linda, because Linda just wasn’t that. It appears to me that Lindas self-assurance and independence is what perhaps attracted him to her in the first place. So personally I don’t really buy into the idea of Linda being helpless or anything - though from what ive read from other peoples blogs, I think the majority of people recognise her as a pretty independent figure.

Then again though, I think she’s only human - and so she probably did make sacrifices to her career in favour of her relationship, because whilst she was a really strong and independent personality, everybody will at some point falter, favouring another persons wants over their own. Thats just how relationships work really. But I think if there was something she really didn’t want to do, she probably just wouldn’t have done it; maybe im being idealistic here, but I think that if she really did not want to tour with Wings, I think she just wouldn’t have. I know some people might say she only toured with Wings to ensure Paul wasn’t cheating on her and to keep the family together, but I dunno, I think largely it was that she (and Paul) wanted a real family unit, and that meant keeping their family together, not just in a physical sense, but also in an emotional one too. (That last line was so corny, sorry!)

Overall, for all their faults, I think that they had a pretty healthy marriage. Ive made this point a few different times, but ill make it again: that Paul and Lindas children have grown up to be, from what I can tell, pretty mentally and emotionally stable and strong people, I personally think is a sign that they Paul and Linda were good parents; and a healthy and happy marriage is I think a vital role in good parenting (of course though, that is not to say single parents cant be good parents or anything - only that if you’re parents are gonna stay married, it is crucial they cooperate and aren’t bitter and resentful to one another, to provide a loving environment for their children)

So yeah - bit off topic (but we know im incapable of staying on topic lol) but yeah. I don’t think they had a fairytale ending or anything, but to me it appears that they had a happy and healthy marriage, albeit still an imperfect one. Pauls co-dependency and search for a maternal figure is still problematic, and im sure that there are other issues surrounding their marriage. But I guess everybody has baggage, so I dunno.