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wizardsix · 1 year ago

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*taps sign aggressively* all of the bg3 companions have to learn how to reclaim their identity and autonomy after living under absolute authority for so long.

#do you hear me? All of them #gale haters i am living in your walls #yes this always comes back to him #i love.. the similarities everyone has though. and i love how supportive they are of each other #one of my biggest issues with da was how even if the companions had similar experiences they still hated each other and acted like bigots #absolutely 0 empathy and change in their beliefs from start to finish. it's actually miserable when all your companions hate each other #anyway. larian sweep #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #six speaks

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justaz · 7 months ago

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lol arthur realizes with the other knights after watching merlin flirt and being hit with a wave of deja vu: holy shit you asked me out

merlin and the rest of the knights around a campfire after leaving a village bc lancelot and leon somehow started a brawl in the tavern: ???

arthur points at merlin: after valiant! you asked me to buy you a drink! you were asking me out!

merlin is busy cooking dinner and confused out of his fucking mind: what???…..valiant….oh the knight with the snakes.

gwaine who was slightly tipsy now stone cold sober and sitting up straight against a tree: wait. explain. what do you mean merlin asked you out??

arthur snaps his fingers as he recalls the memory: i apologized for sacking you and you said that if i bought you a drink we’d be even.

merlin now remembering how he had stumbled into camelot, picked a fight with a pigheaded bully which quickly turned homoerotic and flirtatious, and continued their teasing-flirting for days before merlin shot his shot and asked the prince out only to be rejected: oh yeah, i forgot i did that…..wait, you mean you didnt realize what i was asking?

arthur: no?? we argued everyday, how was i supposed to realize you were asking me out??

merlin now abandoning the dinner and staring across the camp at arthur while the rest of the knights watch their back and forth like a game of tennis: to you we were arguing, to me that was very much flirting. i thought you were flirting back so i decided to ask you. then you rejected me

arthur, mentally beating his past self up for fucking up their chance: i didn’t reject you!!! i just didn’t realize what you were asking me. how was i meant to? we fought every chance we got

leon, nudging elyan, glee and excitement riling through him: its happening!!! its finally happening!!! seven long, grueling years is finally paying off!!!

merlin, realizing the misunderstanding and acknowledging the fact that he wasn’t rejected, his flirtations just weren’t noticed - realizing he still has a chance: oh…oh i see. arthur, my dear, our fights were extremely flirtatious. need i remind you of what you said? “do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to teach you?” or “i could take you apart with one blow”

arthur, mental capabilities at an all time low: m…my dear….?????????

merlin grinning devilishly as he realizes that his flirtatious persona he had hidden away after falling head over heels for arthur can make a come back: that is what i called you. should i call you something else? say…mine?

percival gags in elyan’s ear: cheesy

elyan hides a laugh: at least they’re finally getting somewhere. better than the hopeless pining

arthur, flushed from head to toe: ah uh no um im uh

merlin thoroughly enjoying himself: oh come now, your majesty. use your words.

#meanwhile leon is praying his thanks to every god and goddess above for their mercy #his pain and suffering is so over #merlin is going IN on arthur who is red as fuck #gwaine is enjoying himself immensely #lancelot pulls out popcorn to watch the two idiots finally get their acts together #flirty merlin x flustered arthur #i think yes #listen. merlin lived in ealdor. a small village of maybe thirty people - four or five being his own age #he was thrilled to be in camelot and have new faces and people to meet #he was definitely the village tease or flirt or whatever #he was gonna be a rake in camelot but unfortunately managed to fall hopelessly in love with the prince of camelot #he burned his dreams of being a rake in exchange for arthur #the issue? arthur rejected his advances. next issue? merlin’s feelings remained and grew #so merlin is a lovesick puppy for a prince who doesnt feel the same and he cant find it in himself to look at anyone else bar a few cases #he and lancelot def slept together at least once. him and gwaine tumbled into bed a few times together #but his heart always belonged to arthur he just never imagined hed get a chance to let his affection be known #now that he knows arthur never knew of his intentions in the first place and was quick to deny he rejected him #merlin is more than happy to let that part of his personality come back and terrorize arthur is a way he hadnt been able to before #hes living his best life rn #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur #knights of the round table #fanfiction ideas #prompts #headcanon

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naamahdarling · 4 months ago

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You know what? You know what I think?

I think that if we lived as we were meant to, in larger intimate ("extended family") groups and with more shared labor and time to do it (UBI NOW) people like me would not feel so useless and burdensome because there would be people around to help and to do what neurodivergent people can't while making valuable space for the neurodivergent to do what they ARE good at.

The way we live right now, all right, the way we live right now forces units of two adults to be able to do EVERYTHING or PAY to have someone come do it for them. I have to do the housework. I have to do it! But I am having to do a million different things and most of them I am not good at. I suck at them.

I wouldn't feel like shit, okay, if I had more than one other person around who was not a child and who could do the things I can't, like do the yard and cook and do repairs and basic maintenance; and someone else to split everything else that I like but is too much for me. It would free me to do what I am good at and enjoy. Cleaning, as in the sink and toilet, the windows, the blinds. Taking out trash. Folding, hanging, and sorting laundry.

But because all the shit I can do often relies on other shit being done first, and I can't do or have trouble doing those things, the shit I can do often can't be done. And even the shit I can do, I can't do ALL of it. So I can't keep up, and things get very bad.

We aren't meant to live like this. We are not meant to live like this.

That thought hurts so much because being able to flee the birth family is integral to survival for so many people. I'm so afraid that living in larger family groups would create more opportunities for, say, queer kids to be isolated, rejected, bullied, and abused. But if we gave people enough money to survive, and stopped considering children the property of their parents with no system in place to help them escape bad situations except a system that is often just as bad, just different.

I'm aware that communes and collectives aren't all that successful and are kind of a joke. I don't mean that. I mean a fundamental shift to multigenerational families where taking in "strays" (which my family did) is also normalized so people escaping abuse into existing households was accepted, with these families centered in maybe a couple of different larger residences so not everyone has to buy and maintain their own fucking washing machine and vacuum cleaner, and so people can benefit from large group meals that yield leftovers, and so child and elder care can also be centralized.

Then disabled people and the neurodivergent and sick and injured people, and pregnant people, and grieving people, would not have to either labor through all those stressors or consign themselves to living off an unlivable pittance or being put under legal guardianship.

I'm not saying anything new. People live like this in other parts of the world and maybe it sucks and I am wrong. But I'm just really mad right now because I can either do laundry or clean the sink but not both, and I really think we could improve society somewhat by making it so I did not have to choose one without sacrificing the other.

#im feverish feeling (not a real fever just malaise that i have no other way to describe) from the IBS (which can affect you like that #)#and i don't actually want to do ANYTHING #i would have to even living with others but it would be easier #at the very least i wouldn't have had to clean the microwave earlier which is hard because my arms are like the size of a meerkat's #and i can only reach the back with my fingertips #where is my BF in all this?#WORKING FULL TIME WITH BACK PAIN #yes i AM going to want him to have to do as little as possible when he comes home #he's neurodivergent too and struggles with the same shit #it's all a mess #we are doing way better i didn't realize how deep a drain three very sick cats were #but there's still only two of us #if you are disabled physically OR MENTALLY you should at least get in-home household help once a week or so #there's places that do that but the limitations are usually severe and always rule me out #because im not single im not an elder im not a veteran and im not physically disabled #if we have to ration that sort of thing i can see how on the whole it is more caring to allocate those resources to for example elders #but the fact that i celebrate what help there is doesn't mean i don't get mad that more people can't access it #is2g if i was functional enough snd physically sound enough i would start a charity that did intervention cleaning for people like us #who have fallen behind and can't catch up but can MAINTAIN #and who helped people clean for a few months during and after an illness pregnancy trauma major loss etc. so they could stay on their feet

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thechy-fychannel · 6 months ago

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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.

#chyanne speaks #house md #hilson #hate crimes md #gregory house #james wilson #i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough #like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone #his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly #he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly #the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house #and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her #but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT #bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold #although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction #and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on #but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone #and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g #he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again #but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him #and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house #and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.

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tsukk1 · 2 years ago

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skaterboy izuku !! a tddk art trade with my sweet @rivacyte ;;🫶🏼everyone look at their snowboarder shouto right now or else...

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solargeist · 7 months ago

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"do you think my wings are pretty..?"

he preened his wings..... theres no dirt or dye or anything.... so they're back to their original colour

#gonna go ahead and post this one late #my art #grian #it was originally going to be him trying to bait compliments. yknow? being a little smug but still embarrassed #not sure when in the sketch he ended up laying back #he was originally talking to mumbo #hes fidgeting with his hands #i think it comes across as suggestive but hes just looking for attention hahah #hes an angel not a bird but.... he still wants people to find his wings pretty #i think scar would catch on and go along with him like oh ! why yes of course ! they're always so pretty <3 #im rly tired if the wings are drawn ugly im sry i tried dont embarrass me pls

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o3o-lapd-o3o · 1 month ago

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here's part 7! hope you guys enjoy! part 8 will be uploaded tomorrow!

(p.s my headcanon explainations are in the tags if you're curious)

the post/thread that started this whole au

there's a masterlist now!

*after everyone had gone inside, telemachus left to go to his room to change while penelope and odysseus headed to theirs*

*penelope had help getting changed/ready from her handmaiden, however odysseus doesn’t start changing, instead he’s just sitting on a lounge chair looking out the window at the sun setting*

penelope: *now ready for the evening*

penelope: *to her handmaiden* thank you for your help.

penelope: *smiles as she’s walking to the bedroom door with her*

penelope: *remembers something* oh! please let the others know to make sure you all grab yourself enough to eat after all the hard work the past couple of days! or take some of the remaining fish & meat home to your families!

penelope: *waves goodbye as her handmaiden leaves the room*

penelope: *closes the door and turns to face odysseus*

odysseus: *still staring out the window*

penelope: odysseus?

odysseus: *no response*

penelope: *understands he doesn’t mean to ignore her*

penelope: *slowly walks towards him* my love, it's just you and i now

odysseus: *finally realises penelope was calling out to him*

odysseus: *turns his head to her* i’m sorry penelope

odysseus: *looks her up and down, always amazed by the beauty of his wife*

penelope: *giggles as she see the lovestruck look on odysseus face*

penelope: *stops just in front of him and twirls around*

penelope: see something you like?

odysseus: *standing up and pulls her into him by her waist*

odysseus: always *goes in for a kiss*

penelope: *accepts the kiss*

penelope: *giggles when odysseus keeps planting kisses all over her face*

penelope: my dear husband, stop distracting me!

penelope: it’s time for you to get ready.

odysseus: *stops the kisses and looks down and sighs*

penelope: *cups his cheek with her hand and turns his face back to hers*

penelope: you know i’m not going to force you to wear anything you don’t want to, right?

odysseus: *leans into her hand* i know, i know…

odysseus: it’s so silly of me isn’t, it’s just clothing-

penelope: *now holding his face with both her hands* nothing is silly, not if it makes you uncomfortable my love

odysseus: *smiles* i love you

penelope: *smiles back* i love you too

penelope: *lets his face go* now, what would you like to wear tonight?

odysseus: *looking at the tyrian purple pelops she's wearing* i would like to match my beautiful wife

penelope: *knows she had a chiton made for him at the same time she had her pelops made* ok, let's get you matching then

*once odysseus is ready, him and penelope leave their room and make their way to the palace entrance ready to greet their dinner guests*

*when they arrive, they see telemachus; who is dressed in more ‘princely’ attire than his usual day-to-day clothing, talking to athena who arrived not long ago*

telemachus: oh! mother, father, you're ready!

athena: *turning to them*

athena: *smiling* good evening

penelope: *smiles back* good evening lady athena

athena: please penelope, i think we’ve known each other long enough… especially after everything in the past year

athena: just athena is fine

penelope: *smiles* sure…athena

odysseus: *looking at athena*

odysseus: it’s still so weird not seeing you in all your armour

athena: *laughs* well i thought the occasion didn’t require it

*the four of them continue talking for a little bit*

athena: i see that my uncle hasn’t arrived yet.

telemachus: *turns to his father* you told him it was tonight right?

odysseus: *nods* i did

odysseus: *thinks for moment and sighs*

odysseus: he’s not going to come to this entrance… but i know where he’ll be

athena: i’ll go with you to get him

telemachus: me too!

penelope: *laughs* well i guess i might as well join too

odysseus: let’s go then

*they all head in the direction of the entrance for the palace gardens*

odysseus: *stops them before they all head outside* ok maybe we don’t all need to go down to the sea

odysseus: i’ll go meet him and we’ll both join you shortly

*telemachus, penelope and athena wait by the entrance talking amongst themselves, while odysseus makes his way down to the palace cove*

*odysseus arrives at the cove when he sees poseidon making his way out of the water*

poseidon: *sees odysseus*

poseidon: king of ithaca

odysseus: *deadpan expression* poseidon.

poseidon: *rolls his eyes at odysseus, for the clear lack of title for him*

odysseus: the others are waiting, shall we get going?

poseidon: *about to agree when he remembers about the arrow*

poseidon: wai- uh i mean, i have a question before we leave…

odysseus: *eyebrow raised*

poseidon: you're not… i don’t know, mad or angry with me or the sea’s inhabitants by any chance?

odysseus: huh?

poseidon: *pinches the bridge of his nose* has the sea or i, done anything to offend you in the past day?

odysseus: *now confused* no?

poseidon: *drops his hand from his face and then points at odysseus* then why did you shoot me?!

odysseus: *even more confused* shoot yo- whAT?

poseidon: *reaches into his chiton and pulls out the arrow he kept there*

poseidon: *shows the arrow to odysseus* please tell me then, what have i done that's got you shooting arrows at the sea?

odysseus: *looking at the arrow, then up to poseidon* i've not shot any arrows at the sea?

odysseus: also, who shoots arrows into the sea?!

poseidon: *hands up in the air in agreement, the arrow being thrown behind him*

poseidon: that's what i said! but who else would it be? it hit the waters of this cove, so unless-

odysseus: *suddenly realises where the arrow has come from*

odysseus: *starts laughing*

poseidon: *brings his hands down and narrows his eyes at odysseus* what is so funny?

odysseus: *wiping a tear away from his eye from laughing so much* my son

poseidon: *now his turn to be confused* huh?

odysseus: *having collected himself * my son, he shot the arrow during archery practice

poseidon: *eyebrow raised* and you're teaching your son to shoot the sea… because?

odysseus: *rolls his eyes* it was an accident, my wife startled him and he misfired.

odysseus: *lets out a tiny chuckle* i can’t believe it made its way to the sea though

poseidon: oh

odysseus: yeah ‘oh’

odysseus: why would you think i’d shoot the sea anyway?

poseidon: *arms now crossed and looking away from odysseus*

poseidon: who knows with you…

odysseus : *smirking* oh poseidon…i’d just use other ways to get your attention

poseidon: *whips his head back to odysseus*

poseidon: *sees odysseus’ shit-eating grin*

poseidon: oh be quiet… what if i arrived early?

poseidon: *points at himself* i could have been hit!

odysseus: *snorts* oh please… an single arrow wouldn't kill you

odysseus: besides we both know you've been impaled with worse

odysseus: *turns to head back up to the palace* anyways, let's head up to the others

poseidon: *realising what odysseus said* wait-

poseidon: odysseus of ithaca!

odysseus: *just keeps walking ignoring poseidon’s outburst*

poseidon: *grumbles under his breath but swiftly walks to catch up odysseus*

*odysseus & poseidon make their way to the palace garden entrance where now only athena is waiting*

odysseus: *looking to athena* where-

athena: *already knows what odysseus is going to ask* they headed to the dining hall.

athena: telemachus wanted to check some final things and penelope left to accompany him.

odysseus: *nods at her explanation*

athena: *turns to look at poseidon*

athena: *nods head at poseidon* uncle

poseidon: *blank look on his face* athena.

athena: *now looking at her nails* not seen you since you were up on olympus in apollo’s infirmary…

athena: *looks back at poseidon and grins* speaking of which… how’s your chest?

poseidon: *scoffs and crosses his arms* fine.

poseidon: *suddenly smirks back* need i remind you that you were also there for a similar reason…how’s your face?

athena: *grin has left her face and now narrows her eyes at poseidon*

odysseus: *not wanting to deal with two bickering gods*

odysseus: *sighs*

odysseus: *claps his hands together sharply* OK! how about we don’t fight in my palace, yeah?

odysseus: besides, telemachus has been extremely excited about tonight’s dinner, so i do not want anything ruining it…

odysseus: *makes sure to look at both of them*

odysseus: *red eyes appear & disappear in the blink of an eye*

odysseus: got it?

athena: *now semi-understands why poseidon listened to odysseus ‘requests’* uh-

poseidon: *putting an arm around athena’s shoulders* yep, no arguing here!

poseidon: *turns his head towards athena* isn’t that right my dear niece?

athena: *stares at poseidon in disbelief at the words ‘dear niece’*

athena: *turns to odysseus* you can’t be seri-

odysseus: *raises his eyebrow*

athena: *sighs* sure, no fighting in the palace

odysseus: *smiles* good. now i know you know where the dining hall is located athena, but poseidon doesn’t.

odysseus: so, if you’ll both please follow me.

odysseus: *starts walking down the hall*

athena: *shrugs poseidon’s arm off in disgust and follows odysseus*

poseidon: *sighs and also follows odysseus*

#*meanwhile in the dining hall*#telemachus: *hands on his hips looking at the table* perfect!#penelope: *looking at the name scrolls telemachus put out in each seat*#penelope: are you finally happy now?#telemachus: *laughs* yes mother #telemachus: i thought it’d be nicer for them to see where they are rather than me pointing to seats #penelope: *pulls telemachus in for a hug* oh i'm so proud of you for coming up with this whole evening #telemachus: *hugs her back* thank you mother #telemachus: i just hope everyone has fun #penelope: *thinks of the potential chaos that's about to happen* oh i'm sure they will #so as for the whole clothes/getting ready bit between penelope and odysseus #one of my other little headcanons is that while on calypso's island odysseus had no say about how she wanted him to look/dress #like i know most people have animated/wrote odysseus as scruffy/unkempt looking after the 7 years #but i think calypso wouldnt let him get like that. hes her 'love of her life' / pet she's going to make sure he's always groomed & well kep #including making him wear all sort of clothing and outfits she makes/creates for him #so once back on ithaca odysseus isn't too keen on having to dress up or have servants dress/groom him like a normal king would #after months of healing he'll only now just let penelope help out as he knows she loves him and views him as equal than a doll to play with #odysseus epic #odysseus #penelope epic the musical #telemachus epic #telemachus #poseidon epic #poseidon #epic the musical #epic: the musical #friends in higher places au?#nonsense thoughts #ongoing

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ace-and-the-rpg-horrors · 23 days ago

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absolutely crazy to me that there's people who genuinely think that Crystal is the meaner one when it comes to her arguments with Edwin

at one point, my girl opened up about how she felt trapped by the demon who had violated her, and Mr Edwin Payne over here was like, "well, now you know how we feel!1!1!" in regards to the poor lass just having to tag along with them because she's got no memories, no clue who she is, and nowhere to go. be fucking for real

#and Edwin is practically always the one who gets argumentative first #but nahhh it's a problem when the POC girl sasses him back when he's being genuinely rude as fuck to her #then she's the “aggressive” one #and NO Edwin acting out due to his jealousy of her does NOT justify his behaviour!! she wasn't even trying to come onto Charles!!#CHARLES was the one who flirted with CRYSTAL. yes she eventually accepted his advances but she is NOT wrong for that #i daresay after all she's been through my girlie deserves to kiss the cute ghost that likes her. she's not responsible for Edwin's feelings #it's a bit more understandable for Edwin to be wary due to the Hell-demon thing but still. he treated Crystal like shite when she did nowt #i don't hate Edwin by the way. love that Edwardian bitch. but he is flawed and that can be acknowledged!!#it's good even #ace's random thoughts :)#dead boy detectives #dbda #crystal palace

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backpackingspace · 2 months ago

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Of course post-canon odysseus and penelope love each other (they are a little bit insane about the other. Neither is allowed to leave the others side for months after odysseus gets back. They cycle between sobbing on one and another and aggressively making out. ) but it's true that they have both changed. It's been twenty hard years after all. So

Odypen courting each other again just for the fun of it. Odypen deciding to act like teenagers again and make elaborate plans pretending to sneak into the others room.

Odysseus sending penelopes 90 year old dad a letter challenging him to a race for penelopes hand in marriage. (This does not go over well but penelope though it was hilarious)

Odysseus begging Athena to help him win penelopes heart/hand again. (Athena: What no why you're already married I don't understand you ) (she helps anyways)

Penelope weaving all of odysseus's clothes. Penelope hauling out every tapestry she made of telemachus's childhood (she made one for every year. To gift odysseus on his birthday when he returned.)

Odypen leaving telemachus incharge while they go off on dates (to harssass, cause problems, and badger other people into giving them things). It should be fine Athena has been sticking close to the house lately. And it's only for an afternoon anyways (at first. Headcanon that penelope came with odysseus when he had to go plant the oar and call it a windmill quest.)

#The odyssey #Post-canon my beloved #An important part of the heros journey is that even though you've changed irrevocably the home still loves you #Odysseus #Penelope #Telemachus #Athena #Odypen #Odysseus and penelope being 🥰🤝 rat bastards in love #Odypen mutually obsessed and possessive and insane about the other #Odypen age 50 deciding to act like teenagers for fun #Yes penelopes father did show up to the challenge odysseus set and then promptly beat his ass in a foot race #Yes this did cause a major diplomatic incident when he demanded penelope come back with him #(Hes never ever warmed up to odysseus and every day he mutters about his sweet penelope could have been athenas priestess instead)#(It took telemachus weeping at his grandpa about how he just got both parents for him to change his mind)#Odysseus: athenaaaa I've met the girl of my dreams and I need her to be mineeee #Athena: having flashbacks to odysseus at 17 and the complete distracted mess he was: what the fuck is happening #Athena: like obviously I'm going to help but I am also going to lay on telemachus's floor #And mutter about how this is just like last time? How could it be just like last time when they're already married #Not quite falling back in love but something close to it #Relearning perhaps #As always I'm having post odypen reunion thoughts #Odypen showing of diomedes doorstep in Italy and he just closes the door immediately he's not dealing with two odysseus not today

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mojaves · 8 months ago

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ALEX SHEPHERD, THE BOY WHOSE SOUL IS BOUND TO EARTH AND HE CANNOT DIE. // a.k.a how one small mistake can make you wish you stayed dead

jenny holzer / saturniinne / sun bleached flies - ethel cain / orofeaiel / cecil castellucci / violetteforevernever / ojibwa / i know it's over - the smiths / tathève simonyan / stellernorth / robert bly

#oc alex #a.a.k.a no one is coming to save you. get over yourself.#yes this is a short web weave but like...... it couldve been sooo much longer theres so much i can use for him. so much i can say about him #he's terrified of death. he just wants to be at peace. he wants to live again. he's getting so tired. he just wants to go home.#theres no home left for him. he's mourning. he's so over it. he's alone in this world. he always was alone.#going missing and dying changed nothing. it changed everything. but only for a second.#and then life carried on without him. he will never get that time back. he misses it. he doesnt want to go back.#he needs company. he wants so desperately to be left alone. theres still hope. theres no hope left. Do You Understand.

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gingermintpepper · 4 months ago

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One of my biggest pet peeves is the assumption that something has to be sad for it to be tragic.

I've always been a big believer of the 'Apollo has an awful love life'/'Apollo is plain unlucky with love' line of thinking but it does bother me that the general reasoning for that statement is given to the concept of 'Apollo is somehow undesireable and thus rejected' (Cassandra/Daphne/Marpessa) or 'his lovers die young and thus their love is unfulfilled' (Cyparissus/Hyacinthus/Coronis). I personally think that's a very unfortunate way of looking at things - not only because it neglects the many perfectly cordial entanglements and affairs Apollo has had, both mortal and divine - but because it presents a very shallow interpretation of the concepts of love and loss and how loss affects people.

Apollo can still grieve lovers that have a long, healthy life. The inherent tragedy of an immortal who knows his lovers and children will die and cannot stop it does not stop being tragic simply because those lovers and children live long, fulfilled lives. The inherent tragedy of loss does not stop being tragic simply because someone knows better than to mourn something that was always going to end.

What is tragic is not that Apollo loves and loses but that loss itself follows him. Apollo does not love with the distance of an immortal, he does not have affairs and then leaves never to listen to their prayers again. He does not have offspring and then abandon them to their trials only to appear when it is time to lead them to their destinies. He raises his young, he protects the mothers of his children, he blesses the households that have his favour and multiplies their flocks that they may never go hungry. He educates his sons, he adorns his daughters and even in wrath he is quick to come to his senses and regret the punishments he doles out.

Apollo loves. And like mortals, there will always be some part of him that wishes to protect the objects of his affections. Apollo, however, is also an emissary of Fate. He knows that the fate of all mortal things is death. He knows that to love a mortal is to accept that eventually he will have to bury them. There is no illusion of forever, there is no fantasy where he fights against the nature of living things and shields his beloveds from death. Apollo loves and because of that love, he also accepts.

And that, while beautiful, is also tragic.

#ginger rambles #ginger chats about greek myths #greek mythology #apollo #Listen man #I think there's something extremely beautiful about Apollo's affairs #Yes I know that Ares also loves and cares for his daughters but this isn't about him #There's just something about the way that Apollo put his all into it every single time #To the point that even when he does know better he still fights because of the strength of his love #The Iliad to me will always be a love story #Yes Achilles' wrath is said to come from his overwhelming feelings towards Patroclus #but what Achilles does has nothing to do with grief or love #By the end of everything Achilles forsook that love which ought to have defined his actions based on what he was saying #and warped it into a weapon meant to satisfy the void left by his loss #Apollo though - I am always taken aback by the sheer weight of his love #towards not only Hektor but towards all of Troy in the Iliad #And how he is very careful to balance that love and all the ways he wishes he could fight against their inevitably end #with his duties as one who is both aware of the impending end and whose position in the war #has put him in opposition with his elders #That delicate balance between a love so powerful that he is willing to take on the full weight of Athena and Hera's wrath #and an understanding that the battle he fights is not for victory but simply because for love's sake #How could you not think of that as beautiful and awesome and so achingly tragic #I feel the same about both Asclepius' and Actaeon's deaths #Apollo loved BOTH of his sons - Asclepius and Aristaeus - so so SO much #He was so incredibly proud of them both and delighted immensely in the both of their victories and talents #And so when Asclepius dies and it is by his own father's hand - I have always found his act of wrath so fascinating #Honestly this could be its own separate post - but the fact that Apollo does not beg Zeus to reconsider or to bring Asclepius back #when Apollo has made cases for lenience on things like that before speaks of a level of understanding from Apollo that Asclepius was always #going to die because of his pushing of the boundary between life and death #so he doesn't bother trying to reason with Zeus or plea his grief - instead going directly to destroying something important to Zeus

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bumblydumbly · 4 months ago

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insane how people act like charles is ‘the jealous one’ like edwin didnt spend the whole first episode screaming crying throwing up every time charles looked at crystal and not him

#obv its deeper than that #like after 30 years of almost always taking edwins side on everything #he suddenly leaves WITH SOME RANDOM GIRL while saying he has a poor attitude and hes like? do i? yeah bc the living suck right? right?#and he decides to stay annoyed when they come back bc he LEFT him ugh. for a GIRL. like they’re actually still teens in school #so he really really hopes this is a passing fancy. like a pet or something. a wounded bird that we CANNOT KEEP #and when charles points out that it is in fact jealousy (which by charles time is not at all couple exclusive) it literally takes him aback.#bro said ‘jealous?’ so breathlessly like cmon. but b4 he could let that sink in crystal wakes up so he lets it go #probably had a whole internal convo where he reconciled being able to be friend-jealous and then kicked it up. like really up #‘maybe its your outfit’ and ‘also we are punishing you’ and ‘are you ready to talk to her shoes’#‘you spoke to a demon in this friendly malt shop’ and ‘oh you love this dont you’ and ‘saved you one time and now you wont leave either’#like yes he IS jealous and yes he WILL make it everyone’s problem on purpose #do i even have to pull out ‘of course you fell for a living girl’ (looks at him through his lashes) help him #90 percent of these are from the FIRST EPISODE okay #episode 1 edwin is THE cattiest bitch so it tracks that the cat king wants him #point is they are both insanely jealous ok #dbda #dead boy detectives #payneland #paineland #bumblysdumbly

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theotherbuckley · 7 months ago

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Okay but Tommy drops out of high school — he told his father he was gay and he told him he could either be homeless or go to military school. He goes to military school and joins the army and he likes flying the helicopters because it means he doesn’t have to do any of the killing himself. And he makes some friends.

There's one guy who's like the squad leader who's a few years old and built like a Greek god and Tommy's young and a little bit in love. And they're friends maybe even family because this whole group of people spend every waking (and sleeping) moment together. And they all talk like a family and they all say they love each other and tease each other and it's nice. And one night it's just the two of them trading a flask of some sort of alcohol that Tommy doesn't know the name of and the man asks Tommy why he joined the army and where he wants to be in five years and Tommy trusts this man. He's half way in love with him so he doesn't even think twice before he tells the story about the time he came out to his family and his father nearly beat him to death before sending him here. And the conversation tapers off after that and he doesn’t register the change in the air but when he wakes up the next morning he’s being dishonourably discharged because he poses “unacceptable risk to the high standards of morale, good order and discipline, and unit cohesion that are the essence of military capability”. He knows what that means.

Tommy joins the fire department because he doesn’t know what else to do. He represses anything regarding his sexuality because he knows now that it’s wrong. He almost feels like he has a family again because his captain seems to like him and some of the guys are cool even if they say things he doesn’t agree with. And then he starts agreeing because maybe they’re right and he’s wrong and he’s just inherently wrong. So he follows their leads and is just straight racist because that’s how he can fit in.

And then a black lesbian woman joins and says she’s a black lesbian woman and Tommy doesn’t understand that either because you can’t be queer you just can’t be because it’s wrong.

But he nearly dies and and an Asian man saves his life and a black lesbian woman comes up with a better idea than any of them had and she tells them she’s no different and she is just as capable. So he improves himself he does and he tries to be better but he still can’t be who he is because the last 2 times he was honest about that he was betrayed.

Tommy leaves the 118 and “don’t ask, don’t tell” is lifted and he meets this guy he likes who likes him back and the 217 don’t seem to have a problem with the gender neutral pronouns and he slowly but surely lets himself open up again and be who he is and when the thing with that guy doesn’t work out because he’s moving to New York and Tommy’s not sure he’s ready to leave, it’s okay because his crew is there and they support him and he can still be himself.

#years later he flies a helicopter into a hurricane for the same people who stopped him from going too deep #into something he didn’t even believe in #and there’s this guy with a birthmark above his left eye and the widest smile there is #and he’s saying absolute nonsense and Tommy can’t help but smile #and there’s this other man too also gorgeous but not his type #who has all the same interests as him and he thinks if anything he’s made a new friend #and then the cute dorky guy calls the next day stumbling over his words saying his name is evan - from the rescue mission #and he asks for a tour of the 217 and Tommy agrees because how could he say no #and then he’s asking to go out but he already has plans but rain check? because there’s something about this guy that maybe…#and Tommy thinks that’s it but then evan turns up everywhere #and then things get a bit funny and Tommy feels like it’s his fault and he has to apologise #so he goes to Evan’s house not expecting anything just to say sorry #and Evans there looking absolutely amazing as always and he’s saying things that Tommy can’t help but read into #and he’s getting closer and closer and Tommy can’t help it #he kisses him and keeps his eyes shut just a moment longer just in case #he doesn’t want to open his eyes and see a disgusted look across Evan’s face so he stays closed just a little longer #but evan just looks like his brain has restarted and he’s nodding and joking when Tommy asks if that was okay #and they’re going on a date #and it hurts when evan says those worlds because tommy has spent long enough in a closet being someone he’s not and hurting people #and he can’t go back there he just can’t and he doesn’t want to be the one to force evan into anything so he leaves #and then he gets a call a stuttered invitation to meet at a cafe and of course Tommy says yes #he doesn’t know what he expects but it’s not this #Evans beaming at him with the brightest smile asking him to be his date to his sisters wedding #how can he say no when he looks like that (as long as he never buys coffee again)#and evan holds his hand even though everyone is around and ok that’s good #he’s late to the wedding and practically dead on his feet but he said he’d be there so he comes and the moment evan sees him #hes kissing him and he’s ok that’s great he could get used to this #bucktommy #911 abc #tommy kinard

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littlespoonevan · 2 months ago

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#obviously i am Thrilled with all the buddie goodness we got this ep #but one thing about this whole eddie/chris storyline that is driving me absolutely UP THE WALLS #is that there has just been absolutely Zero realistic communication about any of it from the audience's perspective #we don't hear anything about logistics in the moments where chris is actually leaving #(about how long he'll be gone for/if it's just for the summer/etc etc)#which whatever fine tim wanted it to be dramatic #but still in season 8 we don't know if there's been any discussion with chris OR helena and ramon about when/if he should be coming home #like you can infer if you want that the diaz parents have no intention of giving up chris and this was the plan all along #but tbh even that is largely extrapolation on the fandom's part bc they haven't told us anything!!!!!!#two facetimes and three conversations eddie's had with people that Aren't his parents is not enough!!!!#and i know it's the Eddie Diaz Routine(tm) to jump to the most extreme possible conclusion re him moving back to el paso #but WHY have we gotten no indication at all that he's attempted to talk this out with chris at some point in the last 5 months???????????#the dust settled a long time ago and eddie has Always been so good at talking to chris even when it's a difficult subject #i refuse to believe we're in last resort territory i'm sorry askdfjhsa #i want to write something about it but there's so much to tackle i don't even know where to start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway yes i know i was the one pointing out last week that storylines 8 seasons in are not going to be top notch but that doesn't negate #my frustration aksdjfhsih #tbd

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blusandbirds · 5 months ago

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eli moskowitz - "am i making you feel sick?"

#blu edits #cobra kai #eli hawk moskowitz #demetri alexopoulos #hawkmetri #binary boyfriends #binary brothers #sorry randomly got bonkers about their dynamic in my head again #i love when demetri is spiteful give him edge give him that streak of pettiness he's always been secretly proud of #hes 17 his only sources of true joy are schadenfreude and free food #he humiliated eli at that party and he enjoyed it and yea they make up but he gets his licks now bc he's owed and eli lets him bc he's owed #and eli's approach to redemption is all roll over puppy eyes im sorry i'll do anything 'just tell me im yours' like thatll make it better #like thats productive. but he cant build demetri a sparring deck out of this so if demetri says jump... if demetri says join my dojo...#and so demetri will run him through his paces ragged for penance but it doesnt make it better and he looks at hawk and still feels sick #(and yes he loves him ofc he loves eli but that just adds to his turning stomach every time he sees those eyes looking up at him like that)#(its worse bc its eli making him feel this. not hawk doing something evil but eli trying to do something good and demetri still feels sick)#(because who does that shit and then comes back belly up like letting demetri claw his guts out makes them even)#(because who can claim to love someone and still get a kick of satisfaction out of making eli bleed <- verbally emotionally metaphorically)#(not physically. never physically. obviously. that's eli's thing. and so demetri's a leg up on him.)#^ im promise im a fan of interpreting them where theyre happy too #this derailed from the edit #if ur for some reason reading this then however you first interpreted this is prolly correct. i went a little rogue here in the tags

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mischiefbuckley · 1 month ago

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For this season being marketed like Eddie’s season again with Ryan doing so much press heading into the beginning of season 8… like where are all my Eddie scenes ABC??? Season 8b please deliver on more Eddie scenes and more focus on Eddie’s storyline please 🙏🏻

#like yes we did get some good scenes in regards to eddie’s storyline but overall the focus wasn’t all on him yk #don’t get me wrong I love all the characters yes but eddie’s storyline has just been in a limbo since season 7 #and I really thought his storyline would have been resolved by the end of season 8a in regards to christopher finally coming home #the whole doppelgänger storyline was a mess and again just having shannon haunting eddie’s storyline time and time again is so annoying #yes eddie was married to shannon and shannon will always be christopher’s mom but they need to have a conversation about that and be done #also eddie finally needs to accept that he doesn’t need to continue on trying to find a ‘mom’ for chris and that he can have his own joy #I hope we do get more scenes of eddie and the hot priest or eddie talking with family or even eddie talking things over with buck #by eddie’s family I mean tia pepa or abuela or even finally introducing his sisters like fuck the diaz parents I hate them so much #eddie already moved away once from texas because again his parents so why does he want to move back like c’mon eddie let’s think about it #completely understand also he wants to be closer with his son but he also needs to set a boundary with his parents and be firm with them #christopher is eddie’s son he isn’t helena and ramon’s son at all and eddie doesn’t deserve to be constantly left out as he has been #okay popped off in the tags much lmao #more of steph’s random thoughts #911 #911 abc #911 season 8 #eddie diaz #ryan guzman

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