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unnecessarily specific college!au f1 driver headcanons, part 3. professors edition!
(if you want to start from the beginning: part 1, the undergrads, here and part 2, more undergrad headcanons.)
alonso
- major: archaeology (never graduated)
- left school in the final year to be a skydiving instructor and then went on a site dig in Central America in the early 2000s
- there’s a plaque with his name on campus because he’s climbed like 4 of the world’s highest mountains, gone in a submarine into the Mariana Trench, and discovered at least one new species along the way
- other claim to fame is being in the national newspaper’s crossword at the age of 23
- notorious for breaking the rules when on expeditions and skirting the line of safety but gets away with it because he’s a big name in the field and brings investment to his (sort of) alma mater
- appears once on campus to give an inspirational talk. doesn’t rehearse, switches it to a q&a format at the last minute, people enjoy it anyway (because it’s not rehearsed). George tries to strike up a conversation with him afterwards and Alonso just pawns him off to his PA
- wears a different coloured bandana to every dig/hike/expedition. hates closed toe shoes.
vettel
- teaches: molecular structures in microbiology
- precise prof and a tough grader, but nice
- came over a competing college several years ago. people from that college say he was a demon and a notorious asshole when he taught there, but he doesn’t seem that way now.
- lando starts a betting pool about when Vettel will have a proper meltdown (it happens not when lando suspends the prof’s hole punch in a cube of jelly. it actually happens when charles and him cannot see eye-to-eye about the future of ocean conservation)
- wears ties with animals and insects on them. his favourite one is a gift from charles when charles graduates, it has bumblebees and his initials SV on it.
- alex digs up an article one day and everyone gawks at it because prof seb won some cross-continent European woodworking competition when he was 15
- nobody knows if he’s dating anyone, only to find out on the last week of second year that he’d eloped
hamilton
- teaches: philosophy of ethical economics
- has done several ted talks and is often invited to international forums with world leaders (like the WEF, Bloomberg Sustainable Investment Forum etc)
- there’s a student GC trying to predict what his hairstyles will be like every month, usually with 50% accuracy
- one of the first profs to pioneer public access to the private university via open university modules; definitely has a tie up going on with EdX or similar
- people think max will be the one to piss him off in seminars but it’s actually george who has deeply different opinions to prof hamilton on the issues of land tax
- famous for his induction / opening year classes which involve all students standing on their chairs in a circle and chanting an invocation until they can state the colours of their auras. it’s bizarre and somehow it works
- his TAs are the coolest people ever
- somehow fits a 36 hour day into 24 hours
- his spotify wrapped includes the hamilton soundtrack, britney, 90s rap, and Tibetan gong soundscapes on his 10 most listened of the year
- his favourite word is mobius. only him and nico know that this used to be their safeword.
rosberg
- taught: political economy
- former prof who went into industry and is now a venture capitalist
- used to be super close friends (“close” “friends”) with Hamilton. they went to the same prep school, rushed at the same finals club, were famous via the university debate team for their immaculate takedowns of other teams including a legendary debate final in their late 2000s student years
- had a massive falling out when rosberg decided to pursue a career instead of staying in academia
- feels a deep connection to andrew garfield’s portrayal of eduardo saverin
- similar to carla, dad’s name is also on a lecture hall, but nico had much more of an inferiority complex about it
- prof wolff once told him “i don’t see your future here ever surpassing prof hamilton’s”. Nico rage-quit once he had an offer from a VC firm and now Nico spends every other media interview subtly making digs about this
- somehow still lives in the same apartment complex as lewis though he drives a much better car now (a benz GTC roadster)
#f1 rpf#f1 imagine#f1 fanfic#formula 1 fanfic#lewis hamilton#nico rosberg#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#brocedes#yes i spent too long thinking about this#but what else is tumblr for#wiz.HCs
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.
#chyanne speaks#house md#hilson#hate crimes md#gregory house#james wilson#i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough#like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone#his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly#he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly#the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house#and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her#but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT#bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold#although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction#and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on#but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone#and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g#he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again#but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him#and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house#and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.
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WHAT MUSIC THE BAD BATCH WOULD LISTEN TO ACTUALLY THIS IS THE DEFINITIVE VERSION I'm kidding this is my very humble opinion. anyway let's go
Hunter — this man is the epitome of classic rock to me, (I know this is not a new take) but in much more of a AC/DC, Led Zeppelin, Deep Purple, Rainbow and Thin Lizzy way more than anything. I also see him being a lowkey Hendrix fan, and dabbles in some of the more psychedelic stuff from that time, a little Jefferson Airplane perhaps ('wish you were here' is his fav Pink Floyd album). I've been on the record saying that ZZ Top wrote 'sharp dressed man' about him and I stand by that, but I also see him rocking out to 'black night' by Deep Purple in particular
Wrecker — I see him getting on with most things, anything that gets him moving honestly, which is why I think particularly disco is his bag. man loves Donna Summer I'm telling you. I also see some acoustic guitar stuff there too: country, folk & singer songwriter stuff for when he's not up and dancing. big Johnny Cash guy from start to finish, every song. prefers the Creedence Clearwater Revival version of 'proud mary' (despite loving Tina Turner)
Crosshair — grunge. post-punk. garage rock revival. I'm talking The Strokes, Radiohead, Pixies. perhaps The Smiths thrown in there too. he likes Nirvana but he's not vocal about it because they're too 'popular' to be seen liking. he's pretentious but he keeps it to himself. 'boys don't cry' by The Cure hits home for him. secret Bowie fan but you couldn't torture that information out of him.
Tech— he will listen to anything that makes him think. he's analysing all the time. anything from Wagner to the Velvet Underground to math rock. in my minds eye he's a Dire Straits fan, and it's not so much a secret as he just doesn't let on. he appreciates the value of music in the same way as wrecker though, thus, one of his favourite songs is 'move on up' (the extended edition only) by Curtis Mayfield. the groove + the talent of the players + the interesting harmonies and rhythms, to him it's the perfect song. he's interested in the technological developments that brought in new genres and is fascinated by 80s music, as well as recording techniques like on 'Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heart Club Band' (but it's not his favourite Beatles album, that would be 'Revolver' ofc)
Echo— a big fan of anything soulful, singers are the main appeal for him. he loves listening to a rich voice. Ella Fitzgerald and Nina Simone right up to Florence + the Machine, Hozier and Adele. also has a thing for britpop, and he's more in the camp of Blur over Oasis, but he likes both. musical theatre enjoyer on the downlow. 'before he cheats' by Carrie Underwood is his go to karaoke song, and he cleans up every time (he's the best singer, but Wrecker still gives him a run for his money)
#i spent way too long thinking about this#was this just an excuse to yap about music? yes#i realise now theres not that much modern stuff#star wars#the bad batch#tbb#tbb hunter#tbb wrecker#tbb crosshair#tbb tech#tbb echo#trex nonsense
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Guess who :3c (Patreon)
#My art#Webkinz#Diamond#Ukadevlog#Ghostkinz#Ta-dah! My November behind-the-scenes project was this! The poll was for this reason! Though I already knew I'd start with her haha#Have a little preview to start us off - I have Lots of thoughts to each part of development I ended up in but I want to roll them out slowly#Not everything all at once anyway haha - thoughts get all jumbled now that I'm on this side of things pft#I wasn't able to finish A Version I'd be willing to publish in just a month - even then I only worked on Ghostkinz about 3 days a week so#But for the time I spent I'm quite pleased with how its shaped up so far! :D I got to implement a lot!#Actually learning-then-implementing-then-learning-then-implementing - it's a loop I've been out of for such a long time now :0#Really interesting to fall back into after so long away haha#A lot of my other projects have been Pick Up One Thing and then do that forever and I was tired-tired of that!!#So going into this project knowing that I'd only have November to Get Guud at as much of it as possible and then that was it#I think it helped propel me - didn't end with me getting stuck on Perfecting Just This One Thing#I'd read a bit and then go utilize it and then come back and read some more of Zarla's template/walkthrough - compelling system!#I still couldn't manage to actually finish in a month but I got up to Phase 4!! Previous attempts at Ghost-making has gotten stalled at 1!!#Maaaybe 2 but never anything beyond that - and while I didn't actually Finish any Phase apart from 1 I still read through much much more!#On top of the learning aspect being fun ♪ getting to understand some of the more technical side ahh - it was also just fun to read haha#Like a course that can be silly hehe ♫ Enjoyable even outside of getting to make a little guy for my screen haha#But also yes that too!! I'm really glad I finally settled on an idea that I feel confident in seeing through#The best part about reaching for the Webkinz style is that Webkinz uses vectors - I've gone on record multiple times as loving vectors#They're an exceptionally easy medium to manipulate and that was The Thing that had been holding me back from committing to Ghosts prior#Drawing every single thing when I already struggle to plug in my tablet...no...... But Vectors#You can see here that Diamond's expressions are just a matter of tilting her head and moving her tail - so so soooo simple with vectors#Being able to super-quickly put out a lot of different expressions and animations and piecemeal everything together...yes..........#And for what further I have in mind :3c It's really all I could ask for in an art style to seek ah ♪ Just right for my purposes!#I thought it'd be nice to show off Diamond-for-real as her plush next to her digital version as well :D She's still the only OG8 I have#I want more!! I'd love to have a code for her as well haha - secretly just started this so I can have a digital Diamond lol#Plush-Diamond actually wears a necklace these days but I opted to leave it off her for the photoshoot - maybe once I figure out clothes haha
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so. the line of tape. it's existence makes me lose my marbles to no end, but probably not in the way you'd expect. it's the fact that even with this clear divide they STILL spill over into the others space. i've see a lot of people talk about it as if it's this clear divide in the lab that hermann and newt steer clear from but that just isnt the case!
if it was, you'd expect the lab to look something like this layout
but look at the actual movie
it looks like more akin to something like this
newt's samples, tables, and stands for his dissection tools spill over the line right into hermann's space. there's definitely room on his side of the lab for everything, he's just. spread out across the entire lab instead. AND it seems like this is what the lab usually looks like, hermann only makes to point out the entrails on his side and not the rest of newts things, it's a shared space— not a divided one. what i'm saying is that even though hermann makes a big deal out of his side of the lab versus newts side vis-à-vis the intestines, he definitely doesn't care that much about separating himself from newt OR his space from newts space in general. the way i see it, they argue and bicker a lot but ultimately they find comfort in the others presence, hermann just doesn't want to deal with potentially-hazardous kaiju intestines right by his things ^^;
#pacific rim#pacrim#newmann#hermann gottlieb#newt geiszler#newton geiszler#benny beeps#should i tag this as newmann?????? unsure but im tagging it anyway because the intent is there#also yes i spent way too long illustrating the floor in a stylized and simplified yet faithful manner— what of it#anyway i love them and i'm thinking of them always#shoutout to gay scientists#and also to my friend toad for being willing to talk to me about these guys so often ^^#AND ALSO TO MY FRIEND ATLAS. because he read me the most beautiful think piece about pacrim that he wrote the other day#and im still thinking about it#and one more shoutout to everyone who's interacted with me irl in the year of 2023#because i have not been able to reel in my hyperfixation infodump terror radius at all ffdgjkdlkjg#anywho. uh. have a nice day/night if you're reading this!!!! i'm still working on those fic recs i promise!!!!#just taking longer than expected fjdlfgk i wanna make sure i do each fic justice
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Imagine person A lightly tracing “I love you” over and over again on person B’s back, assuming that person B is asleep. When person A is lying on their back, getting ready to sleep, person B moves closer and wraps their arms around person A, whispering softly, “I love you too.” Bonus if that’s the first time person A has ever declared their love for person B.
Person A: Ava ; Barbara Melissa
Person B: Janine ; Melissa Barbara
#i spent way too long thinking about this#avanine#barlissa#yes everyone is gay#ava coleman#janine teagues#barbara howard#melissa schemmenti
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Doing a Jekyll and Hyde/TMA crossover because I'm obsessed with both of these things. So here are my ideas of the characters so I can share my madness:
Jekyll is a Spiral touched Eye avatar, who in his college years was tormented by a creature of the spiral because of how different his outter and inner being was, but this pushed him into seeking information about what was following him getting the attention of Beholding until he fully but willingly fell into it's service.
Hyde is an Eye touched Spiral avatar who makes up that parts that were already designated to the spiral before Henry made his choice to fall for the Eye. Henry tried to get rid of all the spiral and evil in him when taking to potion but made Edward instead, because he was pure spiral he was basically born into being an avatar.
Gabriel is Lonely touched. He started to fall into the lonely once cousin dies, having not really had a connection with anoyone outside of him for years (im having his cousin die from seeing the trasformation and Edward's powers not Hestie for plot reasons.). But Henry seeing the spiral, stepped in so that the lonely couldn't take him. But it still has its affects and if Gabriel wishes he could give into the lonely at anytime.
Robert isn't aligned with an entity but the Eye does try to pull him to it. He researches the different powers and knows more about them than anyone. He takes great strides into helping Gabriel away from the Lonely not wanting to lose a friend like that. He also loves studying Henry and Edward having never seen someone with two entities attached to them like that. And after some research lobotomizes himself so he doesn't feel fear anymore so he can more safely study the Dread Powers.
Some story information under cut for those who would like it
They form a very gay 4 way relationship after some tense times. Henry desperately tries to keep his Eye powers from fucking up everything by either just Knowing things about his partner's or by ripping out their statements whenever he gets peckish.
Edward and Henry's relationship is hard as they work for such opposite entities, but they manage to slowly work things out. Henry likes to annoy Edward with random Knowledge that is unneeded or wanted at the moment while Edward manifests doors and illusions around Henry constantly. Hyde once accidentally trapped them in his hallways for two hours as he can easily make door appear while not in control of the body but making them actually do what he wants requires full control. They both have to feed differently so Henry has to always give Edward control after some time so that he can run off and horrify someone, this intern though helps feed Beholding as Henry can watch everything. It's a win win though it doesn't fully feed Henry's hunger and inevitably he as to find someone of his own to traumatize.
Hestie and Henry have a love filled but very tense relationship as Robert told Henry not to fall into the dread powers but he didn't listen. This is why they stop talking for a bit and instead of just Henrys mad science. One day Hestie found Henry alone trying to focuse on his studies only to find him bearly hanging on after not having eaten a statement in almost 2 weeks. At that point Hestie let Henry compell a statement from him. Henry tried to refuse, not wanting to hurt him, but eventually with some persistence and Henry asking a question in his weakness eventually got what was needed. There relationship was hard after that but it was the start of what would lead to their romantic relationship.
Gabriel has the favor of the Eye as he does love snooping into things and spent weeks trying to find out what Henry was really working on in his labs. And once Henry stepped in to help keep him from the Lonely their relationship was very quick to become romantic.
Gabriel and Robert have a platonic lovers sort of thing going on and Gabriel goes to Hestie first if he sees anything strange so that they can tell Henry together, which helps keep him from accidently pulling a statement from either of them or asking too many questions. After a while this isn't needed as henry can better control his eye power but it's always used as a fail safe just incase.
Robert hated Edward at the beginning, never having liked the spiral after seeing it's effects on people(being a doctor and all), and never liking how Edward could just know so much (thanks to Henry's connection to Beholding) to better fuck with people. But after Edward saves Hestie from almost dying several times, they start getting along.
Edward instantly loves Gabriel, due to Henry's love of the man, but has a problem with jealousy and throwing every man that ever talks to Gabriel into his corridors. This does include Robert but Edward always lets Robert out because Gabriel gets mad at him for it, Robert also gives Hyde a stomachache due to not feeling any fear. This loss of any other connection outside of the main cast doesn't help with Gabriel's loneliness but Edward is learning to control himself(it takes a while)
I do have my thought process for why Edward would be Spiral though I'm open for any other ideas if you would like to contribute to this madness.
#tma#the magnus archives#tma shitpost#the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde#dr jekyll and mr hyde#tma podcast#this is a very niche post but im so lost in this idea#i accidentally said jekyllvist instead of Jarchivist due to talking about tma and listening to the jekyll and hyde musical at the same time#so this was born#long post#why yes ive spent far too long thinking about this how can you tell?
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(genderly) chill as hell if i was only ever glimpsed / detected like this
#Shrouded In A Rectangle neither sleeves nor an open front to be besieged with? yes#just doing whatever else like doesn't matter. tee cargo shorts which is my best guess rn of my ideal outfit. + sandals Absolutely#unfortunately my hair could never do that. somehow neither am i yet like forties fifties? have i not been at this for eons?#i Can be like uh let's just nobody talk to me i'm busy pensively perceiving truths that you don't ever actually wanna hear about#just the other day it was like hey....a [way Having To Talk could be a difficulty / problem] was under my nose in this lifelong pattern#certainly noticing the Verbal Exchange Demand heaped upon burnout as like [delay delay delay struggle weariness stress]#but also who knows like spent plenty of time just probably indeed Not having to have such exchanges while burned out. not noting them#anyway like this isn't even [dysphoric Ideal Outfit until i could [whatever supposed even more ideal than that gender euphoria]]#though shoutout to that but like nah get shrouded anyway. the only [how do i look] im motivated to consider is: when it's a costume#when it's just me it's like. i guess whatever pants and a comfortable enough tee. need glasses. hair's w/e so cut quite short ig#might accessorize w/things that are fun to me like hey yeah yknow i might want a calculator watch#[yea as a kid it was like :( im actively appreciating the animals supposedly Gross or Bad] if i had hated little friends Sure yaay#if i had disorienting light effects like a pelagic creature. but you don't even need that. like hey i'm nd in real life. i got it#chat i'm in the walls too bestie lmao. if only my bigfoot pose reference Step was this good#tl;dr long rephrasing of my being like; now the gender slay....#& nodding & Noting when [worksheet exercise: what's your gender euphoria look?] is like shrug idk. but this is serving maximally to me; so#going Chat how can i up my uncanny stats. looking up ''isn't it like Uncanny knowledge e.g. so like why not....canny''#but i think the un canny is the Uncanniness Accuser's perspective. not of My ken. your literal weird one maybe#so again apt to be like jk i'm just autistic & shit; i got it....horror shit challenge impossible: Don't have sm typical mundane#[disability moment] as like Unsettling danger/malice cues. challenge impossible; again#subverted here like as [horror holding hands touching foreheads w/comedy] w/o Rescinding just casual disabled behavior/qualities#just remembered like three witches weird sisters etc macbeth. weird uncanny soothsaying gendering. word#anyway i should be shrouded (made no any connection whenever i put the blanket now over my head & shoulders in place min ago)#perhaps the real Ideal Look insight: i do not have any way i wish to be observed by people. secret passages / removed room anytime
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gay person that points at gay people
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 3#yakuza series#yakuza 3#yoshitaka mine#snap sketches#can we tell this started out as just a face study#i was just trying to draw mine's face cause Even After All This Time I'm Still Fickle About It#and then one thing led to another and. well. now we're here#i was just taking a cute little break from commissions and then of course i became possessed. typical !!#and yes i am still fickle on how i feel bout how i draw his face. i dont think this is bad but something always feels missing#maybe his lips.... OH WELL#i dont hate how i draw him i do like it just Again there always feels like somethings missin#oh well im not gonna dawdle on it too long ive spent enough time muckin around with this anyway
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It's 100% true that the Roy siblings did not choose to be Logan's children and Tom and Greg and the old guard did choose to work for him so their relationships to Logan are fundamentally different, and the degree of culpability they bear for their own moral degradation is also wildly different. But workplace emotional abuse is also very real and omnipresent in the way Logan treats the people who work for him. And one of the impacts of workplace emotional abuse is creating an extreme attachment to the abuser and becoming less cognizant and even defensive of their abuse towards yourself and others, and in cases where the emotional abuse is institutionalized and systemic it can also create a strong aversion to leaving because your whole sense of personal identity becomes wrapped up in the organization and so being forced to leave can cause an intense psychological crisis. I don't think the situation of working for Logan is at all equivalent to being his child but I also think that it's a bit misguided to imply that Tom and Gerri and Frank and Karl are operating from a place of pure rationality without any undue psychological influences when they make the choice to stay with and support Logan
#used to work at a place that had an extremely emotionally abusive president for years and years and the people who worked there long term#were FUCKED UP. it was wild#i think it's easy to overlook that on succ bc it's very secondary to whats going on with the roy family proper. as it should be#but I also think one of the questions succ explores in tom as a character (and others) is how difficult it can be to leave these situations#even if you did choose to get into them#I don't think 'tom can leave at any time' is really a fair assessment bc technically yes. but practically? psychologically?#like yes he bears responsibility for getting himself into this situation due to his own greed and selfishness in a way the roy kids do not#but that doesn't mean it's easy or straightforward to walk away#also. tom is married to shiv which places him in the unique position where the only way to walk away is to cut off both his wife#and the company he's spent his whole life at#he could have NOT married shiv this is very true. and I think the choice to marry her even after she lied to him about sleeping with nate#means that he did have some idea of what he was getting into. he knew this was not going to be the fairytale marriage he wanted#he already knew about cruises too. he knew waystar was corrupt#that moment was the opportunity to walk away and he did NOT take it#and that is on him#but that does not making walking away now any easier
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that one panel when rayleigh meets teach and he's like it might be childish of me but I really hate you so you better run I'm perfectly normal about that panel what are you talking about
#yes he might say so because of luffy or newgate but the man was also the cause of death of his best friend's kid he didn't even know existed#im so abnormal about that#actually rayleigh makes me so sad i can't think too long about him or i start crying#he lived a good life all in all actually which is great and I'm not saying i think he spent his life in grief#he's probably pretty satisfied with it#and i also understand why roger would entrust his son to garp and not him like#he was trying to keep him safe giving him to the most wanted man alive probably wasn't a good idea i get it#but imagine finding out ace existed two days before his death im SO sad for him he deserved the godchild he DID#ace could have been raised with he and shakky as parents can you imagine........ 😢😢😢😢#i love u ray-san#i hope you'll survive the whole of op and will see luffy become king 😢😢😢
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hi everyone, this is my monthly check-in <3
#not feeling so great lately...there's a lesion on my other knee now#and it most likely is cancer.#they want me to wait another 10 days for an mri???? like ur crazy#if u think i can wait that long.#sighhhhhhhhh.#anyway.#some cool things have happened#like spending all day in nyc with my partner on friday <3333#and um. i did wnt to vent about smth so uh.#ED tw#lately#my energy has been too low for me to wanna cook. which in turn made my stomach shrink a LOT#since i've been surviving by grazing on snacks.#and i didnt even realize i lost weight until i went to the doctor.#i didnt realize though that it would be even MORE lost when i weighed myself without my winter clothes#and uhhhh. i currently weigh what i weighed in my senior year of high school#which is the FIRST time i've been under a certain number in over SIX YEARS.#and i havent struggled at all w body negativity or ED thoughts in over a couple years. but.#now that my ideal gender expression has shifted more to the feminine side. and now that ive lost weight.#my brain INSTANTLY latched onto that#and was like omg YES do more of that#and it feels nice. this time im FINALLY not struggling to suppress my appetite!!! my body is doing that for me!#and obviously im still eating enough to live on#but still a huge caloric deficit. and rn my wheelchair shit keeps breaking on me. my mobility company is INCOMPETENT.#and my insurance might tell me i have to wait FIVE MORE YEARS for another type of chair......I WILL DIE BY THEN.#ugh everything is so complicated now. and im ALWAYS exhausted bc the sun sets at 4:30. i've just stopped binging and i replaced it with+#a LOT. of retail therapy. i've easily spent probably 1500 of my credit limit in the last 2 months. but you know.#that and not eating are 2 of the ONLY things i can control rn. out of all the fucking bullshit these useless people and my body put me thru#anyway. i'm sure you can tell how i feel rn. i'm just going to try doing anything else today.#vent
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Not to be sappy on main, but I will forever be a hater to people who say video games can't be a productive use of your time.
#ig it's time to talk about how#elden ring#literally saved my life#i spent my last 40 dollars on the game this time last year in fact#i was spiraling real bad at the time too#quit my job#quit my hobbies#felt so certain that i would quit school too#and then i decided hey i'm gonna play that game my old coworkers talked about just to feel closer to them#and i fucking loved it#i loved every second of it#it got me excited for the first time in years to try something new#maybe it was the sense of nostalgia it gave me for DA:O#but elden ring was the first game to make me feel like i was good at something in almost a decade#i don't care if you used a cheese weapon#or beat godrick with your bare fists#what matters is that you had fun#because let me tell you#if i hadn't been having fun#if i hadn't been looking forward to getting online every day and helping people beat malenia#then i probably wouldn't be here to post this today#anyways this is long but my point is- you have to live#no matter what it is#find something to live for#if playing elden ring keeps you excited to live than play it#if thinking master chief would be proud of you for brushing your teeth than by god soldier you go ahead and keep doing that#this is already really long but i also want to say#thank you all so fucking much for interacting with me#whether its my posts or from in game summons#fight on ye tarnished- i believe in you
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i am inquiring into bradley's letter jacket 👀
Thank you for coming to my rescue with the SOS ask in the tags! You’re such a gem for this, Monroe! 💖 (Part 2 of 2)
I shared some headcanons about it here! But I’ve got more details for you!
About Bradley’s Letterman jacket:
The jacket is black with white sleeves, trimmed with black and cardinal red stripes, and has matching red buttons.
Left Front:
-Patch on his left chest is a ‘W’ for Washington High School
-embroidered inserts into the ‘W’ is a small baseball with 3 bars under it, 2 white stars and 2 gold stars (one for each year on the team: white for participation, gold for captain)
-cardinals mascot patch on pocket
Left Sleeve patches:
-baseball
-2 state championship (sophomore and junior years)
-3 all-state baseball chevrons with the year embroidered on it
-#10 (his jersey number) above the cuff
Right Front:
-Bradley in embroidered in white script
-2005 grad year patch on pocket
Right arm patches:
-US flag (just like Mav)
-red chevron with white ‘captain’ embroidered on it
-scholar athlete patch (he’s smart and pretty!)
-NHS torch
(He always joked about saying he deserved a tennis patch for all of SG games that he sat through.)
Back:
-‘Bradshaw’ in block lettering, red with a white outline
-two baseball bats crossed over each other, a mitt with a ball in the middle where they intersect
-underneath that in a smaller font ‘Cardinals’, matching color and font as his last name
^general vibes
^inspo for the image on back and a couple examples of the patches on the sleeves
^the font used for the embroidery on the front
#and yes I did make a little mock up of it#I spent way too long thinking about this today 😂#Bradley’s letterman’s jacket#Bradley and sweet girl#inbox 💌#let’s talk headcanons#answered asks
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You can take one quick look at my blog and know that I’m a very post whatever I want, for myself first and foremost kinda bitch, of which I absolutely am, but I won’t lie and say I haven’t had my days where I go “why bother” when I spend hours editing a story post, and see it get way less engagement than a GIF set I spent probably 10 minutes in Photoshop slapping together.
These feelings can coexist, lol.
#i won’t say it isn’t partially my own wrong doing bc i don’t do tzr’s and i don’t stick to anything long enough to draw an actual crowd#which is why i usually won’t post my frustrations about it#but do i get frustrated?#absolutely#i just don’t want y’all who do engage with my content to think you’re undervalued#i might post for myself yes but i post for you too 🫶#i spent so much of my childhood not seeing myself in the content i consumed#being able to create that content i wanted to see and share it with others brings me joy#i hope it brings you joy too even if it’s frustrating at times
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