#yeah... so this broke me...

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yeehaw, baby!

[synthetickitsune]

Invitation.

Synopsis: Jeonghan receives an invitation to your wedding with someone that isn't him.

Characters: Yoon Jeonghan × Reader × Choi Seungcheol (mentioned)

Genre: Angst.

Word count: 1k

Inspired by: 张远 - 嘉宾

This is an add on to this Seungcheol drabble.

Jeonghan couldn't believe his eyes.

"What's this?" He looked down at the envelope you were holding out to him.

You swallowed the lump that formed in your throat and curled up the corner of your lips briefly in what you had hoped was a convincing smile.

"It's an invitation to my wedding with Seungcheol," your voice grew an octave higher and you prayed that Jeonghan would believe you were actually happy.

Jeonghan snatched the envelope out of your hand and tossed it onto the table next to him.

"I know what that is!" He exclaimed, exasperation building up within him and tears of frustration staining his cheeks.

You stood still before him, gaze falling to the ground, not daring to look at him for even a second because you knew that once you did you wouldn't be able to keep up the act for any longer.

Jeonghan placed both hands on your shoulders and shook you slightly, silently begging for you to look at him but you refused to.

"Y/n," Jeonghan's voice was softer now but you heard the pain in it. "Please, explain to me what is going on."

You couldn't look at him. Not when the guilt from so brutally hurting him was eating you up alive.

"Please," he pleaded again. "I just don't understand."

You let out the breath that you'd been holding in and tried your hardest to will away the tears that were threatening to fall.

"I'm so sorry, Jeonghan."

"I don't want to hear that," his voice grew louder as his hands reached down to grab onto yours, the grip on you stronger than what you were used to and he squeezed once. "I want to know why!"

Deep down inside, Jeonghan knew why. He'd known for a while now about you and Seungcheol's arranged marriage for both of your families' business deal, the rumours had long been circulating within the industry.

But he chose to ignore it, being naive enough to trust that things would turn out differently.

The apartment fell silent, the only sounds that could be heard were your breathing and his soft sniffles. It stayed that way for what felt like an eternity before Jeonghan finally spoke again.

"Why didn't you fight for us?"

"You don't think I've tried?" A defeated sigh left your lips and you wanted to scream from the suffocating weight of hopelessness.

Jeonghan believed you and he knew this was it.

This was the end of what the both of you had.

"Do you love him?" The hesitation was evident in his quavering voice.

He was afraid to hear your answer because regardless of what it was, he would still end up losing you and he couldn't decide which was worse — you being in love with someone that wasn't him or knowing you were about to marry someone you didn't love and him not being able to do anything about it.

"Jeonghan..." You attempted to avoid answering him by trying to pull your hands out of his grasp.

"Look me in the eyes and tell me you love him and I'll let you go." Jeonghan tightened his fingers around yours. He was desperate and was holding onto the last bit of hope, he knew you were never good at lying. "Do you?"

You blinked back your tears once, then again before finally lifting your head to look at him properly for the first time that night and you noticed how broken he looked.

Jeonghan was an absolute mess. His eyes were bloodshot and his face was wet with tears and it took everything in you to not pull him into a hug and tell him that everything will be okay.

You braced yourself and looked him in his eyes and you wish you could forget the sorrow you saw in them that night. You had hoped that all the memories you will ever have of Jeonghan would be only happy ones.

But this was reality and it was cruel — agonizingly cruel.

"I do, Jeonghan." Your lie came out as barely above a whisper but he heard you loud and clear.

Jeonghan couldn't help but let out a brittle laugh at the fact that those were the very same words he had dreamt of hearing from you, but in vastly different situations than the one you were currently in.

He had imagined hearing it while he was down on one knee, holding out a ring to you.

He had imagined hearing it as you stood before him in your wedding dress exchanging vows.

But he had never imagined hearing it this way.

Jeonghan finally lets go of your hands and his arms fell limply to his sides and you watched as he was about to walk away and a strange feeling of both heaviness and emptiness washed over you simultaneously.

He suddenly stopped and turned to face you and your breath caught in your throat.

"Can I give you one last hug before I go?" He forced a smile but the sadness never left his eyes.

You nodded.

He moved towards you to engulf you in his arms and you stiffened for a brief moment as you tried your hardest to fight the urge to lean into his warmth but you ultimately failed and gave into it.

"This would be the last time," your heart ached at that thought.

Jeonghan felt the way you were melting into him and he knew. He knew you didn't love Seungcheol.

He started stroking your hair gently, something he used to do whenever you needed comforting and you let your forehead fall to his shoulder.

You felt so incredibly selfish.

You had hurt him to his core and here he was, comforting you when he was the one who needed it more.

At the realisation, you began to pull away, not wanting to cause him any more pain than you already had.

Jeonghan's fingertips came up to brush away the tears at the corner of your eyes and he leaned in to let his lips ghost yours so lightly that you could have sworn it had been your own hallucination if it weren't for the fact that you could feel the pressure in your chest.

"Be happy," Jeonghan murmured before walking out of the apartment.

a/n: a HUGE thank you to @synthetickitsune for helping me beta read this and for giving me the confidence to post this! i really appreciate everything. 🥺🩷 i love you and i am once again, sorry for the pain and i am also sorry that it had to be jeonghan. 💔

feedback is always greatly appreciated and thank you if you'd taken the time to read this. 🫶🏻 -bibi

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

hrrrmmmmm.. I know it isn't halloween BUUT

more vampire/werewolf fiddlestan?? :}

Took me FORever to answer these, you guys don't even want to know the amount of asks I have that I really want to answer with full comics 😭🙏

Anywayy, sorry to keep you, @elishevart waiting for responses to your asks, when you've sent so many, so long ago!!

Comic time 🤞😋

I call this one: Second hand embarrassment and surprise guest: Continuity Error!! ❤️

Previous!!

First!!

[fangirl-paba]

“Hey, Carlos”

“Hi, Baby”

It’s the way Carlos so calmly answered the phone because he knows that’s what TK needs right now. 😭❤️

[fairycosmos]

i wish i had a purpose in life and a supportive network of friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hulloitsdani]

Everyone congratulate The Order on the adoption! Look at their new son!!!

[queerum]

aromantics are way too comfortable implying friendship is the most valuable part of life to bitch about alloros doing the same thing with romance

[sluttyhenley]

Okay, John, go pose with your wife! Let's make it official.

THE PACIFIC Part Eight

[somewhereincairparavel]

a little thought to ruin your day: After Piper broke up with Jason, he had to deal with his heartache all by himself, isolated in a mortal boarding school with nobody to comfort him. No family. No friends.

[maudiemoods]

Couldn't sleep until I doodled them argurhhgg

HAPPY BIRTHDAY?? ok I need to know why that's his first line after being rebooted?? Maybe I'm overthinking it?? Was he first booted at a birthday party? Is he just saying that? Is it Cassy's birthday? How can he tell if so? ALSO their innards are exposed AURGG!! we get to see some of their skeleton yayyyayy AND HIS VOICE!! first reaction was "hm :|" BUT!! NOW!!! it makes so much sense AURHHGG me thinks when they were recycled and used for the daycare instead of the theater, they were reprogrammed with a calmer voice hrbnrnnrn but they didn't like it?? Or wanted something unique to themselves so they changed it??? GRR!! IDK!! but the voice has sun's casual energy and moons soft low tone kinda? Maybe? Idk!!! But I really love them grr expect more art when my eyes aren't burning so much!! Good night!!!

[saudrag]

jim, when he finally understood spock’s reasoning in menagerie, part 2: spock! you could’ve just told me! (and i would’ve broke the rules for you)

spock, as noble and kind as he is: and make you face the death penalty too? no… one of us is enough

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

all the rise boys get done dirty on characterization by fandom in different ways i think. (not ALL the time every fanwork etc etc these are just like, trends i tend to notice?) every fandom suffers from losing character nuance.

- leo i’ve talked about plenty on this blog, how some of his canon traits (genuine belief in his skill and cockiness, capacity for joy, his manipulativeness whether for good or ill) seem to get watered down or wiped off the board and supplemented with generic sad boy. his struggles with purpose and identity and not wanting to fail somehow morph into “he hates and completely holds no value for himself”

- donnie’s canon personality gets blurred out and largely replaced with whatever list of Neurodivergent Traits. and i think there’s such a fine line to walk between exploring a character that’s been word of god confirmed as on the spectrum and overwriting what’s canonically there. it’s a hard needle to thread. it also feels like a lot of his canon emotiveness gets left off the table for some reason. bc he does have his moments of flat/deadpan delivery, but a lot of the time he’s honestly very emotive. he has the passion of a theatre kid and the vindictiveness of... also a theatre kid. and the mind of a scientist.

- raph loses so much of his rowdy teen boy energy it’s kind of wild? like interpretations sand off that he’s also impulsive and can be reckless and dumb and LOVES fighting and roughhousing and isn’t the most eloquent person. suddenly there’s this pitch perfect soft boy big bro who would never hurt a fly and always says the exact right supportive thing and singlehandedly raised his 3 brothers (which simultaneously sands off all the nuance of splinter’s issues emotionally connecting with his sons and how that affected all of them). and like i LOVE raph, he’s so full of love and care and anxiety, he clearly has learned to put a lot of work into being aware of his strength and size. but there’s a difference you know?

- mikey is like. where raph gets overparentified by fanon, mikey gets over “family therapist”-ed IMO. the impulsiveness, the goofiness, the powerful emotions including a VERY powerful temper, the flat-out dumb teen boy choices... they get ignored. suddenly there’s this only very sweet and earnest boy who has read a hundred psychology books and runs group family therapy weekly or something. he is crying in his room bc leo and raph are arguing about something. which is so. he IS very sweet and can be very earnest and is full of love! he HAS come in with his opinions and unsolicited advice a couple of times and life coached for the greater good. but there’s a difference between what he does in canon and the role he gets in fanon.

[necrotic-nephilim]

Cass: *About Jason and Tim.* Both intelligent and capable. Until together. Then dumbasses.

correct and canon. these two cannot exist around each other without doing something stupid. Jason turns into a sad kicked puppy when TIm says no to him. for utterly no reason, Tim breaks Jason out of prison. Tim puts on a Batsuit just to go fight Jason, who also put on a Batsuit. neither of them can ever be normal around each other. i think it's funny if other Bats notice Tim's crush bc Tim can't stop doing increasingly stupid things around Jason. it's like he loses his braincells when Jason is in a twenty mile radius, all while complaining about how much he can't stand Jason and how childish Jason is. meanwhile Jason is rebuilding the wall of pictures of Tim he had during Lost Days, just with new pictures, probably, all bc Tim passingly said Jason was a frustrating asshole. it's a self feeding cycle.

[each-uisge-enthusiast]

i do not have reasoning i just want to see the arthurian knights as coworkers in a grocery store bc i think lancelot n gawain would murder each other over the correct way to stock the shelves

[mono-socke]

this is what I call a break well spent

(the last one is my attempt at being funny)

[the-strawberryfarmer]

“I’m not letting him go”

:’)