#word dissasociation

[twoplayer-game]

LEMONTOBER DAY 11: DAMN SKIPPY (word dissasociation)

hey um i decided to start doing this halfway through the month here you go (original photo under cut)

[thatkoiboi]

//WARNING: meltdown, dissociation, spiraling//

I'm proud of you and all your accomplishments! Everything will be okay <3

[rupertbbare]

[smallerthantherain]

Passenger

I’ve died again

Feel myself

crumbling within

I don’t know who that is

looking back at me in the bathroom

They’re a stranger

that acts like me

sounds like me

looks like me

but I don’t know who they are

When did that person

take over my body

I’m looking down at my hands

and it feels like I am lost in a dream

Watching someone else

walk inside my skin,

trapped behind my eyes

and wondering when

I’ll live again

[fentanyl-rabbits]

Sick head

[overstimulated-autism-creature]

[passionfruitmango]

When you feel so many "bad" emotions that your system goes cold and you full disassociate.

[myinnerhumandreams]

They say that those who have gone through the most are the strongest of people, yet they fail to realize that the strength comes from the disassociation from reality.

[sanguivorouscorvid]

I love it when an artist makes a song with meaningless lyrics it’s genuinely one of my favorite things

[happy-yellow-flower-children]

okay, just talking. just talking

need to write it down

she sat on the floor of the hallway. right by her shared room. other people sat near their's as well, some in the doorway of the room however. they scratched at their skin, feeling it come off, layer by layer. ripped into tiny bits. yelling came into her ears. it wanted to plug them, it couldn't. "you girls make my life miserable, you are all so damn selfish, worthless, pathetic!" ms. [CENSORED] yelled, a [CENSORED] hid his face, he didn't like that. she stared off, [censored] was angry, someone had hid paintbrushes in their room. it scratched at the skin more, fading away from the hallway. she was still there, somewhat, but they were floating, the pain and yelling staying on the ground. "SHUT UP! YOU GIRLS HAVE NO RIGHT TO EVEN SPEAK! DISOBEYING ME CONSTANTLY!" ms. [CENSORED] screamed. it flinched. the burn on their hand started screeching at her, it covered it's hand, hiding it from prying adult eyes. "I DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO YOU! I'M A LEADER, NOT A FOLLOWER! NOBODY SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU!" [CENSORED] roared, her face was infuriated. they grimaced, [CENSORED] made it worse, it noticed tears. she had started crying? she didn't remember that, she just felt fuzzy. the yelling got louder, they scratched more, their knuckles were now bleeding. "are you okay?" a person whispered from across the hall. it stared. not moving her lips. to afraid. too afraid. she wasn't even 14 yet. it was once a child. could they be called a child now? she wondered that night, covered in a blanket. they weren't human, humans were filthy and selfish. it wasn't like that, it was different than humans. it thought, dehumanizing itself was easier. accepting this cruel reality was hard. she couldn't hurt if she couldn't feel the emotion. she let go. it became apathetic. nobody truly did matter. just another nuisance. they wanted to go home. they cared, no they didn't. it would stay until allowed to leave. humans were in charge. not her. sleepyness was normal as she just kept floating away. it decided soon after, they were not human. she decided after that she keep on a lovely facade, become the peace in the room. all while it raged inside of the husk.

[my-girlhood-memoire]

when the darkest part of me meets the darkest part of you it creates light

~

[tinylittlecubby]

I totally agree with you! Some aros don't fully realise that what they want is an actual romantic relationship cause they think that romance is what you see on TV.

Out there, in real life, where it seems most of yous/them don't live, that's what romantic partners do. Intimacy, understanding of each other and blah blah blah

I feel like I'm losing my mind when talking about aros wanting to be in romantic relationships and I just remember that being aro also includes feeling low romantic attraction. So perhaps they are speaking from the perspective of being in the moments of when they are feeling it.

I still feel annoyed though because literally all of society has/is built for them so like, go talk to your allo friends about it please

(Also relax with the 'they dont live in real life' everyone lives in real life and their experiences are still very much real. I do not miss risperidone)

[killahmaria]

i am a parody of a person. i tremble from door to door trying to find what i once lost. fill the emptiness within my soul. my unachievable goal.

[hollowfairybabybat]

wasnt there one wanting you to put an apple in your mouth? acting like you were dinner? maybe vore and the cannibal thing are the same

ah fuck u could b right but i have literally no memory besides what i said lmao

[fentanyl-rabbits]

I want to live in the unreal (my head is my home)

[untiltheshadowscease]

accidentally mentioned i had been dissociating when talking to my mother and got to be lectured on why i shouldnt use terms like that because i clearly don't understand the ~implications~

...like ma'am I dissociate all the fucking time. idk what implications youre worried about but if they arent bullshit then theyre probably actually applicable lmao