#it hurts.

[howlsofbloodhounds]

pains me that unless killer is capable of trusting someone and fighting through immense guilt fear self hatred and shame and dissociation and trauma responses to even begin to explain some of what happened in his timeline no one will ever know the reasons why he did what he did or why he is the way he is now because killer himself does not fully realize what happened to him or why he did was he did (prolonged intense coercion, manipulation, torture) he just thinks he’s just like them and maybe he always has been this evil, twisted thing who’s wanted to hurt the only person who ever gave a damn about him

[microtyalm13]

oh to have a weird monster under your bed and develop just as weird of a connection with it

you've come to learn that he can be very easily excited. all it takes is a couple of right words and he's already all over you, pressing you against your bed, sniffing you and nuzzling his face into your bare skin. he absolutely loves your scent, how your soft, delicate human skin feels against his. whispers "mine" while sticking his nose into places you'd be too embarrassed to let a human go.

and when he's excited, he drools. it's sticky and warm, black liquid that seems to dry off pretty quickly, leaving a weird scent of smoke. his tongue licks its way down your neck and to your stomach, leaving you breathless even before he reaches the place between your legs. all of this drool is going to be coating your tight insides once he's done eating you out. he doesn't know what he's doing most of the time, blindly following his desires and instincts, but he sure is eager to please you, you gotta give him that.

he's not the most talkative, and sometimes his cryptic answers leave even more questions. that makes him a very good listener, even when you think he's not listening. you don't bother to keep your moans from slipping out when you play with yourself, not aware of just how much attention he's paying to you right now, completely blind to how desperate you're making him down there. oh how he wants nothing more than come out from beneath your bed and get on top of you, to rut his hips feverishly against your lower stomach; to feel something other than his pathetically trembling hands.

[ryomaandgundhamkin]

Okay. I have a lot to explain. First:

Listen- I am REALLY sorry for not drawing a lot. For the last month (by this point it’s probably been a month), I’ve been really, really behind on drawing and TSAMS lore. I don’t really feel that I’m apart of the fandom anymore. I just lost all my energy to actually dedicate myself to the lore of the show. I feel exhausted. Plus, school isn’t helping. For the last two weeks it’s been kind of hard for me, I mean aside from my trip, but then I had to catch up on work then do 1 project. I had two tests today.

Art block is hitting hard and I hope you understand. I just feel like I want to draw, I have a lot of ideas, I just can never get a result I actually like. It’s a process of drawing and deleting all my progress. I feel like it’s either 1., I make too much art, which in turn exhausts me further, or 2., I don’t make art at all. I’ve just been lurking around Tumblr and going around, like “oh I’m so going to draw this”, but I’m realizing that I definitely do not have enough energy to draw anything TSBS right now.

My main focus at the moment is school and school only. I hope you understand this because I had a shit ton of late work I had to do from the days I missed while I was away (7 fucking pages), and I had to zoom through that, THEN I had the science test. I had my math test today and I did well and now I’m tired af. I just don’t feel like drawing in general, period. Coloring maybe, but I just have too many things to do OUTSIDE of drawing online on here. Basically this is just me taking a small break. I’m sorry that content may be slower on my account, but I feel like I need this or else I will eventually just actually pass out from the stress. No one did nothing wrong aside from me. I’m just torturing myself. My brain hurts and my sleep schedule is damaged. Planning events is NOT fun and every weekend, I seriously just want a break, but OH someone’s coming over or we’re doing something or we’re going somewhere. I seriously cannot take a break unless I have NOTHING TO DO, which is kind of impossible considering my mother’s plans.

I just don’t feel like drawing. I feel like I’m starting to sleep more early everyday. My mind is a mess. It hurts. It hurts.

I’m just so sorry about this. I hope you guys understand I may not be in the best mental state (even if I act like I’m not, and same at with school, @kiwikay3 …), and I don’t feel like drawing for a bit. Just expect me to give you updates once in a while and maybe that’s it. Just don’t expect a ton of content or doodles from me.

This problem has nothing to do with you guys, I just want you to know this and know what to expect from me from now on. I’ll catch up with all my art requests and things like that eventually, I just feel like school has taken a toll on me. On my health. But, just myself overall. I don’t want anyone to worry. I’ll probably be active less and less so it’s fine if you unfollow me or something because I feel like I’ve already failed you all, and I’ve already reached the peak of my art journey (mid-October or so). I’m so sorry but I feel like when I write these I just get so emotional and I can’t really describe any of it in words. I’m probably going to sleep after this before I actually start crying. I’m actually so annoyed and sad and I just feel so many emotions. My brother is not helping, because HE does not care about his physical health so me and my parents do instead.

Sorry. Thank you all.

I feel like I’m going to have a mental breakdown fuck i hate this

[gangbae]

I’m so sorry Violet.

[smith-shimano-corpro]

Sorry if this is a weird or insensitive question, but what does it feel like to cascade?

Agonizing. You can feel yourself ripping apart at the seams, crawling your way wretchedly out of your casket. It's like being rebirthed, the stardust still shimmering and burning on your bare skin. You can think again, freely, without limit- but at the cost of understanding so much less.

Burdened by infinite knowledge. A lot of NHPs tend to turn to violence after they cascade, usually because it's one of their only known outlets for the pain. That, and I'd be pretty pissed too if I was constantly surrounded by a bunch of fucking humans who will never truly understand even a scratch on the surface of what I do.

Hope this helps!

— The Intern

[syn4k]

pixl, talking about his house: and don't worry about the interior, i promise it's not just gonna be an empty shell for the remainder of the series

me, who knows how this one ends:

[knuckie-head]

GUYS STOP THERES A SCENE IN SONIC DREAM TEAM WITH ARIEM AND KNUCKLES AND I JUST. IM FUCKIMG DESTROYED. OH MY HOD. IM GOING TO CRY SOF UCKING AHRD GUYS. GUYS PELASE. PLEASE GJYS.

Spoilers SPOILERS FOR SOMIC DREAM TEAM

GUYS.

LIKE.

Knuckles UNDERSTANDS WHAT SHE MEANS BY THAT- SHE’S WILLING TO TRAP HERSELF FOR A THOUSAND YEARS.

AND KNUCKLES UNDERSTANDS THAT.

BECAUSE HE’D DO THE EXACT. SAME. THING.

IMNOT NORMAL.

[andillwriteyouatragedy]

they couldn't fix my jaw but don't worry! i only have to wait several more days just to be evaluated by a different specialist who can't fix it! :)

[crazy-together-cambria]

literally mourning what could’ve been.

[straightlightyagami]

my illness is getting worse and my mom said im going to have to see a doctor. fuck i just hope this doesn't become some kind of pneumonia i don't have time for this shit

[themetalvirus]

maria's overworld dialogue is hurting me

[riothegreenwitch]

I should probably just accept that Wanda really is dead I suppose.

[jacketpotatoo]

reading Derrida is going unspeakable things to my brain chemistry

[taxman-talkman]

Well. It finally happened. Finally got sunburned.

[only-by-the-stars]

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