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thegoblinwitch · 2 years ago

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finding a kink and queer-inclusive therapist, with experience with patients with chronic pain/illnesses, and within my fairly limited budget, is like finding a needle in a haystack. i hate it.

#don’t point out the nhs #it’s a fucked up system #which i’ve already tried #their go to answer is antidepressants #and a waiting list that is minimum 1 year long for a therapist #no thanks #i’m exhausted already #this is not helping #they don’t make it easy to try and help yourself #why is it so fucking expensive #and though i know it’s worth it #logistically i can’t afford it #no mater which way i look at it #mental health #kit's #diary

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beesorcery · 8 months ago

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hello it's part 3 of 3 for my cool fun graphic design adventure!! part 1 and part 2 got too long. to recap i am recreating this t-shirt design but with the magic 8 ball songs instead of city names:

here is the current draft, updated through 3/27 (pittsburgh) (!!!!)

#aaaa!!!#tried doing image descriptions for this one #feel free to send me better ones though and i can update the alt text!! or just put them in the replies/reblogs lol #bees' graphic design adventure #only 7 more shows........ wowie #OH ALSO ppl have been expressing interest in getting this as an actual shirt which is!! cool!!#idk how to do that though!!#if anyone has recommendations for websites or something to do that please please send them or reply to this post or something #at the very least i'll make the file available at the end so ppl can print it on whatever they want #i was gonna make a poster #but yeah let me know if there's a good way to do that!!! it's really cool that people are enjoying this i am having a lot of fun doing it #fob #fall out boy #2ourdust #gonna update after nashville des moines and minneapolis so 3 left!!!#i have already changed it since posting this because i am a freak <3 and i cant leave good enough alone lol #also i now have all the fonts <3 for the cities anyway #not the states but i’ve only used the states a few times so far for like the parentheses or punctuation or whatever #so if i end up needing those ill go find them whatever #anywayyyy yeehaw see u all in like 4 days

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kaythefloppa · 29 days ago

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Am I doing this dark humor thing, right?

#dark humor #tumblr memes #memes #thanos #traumaversary #half birthday #tldr for anyone wondering October 27th 2020 was the day a bunch of virtue signaling Discord bronies decided to blackmail and threaren me #when many of them were adults and I was 14 #You can find the full story linked on my strawpage #but yeah #bronies basically up and just made my half-birthday the pinnacle of my already horrible year #which sucks because it's so close to Halloweeen #And October in general is such an enjoyable month #It's one of those things that I can't undo no matter how hard I tried #but regardless #I've been able to speak up about my story and stand up for myself #That day was still one of the worst of my life but I can rest in peace knowing that I’ve been able to grow since then #so anyways here is some humor to cope with my trauma!#gonna go binge some Wild Kratts to soften the blow #trauma #partial vent #october

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livvyofthelake · 2 months ago

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hey can i just ask why everyone on here doesn’t like me anymore. i genuinely want to know what it is about me that’s so unappealing even to the so called pathetic loser website. like it’s actually been killing me lately that i’m not even likable or worth talking to among other freaks can someone just explain it to me. is the way i type just that off putting. or is it just that no one wants to talk to someone who’s not in their Current Fandom and all my interests are weird and old and everyone else just likes cooler things. wait no here’s my impression of everyone whenever i try to ask a question:

get it because it’s nothing. because i’m apparently so bad and so annoying and so socially untouchable that nothing i say can even be dignified with a response because no one wants to talk to me. because i guess i’m not pathetic enough in real life i had to be unpopular and unlikeable online too even to people who chose to follow me. like i’m not even going to apologize for depression venting because i’m pretty sure no one reads my posts unless they’re short and relevant to a tv show they like right now. my big hit post in days was this morning’s heartstopper post about how no one is even talking about heartstopper. well no one reads them except maybe tee in the morning hey tee what’s up don’t mean to be a downer i know your life is hard enough i just wish i wasn’t such a cringe loser people can’t stand to associate with. hope your day goes well don’t worry about me i’m too old to kill myself anyway this is already the lowest i can get. i just kinda wish people cared about what i thought idk. it’s not as if i can share niche book critique with my mom she doesn’t even like to read. whatever though. i’m gonna watch another movie

#like is it because of ex mutual who can’t be named because if i said who it was everyone would turn on me because no one likes me more than #them and if they knew there was a Rift I’D be persona non grata because i’m the unlikeable bitch and they’re yayyy happy sunshine 😁 popular #is that already happening is that what this is. it can’t be because i’ve felt like this since like. august actually #and i tried posting less to see if anyone noticed and no one did. and i tried posting more to see if anyone cared and they didn’t. so.#like whatever it’s not as if my life is this website it’s just that these days this website is feeling more pathetic than my life even #which is already the most pathetic and bad it’s ever been. but whatever

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flashhwing · 6 months ago

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hey y’all what are your favorite indie coffee companies. don’t say bones or death wish, but companies similar to them would be good. trying to branch out with coffee consumption. bags of ground coffee you can order online

#if. if they give you a sticker when you buy a bag of coffee from them even better #I only say not bones or death wish because I already have tried and like them. I want new stuff #the sticker thing isn’t important except it’s a little important because I had a silly idea to cover my bass guitar in stickers from #different coffee companies #which would actually mean I need to order another bag of death wish because I’ve already placed the stickers I’ve gotten from them #this has been a post

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months ago

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up next on chapter 36 of idol sengen… _(:3 」∠)_

#(my toxic trait is that i’ll complain about my work endlessly but still end up doing it anyway… eventually.)#there’s rant 1 (ft. a need to deduce what asuna is saying in full) and rant 2 (which is available in full but still…)#there’s also another mona-rambling session in chapter 38… that im not touching with a 50 foot pole #(all you need to know for that mona-rambling [about frusu] is that mona’s frusu oshi is all of them)#(and that she thinks miyu is like *the* pinnacle of centres in idol groups)#(also someone won a junior dance competition but idk who bc it’s obscured lmao)#can i outsource these panels for a corn chip lmaoooo #m. maybe i should’ve actually worked on this while i was still unemployed last month huh…#bc excuse me company wdymmmmmm im starting work next monday?? the interview was just this monday hello?#ig the interviewer was legit when she said ‘so if i asked you if you can start work next monday—’ huh…#sigh… maybe ch 36 next month then… i’ll do my best over the weekend thoughhhhh #seriously though why is this volume so text heavy l m a o i really wanna get to chapter 40 but…#and then there’s the hard to clean text boxes which… aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #…though i guess i should just count myself lucky that the chapters are still short enough to fit into a single post (with the image limits)#but dang. i just realised that my manga sengen thing has a page on manga updates lmao #who put it there lmaooooo and why is it only up till vol 2? wait. no. what. why does it link to manga.dex #bc dang. someone really had the time to dl the thing image by image? no wonder why they stopped after vol 2…#guess i might as well say why i dont want people to reupload my tls… since we’re in the final stretch and all #so. aside from the obvious ‘idw the creators to find out about it’… i probably made a ton of mistakes while tling it. esp in the early chaps #so i’d like to. y’know. have the chance to update the tls where possible. i’ve done that a couple of times already tbh.#like with rippei’s name post-vol 4 release. and some of the typesetting is p. gross in the early chaps tbvh #i swear tling idol sengen has made me incredibly conscious of grammar and typesetting like you wouldnt believe #esp with official tls… fan tls will always be perfect to me no matter how wonky the wording bc it’s hard but honest work yk #official tls (esp a.i tls) get no concessions from me bc it’s their job that they’re getting paid to do yk.#in any case (if you’ve read this far) if you see any mistakes in the tl please lemme know~~~ please dont hold back on your criticisms ok~~~?#just sound ‘em out in dms here or sth. don’t worry~~~ i won’t eat y’all if you try to correct me~~~~~ unless you’re the md reuploader (jk)#and ik i disabled comments on the other blog (or tried to at least) but that’s bc idw bots to flood the comments bc that’s annoying as he—#anyways sorry for the idol sengen wait (if anyone was waiting for it…) i’ll improve on my work ethic… tomorrow. maybe.

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malewifehenrycooldown · 4 months ago

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I say that I’m trying to learn amane’s gameplay and I do get it, however it’s more so that my brain defaults to playing (and thinking) as a rushdown character compared to playing a zoner - which is what aname is. Like his only real option for close combat is his drill special attack, and another special move but most of what he has is just long ranged attacks. Maybe if I played more zoner characters in fighting games then perhaps I might be able to get the hang of him a little more but we’ll have to wait and see.

#shallow rambles #blazblueposting #I’ve already completed arcade modes with Jin lambda Noel and bullet - characters that are more my style #or that at least are the ones I gravitate towards the most.#Now it’s just the hassle of trying to pick up a new character and trying to best execute their machanics.#I’ve tried to pick up makoto and she’s okay I guess - she is my style but it’s just trying to remember button inputs #look I love fighting games. But I also suck at them. I mean does it look like I’ll be able to master combos that have an #absurd window of time to execute them in?! Let alone even remember them?!#Honestly I’m just rambling about fighting game mechanics and how bad I suck at them lol #which is absolutely on me. Like you’d be surprised how much I lose in fighting games #it’s more so I’m very impatient which makes me prone to slipping up and getting my ass handed to me by the CPU

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floral-hex · 5 months ago

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I’m so tired. I’m always tired. This suuuucks. and I’m sad and shitty. I know it’s only been a couple of weeks, but I don’t think remeron is a workin for me. Accidentally typed “wormin for me” at first. I wish it was wormin for me. Why won’t you worm for me?😔

#anyone against antidepressants and stuff just… I guess… don’t read this? or follow me 🤷🏻‍♂️#anyways… I haven’t been on tumblr much. just not feeling it. I’m gonna lose all of my mutuals.#I was supposed to adjust to it. instead uhhhhh ah just in bed #I’m always low energy now #and now im having anxiety about telling my doc I don’t want to be on this prescription #which is like… apparently this is his go-to drug. which is already kinda ehhhh maybe a red flag. preference influencing prescriptions #hey sorry your fav drug kinda sucks #blegh #this might be looking a gift horse in the mouth but I did get incredulous when the only acclimating side effect I got was sleepiness #ever other med I’ve tried has had more annoying side effects #which… god this sounds so stockholm syndrome… but you’d think ‘oh this is rewiring my brain so it MUST have some real initial side effects’#feels like I’m basically taking benadryl that lasts all day or something #funny I just posted saying it was okay a few days okay. yeah it’s okay. until you get tired of being tired all the time #body! adjust already!#I have an appointment with my primary this week so I’ll talk with him about it I guess #went to the movies the other day and almost fell asleep during #I’ve basically been in bed all day. tonight I got really depressed for no real good reason. this sucks. sucks butt.#you can ignore this #text

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yaminerua · 6 months ago

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god. Seeing photos of myself these days makes me wanna die.

i need to see a skin specialist to give me something I can use to get this redness under control because it is severely destroying what little self confidence I had left lmfao

#I could live with it if it was just in the cheeks #but it’s how red my nose gets that makes me want to rip my whole face off #that’s what I get for being white and Scottish I guess #no-one else in my family has it like I do tho. I mean everyone has the rosy cheeks but in a charming kind of Santa Claus way #but I look perpetually like I’ve been sunburnt with goggles on #they tried antibiotics when I went before but it did absolutely nothing #so I’ve got another appointment coming up on my birthday #and I just know I’m going to burst out crying over how awful this stupid face makes me feel #I already cut out spicier foods which is so fucking shit bc I love spicy foods #but if it’s stress that keeps this flaring up constantly then I’m fucked #bc the stress in my life isn’t going to go away #I’ve looked into some other things other people swore helped them so I’ve started that in the meantime #but these things apparently took weeks/months to actually show signs of improvement #so regardless it’s a waiting game where in the meantime I just feel So Awful

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trashbaget · 8 months ago

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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe

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lesbiansanemi · 1 year ago

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*through gritted teeth* ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you ppl can ship whatever they want and it’s fine it doesn’t affect you people can—

#I need to stop seeing douma/akaza stuff like. now.#I’ve tried okay I’ve tried to even mildly like it and nope #I can’t do it. I cannot do it whatsoever #I JUST DONT GET IT I DONT GET IT I DONT GET ITTTTTTTR #I know it’s my thing where I viscerally dislike ships that are based on two characters #who are on the same side but STILL fucking hate each other #because literally no matter what it just feels so weird and forced to me #like they are on the same side. they have similar morals already. if they were gonna like each other AT ALL… they would #but yeah no I’m hffjdjdksk I can’t do that one anymore #and it used to be such a rare pair so it was really easy to avoid and now I’m seeing A LOT more of it and it’s getting more difficult #and I dunno part of it is the idea of shipping douma with ANYONE #like I can’t stand him being shipped with shinobu kanae or kotoha either #his canon interactions with them have just tainted it sooooo much for me #and like yeah rocks at glass houses I’m aware I’m the enemies to lovers weirdo who ships characters who keep trying to kill each other #but mannnnnn something about the idea of shipping a guy who terrified a woman so wholly she threw her baby off a cliff because that was a #better alternative to him getting his hands on her child? yeeeeaaaaahhhhh… it’s not gonna be for me folks #it is NOT a kind of power dynamic I am gonna enjoy when it’s that particular angle #the context of their relationship cannot be that removed to me #it’s just one of my person nope. can’t fucking do it don’t fucking like it kinda makes my skin crawl things #which in a way is unfortunate #cuz I actually do enjoy douma as a character a lot and I can enjoy certain explorations of him #where he actually DOES learn to be in tune with his emotions again and learn to care for someone #but I rarely see it done well #and when I see ANY of that so called ‘development’ linked to any of these ships #it’s usually just akaza or Kotoha or shinobu getting over their hatred/fear of him in way too fast and highly unrealistic ways #while douma does very little to actually develop himself he just kinda is Automatically better because someone loved him back #(in a way that’s usually out of character for everyone involved lol)#esp when any of these ships are showcased in a REALLY cutesy way like again it’s just not for me #I don’t think I can ever really jive with it #oh well. I should just block some more tags I just needed to complain a bit first lol

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justtogetthrough · 6 months ago

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Finally came to the realization that I’ve uuuh spent 15 years trying to apply other people’s interpretations of my life to my experience of my life, like over my own, and that’s probably why I’ve had immense struggle in making sense of things (understatement).

Being diagnosed with autism is finally making me understand what my therapist and the psychologist said a couple months ago about trauma not being the right lens for a whole ass portion of things. I heard them both independently say it. I apparently did not understand what they meant until this weekend. Now I’m like oh my god, maybe I’ve been wrong in trying to blame early life Trauma for all my problems, and that’s why I’m not getting anywhere in terms of feeling like I understand myself.

My therapist is very gracious every time I prove her right. I love that about her.

#my ptsd events didn’t happen until I was an older teen #I was already incredibly unwell before that and people have spent my whole adulthood telling me #my childhood was more traumatic than I give it credit for. that I’m minimizing.#so I’ve tried to be like hmm yes a traumatic childhood could be the only reason for being This Unwell #and then I spent 15 years trying to figure out which part was the Traumatic part because I disagreed #it took the psychologist phrasing it as ‘small t traumas’ in my early life to be like wait. it wasn’t a big T thing?#which was basically the whole outcome of the assessment. I’m very mentally ill but it’s because of the autism and the total lack of support #yeah yeah disorganized attachment and all that needs not being met consistently #but #my presentation and my life as I understood it hadn’t been lining up and it has driven me insane for over a decade #personal #aia

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peapod20001 · 9 months ago

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I think. It would be fun to make oc ship children

#random post #I know in my heart of hearts that I’d ducking SUCK trying to fuse oc designs together (I know because I’ve tried rip)#BUT I AM good at making ship children which is like. kind of close #and if I’m not careful. I’ll end up with new ocs. so. win #if u would like to help by naming some ocs of mine (hell. yours too if u want) I’ll try my hand at making some lil guys #I already have some thoughts in my head... cus I actually think about this sort of thing more often than you’d think LMAO

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malikson · 1 year ago

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