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deonysus · 2 months ago

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i find it strange that it’s a huge headcanon in the fandom that lily and james ‘rushed’ into marriage just because james got lily pregnant like.. c’mon.

they both knew they wanted to get married before they even had sex, maybe two or three dates into their relationship. and it’s absolutely terrifying when you realise that the person you’re holding hands with really is the person you’re meant to spend the rest of your life with even though you’re only seventeen and being married isn’t something that has ever crossed your mind because there’s a war going on and you don’t know if you’re gonna even make it to twenty.

but yeah. yeahhh. that’s exactly what happened to james and lily potter. they found a soulmate, a life partner in one another, and they couldn’t wait to get married and do it all together; to share a vow and a future and a home, to live under one roof and be there for each other through it all, to become one and to grow together.

and they weren’t held back by the same struggles that usually hold back other pairs of lovers; they were financially stable, and they’d both completed their education and were in the same stages of their lives. nothing stood in their way. they were ready to get married the moment they’d left hogwarts.

so no, they didn’t rush. it wasn’t because of an unexpected baby or a war haunting them; they didn’t get married because they thought they were running out of time. they got married because they couldn’t wait to spend the rest of their lifetimes together.

(they had no idea they were running out of time.)

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carlyraejepsans · 2 years ago

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toriel... what are your toriel takes today

i have a headcanon that toriel has a hand-washing compulsion where she does it wayy more thoroughly than needed, instinctively trying to scrub under her claws even when they're perfectly clean because she can still feel the phantom of dirt under them from the time she dug chara's grave.

#one. two. three. four hundred years. it doesn't matter when you buried your child alone #i think she was your obvious standard ''my son just died'' distraught at first just out of shock. but from the moment asgore declared war?#she swallowed her grief and acted as cold and rationally as she could. organizing her leave. taking the body without being noticed.#finding the ruins. sealing them. and yes burying the body. i think she held it together perfectly during that sequence of events #but when she went to wash her hands after it was done and she couldn't get the dirt out. and she could FEEL it digging into her fingertips #but unable to get the sensation out no matter how furiously she scrubbed & dug under them THAT'S when she truly lost it for the first time #and had a full on mental breakdown over everything that happened in so little time #and that experience kinda sealed itself in her brain. both mentally and sensorially. ergo: compulsion #this goat is so fucking traumatized #answered asks #undertale #toriel

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hella1975 · 4 months ago

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so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment

#so i explained before that there's 3 venues and on my very first shift they had me doing the restaurant venue for 2 hours #which was FINE like i was a bit cautious bc my manager is VERY stressed all the time and the place generally feels like it's falling apart #not the building itself just. the way it's run like it's just got new owners and the previous manager apparently #EMPTIED THE TILLS AND TRASHED THE PLACE like cost them THOUSANDS of pounds and on top of that #there was beef with the head chef and the new owners that meant he left and took the ENTIRE BACK OF HOUSE WITH HIM #THERE ARE NO KITCHEN STAFF ATM. I HAVE TO LIE AND TELL CUSTOMERS WE DONT HAVE FOOD ATM BC OF 'REFURBISHMENT'#WHEN IN ACTUALITY THE /RESTAURANT/ DOESNT HAVE CHEFS. DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS #and then the front of house staff are very lacking aside maybe 2 people we're ALL NEW and all of them EXCEPT ME #LIKE LITERALLY JUST ME IM THE ONLY EXCEPTION. ALL OF THEM ARE UNTRAINED #so when i applied with bar training coffee training and very solid waitressing skills they genuinely treated me like a saviour #like i am FENDING off shifts tbh im in a v good position bc they need me too much to get shitty w me if i refuse hours but i can literally #have as many as i want bc they will just give me them. like they're obsessed w me im rota'd for over 60 hours this week #but anyway that very first shift after 2 hours in the restaurant i then walked to the mini golf venue on the OTHER SIDE OF TOWN #and my manager stayed for 30 MINUTES. IF THAT. and showed me around the place + how to close THEN LEFT ME THERE #FIRST DAY HE GAVE ME THE KEYS AND LEFT ME TO RUN AN ENTIRE VENUE. IT'S NOT SMALL EITHER IT'S A WHOLE BAR #AND I HAD TO CLOSE ON MY OWN TOO and ironically the shift itself went rlly well like it was so chill #it was kinda boring but honestly i kinda rated it it's v easy money and the close went perfectly nothing cropped up that i was unsure about #and then. AND THEN. i havent even ranted to my mutuals about this yet bc i was acc so horrified by it but i locked the front doors #and went to lock the gate AND THE KEY GOT STUCK IN THE LOCK. WOULD NOT COME OUT. HELLA VS KEYS ROUND 3927593 #my mum even showed up and tried to help me wrestle this thing out i called my manager and he literally told me to just snap it #bc he'd rather a snapped key that NO ONE could get out than just leave it there overnight but bc of my recent house key moment #i was like AM I FUCK SNAPPING THIS KEY. WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING. so i had to just leave it and at the time #i was realllyyyyyyyyyy beating myself up but my manager is actually rlly nice he's just stretched v thin #and ive also had time to be like uhh actually they shouldnt have left a random 21 y/o girl alone with the keys on her first day #omg i havent even talked about what happened on saturday. ACTUAL SHAMBLES #LIKE THIS /\/\ ISNT EVEN CLOSE TO EVERYTHING! IM RUNNING OUT OF TAG ROOM! IM GONNA REBLOG THIS TONIGHT W MORE PROBABLY!#BC GUESS WHO IS WORKING A CLOSE LATER AT THE NIGHTCLUB THEN OPENING THE RESTAURANT AT 8AM. GUESS #hella slaves to capitalism

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camgoloud · 20 days ago

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award for most devil’s sacrament moment of the year goes without a doubt to this morning when my coworker (delivering presentation) (screen projected onto wall in front of me and god and everyone) opened a new tab in google chrome and in the number one spot among the collection of icons for frequently visited websites was. the ao3 logo

#when i tell you it took everything i had in me not to visibly or audibly react #and she didn’t react at all! so either she has a great poker face or didn’t notice or else also subscribes to the whole devil’s sacrament #mindset i.e. ‘well if they recognize it they have no room to judge’#which is of course correct! i’m not judging! i’m simply experiencing The Kinship That Must Never Be Acknowledged very acutely in a public #and professional environment!#this is also not really new information to me like i don’t know for sure if she’s on this website but i could For Sure have pegged her as #an ao3 girlie at least and i’m sure she knows the same about me #(throwback to the runner-up for the most devil’s sacrament moment award from last week when i (clearly online) mentioned that i don’t spend #much time on youtube but i find other ways to waste it and she was like ‘oh such as?’ and i cursed my big mouth and awkwardly went ‘well i #read a lot of fiction’ (true but NOT what we were talking about and we both knew it perfectly well) and then we both had to sit with that)#anyway! mini heart attack moment for sure seeing that symbol in that context but fun times overall :)#and this is why i will never ever open ao3 in a non-incognito tab lest my computer too decide to betray me. forever amen #[REDACTED] on the OFF CHANCE YOU END UP READING THIS and recognize yourself and thus learn my online identity. please don’t tell anyone #let’s keep the devil’s sacrament between us #caseyposting

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xcziel · 4 months ago

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has anybody else thought about how jk could easily manage sofia's parts of slow dance or is it just me?

#jikook #bts #everybody is working to insert jk in who where i just don't see it (other than the seven parallels)#and not talking much about what i see as WAY more obvious nods most especially in rebirth #like jm sings about wanting to be worthy of someone - maybe someone who just became a huge SOLO global popstar?#and mentions 'real love' - what was the name of that chapter in the bangtan book again?#and the feminine pronouns not present it's just the nebulous 'you' that in jimin songs often stands in for 'army'#(and one very specific 'fan' who has said he is ALSO army)#it's the 'i wanna be with you'#the answer for jk's 'i am still' with its unspoken additional 'still with you' layer #and then we get slow dance and we're back to the nebulous 'you' - on an island he-#oh wait what was that about a pair that traveled to an island? and filmed some stuff there that we'll see soon? hm #the reason this set me off though is the lines about 'cancelling my plans' to live to 'the tempo of our favorite song'#the falling deep into lines etc etc #because we know what happens when those two get together - they lose track of time everything else fades away #it's why they haven't done lives. why 'you and me' are 'up all night' why jm knows that as soon as jk is around #his self-discipline will crack and he'll fall into the pattern he tried to head off by separating from jk while making face #and we *know* jimin wrote on this song #frankly if he *hadn't* gotten a female feature everybody would be JUMPING on this song as a jikook anthem #the inclusion of sofia works perfectly - like hammering the pin back in a grenade #but i was reading those lines and thinking how high she went and going who else could sing this ...?#huh. who do we know of who can sing *anything*? and who has a range that can hit and blend with jimin's perfectly?#so. i dunno. y'all do your delulu the way that works for you and i will do my delulu my way lol #personally i think the eyes in the mv look like a screenshot from the love wins all mv but that's only me #i think the parallels with seven work more #and speaking of parallels (there are so many) i think this album was built to ensure jm is on equal footing with a certain someone #it's the commerciality of it - as though jm was like we will be together in this as well #when he seems not to be super interested in global domination but still 'special' enough to be on the same level with his love

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formulatrash · 5 months ago

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Why's Alex Lynn the second most iconic Jaguar driver?

I mean it's not going to be Nelson Piquet Jr is it?

#no but fr Alex was the first person ever to drive a Jag FE car #back when it was a dogshit piece of crap in S3 #and jaguar FUMBLED EVERYTHING and didn't go for a mitch and ace line up #love you adam carroll but they fucked up so bad there #we had to wait YEARS #and then they FUMBLED IT AGAIN #find you perfectly nice james calado but it once again was NOT a mitch and ace line up #how do you FUCK UP simply EMPLOYING ALEX LYNN this BADLY #@ the whole of Formula E tbh but especially Jaguar #Mahindra fucking firing the bloke and then he wins a race and then they fucked up and fired the bloke they fired him for for fuck's sake #what if we fired everyone who's ever fumbled Alex huh #what if that would improve motorsport #cadillac you are sus to me because you fired alex sims and i can never know peace #god remember when alex had that awful crash and mitch stopped his car on track and got out and went to pull him out of the wreckage himself #a motorsport moment not discussed enough on this website #alex lynn #my beloved

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maddieandangel · 7 months ago

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Had a weird Hollow Knight-related dream a couple days ago, so I decided to draw a major scene I remembered from it dgsgshf

More context will be in the tags, for those interested!

#hollow knight #little ghost #hk ghost #the knight #hk hornet #hornet #alright. as of writing these tags it's been a week since the original dream so! let's see what i remember dgsgsgf #i was playing a game. which was a sequel to hollow knight ((Not silksong though))#there was some new sort of divine infection in hallownest and hornet had asked ghost to investigate it. they ended the last one after all!#the red glowy spike gate thingy is what you jumped into to enter the 'infected' areas #though it actually led directly to a hub world type of place. which was kinda like an expanded base for the grimm troupe?#more like an entire lair instead of a camp. also some greek gods were there for some reason lmao. they had their own special rooms too #so sidenote but- new headcanon that there are grimm troupe members named ares athena artemis &... venus lmao. not aphrodite for some reason #also monomon was there?? i think??? except she was cooking????? she had a sidequest to deliver something to someone though i dunno hdgfhdgh #i remember going back to the grimm troupe lair a couple times throughout my 'playthrough'#anyway. the 'infection' this time around was more of a glitchy physical corruption thing? rather than a mind corruption.#though there were still aggressive enemies to fight. but i remember getting a map from cornifer early on and he was. probably infected #i think part of his body was covered in electricity or something? so he wasn't fully visible? but he was still acting normally #there was also a moth who was the seer but then later wasn't the seer (but was still the same moth) dghgdhf. i delivered stuff to her #that glowing white wall thing in the drawing was like a one-way gate. you could only cross it from the other side and ghost came from there #i guess things looped back up somehow i dunno ghdgfhgf #anyway. ghost's red eyes. those are significant! those happened while i was walking through a corridor. it had pools of shallow water #(shallow enough to just walk through) and also creatures that were lightseeds but red.the implication was that they were full of Blood lmao #and as i went along killing them--as one does--as i walked through the hall. they started turning the water red too #there was also narration about this as it was happening ashdgsf. specifically the narrator said the water turned red before it actually did #ghost's eyes slowly turned red too. but aside from that they were fine! since. they're the player character and the player is perfectly fin #BUT. when they encountered hornet again. she thought they were infected. and that she lost the only family she had left </3 #she didn't attack though. instead she just jumped into the red spike gate without a word. decided to try to fix everything herself #but eventually you'd encounter her again down below and she'd fight you. didn't actually get to that in the dream though #aand i'm out of tags </3 i wanted to talk about what i'd do to make this make more sense as an au or something now that i'm awake but. :c

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pergaminaa · 2 months ago

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Modern au:

Abraxos is Manon’s security blanket like— yes he’s her dog but to her he’s more than just that. She really can’t be without him she just starts falling apart and needs to have with her constantly.

As a dog breed, I honestly believe that Abraxos is a Rottweiler; looks scary and menacing (he will shred anyone who threatens Manon to pieces though) but he’s actually a cuddly teddy bear. He loves his human and is always attentive. He can sense her emotions and provide what she needs. If she’s anxious while they’re out walking he growls at the invisible danger, scaring any lingering creeps away. At home, he just wants to cuddle never mind his weight can actually crush her but neither Manon nor Abraxos cares.

#booklr #books and reading #throne of glass #manon blackbeak #tog #abraxos #she never planned on getting any sort of pet because my girl comes with ISSUES #but Abraxos? it was so random and she has no idea how she arrived at her place with the puppy #she panicked and called Asterin because help what do i do now im not prepared???#so Asterin showed up and they went shopping for everything the puppy will need #and honestly Manon was so in love and attached from the moment she got him #Abraxos loves her too and honestly he loves being around her #ofc he’s super protective and doesn’t let anyone approach her if she doesn’t like it #he can be scary when he wants to be and that works perfectly for them #but honestly Manon can’t function without him she needs him with her at all times

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hephaestuscrew · 1 year ago

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On the one hand, I love to reread my own posts because that's content tailor-made to focus on the things I like to think about! I agree with all of these opinions and interpretations!

But on the other hand it's a dangerous game because there's always the chance that I'll find a typo in a post from six months ago that I proofread three times before posting and now has lots of reblogs.

#The chances that there's a typo in this post feel pretty high #I hate the way my brain skips over typos when proofreading #I'm still haunted by the time that I sent a v serious work email #which I tried to end by asking 'what do you think?'#but I accidentally stopped halfway through that sentence #so the email I sent read 'What do' and then just went straight into my email sign-off #'What do?' is the big question of our times #It's not completely true that I agree with everything I read in my old posts #cos my thoughts on some things change and I don't express things perfectly #but close enough #the empty man rambleth

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asfdhgsdkjhgb · 12 days ago

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had quite the night drive earlier this evening.

#just me rambling again #web weaving #(?)#uh. one of my friends who is out of town for college was visiting and i got to see him and our friends and the only core member of that #group of people missing was my ex girlfriend who you may also know of as my wonderful wife #who has I assume been very busy with their own life things but has also barely and very sparsely had any hint of communication with any of #us within the past few months which I've been realizing very recently sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close and #they had been saying that they would be constantly making sure we still were in each other's lives. but then very quickly have #seemingly dropped off the face of the earth #anyways. I was driving aforementioned friend who is in town back home (family home not college obv) and when i was finally going back #towards my house afterwards my Google maps finally lead me to an area that i was more familiar with driving and i got to an #intersection and it was telling me to take a right to go home but i knew that i knew the way perfectly from that intersection to my #ex girlfriend / best friend / wifes familys house from all of the times I've gone that direction through the past years and so #i turned off my directions and i took a left towards their house #not super sure why but my brain and body just knew it was something i needed to do and so i went and drove down their street and cried #a lot the whole time and then drove myself home from their house once again following a super familiar path #and idk im still feeling very emotional about it. the fact that halloween by noah kahan was the first song to play on Spotify #after i made that left turn im sure didnt help (knowing that i miss them so much and am going to be leaving this area myself #soon enough here and there's been an open offer for a while now that they are welcome to follow and live with me once they get their degree #(and also um. halloween is next week lol)#idk i just havent felt the full force of how badly i miss having them in my life until tonight. when i was around this person i could feel #our souls singing in harmony. i genuinely cannot describe the feelings of our relationship in words i feel like only vaguely abstract art #could communicate the connection that was forged between us and the level of understanding and knowing #something not dissimilar to looking into the sun directly or trying to describe a vivid color to someone who is completely blind #something about the way the entire universe breathes in unison and everything around us are all pieces of the same stars #sigh #i miss my wife tails i miss her a lot /ref

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earl-grey-crow · 1 month ago

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mad & mad & mad & mad & mad & mad & mad &

#I hate how whenever I look forward to something fun I always think half-jokingly haha I wonder what one thing will go wrong because #there's always something #and then. every time. something goes wrong. and my brain is like yep we still have no precedent for things going the way we wish them to #and it makes a little note in some mental excel spreadsheet of a long line of things that went wrong when we wanted them to go right #and this is why I go to therapy lol #yeah it doesn't happen all the time yeah it's usually small things that don't really matter yeah I know things never work out ~perfectly~#but. but still.#I'm sure this is all fine and it won't be as big of a deal as I think...but I had been so looking forward to having a good day #and I did! I have two days off for fall break and my mum and I went to a bakery and had gâteau au yaourt and croissants #and we went to some bookstores and I got the iliad (belovedest) so it was a good day!! but why does it have to end in tears #why do I have to suddenly be reminded that I have one foot in the chronically ill pool #why do other people get to have their dreams come true seemingly so easily while I have to fight for everything #oh well. at least I'm home and don't have to worry about getting dinner. and we have ice cream. and I still have the iliad.#and I am still blessed.#it's *sighs* fine.#earl crow ramblings

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sarakiz · 2 years ago

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22-23 season costume appreciation

Conrad Orzel (CAN) - Carmina Burana: O Fortuna by Carl Orff

#conrad orzel #finlandia 2022 #finlandia trophy 2022 #figure skating #fskateedit #fscostume #elite xpression #< i cant find any definite costumer credit here but they've done costumes for him before #which is more than i could find from the other costumers' pages i was looking up #in my head this is deniss's new world symphony costume #this aint about him sorry i just needed to get that out of my head #i do think this perfectly suits the dark drama of o fortuna #though i cant tell if i wished the red went all the way to the gloves instead of continuing the black gradient #my toxic trait is with dark gloves i lose the hand motions a lot of the time cause they blend in with the stands and my eyesight is shit #the finlandia cameras were SO nice wtf i thought abt using nhk or skate can #but the color grading on those takes a bit of wrangling #also conrad girlies are any of u out there? if so how do u do it #everything this man does on the ice terrifies me #not in a like anxious way like with an inconsistent fav like actually viscerally terrifies me #even when he skates clean-ish its scary #which is why an o fortuna program is perfect for him. 100 pcs

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laugtherhyena · 2 months ago

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Playing Bomb rush cyberfunk has been a crazy experience so far because i feel like I've been enjoying the game just as much as I'm not doing so

#which is crazy because i went in with the impression that this would be jet set radio but better #and really? the biggest thing is doing for me rn is making me wanna play old-school Jet set radio again #who the fuck looked at Jsr and thought “Hey you know what would make this game even better? 300 different inputs”#which makes it impossible for me to play this solely on the controler (the main way i play games since i suck ass at the keyboard)#because it just doesn't have that many buttons #so at times i gotta be fucking double welding this shit with both the keyboard and the controler and it's awful #because I don't have that good of a motor coordination or whatever the proper term is #on top of that. why did we need a fighting mechanic? that's so fucking unnecessary when Jsr already had a gret way of dealing with that #which was by integrating the grafitti mechanic with the fighting by having it be the way you damage opponents #just adjust that to make it take more hits/graffitis in the fight and boom. you're done. perfectly functional #all it does is take away 3 BUTTONS in a game that already has a shit load of inputs #and ik these same buttons are also used to doing tricks on rails but like. that's such an useless addition #because I'm not actually doing anything like this isn't pulling a move on a fighting game. no skill is needed. I'm just mashing buttons #so you might as well not have both of these machanics and have the buttons be set to do other. more important comands #like the one to manually continue a combo on the ground after getting off of a rail. i gonna hold control on the keyboard and move #my joysticks at the same time whenever i need that and it fucking sucks #so yeah whenever i play it again I'm definitely gonna try mapping my controler to my liking and we'll see how it goes #unrelated to the gameplay i just gotta say. sorry but the songs are so mid #if i knew how to mod things i would replace every single one of them songs from jsf and jsrf. absolutely no doubt about it #like the songs in the jsr games are so unique and distinct from one another. even the ones that have a similar style. which makes them #incredibly memorable like i still remember a good chunk of them from the top of my head and i haven't played that game in months #bomb rush cyberfun songs just feel so samey and forgettable #a similar thing can be said for the environment designs and especially their colors imo #everything within the same area feels incredibly samey and not memorable. and you may think “Carol it's a whole area of course it's gonna #look similar to itself“ and to that i say. yes. cohesion is important but take a look at Kogane and Bento from jsr and you'll see #how despite being the same area and having the a coherent color pallet and overlay applied to it their locations are distinct from eachother #and memorable to the point where i can recall how to traverse thought each area and where they lead to easily #in bomb rush it feels like I'm just looking at the same place everywhere in the map #on a good note! i like the story so so much it's definitely what's gonna cary me through playing the whole game #because jsr really needed more story and fleshed out characters that aren't just different designs you can play as

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itadore-you · 10 months ago

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every day I think abt this one fic I used to follow like the gospel from 2020 WRITERMILK WHO WROTE FUCKTOY ON WATTPAD U MADE ME WHO I AM U GOT ME INTO FANFICTION I LOVE YOU

#no idea what scandal happened that made them delete all their fics but GODDDDD I MOURN THAT FIC EVERY DAY #context it was a nanami x reader x gojo fic #gojo was a fuckboy who played with readers feelings while she didnt notice that nanami was pining after her the whole time #it was so sad bc she was ADDICTED to how gojo made her feel and she spent almost every night getting black out drunk at the club #wishing that hed want her the same way she wanted him #almost every time this happened nanami would be there to comfort her but eventually it ruined him too #seeing the woman he loved continue to keep ruining her life for him and always just hope hed fix everything #so the one time he tells her he cant be picking up her broken pieces anymore she reaches her breaking point and uhhhh #suffice to say bad things happen at the club that night she ends up in hospital #during her recovery though nanami comes back to her bc yeh he cant leave her like that cmon #gojo also starts to visit too realising that he should have cared a lot more #suffice to say yn eventually starts to return the same feelings for nanami but its a difficult thing bc #he obv doesnt want to suddenly overwhelm her with his feelings bc she went through traumatic stuff #eventually he takes her on a date when shes better and things just CLICK SO PERFECTLY #then gojo decides to confess 😭😭😭 what a mess #but omg yn finally has broken free of her previous feelings for him and she knows that being with nanami is the right choice for her

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llatimeria · 1 year ago

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BABY WEE CLEAN AND FRESH

#turkey meatball #Her first grooming appointment went PERFECTLY!!!#she was very polite the entire time Except when she was waiting in a crate. then she got scared #IM SO PROUDDDDDD i can't believe that she didn't end up as a badly behaved reactive dog who hates everything #they trimmed her nails! and brushed her teeth! and she was POLITE ABOUT IT even though we don't do that enough at home!#Word to the wise I guess. Raise your puppies in a house of neurodivergent adults who love to bother small animals #It's the only explanation I can think of for her being niceys with vets and groomers #We just. Poke and prod her at home so much she doesn't think anything of it anymore #I touch her ears. I hold her paws. I grab her tail sometimes very careful so as to not pull it. We boop her nose and wrinkle her lips

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moonmoonthecrabking · 4 months ago

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my dad is super fucking overprotective that i, at the age of 19, am no longer allowed to lead church youth group without my brother. does that sound ridiculous? yeah, there’s a fucking reason for that

#it’s unbelievable #i never went out to parties. never even tried #i’ve never dated #i went to an all-girls selective school #he got worried when i was at a youth event and didn’t text (bc it was the middle of a session) and called 9 times #maybe that made more sense. but this is fucking stupid #i’ve caught the train home by myself at 9pm on a saturday #does he know about it? ofc not. but i was perfectly safe. i knew how to navigate it all #i’ve never been to a bar despite legally being able to for a whole year #i haven’t tested the boundaries of his overprotectiveness #but now he’s got this into his head?#i’m sorry. it’s bullshit.#i’m not saying ‘i’m 19 i know everything’#i’m saying ‘i’m 19. i should be able to lead youth group without a bodyguard’#i could be doing much worse on a friday night. and i have half the mind to prove it #i say half bc clubbing doesn’t sound fun to me. and i genuinely care about what i’m doing #i believe what i’m doing matters.#and i hate that more of my independence is being taken away. so much of it already has been.#this is just another fucking thing #i’m really fucking angry.

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