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woundedheartwithin · 1 year

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So I made a ko-fi. When I can access the internet on my computer again I’ll get prints up on it or whatever. Until then, yeah… there it is

#she speaks #no I’m not taking commissions #it’s only open for tips rn but like I said I’ll have prints up on it soon #my job requires me to use a program that cuts my internet and it’s a pain in the fucking ass to turn on and off #on my computer not to the whole house lol #so I just leave it on when I’ve got an assignment #so the store part will be open sometime tomorrow #when I can get on the internet again #I think #idk I’ll have to play around with it and we’ll see #I do almost everything on my phone but all my hi res files are on my desktop

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ganondoodle · 1 year

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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo

#ganondoodles talks #also probably sounds like self pity #but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist #i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think #but the internet never gets to see that much of me #i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere #so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing #i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out #i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with #i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong #im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh #it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again #sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it #doesnt sound like a good excuse #... i want to thank those that do stick with me #even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise #there are little things that still make me angry at myself #like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing #and i got two #and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop #i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late #i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom #no matter how much i enjoy the ask #and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((

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front-facing-pokemon · 6 months

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#bonus angle under the cut representing the angle i initially accidentally zoomed way too far into before i got the proper angle #chewtle #i got a shiny one of these in gen 9. totally by accident. i think it was my second shiny pokémon ever #the first one being a gastly in the same game‚ scarlet/violet #honestly shinies are so fuckin easy to get in sv when you can see them in the overworld. i've gotten like 30 of them it's fuckin awesome #i love it so much. it makes my life as a shiny hunter so much easier #even though i don't really shiny hunt anymore to be honest. it's been a while since i've done one just 'cause i got all the ones i wanted #and. i didn't want any more. so i stopped :)#have you ever seen an image in a tumblr post take so long to upload that it just fucking disappears? that just happened to the first image #in this post. i'm on my fuckin mobile hotspot right now 'cause my internet decided to not function for some reason #and it's being so unbelievably slow. i'm waiting :/#IT JUST HAPPENED AGAIN TO BOTH OF THEM. WHY #HELP I DON'T WANNA HAVE TO REWRITE ALL THESE TAGS!!!!!!!!#lemme try 2.4ghz #i don't think it's gonna work they keep disappearing #i really don't wanna rewrite all these fuckin tags. why did the dubwool images work but not these #i had to rewrite the tags .

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fraternum-momentum · 2 months

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the internet was cut off and i ran out of data so i asked my brother if i can connect to his hotspot and downloaded dol on my phone,,,,,,,,,

#were in the process of moving !!!!!!!!!! new apartment has wifi !!!!!!!!! but more importantly were not homeless !!!!!!!!!!!!!😭😭#my time completely cut off from everyone was very much like the pic LMAOAOA #dol was the only offline game i could think of that wasnt some dumbass puzzle game or something #i even play this shit in public cause i literally have nothing to do without internet except maybe look at my gallery for the 400th time #i turn off the combat animations tho so its just all text when im outside 😭like im brave but not THAT brave #but anyway its safe to say that im getting back into it again 🧍‍♀️#last time i played dol was before the pregnancy update and like knowing u can get pregnant now is scary #like what if im not prepared to take care of a fictional child #will i be a good mother?????????? i dont want to traumatize the kid and subject them to the horrors of the town like????????#im still like kind of early in + i still have yet to explore the other stuff i never did during my last playthrough so im pretty excited #also somehow course of temptation was still running in the browser i have opened on my chrome so yk..............#played a bit of that as well.........................#its so funny how every npc has names its insane and i love the phone thingy too #ok thats all i think #frambling...?

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sirenium · 6 months

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'If you're doom scrolling this tag-' shut up. Get out of the tag that you, yourself detest, block it, and move on. You're helping nobody with these corny ass posts; if anything you're exposing yourself to the very thing you hate. You're triggering yourself. And if you doom scroll, get out of the tag and block it. It's that simple.

#yes this is about radqueer tags #reminder that you can be anti rq without infiltrating their spaces and breaking your own DNI #I only know you people do this shit because I find myself on RQ tags from time to time.#no not by 'doomscrolling' but out of boredom and curiosity #and what do I see? multiple 'stop doomscrolling! take care of urself! úwù' posts💀#stop exposing yourself to things that actually harm you. stop it with the savior complex #You aren't a baby that needs their hand held either. I will not coddle you like a four year old that fell and scraped their knee.#you did this to yourself.#show some maturity and rationality and distance yourself. breathe. etc #cuz crosstagging? actively going on tags when you know it harms you? that ain't the way to go about things.#I say this as someone who's been knowingly queer on the internet for about six years #it's super easy to develop a sort of complex where you put yourself in situations with the false idea that you can change minds or whatever #but you aren't going to change minds. you aren't helping anyone by throwing yourself to the wolves so to speak.#so again please get the fuck off rq tags if you're 'doomscrolling' or telling people to stop doomscrolling as it only does harm.#anti radqueer

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edge-oftheworld · 27 days

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hey guys I just connected some dots and when I say to you that we owe every 5sos gf since 2011 so much better treatment that doesn’t even cover half of it. it’s one thing to empathise over the internet sure but when it’s a real person less than 2 degrees of separation from you it feels so much more like. this is a human who deserves to be adored and celebrated just as much as a man she’s associated with and it’s like. I know I can’t gift anyone else the experience of empathy in like being a local or whatever but when I tell you that this fandom has inadvertently done so much damage to not only women who happened to know the boys but also to their professional careers and music and things they choose to share with us (or stop sharing with us) please believe me and please join the conversation around the fact that yes we’ve done a really shitty job in the past. but we’re growing up and we can do better I believe that 100%

#a little concerned with how many 5sos partners seem to just. quit music. at some stage #or neglect to advertise their songs #anyway obviously there’s parts of this story I can’t share but. stop assuming or calling them lazy or whatever please #5 seconds of summer #5sos #calum hood #ashton irwin #luke hemmings #michael clifford #celebrities are people #and again. I really do believe in us to do better than when we were teenagers who didn’t know shit #most of us are in our 20s or 30s by now and we can like. think a lot better #anyway I’m gonna check out the music of every 5sos partner I think they deserve that. I might not like it but they deserve some attention #and some fucking income of their own if they made songs #also. male privilege in the music industry is huge and I’m only really starting to notice that. it’s not their fault but let’s not encourag #more of it. seek out women and poc and people born outside of europe or north america in your playlists please #also if I’m flexing my local status I’m really sorry. I just felt like this needed to be said and I happened to get a perspective #that really cemented it ina way that I don’t think anything anyone says on the internet can. but hopefully I can try

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icewindandboringhorror · 8 months

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sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face...#since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree.#I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite*#THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me.#It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:|#ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

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forcedhesitation · 3 months

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dead by daylight-- the game where you can play as steve harrington from stranger things, and can get sent to partake in a match of murder hide and seek at midwich elementary from silent hill, where you can then use a lute to perform bardic inspiration from dungeons and dragons to give a bonus to your teammates, except for the one who is being chased by nemesis from resident evil 3.

#dbd #thoughts about media #yes steve's jacket is bugged. it's done this before but I didn't think it'd do it again.#better than whatever the hell bug aestri has rn with her face.#girl looked like the fucking unknown.#anyway I was lagging WAY. WAY too hard to try another match for a better picture with a different skin.#I just remembered I unlocked bardic inspiration on that day my internet actually cooperated and I HAD to see steve play the lute.#it's so cute. the survivors all smile when they play. T___T I have to see gabe. claude. and nancy do this.#but I'll wait until my internet isn't getting me randomly downed by zombies.#I'm pretty sure my lag got elodie killed too so I feel kind of bad but it is also sort of funny that I wasn't even playing-#-killer and still managed to get a survivor killed.#not that I haven't done that befoooore.... or that I haven't done it deliberately in the past...#I will never forget you RPD ghostface who showed me he had the matching “I'd kill for you” heart charm to my “hooked on you” one.#and then killed a david for me when I asked him as a joke LOL. we watched his body ascend in the entity's spidery limbs together.#it was a beautifully romantic moment <3 #generally speaking I am a decent survivor who will die so you can get out. like a good steve player should be.#However. if the evil man that I find sexy is nice to me? I'm so so sooo sorry for what you're going to endure if he only wants to spare me.

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miodiodavinci · 2 months

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i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?

i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever

more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there

#mio answers things #anon #i'm getting a little better with making things for my ocs #on account of having friends i can actively share my brain rot with #but i still dread the feeling of posting a character and being forever haunted about never doing anything with them ever again #(echoes of custard howling in my mind)#just like how i dread having a repeat of that time in middle school #where i talked about my werecrow oc in the comments of a bigger artist's works #and they ended up making their own werecrow oc immediately after #they very much directly aligned with mine #but it got wildly popular on their account and they made a ton of art for it and i just #ended up deleting any evidence of mine because i felt so bad about it skjdfhgkldhfkgj #like i have no problem with people taking inspiration from my designs #i think it's fun seeing people design vy2s with two toned hair and kyos with pink eyes and hair pins w #but like. the thought of posting my oc and having someone run them through a blender to make their own character makes me feel. bad.#i can't articulate the specific reason Why it makes me feel bad but it does skjfghdkjfgsdhkjf #like if i finally posted theater gang stuff and then saw someone else take those concepts and make them into their own characters #i might just collapse into a pile of beef trimmings and never get up sdfkjhglksjdfg #it's silly and i don't know why my brain's like this but because of this in combination with my fear of posted oc things haunting me foreve #i simply will not be posting <3333 #(and also just that. i'm incapable of producing enough artwork to make my ocs matter in a public context i think.)#(like you breed affection for a character through familiarity)#(which you only really get by creating A Lot Of Art)#(and i cannot do that <333)#(so instead most times i post it's a few handfuls of likes)#(and that doesn't really feel worth it to my brain when i could just settle for going insane over them with my friends skjdfhgkjsdf)#i really think this last year has just taught me that i really. honestly truly prioritize the reactions and feelings of my friends #over strangers on the internet #and it feels a lot more comfortable that way w #AH

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hanzajesthanza · 3 months

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this looks like a long time but initially it said 1 MONTH 15 days

#i think i will just have to grab cutscene footage from online... im not waiting for that sh... lmao #this has me admitting that i'm not a gamer and left that identity behind some time ago... which is kind of sad but ok #thoughh when witcher 4 drops... 😈#oh my god i typed witcher 34 instead of witcher 4. i think that already exists on the internet LOL #i'm actually not as excited for w4 as i am for the remaster of the first game #i also don't have any saves and i need footage of like some late-quest stuff (just for a mention of lore inconsistencies LOL)#like what do i do go beat tw3 AGAIN just to get a clip of ciri facing the white frost #...................... well........#ok ngl actually a shot of emhyr in the beginning of the game would be better to explain 'lore inconsistencies'#because that's probably more aggravating to me than the 'we changed the white frost so you can fight it' thing #that thing is understandable. that's like basic video game logic. antagonists can be fought...#and though i don't like that messaging that forces of nature can be fought...#i understand this is a AAA game with outcomes that need to be written as endings. it's not an experiential VN #emhyr in tw3 though has just annoyed me and has actually annoyed me ever since i found out his character from the books #after all that you're gonna take him and pretend he just wanted to be a better dad and have a good heir on the throne...#well ok he did want a good heir on the throne. to be fair. just. not ciri but her child ... ahem #tw3 just dropped that pregnancy plot like a hot potato 😭 because it's so uncomfortable #without vilgefortz to decapitate in the end and the lodge actively plotting around i admit it loses its meaning #also to be fair tw3 does not have that throughline about reproduction and destiny that the books do #like the begetting of progeny is a huge huge huge theme in the books and so ciri's storyline is just one of a few ways it comes up #without geralt and yennefer specifically being angsty at the start about children it doesn't really work as a plot for ciri later on #the elbow-high diaries

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wundrousarts · 1 year

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Hi folks! It seems like people are discovering that there are people online who write some WEIRD! 👎 stuff for Nevermoor. Some tips and tricks for dealing with that:

Don't engage. Don't read the fics. Don't even comment to say how much you hate it.

Don't spread it around. It's gross as hell, I know! But being like "ew, guys, I found this gross fic" just means you're causing more people to seek out said gross fic, and that's just not great. If you don't want to see it, no one else wants to either.

If you can: block, mute, or filter. I don't really use any fanfic sites to know if these functionalities exist, but I'm sure people online have found ways. Edit: here's a way to do it on Ao3.

TL;DR: Ignore, Ignore, Ignore. 👍

(PS: Same thing goes for when people send weird inappropriate anon messages. Just delete them from your inbox and don't subject others to them.)

This is unfortunately something that's been present for years in the fandom, on both Ao3 and Wattpad. This is also why I essentially don't read Nevermoor fics unless they're for Mogtober, and even then I'm cautious. I have seen some weird stuff written about my favorite characters that I wish I could pluck from my brain and set on fire, or worse! But when I stumble across that stuff, I just quickly close the tab and pivot to something else to get my mind off of it.

We should not entertain these types of people in a fandom full of minors about a middle grade series, so: just don't engage with them, ignore them, filter them out, and maybe even drown them out with some fics of your own.

#good talk 👍#nevermoor #nevermoor fandom #nevermoor fanfic #why oh why does this fandom attract the occasional weirdo.#I'd be using stronger language when talking abt these types of folks but i'd prob get banned.#as an adult in this fandom I feel I have a responsibility to keep folks safe from weirdos 👍 i've banned folks on discord + i'd do it again #years ago there was a weird af fic on ao3 that I noticed folks were kudos'ing and I had to be like. hey guys pls don't do that 😭#unfortunately ao3 moderation and rules are NONEXISTENT!!! so there's nothing ppl can do except the stuff above :/#and I wouldn't know abt wattpad bc I went on there once to see what mogtober stuff ppl wrote and was horrified and noped out of there 😬#anyways. all the more reason to participate in mogtober. so everyone's writing stuff in order to bury the gross stuff. creation for a cause #(and bc mogtober is fun and everyone should participate. lol)#soz for the psa folks but I deemed it necessary 🤷 feel free to enjoy the art I just posted as well #just been on the internet toooo long and don't like the thought or reality of young folks being exposed in any way to this kind of stuff. 😕#couldn't figure out where to fit this emoji in so here: 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢. thats me and my constant feeling whenever this stuff pops up again. 😑

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fictional-worlds-are-exquisite · 2 months

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i'm pretty sure i've cut all content consumption out of my routine now

i don't mean that in the sense of i no longer consume content, i mean i've managed to remove it from routine behaviour

yes i will scroll instagram but it's not the first thing i do on waking until i get through all the posts since yesterday. it's just something i choose to do when i feel like it

yes i will watch youtube but i no longer go through all videos since yesterday from all the channels i'm subscribed to and watch them all or add it to watch later if i can't squeeze it into the day. this was my most recent success so i'm avoiding my subscriptions tab so i don't fall into the hole and am instead looking up individual channel videos to watch for no more than an hour. when i'm convinced my brain will behave i believe i will be able to scroll subscriptions casually and only when i want to.

this used to cause me such trouble because i genuinely saw these things as part of my routine so i'd be over here like man my routine of consuming content is all messed up because i went out for the day with someone i will need to double it tomorrow to fix it so i'm back on track. or i'd be like kinda wanted to do this today but a youtuber i follow uploaded a 2 hour video so I won't be able to fit it in :/

anyway that was trash. now i think i just have routines around food (3 meals a day) and work/study. Everything else is clean and free. I can do whatever I feel like when i have free time. i feel a little lost now but at least i'm no longer spending hours on content consumption when it's not actually making me happy

#i genuinely don't think i could've just made the decision to cut each thing out until i got to this point #each thing i've managed to cut out of my routine has been done as the result of a routine disruption #like i go away for two weeks and have no internet access #or my most recent one was bc i had a concussion and stayed away from tech for a week #i'm like well i alreayd dropped xyz for two weeks so i just won't pick it up again when i get back to internet access #and eventually enough time will pass that i cannot repair what i missed without putting in SIGNIFICANT effort #so i can approach it again and limit my interactions until i'm sure my brain will behave #every single time i've caught myself going ugh i don't really want to do this but i need to catch up #red fucking flag bro. it's content consumption. it's not that important. it should be fun and enjoyable #it has no place in my routine behaviour. it's welcome to be something i LIKE to do regularly #but cannot be something i find myself needing to do to meet my routine. that sucks #but hey. progress. curious to see where i can go from here #can start from scratch. what will i do with this.#the last week i have only spent time on my laptop to check my emails and do my uni work basically #then i shut it down for the day #that also feels good to me. i don't need to spend all day on it. i can do other things

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indelicateink · 4 months

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