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nothing-but-glitter-and-lashes · 6 months ago

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*quietly waits for my irl to come online, scroll my blog, find my vent post(s), and actually try to work through my problems with me*

#i feel really bad #for dumping all my crap on her #she’s a year younger than me #and i do have friends my age #most of whom actually have their crap figured out #so i should really talk to them #but how do i initiate the conversation #spoiler alert #i don’t #i wait for that one irl #sorry bestie #you make friends with me you’re basically asking to be my therapist #whatever shit you think im dealing with #its worse #yeah #sorry #there’s a lot of crap you don’t know about yet #screaming into the void

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bitchthefuck1 · 6 months ago

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you know what, I actually will talk about this because it's bothering me. The issue with focussing so heavily on syd and carmy's potential for a romantic relationship isn't that there's something inherently unintellectual about romance or whatever, it's that a lot of people seem incapable of doing that without immediately flattening the story and ignoring or intentionally misreading any and all nuance for the sake of that romance. Every scene suddenly becomes about how it impacts their relationship, every analysis is done through a romantic lens, every frame or line of dialogue becomes about finding some easter egg or hint that "proves" these people should start dating. Their dynamic is absolutely a fundamental part of this show, but if you can only see it as a will-they-won't-they, you miss so much of what the story is actually trying to say with these two.

There are good versions of this story where their relationship is romantic and there are good versions of this story where it isn't, but as soon as you decide them being together is "the point," you lose the ability to actually judge the story for what it is, not what you want it to be.

#like so much of their dynamic (esp but not exclusively in S3) has been about showing the ways that carmy's trauma and dysfunctional #attitude in the kitchen impacts other people and how even though he cares about syd and wants their partnership to work he keeps self #sabotaging and setting himself and by extension her and the restaurant up to fail and replicating the same toxic environments that #he grew up and trained in and this is very much consistent with his character and a natural continuation of the conflicts they've been #having since S1 but because him being shitty with her runs contrary to them getting together suddenly its 'ruining the story' and #out of character and only happening bc the writers just hate to see this ship winning and like. if you really think that i genuinely don't #know what show you've been watching bc it sure as shit wasn't this one. like it hurts to see him do this because you know #they could do something genuinely great together and that he's ruining a really good thing but this is also the reality of where he is rn #if he was just a good and supporting business partner and not deeply dysfunctional it would be wildly out of character #the problem w S3 wasn't that it 'ruined' their relationship it's that it had no clear focus overemphasized carmy's arc at the expense #of the other leads deprioritized the supporting cast while failing to give them their own arcs gave more screen time to #unecessary and uninteresting new 'comic relief' characters and let conflicts stagnate without resolving them or #letting them evolve over the course of the season.#this isn't exclusive to the bear this is a general trend ive noticed where as soon as the 'shipper' part of people's brains get activated #it's like they lose the ability to read the story any other way and it stops being about what's good for the narrative and starts being #about whether or not these two people kiss and anything that gets in the way of that is bad and anything that brings it closer is good #and it's usually whatever but it's really frustrating when the story ppl are doing that to is this good #it also makes people fundamentally incapable of treating any 'obstacle' to that romance in a way that isn't wildly meanspirited and #gross (esp bc those characters are usually women) which is exhausting. like no claire isn't evil or a 'pick me' or 'bad' for carmy #or a useless addition to the story or whatever other nonsense you guys have decided must be true to feel okay. she's a perfectly normal #character and their relationship is exploring some of the ways that carmy's inability to deal with or actually address his trauma #impacts the various relationships in his life. she doesn't even have to be a monster or a narrative mistake for him and syd to be #'destined' for each other or whatever. this isn't a middle school wattpad fic.#im definitely gonna get killed in the street for this but ive been looking for a good reason to spend less time on here so might as well #the bear #sydcarmy #sydney adamu #carmy berzatto

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seilon · 8 months ago

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I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up don’t need to live with that. don’t let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if there’s a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and it’s symptoms all-together, unless there’s a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that “birth control” is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious

#kibumblabs #I remember being in late high school and my doctor suggesting it because of how terrible my dysphoria/related depressive episodes related to #menstrual cycle shit is. and like. im not saying it was a flawless transition but good god im serious it changed my fucking life #not to the extent testosterone would but it was still like. a Big Deal #because I was like. what the fuck. I’ve been suffering through this shit for years. and no one told me this was a thing? we’re all just #expected to suffer? because it’s ‘Normal’????#this whole time I could just. turn the bleeding off. or at least Down. turn off the debilitating breast soreness and swelling. etc.#anyway im not sure why im thinking about this but #i guess every time i hear someone (without any known health issues that’d interfere) like ah time for my monthly Week Of Pain And Misery #i want to shake them by the shoulders like. YOU DONT NEED TO LIVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE AWARE OF THIS.#and yes i know it doesn’t work for everyone or sometimes there’s side effects that make it not worth it or what have you #but for a huge huge huge amount of people. they just don’t know it’s an option. because it’s labelled Birth Control. and because there’s #this long-standing quiet fear mongering about it that makes it seem more dangerous and sinister and promiscuous than it is #similar in a lot of ways to other stigmatized hormone treatments. like. well. you know #doesn’t help that when you first get your prescription it comes with the worlds biggest list of Potential Issues (most of which are either #minor temporary or unlikely)#grahhghhhhhhhhh anyway. on a seperate but related note shout out to my fellow tboys who either didn’t have their periods totally stop on t #or (like in my case) they came back after like Years for whatever reason and that had to be dealt with via supplementary contraceptives #cw menstruation

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coriander-candlesticks · 6 months ago

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I'm sick so I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but I've been thinking about the nature of myths recently as I've been exploring hellenic polytheism.

For context: I'm ex-Mormon. I was raised in the church and, because of that, was taught biblical literalism but in, like, a more subtle way than most? I was raised believing that Adam & Eve and Noah's Ark, etc., were literally true, but that the story of Job specifically was not; I also always knew evolution and the Big Bang to be correct, despite there being a verse in the Doctrine & Covenants (a Mormon-specific religious book) where God apparently told Joseph Smith that the world is 6,000 years old- a passage I didn't know existed until my senior year of high school. I didn't realize I had believed in biblical literalism until I'd left the church, actually.

Now that I'm aware of it, it's a mindset I'm actively trying to combat while I explore Hellenic polytheism. It's definitely been a task to separate the nature of the Gods from their myths, as brutal as they often are. And it's something I've noticed within the community, too, which I think is interesting. It makes sense: Christianity, at least, has had a chokehold on much of the world for a long time, and so many of us have experienced literalism as our first interaction with any sort of holy text (though, of course, Greek myths as a whole aren't that) alongside our first experience with divinity as a wrathful God whose flaws are waved away, or ignored, or twisted into positive attributes. This also means that I'm trying to re-approach several deities with an open mind (Zeus, Hera, and Ares in particular, but many of them to some extent) while also trying to un-condition myself. I was already in the process of doing this, of course, but trying to figure out how to interact with a completely different pantheon has made that especially clear.

It extends to things like prayer and offerings, too. Prayers were very formulaic growing up, even though most of the time there wasn't a strict script to follow. There was always something you ask as part of the prayer, even if it's just 'please help me do better tomorrow' (alongside giving thanks, of course), so trying to craft a prayer without adding *everything* I'm used to including in makes it feel incomplete and, therefore, disrespectful. And daily prayer is something I'm resistant to because of prior experiences with it. I don't want to offend any of the gods by asking for something or asking for too much, especially so early on, and there's always a promised offering the few times I *have* asked. Add worries about exact obedience on top of that and it's proving to be a difficult thing to untangle. And I know that the gods are difficult to offend, figuring out how to do this takes trial & error and that's okay, it'll get better the more I do it, etc., etc.; this is more an issue with my own overthinking than anything else (hooray for ✨ mental health issues ✨). I'm not really asking for advice here, necessarily, just thinking out loud because I'm not comfortable talking to people in meat space about it yet.

#also: the whole thing about cleanliness? as someone w/ mental health issues? Rough. very rough. what counts? how individualized is it?#if i cant get my room (where my shrines are/will be) clean does that mean i cant give any offerings?#is just washing my hands and/or veiling actually okay most of the time? even when ive been struggling to shower?#when does something require a change of clothes? or do i have to do that every time i offer something at any point in the day?#including meal/drink (ex steam from tea) offerings? i dont have that many clothes besties #if im pouring out an offering to hermes on my way home from work do i have to somehow wash my hands first b/c i just got off public transit #can i pour it directly from my water bottle or do i have to keep a little separate bottle of water just for libations?#and like. i know logically the answer is 'do whatever you can and you'll figure it out' but it hasnt sunk in yet #it's always...interesting when a new layer of religious trauma tm gets discovered #also. maybe it's just the 'tism but 'just jump in!' and 'go slow at the beginning' seem contradictory to me #like. you cant do both??? i dont think??? 'just jump in' is the answer ive been getting when i do tarot so im trying to do that #also. doubts? not offending a deity??? wild concept. just. the hardest thing to wrap my head around. mormon god's ego is FRAGILE fr #hellenic pagan #helpol #hellenic polytheism #not adding exmo tags b/c i dont have a good enough handle on the community here & im too sick to deal with people being weird about this #my post #coriander says #seeing people get into the theological weeds is cool from the outside (see: that 'can spiderman do superhero stuff on the sabbath' post)#but very stressful when there's not centuries on centuries of detailed information to draw from & everyone's just trying to figure shit out #in a world that's *very* different from the one the information we *do* have was written down in #christianity cw #mormonism cw

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born2b-beheaded · 12 days ago

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you have a beautiful life ahead of you

I know, and I know it Will get better. It just feels soooo repetitive right now :// sigh. I dunno. All I really know is that I'm looking forward to the day things change. I dunno when that will be, but things Will change. And if it takes until I'm an adult, then so be it. It's only 3 years, really; and these past 15 have absolutely flown by.

#as much as i know everyone always says teen years are the best years #the main thing keeping me going is that im Really looking forward to being an adult #i know taxes and jobs and whatnot suck #but autonomy dude!!#itd be so awesome to just #i dunno #have an outing with my friends? or have them over?#decorate my apartment how i want #buy myself little treats here and there #im sure working sucks but at least you get paid! school doesnt pay shit. school makes ME pay; with my mental health #plus you get to Choose your job (to an extent)#and i guess im looking forward to not having to deal with CPS all the damn time #fuckkkk i hate my cps agent #its like she doesnt even hear me #whatever. not getting into that right now.#dont get me wrong; i do cherish these years #i like being a teen and everything. it is fun #i guess i just want a wee bit more autonomy #i love not having to pay bills or anything #but i also dont think id terribly mind doing that if it meant i got to make more of my own decisions #if this makes any sense #sorry im sure i sound like such a Rebellious Teenager #also sorry i was totally rambling there #askk!!

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skeletalheartattack · 1 year ago

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Releases pikmin creatures into your home

What will you do?

probably have sex with them i guess

oh fucm *slides my hair back and sprays perfume into my mouth* agh agh cough fuck wrong thing *sprays that other shit into my mouth then pops my shirts collar* what's up lil mamma. how about we find a quiet place to sit and make the whole place wet... EUGH!!! what's all this then!!

anon. anon. what do i do if she's a milf

#ask #anon #anonymous im so sorry. im sorry.#to actually answer your question though. depends on what creature #and ik theres like. a lot of creatures.#i think id like to have a bunch of bulbmin. or bulborbs. they remind me a lot of opossums. mostly in their mouth shape and fangs.#but generally i think id either release them outside or just watch them for a bit for the most part. in terms of most pikmin creatures.#breadbugs would be funny to watch but i imagine they'd probably be pest-like if not taken care of or kept in an enclosure #theyd be constantly trying to take random shit back to their holes or piles of dirt or whatever #like listen i never lose my keys since i keep them in the same place. and also theyre on a bright red lanyard.#but a breadbug would steal those keys and i would be in distress #for pikmin themselves. same deal i think. id prefer to see them outside than inside my house #i think bulborbs/bulbmin would be the highest on my list of creatures to take care of maybe #otherwise LEEEAVE my motherfucking home NOOOWWWW!!!!#except less like dr breen #anyway. anon. sorry about the initial reply. i hope my tags sufficed #i like to say dumb shit i cant help it. favourite activity.#anyway thank you for the ask anon :)

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the-vibing-ghoul · 3 months ago

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some people will be all about mental health awareness and leftist ideals of at least tolerating the mentally ill who show ''ugly'' symptoms until it's someone they know and ''care'' about having a bad day and acting like it in a way they don't find appealing

#[temporary text post tag]#vagueing about irls #everybodys your friend until one time youre too tired to act right after getting yelled at first thing in the morning #worst thing is i trusted her enough to tell her shit none of my other friends know about #liek i genuinely believed we were friends and i wasnt just an accessory so she wouldnt feel lonely and could vent to someone about whatever #now im really wondering if all the shit she told me about other people was real or if she just ditched them as well after they-#- acted emotionally in a way she didnt like #like im sorry people have bad days and sometimes act in none cutesy ways #at this point idk if the few times i did tell her im feelin like shit she took it seriously or just thought i was joking #im kinda assuming the second one #like she did feel and act fairly progressive - she'd often talk about acceptance and understanding #i don't even think she sees this situation as dropping a 'freind'#she's prolly gonna find a way to justify it somehow idk #point is im hurt and need a drink #she even vaguely texted me like 'if someone you knew hurt someone you care about would you try to fix it with them or just block them?'#like not even confront me and say 'you hurt someone i care about so now im ending things'#or just tell me to fuck off or call me a piece of shit #i feel after a year and all of the 'youre a good friend' shit that maybe i was at least entitled to a 'fuck off kys' text and then a block #i shouldve dropped her first - save us both some time #honestly i dont even think she thinks about this at all #im probably just sulking like a kicked dog while she does whatever the fuck it is she does #she probably didnt even care about my side of the story #why would she #honestly she always did most of the talking #i was just there to listen and sometimes make a joke for her to laugh at i guess #like i didnt know i was signing up for a '1 strike and youre out' type deal lmao

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arsenicflame · 4 months ago

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genuinely, how do you learn to cope with the idea you'll have mental health issues for the rest of your life? how to you learn to find peace with the fact that rock bottom is always going to be just around the corner and theres nothing you can really do to stop it?

#i guess this is rhetorical but also if you have genuine tips i probably do want to hear them #im trying to adopt a 'be happy now because youll be sad later' attitude but some days its so hard to deal with the idea ill never be fully #in control. ill never be fullt stable. something will always set me off. ill always downswing #im at peace with the idea that whatevers wrong in my head is for life i just need to figure out how to be content knowing itll always be #bad again.#id like it to be easier #nyxtalks #idk stupid shit sent me panicking and the lingering effects have me catastophising and near crying about things that literally dont exist #its just in my head. i am seeing something that isnt there and i must remind myself that #and this is by no means a bad day in the scheme of things for me either #i just had a few awful thoughts #but it reminds me of how bad i get #idk its not that serious its fine #im gonna. maybe try and find something positive in the world now and stop thinking things that arent even true

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butnotbubblegum · 5 months ago

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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.

#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea #like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit #and the place as well like it’s so. i don’t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much it’s own little bubble #and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal #and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die #and i don’t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide #like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif #like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and it’s like. cmon. wouldn’t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat #is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself #is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like i’m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isn’t within these hills #feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesn’t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing #actually exists except the place i’m in and my family and the pub #i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think it’s making this worse. especially because it’s henry’s dad’s local #and where henry’s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. it’s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id #if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and it’s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i haven’t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like #such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just #is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadn’t come back i’d be in a normal mental state #by now. that’s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about #living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the #urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends #and they love me and i don’t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so #fucking hard and it feels like it’s not even worth the effort because it’s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i #hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever #bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc #everything and i can’t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m #father and it’s so exhausting and i can’t sleep and there’s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop #i’ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak

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tianhai03 · 6 months ago

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ngl ive been thinking abt moving back here and being primarily active here again. the bot followers on twitter are starting to piss me off real bad

#ill still be using twitter ofc its kinda hard to stop using it when its so easy to get news on there rly quickly #but otherwise im thinking abt mainly posting here again... i havent been going on twitter that much lately anyway..........#its just funny how i moved to twitter in like 2018 bc i thought it was nicer to post on and then some rich douchebag took over #now the site is just a huge piece of shit like he is #i know its not much better here but at least i dont have to deal with bots 🙄#whatever. ill fink abt it #i dont have much to post anyway ive been spending most of my free time playing video games. and by video games i mean honkai star rail #if i feel like it ill talk abt my sillies here i suppose. maybe ask me abt things. idk #ask me abt gallagher ill write an essay for you #allyrambles

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perenlop · 3 months ago

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in general i think im really tired of kirby antagonists that are like “ohhhh this is the main antagonist- actually they’re just being possessed and they’re not actually responsible for their actions at all”

#…. i think thats why fanon dedede has started to annoy me sm sorryyyyyyyy #but really its just annoying seeing people get hostile towards any interpretation of dedede thats not kirbys bestie or dad #and that he was only ever antagonistic because he was possessed #like no he sucked before and he slowly improved and helped kirby of his own accord later! theres a character arc!#and hes a rival to kirby and will fight him but he’ll fight for the greater good too #leongar was eh to me because i saw his deal coming from a mile away. i knew he was gonna be the decoy antagonist as soon as he was onscreen #i knew it was gonna be a corruption scenario again so i just didnt bother getting attached because i already knew his full arc #i think hyness is the one who truly irritates me the most though because hes the most disrespectful one and it weakens the whole game for me #like. i get what they were doing. the friend hearts purify everyone and bring out the best in everyone #and i dont really care for stuff thats like ‘these are Fundamentally Bad people and these are Fundamentally Good people’’#but god damn it you dont even play as the stupid motherfucker. cant he be the ONE example of someone you cant chuck a heart at?#we already get something satisfying in the ‘’we can save the worst people’’ department with the void battle #why cant kirby just offer the heart to hyness only for hyness to bitterly reject it and fly off #i wouldnt be this irritated if hyness wasnt portrayed as a literal abuser?? someone who takes advantage of other peoples love for him?#his boss fight literally reflects this with how he forcibly controls the mage sisters and uses their bodies as weapons and forces them into #friend attack combos against their will. he is someone using the jamba hearts power to use the people around him #it wouldve been so potent and harrowing to leave his character on that note. but nah he was also corrupted or whatever and hes Fundamentally #Good. dont think about it!#hes also way too similar to haltmann again which just rubs salt in the wound for me. except this time he doesnt die horribly. yay.#like goddamn at least susie wasnt literally being abused by haltmann. she was there of her own accord and had her own motives #like i dont find it tragic when zan is desperately trying to save hyness and bring him back or whatever. i think she should get the fuck out #i find it tragic for HER and not in the way the game intended #im aware im talking about a game for 5 year olds but still. if they were gonna try to tackle heavy shit then they should commit #or at least play it like the dark matter trilogy when the stories werent as insane #echoed voice

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technicolorxsn · 9 months ago

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love how there are pretentious video essays that just repeat the book and meander and ramble about house of leaves. it's what zampanó would have wanted. it is not, however, what I want

#anyway i finished the main portion of the book #all i have left is the poems and a few other small things i think? ive read pelafinas letters #im thinking of getting the full book of her letters #but also they severely messed with my head so we'll see #i will say. i do get why ppl say the book is pretentious and frustrating #there was a lot of stuff where i couldnt tell if it was supposed to be satire or if it was genuinely just that dense and pretentious #and a lot of the codes were rly obtuse imo?#like... idk. some of them were super obvious like the sos stuff or pelafina outright saying what to do #but others like. man how am i supposed to know johnny waxing poetic about pussy was coded #i mean that one is also pointed out though much later but i know i missed a lot just like it that werent pointed out #and ive heard theres a lot of shit where the message you get is just danielewski????? which gonna be real. kinda dumb.#but i did also really enjoy the book #there was a lot of stuff in it that was just so compelling or poignant or whatever other word #the minotaur stuff is good (ofc id say that though i love me some minotaur themes)#also a lot of the scenes with johnny just...... christ #idk how ppl say to skip them hes so fascinating #yeah i could do with him talking about his possibly hallucinated sex life a bit less but also his story is just plain interesting #i still think about the part where the girl he was talking to runs over a dog they had picked up........ it was fucking chilling #and his hallucinations of dying are so descriptive in just the right way to get under my skin #the uncertainty with him and his family..... did pelafina try to kill him? did his father just send her away for being a bit too overbearin #over an accident? was there something else? what was the deal with his foster family? with lude? gdansk man and kyrie?#how did it get published? who are the editors? why did the band know of the book before it should have been published?#why does his journal section end with a story from a man he admits to making up completely? the doctor from seattle doesnt exist #the chronological end is more hopeful with him saying things will be okay but then he puts a previous entry after that?#i think the burning of the book parallels the story nicely #johnny said his piece; he nurtured the book as much as he could; but it was hurting him and he had to give up on it #idk!#this book does make me feel a lil dumb ngl

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halfdeadwallfly · 8 months ago

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i left a bowl of soup on my desk two weeks ago and forgot about it for one day. and it has been growing slowly moldy. it is terrifying. i am so scared of it. i am so scared and i need to get rid of it because it is getting so bad and there's like at least four different types of mold on it and at least one i don't even recognize but i'm just so fucking terrified to touch it or even get close to it guys i need help what do i do i am honestly so terrified and i am starting to get scared to be in my room and i feel like i kind of can't breathe in here which is not really good and also i am such a shitty roommate but i am just so scared i cannot emphasize how fucking terrified i am

#boink #ocd #i keep saying ill deal with it #and then every time i look at it im like shit #its mold #fucking #its fucking mold #and then i leave it #and then obviously leaving it makes it get worse #to the point where like this thing is actually probably becoming a biohazard #what the fuck do i do with it #i am the disgusting person you hear about #but im starting to literally avoid my room because im so scared of the mold radiation or whatever the fuck #i feel like its touched everything #im scared to sleep in my room tognith #genuinely if anyone has any ideas for how to deal with this rn #like ig just suck it up and fucking deal with it #but guys i do not think the cbt worked well enough for me to manage that rn #like if anyone with ocd has ideas for how to minimize the obsession and the fear so i can just get it over with #like anything i can do in the moment idk #i feel not well and even though i literally know that its not related i just keep connecting everything to this fucking contaminant #and at this point who knows honsetly that actually could be the case #because i have fucking problems and i let it get out of hand #im kind of losing it

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crushpunchh-art · 1 year ago

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would like to preface this by saying that I Think Lancer Is A Teenager And The Same Age As The Fun Gang And If Anyone Asks I Will Share My Reasoning. hes just a little silly. anyway. happy late day 9 of cringetober - rarepair. they are a qpr. in my heart. and now they are looking at a bug. outstanding work you two

#crush.txt #crush.png #im gonna like. not tag this very much because im Really nervous about it (utdr fanbase) but. yeah #cringetober #cringetober day 9 #deltarune #ok thats all.#i AM disabling reblogs at the first sign of trouble im not dealing with that shit <3 #i think hes a teenager. i think hes just goofy.#and Before anyone can go 'oh youre just saying that so yuo can ship them' or whatever um. You can ask any of my friends and they will say i #have thought this the entire time ive been into dr LOL #ok anyway. yeah. play nice or youre getting reblog privileges revoked

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sonknuxadow · 8 months ago

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they werent lying that knuckles series barely has knuckles in it

#i pirated that shit Btw just so we're clear. also gonna talk about it a little bit in the tags #nothing too spoilery but also might not wanna read if you want to go in knowing absolutely nothing? idk #anyway he WAS a main character still he was present for a decent amount of the first couple episodes #but the amount of screentime he gets just starts dropping after that . hes barely there at all in the second half ???#and it feels like theres a lot of scenes mostly focusing on wade and his problems and not near as many for knuckles and his whole deal #overall it feels more like a wade show with knuckles in it than a knuckles show with wade in it. which sucks #and human characters having plot relevance isnt the problem here i dont mind human characters at all i think they can be really fun #its the fact that the human characters are taking over the story and spotlight when the show is called knuckles #and all the marketing makes it look like knuckles is the main focus #and i also would have preferred if they just went with a differnet character to be knuckles' human friend #because i dont particulraly care about wade. and the knuckles (and sonic and tails) i know would not be friends with cops </3 #well at least the story wasnt knuckles training wade to be a better cop like a lot of people were expecting but thats like.the bare minimum #also aside from the issues relating to knuckles' screentime (or lack of screentime) i thought the ending was unsatisfying #regardless of all that though there WERE some parts i enjoyed or found kind of funny or whatever. because knuckles so cutesy as always #knuckles being a cute little guy is the most important part of the show actually #and i liked the parts with sonic tails and maddie even if they were only there for like 5 minutes #(i really wish those three had gotten more screentime. i feel like they could have easily worked in at least one more scene with them)#and its a minor thing but the opening sequence is cute. was honestly expecting just a title card or something #overall the show is just . kind of okay i guess. not the worst thing ive ever seen but still disappointing ? idk how to explain..#my expectations also werent very high in the first place #so maybe im being a bit more generous than i would have been otherwise. idk #and i definitely would not recommend this to anyone who already dislikes the sonic movies . youll probably hate this more #like people who thought the human characters got too much screentime in the second movie would lose their minds if they saw this

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sophiethewitch1 · 10 months ago

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in my hater era

#sophie speaks #tw vent #like. what. what???#i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin #struggling hugely #had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something #and you know. thats on me #but saying like #im NOT trying??#i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person #what???#trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset #idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this #express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time #but then they dont believe you??#trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes #like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself #i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive #im so tired #ive been suicidal for like 7 years now #my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just #it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit #cripplepunk core lmao #cripple and im going to kill you #this is just geniunely upsetting #i feel like i need a good cry #i really am so tired #i feel like i just dont want to do this #why am i paying for this? why am i doing this?#if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it

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