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Yall aren't ready for the fact I kinned Bill cipher even harder when I was high last night (This has happened before when high, and i otherwise have terrible roleplay skills and do not kin in any way).
A way in which I felt co-concious and like I was actually going insane. To the point he told my girlfriend "this bitch with the body's gonna come out of this thinking I'm fictional and they were just high, but I'm HERE. it's ME."
To the point of him explaining to my girlfriend that this is part of his punishment. That he can only posses high fandom-diseased people because they have an easier time "breaking the seal between what's fiction and what's real". And that means he will never be taken seriously. And that he's being put in the most cringe possible scenario as some sick psychological torture. And that he's so much more than the silly mascot he is in this reality but we can't SEE that CAN WE?!
These are all things he said. And guess what, it's cringe as hell and all fiction. So that prophecy was fulfilled, I suppose.
#im always embarassed thay weed does this to me. this should only be possible on hard drugs but im so sensitive to marijuana#i guess.#but while i have this strange disease i might as well share it with tumblr#who may understand in some twisted way#understand my suffering#bill cipher#gravity falls#the book of bill#unreality#<<i guess i should use that tag but it sure as hell felt like SOMETHING#like imagine cannabis giving you a strong enough identity crisis where you turn from an athiest to being the equivalent of a#shifter snapewife motherfucker#im still residually high if you couldnt tell
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it’s not a sin to be a child ☁️
#my art#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#nanami kento#yuji itadori#they both could use a hug#thinking about the light novel where gojo acknowledges how nanami can understand ppls suffering#and then i wept 30 thousand tears
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Bellyache (terminal)


This is the exact vibe i'm going for with this
#drama queen#🙄#none suffer as beautifully as he does#no matter what bad thing happens to him it is the worst thing to happen to anyone ever you would never understand#httyd#how to train your dragon#rtte#snotlout#race to the edge#snotlout jorgenson#my art
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Homer!Odysseus and Epic!Odysseus would try to kill each other if they ever met
#Homer!Odysseus: you sacrificed your men to save yourself? Detestable coward! How I wish I was never born if it would ensure you had not the#Epic!Odysseus: you’d understand if you *loved your wife.* But I guess a guy who stayed with Circe for a year wouldn’t know that!#H!Odysseus: do not speak of things you know nothing about! I long for my return to sweet Penelope but I have a duty to my men#E!Odysseus: A YEAR. A WHOLE YEAR. I WOULD KILL ANYTHING AND ANYONE TO GET A HOME A YEAR FASTER#H!Odysseus: that was clear when you served Scylla six men like they were cattle!#E!Odysseus: it was them or me! And don’t keep talking about my friends like you did any better. you’ll go home alone too#H!Odysseus: they doomed themselves when they ate Hyperion’s golden cattle. I am not responsible for their suffering. But you could have ens#H!Odysseus: Now Eurylochus’s body lies at the bottom of the sea where there can be no burial and no honour#E!Odysseus: AND I’LL GO HOME TO MY WIFE. MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT LOVELY LOYAL WIFE WHO’S BEEN WAITING FOR ME FOR TWENTY YEARS.#E!Odysseus: and when I go home and she asks if I came back as fast as I could I’ll be able to answer honestly#H!Odysseus: WE HAD BEEN THROUGH MANY TRIALS. THE MEN NEEDED TO REST#E!Odysseus: FOR A YEAR???? DID THEY NEED TO REST FOR A YEAR??? AND DID THEY NEED THAT REST RIGHT AFTER A MONTH’S LONG REST WITH AEOLUS??? S#H!Odysseus: IF YOU WISHED FOR ITHACA SO DESPERATELY WHY DIDN’T YOU OBEY PALLAS ATHENA AND KILL THE CYCLOPS#E!Odysseus: *drawing sword* I WAS HAVING A ROUGH DAY#Epic the musical#Epic odysseus#The odyssey#odysseus#Homer#Greek mythology#Jorge rivera-herrans#nuclear war speaks
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thinking about super cousins post-season 2 and potential effects of being exposed to kryptonite so many times
#my adventures with superman#maws#maws season 2#clark kent#kara zor el#superman#dc comics#there's something so tasty in the angst of suffering an affliction only your species can experience#and the only other person who can understand that pain is equally as incapacitated#i really hope that they can find solace in each other after everything
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How… Do I recover from this…?
#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha#mha#dabi#touya todoroki#bnha dabi#mha dabi#bnha season 7#mha season 7#i’m just… after the episode my mind went blank completely… and then i started sobbing… because what the fuck…#i feel even more heartbroken than i already did and literally can’t stop crying…#bruh i can’t… i’m completely shattered… i couldn’t take screenshots without stopping for few moments to cry over dabi…#he has suffered so much… endured so much… i feel sick to my stomach omfg…#and some of y’all want me to change my mind about endeavor??? HELL NAH I NOW HATE HIM EVEN MORE ACTUALLY#so congrats to all of you that wanted dabi fans to be more understanding toward the walking garbage: it didn’t work#and never will. he needs and deserves to rot in fucking hell
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#I ran out of silly funny stupid tags to tag this with#art#fanart#my art#original art#I was gonna say maul each other apart and bite each other’s ears off but Frye would get her fangs ripped off really fast#so no don’t do that Frye#also yeah snake mix frye’s a snake she’s got venom in those stingers#Splatoon#Splatoon art#splatoon fanart#Splatoon fan art#Splatoon 3#Splatoon au#Splatoon fuzzy au#Splatoon Frye#Frye Splatoon#Frye onaga#frye fanart#Splatoon pearlina#Pearl Splatoon#pearl houzuki#Pearl fanart#suffer no fools#comfort au#by the way I kinda hate their language because it’s hard to understand and I’m not in the right state of mind to decipher it#and to draw it on clothes especially because they fold and they get all weird#that’s why pearl’s hoodie is kinda flat honestly. it bothers me a lot but it’s just out of my reach for the moment I’m sorry
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One of two commissions for @beanellinies! Sweet Troll Jesus in the style of my ornate card suit people. Detail shots, because I had a lot of fun getting all 11 other ancestors in there in one form or another.
#Homestuck#Splickedydoodles#The Sufferer#The Signless#Kankri Vantas#MAN this one was fun!! thank you to beanellinies for their patience and understanding and nice clear instructions#and thank you to clip studio paint for making it so easy to do chains lmaoooo saving my life over here
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two sides of the same coin
#itadori yuuji#ryomen sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#my art#jujutsu kaisen fanart#brainrot incoming (pls don’t mind me)#one thing sukuna and yuuji have in common is that they’re both absolutely miserable#sukuna is utterly selfish and yet it only made him hollow inside and now he’s just killing time waiting for death to come#yuuji is completely selfless and yet it’s only made him suffer and bc of that he’s been constantly trying to check out of life#and I think the funniest but also the most painful thing about these two is that…#despite that they’re vastly opposite they might be the only people that can understand each other the most#imagine them having a heart to heart lol maybe then they would realise some things about themselves
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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I think a lot of people misinterpret the bandaid line in the van speech and believe that Will is saying that in that moment he's "ripping off the bandaid" to his love for Mike. As if this is his first step in "getting over" Mike.
But that's not the case. The whole line is: "And if [I] was going to lose you, I think [I'd] rather just get it over with quick, like ripping off a bandaid." He directly follows this up by adding, "So yeah, [I] need you Mike, and [I] always will."
Will is saying what he wishes he could do. He wishes he could get over Mike quickly, like ripping off a bandaid. But the point is that he can't.
#byler#he just talked minutes before about how he hoped he could spend the rest of his life with Mike#playing video games and DnD together#will didn't “rip the bandaid off” he TRIED to and found he couldn't do it#edit: i don't think Will ACTUALLY wishes to get over Mike I think he just wants the pain/suffering connected to his love of Mike to end#perhaps i could've expressed that better in my original statement but oh well i think you all understand my meaning nonetheless
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lighting inspired by that one hyuluka frame in the alien stage mv “wiege”
#I imagine Reo had to attend a business party and he sneaked nagi in by pretending he’s a photographer boy doing a school project or smth lol#blue lock#bllk#bllk fanart#reo mikage#nagi seishiro#reonagi#nagireo#nagi x reo#my art#fanart#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#drawing#illustration#this took so long you don’t understand#ugh im never doing fully rendered comic strips again#<- (dumbass who never sticks to her word)#<- (will never learn her lesson) (will suffer again)
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im obsessed with the way ironhide is abt to get painfully crushed into a literal cube of scrap like in the monsters Inc trash compactor , & his last words are just ' later guys, it's been real'
#jazz getting picked up and tossed aside im crying#theyre like little little goats trying to headbutt and being brushed aside#two constructicons had to push ironhide backwards and still took a bit... i love fat bitches#his little voicecrack as he tries to put on a brave face (??) for his autobots#he doesnt care abt dying he cares abt everyone else im gonna offline myself#i love my gruff and tumble softie wife so fucking much yall dont understand#transformers#maccadam#transformers generation one#ironhide called megatron a doodoo head so megatron must kill him painfully first#not even optimus is going first 😭 just his mouthy lieutenant#it wojld make optimus suffer more but still thats so funny#megatron#ironhide#constructicons#jazz#fly high jazz 💔#tf g1
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Many people have taken one look at this and inmediately leaped to the conclusion that Jedi forbid emotions. Which is, huh… interesting.
What people don't realize is that the Jedi Order are a religious organization, and as such they have their own sacred texts, such as this meditation mantra (because yeah, that's the only time it's ever mentioned, during meditation).
And the trick about this kind of texts is that they're not meant to be taken literally. You're not supposed to take it at face value, you're supposed to think about it, reflect about it, and then interpretate it. I'm sure the average "fan" hasn't actually thought about it beyond "code bad Jedi evil", nevermind that it's not actually the Jedi Code mentioned in the films.
Since it's a meditation mantra, one used to focus to make connecting with the Force easier, it makes perfect sense that this is how you should feel when using the Force.
You shouldn't be overwhelmed with emotions or passions, you shouldn't act if you don't have knowledge. This is obvious: if you can command the essence of life, then maybe you should actually be in the state of mind to do it.
However, the other lines of "no chaos but harmony" and "no death but the Force" don't fit into this. So, what do they mean?

Here is the other version of the Code. It was seen for the first time in the Kanan comics, and is arguably more canon than the previous one.
(People have called it the Gray Jedi Code, which is hilarious in and on itself and another point in favor of the argument that the so called Gray Jedi are just canon Jedi.)
I'm sure everyone can agree that this one is good.
Feel, but find peace in your emotions. Know nothing, but figure it out. Suffer, but look past it to find serenity. Just like there is chaos, there is harmony. And just like there is death, there is the Force.
But what if I told you that both Codes are saying the same thing?
I know, I know. You probably think I'm crazy, but… what if they're saying the same things, in different ways?
To expand on the interpretation that the first one is how you should be when using the Force (and I admit with my whole chest that this is my interpretation), we can say that the Force isn't naturally things like emotion and chaos. They are only what we bring with us.
That doesn't make them any less real. They are, and they are important, but they are subjective experiences. Everyone will have different emotions, different passions, different things they are ignorant of. Even death, even as it will come for everyone, is something private and personal. I don't know what X person felt or thought when they died.
However, things like peace, harmony and the Force are universal.
Chaos (noun): "complete disorder and confusion." "the property of a complex system whose behaviour is so unpredictable as to appear random"
Dictionary definition, bear with me. "Whose behavior is so unpredictable as to appear random". It isn't random, it has patterns and reasons to happen just like everything else. We simply don't know those patterns. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Just because we don't know something doesn't mean we can't learn it. There is no ignorance, there is knowledge. Therefore there is no such thing as chaos, not really, just a pattern, an order, a harmony, we don't know yet. First definition is about human reaction, not anything about the object itself. There is no chaos, there is harmony.
Emotion, ignorance, passion, chaos, even death. They are all feelings, subjective experiences, things that, ultimately, can change as you find new understanding (well, death only happens once and is permanent but you get the point). But inner peace, knowledge (about situations, about people's reactions), serenity and harmony are all universal. They exist, and will exist long after we die, we just have to find them.
And, long as we remember people, as we understand that all lives have left a mark, big or small, we will keep those who have passed alive within our hearts.
Death, yet the Force. There is no death, there is the Force. Or, perhaps…
"(The Force)'s an energy field created by all living things" Obi-Wan Kenobi, ANH
"Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter" Yoda, ESB
"No one's ever really gone" Luke Skywalker, TLJ
Death, yet the essence of living beings. There is no death, there is life.
#star wars#pro jedi#pro jedi order#pro jedi code#jedi meta#reflection#my ramblings#I try to guess the meaning of fictional religious texts and I'm agnostic#the funniest thing is that this interpretation makes sense#passion refers to its archaic meaning of suffering btw#jedi positivity#even if you don't agree it doesn't matter#philosophy is Like That#but understanding this was mindblowing for me#sorry if I don't make sense I just wanted to share my interpretation of the code#and I'm bad at articulating#nothing but love for the jedi#this is a pro jedi blog
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ghost who sleeps in nik’s black hawk when his insomnia is at its worst
when he can’t sleep for the paranoia eating away at his chest, when every creak and sound is an enemy creeping to his door, when everyone and everything is just too loud he asks nik for the keys
personal weapons aren’t allowed in the base housing but the hangers? those are fair game. he can load himself up with enough bullets and knives to be a one man army; rifles pointed out each window as he hunkers down with only a blanket to protect himself from the cold hard metal
no one but nik knows he sleeps out here and with the base asleep, if ghost hears anyone, he’ll know it’s an enemy. that surety settles the beast in his chest enough for him to finally drift off into a solid sleep for the first time in a month
no one but nik knows on these rare nights that he stands watch outside the hanger while ghost sleeps; gun in hand, standing guard for the man who tirelessly protects the rest of them, no matter the consequences
#like i said im deep in my nik protecting ghost feelings#quiet support literally kills me#nik doing everything in his power to look after ghost#including not letting ghost know he’s aware of why he does this all so he doesn’t suffer from his vulnerability?#i am Unwell#this dynamic with them being platonic hits just as much#it not being about protecting your lover just the pain of a understanding a brother in arms#of seeing the protector and knowing hes never had anyone protect /him/#and voicelessly watching his back bc it what he deserves#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#nikghost#ghostnik#nik cod#cod nik#cod nikolai#nikolai cod#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#cod mw2#cod modern warfare#cod mwii#cod fic#save post
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Enjoy a big ol scribble pile of Malevolent faces, Ft. Me desperately trying to draw arthur's face the same way twice (and failing) exploring some s1-4 fits, Butcher and Uncle cause why not!
#malevolent#Arthur Lester#John Malevolent#Butcher#Uncle#butcher collins#what's his first name?#it's fine#very mild#spoilers#i guess? maybe?#I feel like my arthur always has the right VIBE#that I want for him#but I CANNOT for the life of me keep his angles consistent#drives me CRAZY#but it's helping my understanding of the planes of the face#so enjoy my suffering#i guess
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