#twt vent

[sicariodechinchulines]

Do you want to scream? try living here, my fucking good is awful.

I'm from Argentina, we are the second country with the highest E.D. % and diet culture is SO COMMON that in fact, is part of our identity.

the rest of Latinoamerica loves to refer to us as "pretty" but they only admire how obsessed we are with our appearance. from head to toe, skin, hair, nails, muscle, fat, everything, everything must look natural enough for don´t disgust but impossible enough for being admired.

I once chatted with a fat person from Anglo-America about discrimination... she was bmi 32 and I´m bmi 23, somehow we got the same shit.

i´m not even seen as "normal", i´m chubby. i´m 60 kg and in this country i´m "little fat" (even when most of my weight is on muscle because I was used to train 2-3 hours each day)

sometimes i feel like I´m exaggerating but then I remember an investigation i did on high school.

30% of students in my school had sort of e.d. 10% were male, but when I started with the interview, it was pretty clear that most of them were in denial, just big boys that like to train, then why did a young man cried while confessing how much his muscles ached?

most of them didn´t even realise how sick they were until I asked very specific questions that left them thinking.

it gets worst when you notice every single female teacher was skinny as a model and even like that, they rejected little treats such as candies or diet cereal bars, simply saying "I'm on diet."

EVEN WORST when you notice most of the food in the canteen is low-cal or unsweetened. or when you notice the most consumed thing, NOT ONLY IN THE SCHOOL but in the country, is MATE.

we breakfast MATE, an infusion without calories at all, a lot of us don´t accompany it with anything, and without calories in our system, we start a day.

and don´t make me talk about how normal is fasting here, like is healthy even.

and parents??? i´m not talking about rich or well-accomodated white families, i´m talking about mid-class mixed families, they consider that bullying your kid into an obviously eating disorder is NORMAL and RESPONSIBLE, but is not their fault... after all out grandparents were even worst.

my father bullied us into an e.d. first, while recovering, I was mad as fuck at him, how he could, my own father, do that to me??? to my brother??? at the point of vigorexia, bulimia, anorexia??

of course, he was fucking orthorexic. he learned it from his mother in a way that could look almost healthy, she prohibited him to eat anything high-cal or "weighty" his whole childhood.

and like she, there is a bunch.

you all should experiment the Argentinian common experience of getting in a gym, some of them are judgemental, but other just push you deeper into it, sharing their insecurities and "tips" without thinking twice.

i recall last month, drinking a fucking DIET SODA with a bunch of fighters and how a best friend said to the other "You aren´t allowed to eat! you need to drop 4 kg!" even after 3 hours of exhausting training.

"and why aren´t you eating either then??"

"just in case" 62 kg with 1,80cm.

3 minutes before, the short one, bulky but healthy, spook of fatphobia like he still fat. all of us joined the conversation, 8 people between 16 and 24 from all classes and ethnic, all in healthy weight with bodies of fighters, talking sore about how fucked up this country is.

at this point, i´m just embracing it; all the pressure and pain that appearance brings us and I can only imagine how it is for people below the standard, because i´m the most normal looking human here. i don´t draw attention neither disgust, but if I´m this fucked up and hurted, how is it for ""ugly"" or actually fat people??

anyway, i´m just wondering if my brother ate today, my father already sent a pic, he did a vegetarian healthy recipe. i wonder if my mother is feeling okay or is she lying, lately she was trying to lose weight because a picture disgusted her.

i wonder how my best friend is doing in her relationship, she´s dating a boy with an obvious e.d. but he looks so healthy and beautiful that no one suspect (or do something. would be a shame if he lost his figure while recovering, isn't?)

i wonder how that boy i interviewed is doing, after recognizing his bulimia and how he does coke to avoid eating, or the weird relation between his volatile mood and it.

or the giant rugby player who cried in relief after noticing I wasn't there for judge him.

or the girl who tried to commit suicide in the bathroom after experiencing fatphobia for the first time when she gained 50 kg due to meds.

or that competitive gorgeous light eyed girl who was so desperate for the attention that her competitive anorexic mother didn´t give her that she sPREADED RUMORS ABOUT ME, SAYING I WANTED TO FUCK HER BOYFRIEND OR MY BEST FRIEND EX-BOYFRIEND. YEAH I´M EVEN WORRIED BY THAT BITCH WHO CALLED MY BEST FRIEND (the only genetically SKINNY person I know) ANOREXIC EVEN WHEN WE SHARED E.D. MEMES ON TWT

THAT´S BETRAYAL.

or the other who actED LIKE MY FRIEND AND TOOK EVERY CHANCE SHE HAD TO CALL ME FAT??!! she loved to post unaware pics of me knowing how much I hated it, even flirted with all pretendant I had and excused herself with aUTISM?????? BRO, I´M NEURODIVERGENT TOO, THAT´S HOW WE ENDED UP SITTING TOGETHER, BEING ANOREXIC AND AUTISTIC IS NO EXCUSE FOR ACTING LIKE A BITCH

it´s get better, iT HAPPENED WITH A SHORT BOY TOO- since 13 he loved to call me "bollito" for the bolas de fraile (search BOLAS DE FRAILE) and when I dropped weight he just stopped??? he acted like we were friends????

Diet culture is fucking wild.

I just learned that Trader Joe's labels some of its food as "Reduced Guilt." There's a brand of popcorn called "Lesser Evil." I had to see an ad on Tumblr for a popular yogurt brand with the tagline of "Less sets you free." I read the back of a food product once that described the food as "sinless."

People literally choose a bag of carrots based on the calorie count. I've had to hear multiple people claim that fat people shouldn't be allowed to eat fruit. There was a water brand at the grocery stored that advertised itself as having "zero calories." A woman saw me next to some diet culture smoothie products and made small talk with me about how she didn't understand why the diet culture smoothie made out of fruits and vegetables she was using to replace an entire meal with had a whopping 300 whole calories.

A man talked to me at the store about how he was there to buy a snack, which consisted of two hardboiled eggs and a packet of black pepper. He then told me about his weight loss dreams while being average-sized and thinner than I am.

I saw a post on Tumblr of someone praising a "bread" made out of tree bark that ancient Finnish people ate as a last resort during times of starvation, and they praised this "bread" because it had a fourth of the calories of regular bread—calories that would have saved the lives of countless Finnish people during those famines who instead had to die.

People on here passed around a video of some diet culture soup that promised a loss of 15 pounds in a matter of days, and all of the comments were people laughing at how it did so by making anyone who ate it shit their brains out for a week, yet the people who did were still satisfied with the diarrhea-induced weight loss.

There are so many accounts fat people can give you of thin people who did nothing to obtain their skinny person genetics physically taking food out of the fat person's shopping cart because "You don't need this." And what the thin person decided a random fat stranger didn't need was a fucking melon.

I've talked about this stuff before, but diet culture has legitimately become a cult that destroys lives and kills people by the hour. And yet public outrage isn't about all of this. What people are so worried about is the fact that fat people merely exist. And that is apparently so horrible that we gotta make sure to tax sodas until us fatties go away, which people genuinely think will work.

What really adds insult to injury is how we have known for decades and decades that dieting has never worked from the beginning. But that doesn't make corporations billions of dollars nor one group of people higher on the social hierarchy, so none of that research makes headlines like the next fruit that causes cancer or the new diet that pinkie promises it'll work this time.

I want to scream.

[blessedangelofdeath]

[tearsfallout]

[lovely-sk1n]

does anyone else try massaging their stomach down to make food digest quicker and slim ur stomach out? ive been doing it since i saw an episode of supersize vs superskinny where a girl did it

[millineoo]

If i gave you the choice between the most delicious meal you’ve ever had in your entire life OR waking up tomorrow at your goal we!ght… which one would you pick????

[actuallycharliespring]

hiii lovelies! I’m so sorry to ask, but can people please not repost with new tags? It seems like everyone if getting t-worded right now and I’m really worried about losing my only safe space and other people loosing theirs due to mass repOrtíng. Please just never repost with new tags for éd content <3

Stay safe and please just blOck don’t repOr* 🫶🏻

[dandelion-and-bones]

Calling binging for a few days 🌟 recovery 🌟 because I'm delusional

[coffeeforanaliza]

DANCE ‘TIL YOU’RE DEAD

[imc14lover]

ter t.a e emagrecer: 😍💞❤️💖

ter t.a e não cagar: 😭💔😭😣

[pierrotdoesnteat]

reminder that not everyone wants to be "bonespo" or "deathspo" and that your goals will not always be the same as someone else. some people want an "average" weight, some people care more about how their body looks to them than the numbers on the scale, some people want muscle more than anything. leave people alone over the end goals.

[modelincognito]

Icon. I need to watch skins again.

[delightfulnightblizzard]

How skinny do I need to be to look skinny? *Asking for a friend

[anastayskinni]

ED SONGS THAT AREN'T (too badly) CRINGE

*note many of these are alternative, if that's not your thing this may not be for you*

4n0rexic Beauty Queen - Kevin MccLough

Surgery - Jack Off Jill

Teen Idle - Marina

Abbey - Mitski

Brand New City - Mitski

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple

4st 7lb - Manic Street Preachers

B1ng3 And Pvrg3 - Lunachicks

An0rex1a Poster Girls - Batteries

Sk1nny Little Bitch - Hole

St4rving For Attention - The Narrative

Anor3xiс Beauty - Pulp

Bella Disorder - Better Off

[tearsfallout]

[lovely-sk1n]

so tired

[kcalfairy2-0]

Imagine quão magra você vai acordar amanhã se não jantar hoje?

E se pular o café e almoço também???

Seu corpo vai ficar fininho

Pulou o jantar denovo???

Tudo bem!!

Aquele shorts que você sempre quis usar está quase servindo agora

Que tal um cházinho verde em vez de um refri?

E se você tomar uma água em vez de comer esse lanche que está com vontade???

Como sua barriga diminuiu!!

E não da para esquecer da água o restante do dia, e quem sabe uma frutinha picada?

Que tal só uma saladinha no almoço??

Seu corpo está ficando tão lindo

Sua pele melhorou tanto desde que parou com os doces!

E como você emgreceu!!

Está tão bonita, sinto inveja desse corpo

Quem sabe um exercício cairia melhor do que essa comida?

Pois assim aquela roupa com certeza vai cair bem em você!!!

Fome? Não é fome, é apenas tédio!

Que tal fazer as unhas ou uma skincare?? Ou até mesmo estudar! Você sabia que estudar queima calorias?

Esse foco todo está te deixando cada dia mais linda, você é incrível e eu estou muito orgulhosa 🦋