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TW B0DYCH3CK//

• also life update

• also guess my BM1 pls

• also some words of encouragement and love

First time I've felt okay about my chest in a while!!! Screenshot from a 5 minute long bc video LMFAO. Any BM1 guesses I need to know how I'm perceived.

(So sorry for the inactivity and dms I haven't replied to. I've been on the worst bender I've had in years and yesterday was my first time sober minus sleeping in a month, I'm withdrawing hard, can't stop puking and I'm so incredibly unstable. Also was on the verge of psychosis for weeks. This time I'm trying to actually get at least slightly sober, no more hard drvgs, I'm also not going to smoke any we3d for the first few days as I think it'll only make me think about needing something stronger aka the things I'm getting off of. You all are loved and whatever you're struggling with rn whether it's your Ed or sobriety or sh or the millions of other troubles, there's still time and you CAN change. There's more to this life than the destruction we put ourselves through. If you're thinking of recovery from anything take that thought and run as far as you can with it. When you're chasing a high or numbers and all those other things, you're chasing something that doesn't exist. 🫂💗)

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BC//

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B0dychecking in the middle of s3lf h4rм LMAO 😭 I carry all my fat in my legs I miss my lw legs so badly id do anything to be bm1 12 again even 13s would be fine. Fasting currently bc I need to lose.

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//B0DY CH3CK

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Chest bones + Collar bone bc

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Lol covering my traps always they feel so ugly and manly. Low BMI 16s currently but fluctuating high 15s. Body isn't giving out as much I'm good to start losing again I'm so excited. This time I WONT get refeeding though. Also does anyone else feel more post worthy when the photo is in b&w???

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ho r u alive

Haiii Tumblr I'm back. I'm alive, though I'll say I fear how much longer it'll be! Joking kinda, my heart is giving me a lot of trouble and keeps bordering attacks and stuff and refeeding knocked me out all of December 😓. The funny thing is I'm maintaining BMI mid 15s-low 16s and am having more issues than I did at BMI 12?!?! I'm feeling better than December now and getting back to losing I wanna be BMI 14 by my birthday!!!! Also I'm bordering psychosis with the episode I'm in rn AND I'm on a drug bender which is triggering my schizoaffective but it's okay and I'm going where the wind takes me 💗🦄

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Student Spø Board

PLEASE DO NOT REBLOG W/ TAGS! My last blog got termed

Th1n5p0:

M3al ideas:

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sometimes I’m so cold it doesn’t feel like I’ll ever be warm again

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does anyone else isolate themselves for scary long periods of time because they don't wanna be seen until they're skinny enough

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If I lose control I’m going to be FAT

if I lose control I’m going to be FAT

If I lose control I’m going to be FAT

If I lose control I’m going to be FAT

If I lose control I’m going to be FAT.

if I lose control I’m going to be FAT

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I am going to fast a week again! Starting strong taking 5 laxatives 🥰

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BC FROM TODAY + RANT ABOUT ED

Little boy section at target, size small Minecraft pajamas ^_^ today has been bad, I got a black eye and fucked up my finger fainting, overall in immense pain. Incredibly hungry but no appetite nor will to do much. But I will say getting this PJ set and a monster and the feeling of being really bad is nice. I don't think I will live to 2026 if I keep going at the insane fasting rate I've been doing, immediately after refeeding and liver damage too. But I think I have peace with that after this disorder has been here more than half my life, I often wish this would've taken me away a long time ago. Life is slow currently, I don't remember much and stepped outside for the first time in a week just yesterday, it hurts really bad to have no one and my family seemingly unable to hear me, but isn't that all I ever really wished for? To be left alone? To not keep getting thrown into institution after institution? To stay in my room for a week and not have a single person check? Perhaps you should be careful what you wish for, the isolation hurts to the point I feel it physically, but it also gives me peace knowing I'm back to the stage of sickness that I don't want anything other than to just keep destroying my life. But hey cute pajamas and a size win! Lose a bit of weight and a lot of everything that actually matters, when did this all happen.

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I just busted the fuck outta the right side of my face fainting I swear the things I put myself through for nothing

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FORGOT TO UPDATE THIS yes I did finish the week!!

65 hours in, 102 more to go.

Some th1n$po to keep me motivated ^_^

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BC + RANT

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Been a while since I've b0dy checked at all on here, this one feels scarier since some of my face is in it so if u know me and recognize please pretend I'm a hallucination. I regret my orthorexic era because now I have such weird man traps and that's the last muscle I want visible, if I know how to fix that I beg you to tell me. Starting to finally feel a bit better, less illness and my vitals are stable AND I can FINALLY walk again. Had a tad bit of a death scare but I'm back on my antics. I am currently following the ABC diet f harm reduction I accept my fate!!! I hope you all are doing well, take care. 🫶

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Refeeding update I can FINALLY walk again after my legs lost feeling the past few days. Again reminder PLEASE be mindful and careful with your restriction you are NOT the exception to death.

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Refeeding vitals aesthetic

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Hai guys haven't updated but I have refeeding syndrome and it's so over please be kind with how you end your extended fasts

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