#tw: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

[blessed-bruises]

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[fragmented-artist]

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Blaine

[horygory]

Smile (2022)

[bipolarmango]

Therapy takes time.

Unlearning behaviour takes times, even if not proceeding with that behaviour would make sense in your head.

Let's normalize that going to therapy for a few times won't probably magically turn your life around, especially if you come from years of trauma or mental health issues (or both). Cut yourself some slack for not magically just dropping and unlearning the coping mechanism you have learned and kept for years, sometimes for decades, in order to survive. It's a process, and you're doing it at your own pace.

[ceruleanmindpalace]

Inktober No. 31 - Haunted

Sherlock is haunted by his past.

From @bluebellofbakerstreet's amazing promptlist for Inktober 2023

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Sorry for just vanishing for two weeks, things were (and still are) quite difficult for me at the moment. The actual topic of this Inktober work is what I am struggling with most at the moment. We are shaped by our pasts and the marks of it can make our present dark and dull. What happened in childhood can feel impossible to shake off and haunt us for our entire life.

I am flattered if you reblog, but do NOT post my art on other sites/social media or use in any other way without my written permission.

[nerve0-0damage]

People act as if religious trauma can be "fixed" with religion as if it's not a trigger.

[odiabonecessario]

You dying wouldn't be enough to satisfy my anger if you didn't feel what you made me go through

[spookietrex]

I'm so thankful that my therapist encourages me to write letters to my abusers, even if I'll never send them.

[fragmented-artist]

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Blaine

[spoonie-support]

I assure you the trauma is not all in your head. it's also in your heart, your nerves, and your stomach. It is in your trembling hands, your uneven breathing, your vision is suddenly gets blurry. It's not just your head that went through the thing. every cell in your body was there

[bipolarmango]

Stuff my therapist says that's hurtful but true

If, as a child, you had to constantly earn approval or fend off criticism, you may unconsciously seek partners who trigger similar patterns, perhaps in hopes of finally “winning” validation or being “enough” in a way you couldn’t achieve with early caregivers.

[bpdmaxxer]

I hate that I need validation for my trauma

Like I didn’t have a mental breakdown so bad yesterday over my flashbacks my mom called the hospital

And yet I still question if I’m being to dramatic was it really that deep? Was it really sa? I don’t even remember enough

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

tw bullying

suspected npd + ptsd + low self esteem culture is getting just a little bit more confident in yourself and then being a little more comfortable with asking people to do or not do xyz because you have a good reason. then being told "you just have to be the center of attention" and having flashbacks to grade school where your "friends" beat you black and blue for that reason.

but uh oh, my other biggest narc trait is that i self sacrifice for attention. you're watching tv really loud? no, it's fine, i have a migraine but wtv. oh, you wanted to talk about this subject? it's extremely triggering for me, but go on ahead! ...why the fuck aren't you asking if im okay. do i actually have to let myself have a breakdown over this fucking shit? im not that weak. im not that pathetic. why wont you notice me.

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[theburntdaughter]

Fuck you

[takami-takami]

Tw: trauma discussion!

My favorite favorite panels are the ones where Hawks talks about himself being dirty and unclean and how he. He is okay with himself being hurt because of it.

I know I've pointed to her in the past so so so much, but as Lady Nagant is Hawks' predecessor and serves as exposition for his backstory, it is crucial to point to her to understand Hawks' trauma and how he internalizes it.

The way she begins to see her hands as coated in blood. The eternal nausea of what she was made to do, the way the normalization afterwards makes her want to vomit. It's dizzying.

Hawks views himself as dirty. In the beginning of the series, he talks about corruption and how he feels like he has to corrupt himself to put others' minds at ease, but as the story progresses and we peel back those layers, it become extremeley apparent and obvious that doing what he did makes Hawks feel dirty.

He is not that different from Lady Nagant. He is just more optimistic about it.

[harmoniousbpd]

It's always “mental health matters! ”

Until that mental health is destructive,

Until that mental health, turns into handfuls of hair on the floor of a bedroom after ripping it out in a haste.

Until that mental health swallows someone whole and forces them away from everyone they have ever loved.

Until that mental health creates bloody tissues.

Until that mental health turns their bedroom into a junkyard.

Until that mental health turns every memory into a blur.

Until that mental health turns them unrecognizable.

Until that mental health leads them to neglect themselves for weeks on end.

Mental health only matters to you when it fits your standards.