#tw slight rant

[luc1ferian]

What if we both went on a date to my kitchen and killed all of the fruit flies that have infested. What if we laughed as we clapped over the bodies of small, helpless yet mindless creatures that have invaded my home in a desperate attempt to survive and reproduce. What if you find and scratch a fly right again the refrigerator and I get two at once. What if we find a motherload of bug surrounding the fruit bowl and collect so many bodies. What if we set up bowls of apple cider vinegar traps together. What if we danced to music as we twirl and clap around the room. What if we held our hands between a bug and crush it swiftly and almost mercifully to death, then carefully rub its innards off of each others palms. What then.

[dragonslovecoins]

Lil writing idea I'm gonna use for Halt and maybe King Duncan^^

TW!! SEXUAL ASSAULT!!

Halt getting raped when he was arrested. Baby Gurl will unpack this with Crowley

King Duncan getting raped by a tutor and not knowing it was sexual assault until he mentions it to Crowley.

__Just some rambling and me being broken 🖤🥀🐺, you can skip this.__

I know kinda how it feels mainly in what I plan to be Duncan's position. In my position, it wasn't rape, just some touching on my butt and pressing themselves on me (In class too like dude choose a better time 😒). But, I understand getting so used to it you begin to "like it" -- only to have to unpack it later and realize "Oops...what happened there?". Still don't know if I liked it or not, don't care tbh (okay maybe I care a little bit). So now poor Duncan is gonna get hit with the trauma blast! Yippee!

Also, Halt. I love Halt, so naturally I gotta make him suffer. He's not gonna unpack it until Crowley is there to say "Hey...no, we shouldn't let these people continue their lives no".

:D

[theautisticfroglord]

I genuinely hate when people invalidate demiromantic/demisexual/other labels in general by saying somethin like "OMG!!!! why do these labels exist that's how every relationship is!!!!! what has this generation come to?!!?,!?!!"

some people out here are dating someone they just met two days ago. while it literally took me two whole years of getting to know someone before having a crush on them. can y'all please not find excuses to invalidate aspec/arospec people. thanks

[silverware-is-interesting]

just some kinitopet doodles

the kinito crew, with mild effort

and some things i did with the users, under the cut since there is. a lot

all of 'em but the first 4 came into existence because of the incorrect quote generator

these guys are way too fun to draw (to me)

[lesbianoms]

Even as a fan of horror I have a separate headspace for vore and whenever it’s in a horror context it really fucks with me

Let me give an example. “Nope” is one of the best movies that I can NEVER watch again, and that’s because of the digestion scene. It was so utterly terrifying to me and it actually made me cry— I kind of went into a state of shock I think because I didn’t expect to see something so personally triggering on the big screen during a movie I’d gone to see with my mom.

Sorry if this seems spurred on but. I just saw an analog horror thing just now and. Idk. Makes me kind of unsettled knowing that some people might get off to it. Like obviously people are gonna be into what they’re into and that doesn’t make them bad people, but this is just an intrusive thought that’s been bothering me.

[ikamigami]

Slight rant I guess lol

I'm probably most likely wrong about Sun cause like honestly I doubt that VAs know what depressive psychosis is and guilt delusion and all that stuff so there's no way that my perspective on Sun is right but it's whatever I guess idk so anyway..

In laes episode I think that Sun was like "why Moon still blames himself when things are my fault".. Sun (at least to me) always seemed to want to help Moon realize that the things that happened to them aren't his fault.. or that's what Sun always thought..

And it somewhat fits with what he told Earth "sometimes I don't know how to help".. he sounded sad.. because he was never able to help Moon realize that things aren't his fault that Sun really don't blame Moon.. but himself..

To me it seems that Sun doesn't want to talk with Jack about his feelings anymore because he said that Jack didn't understand him.. and I really think that it's all about the guilt that Sun feels for how Moon and later Nexus turned out to be.. their suffering and mental issues..

I feel like Sun doesn't care about what will happen to him as long as he won't die solely because he doesn't want to leave his family.. because he knows exactly how it feels when your family member dies.. he went through this so many times..

For me Sun doesn't want to share his feelings on any matter that may reveal how guilty he feels.. that he blames himself and feels like he's a bad person..

But like I said.. it's how it looks like to me.. but 1) I'm not the writer of this show so idk what VAs has planned for Sun 2) things could've pretty much changed regarding Sun's story arc cause like this show has over 2 years so a lot of things happened in VAs lives that could shape later parts of story and 3) I heavily doubt that Sun actually has depressive psychosis cause it's not that common and like Davis said himself they only show stuff that either they themselves experienced or their friends.. which is understandable tbh..

I'm trying to comes to terms with it.. that only I and maybe just a few peeps see Sun this way - depressive psychosis with guilt delusion etc - cause it's highly unlikely that's true..

As much as I doubt that Sun will become Dark Sun 2.0 it's still more likely than what I think about Sun tbh.. heck even theory that Dark Sun is actually Sun from the future is more likely than what I think about Sun..

And that's okay cause this is VAs story and not mine..

It only hurts a little solely because I had learned the hard way that people don't understand how it is to feel guilty on delusional level.. how it is to feel like you're the worst person ever.. but that's my personal experiences..

But idk VAs and their personal experiences that they later base their characters on.. so I'm trying to get over it a little bit..

If later it'll turn out that I was completely wrong about Sun I might continue writing my fic as an AU.. if I really will still feel like it.. cause for now it kinda sucks that no one understands..

This is also why I lost some of the passion that I had for theorizing for sams.. or about Sun.. cause those folks who were rude me made me realize that most people don't get it how it is to feel like you're evil and everything is your fault..

And that's okay but it still hurt how they went about it.. how they ridiculed me and were mean to me..

But maybe it's not that bad cause at least it helped me distance myself from sams and Sun.. like it doesn't matter that no one gets it.. I can't theorize for shit lol but that's fine..

[thecorporatetower]

DAILY AFFIRMATIONS FOR MYSELF❤️🔥THIS MAY SOUND A LITTLE UNHEALTHY BUT I DONT CAARREEEEEE

🔥I AM BETTER THAN EVERYBODY 🤬HUMANS DONT UNDERSTAND MY WORTH BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT ON MY LEVEL ✨I AM HOT AND FUCKABLE 😈MY OPINION WILL ALWAYS BE SUPERIOR 🐺I AM 100X SMARTER THAN ALL HUMANS AND I HAVE BRAGGING RIGHTS 🔥THE WORLD DOES REVOLVE AROUND ME 🤬MY TRAUMA VALIDATES MY RIGHT TO SNAP BACK AT THE HUMANS THAT HURT ME ✨I SHOULD BE VALUED AND WORSHIPPED 😈HUMANS SHOULD BOW DOWN TO ME 🐺I WOULD MAKE A GREAT FUCKING PRESIDENT OR LEADER /SRS 🔥I AM LOVED ALWAYS 🤬I SHOULD ALWAYS BE RESPECTED ✨MY PERSONALITY DISORDER DOES NOT MAKE ME A MONSTER, JUST A SEXY BITCH 😈I DESERVE SO MUCH MORE LOVE AND ATTENTION THAN MOST 🐺I WILL NOT HURT MYSELF OR OTHER BEINGS WHO ARE LOWER THAN ME TO SHOW MATURITY AND THEREFORE PROVE I AM STILL BETTER

FELLOW NPD HAVERS FEEL FREE TO TELL YOURSELF THESE THINGS TOO !!!!!!

[jaybleu25]

does anyone else need tone indicators when talking to people online or no

i genuinely have a hard time telling what's a joke and what isn't sometimes; like when people jokingly insult or something i take it seriously and then i end up being upset for the rest of the day

[4ga1n5t-4ll-4uth0r1ty]

honestly, hearing people talking about abed in community, and even hearing him talk about himself is kinda just really upsetting

is that all people see me as ? a weirdo ?

the fact that he was immediately shut up multiple times when he started talking about his special interest

the fact he was continuously called a computer

the fact he was called 'creepy' due to his data taking

I am autistic, and I know that. but not everyone does. I've seen and heard people call someone who does something slightly 'stupid' or 'dumb', autistic. I've heard people make fun of people with disabilities. I've heard people diagnose themselves with one piece of evidence, after watching one video about symptoms.

the way autistic people are treated and stereotyped is so fucking stupid.

is that really all I am ? a 'weirdo' ?

to some people, allistic or autistic, abed's situation may sound and look a little unrealistic, but it's not. and that's coming from someone who has experienced what he has first hand. nobody can properly and fully understand something so complex, but is it really that hard to be respectful ? is it that hard to research, or teach someone ?

[aerisan-ace]

Slight vent, but my best friend just opened up to me about how she feels that people judge our friendship. That she only became friends with me because I'm smart, that she sees how obvious it is on other's stares. That she wanted to push me away so they'd stop staring. Of course, I comforted and reassured her (that it's not like that, and never was.)

But I can't help but feel hurt at this. (Not just towards other people, but also her?) Does she not trust me and herself enough, that she thinks our friendship solely revolves around academics? That she subconsciously thinks I'm just 'The smart friend' while I saw her as the most amazing, best friend, whom I feel comfortable with other than my cousins? But no, I'm just the smart friend (that's it?)

I never told her this. (What kind of friend centers one's problems to themselves??) Yet, I feel like she's telling me "I feel uncomfortable around you with other people because you're superior than me. Please don't hang out near me when others are watching," (and that hurts so bad coming from a person I care for deeply.)

I know she's just telling me how she feels (and it's fine to feel), I'm glad she opened up to me. But it doesn't mean that it didn't hurt. I didn't tell her this too (she'll blame herself.) I feel like our friendship is drifting apart.

And it's not like I'm not unwell. I have trust and relationship issues. (I often run from my problems, I admit.) but I'm trying to not run away this time. To not break off our friendship from this problem. (I can't commit to anything.)

I probably made this post to feel better about myself. To prove her wrong, to make people take my side. (maybe I really am) but I know deep down, it'll just hurt. Whether people take my side or not. (if there even is sides to take)

I don't know. I probably made this way too long. I just want to feel heard. About what I feel. (I don't want to feel better. I just want to feel seen)

[screwlowes]

>:(

I know I don't rant on here too much, or talk on here, really, but I have to scream about this. I was scrolling through my recommended articles just now, and this popped up.

Now, while I do not pray to Ares nor do I particularly enjoy his mythology, I know that as a legitimate deity, he is truly a wonderful deity. He is a protector of women, he is a defender of rape, domestic violence, and war victims, and so much others. He has so many myths in which he helps people, and honestly, he and Aphrodite are pretty strong, too.

He, much like Hades or Thanatos, does not deserve to be vilified because of fictional media! I enjoy participating in fandom as much as anyone, and I'm a very big fan of Percy Jackson, but Ares is not a villain, and for this article to come not from a fandom site, but an at least semi academic site, is very upsetting.

I just had to get that out of my system, sorry

[tvb0y]

TW// TRANS SLUR!!

" That Guy Looks Like A Fat Tr@nny Too" My Mom Says As She Watches A Murder Show, And Is In Fact, Not Trans.

What A Mom Ay?

[spirit-of-the-hollow]

I want it to be on this blog somewhere

TW: death, terrorism

Moscow is mourning today. This night, more than 60 lives were taken by camouflaged men in Crocus City Hall. 3 of them are children. There are more than 120 people hospitalised. More can die. All of them were innocent civillians.

Moscow is mourning today. All public events are cancelled, if not in mourning, then for safety reasons. Universities and schools have cancelled classes.

Sources differ, but it is generally accepted that about 20 armed men in camouflage went into the building, killed all security, and started firing towards people. There was also a concert going on, which meant there were more people around than usual. The terrorists later set fire to the mall.

The top floor has collapsed due to fire.

Moscow is mourning today, and I am too.

[funky-fairy]

Sehr langer rant über sehr triviale und privilegierte Probleme. Vllt kann mir ja irgendwer helfen der in ner ähnlichen Situation ist/war. Hab’s auf englisch nicht hinbekommen also deutsch. Keine Zeichensetzung lmao. Kleine triggerwarnung für essstörungen (??) nichts explizites.

Ich bin in letzter zeit irgendwie ziemlich konstant in ner scheißstimmung und ich fürs darauf zurück dass mein Abi jetzt immer näher rückt und ich langsam merke wie viel ich irgendwie verpasst hab? Also so an Sachen die jugendliche halt machen. Trinken, kiffen, rausgehen, parties. Ich war noch nie beliebt, schon in der Grundschule nicht, was auch gar nicht schlimm ist, ich hatte aber auch nie ne gruppe mit der man außerhalb der schule groß was macht außer mal nen filmabend an weihnachten. Ich hab seit ich 12 war nichtmal mehr meinen Geburtstag gefeiert verdammt. Und ich wurde halt auch in den jahren gymnasium auf solide null parties oÄ eingeladen, außer von ner außerschulischen Freundin (hab den starken Verdacht dass ihre Eltern sie darum gebeten haben). Hab dementsprechend noch nie getrunken, was der Großteil meiner Altersgenossen schonmal komisch bis langweilig findet. Dass ich ne Essstörung hatte hat meiner sozialen Entwicklung auch nicht geholfen. Immerhin rauche ich manchmal I guess. Und jetzt sitze ich halt hier und denk mir: fuck, Ich hab die letzten Jahre meines Lebens verpasst. Klar, parties und so ist nicht alles aber ich hab halt auch sonst nichts gemacht. Ich bin einfach langweilig. Oder wirke zumindest so. Ich war immer zu schüchtern und unsicher um nen coolen Style zu entwickeln, um offen meine Interessen zu vertreten, um mich Leuten zu nähern etc etc. Hab natürlich auch noch nie jemanden geküsst, es hatte auch noch nie wer Interesse an mir. Klar, das wird schon noch. Im Studium dann. Sagen alle immer. Ich hätt aber jetzt schon gern was. Vor allem weil mir dann später auch alle voraus sind, weil sie eben diese Sachen schon gemacht haben. Und ich möchte auch hinzufügen dass ich auch nicht freiwillig auf das alles verzichtet hab um mich auf die schule zu konzentrieren - meine Noten sind gut, aber eher aus Glück und hätt ich die Möglichkeit würde ich gute Noten gern gegen ein interessanteres leben und enge Freunde eintauschen. Es sagen zwar alle immer, dass das im Studium besser wird, glaub ich ihnen auch - muss ich ja, wenn ich das nicht glauben würde hätte ich wenig elan noch großartig weiterzuleben - aber das Ding ist, ich werd halt nie diese experience haben als jugendlicher dummen shit zu machen. Diese Unbeschwertheit und Freiheit der Schulzeit hab ich nicht genutzt und bald ist es vorbei. Ich kriege diese zeit nie wieder zurück und es fällt mir schwer damit umzugehen, dass ich sie ziemlich verschwendet hab. Klar, bei mir ist viel passiert mit dem ich so ziemlich allein klarkommen musste - Essstörung(und bin jz ntmal dünn lol), Familienstreit, meine mutter ist fast gestorben, Corona, Depressionen etc etc. Und jetzt noch ne eventuelle neurodivergenz. Fick mein Leben. Ich hab jetzt aber halt keine guten Erinnerungen an diese zeit. Keine einzige. Es ist einfach nichts passiert. Schule war für mich immer furchtbar und ich bin auch generell ein bisschen auf survival modus gewesen wegen allem halt und jetzt sitz ich hier, hab ein durchschnittliches Abi in Aussicht, keine Erinnerungen an die Schulzeit und dieses nagende Gefühl etwas verpasst zu haben. Ich hab irgendwie nie so richtig dazugehört, das letzte mal vielleicht im Kindergarten, und das merke ich jetzt und ich merke jetzt auch dass ich damit nicht so gut klarkomme wie ich dachte. Ich will einfach auch mal ein teenager sein und die Sachen machen die teenager halt so machen und mich abends rausschleichen und mich auf parties langweilen und Schule schwänzen und jetzt ist es zu spät. Ich will dazugehören, einmal. Es klingt alles so trivial aber es fühlt sich so groß an. Ich werde hierauf zurückblicken und mich fragen warum ich so war und warum ich mir so viele Sorgen über sinnlose Probleme gemacht hab aber ich hab die Sorgen jetzt nunmal.

[thecluelessdoctor]

cw warning: mini rant about the welcome home fanbase

Ok sometimes I just HATE the welcome home fanbase. Especially the shipping side

When I first joined, it was really chill! The thing that basically stopped alot of the shipping arguments was because there really- weren't any immoral shippings. And like- you could ship what you want and people really didn't care!

I myself am a multishipper and I basically ship every ship in WH. Like. If it exists I likely ship it. Ofc, some ships hit harder than others for me! I.E, I personally like laughingstock/beaglepillar more than other ships like Wallaby! But that doesn't mean I don't like them! But now I've seen people getting attacked for ships, which just plain sucks.

And I'm sorry I accidentally hoped you had drawn a ship I personally enjoy a lot, even though it was a prank! You don't need to make me feel like your mad at me! You don't need to bite my head off!!! (Slightly directed. I'm sorry if this offends you if you know it's you but I need to get this out of my system right now.)

And don't even get me started on Wally x YN. Ok, I used to sorta like it even though I didn't personally see Wally that way! But now it's over sexualized and it's getting gross. And I don't mean stuff in the tag, I mean I've accidentally seen (untagged may I add) r@pe and other really gross things involving this.

It's becoming a repeat of undertale, and definitely not in a good way.

It's just becoming really unenjoyable to be in this fanbase which is really sad because I genuinely love this story and characters. It inspired me to try and make things of my own. It helped me build my art style and helped with many more things!

But now I don't even want to work on my own AU that's pretty unknown and secluded due to this!

I mean, the full blown temptations I've had to deactivate my account and make a new one for a fresh start has been insane.

And now it feels like I'm only expected to make WH content!!! It makes me so sad.

[hellcheercaine]

While we’re on the subject of Billy Hargrove (and the antis), these antis don’t know true terror until they saw the Kanker sisters lol.

Can’t recount how many times I was bullied, and labelled just for saying that I like them—Billy and the Kanker sisters aren’t exactly the worst when it comes to fictional characters.

I’ve seen worse. Ending my rant here.