#tw eating disorder ment// /

[tangledinink]

Hopefully they are able to accept this healthy(and delicious) bento. The old man has been very worried the kids aren't eating.

it is very much appreciated. they'll find some quiet corner of the @tmntaucompetition to hide in so they can eat.

[pigeonwinnin]

TW: disordered eating mention

Lately I keep sitting in front of the mirror and wondering what I’ll have to lose to be loved. At what weight will I not be tossed aside anymore? What pant size will make me important to people in my life. How will a dress need to fit me to have my awkwardness and anxiety be seen as enduring instead of socially isolating. What bodily ratio will make sure that I’m never abandoned again.

It’s illogical to think that a number in this sense is security against emotional pain. I know deep down it might not fix anything. But it’s all I have left and I need to try because I’m so tired and scared right now. I don’t want to be unloveable for the rest of my life.

[gay-jewish-bucky]

[little-blurry]

[thestarsandskyaboveus]

hunter wittebane-noceda - general hcs.

this man loves physical touch (not that kind y'all nasty mfs)- hand-holding, hugs, shoulder pats, etc. he's touch-starved as hell. he'll probably cry on you if you hug him, but only if he's well-rested enough not to fall asleep instantly.

hugs from people he trusts are really the only way he feels safe... even when he's by himself, he's always on edge. it feels good to know somebody has his back.

that's probably why he's so tired all the time tbh. never been well-rested a day in his life because he just doesn't feel safe enough to let himself relax. dude probably has muscle knots for days.

became the golden guard at thirteen. his hands were very badly scarred on his first mission (like in the moringmark comic) when he had to dig his troop of scouts out from underneath a landslide. he ended up with bad nerve damage from the cold of the mountains, and his hands still shake pretty badly, even when he tries really hard to hold them still. he wears compression gloves to help combat this.

never been in a relationship and never had any friends. the closest thing he ever had to a friend was steve, and the age gap was frickin' enormous, so they never really connected in the same way as hunter would have connected with others his age. still, he sees steve like a big brother and a friend at the same time. steve is fond of hunter in the way a teacher is fond of a pupil, but definitely has no idea how much hunter worships and looks up to him as a person, and he definitely has no idea hunter has never experience any sort of love or affection before.

has legitimately no idea that what he went through with belos was abuse. thinks that he deserved every scar, every bruise, every injury, because he thinks that's just what parental figures do when you fuck up.

has panic attacks over seemingly very small things, and experiences deeply traumatic flashbacks if/when he has to walk through the palace again later in life. even though the flashbacks aren't necessarily noticeable to the people around him, he does have to find an excuse to leave so he has a chance to recompose himself in private.

probably has a mild eating disorder. comes from a similar place to his lack of sleep (aside from not being able to relax) where he has this idea in his head that he needs to be able to survive off of as little as possible and take up as little space/resources as possible.

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[lil-white-mice]

The bottom of the barrel (TW: MEANSPO)

Whenever you think you're better: You're not

You're always at the bottom of the chain

There is someone prettier

Someone smarter

Someone greater

Someone who has achieved more than you in less than half of the time you've been laying around and self-deprecating yourself

You're weak, and you know it

He doesn't deserve such a weak bitch like you, now does he?

Of course not

He deserves some girl who's hardworking, smart, great, wonderful and pretty

And there are so many girls like that

You don't deserve to be loved, what have you achieved? You worth nothing

You've done less than the bare minimum, and expect love in reward?

You seriously think ANYBODY would love YOU?? You're the last option in the barrel, you're not even good at being bad at things, you can't even try to look good

You should shut up and take it

Because you have not achieved the right to complain yet

Starve yourself and work your ass off, because that's the only way you could ever deserve to be loved by anyone

He would be right to dump you the SECOND a girl wo is slightly better walks by, because you're not special, at all, to nobody

He tells you such sweet things, but that's because he has no idea how stupidly dull you are

You're not even special in the ways you stand out, because there is always some other person who will stand out more

You're pathetic, weak, dumb

You're a piece of shit that thinks you're a diamond, so keep being delusional while the other girls work on themselves

[real-total-drama-takes]

tw ed

kinda a sad hc but i hc courtney to have a restrictive ed. idk i feel like it makes sense because her whole thing w perfection and it shows up in a lot of fics and also i love to project

[aster-is-confused]

google isn't being very helpful so hopefully disability tumblr can give some advice. what are the symptom differences in POTS vs. iron deficiency anemia vs. low blood sugar vs. low blood pressure vs. severe dehydration? i know that's a lot, but if you could just speak to the ones you know more about, i would appreciate it a lot. i'm trying to look into what could be causing my severe lightheadedness/presyncope when standing up, which has been going on for several years. details about my situation and symptoms below the cut

for about 2 and a half years now, i've been dealing with lightheadedness, loss of balance, seeing spots/vision blackout, and several times falling over and very nearly fainting. all of this happens almost exclusively when i stand up from sitting. it's not always super bad, sometimes it's just a bit of lightheadedness or tittinus and then i'm fine. it worsens significantly when i haven't eaten, drank, and/or slept much recently. when it started i figured it was my eating disorder causing low blood sugar (probably true), major lack of sleep contributing to the dizziness (also probably true), and severe dehydration too because at some point I started trying to exacerbate the symptoms as a cry for help (it was a rough year). but since then i've recovered and still have a lot of the same symptoms.

last year i asked my doctor and she just said i'm dehydrated, which i know is true, but it feels like more than just dehydration going on. today i finally decided to look into it further after all morning and afternoon my limbs were tingly while sitting down, my legs were very weak going down stairs, i felt kind of "static-y" all over for a few minutes after standing up (similar to the tingling in my limbs but everywhere), and i would get tittinus (ringing and muffled hearing) for like 60 seconds after standing up. things that probably made today worse than normal are that my eating, drinking, and sleeping habits have been not great recently because of exam season, and i did spend the vast majority of the day sitting (AP exam in the morning, homework in the afternoon).

i haven't yet tried the POTS 10 minute stand test, but i plan to tonight, but i know in the past i've had an oddly high heart rate and heavy breathing during very mild activity like getting up and walking across the house (i've always attributed the breathing to my asthma, but honestly it doesn't make much sense for something as simple as walking), as well as mild tremors and muscle weakness on bad days, and pretty regular brain fog and sometimes fatigue (i've usually just attributed both of those to adhd and depression). i've never had blood pressure issues that i know of, so i think plain old hypotension isn't likely. low blood sugar makes sense when i haven't eaten much, but i still have the symptoms (to a lesser extent) when I'm eating well. iron deficiency doesn't seem unlikely, although i had some bloodwork done for other reasons about 1.5 years ago (well after symptoms started) and i wasn't told that anything was abnormal. i've been pretty chronically dehydrated my whole life (urine charts put me at medium-severe dehydration depending on the day), but honestly i don't want to believe that it's just that. i have a doctor's appointment (yearly checkup) in about a week, and i'd like to be able to narrow it down somewhat and talk to my parents about it more before then so i can discuss it at the appointment.

any advice would be appreciated, and i'll probably edit the post once i've done the 10 minute stand test

UPDATE: 10 minute stand test results were definitely not normal, my resting rate after laying down still for a while was 75, then it hovered at 130-140 for the whole 10 minute standing period. evidence is currently leaning strongly towards POTS so i'll make sure to discuss it with my parents and doctor

[existencebringsonlypain]

jesus christ mom

[persona-en-decadencia]

"𝐐𝐮𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐬 𝐡𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐧 𝐥𝐚 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐳𝐚 𝐝𝐞 𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨 𝐜𝐮𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨."

[gay-jewish-bucky]

Big ARFID News

There's a new documentary out on the disorder!

Do you know an extreme picky eater? A friend that may just eat bread or french fries at a restaurant? Eric Pascarelli thought he was just a picky eater himself. He ate his first vegetable at 30 years old. Not Just a Picky Eater follows Eric as he gets to the root of what is really going on. Along his journey, he finds others who are just like him. Eric's hope is that this film will raise awareness on this little-known eating disorder that affects millions worldwide.

[dizzybevvie]

when someone isnt skinny why is rapid weight loss seen as progress

[justarandosposts]

How much is a low amount of calories? :> I wanna post some mealspo, but I don’t know how many calories is too much:(

[lil-white-mice]

My boyfriend literally said he'd love me more if i was skinnier, if i had less fat... i'm so sad but i guess it's fine since at least i'll have the motivation to stop eating

[sleepysuburb]

i feel so so fucking stupid for letting myself sink this low again. eds are evil bc every time they convince you its gonna be different and a breeze this time and next thing you know you're feeling violently sick and weak and kicking yourself for believing it