#tw anti self dx

[cksinsanitycontrodump]

You do not know how long I've been waiting to speak up about this as someone who lives under the USA's hEAlthcare system and under someone who doesn't take mental health seriously and as a result isn't able to even speak to a cheap online therapist, let alone get a professional medical diagnosis for anything, physical or mental and has no choice but to do extensive research and stupid online assessments

Still not gonna self-dx with any dissociative disorders, though

Also, I'm looking over this and noticing I spelled environment wrong in the comic :|

———–-•-–———

[ID: A two panel, poorly drawn black and white comic.

The first panel has a person wagging their finger dismissively with a stern expression on their face. The person says, "You shouldn't self-diagnose, it's bad! Go get an official diagnosis by a professional!"

The second and last panel has a person leaning on something, presumably the bottom border of the comic, as their hand is in the air and they have an annoyed, sarcastic expression on their face. They say, "Why, yes, because yea, everyone who self-diagnoses is in a position to see a medical expert..! They clearly have the finances for it! They're clearly in an enviro[n]ment that isn't ablest or anything!"

End ID.]

[antiradqueef]

i like the moves that are being made for pwAutism and against autism speaks but i also think more than a few people have taken the stereotype of "autistic is when youre asocial and play with trains and are a young boy" and replaced it with "autism is when you do stimmies and tbh creature and use tone tags and queer." and while theres nothing wrong with being like either of those, its not how EVERY autistic person is and you cant just change your expectations.

i used to straight up just not know how to use tone tags and, instead of asking me what i meant, people would talk about it behind my back.

this is me getting called a FREAK because my tone was weird and people didnt just fucking tell me. these concerns were NEVER brought up to me and these messages were shown to me by a friend after i left the server.

i felt awful about that, for days. how the hell was i supposed to know that was how they felt?

autism can present in a LOT of ways. do i think these people were intentionally being ableist and making fun of me? no! hell, they could even have autism themselves. but they were mocking me and calling me a freak for exhibiting autistic traits which is harmful whether they like it or not.

moral of the story, talk to people when you have issues with them. dont call people freaks as an insult.

[transmasc-wizard]

throwing myself at the foot of a therapist's chair saying Please pretty please explain to me what these symptoms are caused by

[wolfgirlcoven]

My Experience with P-Shifters & Mythicals, and why I'm Anti Physical IDs for Alterhumanity.

[Massive TW for Cults, Abuse(Including Digital SA, including COCSA), Delusions + Validation/Encouragement of Delusion, and probably more that I cannot for the life of me think of off the top of my head]

Hello, I'm Phoenix, but you can also call me Silverthorn. I've been in the nonhuman community since 2011-2013, and initially got my start in P-Shifter/Mythical communities, the ones of most note being ArdaErellon, GrowingWings4Life(usually just called Grow Wings.), and other adjacent webs.com forums.

I'll be documenting my experience with the community chronologically to the best of my ability, but do be aware that it may be a bit splotchy, as my memory of it all is a little janky due to the trauma and the fact this occured over 10 years ago now. It is of importance to note: I am neurodivergent, I speak from the perspective of someone who has been dealing with undiagnosed autism since childhood, which in turn, did influence my level of understanding of the world. My memory is also a little messed up due to dissociation from childhood trauma.

2011 - 2012: The Start - My start with P-Shifting began in 6th grade, when I was 11. I had met someone, who I will refer to here as Dragon. Dragon was my closest friend, however this was NOT a good thing. I had begun awakening to my inherent nonhumanity, but you know, when you're young, you'll believe in very fantastical things. Dragon was a P-Shifter, and I thought I was too. This is how our friendship really solidified. What easily could have been innocent schoolyard RP became grounds for abuse, manipulation, etc. Dragon convinced me that everyone hated us, and people would actively run away from me because where I went, she followed. Dragon was notoriously an asshole to others, but she used this to convince me that everyone hated me.

2013-2015: Aka "The Peak". 2013 is when I entered the online P-Shifter scene. Now, I had read websites and guides on p-shifting prior to this, but this is when I actually got INVOLVED so to speak. After reading some of the Maximum Ride books, I began experiencing phantom shifts of wings, which in turn lead to me joining GrowingWings4Life (colloquially known as Grow Wings), a forum on webs.com for Avians and other mythicals. I, obviously, began attempting to grow wings. This is where I met my flock. I've named two of them here before, but for the sake of this post I will be using stand in names. I also got my first scoliosis dx at age 13, during a school evaluation. This will come up again in another section of this post.

Aqua was the first one I met, she was basically a sister to me. She was honestly the first REAL friend I had, to the point where we called eachother sis. It was through her where we met the rest of our flock, albeit most of them would separate except for Red. Red was another one of the flock, unlike the other key members (Julio and Cailen. I WILL namedrop them for the bullshit they did. Julio was 18, and I don't remember Cailen's age but I do believe she was older than me, Aqua, and Red. I think maybe 18 but I'm not Positive.), he was also 13, like Aqua and I.

Julio got kicked from the flock for trying to groom Aqua and I over kik (classic 2013 experience I know), and Cailen went separate ways after a breakup with Red (she did some HORRIFIC things to him, which I will not disclose here other than it being SA) Things with the flock started out good at first, I mean why wouldn't it? Of course, we also learned about Awtok. We genuinely believed in them, and in part, were responsible for bringing knowledge of Awtok to Grow Wings out of sheer FEAR for everyone's saftey. Awtok's chokehold on our flock specifically remained.

Enter G32: Another school friend of mine, and self-professed Keyblade master. Though not an avian and p-shifter like the rest of us, he was part of our flock. I do fully blame myself and take responsibility for getting him involved with the flock + the consequences of doing so. He got involved the summer of 2014, but I had known him prior, and trusted him. G32 was someone we went to for advice and whatnot. In a way, despite Red and I being the leaders of the flock (when we started dating in 2014), I'd consider G32 to be the one pulling everyone's strings.

It was through G32, that Red became convinced he was a monster. Again, wont go into full details but this lead him to spiral into full on delusions. I remember him texting me in a state of extreme distress one night because he had "seen" his "true form" in the mirror. Looking back, this was clearly a hallucination. He ended up having MULTIPLE experiences like this. Now, he had been having some experiences akin to this prior to G32's claims about Red's true nature, but it was only after those that things got as bad as they did, such as full on berseker shifts for what his species was. (According to G32 the species was like an offshoot of the heartless from Kingdom Hearts.)

G32 also, on multiple occasions, forged messages from AWTOK, usually through 3DS swapnote, and then also forged messages from other "keyblade masters" who got involved with the flock via fake phone numbers.

Back to Red, because of the sheer amount of abuse he went through, ended up repeating the cycle of abuse with me. What he did to me was not ok. He had, through Cailen's abuse, become to believe he was possessed by a succubus who was Cailen. This began his manipulation of me, going so far as for this "possession" to lead to basically the Succubus threatening to leave me if I did not engage in sexual text-rp/sexting with Red as a way to prove my love & devotion. It eventually stopped, though i cannot remember what caused it to stop. Again, we both were 14 and severely mentally ill. I DO NOT HOLD THIS AGAINST HIM, AND I FORGIVE HIM FOR THIS. WE BOTH WERE VICTIMS.

Now, Red was VERY remorseful of what had happened, though we never actually talked about it or mentioned it after that, though I wish we did. It pretty much was him just apologizing but not specifying the incident (most because I told him not to), and me not actually letting him confess to what had happened. I wish I would have let him speak, but I was a scared child. Like I said, looking back now, and not out of a place of hurt, I can recognize he and I were both victims of abuse.

Come 2015, shit with G32 really hit the fan. From forging messages from other keyblade wielders turning against the flock, threatening to kill us for being traitors by aligning ourselves with Red, and the like, to then, when we stood up for ourselves, claiming it was all fake and a lie he spun, and then back to threatening us with the keyblade wielders after. It got to a point where it almost became a physical altercation on school grounds the following day. It was after this that things fell apart. The flock stuck together but ultimately separated, with the last I've heard from any of them being in 2016.

2016 & Onward: 2016 I still held onto some P-Shifting beliefs, but had begun to break away from them. It was really only come 2018 that I had fully recognized the nature of my beliefs were steeped in delusion, albeit the occasional relapse into p-shifter thoughts does occur to this day. I'd be lying if I'd said I haven't attempted to p-shift despite knowing and accepting it's impossible.

Now, other things not in this timeline that did happen, but I didn't feel were as interwoven with my flock experience:

ArdaErellon - when GrowWings went down, this kinda became one of the main sites people went to. It's not up anymore but I do remember the admin, Tinnuwen, asking people for their IRL locations, like addresses and whatnot, in order to open portals near them so they could travel to the realm of ArdaErellon.

Razgriz Pack & Other Cyberpacks - I got involved with a cyberpack when I was 13, when I didn't want much to do with them they threatened to send their other werewolves after me lol. I Don't remember if it was Razgriz or a different pack that I was involved in, mostly because I didn't spend much time around them.

Why I'm Making This Post:

I make this post because I've seen a resurgence in the P-Shifter & Mythical communities. Moreso, I've seen this become accepted and welcomed into the alterhuman community, which poses a SIGNIFICANT threat to the saftey and wellbeing of others. I've seen people ACTIVELY encouraging and validating delusions of Clinical Lycanthropes/Zoanthropes, claiming that it is harmless. IT IS NOT, I KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE.

My wing delusions were encouraged, and we avians took any criticism of our attempts as threats and people just wanting to be assholes. Because of the repeated validation of my "physical" wing growth, i actively avoided getting treatment for my scoliosis for over 2 years. Like i said earlier in this post, during an exam at school, they felt my spine was curved. However, because I fully believed I was growing wings, I REFUSED to let my family take me to the doctor, refused to let them get x-rays of me, for fear that they'd discover my wings, because I was a terrified CHILD. This lead to my spine becoming so severely curved that I was at risk of my lungs collapsing. I fear to see what would have happened to me had I not eventually gotten surgery in 2015. The point is, the beliefs involved with subcultures such as p-shifters, holotheres, mythicals, etc. is inherently harmful. The denial to accept ones biological humanity, and the laws of physics that come with it, is a saftey risk. When people speak out about their experiences, they get dogpiled by the physical therian community, and victim blamed. When we explain why these things are harmful, we get accused of a whole slew of things, such as trying to make humans like us, or bring ableist by saying that encouraging delusion is harmful.

Me, Red, and Aqua should NOT have had to live out our teen years in fear of AWTOK, in fear of uncontrollable shifts, in fear of hunters, etc. We should have been able to have our formative teen years be normal. My friend Sundew, also known as @aesthetikins , was there when I was going through all of this, as we met in highschool. E knows first hand the amount of damage this stuff did to me, as again, e was there when it happened.

This is also the one time I feel OK to be That Guy and put this in the tags of the harmful groups I'm talking about, because maybe, JUST MAYBE, it'll save someone else from going through shit like what I went through. Edit: this is ok to reblog, and i actually encourage it

[vent-antiendo]

Welcome!

This is a safe space for all anti endos to vent.

We made this blog because we've been getting harassed by endos because we vented on our blog. Vent blogs are just safer if you don't want to get threats and such.

--> You can vent about anything here, sys related or not. We'll tag accordingly.

(We do ask that you put a tw on the top of your ask if needed.)

!! We are cluster b, and do not experience empathy, sympathy, guilt or remorse.

We can be blunt because of it, but we mean no harm. And if we do, it'll be obvious, and only because you harm us first.

If you treat us with respect, we will treat you with respect.* If we perceive any attack, we'll bite back, though.

--> We are pro educated self diagnosis.

--> Please note that we do not support radqueers on this blog.

--> We won't put a lot of tags under posts tagged with #vent, because this is a place for you to let out your feelings, not focused on trying to get as much interaction as possible. It also keeps this blog under the radar of certain reddit groups for longer.

--> If anything is unclear, send us an ask and we'll get back to you as soon as possible!

DNI: pro/endos, pro/radqueers (AHARQ/harmless "transids" are fine though), proshippers, racists, queerphobes, ableists, Cluster B abuse believers, anti educated self-dx, and just the basic DNI list really.

*Because of our personality, we try to mask when you send in an ask, to come across as nice and caring as possible. While we don't feel genuine sympathy, we want to try to support you.

[the-crystal-femmes]

BEFORE YOU INTERACT / DO NOT INTERACT

// pt: before you interact / do not interact //

Disclaimer: our dni only usually applies to follows and direct interactions, however we do hold the right to block liberally :>

DNI:

// pt: dni //

Bigots (racists, queerphobes (includes aphobia!), antisemitists, intersexists, ableists, etc.), fatphobes, kink / nsfw blogs (we are hypersexual), anti endos and sysmeds, identity policers of ANY kind (as long as the identity isn't problematic), rqs and transIDs, proshippers, disordered abuse believers, anti-kin, pro/neu/complex contact harmful paraphilias, SH / ED centric blogs, anti self-dx with research, syscourse centered blogs and singlets who involve themselves in syscourse

Dni Explained (link)

Thin ice:

People who censor filter tags, those who refuse to translate typing quirks

Dnfi (do not follow if) your blog is centered around the omegaverse / misceverse, or a yandere blog. We're very uncomfortable with those types of things.

We are a median parasian traumagenic system. We believe we could have Partial Dissociative Identity Disorder however were still doing research. We don't support fakeclaimers and syscourse around here, our blog is endo safe and we don't believe singlets belong in syscourse. We're also fictive heavy, mainly Monster High and Steven Universe. We block anyone who uses anti endo tags on sight unless we're aware they aren't going to be a threat to us (mainly mutuals).

Some of us are in a polycule so please keep that in mind lol. I (Yellow Pearl) am mostly vocal about it

Our collective identities (non-alterhuman) are lesbian, and aromantic. Genders vary from sysmate to sysmate but the host (Yellow Pearl) is a nonbinary neogirl. Please don't call me a girl, I still consider that misgendering 👍

We are bodily intersex but only I (Yellow Pearl) and Pearl are label ourselves as such.

Our username is a joke on how most of us are Steven Universe fictionfolk as well as femme lesbians! We are NOT terfs, terfs can back the fuck off

We are bodily physically alterhuman, we are an anthropomorphic bat who's real form is hidden under a 'veil'.

We prefer not being mutuals with anyone who can't handle what we post about, or our mental stuff. We tend to a vent a lot, and we have an organization tag that can be filtered if it becomes too much. We also don't want to be mutuals with anyone who thinks they can't handle Ula.

If you have a problem with our behavior, we'd prefer you shoot us an ask or a DM. We'll get to ya when we can. We also ask you remain civil while doing so. (Edit: asks only as we made DMs a mutual only thing due to the fact people would DM us for stupid shit.)

Our co-host, Ula, is very uncomfortable with doubles of Draculaura. This is due to her narcissistic personality disorder. We understand that it may not be a choice, but we ask that others respect Ula's boundaries. Ula has exceptions but those are very rare. You're still free to interact but we request caution exercised around her.

Some of us are very controlling about how our fictionselves are portrayed, please keep that in mind! We are usually lax around other fictionfolk, though.

We are NOT anti kink. However one of our sysmates is hypersexual. We ask mutuals kindly to filter tag any kinky things for that reason.

Pearl and Ula don't tend to use tone tags, so please ask for clarification on their tone if it's needed! We're unsure why they don't use them.

The only ones who tend to sign off are Pearl and I (Yellow Pearl). If you need clarification on who's talking, please ask!

We have npd. We've done all the research we could and refuse to get professionally diagnosed. We're not in any financial state to get diagnosed and fear being discriminated against.

We try our best to stay out of discourse but we may end up posting about it at times. These things will be tagged with "#cw discourse" or "#tw discourse".

[ dividers by @/adornedwithlight ]

[thetentsystem]

ִֶָ𐀔𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ Intro ᯓᡣ𐭩˙✧˖°

Old intro here

DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST UNLESS WE FOLLOW YOU!!

We are TheTent System. A polyfragmented osdd-1b system of 100+ known alters. We have Autism, Adhd, Depression, Anxiety, OSDD-1b, and BPD.

We are self dx with BPD and OSDD-1b. We believe in educated self-diagnosis.

COLLECTIVE NAME: Any COLLECTIVE PRONOUNS: Any AGE: MINOR Anti endo, but (pro) endos may interact!! Just be kind :)

v More under the cut! v

[Image ID; a black lace line with a light pink bow in the middle. Light pink hearts are hung by string from the heart, with little white diamons on the bottom. /END ID]

Our Simplyplural; TheTent Ask for our roblox user. YT: click!

[Image ID; a black lace line with a light pink bow in the middle. Light pink hearts are hung by string from the heart, with little white diamons on the bottom. /END ID] DNI

> dissociative-misinfo and anyone who supports them. > Anti-systems > Basic dni criteria > Zionists, homophobic > Jerks frfr (wait actually send hate via anon i like fighting jerks) > Sophieinwonderland SPECCIIFIFICALLY and anyone who supports her > Haters (fight me)> Jojo Siwa (for no reason) > People over the age of 20 must ask to interact.

[Image ID; a black lace line with a light pink bow in the middle. Light pink hearts are hung by string from the heart, with little white diamons on the bottom. /END ID] YOU CAN FIND THE NAMES AND PRNS OF (MOST OF) OUR ALTERS ON OUR SP!

tags:

#grosspost (for any posts that may contain sexual mentions)

#pillpopper (any post including drugs alcohol etc)

#Badevilmoment (for any post containing mentions of suicide or sh)

#mental overdose (for any post containing mentions of suicide or sh)

#goreduponatuesdayevening (gore)

#Doyouloveme? (BPD episode)

we are very susceptible to addiction. we currently have a weed addiction. ______________________________________________________________ BLINKIES! (tw for flashing lights)

userboxes

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welcome to the super secret

BLOGS WE RUN;

@/agereonly

@/goobleckk

@/thetent <- deleted

@/gillion-the-one

@/thetentbar

@/tentsart

@/kian-stonezzz

@/paeon-pestifus

@/clockworkinguy

[self-dx-culture-is]

Tw radqueer mention; vent

Self dx paraphilia culture is wishing the #paraphile positivity and #pro para tags weren’t filled with radqueers

I’m just looking for people like me, who understand what I’m going through, and who aren’t going to support pro-c or whatever for harmful paraphilias, encourage anti-recovery, and accept and support “chosen paraphilias” or “transpahilias”

I just wish the tags were more like the cluster b positivity tags, where it’s about helping people feel less alone and helping them find resources to help and such

I just wish I could talk about my experiences without fear of others mistaking me as a radqueer

.

[ducki3xd]

Okay this isn't the kind of post that I usually like to make, but I'm going to do it anyways

TW FOR DEATH THREATS AND MENTIONS OF SA UNDER THE CUT

We are pro-research self-dx and a self diagnosed traumagenic system (since we physically can't get a proper diagnosis for multiple reasons)

We run a discord server with a few of our friends for systems, alterhumans, sfw regressors, etc and had a little run-in with an anti-self-dx person

We tried to kindly explain ours—and other's situations (which we don't have screenshots of sigh) of why we're undiagnosed

The screenshots below are of their response to our headmates Slade (who talked to them) and Exe (who banned them)

If you think it's fucking okay to do shit like this, don't fucking interact with us. This kind of shit is absolutely terrible and was completely unnecessary.

Yes, all of these accounts were the same person.

Now you tell me how our existence is hurting the community.

[imagoodone-iswear]

you think my username makes me seem pleading? it doesnt. it was a purely intentional, thought out thing. i explain my reasons for my username here.

Welcome to my mess of a blog!

You can currently call me Mawl. . .

→ bodily 26 years old.

→ Genderfuck Transmasc.

→ he/they pronouns.

→ DID system with BPD + NPD (+ other stuff).

→ from central europe.

→ avid enjoyer of video games, psychology, wolves, metalcore, art, praise and attention, blood, and darker things.

this is our collective main PD Blog (mostly about cluster b). here to document life with my PDs and the other messy stuff in my head.

sometimes we post bad art for some reason.

(we also have a tellonym)

this blog isnt run by a particular alter so experiences can vary (mostly nobody will tag).

We also collect resources and diagnostic material for PDs:

cluster a: [ ppd resources ] [ stpd resources ]

[ szpd resources ]

cluster b: [ npd resources ] [ bpd resources ]

[ hpd resources ] [ aspd resources ]

cluster c: [ avpd resources ] [ ocpd resources ]

this blog has tws for:

shameful vents, blood, mentions of self-harm and substance abuse, npd crashes and the like (this is a pd blog so go figure).

this is our pd blog. we do not put a filter on our posts or things we talk about here for a reason, so if that content is not for you, you should leave or block us. naturally, vents and breakdowns are gonna happen and if you dont like it you can block the tag or leave.

minors DNI (we are in our mid 20s and dont want to have too much to do w -18s; might interact sparsely if we can relate to your blog, but rule is: everyone below 18 should generally dni and block us).

also not welcome on this blog are terfs, radqueers, radfems, transID/transX idiots, endos, strict anti-psychs (frequently or only posting about psych abolition = dont fucking interact), and ppl against researched self-dx!!

also narc abuse believers can take a hike (but feel free to give me attention~, i love living rent free inside your head <3 ;)).

[pda-culture-is]

About Blog

Welcome to pda-culture-is!

Inspired from other culture blogs such as @autism-culture-is @ndcultureis @cluster-b-culture-is @narcissisticpdcultureis and more!

This blog is for autistics with Pathological Demmand Avoidance to share their experiences.

Examples of starting off an ask:

PDA culture is

Autistic PDA culture is

PDA + (other disorders) culture is

Questioning PDA culture is

Informed self diagnosis is accepted here, even if you don't plan on getting a professional diagnosis

DNI

basic dni (racism, sexism, ableism, queerphobia, fatphobia, ect.)

transmeds, TERFs, exlusionists, transID

anyone who demonizes stigmatized disorders, believes in "narcissistic abuse", participates in "cringe culture", misuse terms such as intrusive thoughts, narcissist, sociopath, delusional ect.

pro-contact/anti-consent harmful paras

NSFW blogs, ED or SH blogs unless they are based on recovery

anti-self-dx

Other things to add:

don't say "going nonverbal/semiverbal" as they are pernament states, what you can use instead is verbal shutdown or speech loss

you can swear in asks but don't use slurs

in the case your ask mentions abuse, ableism, ed, s/h, suicide or anything of the like, its appreciated if you put a warning on top. we tag with both "(x) tw" and "tw (x)" just in case

in case you send an image with text, it is appreaciated if you add an image description if able

you can also add signatures (emojis, names), we'll keep track of them

we're open to questions but it is unsure wether we can answer

hate messages will be ignored and deleted

About Admin

Collective Info: Dave, he/they/it, Transmasc Non-Binary AroAce

We're a DID system with NPD, BPD, and of course Autism hence this blog. We won't be sharing much about us.

Our stance on syscourse doesn't matter on this blog so anyone can send in questions and interact

[maacottism]

hi hello hi!!

sorry i change so much i have to edit this every few weeks 😭

My name's Soren or Max. I'm a young artist who draws for fun. I should've said this earlier but my art tags are #sorens doodles and sometimes #sorens art

i prefer making lists so here's a few

agender lesbian

i WILL spam repost mostly about my interests

I use tone tags

autihd and ocd

i love drawing fandom stuff

kind of not really a furry (SFW!!)

I'm extremely forgetful so if i forget about something important I'm so sorry

just gonna cut it off because it's really long but below are my fandoms, favorite music and dni list

Fandoms/interests (TWs are in red)

Captain Underpants

Dogman

II and BFDIA

Gravity Falls (kind of)

2001: A Space Odyssey (kind of)

fictional evil AI in general

Elfen Lied (AVOID THIS ONE IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE TO GORE AND CRUELTY IT'S LIKE 95% OF THE SHOW) (I swear I only like this one because of the art and music + I relate to Lucy)

Needy Streamer Overload (!!TW!! dr*g abuse, SH, mental illness)

Serial Experiments Lain (!!TW!! depersonalization/derealization, "game-ending" iykyk)

DDLC (!!TW!! naming anything would be spoilers but it covers mental illness, has a triggering scene and disturbing visuals)

Neon Genesis Evangelion (Do i need to explain this one)

psychology

NES music

color theory

bugs :D

cartoons and animation

Favorite Music (not in any particular order)

TV Girl

S3RL

(I NO LONGER LIKE 4LUNG I HATE HER)

kikuohana

pierce the veil

sunny day real estate

hawthorne heights

set it off

flyleaf

my chemical romance

cocteau twins

jack off jill

femtanyl

breakcore and speedcore

pixies

vocaloid

jmetal and japanese jazz (I blame NGE /j)

goreshit

rory in early 20's

YOU LOVE HER

toby fox

Banshee

fnaf fan songs

trashy 2000's pop

i have lots of favorites but i can't remember all of them rn, plus the list was already getting long

ok now the dni list because I'm pretty open minded but some people i just do not want interacting with me for obvious reasons

exclusionists/terfs/radqueers

fakeclaimers

alt right/neo-n*zis

debate bros

anti-objectum/posic

N/S/F/W accounts (i don't mind mildly suggestive stuff tho)

anti-fur, anti-otherkin

cringe collection accounts

syscourse (i genuinely don't wanna deal with this rn)

lgbtq+/race/disability fetishizers

gatekeepers (specifically fandom and alt subcultures)

profic/darkshippers (don't endorse gross stuff please and thank you!)

l0licons (BARF)

MAPS

anti-self dx (capitalism aesthetic /s)

sh/pro ED accounts

just don't be gross or a dickhead to people for existing peacefully okay??

that's all i have for now. byee!!

[wittlepixie]

꒰ᥕᥱᥣᥴ᥆꧑ᥱ t᥆ ꧑ᥡ bᥣ᥆g꒱

Hi I'm pixie and this is my agere blog

I'm 23 ( or 4-8 is my babie age range)

Gender: genderfluid /xenogender

Pronouns: they/it /he or neopronouns ( star/xe/pup/fae or more )

I'm psychological otherkin ( ghostkin, wolfkin, Deerkin ,vampirekin, dollkin, Fairykin,frankie stein kin and more )

Mentally ill and neurodivergent ( adhd ,generalized anxiety disorder, depression, c ptsd and ednos )

I possibly have POTS syndrome or another form of dysautonomia, I'm in the process of getting diagnosed .

ʚ‎‏ ͜ ̩͙ ︵ ̩͙ ୨ ♡ ୧ ̩͙ ‏︵ ̩͙ ͜ ɞ

Other blogs

@pixiedoll2 ( vent blog ,tw)

@sc3n3pixie1 ( scenecore blog)

@pixiede4th ( goth /otherkin blog)

DNI : republican/trump supporter , lgbtqia+ phobic, gender critical , racist , xenophobic , transphobic, acephobic, anti neopronons, anti xenogenders , transmed/transcum, radfems ,radqueer , pedos/maps, zoophiles , anti otherkin , ageless blogs , ableist , dd/lg +variants , , anti self dx heavy g0re blog , pr0 Ed/sh , etc

[viscerasmoothie]

NOTICE: THIS IS BEING UNPINNED AS OF 2024/10/8 BECAUSE IM QUITTING TUMBLR

\\ Pinned Post 2: Electric Boogaloo //

\\ Names/Nicknames/Whatever: Viscera, Viscera Smoothie, Chris //

\\ Date of Womb Evacuation: 2010/09/17 //

\\ Main Interests: TF2, FNaF (My shitty au specifically), psychology, human biology, other shit related to the previous two //

\\ Side interests and Former Interests: Ace Attorney (Former ~2021-2023), MLP Creepypasta (Former, ~2017-2018?), Yandere Sim (Former, ~2017-2019?), Gravity Falls (Side), analog horror (Side), tech restoration (I blame Wade from Dankpods and Bringus Studios for this, Side), religions and cults (Side) //

\\ YouTubers I Watch Frequently/Consistently: Dankpods/Garbage Time/The Drum Thing, Emkay, Bringus Studios, Kwite, planet clue, RTGame, ManlyBadassHero, The Click //

\\ I don't even know what to title this so uhhh here's some shit I believe:

People with personality disorders (Specifically Cluster B) aren't all complete garbage (Narc Abuse isn't real)

People faking disorders and shit shouldn't be harassed because there's absolutely something below the surface (Pro endo, pro recovery(is that fitting?))

Also harassment is bad in general (Anti-harassment, self explanatory)

The human brain is a pile of electric meat that we don't really understand shit about (Pro endo, pro good faith identities, shit like that y'know)

Glorifying abuse and shit is bad (NOT antiship OR proship, there's a shit ton of nuance here)

People hating children for no fucking reason is bad (I hate to break it to ya but turning 18 doesn't make someone automatically not annoying so uhhh yeah)

Trans people aren't inherently bad (Also I'm literally trans myself so)

\\ TW for shit under the cut: medical shit, mental health shit, drugs, suicide, etc //

\\ Shit I suffer from:

Depression (Dx, taking Zoloft for it)

Anxiety (Dx, not taking meds specifically for it but the previous probably covers this as well)

ADHD (Dx, used to take Adderall but the hyperactivity part fucking died so no more meds)

Autism (Dx, probably need a lobotomy /s)

Anhedonia (Symptom of depression, this shit is eating me alive because there's spurts of joy from shit but mostly I just feel numb all the time)

Something related to sleep maybe (Idk my circadian rhythm is fucked, I can sleep for 12 hours and still feel like I've been put through seven different steamrollers and the only thing keeping me from going right back to my pseudo coma is my eyes refusing to stay shut)

Walking and gait/posture shit (Literally the only way I could walk for like 9 years was through toe walking, and it got so fucking bad that when I tried to put my feet flat on the floor I'd start falling backwards, got surgery to lengthen my Achilles tendon, and now I have lower back pain, foot pain and my knees feel like they're locking up after a while even though I can still bend them, and there's probably more lol)

Chronic pain (Again, lower back and foot pain, pain in my limbs that feels like it's in the bone, headaches almost everyday and I know my reports say otherwise but it's still a daily thing I'm just stupid and forget to go the school nurse for my meds, also I chug liquid Tylenol like it's from the fountain of youth and I get finger joint paint and the bone and joint pain I try to relieve by cracking my joints but it either doesn't do shit or makes it worse)

Fatigue (Sleep issues already mentioned, my limbs sometimes feel tired and it's only the limbs, I'm in my bed like 90% of the time and idk how voluntary it is anymore)

\\ Family situation and friends:

Live with my 71 yr old grandma who's been my primary caretaker since shortly after I was born

Grandpa is alright (was a neglectful shithead towards his own kids though) but him and his current wife (Not my grandma) are transphobic but unknowingly affirm my name change because my grandma masked it as wanting to distance myself from my mom

Oldest uncle likely had bipolar 1 disorder (undiagnosed because neglectful dad and mental health stigma shit) who committed suicide on my mom's birthday/about a month after I was born

Currently living uncle is kinda anti-vax (he said that a coin stuck to his skin because COVID vax made him magnetic or something and if that were true people who work with screws would get a shit load of boosters) and not the best but there's absolutely worse so yeah

Mom likely has ASPD (also undiagnosed but idk my grandma reading the opening section of the Wikipedia article for ASPD and says it's literally her then I think that's pretty damn close but idk I'm dumb, also I don't hate people with ASPD I hate people who are garbage regardless of reason) and had (also likely still has) a drug addiction (heroin specifically). She found out she was pregnant because she got caught in a sting and purposefully swallowed 10 balloons of heroin and when they did an ultrasound to see if any were in her stomach/intestines/whatever there was a stupid dumb baby (me), and she did not stop doing heroin throughout the pregnancy. This led to me being born addicted to heroin and went through a withdrawal that notably consisted of a seizure minutes after being born, and when I was taken back to her room like right after being born and before the seizure she literally said "I don't want her*, give her* to mom." So uhhh yeah, also unsurprisingly she gave 0 shits about me and pawned off a Barbie airplane I got for Christmas 2017 for drug money (though being 7 fucking years old, I thought it was cigarette money because the place she was staying at had ash imbedded into the carpet)

My relationship with my cousin is weird, but the things of note are that he used to watch wrestling and would try to perform moves he saw on TV on me (he's 3 years older than me so he wasn't going to kill me or anything, but probably wasn't super pleasant), when I was 9 he was playing bitlife and wanted to act out the shit his character was doing and his character got someone pregnant and he wanted me to lie in his bed in front of him and I said no (he asked me a couple times and tried reassuring me that he wouldn't dry hump me but I was super uncomfy and at least he didn't actually force me to do it so that's good maybe), I'm pretty sure he either put a pillow on my ass and slapped the pillow repeatedly or he slapped my ass with the pillow repeatedly (either way I was laying on the floor), he flashed me at least once after he took a shower because he covered the trampoline in soap and asked me if I saw his dick and I refused to answer because I just wanted to play with his Mario chess set (did not use that shit for chess, I was a dumb kid rping with chess pieces lol), and he showed me his dick on the trampoline. I'm probably slandering him by only saying that kinda shit about him but idk we don't talk much anymore so yeah

No clue who my dad is and it's not the guy I got my last name from (if you know me irl you'd know that my grandma's last name and mine are different and it's not because she's married), I have a hunch though

Rex was the guy who I thought was my dad for a while, he was roped into drug addiction by my mom but he did infact give a shit about me (though he was better suited as the fun uncle than a dad but I'll take what I can get), he would take me with my mom to "the corner store" which was probably a dollar tree/general/family and but me mike and ikes and now n laters while my mom would buy cigarettes for both of them

Susan, Rex's mom, used to try and spoil me because she actually had money (I love being poor /s) and she bought me the Barbie airplane from earlier and an entire Barbie dream house but she let my mom (and maybe Rex idk) mooch off of her and she got evicted from her apartment (the one with the ruined carpet, that shit would stain my feet when I walked on it), so she moved in with her dad and had to offload her old cat Spazzy to us because cats weren't allowed there I think so that happened but before she got evicted she would let me stay up when I stayed the night at her house and I'd watch adult swim and robot chicken gave me nightmares I think and I wanna watch that one show that was probably written by someone with 10 bongs in their mouth (which probably doesn't narrow the list down at all)

My best friend I met at a preschool that was also a church and I literally just went up to them and asked "wanna be friends" and they said yes and their life has probably changed for the worse because of me so yeah, their brother has autism so they probably do too but their parents haven't gotten them tested soo but they used to take my shopkins beanie from me (it was playful, id run after them and I'd get it back) and so I did that with their pink beanie back for a while and there was this thing where they'd act like my robot and I could command them to do shit and they'd give me stupid error messages (god recalling this shit makes me miss being a stupid idiot child) and it was super fun I think and gay and then in 6th grade I had like no classes with them until I got the surgery then I had 2 including ela and then in 7th grade we had a couple of classes and this year we literally have 0 other than lunch and if I have a dollar for everytime the school I was going to had a different principal come in because the last one was upgrading their position in the school district in the last year that I was going there and made me have no classes with my friends id have 2 bucks and 5th grade sucked kinda because of that

Sailor (who I'm name dropping because istg if you don't use Tumblr by now then what are you doing with your life) was someone who I shared classes with for a little while, we went separate ways in like 3rd and 4th grade and then in 5th grade the school therapist mentioned them to me bjt they changed their name so I was confused and then she invited us to lunch in her room and there was this "YOURE TRANS TOO???" moment we both had and then we reconnected and then 6th grade was kinda a disaster but we still had each other then they got accepted into an alternative school so we lost contact in 7th grade and then we reconnected at pride this year and we played ponytown together for like 5 minutes (which lead to me finding a really cool lavender infection rp and I ended up adding the person who started it on discord) and we went to the gay youth center thing together this year as well and I've sent them stupid TF2 shit and I think they're a system now which is cool I think idk I'm a singlet lol

There's this other friend who I know I had history prior to 6th grade but we really only reconnected in 6th grade because we had a tech class together and during a 7th grade field trip to the zoo I got their phone number and also sent them stupid TF2 shit and I see them sometimes in the hallway because both of us use the elevator at school so uhh yeah also they're a little hard to understand but I'm also stupid so that might be why (I'm not trying to be a dick my brain just needs a minute to process what they say I'm sorry)

Yeah there's probably more but I'm lazy and need to go to sleep also can you tell that I got lazy here anyways uhh gay gay homosexual gay you stupid gay bitch /pos /lh

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[sc3n3pixie1]

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Hai!! Welcome to my blog

✮I'm pixie ~

✮I'm 23

✮ genderfluid/xenogender

✮pronouns: they/it/he or neos ( star/xe/pup/fae and more )

✮bi and acespec

✮ I'm psychological otherkin /fictionkin ( ghostkin, dollkin, vampirekin, wolfkin, deerkin, fairykin, frankie stein kin ,ect )

✮neurodivergent and mentally ill ( adhd ,generalized anxiety disorder, c-ptsd, depression and Ednos )

✮ I have some form of dysautonomia, possibly POTS syndrome but I'm not diagnosed yet

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DNI : republican/trump supporter , lgbtqia+ phobic, gender critical , racist , xenophobic , transphobic, acephobic, anti neopronons, anti xenogenders , transmed/transcum, radfems,radqueer pedos/maps, zoophiles , anti otherkin , ageless blogs , ableist , dd/lg +variants , , anti self dx , heavy g0re blog content, pr0 Ed/sh , etc