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TW: fake-claiming, suicide mentioning

Self-diagnosed culture is unpacking shame, as well as mistrust of my own brain and experiences, years after having said experiences. All because of the stigma created by those who think they know my brain better than I do, or those who think me experimenting with criteria is dangerous and invalidating to their experiences (despite it having nothing to do with them).

For years, I felt so ashamed of having had psychotic episodes, brought on by major depression and suicidal ideation. I didn't think it was possible to have psychosis like that until then... I started hearing people in my head, and they were really fucking mean when I was having breakdowns, but a few of them were fine beyond that-- they were friends, even (though I was scared of this one named Kiv because they were one of the voices that bullied me during my breakdowns)... When they disappeared all of a sudden, along with most of my psychotic symptoms, I was convinced I had faked it all. I never spoke of this to anybody until maybe a month ago, because I was so sure somebody would call me out for faking being a system or something.

I'm also only now beginning to unravel the fact that I very likely may have OCD, which is apparently common to develop for those with untreated autism.

Better now than never, but I wish I had caught and accepted my mental state earlier. It would've saved me from lost sleep, and some disasters too. All that distress I could've avoided.

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self dx culture is masking so hard you make it all the way till your late 20's and early 30's before you feel like you can put the idea out their your maybe ADHD or some kind of ND and that feels your emotional issues

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self dx culture is when you could skip a lot of explaining just by telling people that you have certain pd and helping them with research, but everyone keeps interrogating you to figure out if you're diagnosed professionally. and then they get surprised when you don't act neurotypical, how, but you don't have any diagnoses! good thing is that my pd made me learn how to live without people.

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Self DX culture is trying to figure out which problems lead into other problems like I feel my undiagnosed ADHD informs my anxiety and depression but others disagree

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Self-dxed SZPD culture is (possibly) having periods of time where you're aware of logically feeling an emotion (e.g. recognizing that you're angry at someone/something), but not emotionally feeling that emotion (e.g. you don't feel angry; you just know that you are angry)

And no one understanding it when you try to explain it 🥲

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self diagnosis and amnesia culture is doubting wether your self dxsis is correct because of your amnesia, but you just keep coming back to your original conclusion LOL

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Self dx culture is maybe, just maybe, I'm more affected by this than I think I am

-CCC

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self-dx culture is suspecting you have avpd and are plural on top of your autism. no mom, it’s not just my anxiety and depression, my trauma fucked me up deeper than that I think, and it’s been years and I’m *still* holding onto it. there’s gotta be a reason why I’m still like this and it must be in me

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self dxed schizoid pd and being on the third day of going and doing activities/being social is halfway through the day getting hit with "yep I'm maxed out on socializing. time to go hang out with the cat" and then preparing to not leave your room for at *least* 48 hours after finally getting home

bonus points if you're plural and are questioning if you're just too worn out to identify who you are or if you're actually someone new who formed because of all this (and has strong asocial inclination)

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Self dx win culture is giving a description of your symptoms to another person and they come to the same conclusion as you about what you have

-CCC (We, a few weeks ago, told our psychiatrist about our psychotic symptoms and they came to the conclusion of psychosis without our input! We're now on working meds!)

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netflix subtitles are great for when you want to read a caption with like 50% resemblance to what's being spoken

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Self DX culture is I have lots of things wrong with me probably and then I have a innate desire to create and in this society that's not a okay thing either.

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Hey. Hey you. The person aimlessly scrolling, stuck in an immobilized standoff with your brain

It's not your fault. You won't be stuck forever. I know you're trying. I know you hate it. It's ok.

And tell the Mean Voice in your head that it's not helping. It knows as well as you do that you would get up and Just Start the task if you could. You're not doing this on purpose.

Take a deep breath. Relax your jaw. I see you trying so hard to break out of it, but you can't force it. You'll get Unstuck eventually. All you can do in the interim is be kind to yourself.

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self dx culture is I was born with at least 1 thing wrong with me and got preteen onset severe anxiety-depression (2 things) but I can diagnose at least 4 other things probably wrong with me and I don't wanna be this way but also disability awareness and rights need to be a bigger deal (as a born disabled person). Society is at best in denial about disability and how many people have them and how to help us live and marriage equality is only true if Disabled people can marry and not be punished.

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Self dx culture is your brother and your aunt being diagnosed or at least asked to get diagnosed with ND's, then thinking maybe your mother also has a ND (explains a lot) and then of course there is you, diagnosed disabled since birth but there are other issues which were ignored or have only recently been continiously looked after. Basically, co-morbidity is real.

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To my fellow ADHD people who work from home/are freelancers/don't have anything or anyone to enforce some kind of routine or tasks: for the love of God download this app named PROGRESS!

This thing is my BEST FRIEND. It converts your tasks into percentages! You can add sub-tasks forever if you want to (with different colors and icons!)

And it helps a lot to keep track on your progress bc you feel a sense of completion when you see how far you've got in your task! There are various other functionalities to it, some are paid, but you can use it forever without paying a cent and it won't bother you!