#tired rant

[insomniacsnzs]

I forgot how annoying it was to have a cold and go to college. My entire nose is blocked and every once in a while it starts to run. Being the shy nervous wreck that I am, I refuse to sniffle that much to not annoy people. So I keep walking out of the class to wipe my nose. Once I got back to my car I finally got to blow my nose. But not to mention ive been sneezing a lot more then usual along with a lovely cough that has appeared at day 6 of this stupid cold. I quite literally just woke up and sat up and sneezed like 5 times. I know for a while I wanted to get sick to feel what it was like but now I want it gone-

[enby--ghost]

i'm starting to realize more and more how badly i not only don't understand boundaries sometimes, but how poorly i don't understand people in general. On more than one occasion, i've accidentally made people upset due to making jokes or saying things that have made them uncomfortable. It's never something i intend to do, but it still happens. It's like my brain doesn't take into account that not everyone has the same connotations in what i am saying that I do, that what i'm saying is flat out not appropriate given the space i'm in, or that not everyone has the same sense of humor I do and that stuff I may find funny, they want nothing to do with. I don't know whether it's how i grew up, autism, some combonation of those, or something else entirely, but it's upsetting to know that i'm making people upset. If i ever have made you upset or uncomfortable, i'm sorry. I don't know why i do some of the things i do or say some of the things i say, but i never mean to upset anyone. i'm going to actively try, going forward, to do better. Hopefully, i don't make these same mistakes in the future

[starlightdust-dreamergalaxy]

I'm going to make another rant post here. :P

So anyway recently felt like fully getting into a fandom that I had seen in passing and slightly engaged with but never really got into it but I thought it was awesome.

And you see I thought I'd get into it nowadays because the initial wave of it hidden seem to be finally over I thought yeah it's been a good few years it's over it should be fine there shouldn't be any problems with it the initial hype and stuff of it should should have died down by now there isn't going to be any drama there isn't going to be any problems there isn't going to be any bad things happening.

Well as soon as I go to want to engage in it something bad happens, and like do you guys ever just have that happen to you where you finally are excited and like ready to engage in something that has peaked your interest has has made you think it's so cool and then it just falls apart in front of you and your left feeling like an empty husk of nothing.

Cuz I'm feeling that right now and like I've been through a good few fandoms worth just terrible things went down in them and those are mostly because I ended up getting on the train for the fandom early and it's life and of course that's bound to happen but I didn't think it would happen to this fandom that I wanted to engage with because it's been a good few years the initial stuff of it has been over and done with it was finally calming down over things and it was starting to like mellow out and then this happened.

Awesome yes I am just going to leave it there and I am just going to leave you all guessing on what the hell I'm talking about because I'm not going to tell you what fandom I'm talking about it could be anything and honestly I'll say this much it really could be anything but it's just a fandom that I thought was cool and the stuff people were making for it was great but now I'm not really sure how to feel but I still want to get into it but I don't know anymore.

I just feel tired, can't we just have one good thing happen can we reverse the internet back to the days where we had to post on the forms websites, back when we couldn't easily spread information about something bad happening because that's where it all goes wrong.

Anyway I think I'm going to go back to not engaging with the fandom right now, go back to napping on the idea of joining it. Lol

But I can say I'm pretty sure if I give it a good few months maybe a year it'll have been forgotten about. Lol. And everything will be all hunky dory all sunny and happy again. xD

[judathian]

Back home woes, my room's wall plug for the computer doesn't work so I have to wait for my step father to decide to do it, but it keeps coming down to

'Okay it'll be done today. Never mind okay it'll be later. Never mind it'll be-'

[lesbian-disaster-academic]

i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[aashiqeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

[insomniacsnzs]

Its day 9 of this cold and it only seems to getting stronger.. my nose is completely clogged now. I normally sneeze once or twice a week, just today ive sneezed like 12 times. I forgot how mortifing it is to have horrible social anxiety and be sick at school. My professor asked me if I was ok in front of the whole lecture hall if I was alright cause I was holding in coughs.

[boldandburnt]

I worked so hard to destroy myself, why would I get better?

[derangedfujoshi]

Stalking is a crime, yes that includes your yandere boyfriend

Assault is a crime, yes that includes your whumper/whumpee scenarios

Being part of a mob is a crime, yes that includes your sexy son of a mafia boss

Killing is a crime, yes that includes your blorbo

Zoophilia is a crime, yes that includes you liking Nick Wilde

All your "exceptions" from what is and isn't condemnable in fiction are, in real life, a crime as well. Every dark trope falls in the "it would be a crime to commit this irl" category, it's not just the big age gaps with adult/minor ships and the incest, it's ALL of them. All of them are crimes in the real world, by law. The sentence may vary but you'd still be sent to prison. "But I only like it in fiction!"

So do we.

So do we, so can you get off your high horse and just admit that liking dark themes in fiction, ANY dark theme, does not reflect your moral compass in real life and for the love of everything STOP pretending fake murder is better than fake incest? You sound preposterous.

[morning-star-joy]

getting so extremely tired of all these “fanfic ick” videos and people talking about what makes a fic “terrible” like shut up. Literally shut up. It’s a work of love, it’s a hobby, it’s offered to you for FREE shut UP

[lunamugetsu]

Perpetrator? or the next victim?

Tim is working on a case where a series of accidents have been happening that have all landed the victims into comas. The police don't seem suspicious of it but Tim sees it differently. They are all random people, but when looking at the photos/video footage taking during the accident. Tim has noticed a common variable.

the new barista from his usual coffee shop, Danny, is always somewhere in the background.

Now Tim has two theories.

Theory 1: Danny is the perpetrator!

Something that Tim is not a fan of because Danny is the only one that gets him his coffee order without any questions and evens adds more espresso when he asks for it.

Theory 2: Danny is going to be the next victim!

this is based on that Danny is the intended victim of whatever the heck is happening and that the victims in the coma were just caught in the crossfire. This is also not something that he wants because Danny is genuinely a pretty nice guy to talk to.

So what can Tim Drake do?

Stay by Danny's side of course!

Take his time with finishing work at the coffee shop.

Conversing with Danny whenever business was slow.

Hanging out with Danny at times.

Asking him out to dinner-wait what?

--

Meanwhile

Danny is in Gotham because he's helping Constantine with some evil Demon business.

The demon's been targeting certain people and Danny's job is to hold onto the people's souls until the demon is dealt with by Constantine. When that's done he'll return everybody's souls back to their body. No harm done!

And he's even making a friend with that guy who also drinks the coffee on steroids beverage he made.

Plus Constantine told the vigilantes of Gotham that he was there to help so there's no problem of him being there right?

...

Constantine told them why he was here right?

[hilacopter]

it's the way american leftists will insist on separating themselves from their government because, you know, a single governing force does not represent an entire country full of people with differing opinions. and then they absolutely refuse to apply that logic to non-western countries.

[terraco-07]

My current Homestuck hot take is more people need to like Kanaya and actually think about her and until then you need to stop writing her. Girl who has so much going on but gets reduced to Rose's wife, passive observer, or hot violent alien girl. I need a special Bechdel test. Can you write Kanaya doing something totally on her own away from Rose while talking to someone without mentioning Rose. You can substitute romantic interest in for Rose if you write her with someone else.

[kait-bait8]

I will never stop thinking about the fact that the Hunger Games was canonically a drunk hypothetical. It wasn’t some great government scheme.

So many bad dystopian novels that have some crazy world building premise make it seem like some great creation from powerful minds. Some great construction. Think of City of Ember with its box or Divergent with its weird scientists(??) or The Selection with its bachelor premise, they are always “grandly designed.” Even in Catching Fire with the Quarter Quells the Games give off an air of grand planning.

But the hunger games were a HYPOTHETICAL. A crazy, extreme, what if. They were never supposed to exist. They were never supposed to be real.

Who wouldn’t drink themselves to death knowing they thought of the idea in the first place?

[zebulontheplanet]

Im sorry, but a TON of you know fucking nothing about level 3 autism.

A lot of you like to go “but I can’t live fully independent and need help with some things so I must have level 3 autism 🥺” I can promise you that you being able to live with your partner and semi independently does NOT mean you have level 3 autism.

So many people have been watering down level 3 autism. And self diagnosing themselves with it because they need a bit more support then those people on TikTok need and it’s TIRING. I can ASSURE you that the majority of autistic people need more support than those big creators on TikTok because a LOT of them aren’t even realistic with their own support needs.

Level 3 autism means you need a LOT of help. It’s called needing very substantial support for a reason. People with DIAGNOSED and even UNDIAGNOSED level 3 autism are not only visibly autistic in many ways, but need a lot more support than you realize. A lot of level 3s are nonverbal or semiverbal (although some are verbal). A lot of level 3s need support in EVERY. ASPECT. OF. THEIR. LIFE. this doesn’t mean just reminders to bathe and reminders to take their medication.

No, this means literally someone hand feeding them. Someone physically bathing them. Clothing them. Handing them their medication and watching them take it or physically having to put it in their mouth. Constant care. This means a TEAM of carers and support staff. A lot of level 3s end up in group homes, residentials, Institutions. A lot of level 3s need help using the bathroom and this doesn’t mean just simply reminding them, no this means physically walking them to the bathroom and helping them in every step.

Not to mention the comorbidities that commonly come with level 3 autism.

A lot of level 3s don’t know how to use the internet. Although I’ve met a few who do and it’s totally possible! A lot don’t.

Stop fucking doing this. Look at the DSM5. Look at higher support needs people. Ask around. Don’t just say Willy nilly that you have level 3 autism. You needing support is completely valid, but taking the label from people who are more disabled then you it is not ok.