#kinda a rant post cause I’m TIRED

[zebulontheplanet]

Im sorry, but a TON of you know fucking nothing about level 3 autism.

A lot of you like to go “but I can’t live fully independent and need help with some things so I must have level 3 autism 🥺” I can promise you that you being able to live with your partner and semi independently does NOT mean you have level 3 autism.

So many people have been watering down level 3 autism. And self diagnosing themselves with it because they need a bit more support then those people on TikTok need and it’s TIRING. I can ASSURE you that the majority of autistic people need more support than those big creators on TikTok because a LOT of them aren’t even realistic with their own support needs.

Level 3 autism means you need a LOT of help. It’s called needing very substantial support for a reason. People with DIAGNOSED and even UNDIAGNOSED level 3 autism are not only visibly autistic in many ways, but need a lot more support than you realize. A lot of level 3s are nonverbal or semiverbal (although some are verbal). A lot of level 3s need support in EVERY. ASPECT. OF. THEIR. LIFE. this doesn’t mean just reminders to bathe and reminders to take their medication.

No, this means literally someone hand feeding them. Someone physically bathing them. Clothing them. Handing them their medication and watching them take it or physically having to put it in their mouth. Constant care. This means a TEAM of carers and support staff. A lot of level 3s end up in group homes, residentials, Institutions. A lot of level 3s need help using the bathroom and this doesn’t mean just simply reminding them, no this means physically walking them to the bathroom and helping them in every step.

Not to mention the comorbidities that commonly come with level 3 autism.

A lot of level 3s don’t know how to use the internet. Although I’ve met a few who do and it’s totally possible! A lot don’t.

Stop fucking doing this. Look at the DSM5. Look at higher support needs people. Ask around. Don’t just say Willy nilly that you have level 3 autism. You needing support is completely valid, but taking the label from people who are more disabled then you it is not ok.

[throwawayasoiafaccount]

When I see stuff like this I kinda want to bash my head into a wall:

To start off, I’m not sure whether this person was commenting on book or show Cersei, but honestly, it doesn’t even matter because she’s so much more than the ‘ambitious villain’ or the ‘murderous girlboss’ tropes in both the book and show.

(Of course, I do have my issues with the way Cersei was written in the show like most people but this is simply a rant post so I’m not going to go through the differences of Show vs Book Cersei)

Cersei is a female character who was shaped by her environment, who’s insecurities were created by her environment, and she’s a woman who’s idiotic mistakes can be traced back to how her environment shaped her. She’s much more than a murderous girlboss, she’s both a victim of the system and also a beneficiary of it, while also acting as an agent of it to keep the status quo while also desiring what the system denied her.

Cersei is NUANCED and complicated and even now people hate that about her and want her to have been a purely evil woman handcrafted in a vacuum, ignoring the context of her life because readers would rather not engage with Cersei’s victimhood and nuances because that ruins their idea of: She Was The Problem and Always The Problem. (People would rather say that she deserved her walk of shame instead of interacting meaningfully with the theme of systematic gender-based violence that is so prevalent in Cersei’s story. The exploration of patriarchal violence in Show Alicent’s story is done so horribly in comparison.)

And what really pissed me off about these tags is that this person has clearly decided that they don’t care to interact with the nuance of Cersei and are fine with flattening her, and yet they shit on others for not liking Alicent.

Because of the way Alicent is written in this show, she almost always has a ‘woe is me I can do no wrong’ attitude, which of course drives people away from the character (woe is me I deserve to take a child’s eye 🥺). However, what actually annoys me is how she’s made out to be stupid, foolish, ignorant, and inconsistent due to the horrible writing of this show, all of which are deviations from her book characterization. Also, I despise it when people want me to support writing decisions and changes made in adaptations that are downright misogynistic and are meant to attract the male gaze.

But what pisses many people, including myself, off is how the changes made negatively impacted many other characters. Alicent’s terrible characterization is like a black hole that distorts and warps the whole story! It’s annoying af!

So when people like this say: ‘She’s nuanced and people just can’t handle it 🙄;’ I say: No. She’s horribly written and a different character from the book and people have a right to be critical about these changes that stripped a female character of 1) her agency and 2) her intelligence!

And the thing is, there was little reason for the writers to have made all these changes to Alicent’s characterization! In the book she is an interesting character with clear motives and understandable reactions. She’s cunning and ambitious and acts the way a noble lady who became queen would. And despite her clear ambitions and dislike of Rhaenyra, she still makes a comment wondering about who would protect the Princess from Ser Criston, and yet she then takes Cole into her service after his falling out with Rhaenyra. That’s a perfect example of nuance! Show Alicent could never compare to book Alicent’s clear moral values and consistent disregard of said moral values in pursuit of power.

And because of this, Book Alicent isn’t easy to stomach. It’s hard for most people to come to terms with a character like her and it’s even harder for people to feel sympathetic for her at the end when she went mad with grief.

On the other hand, Show Alicent was designed in a way to garner pity, and when the writers felt like her current arc wouldn’t be enough to garner the specific reaction they wanted they would then throw in a time skip and suddenly she’s completely different and yet still Thee victim. She’s designed to be as sympathetic as fucking possible! The camera angles, the background music, and the lighting is set up in a way to make sure you the viewer feels pity or sympathy for her! Cause that’s her role in this series! She’s thee Ultimate Victim!

But too bad for the writers as many people are fed up with this kind of inconsistent writing. Even when the writers created a whole new challenge for Alicent where she’s shitted on by the green council and forced to face the beast she helped to raise, I and many others could never feel any satisfaction as it was clear that once again Alicent was being made to be Thee Ultimate Victim who was just led astray by the patriarchy and was a victim of it and was only just realizing it so don’t you pity her don’t you feel sad for her and now she’s trying to do the right thing so pls pls pls pity her 🥺~ So it shouldn’t be surprising that many people are annoyed by these eNLiGhtEnEd changes that have led to a complete deviation from the source material.

To summarize: Cersei is an excellent fucking character who’s by no means easy to stomach, and because she’s not easy to stomach she’s often reduced to annoying ass tropes by dumbasses who are reading above their comprehension level. But when you actually try to understand her, you can easily see why she turned out the way she did and you can feel sympathy for her while understanding that she’s both victim and perpetrator! On the other hand, Show Alicent is a mess and HOTD is trying to make her serve a different narrative role than she did in the books so ofc people are going to be unhappy with the changes as book readers are once again faced with the annoying reality that the writers don’t give a fuck about the source material.

[thatsailormoonkinnie]

Can we just chill??

ok, so, this is my first time being in a big fandom that isn’t like dead, in a WHILE. Safe to say, I forgot how toxic and draining it can be. Like I’m just trying to enjoy things I like and hang out with people who just wanna vibe. But like all the mis-tagged posts and the yelling at each other (mostly over shipping) is just so tiring. I don’t post much, if at all, but like I just need to say something at this point.

I’m a shipper. I love shipping. But omg can we stop trying to kill each other!? Like maybe it’s cause I’m a multi-shipper, but like Ive never understood shipping wars or hating on other ships. For example I don’t like Zaundads (nothing against Zaundads shippers), it’s not my thing, I personally see them as brothers because they are meant to be parallels for Vi and Jinx. But that doesn’t mean I go out of my way to bother Zaundads shippers when they’re doing nothing but enjoying their ship!! Like I was happy for them that they got more content in 2x07! And if for whatever reason you really just CANT..just block it…don’t make that someone else’s problem…?

And the Christian Linke thing. I will admit, at first I was heated too. As an ace person who’s favorite ship is MelJayVik (at first just JayVik but the pipeline swallowed me lol) I didn’t like that part of my identity was being used to invalidate or villainize something I like. However, looking more into the situation has calmed me down a bit, especially seeing how aggressive people are being. Yes, I think Viktor being ace was implemented weirdly and could’ve been handled better. But that doesn’t make Christian some spiteful, evil, homophobic, SoB. Like…could he have revealed it sooner or made it more upfront in the show? Sure. But I think treating him like the devil for that discredits how important he was to the making of Arcane and how hard he fought it in the first place. Like it’s fine to be mad at him, or disagree but, remember, he’s just a guy. A person; we can very easily forget that online.

It just feels like every time I show up to this fandom, I’ll be happy one minute and grimacing as people argue the next. Like I know one post from a rando who never posts anything isn’t gonna stop fandom toxicity. But like can we just all chill out for a minute and think about what you’re arguing about. We all love this show…so why are we yelling at each other..we are the same thing different font fr fr lol. Like I’m just tired at people yelling at each other for…having a good time..? Enjoying what they enjoy…? Existing?

Sorry for kinda long incoherent mini rant. Don’t wanna bring anyone’s mood down. Have a good day nerds. Have fun!!

[stardustcatcher]

Pretty Boy

Pairing: Josh Kiszka x Reader

Word Count: 1.8K

Warnings: SMUT (18+ minors DNI), swearing, needy subby-ish josh, dry humping, praise, fluff, josh being a lil sad (bc that indeed needs a warning), biting? like once, a lot of pet names cause i'm a slut for that, uhh i don't think there's anything else but let me know if i missed anything.

AN: babby posts writing?!? it's a christmas miracle! this has been in my drafts for literally ever but i kinda revised it and decided why the fuck not. idk if i'm really happy with it but i wanted to get something posted and i'm deep in josh land so this is what happened. heavily inspired by the need i have for josh to be in my lap. it's not my best and it's short but i hope you all enjoy it anyway :)

this is also my first time writing in second person and it wasn't as hard as i thought so maybe all my fics will be like that from now on, but with my inconsistency, who knows  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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You were sitting on the couch, glass of wine in hand reading your favorite book for the umpteenth time when you heard the front door slam. The jingling of keys were heard as they were set on the little hook by the door and you peeked over to where your beautiful lover stood, toeing off his shoes with a heavy sigh. Josh looked absolutely drained, hair disheveled, cheeks flushed, and shoulders tight with an unknown tension. Nevertheless, the sight of him made you smile. He’d been so busy recently, putting the finishing touches on the band’s newest album, and it felt like he hadn’t been home in ages. 

Josh trudged over to where you sat on the couch, his lips pursed in a slight pout as he bent down to kiss your forehead, then your nose, and then planted a chaste peck on your lips. “Hey, mama,” he said with a smile, though it didn’t reach his eyes and it seemed forced. 

“Hi, baby. How was work?” you asked, handing him the glass of wine knowing that he could probably use it. He sighed with a roll of his eyes and took a gulp of the red in the glass. 

“Don’t wanna talk about work,” he shook his head, running a hand down his tired face. You nodded, knowing that wasn’t true. Josh always said he didn’t want to talk about what was bothering him, but in fifteen minutes or less, he’d be venting. 

“Okay, we don’t have to talk. But come sit with me, I miss you,” you shut your book, laying it on the coffee table before patting the space beside you. Josh flopped down on the cushion, sinking into the softness before you cuddled up to his side, head on his chest and arm thrown around his waist. His hand made its way into your hair, smoothing it over and pressing his fingers lightly into your scalp. His lips left a kiss on your temple as you listened to the song of his heartbeat, his body heat warming you up. 

“How was your day? Hope it was better than mine,” he whispered, lips on your forehead. 

“Boring without you,” you answered. “I put those shelves up in the bedroom, did the laundry, and cleaned up the kitchen. Just stuff that needed to get done,” you shrugged and felt his chest rumble with a small laugh. 

“What a pretty little homemaker you are,” he chuckled.

“Shut up,” you laughed along with him, shoving his side playfully. “I’m happy you're home.”

“I’m happy to be home,” he replied with a hum. “Today was just not my day. Sam was extra late today and cranky, we found out that one of the takes for a song we recorded was almost completely unusable, Jake was being an ass, I didn’t get to eat lunch, and just to top it all off, I got a fucking flat tire on the way home,” Josh ranted, face becoming redder with each inconvenience he recalled. 

“I’m sorry, my love,” you pouted at him, genuinely upset that he had such a bad day. Josh was the sweetest, kindest man you’d ever met. He deserved nothing but the most wonderful days. “I can’t do much but would a cuddle help?” you asked hopefully, pushing yourself away from him and opening your arms welcomingly. Josh smiled, the first real one you’d seen, his pearly white perfect teeth on display, looking just a little bit happier at the suggestion. 

“A cuddle always helps,” he grinned. You readjusted yourself in your seat, lifting the blanket up with one hand and patting your lap with the other. 

Josh got up before plopping himself down in your lap, straddling you with a leg on the side of each hip. His head burrowed into your neck as you laid the blanket back over the both of you. Your left hand moved to his curls, raking your fingers through them while your right hand slid under the back of his shirt, nails training up and down his spine. He wrapped himself around you like a koala, inhaling the scent of your shampoo and body wash, taking slow deep breaths and calming himself. 

With his incessant need for constant physical touch, you’d found out early in your relationship that this was the ideal position for Josh to get what he needed to ground himself and calm down. Everyone needed to be held sometimes, and he was no exception. His arm tenderly wrapped around your waist as he gave you a squeeze, his breath warm and soothing against your neck. “Is there anything else on your mind, lover?” you asked, leaning your cheek against his head as you continued to rub his back. 

“Just miss you, I guess,” he mumbled into your skin. “Feels like forever since we’ve been like this. Miss holding you, being held by you. Miss your kisses, touching you, loving on you. Just miss you.”

“I miss you too, Josh,” you sighed, feeling tears well in your eyes at the thought of him feeling so starved for attention and affection and love. “But we’re here now, and you’re off for the next few days, aren’t you?”

He nodded, hair tickling your face. “Yeah, wanna spend them just like this,” he hummed, completely and utterly content. 

After a few moments he lifted his head, moving to rest his forehead against yours. His lips gently pressed into yours  and he melted against you even more, your hands moving to hold his hips. Your lips melded together as he poured all his love into you with a kiss that said I love you, I miss you, I need you. 

Josh deepened the kiss as his mouth parted, a tiny high pitched whine escaping his throat. His hands moved from behind you to tug at the bottom of your shirt. “Want it off,” he muttered against your lips. You smiled before pulling back, tugging your shirt off carelessly and tossing it behind you as he did the same with his own. He groaned at the sight of your naked chest and you could feel him grow hard in his pants from where he sat in your lap. “You’re so beautiful, mama,” Josh whispered before reconnecting your lips, his tongue immediately tangling with yours in a sloppy kiss. You swallowed the wanton moans and sighs that left him, gulping them down greedily as his hips began to move against you on their own accord. “Fuck,” he shuddered when his hips caught a particularly good spot.

“Feel good, sweet boy?” you asked, caressing his cheek with your thumb. His face was flushed and his eyes were clazed over with lust and love and pleasure. “It’s been so long, you must be real pent up, huh?”

“Yeah,” his breath hitched and eyes clenched shut as he ground his covered c ock against your lower stomach. “I had plans, y’know. Soon as I got home, was gonna make you cum on my tongue, then my fingers. Then I was going to fuck you, slow and sweet, just like you deserve.”

“We can still do all that, baby,” you kissed his neck, sucking and biting in all the places you knew drove him crazy. “But you deserve this, and you look so fucking pretty like this, Joshua.”

He keened high in his throat, the noise needy as his hands grappled at your sides, squeezing the soft flesh. “Say that again, please?”

“You like being called pretty, baby?” you whispered into his ear as his head dropped to your shoulder, his hips grinding faster against you now. “You wanna be my pretty good boy?”

“Yes,” he groaned, biting lightly at the junction of your neck and shoulder. “Gonna be so good for you, promise.”

“You already are, baby,” you said, and he was. Josh was the prettiest thing you’d ever seen, all the time. When he was on stage performing for thousands, when he was concentrating with his tongue poking between his lips, when he was sitting as still as he possibly could while getting his rhinestones applied, but he was especially pretty like this when he was sat on your lap, grinding his hips back and forth feverishly chasing that high that was building in the pit of his stomach. You kissed his bare shoulder, loving the feeling of his naked chest pressed against yours, how his hips rutted into you without care, how his neck and chest and ears were all blushed pretty pink. Your hands held his hips firmly, helping guide his movements, to grind him down on you just a little bit harder. “You’re always so good for me, Josh. So good to me. No one has ever loved me like you do, cared for me like you do, fucked me like to do, made me cum like you do. My best boy, the sweetest boy in the world, and you’re all mine. Aren’t you?”

“All yours, all fucking yours,” he gasped and lifted his head and threw it back, an expression of pure bliss etched onto his god-like face. 

“God, I’m the luckiest woman in the world. Do you know how many people would kill to see you like this and I get it all the time, anytime I want,” you mouthed at his collar bones and moved one hand from his hip to cup the bulge in his pants. “You’re so hard, pretty boy. This must hurt. You wanna cum?”

“So bad,” he nodded, his back arching while he ground into the palm of your hand. You could almost feel him throb through his pants. 

“Go ahead, cum for me,” you leaned up to capture his lips once more. “Just like this. I wanna see it.”

“But my pants,” he whined but didn’t stop or slow his movements. 

“I don’t care, and I don’t think you do either. Now c’mon, make a mess, pretty boy.”

A broken moan clawed from the deep within his chest as his hips stuttered against you and a warm wet spot blossomed on the front of his pants, darkening the fabric. “Fuck, fuck, fuck!” he cried before slowing the movement of his hips gradually, riding out his high. 

When it finally died down, he slumped forward and pressed a row of kisses across your shoulder, breaths coming out in heavy pants. “Feel better?” you asked, hand tangling in his hair once more. 

“So much,” he smiled with an airy, fucked out giggle. “Thank you, darling. I needed that so bad, you have no idea.”

“Anything for my pretty boy,” you ran a hand over his warm face before tapping his hip. “Now get up and I’ll run us a bath, then we can order-in dinner. How does that sound?”

“Like heaven.”

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taglist: @peachpitpearls @alexxavicry @spark-my-nature

[ranchycowgirllover]

Alright so I made a Stella Re-Design, this post ‘ill be kinda long cuz I wanna explain things and such

My main problems with this design are 1- Details that are unneeded that lead to inconvenience in the animation department (like seriously watch scenes with her and focus on her lashes) 2- This outfit isn’t very regal, I’m guessing the bottom of the dress is supposed to resemble feathers idk it just doesn’t look good.

Alright so we have that out of the way, I have made a few different possible re designs. You’ll see the one I prefer at the end.

This one I tried to keep more in line with the original pink princess theme. Simplified the dress and hair (I imagine that her hair can fluff up when she’s angry) and I replaced the dark purple with a maroon. I also made her hair white. This way the only purple is her make up which should cause you to look at her face more.

This one is a more evil Queen inspired Stella, used the purple as a main dress color, I gave her green/blue eyes and grey hair which she had in the pilot. The eyes are help tell her apart from her husband, and the hair change is to make her look older and more regal. I changed the style of dress now she looks less little girl costume princess. (No hate to princess peach)

This is a younger Stella design that I did. My canon is that she was dressed this way as to appeal more to Stolas.

Now this is the final design that I chose. The purple is for royalty, I did away with the dark purple as to make her look less threatening. And the dress is rococo era inspired just because I those dresses no real reason

I also did a design for her brother.

His changes were simplify his outfit, and the other stuff like his hair were changed to match his redesigned sister

Alright so that’s all the art. The rest of the this is just going to be me ranting and raving about her character.

Okay so I think we should acknowledge how fucked Stella’s situation is. She’s in an arranged marriage and her only purpose in hells society was to give birth to an heir.

Stolas and her brother are shown to have magic powers, and Stolas we know he has princely duty’s so we can assume the same for her brother. Stella doesn’t have any of these she was meant to be a baby a maker. Even her name Stella compliments Stolas’s role as star prince or whatever.

Now in the first episode of season 2 we have Stella making fun of her husband how he’s bad in bed and how she’s glad she doesn’t have to fuck him because she’s given birth. I think this is Viv’s attempt at making this situation seem less fucked up.

I don’t even know it just makes me really uncomfortable that this very feminine woman in a shitty situation is being vilified. Like if I was in Stella’s situation I’d probably have anger issues too. I’m just so tired of being told that feminine outrage and displays of anger make us monstrous bitches.

Now obviously Stolas being forced into a loveless marriage also sucks and is an awful situation for him too. But he’s not that much better than Stella. Both are shown to be physically abusive to the castle staff, and Stella for all her faults isn’t black mailing someone into sex.

Now having two shitty people wouldn’t bother me if the narrative didn’t bend over backwards to make Stolas seem like such good guy, just an uwu gay bean. His wife is SO mean she won’t let the gay people be happy 🥺. Also painting abusers as cartoonishly evil monsters does a disservice to people who have been abused is all I’m saying.

Anyways I’ll hopefully have a Stolas Redesign up next

Bye now

[o0o0thorn0o0o]

I love him I love him I love him I love him I love him I

Did I mention I love him? Haha, but yeah, I adore Hinata. He’s just so babyyyyyy. And every once in a blue moon, I get in this random mood just obsessing over him… which doesn’t last long because there’s, like, no new content, ackkk. I’m just looking at the same stuff over and over again ;~;

So… why not make some? I do get into bouts where I really do want to draw him but not anything substantial since I have other planned artworks. So I decided to draw the bab on his birthday… last year… but those two super late IH posts took up my time… But, yeah, can do that now, finally! (It’s still the 23rd somewhere in the world… Like, Hawaii, at least, I think. Though, I’m still very much cutting it close ^^;;)

You’ll see him pop up every now and again on this blog, but also, there’s another reason I really wanted to post about him, too. See, I made this OC back in middle school who is still very much an active one rn—it’s just, middle school me was shameless and she based him heavily on Hinata, eheh. And I wouldn’t wanna post about my OC without posting about Hinata first. 

I’ll get around to posting about that OC plus his cast sometime in the future, but yeah, it’ll be pretty obvious which one I’m talking about when I do (plus, there’s another OC who is also heavily based on another character—shameless, like I said, eheh—but that one should be pretty obvious, too… Ig the whole main trio kinda has obvious-ish basis, but the third one isn’t as obvious (unless you know who the first OC is based off of, Ig) and he’s more superficially based off another character compared to the other two. That said, they’ve all developed very much into their own characters, mm hmm. It’d be… unfortunate if they didn’t, considering they’ve been in the works since middle school…

Anywho, one last OC-related tidbit! So, while I had based the OCs off of canon characters’ appearances, personalities, and interests, things like birthdays were just based off of the vibes my characters gave me. Which is super funny, ‘cause I never looked up Hinata’s birthday until last year to know when to draw him, and wouldn’t you know it? My OC’s birthday just happens to be a day before his, pffft. I just thought my OC gave off peak summer vibes, so July was the obvious month. And he also seemed like he’d fit an identical double digit birth day, and he’s definitely more of an even than an odd. So… yeah, what a coincidence p, eheh. Ig it’s a really fitting birthday for this kinda character, eh?

Back to Hinata, though. I have very mixed opinions about maid-sama as a whole (I… rant about it every so often…), and I never thought about reading the manga… but I got desperate for Hinata content, so… yeah, I read the whole thing just for him. It was… painful at times… But it was worth it for him… I’ve got so many screenshots, eheh. That said, I don’t plan on ever revisiting it (if I want to revisit anything, it’d probably be the anime, and then, only certain episodes y’know, the ones featuring Hinata, cough, cough), but if I do, it’s to take every single screenshot of Hinata just so I never touch it again, haha. 

It’s so funny, though: Hinata’s not even one of my top five favorite guys (definitely top ten, though, but top five’s positions are set, while the rest of the five flip-flop), but I treat him a lot better than my favorite guys, pffttt. But… like… he’s so precioussssss…

Ahhhhhh, I wish there was more content for himmmm, ahhhhh…!

Anyway, I’m very much sleep-deprived rn, hence you get… all this… I’m too tired to be embarrassed at the moment; sorry, future me.

[shanmthebrave]

(me looking at people who say “Azucena has no personality” or “Azucena is so annoying” or “I hate Azucena sm”)

WARNING: rant/my opinions/im gonna get sm hate idk why i posted this i just wanted to speak out my opinion…I’ll prob delete this if the hate gets rlly bad.

OKAY WE GET IT. She isn’t your favourite character, and we get your point of view, but yall are really the fun police. Think of the people who like Azucena for whatever reasons. You’d feel the same way if someone said these things about your fav character.

sorry abt this random post I kinda just wanted to rant because I’m so tired of Azu hate, just leave my fav character alone and let us (who actually like her) enjoy her in peace :(

I’m not denying people opinions btw. It’s alright not to like her.

I can also see everyone’s points. She’s not everyone’s cup of tea, with her entire personality being centred around coffee. Tbh even as an Azucena enjoyer I kinda wish bamco handled her writing a bit better. (AND BUFFED HER IM TIRED OF HEARING AZU IS GARBAGE 😭)

But just like characters like Bob, Law, Paul, Kuma etc. she was written to be a joke character. And that is the part I like. She’s just silly and having a good time. What’s there to hate? Are you all having a bad day cause a character was written a silly, self proclaimed coffee queen? She isn’t even a major character to Tekken’s story. She’s just there to be there.

In conclusion, Azu hate is sorta justified but y’all gotta let us enjoy our coffee queen. :3 in the end we all have an opinions and they are to be respected as always. Have a great day and God bless! also pls join the AzuLeo community :) (join link is in my acc just scroll ehe will pin in due time)

[ikykwkleeknoww]

Protectors ~ ot8

TW: abusive father figure, violence, verbal abuse, panic attack

wc: 0.6k-

an: it’s my first time posting here and I mostly wrote this for me, cause it’s based on a nightmare I had. I needed the comfort of skz and thought I would share this with y’all. This turned out kinda shitty, hope you enjoy reading it anyway.

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“You know, if you’d actually lose some weight you could be looking pretty”

“Wow, thank you for such a heartwarming compliment”

“You deserve it, you’re worthless!” He replied angry, he was about to hit me. Before he got the chance to, I opened the car door and jumped out, in a matter of milliseconds. I began to slowly step away from the car, not even shutting the door on my way.

“Come back you little brat!” He got out of the car himself and stormed towards me. His head was red out of anger and I could swear his eyes were about to pop out of it. I backed away faster and turned to run but he held me back by my wrist. “Don’t touch me, get off me dad!” I tore myself off his grasp and tried running away for a second time.

I don’t know how long I’ve been running, but he was still a few feet away from me and catching up slowly. No one was there, the streets were empty at this late hour. I saw a group of people not so far from me and my guts told me to get help from them.

“HELP! PLEASE HELP ME!” I called, already tired and about to give up. They turned into my direction and before I knew it, I was hiding behind one of the guys. “Please protect me” I whimpered and collapsed onto my knees, my exhaustion getting the better of me. I glanced to the confused faces which looked quite familiar with me, but I could remember anything right now.

Some of them shielded and a smaller group crouched down next to me. As soon as I heard my fathers yelling, I covered my ears and shut my eyes in fear. I began to hyperventilate and tears started to stream out of my eyes. My hands and soon my whole body were shaking, “Please don’t hurt me, please” I whimpered out.

“Don’t touch her and get the fuck away before you’ll end up in the hospital!” A voice ringed through my ears. At this point, my body was violently shaking. A light pair of hands was placed on my shoulders, trying to stop its movements.

“I need you to take a deep breath for me”

I couldn’t do it, my mind had zero control over my body. My vision got blurry from the tears in my eyes and my head got dizzy. Before I knew it, everything went blank.

***

I woke up to something cold on my forehead, making me snap open my eyes. My head rested on someone’s lap, the person was caressing my face and playing with my hair.

“Oh, hey you’re back!” The person’s deep voice spoke and I could recognize it instantly, shutting my eye again.

“How are you feeling, sweetheart?” A British accent spoke, this can’t be real, right?

“I-uhm I don’t know, exhausted?” I slowly reopened my eyes looking at eight all too familiar faces starting back at me.

“You wanna tell us what happened?” Then it hit me again

“Where is he? Is he gone? Please tell me he’s gone-” I got on my knees and was almost standing on both feet, but a hand grabbed my arm firmly.

“He is not here anymore” the person, punctuating each word.

“I-I’m sorry, he’s my father and was abusive towards my mother. I made him angry because he was pissing me off and then he started literally bullying me a-and he was about to hit me so I stumbled out of the car and ran away. Then I-I saw you and oh my god, I’m ranting. I apo-apologize” I rambled down. I looked up from my lap, my gaze meeting the ones from the one and only Stray Kids members.

“No it’s okay, how about we go eat something? You must be starving”, Chan suggested. I smiled, “thank you”.

[asherwentinsanelol]

not a silly post this is kinda a trans rant :(

I hate being misgendered so much. When someone tries to fit me in a box they seem fit, I get so uncomfortable I can’t take it. But I have to act strong and like I don’t care around them so they don’t throw the “weak snowflake” card at me. I’m exhausted of explaining my gender to people who never end up listening. I want to be big and strong and comfortable in my gender no matter what people call me, but I can’t and it hurts to hide the hurt. I’m angry but I’m too tired to fight people on my existence. I wear skirts because it makes me feel pretty, but people call me a girl when I wear them. People don’t understand how hard it is to be trans and they don’t want to. Ignorance is bliss, isn’t it? knowing how much pain your causing someone by a passing comment hurts you, so don’t think about it.

you don’t listen when I tell you what I am. I don’t accept your apology, but I have to say I do because that’s the only way I’ll get anywhere with you. Even in your apology you called me a girl, used she/her, knowing damn well it makes me uncomfortable. You will never listen to our pain. Our pain is being dramatic to you because you will never feel what it’s like to feel like this.

[greenokapi]

So… what do y’all do when you wanna do a bajillion things but you can’t settle on which thing to do so you just kind of end up doing nothing?

… lissen I’m still only recently diagnosed with adhd so I still don’t know how to work with it… I wanna draw so many things, wanna make merch, comics, I wanna write a fuckton of silly cringe fanfics… I wanna make videos? Like maybe youtube videos rambling abt stuff while drawing but then I don’t know if anyone would even be interested in that, and besides I haven’t done video editing in…. Probably close to 20years? What program should I use? Anyone got any tips on that?

I also wanna make stuff, lil bead things like these guys I made a while ago for example

I also wanna try doll customization cause it’s kinda only been the last decade or so where I’ve allowed myself to like dolls… reasons for that being … uh�� gender stuff… it’s like only now in my life, around 30 have I finally gotten somewhat close to getting a grasp on my gender and sexuality, and I never even really realized before that this was something I had a problem with? Which probably makes no sense tbh…

I also wanna do sculpting and even paint, after art school teachers made me feel like I should never paint again bcs idk man I wasn’t up to their standards 🤷

And… I wanna do all this stuff but not only does brain say ‘adhd my guy’ but there’s also my increasing health issues that… I mean I’ve always had them but I guess getting older makes it harder and harder to constantly deal with them… and that’s another thing I never really realized was so bad until back when I was in Japan in 2015-2016 as an exchange student and would have to go to the hospital increasingly often bcs of pain nobody could diagnose… aand then I was shamed for it bcs having to go to the hospital in the middle of the night sometimes was a huge hassle to the dorm staff, idk I was a problem…

Since then I’ve had two operations and will probably need to have more in the future. Also, amusingly, when I finally got diagnosed I was looking at the list of symptoms, all of which I could relate to in at least some way, but the ones that stood out, for some reason, were ‘constant exhaustion’ and then below it was ‘insomnia’ and… maybe I’m not actually lazy when I’m tired all the time? But y’know, I don’t really wanna use a chronic condition as an excuse to just do nothing, plenty of ppl have chronic problems but still do stuff with their life… but when I think like that I also remember this isn’t a ‘pain competition’ or something like that and different people just have different capabilities to deal with chronic pain and such… idk, I honestly think I’m still trying to come to terms with the realization that being exhausted and in pain all the time probably counts as some kind of disability….. but I don’t feel like I’m allowed to say I’m disabled bcs I do also have good days, you know? I should probably try harder to just DO things?

Ahem, it’s like 9AM and I haven’t been able to sleep and stuff hurts… I just wanna go do something productive but instead I’m whining on here which I probably shouldn’t do bcs this is the internet and strangers can see what you post and maybe use it against you but also sometimes you just really wanna rant into the void… or maybe more like semi-void cause idk, maybe someone reads this and can relate or give advice or just talk or something? Buuut you suck at talking… then later you feel embarrassed about your tired rambles and probably end up deleting them and just bring them up in therapy later like you should…

Anyway, until this embarrassment pops up I’m probably gonna try to find some painkillers and go draw or something -3-

[threephantomrey]

sorry to talk about this i really don’t want to talk about this guy again (and i didn’t even want to bring him up in the first place in that one post but i knew i kinda had to so i did it anyways) but i’m going to have to bring him up again right now because OHHHHH MY GOOOODDDDD

for once. FOR ONCE. can other people fucking criticize Jim Krieg for the shit he pulled in Scoobynatural and Frankencreepy (he was a writer for both) if you don’t know, i’m talking about how in Scoobynatural Dean who is a grown man spends the entire episode thirsting over Daphne who is a teenager and there is a kiss between Sam who is ALSO a grown man and Velma who is ALSO a teenager at the end. AND in Frankencreepy, there’s a whole fatphobic side plot that Daphne goes through.

every fucking time people will bring up Jim Krieg, it’s literally ALWAYS about his mandates that he put on 13th ghost + rtzi and it’s NEVER about the shit that he pulled in Scoobynatural and Frankencreepy that’s muuuuuuch worse than his mandates on those movies. yesterday i saw someone on reddit rant about the no real monsters mandates on those movies. some people in the comments on the Scoobysnax blog will bring it up whenever 13th ghost or rtzi are mentioned and even when they’re NOT mentioned, people will STILL bring that up!! i haven’t seen anyone in the comments on that site do that in a month actually BUT OH MY GODDD.

and just today i was watching a video and in the comments i saw one of the few people who actually talked about how he worked on Scoobynatural but they criticized him for that special being about how real monsters don’t belong in Scooby and not a SINGLE mention about how in Scoobynatural, a grown man was going after a teenage girl for the entire episode or that another a grown man and a teenage girl kissed at the end.

like okay you can be mad about his mandates, i’m not saying you can’t or that no one can ever criticize him for his mandates ever again. but why does literally everyone else ignore the grown men being romantically involved with teenage girls that he pulled in Scoobynatural and the fatphobia side plot that he pulled in Frankencreepy???!!! for ONCE, can we criticize him for that cause that’s literally so much worse.

genuinely, i’m tired of issues like this being ignored in the fandom. i’m tired of hearing about Jim Krieg because people literally only criticize him for him being like “no we can’t have real monsters in Scooby Doo i won’t allow it” and not for what happened in Scoobynatural and Frankencreepy. anyways fuck him i hate him and i’m done talking about him

edit: i’m aware that some people didn’t know or still don’t know he was a writer for Scoobynatural or Frankencreepy. i understand why they did not criticize him for what he pulled in those because they didn’t know or still don’t know that he was a writer for those.

[asterclaw]

Time for some random ideas ✨✨✨

Doesn’t Reaper and Blue(berror)’s father-and-son bond sound interesting?  Idk, maybe that’s just me

Considering no one’s stopping me, I’m just gonna dump all my thoughts here and then use this post as a source of info lel

So, what if, when Error left Blue in the Anti-Void, and he started turning into Blueberror, Reaper kinda went in to, yk, reap Blue’s soul but found another glitch, who doesn’t remember anything about his past. Then, knowing that Underswap was destroyed, Reaper would take the guy to Sci and then to Geno. They would create a some sort of a family, as much as it is possible. Blue would probably try to convince Reaper that he’s strong and can help, and Reaper would actually teach him how to be strong. Reaper would start taking him outside the save screen to show the multiverse. Later, Blue would meet Ink and Dream. He’d become a part of the Star Sanses and try to reduce the amount of his father’s work ✨

Khm, and now just some facts :D - In this... Timeline? Blue is usually called Berry because he’s not always blue, yk - Berry usually looks like Swap!Sans but starts glitching from touch or if being in Anti-Void/Doodle-Sphere  - He’s still energetic and wants good for everyone but hates killers and anyone who causes deaths  - He likes dark humor and coffee :) - Reaper finally gets as much touch as he wants and even can get tired of the amount :DDD

I s’ppose that’s all, thanks for your attention ✨

Welp, now that I’m done ranting, imma go do smthn useful, baiiii

[helixobesity]

There have been a few posts from you, or asks from others, where you've talked about gender. I'm just wondering if you could talk a bit about gender and feeding/gaining; do you notice any differences in your own experience of fat people of different genders, or are you more fatsexual in the sense of simply being attracted to a person's fatness?

See as a Cis white guy, it’s hard for me to speak on behalf of so many people that can talk about gender and gaining with much more personal experience, but I can certainly give my own perspective, and happy to be corrected.

Being aromantic and having certain romantic interactions just, really give me the ick, like kissing or going on super elaborate dates, I know kinda vague but I’m keeping that aspect brief, but feedism has always felt like the opposite to me, and it allows me to be more open that way for my affection and love.

When I’ve thought of gaining myself, I think of it to kind of find the body I really feel I need to be happier, though I can’t gain myself due to outstanding reasons, but in turn I feel if I gained, I could better understand my own identity. Be more, I guess gender neutral in that sense. Something about getting so fat you can’t tell gender has always been a love of mine, and I suppose that does make me fatsexual to an extent? Cause, I’m really not into guys,… but if that guy is so massive, he’s a borderline blob of fat, I’m gonna start drooling~

Which I guess is what I’d want personally myself at some point, but let’s say “never say never” on that :)

I know gaining can be a very reaffirming experience for so many people, for lots of reasons, and giving that love and kindness back into the world is important for such a tiny community like this, there’s no room for creeps and people looking for a quick fix for their fetish if they can’t own up to admitting their love of fat~ whether it’s one gender, everything, or just simply no real attraction just wanting an indulgent fetish, that’s all okay! All that matters is supporting each other into a more positive environment and plenty of snacks to help along the way~

Just my very tired brain rant on the whole concept of gaining and gender, but if anyone else has more specific examples of their own experiences please do let me know! I always like to learn more about that kind of thing

And thank you so so much for the ask 💞

🌀💿🌀💿🌀💿🌀💿🌀💿🌀

[outivv]

Okay, look. I found your post because it was in the ToT tag, and while I agree with the sentiment, it doesn't do the movement any favors to bomb all Hoyoverse Games overall. If lay people look at the movement and don't understand why it's being bombed, then all that's been done is drive people to their fandom corners.

This happened years ago. People who were with Genshin before over the anniversary debacle a couple of years ago did it too, but nothing changed except the large amounts of hate sent to people who were Themis players.

Change may happen, but only if there's a clear and concerted effort, and if it's clear to Hoyo why games are being bombed.

To that end, if you and other readers insist on bombing other Hoyoverse games like Themis, then I hope that the critiques made (and of the low rating itself), tie itself back to Themis, rather than Genshin or HSR to make a stronger argument to the devs of the game and lay people reading the reviews.

I don't know if the development team who work on Themis also work on ZZZ, HSR, or Genshin. Maybe these games share developers. Maybe they don't.

If the developers aren't shared among the different games, then a blanket bomb with no explanation or an explanation that only relates to a different game may not be taken seriously by the dev teams for the games.

In my opinion, I think it would be easier to drive people towards the movement against colorism in Hoyoverse games, by pointing out the colorism and tying it back to the game itself. (I.e. There's colorism in this certain part of the game, and it makes me feel uncomfortable, etc.)

With a nuanced review, people could read thoughtful reviews, understand what is being protested against, and then act as a warning for people who decide to download the game. In addition, I think it would be easier to make the game developers (for their respective games) take the issue more seriously. Not to mention, having a thoughtful comment also makes it harder to flag a comment for spam.

So in the case of Tears of Themis, for a good while, people have brought up the colorism that occurs in Themis when it comes to various past events. The biggest ones being Romantic Rail Getaway, and the Secrets of the Tomb - which are inspired by real life locations.

So for further reading and research, I would recommend checking out some of these posts so that any critiques of Themis stay grounded within the game itself and in service of the bigger picture of colorism in Hoyoverse games, rather than comments and critiques blanket bombing games.

[Regarding Romatic Rail Getaway in game event] https://www.tumblr.com/obei-me/668539823841263616/reading-mariuss-rrg-story-stuff-finally-catching?source=share

[ Regarding another in-game event, Themis put out called Electrifying Night] https://www.tumblr.com/sweetcinnamonlove/679939710597169152/sweetcinnamonlove-rant-and-me-just-rambling-it?source=share

[Regarding the Secrets of the Tomb in-game event] https://www.tumblr.com/joeyglowy/683004535124443136/the-problem-with-sott?source=share

No, no, I agree! That’s what I was trying to like kinda say, or if I thought it would be obvious that when reviewing a Hoyoverse game that you should focus on the individual game issues, because all of the games have their own issues, which I have talked about before multiple times so I’m not gonna do it again cause I am TIRED BAHAHAB.

Hoyoverse as a whole has been extremely racist and colorist, so it doesn’t matter if the independent dev team who works on ToT also work on zzz, hsr, and genshin- because it is a company issue overall, and like you said ToT has had issues with colorism and racism in the past with previous events. I stopped playing ToT a long time ago, but even I know vaguely about these things because it’s just a shared fandom space across all Hyv games.

The reason for the review bombing is to stick to Hyv games, target the individual game’s problems while bringing attention to the company that this is a company wide thing, and also to lower the rating of the games overall because that is what scares Hyv. They care when their rating goes down, and when they don’t make as much money- so that’s why boycotting and review bombing are such important things to get change from Hoyoverse.

I do overall agree, we should be organized in the movement, but I’m just a one man band- so it’s hard for me to organize people on tumblr, especially because a lot of the discussion on the boycott is on Twitter. I’m mainly focusing on just informing and educating, and discussing the issues with Hyv since most of my account is based around Hyv games. I recommend looking at #HYVboycott, and following @ HYVBoycott on Twitter, just for a lot of info and their petition!!

[deathbirby]

I think you should be cancelled and harassed for that bald rhea post period tbh.

Ok jokes aside- man these people really do suck, huh. I can’t tell you the number of times over the years I’ve made posts about not liking Edelgard/analyzing the text in ways her fans don’t like/etc and got swarmed by her stans arguing in bad faith at best and telling me to kms or threatening me at worst. Over video game discourse.

Meanwhile all I’ve seen you do is personally complain on your own blog about takes you see that you disagree with? And when you bring people up it’s always because they were doing some wack shit like sharing screenshots with uncensored usernames or block evading? Again I just don’t know what reality these people live in but it’s so fucking annoying and the reason why I stay on anon lol.

(Rant time) There’s just no winning with these folks seeing as they’re pretty much just bullies at this point deflecting their own (or at least people in their circle’s) behavior back on the people just trying to talk about the game and mind their own damn business. It’s really not that hard to see a take you disagree with and just block and move on, it’s so easy and I do it all the time. It’s hard to want to genuinely interact with ANYONE pro-cf/Edelgard/etc when I’ve been burned so many times by people jumping to call me vile things because I dared share a reading of the text different than the ones they personally project onto the game. Even just saying “I like Rhea and don’t think she’s nearly as bad as people make her out to be” is some sort of cause for freaking the fuck out and harassing people which just. *Head in hands* UGH. Anyway rant over. I know you just laugh at them at this point (and good on you for that) but I’m still so sorry you have to deal with these ppl, truly could not be me.

~⭐️

My notifications only showed the "I think you should be harassed for..." and I had my hazmat suit ready.

Bald Rhea is beautiful wdym?

Jesus christ. You were told to kill yourself?? And getting threats? Dude I am so sorry you had to go through that. I said it before but don't worry about sending asks if this is the only way you can get it out of your system.

At best I've clowned on people who reblogged my posts to start shit. Or someone who tried to start shit with a mutual and I was out of fucks to give at that point. But they don't specify who and what we're talking about, so I'm left guessing.

I believe a certain person had previously stated that tumblr is public and that they have the right to correct any misunderstanding and set things straight or whatever. Which is fucking pathetic. I have come across people who fucking gutted canon and I just blocked them. Like you said, it is not that hard.

Then again, they also said that any attack on Edelgard is a personal attack (unironically), so there really is no winning. Nothing you say will change anything because they will keep seeing it as an attack on their character.

Thanks anon. It's kinda tiring at this point. I want to have an honest discussion with people, but I was banned from the edelgard server, and now people are deleting their accounts (lol why) instead of talking to me directly.

Still funny tho when they get mad and call me toxic or sexist or whatever because I respond with shitposts to their serious "debates."

[jayy-beeee]

Bit of a vent/rant but tldr: I kinda need a break and might be offline for a little while. I’m not sure when I’ll be back. I’d like to be cause I usually like this app, I’ve just had a rough week. I’m not deleting so I’ll still try and respond to actual notifications, but I’m not really going to post and I’m gonna stay away from my dash.

I’ve been just feeling like lately Tumblr and maybe social media in general this past week has felt just extra draining rather than something I actually enjoy. I’m someone who doesn’t like to conflict with people especially mutuals/those I’d consider friends about stuff that technically doesn’t really matter at all. So I kind of tend to just block the source and move on.

Because I don’t like standing up for myself and my interests though, it’s kinda led to this feeling that like… if I stand up for myself at all that I’d be mean and unfair to do so. Even when it comes to stuff I know is blankly false, I feel like the only things that would come of it are either i generally offend someone, get told it’s not that serious, or I’d just end up in an argument over stuff that technically doesn’t really matter.

It’s led to this internal feeling that I’m sure people who know me could attest to that I feel like my interests are less worthy than others. I’ve wrapped my head into circles, convinced that every person I know around me is inherently more interesting and just better than I am. But were I to say that, I’d feel like all I’d get in return is told that I get to emotionally invested, and that it’s wrong for me to take everything I see that’s negative towards what I’m interested in personally.

I have wrapped myself into a belief that if I am not worthy of feeling passionately about things, including things that are typically a positive for me. Which is my own problem but seeing a lot of negativity towards my interests wrapped with feelings that I can’t stand up for them or I’ll just prove someone else’s point, it’s just been mentally really tiring.

As for well, what’s the point of even posting all this? I can’t say I have much of one aside from that I just have stuff I want to get off my chest. There’s little parts of me that really do want to just lash out. The issue there is I have a hard time even allowing myself to just feel my own feelings. Internet culture and mixes of just how I grew up have led me to this strange belief that if what I feel isn’t either agree to disagree feelings or something kind, then I’ve committed some kind of moral evil. I tend to give a significant amount more grace to others than I’m willing to give myself. And I know that all wraps back into that belief that others are inherently better than I am. But my self awareness of my feelings while believing that it is morally wrong for me to feel anything unkind and not completely compassionate are not a good or healthy mix. I have tried for some reason in my twenty years to build up this person who lets nothing get to them, and have had a hard time considering what an enormous ask that is.

So I need some time to try and actually connect with things I really enjoy that isn’t just scrolling endlessly on my social media, and not being able to mentally filter out what I do and don’t want to engage with. I should try and write more, draw, maybe write my own little analysis of all of the music that I like. I’ve had a hard time with deciding to not be on social media for the main reason of I’m just not sure what to fill my time with. For now, I’ll try and get on that. If I’ve got like, messages or interactions from other people I’ll try to respond. I just kinda need to stay of my tumblr dash for a bit.