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Text from Tom's music video:
TommyInnit just posted a song and a video, and in the video there's a bunch of quick, flashing screens with text. I screenshotted them all and transcribed them in this post (below the cut because it's kind of long).
If you find a corner of this world wide web that has any substance at all, then please stick to it. The hundreds of millions of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching soulless content designed to hold their attention is depressing. This all depressed me. There is so little substance in this mess of a world wide web. So little heart or soul or love. If you find any substance, stick to it.
A Tribute To Minecraft, The Great Potato War, TheOriginalAce's Q&A's, Ludwig's 2020 streams, SMPLive Talent Show. This was everything to me.
Status is irrational & nature is cyclical It's attention porn. Don't get addicted to it. It's nothing. It means nothing. They are more insecure than you. But what the fuck do I know?
When I was a boy, alone, this meant everything to me. I found my people. My place. Along the way I was a part of something that really meant something. That is the only good bit. Whatever I did that meant something, that is the only good bit.
I CAN'T WATCH BACK MY OLD VIDEOS BECAUSE EVERYONE IN THEM WASN'T WHO THEY SAID THEY WERE. DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD THIS MAKES ME FEEL. DO YOU KNOW HOW SAD I HAVE FELT ALL YEAR.
HOW COULD ANYONE POSSIBLY FIND OUT WHO THEY ARE WHEN YOU ARE ALL IMMERSED IN THIS NEEDLESS, SELF INDULGENT SPIRAL OF INSTANT GRATIFICATION AND DISTRACTION. THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR YOU.
[Text is upside down in the video] I don't think I trust anyone here. I don't think anyone trusts anyone here. the poor 12 year old watching this sad ass video when he subscribed for funny minecraft videos. poor guy lmao.
yeah i know it's too much like bo burnham. It won't be in a year though. IN a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, OK?
I used to feel like I was just doing everything wrong. That I just wasn't smart or good like any of my friends. I realise now I was the only one doing the right thing. I just wanted to have fun. What I'd do to get that back, my god. What I'd do. To have things be simple again.
I just don't want to slip back into who I was. A year ago I needed you. A year ago most of my self esteem and worth and love came from you. A year ago I wasn't happy unless you were. I don't think I can ever do that again. That really was wrong. How did I possibly end up there?
#jesus christ tom#put on the video. thought 'haha he really is bo burnhaming it up' and very quickly sobered up#i have so much love for this kid#[tommy]#tommyinnit
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the fast clips in tommy’s new video :)
i can’t watch back my old videos because everyone in them wasn’t who they said they were. do you know how sad this makes me feel. do you know how sad i have been all year.
When I was a boy, alone, this means everything to me. I found my people. My place. And along the way I was part of something that really meant something. This is the only good bit of this. Whatever I did that meant something, that’s the good bit.
Status is irrational and nature is cyclical. it’s attention porn. Don’t get addicted to it. It’s nothing. It means nothing. They are more insecure than you. But what the fuck [can’t read the last bit]
How could anyone possibly find out who they are when you are all immersed in the needless, self indulgent spiral of instant gratification. This is not good for you.
I don’t think I trust anyone here. I don’t think anyone trusts anyone here. the poor 12 year old watching this sad ass video when he subscribes for funny minecraft video. poor guy lmao
yeah i know it’s too much like bo burnham. It won’t be in a year though. In a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, OK?
I used to feel like I was doin everything wrong. That i just wasn’t as smart or good like any of my friends. I realized I was the only one doing the right thing. I just would to have fun. What i’d do to get that back, my god. What id do to for things to be simple again.
I just don’t want to slip back into who I was. A year ago, I needed you. A year ago, all my self-esteem and worth and love came from you. A year ago i wasn’t happy unless you were. I don’t think I can ever do that again. That was really wrong. How did I possibly end up there.
If you find a corner of this world wide web with any substance at all, please stick to it. The hundreds of millions of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching soulless content designed to hold their attention is depressing. This all depressed me. There is so little substance in this mess of a world wide web, so little art or soul or love. If you find any substance, stick to it.
A tribute to Minecraft. The Great Potato War. TheOriginalAce’s Q&A’s. Ludwig’s 2020 Streams. SMPLive Talent Show. This was everything to me.
oh my god please help him
The fast clips in Tommy's new music video
#cc!tommy#mcyt#the internet’s getting worse#tom simons#tommyinnit’s new song#bawling my eyes out don’t mind me
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all hidden messages in Tommy's new music video "The Internet's Getting Worse"
"If you find a corner of this world wide web that has any substance at all, then please stick to it. The hundreds of millions of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching souless content designed to hold their attention is depressing. This all depressed me. There is so little substance in this mess of a world wide web, so little heart or soul or love. If you find any substance, stick to it."
"They want you to be angry-
Stop being angry."
"When I was a boy, alone, this meant everything to me. I found my people. My place. All along the way I was a part of something that really meant something. That is the only good bit of this. Whatever I did that meant something, that is the only good bit."
"A Tribute To Minecraft.
The Great Potato War.
The Original Ace's Q&A's.
Ludwig's 2020 streams.
SMPLive Talent Show.
This was everything to me."
"Status is irrational & nature is cynical"
"It's attention porn.
Don't get addicted to it.
It's nothing.
It means nothing."
"They are more insecure than you. But what the fuck do I know?"
"I can't watch back my old videos because everyone in them wasn't who they said they were. Do you know how sad this makes me feel. Do you know how sad I have felt all year."
"How could anyone possibly find out who they are when you are all immersed in this needless, self indulgent spiral of instant gratification and distraction. This is not good for you."
"the poor 12 year old watching this sad ass video when he subscribed for funny minecraft videos. poor guy lmao."
"I don't think I trust anyone here. I don't think anyone trusts anyone here."
"Yeah, I know it's too much like bo burnham. it won't be in a year though. In a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, OK?"
"I used to feel like I was doing everything wrong. That I just wasn't smart or good like any of my friends. I realise now I was the only one doing the right thing. I just wanted to have fun. What I'd do to get that back, my god. What I'd do. To have things be simple again."
"I just don't want to slip back to who I was. A year ago I needed you. A year ago most of my self esteem and worth came from you. A year ago I wasn't happy unless you were. I don't think I can ever do that again. That was really wrong. How did I possibly end up there?"
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a lot of this was supposed to be posted for redacted kinktober but. college got in the way. i’m ovulating let me have this. it’s very long OOPS WHO LET ME OUT OF MY CAGE.
NSFW LMAO
lasko has a puppy kink. he likes being told he’s a good boy and craves to be of service to dear. would do anything to please them and do it well; it’s what turns him on the most. leash and collar. god, he’d lick the fucking dirt from their shoes if it made them smile down at him. yeah perhaps him and ash could bond over this. the difference between them though is that during those moments, lasko will never goof off or make jokes meanwhile ash is a bit of a brat. lasko would never disobey dear, but ash likes to push baabe’s buttons so that they “force” him into submission.
milo uses “good girl/good boy/good pet” hnnnngghh. as well as “pretty girl/pretty boy/pretty thing” oh my god. he’s so good at praise.
milo is usually pretty physically rough with it, going fast and deep, but you wouldn’t know that if you were just listening to his voice. sometimes while he’s absolutely fucking sweetheart’s brains out, he’s right in their ear speaking so softly and encouragingly with soooo much praise. “that’s right baby, ‘m i doin’ it right?” when he KNOWS he’s doing it right, he just wants to hear their confirmation. “yeah, lemme touch you, you like that? tell me you like that.” he looooves making sweetheart tell him how they’re feeling, and when they inevitably confirm that it feels good, he nods and doubles down. he craves good feedback, it’s his praise kink. “awwww i know it feels good baby, ‘m gonna make it feel even better.” it’s not condescending, it’s confidence. he knows what he’s good at, and he wants to get better. he’s a huge pleaser.
this is self indulgent if you aren’t into daddy kinks don’t read this one lmao. but daddy milo is soooo real to me. “was that too much? aw ‘m sorry baby, daddy’ll make it feel better. shh shh it’s okay, daddy’s sorry…” OUUUGGHHHH. “daddy wants what you want baby, tell‘im what you want. c’mon, be good and use your words, daddy wants to hear you,” i can’t do this anymore RELEASEEE MEEEEEEE. milo does it tastefully okay he’s not one of the weird ones TRUST ME.
milo who subs occasionally. to put a number on it, about 10% of the time. it may not be his natural default, but when the time is right, it’s so right. it happens one of two ways: either milo had a really rough, tiring day and needs to be coaxed into being cared for, or his sweetheart had been relentlessly teasing him. he’s such a brat at first, rejecting every dominant advance from sweetheart with a performative cocky demeanor, but it breaks down quickly enough when they touch him in the right places.
porter is such a masochist, but not in a traditionally submissive way. god, he loves when treasure slaps his face, yanks his hair, and scratches his back deeply on purpose. he likes being choked a little sometimes as well. but when all of these things are enacted on him, he smiles. he’s got a cocky grin and he’s nodding emphatically, his hips pistoning, almost twitching, even if he’s not inside of treasure. he’s groaning and his eyes are rolling back, but he’s not submitting. he’s daring them to do more, knowing that the only one whose limits being tested are theirs: how much are they able to take of porter when he’s losing himself to the pain? the more intense the pain, the harder he fucks treasure. basically porter is saying without saying, “the more you hurt me, the more i’ll pleasure you.” treasure essentially controls their own pleasure through him; if they want him to go faster, they dig their nails into his back or his scalp or his hips. and as soon as they let go, he lets out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding and eases back down to a slower pace. and porter knows what they’re doing. he likes it. he likes that they have that level of control over him, but he’s absolutely not a whimpering mess like lasko.
david does not like using toys or bondage material. that’s his job. he’s very animalistic in the sense that he does not want anything, even objects, interfering with his time with his mate. he’s the type to get jealous of a vibrator or any sex toy. not because he’s worried about it doing a better job than him, but because it was the thing pleasuring his mate and not him. if his angel is in the mood, he wants to know so he can take care of it. an unspoken rule in the shaw house is that neither of them are allowed to touch themselves. david sticks to this rule through and through, but if angel is caught in the action, the punishment is pretty intense, meaning overstimulation. david is usually quite rough and is already a lot to take even when he’s going slow, so him when he’s angry can be… a lot. he’s got angel on their tummy in the prone bone position and is absolutely laying into them, growling in their ear with genuine irritation. “you should’ve told me… why didn’t you tell me? is this not cutting it for you? you had enough of this cock? i thought you liked it. thought you liked being full of me, not a piece of fucking plastic.” yeah he’s angy. and he’s not being mean to them, he just wants to prove to them and remind them how good he makes them feel. they shouldn’t want anything else. and when angel does it because they think david is too busy for them? yeah he would stay up during all hours of the night to prove them wrong. “how do you think like that, hm? you think i’d put work above this? god angel, i do everything to come home to you, give my time to you. you don’t get that? let me keep showin’ you….”
azmidi who literally nuts on a lot of phone call role plays with sweetie (it’s canon yall hear the way his breath shakes all the time). just hearing their pretty voice, god he feels his pants getting tighter (if he wears those lol). he demands they tell him about their day even though they know he knows exactly how their day went. it feeds into that delicious fear of stalking, the idea that their every movement is being tracked and scrutinized and constantly mulled over. he wants to listen to them talk while he palms himself, nodding along with their version of events, happy that they’re being obedient and not lying to him. he doesn’t have to take himself out of his pants, though he likes to most times. he can come without that, just dry humping into his hand and pressing the phone to his ear, letting out the occasional moan. he knows sweetie can hear him, and if they show signs of getting flustered, it only makes him harder. “you know what you’re doing to me, right? you—you know… oh god…. hey, don’t stop. don’t stop talking. you’ve been doing such a good job, sweetie. let me hear you.”
william “eye contact” solaire. hngggnhnnhg. let’s imagine he’s got a long term partner, right? he is suuuuuuch a gentle lover. he’s not about rough sex very much, he’s too sophisticated lol. no, the actual reason he isn’t too keen on rough sex is because to him, his lover is a deity; an angel that walks the earth, the image of divine perfection. he isn’t going to treat them like a ragdoll, he worships the air they breathe for gods sake. he doesn’t see himself nearly worthy enough to be their companion, their equal. he gives them everything and then apologizes because it just isn’t enough. when he gave them their crown? “i hope you like it. the jewels are the finest i could find of course, for you. i—i perhaps could have gotten larger ones… i apologize. oh, but the weight may be a bit much for your neck… oh dear.” yeah this man is rich but he fucking won’t be if his partner doesn’t stop him from spoiling them. but i’m ranting, this is supposed to be about sex lmfao please ask me to make a post ab william i will do it so fast. this aspect of himself shows especially when he and his partner are intimate. he’s on his knees a lot of the time, staring up at his lover with worshipful reverence. he pleads in his soft spoken voice, his eyes fluttering shut as they put their hand on his cheek. “my love, what would you have me do for you? ask me anything.” and he means anything.
#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted headcanons#redacted lasko#redacted asher#redacted milo#redacted porter#redacted david#redacted azmidi#redacted william
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today is my birthday and tommyinnit has dropped a depressing banger
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and i decided to transcribe the very quick, hard to read text boxes that occur between 2:50 - 3:13
#1: If you find a corner of this world wide web that has any substance at all, then please stick to it. The hundreds of millions of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching soulless content designed to hold their attention is depressing. This all depressed me. There is so little substance in this mess of a world wide web. So little heart or soul or love. If you find any substance, stick to it.
#2: [something about being angry -- the text is too hard to make out]
#3: A Tribute To Minecraft, The Great Potato War, TheOriginalAce's Q&A's, Ludwig's 2020 streams, SMPLive Talent Show. This was everything to me.
#4: Status is irrational and nature is cyclical. It's attention porn. Don't get addicted to it. It's nothing. It means nothing. They are more insecure than you. But what the fuck do I know.
#5: When I was a boy, alone, this meant everything to me. I found my people. My place. All along the way I was a part of something that really meant something. This is the only good bit of this. Whatever I did that meant something, that is the only good bit.
#6: I can't watch back my old videos because everyone in them wasn't who they said they were. Do you know how bad this makes me feel. Do you know how sad I have felt all year.
#7: How could anyone possibly find out who they are when you are all immersed in this needless, self-indulgent spiral of instant gratification and distraction. This is not good for you.
#8: [upside down text] the poor 12 year old watching this sad ass video when he subscribed for funny minecraft videos. poor guy lmao I don't think I trust anyone here I don't think anyone trusts anyone here.
#9: yeah i know it's too much like bo burnham. It won't be in a year though. In a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, ok?
#10: I used to feel like I was just doing everything wrong. That I just wasn't smart or good like any of my friends. I realise now I was the only one doing the right thing. I just wanted to have fun. What I'd do to get that back, my god. What I'd do. To have things be simple again.
#11: I just don't want to slip back into who I was. A year ago I needed you. A year ago most of my self esteem and worth and love came from you. A year ago I wasn't happy unless you were. I don't think I can ever do that again. That really was wrong. How did I possibly end up there?
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All text i found hidden in the new tommyinnit video (warning! Long post)
Reads: If you find a corner of this world wide web that has any substance at all, then please stick to it. The hundreds of millions of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching soulless content assigned to hold their attention is depressing.
This all depressed me.
There is so little substance in this mess of a world wide web so little heart or soul or love.
If you find any substance, stick to it.
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(Can’t quite make this one out. Sorry)
Reads: They want you to be angry
so please stop being angry
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Reads: A tribute to Minecraft. The Great Potato War. TheOriginalAce’s Q&A’s. Ludwig’s 2020 streams. SMPLive Talent Show.
This was everything to me
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Reads: Status is irrational & nature is cynical. It’s attention porn. Don’t get addicted to it. It’s nothing. It means nothing. They are more insecure than you. But what the fuck do i know?
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(this one's seems to be retracted a bit so i apologize for whatever mistakes i make)
Reads: When i was a boy, alone, this meant everything to me.
I found my people.
my place.
All along the way i was a part of something that really meant so (redacted)
that is the only good bit of this, whatever i did meant something.
That is the only good bit.
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(This one's fucked up)
Reads: I can’t watch back my old videos. because everyone in them wasn’t who they said they were.
Do you know how this makes me feel. Do you know how sad i have felt all year.
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(Edited this one to hopefully be easier to read)
Reads: How could anyone possibly find out who they are. All immersed in this needless, self indulgent spiral of instant gratification and distraction.
This is not good for you.
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Reads: the poor 12 year old watching this sad ass when he subscribed for funny Minecraft videos. Poor guy lmao.
I don’t think i trust anyone here. I don’t think anyone trusts anyone here.
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Reads: Yeah i know it’s too much like Bo Burnham. It won’t be in a year though. In a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, ok?
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Reads: I used to feel like i was just doing everything wrong.
That i just wasn’t smart or good like any of my friends. I realize now i was the only one doing the right thing.
I just wanted to have fun.
What I’d do to get that back, my god.
What I’d do to have things be simple again.
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(This one makes me wonder)
Reads: I just don’t want to slip back into who i was. A year ago i needed you. A year ago most of my self esteem and worth and love came from you. A year ago i wasn’t happy unless you were. I don’t think i can ever do that again. That was really wrong.
How did i possibly end up there?
#Rambly rambly ramblie loo#This one took me some time#tommyinnit#tommyinnit mcyt#tom simons#music video#long post#and i mean that#This is very long#youtube#mcyt#mcytblr
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It sure takes effort to participate in the defense of a YouTuber who’s entire brand is fostering an echo chamber of ignorance about her very well documented history of harm, all while she scapegoats her gender and professed race to dismiss logical conversation about who she is and what she is actively continuing to do. I grew out of her content when I stopped indulging her thought terminating nonsense. My radicalizing moment was specifically hearing her lie about petty shit, that I heard her say, in her own videos, that I watched. That ounce of awareness and self respect lead me to pay proper attention to the very consistent history multiple people archived about her many transgressions. (Pun not intended but actually pretty good)
I totally don’t blame them for staying on anon to voice this kind of thought slop. I can see the sparks of critical thought at the beginning of this ask, but it really doubles down hard into just taking Lily at her word. This post probably won’t reach this asker, but I encourage them, and any other self-professed fan to pay some more critical attention to Lily. When it comes to Lorch, being an active audience member is a radicalizing force on its own. I think her model of audience control relies on fostering an audience that has already bought into the idea of her as an authority on everything she talks about, and that don’t want to be accused of being labeled a bigot by a trans woman in digital brown face.
Anybody who still watches her, and sees a new video of hers on a franchise you have little to no reference for yet, I encourage to do this reality test. Save her video for your watch later, and watch 2 or 3 videos on the franchise from a different essayist. Then come back and watch her video and how she talks about things. It’s a weird time.
Lily fan here. Ok, I agree that it's most likely that some of the accusations of her being profic are true. I mean, she doesn't even deny writing Stockholm anymore. However, I still don't see how that justifies your and other haters' attitudes towards Lily. She isn't allowed to go on with her life? Why should she be stained forever for things she did ten years ago? It isn't like she raped or sexually harassed any of you, she wrote and liked disgusting shit and that's it. And even implying that she actually still likes idk, shotacon/lolicon (based on the Alchorative esix account) isn't it better that she keeps it to herself instead of trying to justify it? Is not like she's some kind of threat to anyone for liking that shit, even though it's disgusting, and bad, it isn't the type of shit that gets you the kind of harassment she's getting. She clearly just wants to make content and be left alone, so why are you doing this, do you enjoy torturing a trans woman because she's loudmouthed and doesn't take anyone's shit?
Hi! Weird you’re here about Stockholm when my recent stuff is about Tara Callie and how we’ve proven she never went to jail and that Lily’s made multiple contradictory stories about her — leading more credence to the idea that Tara was never real and Lily just catfished multiple people and sexually harassed and manipulated them.
But okay, let’s talk about Stockholm instead!
I don’t care that Lily wrote Stockholm. You’re right. It was a cringe fic she wrote years ago, she’s allowed to move on and change her opinion on it.
That isn’t what happened though, is it? Lily lied about it. First she said she didn’t write it. Then she said people edited it to make it porn. Then she purposely wrote it that way to piss off bronies. Then people were getting it confused with her other fic Scars. Then people were editing her voice to forge a false confession.
She deliberately lied to her audience, misrepresented the facts, and painted her detractors as unhinged liars — all to keep from holding accountability long enough to say “yeah I regret writing that.”
That’s not something a good person does, so yeah, I think my attitude is pretty much justified?
And again, clearly she never kept this shit to herself, because she literally catfished folks and engaged with them sexually (or attempted to) under false pretenses. Maybe when she owns up to that I’ll shut up. ✌️
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Fiddle Me This
Ao3 | FF.net
Hamish, former chief of the Shivering Shores, is coming to Berk and has requested Hiccup play some songs he's written over the years. The problem? No one else knew Hiccup could fiddle, and he's never performed for anyone.
The idea for this is completely self-indulgent and comes from the fact that Alexander Rybak does the Norwegian voice for Hiccup. He wrote two songs for the series, including one specifically for Toothless. I can’t just sit here knowing that and NOT write a fic, I mean COME ON. Also, in the Episode with Garf, Hiccup’s song was about Toothless, and he was really enthusiastic about it, making me think he wrote it himself.
This is not historically accurate, but neither is the source material.
Set somewhere during RTTE, before Blindsided.
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Things had thankfully been slow at the Edge. The Hunters hadn’t been seen in a while, probably regrouping or strategizing. But the anxiety of that unknown was quickly pushed aside with a Terror Mail from Berk.
“Alright gang,” Hiccup stated that morning. “Who’s feeling homesick?”
Fishlegs sheepishly raised his hand, but the rest just kind of looked at each other.
“Well, you’re in luck. We’re heading back to Berk for a little vacation! The Shiver Shores are coming in a week, and they’ll be in Berk for three days. Hamish’s oldest son Hagar has taken over as chief.”
“Is Hamish okay?” Fishlegs asked, as that was the usual reason a tribe had a new chief.
“As far as I know, he’s still alive. Sounds like his health is declining and it was getting hard to keep up with all the duties. Hel, it’s hard when you’re not sick,” Hiccup muttered that last bit to himself.
“When do we leave?” Asked Astrid.
“I’m leaving today,” Hiccup rested his hands on his waist. “Dad specifically asked me to come early to help with some preparations. You guys are welcome to head back on Frigg’s day. Or earlier, if you want. But I’d like someone to stay on the Edge as long as possible.”
“Sweet! Unsupervised vacation!” Tuffnut high fived his sister.
“Uh, no. If you’re staying, you’re doing your jobs. That means patrolling!”
“Boo!”
“Killjoy!”
“What could your dad possibly need you so early for?” Snotlout asked, insult implied.
Hiccup’s face went red, satisfying Snotlout, but the blush was for a totally different reason. “Hamish…specifically requested…I play the fiddle.”
There was a pause. “You have a week to learn the fiddle?” Asked Tuff.
Hiccup sighed. “No, I have a week to brush up on the fiddle.”
Then everyone yelled in unison, “You can fiddle!?”
He chuckled awkwardly. “Yeeeeep.”
“Since when?!” Snotlout demanded. “I’ve known you since we were in diapers, and I’ve never heard you play a single note.”
“Yeah, but how well did you know me before the Red Death?”
“People talk, Hiccup. You’re not that good at keeping secrets.”
“And the Nightfury that spent three months in the woods?”
“A notable exception.”
Hiccup awkwardly played with his hands, avoiding eye contact. “I’ve been playing since … well, since I was able to. My mother played. We had her fiddle at the house, and when I was little, my dad asked if I wanted to learn how to play, explaining that mom had. I was really enthusiastic back then, and so when we went to visit the Shivering Shores a few times a year, he had me take lessons with Hamish.”
“Which is why he requested you play now,” Astrid gathered.
“Yeeeep.”
“So, are you good?” Asked Tuff.
“Oh no, I’m terrible. I’m thinking that I’ll just play with the band. Maybe quietly so they drown me out.”
“I’m sure you’ll be great, Hiccup,” Astrid said fondly. “When was the last time you played?”
He scrunched up his lips in thought. “For anyone? Never. Unless you count Hamish. Or Toothless.” He smiled over at his dragon. “But I sometimes play in my room or at the forge if I need to think something through and need to do something with my hands. I didn’t take it with me when we came out here.”
“So a few months.”
“Give or take.”
Tuffnut snapped his fingers. “The Fiddler on the Roof!”
“Excuse me?”
“What? You never heard the rumor of the Fiddler on the Roof? Ugh! It makes so much sense now!”
“What are you talking about?” Hiccup pressed.
“Okay okay, for years people have been talking about a mysterious fiddler in the village. His music carries over the rooftops, so people assumed he was up high…kinda like the chief’s house on the hill?!” Tuffnut nudged him.
“Th-that can’t be right. It must be someone else.”
Fishlegs pointed out, “no one else on the island plays a fiddle though. You said it yourself that you had to take lessons from Hamish.”
“Yeah, but Silent Sven plays the nyckelharpa and Sigurd plays the Hurdy-Gurdy. What if it was one of them?”
“Nope, not a nyckelharpa,” said Tuff.
“And definitely not a hurdy-gurdy!” Said Ruff.
“Besides, they play in the Great Hall all the time, we know what they sound like,” said Fishlegs.
“And it’s definitely a Fiddler on that Roof.”
Hiccup’s face went even more red, and he covered it with his hands. “Oh gods…people have been hearing me for years!”
“That’s the cool part, H,” said Tuff. “The Fiddler is said to be otherworldly in nature, and some even thought he might be a spirit of music himself.”
“Okay, now you’re just messing with me.”
“Am I?” Tuff wiggled his fingers.
“Look, don’t get too excited, okay? I’ll show my dad where I’m at and he might agree to have a private performance with Hamish. I would never want to subject the village to hear my…” he rolled his hand, looking for the word.
“Screeching?”
“‘Fork-on-dinnerplate’?”
“Dying cat?”
“Yeah,” Hiccup said flatly, “One of those.”
“You know, Hiccup,” said Snotlout. “I never saw you as the type to be musically inclined. But it suits you, I must say. Someone’s gotta play the tales of my awesome battles.”
“And the fact that you sing a solo every Snoggletog doesn’t count because…?”
“Duh, because it’s Snoggletog, a season of giving. And I give the gift of my beautiful tenor.” He gestured to his throat.
“Right,” He sighed. “Anyway, I’m going to get packed. Anyone else coming now?”
“I will,” said Astrid.
“Me too!” Said Fishlegs.
Hiccup looked meaningfully at the Twins and Snotlout.
“What?” Asked Snot. “Yeah, we’ll behave! We’ll even patrol! We’re mature adults that don’t need a babysitter.”
“There was only one word in that sentence that was true,” Hiccup said, rolling his eyes and heading out.
Tuff yelled back, “Which one was it? Was it ‘that’?”
An hour later, Astrid, Fishlegs, and Hiccup were packed and ready to head back to Berk. One last chastising for the stragglers, and they were off.
“So…” Fishlegs began, as their trip was underway. “Can I ask more questions about the fiddle?” He squeaked.
Hiccup sighed. “Yeah, I guess. At least I know you two won’t make fun of me for it.”
“Never, Hiccup,” Astrid assured. “I can’t even sing, let alone play an instrument. I bet the muttonheads back at the Edge certainly can’t.”
“Not that I’ve ever heard,” he shrugged.
“What songs can you play?”
Hiccup winced. “Not many. I learned how to play some traditional stuff when I was younger, and when I nailed those down and got tired of them, I started doing my own thing.”
“…what’s your own thing?” Astrid asked.
“Well, I uh…I made up my own songs. Not really writing anything down, but developing a melody I liked…putting some words to it. That kind of thing.”
“You should perform those!” Said Fishlegs, enthusiastically. “I bet people would want to hear a Hiccup original over the same thing we hear all the time!”
He scoffed. “No, you got it all wrong. They aren’t good, Fishlegs! Like…I know you come up with little songs about Meatlug, right?”
“Yeah?”
“Would you perform those in front of the tribe?”
“Ha! No way! Not unless Meatlug was having a panic attack and I needed to calm her down.” He laid on his dragon, giving her a hug. “Then in that case, no crowd could stop me.”
“So did you play a lot?” Asked Astrid. “You said you would play to keep your hands busy.”
“Quite a bit,” he admitted. “It’s kind of fun to play, and the music kinda helps me think. But I’m usually not thinking about the fiddle when I’m playing, so I’m sure it sounds like a bunch of random notes just sliding around.”
“But if you practice a lot, it shouldn’t sound that bad,” she reasoned.
“Oh, you’d be surprised…”
The conversation changed then, and they talked about other things for the rest of the flight. Dragon training, the Hunters, there was even an hour long argument about who would win in a fight between three Flightmares and ten Speed Stingers.
Eventually, they reached Berk right before dinner. Gobber and Stoick were waiting for them and greeted them warmly.
“Evening son! Have a good flight?”
Hiccup slid off Toothless, stretching his back. “Good weather, fun company, no complaints.”
“You know…I got your fiddle out for you. It’s on your desk.”
Hiccup barked a laugh. “That didn’t take long. I thought for sure you’d wait to bring it up until after dinner.”
“Well, the others want to start practice after dinner,” Stoick argued. “Thought you might want a little time to make sure she’s all ready to play.”
“Others?”
“Oh you know, Sven, Sigurd, Hackjaw, Frida, Hilda…and Gobber wants to play the pan flute.”
“I love playing the pan flute!” The man cheered.
“Well, I’ll need all the practice I can get. I’m really hoping to just pretend to play, and let the others kind of drown me out.”
Stoick gave him an incredulous look. “What are you talking about son? Why would they need to drown you out?”
“Dad, I’m not good,” he chuckled humorlessly.
“Aw this hogwash again? You’re a fine fiddler!”
“A damn fine fiddler!” Gobber added.
“Thanks but—“
“No buts!” Stoick interrupted. “It’s been decided. Through our letters, Hamish and I have been talking. I told him about the songs you wrote.”
“You didn’t.”
“I did! And he’s so excited! He wants to hear all four!”
“DAD!”
“I want to hear ‘em properly too! I like that one about the fairytale, that love song? Oh it gets me in the heart. Makes me think of your mother…” he said wistfully.
“Dad!” Hiccup grabbed his face in horror. Feeling more and more sick as the story went on.
Gobber said, “I asked if the one that’s like, ‘come fly with me! Oh whoa, oh whoa’ was in the line up, because that’s the one I like.”
“You too?” He gaped at Gobber. “You’ve been listening?”
“The backroom to the forge is only separated by a cloth lad, not exactly soundproof.”
“And then the one you wrote for Toothless,” Stoick suggested.
Hiccup furrowed his brow, he’d actually come up with a dozen little songs about Toothless. “Which one?”
“Oh you played it for a week straight during our first Snoggletog with the dragons! You built that tail for Toothless, and you were so heartbroken that he was gone…”
“Oh Thor, that one?”
“It was so sweet, lad! No need to be embarrassed.”
“Ugh! And dare I ask about the last one?”
Stoick gave him this weirdly proud smile, “Oh you know which one I’m talkin’ about.”
“If I did, I wouldn’t be asking,” Hiccup droned.
Stoick glanced at Astrid, before leaning in to speak into Hiccup’s ear.
Fishlegs and Astrid had to assume it was beyond embarrassing as Hiccup’s face flushed a vibrant red and his eyes went wide. “You heard that?”
Stoick giggled, “how could I not? You sang with so much passion!”
“I think I’m going to be sick.”
Stoick patted his shoulder. “Everyone gets a little stage fright, son.”
“What about stage paralysis?” He asked.
“We’ll have an hour of music during dinner on the first night. The rest of the band has already figured out all the other music to play. Now, all they need is to hear your songs so they best know how to accompany you.”
“And the songs that they’re playing?”
“You know them. And you know how to make it up if you don’t.”
“You, sir, are putting way too much faith in me.”
“No. You,” he poked Hiccup’s chest, “aren’t putting enough faith in yourself.”
Hiccup rolled his eyes. “Fine, I’m the best fiddler on Berk.”
Fishlegs squeaked, “Aren’t you the only—”
“That’s my point, Fish!” He scratched his head. “Look, I’ll see you guys around. I’m gonna go…fiddle with the fiddle.”
Gobber chuckled, “an oldie, but a goodie.”
As Astrid watched Hiccup and Toothless depart up to the chief’s house, “He’s really good then, chief?”
“Aye! As he is with all his artistic endeavors.”
“The Halls of Valhalla are filled with bards that wished they played as well as him!” Gobber declared.
“So why does he think he’s bad?” Asked Fishlegs. “How can he not notice?”
“Well, you’ve got to look at it from his perspective. Hiccup has always compared himself to others. I’m at fault for that, as well as most in the village. We always told him he wasn’t as good as others at fighting. But he’s taken it to the level of all his skills. You think he’s talented at drawing and smithing, right?”
“Absolutely.”
“But to him, he’s ‘just good enough’ because he’s compared himself to others and decided he’s not as good. I think that’s why he’s so gung-ho about Dragon Training. No one else has ever befriended a Nightfury, therefore, no one to compare to.”
“Wow,” Astrid said sadly. “I never thought of it that way before.”
“With his fiddle, he learned from Hamish, who’s a fantastic fiddler. Hiccup could never quite get the technique the man had. The only other comparisons are Sven and Sigurd, and they’re quite good too. But their instruments sound different from Hiccup’s. He can’t do what they do, therefore, he’s bad.”
“Now I’m depressed,” said Fishlegs. “I never knew this about Hiccup.”
“Oh don’t let it get your skivvies in a twist. Hiccup’s drive to find his place in the village is what drove him to Toothless afterall, right? And look at how he’s doing now!”
Distantly, Astrid could hear it. Someone playing the scales on the fiddle, the notes sliding into place. A note played alone, over and over, and then the next.
“Ah, sounds like it needs some tuning,” Stoick observed. “That’ll bother him all night.”
She wanted to listen. She wanted to sneak over and just watch and listen. But that wouldn’t be fair to him if he was so self-conscious. Maybe this will get him out of his shell, and he’ll be more willing to share his music with her.
Astrid’s parents were having dinner up at the Great Hall, and she happily joined them, catching up with them about all the things that had been happening at the Edge.
As she ate, she watched as Stoick and Hiccup arrived, bowls in hand. Hiccup wore a wooden case on his back, attached with a leather strap.
His fiddle.
It was one thing to have him tell them about it, but to see it…
Then again, this was still just the case. It would be completely different once he was actually holding it and playing it.
He set the case down on a table over by the wall, where she could see other instrument cases sitting and waiting for practice. Then he went and sat with his father at the head table.
“You’ve been away from the boy for an hour and you can’t take your eyes off of him,” Phlegma Hofferson teased.
Astrid whirled around, red faced, and hushed her mother. “Don’t say stuff like that!”
Her father laughed. “Oh, like everyone doesn’t remember you planting a big ol’ wet kiss on him after the dragon war.”
“That was years ago!” She hissed.
“And you’ve only grown fonder of him, no?”
“Ugh.” Astrid’s head smacked lightly on the table. “You two are impossible.”
“We are? Sure dear. But when are you two just going to make it official? You know we’re ready to pay your dowry whenever Stoick’s got the bride price.”
Astrid rubbed her temples. “Look—you’re not…totally wrong about how I feel…but I haven’t said anything, and I’m waiting on Hiccup to make the move.”
“Dear, you’ll be old by then.”
“Give him some credit! He’s got a lot on his mind.”
“I hope he’s got you on his mind too,” Phlegma smirked. “Have you tried seducing him?”
“Mother!” Astrid damn near screamed.
“Sorry dear, sorry. We’ll drop it for now.” Phlegma and Axel shared a smug look.
Astrid doubted they were done with the topic for this trip. If Hiccup was going to be busy in rehearsals most days, then she’d have to find a way to avoid her parents.
Maybe Fishlegs would be up for some fun instead of spending it in the library?
After dinner, Astrid hung around the Hall, even as her parents left.
The rest of the band was setting up. Sigurd and Sven had their strings, Hackjaw had his drums, Frida had the lute, Hilda on the horn, Bard on the mandolin, Bucket had a shaker, and Gobber had his pan flute.
And Hiccup was just sitting by them, not making any move to his case. In fact, he kept glancing around to the other non-band folks in the Hall, waiting for them to leave.
Then his eyes met hers.
She waved and smiled.
He ducked his head sheepishly.
Astrid felt a pang in her chest. It was so heartbreaking to see Hiccup this embarrassed. It was almost like the old days, before Toothless.
Toothless.
The dragon wasn’t in the Great Hall. He was probably frolicking with the other dragons, or just with Stormfly and Meatlug. But if anyone was going to give him the courage to do this, it was Toothless!
Astrid got up and went to find him. Though, it didn’t take long at all. He was sprawled out on the grass on the hill.
“Pst! Toothless!”
He perked up, looking at her, ears up at attention.
“Hiccup’s inside!” She pointed.
He leapt to his feet and trotted over.
“Now,” she told him, “he’s going to be working hard and practicing music with the others inside, but he’s nervous about it, so you’re going to support him, okay?”
Toothless was the smartest dragon she knew. Sometimes with the looks he gave, she swore he was going to open his mouth and speak perfect Norse. Right now was one of those times. He gave her this look, like he knew exactly what she was saying and what needed to happen. He nudged her arm with his nose and then plodded into the Great Hall and over to Hiccup.
Hiccup lit up when he saw his friend, and greeted him with a chin scratch.
Toothless laid at his feet, paws crossed elegantly.
Hiccup chuckled, and then looked over to her, still standing in the doorway.
Astrid gave him the thumbs up and a wide reassuring smile.
Hiccup returned it, though not as confident. But he did get up and go to the fiddle case.
Astrid decided to leave and give him his privacy. Toothless was all the support he needed right now, and anymore attention would just make him crumble.
A few minutes later, Hilda put a sign on the door. ‘Practice in session, do not disturb.’
So now it was a waiting game. Hiccup obviously wasn’t going to give out any sneak previews. Though she did try to keep an eye on him.
—
As the week went on, she noticed happily that his demeanor had changed quite a bit. He stood up straighter when he went into practice, and he talked freely with the band, like he was one of them instead of an intruder.
Astrid wondered if someone had said something to him, or if just having Toothless around was making a difference.
The band practiced for a few hours after dinner every night. Even with the doors closed, the faintest music could be heard. Astrid didn’t know enough about instruments to know if she was hearing a fiddle or nyckelharpa or hurdy-gurdy.
She actually wasn’t really sure what those last two were.
During the day, Hiccup was mostly helping with preparations. She often saw him helping someone or another in the town.
But there were a few hours a day where he couldn’t be found. He wasn’t at his father’s house or the Great Hall.
“Hey Chief,” she greeted. “Have you seen your son around?”
“Nope,” he smiled. “He’s gone off to find a place to practice.”
“He’s really taking this fiddle performance to heart, isn’t he?”
“Sure is,” he continued smiling, seemingly proud at the thought. “Hiccup’s a viking, though he might protest. He’s as bullheaded and stubborn as the lot of us. When he doesn’t want to do something, he fights and protests the whole way. But when he finds a reason to want to do something, he dives in, head first, and puts his whole being into it.”
“Yeah,” Astrid agreed. “I’ve seen that. And he’s good about finding a reason to do something.”
“We’re friends with the Shivering Shores, our alliance isn’t in any trouble. But Hiccup knows I’m good friends with Hamish, and he has a lot of respect for the man. I think it might break his heart if he disappointed him.”
“Hiccup has always valued other’s opinions,” she supposed.
“And…” Stoick drawled, a keen smile on his face. “I happen to know one of the songs he’s got is a love song. Maybe he wants it just right to convey a message?”
Astrid flushed red. “T-t-to who?”
“Ah, I’m joking,” he patted her back, though the smile didn’t go away.
Stoick had read her like a book. He knew there was something going on between them, even if that ‘something’ had been in a weird limbo for years.
She looked away, shyly. “Well, anyways, I’m excited to see him perform.”
“Aye, me too, lass. Should be memorable!”
—-
Snotlout and the Twins arrived the next day, one day before the Shivering Shores’ arrival. Despite what Astrid was expecting, they seemed to have forgotten all about Hiccup’s fiddle secret, as no one brought it up.
They had dinner together in the Great Hall, which was now decorated with fresh flowers and garland.
“So,” Hiccup began, sitting down with a plate of chicken and veggies. “How’s the Edge? Everything still quiet?”
“You think anything is quiet with these dunderheads?” Snotlout jabbed a thumb over at the twins. “But as for our enemies, we didn’t see anything.”
“Did the twins cause any—”
“The answer is yes, and you don’t want to know. We’ll talk about it on the way back, I already did my part.”
Hiccup sighed. “Well, thank you, Snotlout. I knew I could trust you to watch the Edge while we were away.”
Snotlout sat up straight at this praise and started to smile. “I did do a good job, didn’t I? Hey, maybe you shouldn’t even worry about coming back to the Edge. Your dad seemed really stressed and you should—”
“Nice try, but I’m definitely going back.”
Snotlout folded his hands behind his head. “Can’t blame me for trying.”
“How goes the fiddling practice?” Asked Fishlegs.
Astrid flinched heavily, ready to punch him.
“Oh yeah!” Said Snotlout. “You’ve got a little recital coming up, don’t you?”
“Hiccup: Live in Concert!” Said Tuffnut, enthusiastically. “I’ve been thinking about it all week!”
“Tomorrow during dinner.” Hiccup nodded, looking sheepish. “I think it’ll be okay. I’m really nervous, but…I found a really good tactic to distract myself.”
“And that is…?”
“I play to Toothless, specifically. He really likes music, and almost dances to it. It’s kind of adorable. So I just watch him.”
Astrid tried not to seem too proud. After all, it was her that encouraged Toothless to join that first rehearsal.
“So what are ya gonna play?” Tuffnut asked. “Silvard had a Little Yak?”
Hiccup rolled his eyes, but retorted smugly, “You’ll just have to wait and see.”
“Did your dad convince you to play the songs you wrote?” Fishlegs asked, again making Astrid want to hit him.
Hiccup sighed. “Yep.”
“Hold on,” said Snot. “You wrote songs?”
“Sure. Didn’t you write a few for Garf?”
“That’s totally different,” Snotlout laughed. “I never expected to perform them for anyone. Oh this is rich. I can’t wait until you see what we have in store for you tomorrow!”
Hiccup felt pale. “Wh-what are you talking about?”
“Nothing much,” said Tuff. “Just a little surprise.”
“You’ll love it,” insisted Ruffnut.
“Somehow, I doubt that completely.”
—
Great ships with black sails arrived at the docks the next day. Hiccup stood with Stoick to greet the guests, while Astrid stood a little ways away for emotional support. Hiccup had foregone the leather armor, as requested by his father, and went back to his fur vest. His hair was still a mess, despite combing it for twenty minutes. It was probably stuck in place for ever thanks to Toothless’ saliva.
Hamish, a man as big as Stoick, disembarked first, using a cane to get around. “Stoick! My old friend!”
“Good to see you, Hamish! Have a nice trip?”
“Oh yes, very peaceful. Ever since your boy made peace with the dragons, sailin’ around has been a breeze! Of course, that doesn’t hurt.” He pointed at the three dragons leashed to the ship, having pulled it. They were all getting fish and scratches from the rest of the crew.
Hiccup smiled proudly.
“And look at you, boy-o!” Hamish praised, spotting him. “Shot up like a tree! I wager you’ll be taller than your old man one day.”
“Wouldn’t that be something?” Hiccup chuckled.
“Well you’ve grown into a fine young man, are your fiddling skills set to match?”
Hiccup’s smile faltered. “Hamish, I’m going to do my best, but I don’t think I’ll ever be as good as you.”
“Hiccup…” Stoick reprimanded.
“You aren’t me, lad!” Hamish said joyfully. “I could never tame a dragon like you did! Let alone smith a tail! You have a lot of skills that you’ve honed over the years. Your father just said you never gave up the instrument, so I want to see what you’ve got!”
That seemed to relieve Hiccup more than any other words had up until now. He smiled genuinely and said, “thanks for understanding.”
Hagar, the new chief of the Shivering Shores disembarked a moment later and came to stand by his dad. He was just as large, but had no gray in his beard. He greeted Hiccup and Stoick with a wide smile.
“Incoming dragons!” The lookout called, pointing out over the sea.
Hiccup and Astrid narrowed their eyes, looking at the two dragons coming in.
“Is that…?” Astrid asked.
“Oh gods,” Hiccup moaned.
Before they even landed, a voice called boisterously. “BROTHER!”
“H-hey Dagur…” Hiccup waved awkwardly.
“Dagur of the Berserkers?” Asked Hamish. “What a pleasant surprise! What are you doing here?”
“Hamish! You’re looking well!” Dagur and Shattermaster landed at the docks while Heather landed back by Astrid. “How are you feeling?”
“Oh I’m doing pretty good. Some days are better than others. Been having a lot of great days leading up to this trip!”
“Great to hear!”
“So…what brings you to Berk?” Hiccup asked, dread churning in his gut. He had been on edge since Snotlout and the Twins said they had a surprise for him.
Dagur laughed. “Isn’t it obvious?! We’re here to see your fiddling prowess!”
Hiccup smacked his forehead. “Those muttonheads…”
“Yes, Heather and I came to check in on the Edge a few days ago, and Snothat told us all about what you were doing! Why didn’t you ever tell me you played the fiddle?”
“He didn’t tell any of us,” said Astrid. “Apparently, he’s not very good.” She smirked.
“So he thinks!” Said Stoick.
“Alright, alright. I should have known,” Hiccup groaned. “It’s fine. The more the merrier, right?” He smiled, but it was wobbly.
“And of course it’s always a pleasure to see the Shivering Shores folks, especially after we confirmed our alliance.” He shook Hamish and Hagar’s hands.
“Glad to have Berserker Island back in our good graces,” said Hagar.
“It's all thanks to my sweet baby brother!” Dagur grabbed Hiccup and pulled him into a side hug. “Showed me the error of my ways. Converted me into a real dragon lover. United me with my long lost sister! Oh, such a big and loving heart! The heart of an artist and musician!”
Hiccup wheezed. “You’re too kind, Dagur.”
“Brother?” Asked Hagar with an amused smile.
“Honorary title,” Hiccup wheezed again.
It seemed like Dagur’s praise reframed his arrival to Hagar and Hamish, and they looked a lot more relaxed and amused.
“We’ll only stay tonight,” said Heather. “To watch Hiccup’s performance and give our dragons some time to rest. This is your vacation, after all. We didn’t mean to intrude.”
“Tonight is the best part, anyway!” Said Hagar. “Feasting! Music! Dancing! And barrels of mead!” He gestured to their ship, where several barrels were stacked in a pyramid.
Stoick cheered gleefully.
“Perfect,” said Hiccup, “drunk ears are happy ears.”
Astrid elbowed him.
—-
Dinner time came around far too quickly for Hiccup’s liking, as with most things dreaded.
The band was setting up in front of a support pillar. The tables were arranged in a semi circle around them, with enough space in front to move around. Directly to Hiccup’s left was the head table, where Hamish, Hagar, and his father sat. Next to them, with a front row view, was the table with his friends. They all watched eagerly as Hiccup moved around and talked with the band.
Toothless laid at the front of the table, on his absolute best behavior. His eyes were rounded and soft, as he occasionally stuck his tongue out in excitement.
People were still milling around, getting drinks and sharing food.
No introductions were made yet, no commencement speeches, but Hiccup had his fiddle in hand and walked up to the front of the band. The players watched him, waiting for a queue.
Hiccup nodded his head, put the fiddle to his chin and started a fast paced one note sprint, literally sounding like someone was running. Then Hackjaw came in with several heavy beats of his drum. Then the rest of the band joined, filling the hall with boisterous music.
And to Astrid’s disappointment, mostly drowning out Hiccup. He had taken a few steps back to stand with the group. He had his head bowed, and eyes clenched shut tightly as he played. Occasionally, she thought she could hear that sprinting note from him, but the song seemed to highlight the other members of the band. Frida had an incredible performance on the lute, plucking the notes and a dizzying speed. Same with each member, all having a unique solo to introduce their sound. The band played the same driving melody in the background while Hiccup stayed playing that same note.
The song came to an end, and the crowd was full of cheers.
Hiccup sighed in relief and shared a smile with the other players. They all gave him thumbs up.
“Looks like everyone has found their seats,” said Stoick, his voice booming over the chattering crowd.
Everyone grew silent, ready to listen.
“Tonight, we welcome our dear friends from the Shivering Shores, and celebrate their new era with them. Hagar has shown to be a very capable leader, and will surely follow in his father’s legacy.”
A cheer.
“We honor our friendship with the Shivering Shores, and we’re grateful for the many years Hamish worked with us. As a thank you, we have a special performance prepared. Specially requested from Hamish himself, my son Hiccup will be joining the band tonight on the fiddle.”
Another cheer went up through the crowd, and Astrid swore she heard people say “no way” and “he’s so much like his mother” and even “is there anything he can’t do?”
It made Astrid’s heart swell with pride.
“Many of you older folks may remember that my dear Valka was a fiddler. Well, as a little boy, Hiccup picked up the instrument and got his instruction from Hamish himself, the best fiddler in the archipelago.”
“We’ll see about that!” Hamish laughed.
Stoick grinned. “Hiccup has prepared several unique songs for your listening pleasure this evening. Take it away whenever you’re ready, son.”
Hiccup had his awkward ‘I know I messed up but please don’t be mad at me’ smile on his face as he shuffled closer to the front.
He shrugged and said, “sorry in advance.”
The rest of the band scoffed.
He put the fiddle on his chin, taking several deep breaths. He glanced across the room, lingering on Astrid’s face for a moment.
She gave him an enthusiastic thumbs up.
Then he looked at Toothless, and actually started to smile a little.
He turned to the band, and mouthed something to them, though she couldn’t tell what.
Then he pinched his eyes shut, and set his mouth in a thin line…
And he attacked the fiddle, the bow ripping across the strings with the fervor to make sparks fly if they could. His eyebrows twitched and his nostrils flared as the notes came out rapid fire. His entire body moved with the effort, like it took every fiber of his being to make this wonderful, soul-filling sound.
“Holy—” Snotlout barked.
He briefly turned to the band and bobbed his head to bring them in, and a joyful bouncing beat filled the hall. People started stomping and clapping.
Then the fiddle slowed to a less intense melody, and Hiccup opened his mouth.
“Years ago, when I was younger, I kinda liked a girl I knew.
Thought she was mine and we were sweethearts. That was then, but then it's true…”
The music cut out, except for a few plucks of the fiddle strings.
Then Hiccup belted out, while continuing to play.
“I'm in love with a fairytale! Even though it hurts…
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!”
He returned to that intense dance with the bow, his heel slamming back on the floor with each beat of the drum. He twisted and jerked, like he was fighting with the music.
And he was winning.
“Every day, between the fighting, I could have sworn we fell in love.
No one else could make me sadder, but no one else could lift me high above!
I don't know what I was doing, she let me go, we grew apart…
Nowadays, I cannot brave her…”
He dared to smile.
“But when I do, we'll get a brand new start!”
He pulled on the strings, a high note that conveyed heartache. Astrid felt it in her chest.
“I'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts,
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed…”
The band cut out, suddenly, leaving Hiccup to battle the notes on his own. His fingers flew in a flurry, matching the cutting of the bow. Hiccup set his jaw, garnering the strength for the end. A few slower, growing notes, and he sang again.
“She's a fairytale, yeah! Even though it hurts…
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!”
Astrid had no idea he could sing like that, or even hit that note. It struck her to the core, and she sat breathless and stunned as he played his last battle hymn and ended with a flourish.
The hall was deafeningly loud with cheers as Hiccup finally, finally opened his eyes to look around. He seemed surprised as he met everyone’s boisterous cheers.
Dagur launched from his seat and ran to Hiccup, grabbing him in a hug that lifted him off the floor. He laughed maniacally, and Astrid could hear him damn near yell, “that was amazing, brother! The best song I’ve ever heard!”
Hiccup looked kind of pale, she noticed.
Once Dagur set him back on his feet, Hiccup used his shoulder to stand upright.
“Thank you!” He called to the crowd still freaking out.
“Alright, settle down,” Stoick called, laughter in his voice.
Once it got quieter, Hiccup said, “thank you, very much. I wasn’t expecting that kind of reception. I uh…I have some more songs for you, but I’m feeling kind of light headed, so I’m going to sit down for a minute.”
Astrid patted the empty spot beside her, she saved just for him.
He slid into it, awkwardly smiling. “Hey, how’s it going?”
“What the hell, Haddock?!” Snotlout shouted.
“Aww, thanks Snotlout, that means a lot.”
Astrid giggled, and gave Hiccup a pat to the shoulder, the universal ‘I’ll be right back’ sign. She got up and went to get him some water, so he could sit and bask in the praise.
The band, in Hiccup’s absence, played a reprise of his song, though it sounded really weird without the fiddle.
Gobber and Hilda belted the lyrics, in an unflattering harmony.
“I'm in love with a fairytale, even though it hurts,
'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind, I'm already cursed!”
She had been so caught up in the music, in the fact that she was finally hearing Hiccup sing and play, she hadn’t paid attention to the lyrics. It was like they had been in a foreign language.
But now, she understood, and her face turned bright red.
Determined not to be awkward, she returned to her place with the cup of water for him.
“Thank you, milady!” He raised the glass with a big smile. His eyes were twinkling in the firelight, and his cheeks flushed a handsome pink.
“You’re welcome,” she replied, voice a little deeper than intended.
She sat beside him, their arms occasionally brushing in the cramped space. But Astrid really didn’t mind. In fact, she had half a mind to reach over and hold his hand.
“I don't know what I was doing, she let me go, we grew apart…
Nowadays, I cannot brave her…
But when I do, we'll get a brand new start!”
So she didn’t hold his hand. She decided that he needed to make that move. Was it petty after he sang her a love song? Maybe.
Hiccup finished his water, still smiling as the gang animatedly talked. No one broached the yak in the room, ‘hey Hiccup, who was that song about, huh?’ and that was just fine.
Once the band finished their butchered version of his song, Hiccup patted her shoulder and got up. “Wish me luck, gang,” he chuckled.
“You don’t need it,” Ruffnut waved him off.
“Yeah, but Astrid might,” Tuff smirked.
Astrid blushed fiercely. “I don’t know…what y-you’re talking about…” She tried to be casual, but couldn’t make eye contact with them.
“You’re hopeless,” said Heather, fondly.
“Oh shush!”
Hiccup had his fiddle in hand, and played a sharp note to get attention. He looked a lot less nervous now, and looked around at everyone. “This next song is older. I started writing it while I was training Toothless, before anyone else knew about dragons, before the Red Death…back then, I practiced a lot of speeches where I tried to convince everyone that we didn’t need to fight them. I never ended up successfully delivering those speeches, but I did write this anyway.” He nodded to Frida, who strummed the lute, starting the song.
Then Hiccup came in, playing a fast tune again, though it wasn’t as intense as the first. He also didn’t have his eyes closed anymore. He was looking directly at Toothless and slowly walked towards him.
“I have a dream, you are there, high above the clouds somewhere.
Rain is falling from the sky but it never touches you, you're way up high!”
Toothless perked up, his tongue lulling out as he stood, making light little steps in time with the beats. The rest of the band joined as Hiccup continued to play and sing at the same time.
“No more worries no more fear, you have made them disappear,
Sadness tried to steal the show, but now it feels like many years ago!”
Hiccup did a little skip hop to be right in front of Toothless, and sang brightly to him.
“And I! I will be with you every step!”
The band shouted, “Hey! Hey!” While Hiccup leaned it and rubbed his nose against Toothless’.
“Tonight I found a friend in you, and I'll keep you close forever!”
He skip-hopped backwards and sang to the room.
“Come fly with me!”
The band echoed, “Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Into a fantasy!”
“Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Where you can be whoever you want to be! Come fly with me!”
He was on the move again, skipping over to the table and plopping into the spot next to Astrid. He leaned against the table, pretending to be casual, but he looked her dead in the eyes as he sang.
“We can fly all day long, show me the world, sing me a song,
Tell me what the future holds, you and me will paint it all in gold!”
Astrid beamed at him, her face hurting from the smile.
“And I! I will believe your every word!”
The audience got the prompt and stomped in time “Hey! Hey!” Hiccup leaned in and rubbed his nose against hers, just as he did with Toothless, making her burst into laughter.
“‘Cause I, I have a friend in you. We'll always stay together!”
He leapt to his feet, dancing in time with the beat and Toothless’ little prancing.
“Come fly with me!”
“Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Into a fantasy!”
“Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Where you can be whoever you want to be. Come fly with me!”
He played his heart out, barely containing his laughter as Toothless did this adorable little steppy-step right along with him. Then Hiccup stopped his dance, though the smile didn’t leave his face.
“And I…I will be with you every step.”
His notes were slow, and his voice was soft, like he was making a promise. He swept his gaze across the hall, singing to the village this time.
“Tonight I found some friends in you, and I keep you close forever!”
He beckoned with his head, and smiled widely as a few kids from the back ran up and started dancing with Toothless. Hiccup flipped the fiddle to his side and strummed it like a guitar while Hackjaw kept a steady beat.
“Come fly with me, into a fantasy!
Where you can be whoever you want to be!
Come fly with me!”
He flipped the fiddle back onto his chin to resume playing normally, but beckoned at the teens table with his head. This got the Twins and Snotlout up and dancing with the kids.
“Come fly with me!”
“Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Into a fantasy!”
“Ohoohoh Ohoohoh!”
“Where you can be whoever you want to be. Come fly with me!”
As he came to the end of the song, Snotlout grabbed him by the waist, lifting him off the floor and spinning him around. Hiccup didn’t miss a note though, and only laughed as he was rag dolled around.
The room broke into cheers when the song ended, and Hiccup gave an exaggerated bow. Toothless mimicked this behavior and bowed his head, making his little ear flaps flip around.
Astrid’s heart was full and ready to burst from her chest.
She loved him so much.
Seeing him so happy, having fun and dancing, it almost made her cry tears of joy. She smiled at him, watching as he cooed at Toothless. Then she turned back to her table mates. Fishlegs, Heather, and Dagur were all looking at her with thinly veiled giddy.
From behind them, she could see her parents, who were even more enthusiastic.
She rolled her eyes and covered her face with her hand.
“Alright,” Hiccup said with an exaggerated sigh. “I guess I’ll give the band a break.” He plopped down on the floor, using Toothless as a backrest. In turn, Toothless curled up and rested his head in Hiccup’s lap.
People slowly started to calm down, curious about what was happening next. The children that had been dancing sat down around Toothless, leaning on him too.
That included the Twins, who draped themselves over him.
“This next song, I wrote that first Snoggletog we had with the dragons. That year, all of the dragons left a few days before, and we had no idea why. Toothless couldn’t fly on his own, so I made him a tail that he could use by himself. He flew off, to where I assumed the other dragons were.
“I missed him immediately, and started writing this that same day. You may remember that Snoggletog morning when the dragons returned with a boatload of babies.”
There were some fond ‘aww’s from the crowd.
“Well, Toothless wasn’t with those Dragons. It was a lonely few days waiting for answers, but when he finally came back, he brought my helmet I had lost at sea. He had spent all that time getting back what I had lost. He gave me a wonderful gift that year, so I gave him this song. It’s his very special song and he demands I sit on the floor like this when I play it.”
Toothless warbled in confirmation.
“So…here we go…” He said, without further adieu.
He held the fiddle up to his chin, but instead of using the bow, he plucked at the strings, playing a lullaby.
Apparently, Toothless knew exactly what song this was, as he let out a warm rumbling purr.
“It's almost night, I should be sleeping.
But the moon's so bright, as if it's playing with me.
Round and round, I walk in circles aimlessly.
Where could you be?”
The twins, without prompting, started snapping on the beat and rocking side to side.
“The purple skies were so inviting when we used to fly.
But the excitement slowly fades away.
Feels like there's nothing I wanna do.
Not without you.”
Hiccup leaned his head back, eyes closed and relaxed, as he sang in a falsetto.
“And I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.”
Sven picked up his Nyckleharpa, but tapped on it instead, making soft percussion. Hacksaw hit his drum ever so gently with his hand. Frida plucked the same notes on her lute, letting Hiccup go back to his bow.
“And every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you. And every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you.”
The band crept closer, softly harmonizing as Hiccup played his song. Toothless looked around to them, smiling, as everyone was singing his special song.
“And I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.”
Then Hiccup bowed a gentle waltz, one that might be played at a wedding. A warm, happy melody. Sven harmonized.
“And I will cry you a thousand tears the day you will return.
Tonight I swear, I'll stay right here until you will return.”
Slowly, the band faded out until it was just Hiccup plucking those soft notes.
“And every little cloud, and every single star, reminds me of just how much I miss you.”
Hiccup smiled at Toothless, and just as he took his fingers away from the strings, Toothless warbled a loud ‘wah wah wah!’ that Astrid swore sounded like he was trying to sing.
“Yeah bud! Every little cloud!”
“Wah wah wah!”
“And every single star.” He chuckled.
Most people were too busy cooing to applaud. Astrid included. She held her hands over her heart, feeling all those warm and fuzzy un-viking feelings in her chest.
She heard a loud sniff, and turned to see Dagur, Snotlout, and Fishlegs crying. Fishlegs just had tears, Snotlout was weeping openly, and Dagur was bawling uncontrollably.
“That was beautiful,” Dagur whimpered. “He has the most beautiful soul.”
Heather, who was only a little misty-eyed, looked at Astrid and rolled her eyes. “Boys.”
Astrid chuckled, wiping a tear from her eye before joining in the remainder of the applause.
“Alright, I’ve heard enough,” said Hamish, standing without the use of his cane. His face was serious, and solemn.
“Wh-what? Did I–did I do something wrong!?” Hiccup struggled to stand with the fiddle still in hand. “If you didn’t like those, I can play something traditional! I just thought—”
Hamish held up a hand to stop him. “Hiccup. You…are a damn fine fiddler.”
Hiccup relaxed slightly. “So then—”
“It's time for your final test.”
Hiccup stared, wide-eyed. “Really? You think I’m that good?”
“Fiddler on the Roof!” Tuffnut yelled.
“Is this not a good enough final test!?” Snotlout yelled a beat after.
Hamish moved his cloak aside. “It’s time for you and I to do battle. As master and apprentice.” From under his cloak, he withdrew his own wooden case, and his own fiddle.
Hiccup gulped.
Hamish smiled, good naturedly. He brandished the shiny black instrument. “I’ll hold you to that last song, but now, we play Shades.”
“Shades!?” Hiccup yelled. “Are you—are you sure?”
“You are ready, my boy. Hagar, will you join us on vocals?”
Hagar laughed. “You’re roping me into this too?” But he stood anyway.
“What’s Shades?” Astrid asked Fishlegs.
“Don’t look at me! I don’t know anything about this kind of music!”
It seemed that Hamish heard her question and answered, “Shades is a piece written by my mentor. It’s difficult, but the perfect piece to test my students with. The difficulty lies in performing it with two fiddles.”
Hiccup nodded in agreement. “But I’m willing to try.”
Hamish smiled at him. “That’s a good lad! You’ll take the high part.” He pulled a long note off his strings. Then he turned to the band and told them, “A Minor.”
Then he and Hiccup took a stance, staring at each other. A breath passed, then two.
In a blink, they started playing a frantic gallop in time. The notes started rising, climbing an invisible ladder through the air. Always harmonizing, never falling out of sync. Hackjaw was the only one that joined in, playing a syncopated beat on the drum. Then the fiddles both calmed down to a whisper, and Hagar sang.
“In a forest without any trees, where feelings and memories superimposed by an image of you are caught on the morning dew.”
A duel, trading notes back and forth, taking over each other’s parts.
“Swim in a lake at the first light of day, where children and swans go to play right in the wake of your perfect body and sing of unity.”
Right at the last line, they jumped it, keeping strides with each other. Like running a race, but they were matching each step for step. Hiccup kept his eyes locked with Hamish, watching his hands as he played.
“A Shiv’ring garden where willows grow tall, their shadows caught on a wall.
The sound of weeping so soft in the breeze, a bustle of falling leaves.”
Soft notes, punctuating each line, soft swells, not distracting, just accenting. Matching tone, volume, intensity.
Astrid was riveted. She didn’t know much about fiddling, much less any music, but performing like this without practicing together had to be very hard. Impossible even.
“A night has many shades. It can last for many days and hurt in many ways,
like the force of a rising tide when the moon floats by.”
The song seemed to come to an end. Slow, drawn out notes that seemed to gently set everyone down from the heights they had been climbing.
But then Hamish pulled a triplet, a quick back and forth of the bow. Hiccup returned it. Hamish did it back. Then Hiccup began his sprinting note, and Hamish was right there, meeting it in speed. They grew louder and louder, changing pitch, changing tempos, hitting notes at a dizzying speed of variation. Each one had to be perfect.
Hiccup’s eyes widened as a grin began to tug at his lips. This was the final sprint, this was it!
They played that final climb, hitting a high note and jumping off the ladder into silence.
They both stared at each other, panting, before breaking out into laughter.
“Did I actually do it!?” Hiccup laughed breathlessly.
“Aye lad! Every single note! You’ve been practicing, don’t lie!”
“Of course I have! Ever since I fumbled when I was a kid, it haunted me. I didn’t think I had it down yet though!”
“Oh, you’ve done an old viking proud, you know. I’m thinking of taking on more students now that I’m retired from chiefing. It’ll give me something good to do! I might call on you to show ‘em how to do it right.”
“Oh, I don’t know if I can do it like that again.”
“Sure you can! And next time, it’ll be even better.”
“Well, thanks for the vote of confidence, Hamish.”
For the third time that evening, Hiccup was picked up in a hug and lifted off the floor. “The boy has passed! I can teach him no more!”
The assembled cheered, not all comprehending what exactly had happened, but happy for Hiccup all the same.
Hamish set him back on his feet. “Alright lad, your old man said you got one more song for me. About a girl?”
Hiccup’s face went bright red and he put his free hand to his cheek. “Oh gods…he sure promised you that, huh?”
“Darn tootin’! I’ve enjoyed the rest! I’m sure this will be great!” Then he put an arm around him and spoke to him so softly no one else could hear. Hiccup responded just as quiet, before Hamish burst out laughing. He gave the boy a punch to the shoulder, and exclaimed, “go get her, boy-o~!”
Hiccup gulped, and straightened his clothes nervously.
“We’re doing the last one now, lad?” Gobber asked, grinning.
“Uh oh! Is this the one?!” Stoick barked, standing from his seat.
“Sit down, dad!” Hiccup shouted back, face as red as can be. “Gods preserve me.” He looked back at the band, making sure they were all ready to go. Then he spoke up to the room. “This is my last song for you this evening. I hope you all have enjoyed this little…uh, concert? It was certainly not expected. But your warm reception is appreciated!”
“Whooo! Go Hiccup!” Tuffnut screamed.
He released an awkward laugh. “Yeah, thanks…um.” He brought the fiddle up to rest on his shoulder. “This song…I wrote a really long time ago. Before I met Toothless even. It’s uh…it’s still true though…” he trailed off. He nodded to the band, getting a beat.
Instead of instruments, they all clapped in time, before Hiccup started singing, his face still a bright red.
“This feeling lasted,
I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me,
But I don't mind!”
Astrid’s jaw dropped, her own face going as red as his. Hiccup began playing a jaunty tune, making Toothless pop to his feet and start dancing again.
“Never mind what the others say, deep inside I'm quite okay.
I may have messed up once or twice, but I really need you!”
He dared to look at her.
“And it's not like I'm the only guy. Oh, I know how you make them cry.
So let's start by being friends and let this friendship never end.
I knew you years ago. What I want, I don't know. But let’s just say it's love!”
Playing the fiddle and having Toothless prancing around gave Hiccup a lot of confidence. That, or just getting those first words out was the hardest part. But now, he was smiling, and hop-skipping around while he played.
“This feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady!
No need to hesitate 'cause you'll be fine!”
Hiccup could, on occasion, be extremely corny. Even now, when he was just playing, he had this faux bashful smile on his face, like he had no clue what he was doing to her. The blush seemed genuine enough.
“So tell me what I want to hear,
No wait, let's just leave it there.
You know I'm not good for you!
Gods, I don't know what to do!”
Stoick had said he sang this song with passion, and he was right! Hiccup belted out the words, like he was making a grand proclamation.
“I liked you from the start!
You melt my icy heart!
And now it's burning hot!”
In retrospect, she always knew he was a performer. He’d always had a streak of the dramatic. Like when he tried to tame the Nightmare during his final exam. Or whenever he revealed one of his inventions. If he was going to do something, it was going to be a grand spectacle. Why was this any different?
“This feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady
No need to hesitate 'Cause you'll be fine!”
He got down on one knee in front of her, looking up at her with big glistening eyes that would put Toothless to shame.
“Don't go away, you're what's left of me!
I once believed you would save my soul.
But if you saw me now crying secretly,
Would you hold my hand and never let it go?”
He flipped the fiddle to his side and strummed it like a guitar. His voice became softer, tender. Now just singing to her, and no one else.
“This feeling lasted, I love you, Astrid!
You're so much stronger than me, but I don't mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady!
No need to hesitate 'Cause you'll be fine!”
He popped back up onto his feet, and threw his head back, making his grand declaration into the room.
“Do you hear me, Astrid?
I still love you, Astrid!
I’m getting stronger now, hope you don’t mind!
Don't say maybe, just be my lady
Your parents are bugging me, knowing you'll be fine!”
I love you, Astrid! How long had she waited to hear those words from him? Too long, it seemed. But this seemed worth the wait.
All there was left to do was wait for him to move that damn fiddle out of the way.
He finished his song, flushed but smiling as he gave her a little shrug.
Astrid bolted from her seat, flung her arms around his neck, and kissed him hotly on the lips. In a way she had been wanting to for years, but hadn’t quite had the nerve to do like when she was younger.
She was still able to hear him squeak despite the cacophony that filled the large room.
Shouts of “finally!” And “you owe me ten gold” were totally drowned out in the absolute satisfaction she felt, finally kissing Hiccup.
Someone must have taken his fiddle for him as she felt his arms wrap around her and pull her tight.
Finally, she pulled away, a little winded. His face was priceless. He was dazed, but had this awed and lovestruck smile on his lips.
She played with his hair, then declared, “I don’t know much about music, but…
“Ooh Hiccup, I love you Hiccup!
You’re such a dork, you see?
But I don’t mind!
Won’t say maybe, I’ll be your lady!
I know you’ll take care of me, and I’ll be fine!”
He smiled broadly and pulled her in for another kiss.
“What a way to end a concert!” Hamish yelled from his table. “Way to go, lad!”
“I owe you a thank you, Hamish. I never would have done this if you hadn’t requested it.”
“Anytime, my boy! Always happy to help!”
—
The Shivering Shores stayed for three days, and in that time, Hiccup spent some time with Hamish, teaching him his songs. He played with the band during dinners, and over all, didn’t seem as secretive as he had been the last week. Everyone knew now, and he accepted that he was good. He was no longer hesitant, but actually allowed himself to show off.
When it was time to return to the Edge, Astrid spied the wooden case among his baggage.
“You’re taking it with you?”
“Might as well, might help me think while I’m planning on how to deal with the hunters. It’s helped in the past.”
“Are you going to give us something to listen to on the way back?” Asked Snotlout. “Gods forbid I have to listen to the Twins bicker for another 8 hours!”
“You want me to fly and play at the same time?”
“Oh like Toothless isn’t doing most of the work!”
Hiccup couldn’t argue with that.
Once they were up in the air and on their way, Hiccup made a great show out of taking out the fiddle and tuning it. Agonizing over each note.
“We know it’s tuned! You’ve been playing it all weekend! It’s tuned!” Snotlout shouted.
Hiccup snorted. “Alright alright, let’s see…” He drew a long note out and sang.
“Ohhhh I got my ax and I got my mace and I love my wife with the ugly face, I’m a viking through and through!!”
And he was promptly relieved of entertainment duties.
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A week later, things were back to normal. The twins had done a number on the Edge, and repairs and restocks were needed.
Hiccup and Astrid were up to their necks with duties, busy with work and barely could find a moment to relax, let alone have some time together.
It was late one night when Astrid laid in bed, exhausted but unable to sleep. She kept going over her lists in her mind, making sure she hadn’t missed anything.
The silence of the night was interrupted by the soft trill of a fiddle. No particular song, just notes floating around. Fast, slow, but mostly quiet.
Hiccup was also awake and thinking.
She got up and wandered over to his hut. His door was open, and he paced back and forth, with the fiddle on his shoulder. He was obviously talking to himself, but it was quiet and muffled by the music.
“Babe?” She asked, just loud enough.
He jolted. “Astrid! Oh! I didn’t wake you, did I? I’m sorry, I knew I shouldn’t have—“ he went to put the instrument away, but Astrid reached out and stopped him. “No, you didn’t wake me. I was already up. And it was so quiet I probably wouldn't have heard it if I was asleep.”
He sighed in relief.
“Then what’s up?”
“Well, I could tell you were awake, and…I wanted to see you.”
His face colored. “Yeah?”
“Hmmhmm. You don’t have to stop what you’re doing. I kinda like the idea of my own private performance.”
He shyly smiled, then put the fiddle back on his shoulder.
—
Fishlegs had night patrol. He opted to take Meatlug out for a relaxing flight around the island. He saw Astrid sneak over to Hiccup’s hut, but didn’t say anything. It wasn’t his business. He heard Hiccup playing the fiddle, a lovely little melody.
Then he heard a sharp, off key note, followed by silence.
He may be on patrol, but he had a feeling they didn’t want him to investigate.
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One time in Highschool, we had a talent show. Know that I went to a very tiny private school, and everyone knew everyone (20 people in my grade). There was this guy in my class, Kevin, who was pretty stoic and quiet. For the talent show, he rode a unicycle while juggling and telling jokes. No one knew he could do that. Even the kids that knew him from Kindergarten.
Songs: Seasoned Oak - King Arthur and the Legend of the Sword
Fairytale - Alexander Rybak
Into a Fantasy - Alexander Rybak
Return (For Toothless) - Alexander Rybak
Shades- Árstídir
OAH- Alexander Rybak (heavily rewritten, and I actually prefer the strings of the Russian version ‘Strela Amura’ better.)
#fanfiction#httyd#how to train your dragon#hiccup#hiccstrid#hiccup haddock#astrid hofferson#toothless#fiddler hiccup
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I managed to capture most of them, here are Tommy's hidden messages throughout his new song "the internet's getting worse" (it's actually so sad :(( )
Transcripts under cut*
"If you find a corner of this world wide web that has any sustenance at all, then please stick to it. The hundreds of people that now place absolutely no value on their time, their precious time, and spend it watching useless content designed to hold their attention is depressing. This all pressed me. Their is so little Sustenance in this mess. A world wide web so little heat or soul or love. If you find any sustenance, stick to it."
"A Tribute To Minecraft.
The Great Potato War.
The Original Ace's QnA's
Ludwig's 2020 streams
SMP Live Talent Shows
This was everything to me."
"Status is irrational and nature is cynical."
"It's addiction p*rn.
Don't get addicted to it.
It's nothing
It means nothing."
"They are more insecure than you. But (?)
"When i was a boy, alone, this meant everything to me. I found my people. My place. And along the way i was part of something that really meant something. This is the only good bit of this. Whatever i did that meant something, that is the only good bit."
"I can't watch back my old videos because everyone in them wasn't who they said they were. Do you know how sad this makes me feel. Do you know how sad I've been all year."
"How could anyone possibly find out who they are when you are all immersed in this needless, self indulgent spiral of instant gratification and distraction. This is not good for you."
"the 12 year old boy watching this sad ass video when he subscribed for funny minecraft videos. Poor guy lmao."
"I don't think i trust anyone here. I don't think anyone trusts anyone here"
"I know it's too much like bo burnham but i won't be in a year. In a year it will be like Tom Simons. Just let me figure out what that means, OK?"
"I used to feel like i was doing everything wrong. That i just wasn't smarter or good like any pf my friends. I realised now i was the only one doing the right thing. I just wanted to have fun. What I'd do to go (?) back, my god. What I'd do to have things be simple again."
#tommyinnit#tom simons#ever since covid I've been watching Tom's video's#from his mc ones to vlogs and collabs and such#I've been keeping up since he's one of the most true/ authentic and genuine guys ever since the smp#i like how he sort of delves back into how he really felt when he was 16 in his podcasts.
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101 ways to comfort your luke.
#this really is just a little self indulgent thing for me#i've been really busy with school work lately#that i've become luke deficient#paying off my monthly luke tax#UUEUEUEEEEE LUKE COMFORT ME#art#artist#fanart#illustration#illust#luke pearce#tears of themis#sketch#tears of themis fanart#digital art#lukerosa
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Ok time to talk about isha. I feel like isha helped heal jinxes. In the third act no one said her name or mentioned her but she was still thier. The thing, witch i mention before, is that arcane is really good at showing not telling witch is somthing not a lot of show do ( a gaint ass rant for latter cues i have ALOT of feeling about that and poeple not understanding) . During the first and second act isha keept jinxs grounded. You can see this as she has less visions especialy in act 2. Isha become jinxes stone and scale for both powder and jinx balencing them out without evrn doing thing. Guveing her the chance to heal. Also if im not mistaken thier was a pretty decent time skip between act one and tow where jinxes is able to become more balenced and more healthy. With isha she stopes fighting herself and accepts herself just a little more.
Now let's get on to the sacrifice isha did. Vi, jinxes, and isha (i think) were all unaware of what they wanted with vandor all isha new was her family her aunt (you can fight me on this hut jinxes is like an aunt to me becuse she plays bothe the sister and the mom witch is somthing I see an aunt as). That's it. It didn't turn out like she wanted in the end. Vendor still came after them. But she just didn't want jinxes to have to kill her dad. She could see she could never do it not again, so isha decied after jinxes have given her so much she could do the same.
Now let's talk about afterbwerds in act 3. Innactv3 no kne mentions her and let us see why. First of all let's talk ambrosia becuse that is simple, she didn't care about vendor or anything so minor all she cared about was her goal. She didn't care a little girl killed him and she cared about was the next move to get to her goal that's it. Next is vi when she wakes up. When she wakes up she probly already knows what happened she's seen it beifr she knows the story, no point it proding at the wound any more. She already knows. Kaitlin dosnet know how to address it she still having a hard time thinking of jines as anyone but the person monster she was in season one the evil thing that killed her mom. Now she see just how much they it person lived her sister and pearly a little kid who was killed and she's now mounting. How the hell do you dress that the monster who killed your family is now mourning for her own family??? Especiky Kaitlin who i don't thinknis the best at emotions.
Now it's got to the really juicy stuff jinxes. Jinxes is hurt and dead insides she faough for so hard she heald she git balenced and now that's gone. Most would think she would revert, but she dosent have anyone to push her to that which Is what silvo did. Now she just has herself her tired bone dead self who out watched history repeat itself again. The one who has cause so much pain and misery the one who when she was in between silco and isha was just chilling. The truth is since silco dies she had no intrestin jinxes vs powder in indulging her vision all she was interested in is moving on by chilling. She didn't want to listen or acknowledge the voices or visions anymore. She just wnat to be done after ruining so many things and having some she loved roped away. She want to be done with this cycle she can't egt away from and without the person who helped her heal it seemed imposible. So she took silcos advice, and instead dof staying and maybe ruining somthing else she ended the cycle the only way she knew how.
In the end isha sacreficesmd her self so jinxes didn't have to kill Vander before she was ready. In the end no one mentions her death because what's the point really. Either they don't have nay way to acknowledge it, or they know the ending. And jinxes is so numb, and done she finishes her business and leaves. She also dosent mention it ot ekko becuse ekko has never met her. So why he wont have anything to say about it?
Next I'll be talking about Jace, ekko, Arcane, and the ending.
Ok i keep adding this to the post I reblog, but now ima make my own post
Hello I'm idkimjustexsitujng and welcome to my fucking ted talk this contains arcane spoiler,and misspelling, please enjoy
Arcane is beautiful it is bitter it is realistic it highlights what is it to be human, to try and strive for better to get stuck in a cycle and not escape. It cycle through evrything well conveying just what it's doing. The animation is beautiful and amazing and they convey so much with so little. The animator the righter they are all amazing.
I hear they're getting hate from the second season (I have not seen it personally), but all the things they do all the unsaid thing left make arcane even better for me
Finishing the series showed me just how much arcane did to keep it all human. How Victor and Jace talk about it in the final(?) Episode summed it up beautifuly for me. Humans are complex self sabotaging creatures, and theirs so many things and ideas out their And in difrent shows that try and show what makes a human human, and I think arcane unconsciously (or extremely consciously given the hours of detail they put into this beautiful masterpeice) succeeded in that. They showed us that humans are animals who are not just in it for surviving but for ceriousituy, not only do they focused on surviving they foucuse on surviving wellbuilding luceries to make life easier, the look analyzie and take what around them and think what if. They show us just how humans observe the world around and add it themselves how they keep those small thing living. The cycles each and evry chacter live through and repeats ( powder deing twice as I say but it's not just powder it someone loving their family so much they they give life its self for them becuse they beilive in them). How humans can grab the smallest sign a trait that their mom did or freinds did and keep them( lines mom used to put a peace sign on her head and in the first season during jinxes fight with ekko where we see powder doing the same symbol just like her mom.) How evryone has their own idea on the chapters and just like them evryone has their own ideas of us. And they final episode shows that with poeple discussing if jinxed sacrifice was in her character devolment or not.
I don't think jinxes sacrifice was a good thing, though. Personally, I don't like her going into that so soon after she git talked out her own suiced. And i read on a post that jinxes decided to live to honor the sacrifices already made (specifcly by isha) she was given hope one more time. I think she had a plan on getting out. That's my hope at least
I defebitly have more to say but this ramble just off the top of my head and please tell me euat ypu think agree, disagree. random or not. I feel and think so much rn I wanna hear what evryone else has to say.
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#clemart#toontown corporate clash#ttcc#macthinker#mac opsys#prethinker#brian ttcc#i debated on maintagging this but whatverWHATEVER#i was drawing this and all i had a voice yelling at me in my head the entire time this is too embarassing sorry guys#if anyones curious bc i just realized not everyone deals with those things. the thing thats in macs hand is a omnipod pod#basically a little device that lasts a few days that you fill up with insulin and when attached you can control it through a meter#in other words it's the alternative to taking insulin shots but you manually have to fill it with insulin#whichis what the otherone is doing but trying to hold it like that is incredibly inconvenient#funfact about them. if you let them expire for too long they do this really high pitched annoying shrill yell that you cant turn off withou#a tiny thin needle. or taking a hammer to it. the hammer also works. speaking from personal experience#and yes if you cant tell another incredibly self indulgent drawing. like the finger prick one . WHTAEVER. WHATEVER.#imagine im grabbing my head with my hands and shaking around and yelling incoherently#waited till 1am to post this. as if im not the only one on here with a terrible sleeping schedule
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Quick overview of Dead Like Me au!
Figured I’ve made a few posts in it now so should just give a quick summary of what I have so far:
Mike (scooped/ a zombie) and Jeremy (vampire) meet when they both start working the night shift at Freddy’s (fnaf 1 era). Jeremy immediately realizes something is off about Mike and upon realizing he’s dead, freaks out as he’s never met a zombie before and in turn, Mike freaks out bc he’s never met a vampire. They both bond over being dead and supernatural creatures as neither, outside of experiences with ghosts, have met any other beings like them and they quickly become friends from there to the point that Mike, who’s been living out of his car, eventually moves in with Jeremy.
So, with them both being sort of new to the supernatural even though they are supernatural themselves (they're like 90% sure they're going this 'hiding in the shadows' thing wrong), they go about trying to find out what became of Mike’s dad as that’s been Mike’s mission ever since he got scooped and now Jeremy is along for the ride. They eventually attract the attention of Sammy who is a hunter sent by his father (who basically made it his and his sons mission to dispose of all things supernatural) to figure out what’s going on as there’s been rumors of the walking dead around town. Sammy however, though unknown to his father bc Sammy is afraid to tell him, is a werewolf and eventually runs into Jeremy and Mike and though he is a bit prickly at first (ie tries to stab Mike bc he thought he was the vampire) they become friends (Mike and Sammy actually know each other from when they were kids) and from there, Sammy begins a more serious search into what happened to his sister now that his view on the superntual has shifted and he realizes its not all automatically ‘bad.’ (Something he’s really been struggling with ever since he was turned but that Mike and Jeremy help him work through).
They also at some point come across ghost Phone Guy who died the first week Jeremy and Mike were hired (basically the reason they were as the position opened up) but it took him a while to actually form into a ghost and once he does, he possesses the phone in the office that they then have to carry around with them if he wants to actually leave the building.
Charlie eventually joins their crew too as she is more aware than the other ghosts are but has spent these last few years watching over the MCI ghosts. However, upon reuniting with her brother, she joins him and his friends in order to try and bring down William. She also promises to Mike to helps him look for Liz and talk to her once they do find her.
That’s all I sorta got for right now. I’m working on writing a fic but I feel like my time has been nonexistence lately so it’s going sorta slow. Do feel free to send asks though :) I love thinking & talking about this AU
#it’s also like half crack so it gets a little silly sometimes#it’s also really self indulgent#me just taking all my favorite things and smashing them together#but idc#it’s fun!#and it’s actually getting me to write again after some major writers block so I’ll take it lol#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#dead like me au
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“Welcome to the Imperial Senate,” False says, with a smile that doesn’t reach her eyes. “Saying what you mean can get you killed.”
Two senators, a bodyguard, four days, and a plan to cause some trouble. False/Ren/Xisuma, Star Wars AU, 12.7k.
#hermitshipping#falsuma#rensuma#renfalse#falseren#renfalsuma#waveridden.fic#really unimaginably wild to me to discover that this ship is not a thing. completely honored to christen it by being on my bullshit#sorry for putting this in the pair tags it's just that there literally is not an ot3 tag and i need to do a *little* bit of marketing for#this fic ykwim. yes it's self indulgent drivel but it's 13k of self indulgent drivel (SO HONORIFIC) and i owe it to myself to promote it#will i do more star wars au. we'll see. idk#mcyt fic#swau
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so, the most recent novel i managed to actually finish writing, three long years ago, was the book of my absolute lifelong dreams and most of the time i just leave it sitting on my computer and pretend it doesn't exist because i feel too tenderly about it and i'm too proud of it and it's agony to me. these feelings are, for whatever reason, unbearable hell. but like once a year i work up the courage to reread it, and every time i'm like, "god DAMN! who wrote this?? this is exactly what i've wanted to read my whole life!!!!!!! it's simply delightful!" and then i remember that oh yeah, it's me!
#i feel like i should vow to try to query this thing like 50 times just because i love it so much and i owe it to my own love of it#and then when i get rejected because it's 155k and that's insane (but it NEEDS TO BE!) i can at least say i tried#i don't get what it says about me that i wrote the book of my dreams and now i'm too embarrassed so i pretend it doesn't exist#instead of trying to get it published#as it is apparently my lifelong goal to be a published novelist#why is my brain wired this way!??!?!?!?!#i think i'm just too scared that everyone else will hate it and it will hurt my feelings too much because it's so me#it is truly and completely my sweet little baby#and it has the same word count as jane austen's emma which i only discovered after i finished writing it#fate!!!!!!!#dollsome's deep thoughts#it's my birthday so i'm allowing myself this really self-indulgent post#getting older and still never being a (non-self-) published novelist: the story of me
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Greetings, human! ♥ (Patreon)
#My art#SCII#ZEX#The Captain#A warmup that I took a little longer with - pacing myself?? Could be#I wanted to work on the daily more at the time but ah I had a good fun with this one ♪#Even if it was one I failed to record hhhhuah#Oh well - next time lol#Mostly inspired by accidentally starting a new fic with these two heck#Yeah on top of the recent DAX ideas coming in my brain decided to prank me with Yet More inspiration lol#I'm happy about it! I do enjoy writing :)#But it's also Extremely self-indulgent so fjdslkafjd while I'm having fun it's also like Oh No I'm Having Too Much Fun With This lol#Not such a bad thing every once in a while ♪#They're just so cute hehe#Been having a lot of fun with this sizing of chibis lately - small sketches then upsized to ~about where I'd want them on-screen#Maybe a bit small still but that's not that strange lol#I really want to hit whichever library near here has a Cricut I must learn how these machines function and how much they charge#I mean if I can just make bookmarks at home what might the library be able to offer me hehehe ♪#Anyway
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