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Hi! You were the first Hogwarts Legacy fan artist I came across and I wanted to say how much I love your works 🥰
I recently saw an ask about which program you use to create your pieces which got me wondering... 👀 do you have any tips to share with aspiring digital artists trying to learn how to properly add shading/lighting?? I'm happy with my pieces during the flat colour stage, but every time I attempt shading/lighting or other methods of adding texture/definition/perspective, it always looks "off" to me 🤔 so my WIP folder is huge rn.
Thank you in advance for any advice you're willing to share 🙏😊
Hiya there!! Thank you so much for this ask!! First of all, I gotta say how wonderful it is that you're excited about art and want to learn more about it. I just had a chat with a friend about this but I think art is such a fun, vast hobby, full of endless possibilities, and whenever people want to get into it and learn, it's just wahhhhh. Fills my heart with joy and makes me bounce :D Now, full disclaimer, I am not an art teacher so my say on the matter is not that of a professional. I struggle with these things myself as well but I'm really happy if any of my advice can help a fellow artist. Keep in mind that works for me might not work for you, and "good art" is highly subjective. But I understand that achieving that fine balance between knowing how to imitate life and then being able to recreate that imagine in your head on an empty canvas is something a lot of artists want. That's hard af though. But you can't have success without failure, that's why we have so many WIPS xD Lucky for us, our brains and hands are amazing at learning. Eventually those WIPS might become actual realised works. Crying, praying and manifesting for us both xDDD Now, if you're struggling with shading and lighting, I suggest doing value studies. Perhaps take black and white photos with a striking relationship between shadow and light, then try to replicate that without colour picking. Try to observe the whole picture, without paying too much attention to the details at first, Make your brush strokes large especially when sketching out the initial shapes. You can give yourself a time limit of say, 5-60 minutes, for each study, but I wouldn't go over a 1,5h hour limit. I recommend using fairly simple images, with less textures and where shapes are the main character so to speak. Then when you think you're ready, you can do the same thing but this time choose coloured images but still use only white/black. Excercises like these help me a ton when I feel like I wanna update my skills. Doing art is a never-ending learning curve but I feel like that's what makes it so stimulating hehe Below is an example of one value study I did recently. I don't do these often but I know I probably should xD I always just do colour studies nowdays cause that's something I'm most interested in observing at the moment :D But this is just an example of what you can do if you want to learn shading in particular. Now it doesn't need to be perfect, it's just practice that may help you get used to values and how they interact with each other on the canvas.
You can also do colour studies if that is something you're interested in. Those might be a bit more challenging but as long as you keep each study short and use simple images (like literally just an image of an egg on a table or something xD), it shouldn't be too intimidating. Sorry for such a long reply xD I hope you have lots of fun and get all the possible enjoyment from making art! So happy for you!!! Wishing you all the motivation, success and inspiration in the world!!!
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♡ First Love ♡
Han Jisung x (f) reader Word count: 2.3k Genre: first love, smut, highschool, one-shot warnings: marking ⋆ creampie ⋆ inexperienced han and inexperienced reader ⋆ oral (f. receiving) ⋆ multiple orgasms ⋆ cunnilingus ⋆ squirting ⋆
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It's nearing the end of summer but for some reason the heat is the worst it's been all week. A drop of sweat drips down your neck as you chat away with your friend on the grass. There's a river that runs through your high school and the shade of the trees along it is the only escape from the scorching heat during lunch break.
You're telling your friend all about the good looking boy you sat across from on the bus the other day and gushing over how he looked while your friend listens with sympathy.
"He had this wavy, chocolate coloured hair that fell in front of his glasses when he was reading. I saw him flick his head to move it and his face was so pretty I thought my soul was going to leave my body when I saw it!", you say. "I get you like looking at cute boys and admiring them, but how about you actually try talking to one?", your friend teases. "Maybe ~", you reply unconvincingly. "And then", you continue, blushing as you recall it, "he flicked his hair away again and we made eye contact!" Your friend rolls her eyes and replies, "In all seriousness, you need a boyfriend or at least some interaction with the male population."
You know she's right; you don't have any male friends or in fact anyone of the opposite sex in your life, apart from family and teachers. Attending an all girls school makes making male friends harder than you had expected.
While all this was going on, you yet again fail to notice a certain chocolate-haired boy watching you from across the river for the fourth day in a row. Han Jisung watches you talking with your friend from the opposite side of the river through the trees. Perched on a rock with a book in his lap he makes sure not to miss any of your movements and expressions as he admires you from afar.
Han is in no way a model student but he has impressive grades despite that. He seems like a quiet nerd but in reality he's carefree and loud. He does whatever he feels like doing and skips school often.
His heart and mind were somehow captivated the first time he saw you as he was wandering by the river. The way your long wavy hair dangled around your shoulders, how your smile seemed to radiate all the way to where he stood and how your elegant movements and your silly ones mesmerized him was beyond his understanding. He's desperate to speak to you at least once, even just to hear how your voice sounds.
As the bell rings and you're getting ready leave your class on the second floor, you spot someone through the window. Looking down at the gap in between the trees, you see a person sitting on a rock and leaning on a thin branch with their head sagged downwards on an angle towards the water. Thinking they might fall in, you rush down the stairs past all the people and out the building.
Running down the path and across the bridge towards the person as your bag thumps against your side, you realize he's falling asleep. Worried you'll startle him, you make your way behind the rock he's on. He looks familiar but you can't tell where you've seen him before, especially since you're looking at his back.
You reach out to grab his shoulders to make him lean away from the water. He suddenly jolts forward in surprise at the touch, causing you both to lose your balance and fall into the river. The cool water gives you a shock and you struggle to lift yourself out. Even though the river is only thigh deep your whole uniform is soaked.
You almost forget about the person you just failed to save when you hear splashing and cursing coming from behind you. A chill runs through your spine as a strong grip takes hold of your wrist. Your throat closes in fear as he says, "Who the hell are you and how did we both end up in this damn river?" "You were nodding off and I tried to stop you from falling in but I didn't expect you to pull away like that...", you trail off at how utterly stupid you sound. Expecting to hear an exasperated response, you raise your head upwards to see a look of complete shock painted on his face.
Now you properly see his face, you notice how insanely handsome he is; large eyes, perfect bone structure, a toned body and in particular you notice his chocolate coloured hair that is dripping with river water.
Realizing who you are, the one and only girl Han had been obsessing over for the past few days, he composes himself and lets go of your wrist. "Thanks for trying to help, I guess," he says, laughing awkwardly, "and I'm sorry if I scared you.
Perhaps it's because of the relief that he's not mad or just the strange and hopeless situation you're in or how cute he looks - all wet and sad puppy like - you let out a laugh. Han malfunctions for a second when he hears your laugh for the first time and then tentatively asks, "Are you free now?" "Well I can't exactly walk home like this", you say gesturing to your wet see-through shirt. Han feels his face heat up as he looks at your chest and quickly averts his gaze.
You end up talking for a while as you sit next to each other in the sunshine facing the river. "That's right!", you exclaim, "I saw you on the bus the other day ~ I knew you looked familiar!" Han looks at you in surprise as his thoughts slip out and he says, "but I definitely would've remembered seeing you-" "You were completely in your own world; reading and listening to music", you reply. "O-oh that makes sense", Han splutters, realizing you heard him. Han didn't know what was wrong with him; he's never this flustered or the blushing mess he's become.
"Would you like to come over to my place to dry off and I can give you a change of clothes?", Han suggests and adds, "it's just down the road." By this time your clothes were mostly dry but a change of clothes sounded nice; his clothes. "That sounds perfect," you say, your mind a scramble of relief and anticipation.
Soon enough you're in his room getting changed into one of his t-shirts. You've removed your soggy bra and underwear leaving you in only your skirt that had luckily dried.
Even the thought of you changing in his room into one of his t-shirts was too much to handle and he only just noticed a bulge that appeared under his sweatpants.
You open the door and when Han sees you he's speechless. You do a quick spin and ask him how you look but all he can do is avoid eye contact to stay calm. He tries to erase the image in his mind of when your skirt lifted as you spun around.
Breaking the silence, Han offers to braid your hair as it's become a bit of a mess since falling in the river. Gratefully, you accept and sit yourself down on his bed, turning away from him.
You flinch slightly as his fingers graze your neck while he's dividing the hair. You can feel his soft breath from behind and the warmth of his body even though the room is already hot.
"All done!", he says a little proudly. "How about I give you a massage as a thank you then?", you suggest. "Really?", Han says in disbelief. "Lie down on your stomach", you tell him. Next, you're sitting on top of him and massaging down his back. His shoulders are wide and muscular and his waist is incredibly thin. You giggle as the thought of his back feeling like a big muscly marshmallow pops into your head.
Han's sure it feels incredible but all he can focus on is the discomfort of his dick pushing into his stomach from below. His body is still tense under your touch despite your efforts to help him relax. As you find your hands focusing too much on massaging the sides of his slim waist, you scold yourself internally. "Now turn over", you command. Han panics but it's too late. You've already pushed him over in his jelly like state. Your eyes widen as you pause to look at the bulge in his sweatpants.
"Can I... touch it?", you ponder out loud. But before Han can answer you're pulling the waistband down and taking in the view. It's long and curved with a couple of veins running down the sides. Han groans and you stare down at him in fascination before lightly holding his dick and tasting the precum off your fingers. Han almost cums at the sight and muffles a moan. You begin stroking his dick and Han covers his face with his hand and lets out another pretty moan. The tip is pink and dripping with precum as you continue exploring his dick with your hands. He's a flustered wreck below you and you can't help but wish you could ingrain the sight into your brain. He starts trembling and repeatedly moans your name as his dick twitches and your hands are covered in his cum.
"Shit, I'm so sorry it's just you were too pretty and it felt so good and I might be in love with you and I've been thinking about you way too much and and-", he says as you cut him off with a quick kiss. Not how you expected your first kiss to turn out but it was still perfect somehow.
"I might be in love with you too", you confess, feeling a little overwhelmed but happy. Han looked dazed but excited at the reply to his sudden confession.
He swept you into a hug and kissed you until you were both gasping for air. He kept kissing down your neck with his soft puffy lips, giving you little shivers of pleasure until he reached your collar bone where he sucked hard at your skin making you gasp as he left red marks. He began playing with your breasts before focusing on your nipples, licking and twisting them. He kept his intense gaze fixed on your face so he could catch all your expressions to how he was making you feel.
You gasp in surprise as his hot wet tongue starts licking inside and around your ear making you flinch at the sensitivity. He continues kissing all the way down your stomach and your inner thighs with such tenderness and care you almost feel bad about the slightly rough handjob you gave him earlier.
Han holds you knees apart as he studies your dripping pussy and tries blowing on it. He marvels as you flinch and clench around nothing. "At least our curiosity goes both ways", you think to yourself.
Covering his fingers in your juices he gently tries rubbing your clit and you arch your back at the feeling. Taking this as a good sign he begins licking it and inserts his middle and ring fingers into your pussy. His fingers are long and slightly rough as he strokes your g-spot and he begins sucking on your clit. Too much was happening at once for your brain to take in and all of sudden you're squirting on his beautiful face but he's too out of it to care as if he's drunk on your pussy.
You think you must've blacked out at some point and as soon as you're back you're cumming again. "Awh this time you didn't squirt baby", whines Han as if he just lost a videogame. "We'll have to try again okay?", he says. You're in too much of a daze to reply so you just nod.
His fingers speed up and his tongue moves faster before lightly nibbling on your clit. Your insides spasm as the clear liquid shoots out again and you begin seeing stars. Your brain's empty apart from Han and you couldn't focus on shit even if you wanted to.
You're so overstimulated and it all feels like a dream but then you hear Han say, "Come on baby I know you can take more than this." And he's not wrong; you're craving more but whether you can handle it is a different story.
He turns you over like a ragdoll onto your stomach and raises your hips up to his. The fucked out look on your face is short circuiting his brain and all at once he's inside you.
You feel him twitching deep inside you. His hand presses down on the bulge on your stomach making you clench even more around him. He starts relentlessly pushing in and out of you the same way you go in and out of consciousness. The pleasure's driving you both insane and soon you're cumming and trembling around his cock. He doesn't slow down until he's cumming too and the hot liquid is coating your insides and leaving you shaking and whimpering with your eyes rolled back as you clutch the bedsheets.
"Are you okay baby?", Han asks, his eyes big and full of concern. It's already morning and you're still in Han's bed. You try getting up before realizing how weak you are, never mind the rest of Han's cum pouring out between your thighs. "Han, I'm not too sure I can move ~ ", you complain, more surprised than mad. It's hard to be mad when your boyfriend wakes you up looking this cute.
You reach for your phone smiling and message your friend 'I got a boyfriend (^///^)'.
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J Stands for more words than one PT.4
DISCLAIMER You are responsible for the content you consume. Make sure to read all necessary warnings. Minors do not interact. Please remember this is a work of fiction; if you don’t like it, don’t read it.
Warnings: Drinking/Drunkenness, P in V, getting freaky in a car, fighting, slight mentions of death, Jealousy??
Pairing: Spencer Reid x F! Reader
Word Count: 3.6k
Little author message here- Finally out!! AHH part 4 was way overdue - and part 5 is almost ready to be posted >:) this chapter gets...interesting...so take that how you will
part 1 here | part 2 here | part 2.5 here | part 3 here
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Gracia, JJ, and Emily had gotten all dressed up and were already seated in a booth, chatting. Emily sat with JJ, and next to Garcia was an open seat. They had ordered a round of shots when they first arrived, and only a few minutes after the trio had arrived and started chatting, Y/N appeared with a staff member, showing her to the trio’s booth. Y/N was wearing a longer dress, one that was maybe a bit too much for meeting your boyfriends’ friends, but in her eyes better to be over than underdressed. “Hi! Aw you look so pretty!” Emily cheered when she saw Y/N approach them. “AH Y/N!! You’re so hot - what the heck??” Garcia jumped out of the booth and gave Y/N a quick, welcoming hug before the two sat down.
JJ was stunned. As soon as she saw Y/N walk over to their table, that pit in her stomach was back. Y/N genuinely looked so good. She was so beautiful, and all done up - from her hair to her heels. JJ was a grown woman, she shouldn’t feel so intimidated by someone younger and prettier than her…But…it was just so easy to be intimidated by someone who was currently dating your old coworker crush.
Y/N sat down and looked around with a smile. “So- did I miss anything??” Emily shook her head and handed Y/N a shot. “Nope! We all just got here as well..Garcia ordered a round for the table, so enjoy!” Y/N took the shot and looked around the table. She was a little nervous meeting these women, but she decided to take the shot to push down those anxious feelings. Garcia and Emily cheered as Y/N drank, slamming the shot glass down as she put it back on the table in front of them. The group cheered, all making small talk while they drank themselves half blind. “So, I’m sure all of us want to know how you and Spence met!” JJ started the conversation, a smile on her face. Emily and Garcia lit up, excited to hear about Y/N’s experience with their ‘boy wonder’. Y/N glanced over at JJ, shrugging and smiling softly.
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“I mean…I work as a librarian, so I’d see him reading books all the time, staying at the library for so long that I’d have to kick him out for closing time…” Y/N looked down at a shot glass she was fidgeting with in her hands before looking back up at everyone. “I always thought he was pretty cute, so one time when I was going to kick him out for closing time, I just…asked him out” She shrugged, her small smile slowly growing. “In my eyes there was no harm in asking, and if things went south, well, I was already kicking him out” The group laughed, hearing the couples’ origin while Garcia smiled warmly. She cupped her hands together as Y/N shared this story. “Aww that’s so romantic - and so Spencer to be asked out at a library of all places”. Y/N grinned, nodding excitedly as she took another shot for confidence.
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JJ just nodded, taking another shot as she thought about asking Spencer out. Hypothetically what she would do. Hypothetically how she would go about it. She probably knew him better than this girl anyways…JJ was quiet, deep in thought as the other girls chatted. It was late into the night, and the girls had all easily drank too much. They were slurring their words, playing drinking games, and enjoying themselves…well…most of them. JJ sat next to Y/N, looking more annoyed as the night went on. “Oh! Oh! I have another question” Garcia butted into Emily and Y/N’s conversation. “Is he romantic? I can’t picture him not being a shy nerdy guy…” Y/N smiled warmly, thinking about her boyfriend. She wanted to call him, text him…anything really. She just missed him after all. She nodded, a faint blush crossing her cheeks. “Oh yeah! He’ll write me poems, surprise me with flowers when he gets home from long trips, and loves baking…’because it’s a science’ as he would say” Y/N took another sip of her new drink, and sighed. “He surprises me in other ways after long trips, but we don’t have to get into that…” She said it as a passing comment, but everyone’s heads shot to Y/N. JJ, in particular, was starting to feel uncomfortable…she had been picturing this new, unknown version of Spencer in her mind. Imagining baking with him…Imaging him bringing her flowers…This was not ok. JJ knew this was bad, yet she couldn’t stop these images flashing into her mind…except Y/N never seemed to be pictured. “Ooooo and what other ways does he surprise you??” This time Emily was the one to jump in and speak. Garcia followed suit, grinning “Yeahhh Y/N what other ways? Spill it!” Y/N was definitely too sober for this conversation. Especially with his coworkers?? Y/N reached for another drink, trying to feel the buzz.
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Y/N looked around the table, and sighed. “Well you know, his memory is pretty insane…if we…” she gestured with her hand, “…If I like something, he already knows.. I don’t have to pretend I’m enjoying anything…I don’t have to remind him what I don’t like…ya know?” She paused and smiled “He’s putting that memory to good use..” Garcia and Emily grinned, surprisingly enjoying the thrill of learning about the secret sides of their coworker. “So what- you do anything?” The question cut through the air like shards of glass. Y/N turned to face JJ, a confused expression on her face. “What?” All JJ could think about was Spencer this. Spencer that. Spence…everything. She was trying to shift the conversation away from him, for her own sake. “You heard me…what do you do?”
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Y/N had a confused expression on her face, looking back to the empty shot glass in front of her. She started to slowly spin the rim of the glass, pursing her lips as she thought “Well…when you’ve all been away for at least a week or two, traveling across the country…” She paused, a small smile growing on her face as she thought about her boyfriend. “I always make sure he walks through the door feeling comforted and happy…Sometimes I’ll go out for the week…pick up something…purple” Y/N laughed softly and looked up at the group in front of her, especially keeping an eye on JJ. “Did you know that? He…really loves the color purple…like a lot…” She continued to speak. “Sometimes I’ll plan a little scavenger hunt, just for him..” Her smile grew “Like…hide things around our apartment building and make him work for what he wants…and as far as I know he enjoys finding the clues…little price tags hidden in the laundry room, a box from his favorite brand in the lobby, little love notes saying what-” Y/N turned a little bit, glancing at JJ. “what I’m gonna do once he solves the scavenger hunt…” Y/N shrugged and smiled warmly. “Sometimes I throw in little puzzles for him to solve…cause why not…I like the way he looks using that big brain of his…it’s pretty cute…” “and then?” Gracia jumped in, almost hanging on every word. Y/N looked back at Garcia, a small smirk forming across her lips as she shrugged. “Well, once he makes his way back to the apartment, after…finishing the little game i set up, he gets what he wants” She shrugged, the smirk stuck on her face. JJ pursed her lips, taking that all in. She never imagined Spencer being like…like this? Hell- why was she even imagining what she’d be like with him? In compromising positions? This was bad. Very bad…
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Some Time Later
The girls were all at least 5 drinks deep, not including the 10 shots they took. The girls were wasted, to say the least. As the night went on, so did the questions aimed towards Y/N. The only difference from the start of their interrogation? Y/N was pretty drunk.Garcia was still somehow full of energy and egging Y/N on, begging to hear all the gossip. “-And oh my gosh the praise..? It’s so sexy sometimes..oh! And-” “Oh! What’s he working with..?” JJ jumped in, yet again. Though, Y/N didn’t seem to care this time. Garcia laughed and gestured towards JJ, agreeing with her. “Yeah! You hyped him up, now we gotta know!” Y/N looked amongst the group and quickly held her hands up and started moving them slowly, farther apart (think that one Family Guy bit with Stewie and Taylor Swift). Everyone laughed, gasping and shouting as Y/N finally stopped. JJ shoved Y/N “shut up! No way!” Y/N just smiled and shrugged, pretending to be nonchalant.
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JJ was wasted. Not buzzed, not drunk- wasted. She would drink, trying to forget the things Y/N would mention, but it was no use. All she could think of was Spencer. Walking over to her sitting at her BAU desk, when he would softly grab her by the chin, making her look at him. He would be shirtless, wearing only a BAU bullet-proof vest over his toned- no- ripped chest. He would scoop her up, carrying her bridal style over to the elevator outside their office. “-JJ? JJ we asked you a question…” It was Emily that brought JJ out of her drunken fantasy. This was past the point of bad, but JJ didn’t seem to care. “Huh? What was the question?” Emily and Garcia looked at each other before Garcia spoke up. JJ was so off tonight. ”You’re so close with Spencer! Does he ever bring Y/N up..?” It was an odd question, yeah, but they were drunk and definitely were not keeping things professional.
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JJ thought about Spence. She had been through everything with him. She honestly considered herself his work wife, but they never really discussed stuff like that. All she could think about was what they’ve been through, what they’ve witnessed, when they would comfort each other during especially hard cases. Shne shrugged, seeming unimpressed. “I mean yeah, sometimes I’d see him talking on the phone before and he looked…so..happy..” JJ pursed her lips and smiled awkwardly. Then, maybe it was the alcohol or all the memories tied to Spencer, but something slipped out that definitely should not have. “..You aren’t even a little bit scared to be with him? To be attached to a government job like ours..?” Y/N looked over at JJ. She had a twisted expression on her face. She looked like some mix of discomfort and frustration. Y/N’s brows furrowed and she turned to face JJ. “Should I be…?” “You know I’m - we’re all much more used to the steaks this job brings, maybe you’re just…not ready for all that” Y/N was frustrated, confused by this constant twist of words and deception. She tried to play off the comments by laughing. “Come on JJ, we’ve been dating for quite some time now…I think I can handle being with him-” JJ jumped in, cutting Y/N off yet again. “You can handle it? Yeah? Well, where were you when he was trying to get over his addiction..? Where were you when he got kidnapped and almost died…?” The three girls were stunned, listening to the drunken ramblings of JJ. Y/N felt embarrassed. She had no idea these things had happened to her boyfriend, he had never really brought them up to her. “What..? JJ I think you’ve had enough..” Y/N awkwardly tried to push away the drink in front of JJ, but she ended up grabbing Y/N’s wrist. The two stared deeply into each other’s eyes, almost as if no one else was in the room. “JJ come on now, that’s enough…” It was Emily who finally spoke up, trying to defend Y/N. “His last girlfriend died because of this job…did he ever tell you that..? Did you ever help him through the grieving process..? Did you even consider you don’t know him like we do…maybe you’re just not meant for someone like him”
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You could hear a pin drop. Y/N just sat there, feeling disgusted, confused, and upset. Garcia and Emily started shouting at JJ, trying to get her to take back what she said. “What? Am I wrong? You all witnessed the same things I did!” Y/N just sat there, processing what JJ had just said. Taking it in, looking it over, processing… everything. She slowly looked back up at JJ, anger seeping onto her face. “And what- you think you’re so much better? You think you know him like I do…? Jennifer- JJ- ugh whatever the fuck your name is, he’s my boyfriend - not yours he didn’t ask you out. He doesn’t love you. Doesn’t touch you, like he does to me- ok?”
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JJ scoffed and rolled her eyes. “Whatever - love me or not, you could never be as close as we are...” Y.N was angry now - “Wow ok…” Y/N looked up to see a clock on the wall, it was past midnight. She moved out of the booth, scooting and shoving before finally getting free. She stood in front of everyone, looking past JJ to the other girls. They both looked equally uncomfortable. “Ladies…it was nice to meet you but…I think I’m gonna get a ride home…” Y/N walked past the booth, heading for the bar near the entrance. She finally relaxed as she sat down, the stress she was facing earlier disappearing. What the fuck was that?
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Spencer had been enjoying his night, watching movies and getting ready to head to bed. He was happy Y/N was finally learning more about his work life, and the people in it. They had been dating for a year now, and he loved Y/N, wanted to keep her in his life any way he could. That’s when his cell phone started to ring. Spencer muted the TV, walking over to see…it was Y/N? “Y/N? Hello, what's up? Any thoughts on the girls yet?” “I need you to come pick me up..I..drank too much and feel sick..” Spencer’s eyebrows raised and he walked over to grab his car keys. “Ok…Ok don’t worry baby I’ll be there soon…just stay put…” What had happened? Why did Y/N sound…sad..? Maybe it was just her sickness…it was probably just that.
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15 minutes later
Spencer walked into the bar, seeing Y/N alone at the bar counter. Ok, now he was really confused. Why was she alone? Why was her body language so…closed off? Where were his coworkers? “..Y/N..?” He gently placed a hand on her shoulder. He watched her turn around, and her disappointed reaction quickly morphed into shock and happiness. He loved the way she smiled, how she looked when he finally appeared in front of her at the bar. She pulled him in for a hug, something he wasn’t usually comfortable with, but he would accept a hug any day or time from the person he loves. “Spencer..!” He heard a familiar voice stumbling towards him. “Garcia…? What’s going on..?” Garcia looked at Y/N then to Spencer. “It was so great getting to know Y/N but um…JJ happened…” Garci turned back to see the table. “She…drank a little too much..” Spencer, confused, made sure to bookmark that information and ask JJ what happened very soon. “Okay…” He looked back over at Garcia “you guys need a ride home too? We’re all pretty close by, we can drop you off…”
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Garcia looked at Y/N, and sighed, looking back towards the table. “I mean, if Y/N’s ok with it…it would definitely be cheaper and safer than taking a taxi…” Y/N, tired and annoyed, smiled softly shrugging Garcia’s question off.. “Sure why not?” Garcia smiled and gave Y/N a side hug. “Thank you thank you thank you! I’ll go grab the girls” Garcia walked away, and Spencer just watched. He gently placed a hand on Y/N’s lower back. Was something weird going on? Or was he suddenly really bad at reading people?
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One by one, the girls, Y/N, and Spencer walk out of the bar together. Garcia and Emily are laughing, holding onto each other as they stumble towards Spencer’s car. JJ stumbled out as well, possibly acting the most drunk out of the group. The sidewalk was uneven, and as she made her way towards the car, she not-so gracefully stumbled and almost fell, grabbing Spencer's forearm. Y/N just stared at JJ. Oh that was so on purpose. Y/N just rolled her eyes, watching as Spencer helped JJ up. “You ok JJ..? That was a rough fall” “Honestly…I don’t know…maybe I could hold onto you for support..? Just so I don’t fall again..” A confused expression formed on Spencer’s face, but he shrugged it off. “Ok..” JJ perked up, smiling as she hugged Spencer’s arm and held onto it for support.
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Look at her. So smug, so insufferable, so…annoying. It was honestly gross. Y/N let go of Spencer’s hand she had been holding, and just watched JJ from the side. JJ glanced over at Y/N, smirking. So…cringey. Y/N rolled her eyes and shook her head, following the group. “Where is this car anyway? Did you park on the opposite end of the earth..?” Emily joked, but honestly, they had been walking for at least 6 minutes now. Where was this car anyway? “Right here! No more walking” Spencer chuckled and opened the passenger and back doors for everyone. Emily and Garcia sighed with relief, no more walking. The pair climbed into the backseats. “Thankss Spencer! Yeah thanks Reid!” They laughed and sat comfortably, ready to go. Now it was just a trio, Spencer standing in between either woman. JJ finally let go of his arm, but smiled up at him, biting her lip and laughing softly. “Spence…I’mm like…ffivee minutes away…can I sit in the frront seat..?” Spencer turned to face Y/N. To be fair, she was closest to this bar. It was a 15 minute drive from her house…but what it would symbolize, having his “work wife” in the passenger seat next to him…while his actual girlfriend sat in the back…that was not a good look for them. Though, the more she thought about it, she’d be able to spend time with the coworkers she actually liked, and laugh with. “You know what? Go ahead. I’ll be in the back with Garcia and Emily..”
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Wait- what? Spencer looked at Y/N, confusion crossing his face once again. JJ smiled though and shrugged “If you insist…” And without hesitation, she hurried over to the front seat while Y/N made her way to the back, greeting the other girls with a smile. Spencer goes to the driver's side and shuts the door, confusion still fueling his brain. JJ seemed so much happier about this than the others, watching Spencer as she started to drive down the road, bringing JJ back to her home. Wow Spencer was…so…”You’rre soo cool when you drrive with onne hand Spencce..you lookk like a badass from one of those crime shows…”
Spencer laughed awkwardly. Why was JJ acting this way? It was…odd. “Um…thanks? I guess..?” he felt weird, glancing up into the rear view mirror, seeing Y/N. She seemed annoyed. She was rolling her eyes and occasionally talking with Emily and Garcia…huh. Something was definitely up. Spencer looked back to the road and sighed. Whatever was going on, whatever this tension was in the air, needed to be resolved asap.
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“Annddd here we are!” Spencer pulled into JJ’s driveway. He smiled, looking to the person in his passenger seat. JJ smiled, visibly drunk. “SSpencee can you wwalk me insidee..?” JJ softly grabbed Spencer’s wrist, looking up at him hopefully. She tugged at his slender wrist, pleading. “Cmonn please..?” Reid glanced at Y/N in the back seat and sighed. He did care about JJ, and this was probably the right thing to do. “Fine...but I gotta drop off the other ladies so let’s speed this up..!” He continued to smile, getting out of the car as JJ was visibly excited. She glanced back towards the car before they shut the front door, heading inside.
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Hello... May I make a request?
When I watched some clips from FX Shogun, I discovered that most women in 16th Century Japan (especially the Noble Lady) was very reserved and demure.
So, instead a proper, Japanese lady at that time, what would the warlords think with a foreigner, confident and seductive MC ☺️?
(Nobunaga + the warlords of your choice)
Thank you 💜
Hello! ฅ(^・ω��^ฅ)
Welcome to my blog and thankyou for requesting!
Sorry this took so long
Foreigner MC
• Oda Forces
→ Nobunaga Oda
• Nobunaga was already intrigued with your choice of clothes when he first met you
• he had infact never seen those types of clothes before. So he deemed that you maybe were a tourist
• and he was right. Seeing how you didn't speak Japanese and knew absolutely nothing about proper etiquette
• you were eager to help around the castle but your movements were clumsy. Very clumsy. Nobunaga deemed it unsafe for you to help around the castle and stuck to teaching you proper Japanese culture first.
• in the meantime, he stuck to learning your language so he can communicate with you more smoothly
• his first questions for you were about your culture and traditions. And what sweets you have back from where you come from
• he may ask you to make some for him
→ Hideyoshi Toyotomi
• this man does not trust you one bit.
• but seeing how clumsy and reckless you were he had no choice but to stick by your side
• his first job was to teach you proper etiquette
• that included how to tie the obi of your kimono correctly. You can't just wear those same dirty clothes everyday afterall!
• once he warms up to you tho, he asks you to teach him your language so he can understand you better
→ Mitsuhide Akechi
• oh how fun. He's got some new entertainment
• things were getting rather dull around here anyways
• he tries to tease you to potentially get some information out of you however that quickly changes when all you do is smile and nod your head at his teasing before going on on your merry way
• seeing your clumsiness and cluelessness, he decides to be your teacher and teach you everything you need to learn to survive this era
• he throws in some tease every once in a while but you don't give him the reaction he wishes to see
• it's okay you're getting there 👌
→ Mitsunari Ishida
• oh how fun!
• The first thing he does is learn your language so you two can have a good long cultural exchange
• he would love to talk to you and assist you with your tasks (if you get any that is)
• or he would just like to chat in general
• he wants to know EVERYTHING there is to know about your culture and traditions. About where you come from, how you dress, what made you visit Japan etc.
Uesugi Takeda Forces
→ Sasuke Sarutobi
• when he first interacted with you near the monument, and when you both got swept through the wormhole, he knew he had to find you
• you won't survive for long on your own here
• after he finds you, he let's you in on your current situation and confiscates your translator. (He doesn't want you whipping it out casually to talk to the warlords because they would very NOT take is very causally)
• anyways he becomes your guide and helped through the sengoku era from that point
Thankyou for reading!
• Taglist: @bakersgrief @kissmetwicekissmedeadly @mollycoddle707 @bontu-the-l0ver @ludivineikewolf @rubia8
(If anyone would like to be added or removed just lemme know!)
PS: This took longer than i had originally intended to and I'm sorry if it isn't to your liking
Life isn't going as smoothly as I thought
If it helps I thought of a funny scenario regarding this request:
Imagine everytime MC tries to explain something to the warlords in the war council and they fail to, she just whips out her translator and as soon as they see that black box thing relay her message the whole council erupts in absolute chaos with Hideyoshi yelling "A WITCH! SHE'S A WITCH"
and the MC is just looking at him with a questioning smile because she doesn't understand shit
And that's how they found out she's from the future<3
#shojun rambles#sh0jun rambles#sh0 talks about ikesen#ikesen drabbles#ikemen sengoku#cybrid ikemen series#ikesen#ikesen nobunaga#ikesen mitsuhide#ikesen mitsunari#ikesen hideyoshi#ikesen sasuke#ikemen sengoku sasuke#ikemen sengoku nobunaga#ikemen sengoku hideyoshi#ikemen sengoku mitsuhide#ikemen sengoku mitsunari
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Some speculations on nonsense from the Arber and Doby gaming stream
at some point they absolutely crack up, resulting in the following:
Doby: Can we even say that?
Arber: ...yeah (vibe of, you COULD but it would be a terrible idea)
Doby: Well. *snorts*
They both crack up again
Arber: I don't know what that uh, like what, that's a question, but uh
Doby: I don't know
Arber: That's a good question though. About. Pezzy
(Both struggle not to grin, laughing)
Then Later:
Doby, reading off the chat: "I'll take it as a no for Pezz"
(Both immediately crack up again)
Arber, reading chat, laughing: "Don't worry I'll keep it to myself"?
(Doby, hand on his face laughing)
Arber: Why do you wanna know that! I'm wondering, why you wanna know that.
And again, Later:
Arber, reading the chat: "Can you hit the Pezz celly after your next fight?
(Doby starting laughing. Again)
Arber: I mean, I won't even have my stick, so I don't know what I'm gonna be sitting on... *laughs*
(Doby, losing it)
So: What was the question?
They were streaming on both Twitch and Youtube, however they took almost all their questions from Youtube. It's possible the question was a different one from twitch but I don't think so... RIGHT BEFORE they changed it so the chat was deleted for the video I looked back through and found the surrounding questions they'd read out and roughly correct timestamp and the only question that would possibly make sense was:
"Who on the team pees sitting down?"
#arber spent the entire stream being kind of pissy it was hilarious ngl#man clearly did not want to be there looking the fool as he played nhl 4 the first time#meanwhile doby seemed to love mcing the questions#this meant arber kinda lightly bullied doby the whole time and was a bit prickly in a funny way. doby was very expressive#but yeah they were losing it over this#i am a solid 90% sure that indeed was the question and arber chose to throw pezz under the bus 4 no reason lmao#ANOTHER funny thing from the stream was doby whispering to arber as if they didnt both have mics clipped on to try and ask what something#meant when he was pretty sure he wasnt supposed to say it#anyway this was perfect. as always forcing them 2 play video games and respond to chat was sooo good#the slaf and guhles one was great for the video game gameplay#this one was good for the interactions with chat
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#I've had the cutest interaction today#So like yesterday? There was this post I saw on my dash that was like “you want to know extra info about museums? Just befriend a–#guide! That way you can also unlock the Secret Backscene” and I was like. Lmao. Who could ever befriend a museum guide I've never–#even personally met anyone who works at museums?#... Well. Guess what happened today#I was following this guided museum tour with a friend and when the tour came to an end I was happily chatting with her when the guide.#Shyly chimed in and was like “is that an Atsushi keychain?” And I was like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#And I was like‚‚ omg‚‚‚ Do you happen to know‚‚‚ This one series‚‚‚‚‚‚#And they unsheathed their phone like a fbi distinctive in American movies to show me their fyo/zai background amjdsgawsjda it was SO cute.#They were adorable. And I got so embarassed but trying to keep my cool while internally I was like‚‚‚#Omg the Cool Museum Guide™ is talking with me about my hyperfixation‚‚‚‚‚‚ What is happening#We talked a bit about the manga it was such a nice and sweet exchange. They said they like Dostoyevsky and I was like yeah he's so cool!!!#They said they're sorry about Bram it was REALLY cute (´;ω;`)#I didn't want to hamper them too much so I took my leave shortly after but I'd actually really like to pay visit again–#when the new chapter is out??#Hhhhhhh I don't want to look stalkery and like go look for them on their job. But also like‚ they looked genuinely happy and as excited as–#I was when we were chatting and I believe in the power of human connections through shared hyperfixations#The possibly funnier part is that then my friend went “Wait you're into b/ungo stray dogs??” and like alright. This is less surprising.#I already knew she likes manga.#What actually left me quite baffled was that... She really didn't know I was into b/sd. When it's literally what I think about 24/7#Something very similar happened just a week ago. My friend gifted me a manga volume of a series she really likes for my birthday#But when she was giving it to me she awkwardly went “oh‚ just‚ it features romance between two guys. I hope that's okay with you...”#And I internally had to pause and realize that no.#In fact most of the people I hang out with don't know I spend half my time curating a bl focused blog.#It's just funny in a way? I got so used to concealing my hyperfixations I didn't even realize I actually got quite good at passing–#for someone who is normal about stuff.#random rambles
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reading Krakoa era out of order bc reading lists online make it confusing and my local library only has so many books
just as god intended right on my friend you're doing everything right and don't let anyone tell you otherwise
#snap chats#the key to reading comic books isnt to read them in order or even all of them just the ones you like#until eventually someone tells you some wack as hell fact about an issue and then you go read that one#many such cases why do you think i picked up onslaught revelation. cause that fucker is back#why do you think i picked up wolverine number 3 because my beautiful wife is hammered for two pages in it#brother was just talkin to me casually bout onslaught one day and i was like NO FUCKIN WAY thats how you do it !!!!!!!!#like the first krakoa story i read technically was resurrection of magneto followed by the trial of magneto#clearly we see i had an agenda vjALKJKLAJ BUT STILL#it was STILL a really good run ... i could piece together enough of the background before then and really enjoyed it on its own#with that said tho it was very cool/funny to see crumbs Of trial of magneto in way of x#BUT NOW I HAVE LEGION OF X HAHAAAA i cant wait to properly sit and read it ..... after i get through my New Mutants issues ....#i got those a while ago but i kept putting off reading them ... oops ..... i read the first one at least#i was gonna say something but i forgot. oh no i didnt i remember thats what i love about comic books#because theres So Many and so many timelines and stories it invites a lot of community interaction#just to be like 'oh hey did you know This happened in This issue you should check it out'. thats beautiful#even if. its to talk about utter dog shit like she lies with angels BUT STILL ITS COMMUNITY !!!!! we can be lovers AND haters together <3#its why i love getting physical comics too. i mean i dont have friends or people who visit me LOL#but i like the idea of bringing up what i have and letting people borrow it. community ......
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HI YES I'M GOING TO ROME TO SEE JOONG AND DUNK IRL
#i'm still in a bad mood bc i didn't get the ticket(s) i wanted#like i didn't get one that guarantees me an interaction#(i'd love to tell dunk how incredibly important his specific portrayal of style is to me)#but hey at least my thai will only improve by the time i get the chance to actually chat with them#if i just speak to them in fluent thai i'm sure that will make me memorable lol#airenyah plappert#adrm#i swear to god if one of those bitches who used to bad mouth dunk pre-thk got one of the good passes and i didn't...#there WILL be a murder in rome
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My fourth wall OCs! ♥ (Patreon)
I tried to put everything in the tags but ended up being too long-winded lol, so here it is instead!
For this year’s big behind-the-scenes project, I realized I haven’t given colour references to a lot of my 4th Wall characters! There are...a surprising proportion of femboys who are aware of their existence here now that I look at it lol - I mean technically only Cory and Mint count there but that's still 2/8 - a fourth is kind of a lot! Their sizing is pretty funny to me as well, Cory’s proportions make everyone else look tiny by comparison, he’s just got a very large eye! Set right next to Gijat too, Vortians are so compact - he’s fully grown he’s an adult he’s just small!
Okay, for actuals now, starting left-to-right - while they’re obviously organized by height, it's funny because Cure is also the oldest by creation date. She's front of the line on everything! How silly. She's larger than your average plush bear but only by a little - just enough to be like Mildly intimidating if she approached haha. Puntable - and yet unpuntable lol. It's not just her being the oldest of the lot that makes her more powerful (although that is a contributing factor - she’s aware of her status both in and out of character!). It's not just Kids Rules either since she was made such a long time ago - y'know like ''Oh yeah well my character is [very powerful for X reasons]'' - although yes Also That lol. She's a Fourth Wall OC down to her roots, always intended that way - not everyone here can say that!
Tala also has that edge! Though in a very different way haha - she's also the only one here with a physical counterpart, which is fun :D Means she can go on “actual” adventures and bring that knowledge back with her cartoon versions - both are as real as the other! I keep forgotting her bow, agh, I need to take some more pictures of her sometime so my mental picture of her is more up to date haha
I guess my blankslate HF expression kind of counts?? Lol, it’s mostly for funsies, they’re more like a Concept As Person so?? Sure lol, With Accessories of course lol - haven’t been fighting it much lately so that’s all for now ♪ I wonder if they’ll stay so lucky in the near future hmmm
Gijat! ♥ He ended up being an accidental fourth wall character actually haha, he wasn’t designed with that in mind! He's not meant to know such things, but he did fairly well with it while he was part of the main rotation :) He was designed to be a story character but he ended up being my favourite comfort character so he got a few glimpses out <3 He hasn't for a while though! He's been retired for a long while actually - he's the second oldest character in the lineup after Cure but she had more staying power, sorry Gi <3 I did draw his fairy version not all That long ago tho! It’s hard to let go of anyone for Too long haha
Cory ♥ My sweet special boy <3 He's also the third oldest here! He was the first one to assert himself as a fourth wall OC haha ♪ Cure didn't really congeal into an OC for a long time - she stayed a concept and Gijat was on accident - whereas Cory purposefully and clearly looked outward from the start. He Has a story but it's never been all That developed - he has some non-4th Wall character-friends but his main focus is other, unrelated characters. He's always been very interested in other OCs, a lot of which stems from Bar actually haha - he and Bar are near-contemporaries - they're both featured here for a reason haha
Mint >:| He's...fine. He was inspired from a weird source and has therefore always Been weird - and also asserted himself like Cory. Same story - he has canon story elements but for the most part he's interested in others! Usually in a Pursuit kind of way, and not just limited to my OCs >:/ He needs to behave himself is what - he also has like 1000 outfits and they rarely repeat, ugh, pick one! I wasn’t familiar with the eGirl aesthetic at the time I made him, but he 100% fits it, look at him in his elf ears and heterochromatic contacts smh. I don’t actually know his real eye colour, or hair colour! He wears contacts and dyes his hair and won’t tell me, he even started dating a non-4th wall character without asking! He’s a real wild card
Erase is probably the babiest of the list despite Tala being newer and younger - everyone else was made before Erase! They’ve had had less screen time and less development than everyone else too.They're an incredibly light and oddly harmless fourth wall presence lol for all the danger They pose in Their story :0 They're fairly polite all things considered. They actually have a degree of respect for the fourth wall - unlike Some people (Mint) - probably from acknowledging The Player/Character vs. developer. If there's a hierarchy capable of being distinguished then Erase is going to place Themself in the safest spot. Y'know - to cause problems from lol. I do need to play with Them more - They're fun! But fun isn't quite enough to be full-fledged Interesting just yet, more to do, more to do
It's almost unfair to have Erase right next to Bar lol - possibly my most Interesting OC of all time. First created in 2015 quite soon after Cory, even in the same notebook! He retired in 2017, I think? 2018 at the latest - and then was revived in 2020 and has been here again since. And that's just his timeline! Not counting everything that went into him character-wise. Obviously my sonas don't count as 4th wall OCs because y'know - they're me - but Bar falls kind of unclear of the line between OC and sona, he's always been a weird one. He was initially meant to be an RP character and then over time he developed into a 4th wall OC/sona of a Kind. Nowadays he's a fully-fledged 4th wall OC by design - his change in design from his 2020 revival was meant to represent his transformation thereof - but he's always been weird! If I had to pick a character that I’d consider “overdeveloped” or put too much of myself in - even more than some of my sonas - it'd be him. He's one of my favourites because of that but it's hard to quantify how exactly I feel about him haha. I love him! It's painful! He's great! He's awful! He's very important to me and he'll never return to being what he was first created for again. I do quite like his new design <3 Paying homage to the video that sent him crashing back into relevance for me haha
It was fun to draw everyone :D And it's nice that they all have colour references now! Mint has definitely been the longest without one, everyone else has had at least Something - even Erase! And They're way newer! I did make Mint in a couple online dollmakers but that's not quite the same thing haha, he really needs his clothes hand-drawn :P
It's good to have them all :) They're a fun bunch and I like all of them <3 I think it’s kinda funny and a little strange how few crossovers they’ve had with each other though! So far it’s really only been Tala-Bar-Cory - the rest are aware of each other but haven’t really met, how strange, considering what they are!
#My art#Original#Would definitely recommend opening in a new tab on this one lol#This year's Requestober warmup project!#I actually ended up finishing everything well before the end of the season so I had to cast around for a few smaller things to do haha#But if anything I'm quite pleased that something of this size was able to be done so quickly!#It does help that my 4th wall OCs are some of my favourites haha - they get invited out! Or push themselves there >:P#I don't mind with Cory but Mint smh#I don't Really mind with Mint either pft but I do like to give him a hard time - he's a troublemaker!#On top of the high proportion of femboys there's also a lot of troublemakers in here - some of these interactions would be explosive lol#I do think it'd be fun to have them all meet up a bit more! Cure showed interest in Mint not too long ago#And Cory loves everyone haha he's actually very good about all that - he's kind of like a foster parent welcoming new rescues hahaha#He's always been like that <3 It's why he gets a birthday celebration most years good boys deserve good birthdays#I think Gijat would probably be overwhelmed by most everyone haha he really wasn't built to interact with others outside of his own story#And his fairy version probably hates me so there's that lol#He's good with kids tho! He could probably chat with Tala and they'd both be alright :)#Bar as usually snapping up any spare screentime and focus - gotta talk about him! Pft ♪#He's fairly chill thankfully - a little standoffish but that's to be expected really#Now that I think of it I drew Cory holding a tiny Bar when they were first contemporaries - I could do the opposite now!#Bar throws off the scale of everyone else so much haha <3#Goods lads ♥
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#watching fandom drama play out when you're still mostly lurking in said fandom is a surreal experience#part of me is sort of relieved that i haven't been more active#would i have joined that server? would i have been one of the people they bullied?#i'm a mess of contradictions: i crave community but am terrible at all the things you need to cultivate it#i'm anxious and awkward and overthink every little interaction#but i've lucked out and found some really stellar fandom besties over the years who make me feel loved and accepted anyway#it takes a certain kind of bravery to put yourself out there online. a certain level of trust.#so for a group of people to actively choose to betray that trust in order to. what?#gain some imaginary amount of social clout? promote a fic? feed their own insecurities?#it's honestly beyond comprehension for me#i'm a relative nobody in this fandom so i'm not sure how much weight this will carry#but for what it's worth#having lurked here since last september#the broader community feels like it's a safe space. a space built on acceptance and love.#i've recently chatted with a few different people who have been nothing but lovely and i'm hoping that those conversations continue#and even though putting myself out there on discord feels like a nigh impossible ask atm#(did anyone else not know that secret channels were a thing? what in the supervillain hell!)#i'm gonna try my damnedest#fandom is bigger than one person. correction: one bully. bc that's what she is. a bully.#and i'm heartened that most everyone has rallied to show her and her cohort the door#to anyone affected by her bullshit. i love you and i'm so sorry and i hope you find a true safe space#ANYWAY#pass the what a year huh/lemon it's january meme#good omens
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Spirit animal SQH
#svsss#shang qinghua#but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but#but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee#also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but#I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg#oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left#I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something#or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird#LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm#I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either#I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself#eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up#I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa#man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong#cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk#its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment#with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig#and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down#but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications#and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly#man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk
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the allos continue to confuse and frighten me
#/silly /lh do whatever you want forever <3333#story time!#so i went to the first day of a local convention type thing yes yes#and at one point me n my friend (drawingneek hiii <33) ended up chatting with a random guy who seemed pretty nice and chill#(also lingo I know you'll find this post somehow XD- his nametag had your irl nickname on it! so i was like “huh good conversation starter”#Anyways it was only like 2 minutes or so of small talk and after he left two of our other friends were like#“dude... he was totally flirting with you. like HARDCORE”#and me and og friend were both like. HUH.#like? neither of us picked up on that?? im usually so good at social cues lol-#anyways apparently I can't have normal small talk conversations with ppl anymore (to be fair he started the conversation but still-?)#all-around weird but really funny interaction#anyways. im going to bed! gnight y'all <3333#random thoughts
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i’m pretty surprised that you can be in a fandom without really checking the tags regularly for new content or discussions that’s pretty impressive
ive got twitter for that and twitter has shown me enough as is
#snap chats#i dont even check twitter specifically for rgg its just that my algorithms been formed that way cause friends send me tweets#on the real though jvALEKJEKL ive always. how you say. played with dolls alone#so being alone online isnt hard or anything particularly 'impressive' to me its just how i roll#ive always lived in my head i guess- with my interests that is. its fun up there vlkeajkla#i still like to hear from other people of course but for the most part im happy with just myself im not all that pressed for others#i think its also just. i have. other interests? so i dont really think i want to look at One Particular Thing that day. at least for tumblr#i MIGHT just cause thats how the day goes but i dont think 'i feel like looking at rgg art today'#whatever i see I See and that'll be that yk i love a lot of things and think of a lot of things#evidently SOME things take a hold of me more than others- or ill wanna be more public bout it at least#but thats jsut cause i just feel SO MUCH for Whatever Thing It Is At The Time that i want to share it. so then i do jvlskjs#with that in mind can i really say im 'in' a fandom when i dont particularly interact with it LMAO#again always happy to do so but im like an estranged uncle if anything#come over once a year to drop gifts off then i leave. ill still respond to holiday cards though if theyre sent#also for discussions ill usually just talk to my brother about it since he'll usually be The Main Sponge for my rambling LOLOL#god's strongest soldier i promise i try to hold back but im afraid i feel my brain physically tickle my skull#my brother always has to watch in real time me be consumed by a piece of media. like its a symbiote its really funny#cause at this point we'll meet in the kitchen and ill start like 'you know whats really funny..'#and he'll just. 'ok so who's it about today' LIKE PLEAAAASSSEEE. anyways prepare for my ninth 90 minute lecture about This Character#i also have a friend that i talk about my interests with- not all the time but enough that im like. Yeah Im Good Talkin Bout This#like the dopamine in my brain is activated JUST enough when i get to have quick short convos bout it with her#honestly maybe i should use my blacklisted main and rb ALL of my sideblog posts there#just so the people following that can Also witness me be consumed in real time <- will not do this
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Went to the bookstore today and asked about their mythology section and this frickin guy had the gall to be like "Yeah it's over here, but these are really dense and difficult so let me show you the children's mythology section." I was so baffled I didn't say anything. Normally I would've been very offended, but I couldn't help but laugh because I was like "I've been reading those massive textbook-esque mythology books since I was a literal child as research for my novel, sir. But sure, show me the kid's section, I like reading kids' books too."
#i talk#I genuinely think he just phrased it really badly and was just being stupid#which is the ONLY reason I was like ''yeah alright I'll let you live''#but I was very amused by that entire interaction#Went up to the register later and he got excited over some of the audiobooks I chose and we had a nice chat about that#I saw he was reading a BNHA comic which surprised me (especially after his previous comment)#and I told him I heard it ended recently and he said he was glad to hear that since so many comics he read as a kid just went on and on#and never ended#I think I've reached that age where I'm just like#''I can recognize you're not being an asshole you were just a bit stupid. Bless your soul''#Coincidentally the big textbook section was right in front of the checkout counter#which was funny because I DID just sit there and flip through a bunch of things for almost half an hour#That reminds me I really do need to read 100 and one nights (Arabian Knights) sometime. That's like the one Big one I've never read#Beowulf too that's the other big one#I just need to find really good audiobook versions of them. I can't sit down and read anymore#Another interesting moment from that same bookstore:#I overheard that dude and his coworker / boss talking with an older guy#and the guy said he was a psychic or something#and the bookstore guy was like ''Can I ask you a question then? I am going to judge you for it if you get it wrong though''#pftt#it was all very lighthearted but I was just like yeah that's my city alright#I miss seeing those random interactions and random moments
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Sweeeeeetheaaaart I’m so emotional and sappy and I’m just thankful that we found each other this season!!!! I can’t wait to spend a CHILL winter break continuing to enjoy your vibes and art and lovely presence on the dash 💖💖💖💖💖
LIQUID I'LL CRY OMG 😭😭😭 first of all NO U and god I am. so sad but so relieved but mostly sad this was not only my first F1 season but my first "real" fandom season, I genuinely cannot put into words how much this deranged little community has meant to be in this past half a year. I love u all!!! I love U liq!!!! would give the world to spend another lifetime here and like god I look forward to chilling out between seasons fucking hell we need a break 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
#for the record I've been putting off reading october birds on purpose because I KNOW it's gonna be fucking good#and I KNOW it's gonna destroy me emotionally and one thing about me is that I started reading Casual when it had like 2 chapters#and then it proceeded to ruin my life chapter by chapter so NOT doing that again#<- mfw the writing it good D:#and also for the record I've “been in fandom” before but it was offline chatting which is... different?#like on here I just kept being surprised how direct and how lovely interactions can be#despite being on. social media essnetially#putting the social in media we are#neb qna#wanderingblindly
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wow. not even a week into college and i'm already behind on work. fucking lovely.
#friday chats#friday vs post-secondary school#tw vent#(in the following tags)#i am immeasurably stressed right now#i need to talk to my doctor about getting a booster to go along w/my adhd meds#bc this has been a problem for a while but i think it's about to come to a head#and i'm very scared for when that happens#maybe also talk to my school's disability services#bc Good Fucking God i'm already overwhelmed#it's 11:56. should i just go to bed? i have so many things left to do#when do i even have the time to go to disability services. and i've heard a lot of schools' processes w/that are slow and overcomplicated#fuck. fuck fuck fuckity fuck.#i think i'm spiraling#i'm worried that if i don't get a degree i won't be able to find a nice enough job to support myself independent of my family#and i don't want to be stuck with them forever#i really really don't#maybe i can talk to disability services sometime tomorrow morning. see what they can do#i think there's mental health services too. i hope they're decent#i just feel really bad right now. and it's only week one.#it feels like time's moving too fast but too slow at the same time#classes take forever but my free time zips by and runs out way too quick#and when it's gone i've completed maybe one or two things. out of several. if any at all.#i just don't know what to do. it's only been three days.#maybe i can drop a class; i think i'm taking enough to still be considered a full-time student with one less thing on my plate#i hope so#fucking damn it#how do people do this??? for multiple years????#and i feel selfish for saying this but i hope if y'all see this post you'll interact with it somehow. even just a like.#i want to know someone hears me
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