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looks like it's time to repeat myself: if section 230 goes under, ao3 is fucked 10 ways from sunday and throwing money at them isn't gonna stop that.
there is already precedence for them to know the content that is posted to their site. they have content guidelines, a section on their site adressing the presence of RPF on their site, frequently refer to the presence of fanworks on the site throughout their TOS, and a complaint system in which quality & abuse personnel will review reported content.
im not a lawyer, i didn't pass the bar, im certainly not getting paid by billionaire executives to take down the site, and this is just what i found in cursory readings of their TOS and content policy. im sure any prosecutor worth their pay grade would be able to dig up a lot more than that to prove they have knowledge, or reason to know, about at least SOME of the content they host. moderation or no, if OTW were to be brought to court over defamation or copyright infringement after a section 230 overruling, they would be just as fucked as they would be if they actually vetted the content they host.
also it's funny how apparently it's a security risk for writers to link to their patreons or for them to pay their policy & abuse team, but OTW can pocket hundreds of thousands of dollars more than the amount that they claim they need to run the site, multiple times a year. you think a prosecutors gonna overlook that too?
i also want to point out that their policy regarding lawsuits filed against them is to remove the offending content. they aren't some bastion of free speech that's raising money to protect the voices of writers or whatever it is you seem to think. all these precautions you're bringing up do nothing to protect the users of the site, who ao3 would be nothing without (and who would find another platform if ao3 were to ever go under). when push comes to shove they aren't jumping in the the way of any harm that comes to the people actually contributing to the archive
anyway, OP's point was about everything having ads and how that sucks. someone then hijacked the post to advertise ao3. my point was that, in addition to the fact that giving ao3 money literally doesn't help that issue at all, ao3 makes more money than it needs by a significant margin every single fundraiser (and then doesn't use that money to improve their site or user experience/safety), and that your money is better spent by donating to actual artists. which it is.
#this is the last response im giving you#if i have to read another legal case im going to throw up#and im not interested in bothering OP with this off topic conversation any more than i already have#i know im right and i dont particularly care about convincing you of that 🤷
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what kind of underwear do you think Erik and Charles wear (i'm not asking this to see them half naked) ((please believe me)) (((PLEASE)))
My Personal Belief is charles is a briefs guy while erik's a trunks guy. trunks/briefs kinda couple because i can
and idk just a lil bonus or somethin. as i do.
#nsft#probably. again A Promotion Would Be In Order From Me Personally but WHATEVER.#cherik#im too tired to tag everything ok this post'll find its people#snap sketches#not too tired for a tag ramble tho eUUGGHHH#i HAVE to post the second bit now or ill be editing it all night and for what. i will live#and my silly ass said i wouldnt draw that reading idea. well guess what im a LIAR who LIES.#i do wanna revisit that proper tho .. at least draw em by the fireplace someday but anyway#i think the funny thing is i had like. plans to draw charles in purple briefs just cause he wore them once and i chortled Unreasonably#so here we are. youll have to forgive me my friend i have a condition called If I Get An Excuse To Draw I Will#it is a very serious condition cause i need to SLEEEEPP truly and honestly locking in later i HAVE to#leaving all of you with this for the next idk twelve hours thats crazy#all i want to do is draw but i feel my eyes . Getting Weird and i have exams so i guess i should be a responsible person and sleep#i actually have a lot i need to catch up on so like. i prob wont be back on until this weekend when im Hopefully more free#'snap didnt you say that last night' I HAVE TO BE SERIOUS THIS TIME i got a lot. so i will see everyone saturday Hopefully#please give me the strength to focus for once thank you#for now good night everyone !!! please enjoy my doodlings from today. yesterday. i must not make any more for now
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look at me, listen to me, trust me:
as somebody who is currently living through the worst trauma and depression of my life, i gotta tell you:
you cannot live on coffee
coffee cannot be your replacement for sleep or nutrients. it will become less effective over time and mess up your endocrine system (the system responsible for hormone and sleep regulation). your stress and anxiety will increase and you may put your heart and kidneys at risk. you also might shit yourself sometimes
this may all seem very obvious but its possible to be in the mindset where Living On Coffee makes sense to you
what i'm saying is coming from a place of experience. and love. you cannot live on energy replacements. no matter how tasty
eat veggies. drink water. sleep. you can do other things, you can indulge, i promise! just please, do basic self care too
#same applies to colas and energy drinks. except those are worse for you#colas are worse for your teeth and energy drinks are worse for your heart#in fact you might get a heart attack#yeah a few years ago i cut back on coffee because i was getting heart pain#but in the last five months i developed a dependence on pepsi and coke and coffee for energy#and in the last couple weeks the coffee thing got worse#and i reached a point where i wasnt even getting energy or even happiness from it anymore#plus my heart was hurting#so im taking a stand. im taking better care of my health. in general#fruits! veggies! showering more! water!#etc and so forth. and no more coffee until i can be trusted to be responsible with it#if it sounds like im describing drug addiction. then yeah#this behaved like text book drug addiction. even down to being induced by trauma#and me thinking about my next ''fix''' the second i was done with one. no good#except! coffee is waaaay easier to give up. i have painkillers for the headaches. i'll be fine#i've also been eating like shit too. because sad. but i bought healthier and easy to prepare foods#because the human body cannot live on maccas alone. it just can't. i've been having a Bad Time#everything will get a little better over time
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I overshare online because I need constant validation that every thought and action of mine is Good and Okay and Normal. Surely this is a healthy coping mechanism
#something I'm trying to work through#comes from a hard mixture of autism (not knowing if what im doing is Normal behavior)#OCD (guilt loops that last for days weeks months on end)#ADHD (rejection sensitive dysphoria)#being raised christian (always being reminded that bad thoughts and actions will send you to hell)#and trauma from being heavily monitored as a teenager (very used to having every thought & action over-analyzed)#i have a constant craving for validation because of all of those things#which leads me to being a very self-absorbed person#i feel like if people aren't consistently telling me that im a good person then i must be horrible#im putting my emotional work onto others when i do that#making it THEIR responsibility to make me love myself#it's not healthy for you or anyone around you#you can't truly improve yourself if you're always relying on other people to verify whether or not you're okay#especially since everyone has different opinions & biases#if you never learn how to validate yourself you become completely reliant on others#and if you lose that outside validation everything will fall apart#even though i know these things i still haven't broken out of the habit#but that's another thing you have to give yourself grace for#you can't expect yourself to instantly adhere to new expectations#so you're gonna be hypocritical at times#you can't hate youself for that either it takes time to break habits#you need to find the line between self criticism and self hatred#love yourself Or Else. literally.#.bdo
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#ya know.#after having spent about a month and a half in são paulo with my grandparents i can now confidently say that im ready to go home#and thats not brasil's fault at all and is instead a reflection of who my grandfather is as a person#i love him. i love both my grandparents. but with my grandmother at the stage of alzheimer's shes in he just doesnt have patience#to help her the way she needs. and hes been very very happy to put all of that onto me. EYE give her all her medication.#EYE make sure she bathes. EYE make sure she eats. EYE make sure she stays hydrated (somehow the hardest part of it all)#and theres been multiple times. including about an hour ago. where she says something to piss him off and send him into a shouting fit#and its just so beyond counterintuitive and unhelpful. like shouting and bitching and whining isnt helping anyone#and im ready to pass this responsibility to my aunt after being put into a situation no one warned me about#i was never told my grandmother had deteriorated to this degree. i was never told my grandfather's temper was getting worse.#i was just. never told. and while ive had an incredible time meeting family and seeing things ive never seen before#and enjoying what is the last time i will ever get to do something like this with my grandparents#im also really happy to go home next week. im going to miss brasil so much and ive enjoyed every second ive been here#but im ready to not be the mediator anymore. im ready to have a room to myself again. to not sleep in a cot thats literally (LITERALLY)#1 foot away from my grandparents' in this itsy bitsy hotel room#im ready to not be the sole person shouldering all this responsibility. a responsibility i wasnt warned about in advance#and i hope my father can bring me back to brasil next spring like he says he will so i can see rio. god i HOPE.#anyway. the weather is gray and gloomy today and im feeling a bit maudlin about it all#i hope everyone is well and i miss you all. im sorry for not answering the messages i have. things havent exactly been the easiest lately.#i love you all ♥️ and happy sunday#personal
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still reeling over the fact that almost 2 months ago the guy i was talking to (not dating, but definitely 'seeing') took another girl TO MY AND MY ROOMMATE'S APARTMENT to FUCK HER ON OUR AIR MATTRESS while i was ON VACATION THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY
honestly. how do i get myself into these situations
#followed by him being blackout drunk sleeping on our DOORSTEP the very next day#he said he thought it was weird i said i liked him so soon into meeting him#but he would constantly say shit like 'falling for you more now' and 'my friend told my sister i have a new gf now'#like OKAY HOMEBOY#so dude it's so fucked i'll give more details in these tags in case anyone cares for a lil more context#before my trip back to california for sdcc i talked to him#said hey i know we're not dating but while im gone for almost 2 weeks are we gonna mess around with other people? like where is ur head#he said 'you can sleep with other people because you have a higher sex drive than me but i won't be doing that but you go ahead'#and im like okay weird response but okay cool#before i ended up leaving actually i did end up hooking up w someone and when i came back to my apartment he said 'looks like someone had a#'fun night' but he said it like....in a salty fucking way and i was like ur not allowed to be mad bc you refuse to be in a relationship wit#me despite me LETTING YOU LIVE WITH ME AND MY BFF FOR THE LAST ALMOST MONTH#oh yeah that part too#he was evicted and was staying with us for a few nights that turned into almost a month#NO he did not pay rent YES he did eat all our food#YES im an idiot for not seeing his red flags sooner but i was infatuated#so anyway my friend goes 'he's salty you fucked another dude' and im like excuse me how the fuck is he gonna be mad when WE TALKED ABOUT TH#*THIS#now granted it was a day before my trip so it wasn't ON my trip that i slept with someone else#but im like. how are u gonna be mad im gonna go enjoy myself when you've made it painfully clear you want me but want 0 strings#so anyway while im in california my bff calls me like hey dude john is on our air mattress naked with another girl#i was like excusethefuckME#because 1. he wasn't supposed to be at our apartment anymore so i was surprised he was there at ALL#and 2. how are u gonna ever be living RENT FREE with someone and INVITE SOMEONE ELSE OVER TO FUCK IN THEIR PLACE#i could honestly go on but i doubt anyone read this far as it is#this situation has fucked me up#first red flag should've been his name being JOHN
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i love that we are discovering our boundaries and saying No, but there comes a point where you can't cancel on your friends anymore. you have to say yes eventually and actually be there. if you like being invited you have to show up at least once. like listen to your body and energy, obviously. but there will come a time where your friends will start hurting and think you're avoiding them or don't like them or don't want to hang out, because every single time you had the opportunity you said no or you canceled last minute.
#this post is brought to you by My Friend Invited Out 6 People Including Me and I was Literally the ONLY Person that Didnt Cancel#his heart was broken#like 3 of then straight up waited until the very last minute to cancel#youre not fooling your friends when you do that. it does hurt their feelings. and they can only take it so many times before giving up#and when they do it wont be their fault because they reached out already multiple times#when does Haha Canceling on My Friend go from protecting your energy to isolation#for both of you#it just hurt to see my friend hurt#because they all initially said yes too#5 people pulling out we had a whole gamenight planned that turned into a 2 person dinner#smdh wake up out of main character syndrome babe we're learning how to be A Good Friend again#being a friend comes with responsibilities btw like there are things you have to do to maintain your friendship#im not talking out of my ass on this one either#do you have any idea the dbt and workbooking ive done to relearn how to connect with people#and notice the damage my isolation and agoraphobia was having on my deteriorating friendships
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having immature parents sucks so bad
#why am i the one who has to act mature all the time oh my god#we're having pest control come tomorrow and they require everyone to leave the unit for at least four hours afterwards#and my mom thought shed be working tomorrow but she called me at like 10 pm to tell me to reschedule bc /she/ got the day wrong#and when i told her she just has to find somewhere to go for just four hours her response was “where ?? you want me to go and be homeless#for four hours???“ which doesnt even make any fucking sense#its only four hours ?????? she can literally go hang out with her sister or go to the park#and she was like “YOU can go to the park im not a park person” ???? you are asking me and i am simply giving you options . its not my fault#that she got the day wrong ?????? and they cant change the appointment bc its way way too last minute.#and she got mad at me and started going on and on about how she cant wait for her life once im out of it like HUH ??????#im the one who's been putting all thos shit together i called the landlady and im the one cleaning up and clearing out all of our stuff#out of the cabinets and everything like shes literally doing nothing all she has to do is go outside for just a few hours !!!!#yet she has the gall to complain and act like im making her life so difficult when she hasnt done a single thing to help lol . she acts like#she isnt living here and it pisses me off so baddddd jesus christ im so sick of everything lol#ss
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being hassled and spammed by my boss fuck offff im not coming in at 5am on my day off tomorrow cuz you the manager cant be arsed to cover someones shift IT IS 9PM LEAVE ME ALONE
#this is the 5th time in the past 2 weeks i have been asked last minute to cover a shift!!!! leave me alone!!!!!#feel like i am being taken advantage of tbh#if its that crucial and you cant just open the store a little later or smth then go in yourself its your responsibility and you have no#reason you cant#i am not paid nearly enough for this bullshit to be on call whenever you want fuck you theres like 5 other people you could ask anyway why#is it always me#tbh its inappropriate to keep messaging and calling me at like 9.30 in the evening on my day off#maybe i wouldve been pressured to say yes but being messaged and called repeatedly until i respond like that actually triggers me so now im#straight up unable to open the messages or reply#god i fucking hate work culture im barely above minimum wage working for a shitty chain store billionaire corporation fuck off i hate you#idek why my manager cares either tbh he too is working for this stupid corporation that doesnt give a shit about him#fuck capitalism fuck big corporations i hateeeee youuuu
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SORRY I KNOW U SAID U DONT WANT TO KEEP TALKING ABOUT THIS AND YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO ANSWER THIS ASK OR U CAN ANSWER IT PRIVATELY IF YOU'D RATHER i just really cant shut up ever and one thing i cant stand is fic writers getting shit in any capacity like omg what is up with unsolicited 'advice'? in some ways i find it WORSE than if people were just actively rude bc it's so backhanded and passive aggressive that you can't really respond how you want to bc they're not technically being nasty and they say it under the guise of being 'helpful' and it's just YUCK. like shut up!!!! who even asked you!!!!! writing fic is a free, beautiful hobby and for some reason people feel entitled to it in ways they really wouldn't with literally any other hobby and it does my head in, so pls pls dont feel like ur being sensitive. that's the main reason im sending an ask bc i get you've acknowledged that it's annoyed you and why so again sorry if im beating a dead horse here, it's just i hate to see you undermining your feelings about something that IS genuinely really frustrating and disheartening. like it will never not baffle me how oblivious some ao3 commenters are to how much their words can impact a writer. just like you, 99% of all my comments are positive, and yet i can probably list verbatim the handful of not-so-nice comments ive had in the years ive been on ao3 bc they just STICK with me. so yeah. you're very valid and i know you dont need me to tell you but you've got a whole army of people who love your work and have your back, so just remember that when someone decides to be obnoxious xxx
Haha hella I adore you & I don’t ever want you to stop talking.
Yeah I think the reason it irked me more this time was because after I got a few scattered comments I didn’t enjoy I kindly asked people not to do it anymore & then the very next chapter someone did it lol. & even asked if I was getting enough sleep … like…. damn it… really?
again I do think I’m being sensitive because fuck it I’m probably not getting enough sleep haha but damn you don’t gotta call me out like that! Lol. & I get so many wonderful comments and fanart and asks and all that jazz but I can’t help but hyper-fixate on the one not so nice comment haha
& then I over think everything & it ruins the fun hobby I’m supposed to be enjoying lol
I love that you get it, thanks for always being so awesome & now for the second or third time coming to have my back. You’re the best hella :)<3
#I wasn’t going to post anymore of these but I’ll probably post one more#idk maybe other fanfic writers can see it and know we are all going through it#it doesn’t matter who you are#or what you write#there is always some asshole who has access to the internet#that’s going to give their fucking opinion#but yeah I’m always really nice in my responses because I’m so awkward in those situations#I’m just smiling and laughing and saying wwwtttffffffffff#idk I did tell the last commenter to fuck all the way off though lol#they caught me in a MOOD though#thanks for sending this ask hella#& even the last time I was upset about it you let me vent to you#so that was cool#you’re one of the good one hella!!#& im sorry a you get stupid comments too#but im pretty confident the TAOB following would stab a bitch who was rude to you#as they should#don’t fuck with ao3 writers we aren’t paid enough to take your shit people#(get it…. cause we aren’t paid at all….. haha)#ok thanks again hella#hella1975#ask
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the titans curse season of the pjo show is going to devastate me holy shit
#the second i hear “if anything happens give that to nico. tell him im sorry.” ??? YOU WILL NEVER HEAR FROM ME AGAIN#i got to that chapter last night and i will never ever recover actually. Oh my gods#bianca is so fucking tragic what the hell#bro she lived her whole life held down by her responsibilities as an older sister and even after joining the hunters to-as she said-find ou#what its like to be more than just an older sister – she ends up dying. all because of the figure she tried to steal for nico#I cant word it properly but. pobrecita omg#cam.txt#pjo
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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.
#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out#not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her#like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool#it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun#i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again#but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too#to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together#thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all#like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad#and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do#and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends#im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for#but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen#to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it#i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and#decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen#and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree#but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most#and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen#and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway#so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me#which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its#crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it#idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her#i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of#resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different#and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has
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i dont use this word lightly but my roommate is the biggest narcissist ive ever fucking met and that is fucking saying something
#shes MAD at me that im sick because i guess im not paying her enough fucking attention since im on ordered bed rest.#like are you fucking kidding me#and then shes gaslighting and manipulating me into feeling bad about it because i was like ‘i am on medical orders to stay in bed and not#talk what do you want from me’#and her response? ‘well i wish you wouldve told me! were friends i wish you would tell me things!’#and literally the only words I’ve exchanged with her in the psy week have been her asking if somethings wrong and me telling her i dont feel#well and her being like oh what is it and me saying its my lungs being shitty again#like i have said that to her so many fucking times#and shes STILL upset that im not giving her attention and acting like i owe it to her??????#im not your fucking mom or your babysitter!!!!!!#you are 33 and nearly a decade fucking older than me. act like it for fucks sake#like literally just fuck all the way off#personal#its also like i dont owe you information about my provate medical problems???#what finally prompted me to message her was he going in the most bitchy fucking voice#‘well if you dont feel well then you need to call a doctor And not just stay in your room’#like a voice CLEARLY fucking implying she didnt believe i didnt feel well#so I finally was like i HAVE seen a doctor so fuck off#like this is the last thing i should be dealing with when i dont fucking feel well!!!!#and also SHES bwen sick and hacking up a fucking lung without covering her mouth#so YES ive been avoiding her too bc i dont want to get sick!!!! I literally cannot afford to get sick rn id end up in the hospital#and shes offended by that bc ‘its not covid i tested’ and its like okay thats freat but 1) i dont trust your ability to take a covid test#properly since you literally dont know how to do anything#and 2) i domt want whatever the fuck else you have????????#its just all so fucking infuriating
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Hiiii hellstie literrally never answer this ask if youre not really comfortable with it but god your vent tags resonated with me, like i'm sorry it fucking sucks so much and it's like literrally what can one do now and you're just tired and it's a terrible self feeding cycle but like. It's whatever. We're not dead yet. I have a really pretty rose in the vase in my desk. You got red hair. Time cares not for the little blunders. You can rise to not give up (try again) another day. I'm holding your hand really tight and pressing my forehead agaisnt yours. We too, will make it. Stained and rotten and and a tiny bit broken but alive nonetheless. I think we can.
anon sent me poetry about my dumb vent post and expected me to be normal about it. 'we're not dead yet. i have a really pretty rose in the vase on my desk. you got red hair. time cares not for the little blunders' HELLO???
#my vent post might have been real for u but this as a RESPONSE is very real for me#like even last night when i was in the CLUTCHES of that mood i still had a moment where i was like 'who honestly cares'#like say that i AM evil and wrong and awful. now what. the world has not erupted into fire#it's the hopeful nihilism again. 'everything is fundamentally pointless so do what you love and have fun'#i think we can make it too anon im giving ur hand a very tight squeeze. this ask helped a lot#ask
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Its actually very nice not receiving unsolicited nudes I have to react positively to lest some massive "Why don't you want me? I'm gonna kill myself because you don't want to fuck me" ass meltdown occur.
#my fave was actually the time she whipped out 'last i checked im the only friend you have that isnt your roommate'#1. verifiably false and 2. bitch you WISH i didnt have other friends#every weekend that meltdown happened regardless which is why this shit lasted so long#didn't wanna be responsible for that.... then i stopped giving a fuck
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My mom just sent a message to the family group chat suggesting that my siblings download the 'For the Strength of Youth' magazine on their Gospel Library app and talked about how much the youth magazines helped her testimony growing up and like, cool. Fine. Don't know why the 'sending random spiritual thoughts in the gc' thing started out of nowhere when it hadn't been a thing for a decade but this is just another one of those, and you're ofc allowed to talk about things that are significant in your life.
I don't think sending the 'What I Did When Someone Close to Me Challenged My Faith' article right afterwards was strictly necessary though 🙃
#hi bg mutuals 👋 i'm gonna vent about this from time to time. if any mutuals dont want to see it block the 'apostake' tag#trying not to read too much into it b/c I think I did last time something like this happened#and i dont want to make an ass of myself even if neither time would actually be in front of my parents#but like...i know that they know that one of my sisters is clearly PIMO#they went through her phone a couple weeks ago and i have no idea if they read my texts w/ her#but if they did they probably saw the conversation i had with her about some of the really common shelf-breakers#and telling her to take looking into it at her own pace b/c it's scary and overwhelming#(a conversation SHE started btw)#and when i talked to my parents about the larger context of that whole situation i talked about not having space to step back#and their response was that they give plenty of space b/c they dont make her go to seminary???#that's not the same thing as letting her openly question & potentially leave the church idk what to tell you#like. besties i dont know for sure what caused it (which is NOT making things better. it just feels potentially passive aggressive)#but from my end? it sure looks like it might be a reaction to that. probably not JUST that (friends exist) but.#if you think I'm whispering anti-mormon rhetoric into my siblings' ears just ask me. i'm very much NOT doing that#i'm just. talking? to them? when and if they come to me with questions?#and not making my answer 'well there's a reason our parents raised us in the church! ☺️'#(an actual argument given in the article my mom sent)#hate it. thanks#apostake#jay rambles#ok to interact#im not challenging anyone's faith. my patience though? INCREDIBLY challenged#gotta figure out how to work my way around a 'hey please dont send spiritual thoughts to the gc *I'm in*' talk tactfully#they've been pretty chill about me leaving over-all?? at least to my face#haven't pushed me to go to church w/ them; was fine with me not visiting for easter; didnt try to convince me to not drink coffee; etc#it's just. frustrating that they're not giving my siblings that still live with them that same grace#my sister's 17 ffs#it's very possible im way overreacting to the article. but what is tumblr for if not screaming into the void#religion#mormonism
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