#this feels like a vent actually-

[cringebro]

Okay I think this is a vent??? So beware????

Heres one of the things I wrote while crying one time 🧍

I had trouble describing it but yeah

Im cringing so hard but yeah

But yeah

[aesrot]

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.

[bpdetrimental]

I fucking hate looking in the mirror. Why the fuck do I look like that and why the fuck can’t I be different and how the fuck can anyone even tolerate being near me.

[professionallyunstable]

started at the bottom and somehow still managed to get lower

[adustoflove]

Hearing about the way other people interact so easily makes me feel like there is something deeply wrong with me embedded into my soul

[dxndeli-n]

Abandonment issues go brrr

[itsaspectrumcomic]

not my usual kind of comic but just... how I've been feeling recently

if you're feeling the same, maybe it will help to know you're not the only one

[dykedvonte]

Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.

We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.

Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.

He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?

I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?

[sophisticatedaiphos]

i will never get over this..

RICKY WHEN I CATCH YOU RICKY RICKY WHEN I CATCH YOU RICKY

[letsventstuff]

I mourn the person I could have been.

[sketchy-tour]

I can't see you. Do you see me? 👁️👁️

[honeypleasejustkillme]

mom can u come pick me up my brain is telling me no one wants me here

[shalom-iamcominghome]

"We need more diverse queer representation!"

You cannot even handle queer jews.

[bpdetrimental]

Staying up into the late hours of the night thinking of ways to kill yourself is something else entirely.

[professionallyunstable]

“cant wait till i get older” was the dumbest shit i ever said

[trans-leek-cookie]

yknow what. I wanna say: CSA and COCSA survivors are all incredible, but I also wanna give a shout out to ppl who were exposed to sexual stuff or had any kind of sexual experience as a kid that they either aren't comfortable labelling as or don't consider abuse, but they know it still fucking sucked and shouldnt have happened. Even if that changes later in life and you identify as a victim/surivor, it can be messy to have to imagine those labels applying to the ppl in ur life and that can take time.

The most important thing is to prioritize your recovery + health, and to support other victims + survivors.