#this and the meds I took helped tho
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femme-enby · 25 days ago
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Just reblogged a post & rambled like hell in the tags, vaguely mentioning my haunt AU… and then I remembered:
I visited my ppl last night, the folks who switched over to the winter holiday event… and good lord. While I might have to step away from being a haunt actor for a while, I will never abandon them folks.
Basically: all the drama that I mentioned that happened during MY haunt season?
From the brief bits I got to hear from my ppl… expectedly, it’s been worse.
Imagine: you work the haunt event. There’s drama. There’s serious issues. Management sucks. Too many monsters, not enough costumes. The guests are horrendous.
BUT!!! When you get pissed- you can
A) utilize it! Jump! Run! Scream! Let it out baby!!!
B) find one of the many dark and foggy corners, take a breather (or a hit off your vape… or 10.) and get back to it.
At the winter event? No such luck.
Firstly- while during the haunt event you’re nearly ALWAYS hot… during the winter event you’re either both hot and cold, or freezing. Nothing else.
Secondly- you cannot do shit w those negative feelings. There is no utilizing it. There are no dark and foggy corners. You don’t have earplugs.
You’re expected to be smiling, peppy, on 100 the whole time, in character, serving these snot filled guests (literal, the coughing and such is horrendous) and dealin w the drama & shortcomings of management all on your own, with a SMILE! Happy smile! Not murderous smile!
In the past we’ve had plenty of elves, at least the SINGLE season I participated… this season? Not nearly enough. Why? Hired as many monsters as they could for the haunt event, blew the budget. And tf did that get us? A ton of folks w no idea as to what is going on, how to be a haunt actor, management w little to no idea about anything haunt related or experience, and still not enough costumes. Sending up to seven folks to break from a single team at a time (in the past it’s usually been 2-3) so many being minors… and god the drama.
And I don’t even know the actual drama yet of the winter event, but it’s the fact that I was (happily!!! I was ecstatic to help! I love those poor lil employees with my whole heart!) given little quests by at least 2 of the ppl, one gave me 2 themself, bc they truly had no other option. I ended up assigning myself a quest bc I saw ANOTHER person absolutely FIGHTING for their life at one station, looked like a scene out of the walking dead, to the point where I couldn’t even check in with them. Literally tripping over themself trying to get everything done.
Like??? Look, some places that do seasonal events probably got this shit on LOCK. Know exactly what needs to be done, exactly what should be prioritized, handle shit fabulously, blah blah blah.
But god DAMN. No walkies, no management, not enough workers… only option is to call security but ONLY if something truly CANNOT be handled by the basic employees… and security is a damn joke anyway, which we all know FROM HAUNT.
“Dude, you bitch and moan soooo much, tf do you know?”
Valid! I don’t know shit about the numbers. I don’t know shit about what upper upper management is demanding or how you go about negotiating if you even can- which, you should be able to bc yeah yeah they got all the numbers but you HAVE to factor in the ACTUAL FUCKING HUMANS.
That being said?
Let’s start at seemingly the root of all evil, scheduling and planning.
These events, and everything that MUST come before the events, should be planned out to the best of whoever’s ability, THE YEAR BEFORE. When 2024 haunt season starts, they should be planning 2025. They need to be tracking costumes in total, costumes per area, min number of needed monsters for each area, and tracking costume malfunctions, how many ppl struggle to get costumes actually FOR the area that FIT, how many had to be pieces pulled from OTHER areas to make a fitting costume.
They also need to be thinking: most folks who do this year after year likely have some sort of main job… jobs typically want at LEAST a month’s notice for time off requests. Haunt is an evening/nightshift job, that starts at EARLIEST mid afternoonish, but we allow folks to have an availability as late as evening, so these folks likely have either a dayshift job that keeps them away in the mornings, or a nightshift job which means they’re ASLEEP in the mornings. We probably should keep events relating to this within the hours this job would take place.
Then, they HAVE to have ACTUAL auditions. Go in person, the whole circuit of working w a pre-set character & making up your own. Test vocal range, body language range, any fun/weird talents relating to either? This job can be stressful and potentially dangerous although we do everything to keep it safe, we are still scaring people & folks come w no idea/care for their natural reaction towards a perceived threat… do you feel you can adapt to that? They pass, cool next phase.
Ofc training will have to come after a decent amount of folks pass the auditions, that way you have time for auditions AND for those who get a call back to get time off work to attend training.
IMO? If haunt season starts in September, auditions need to start may/june. Folks need to be told starting in February/april, with actual dates to schedule their audition. Training should start in July/august, w the option to tentatively schedule that early, w the knowledge that if they don’t get formal offer that they will be removed from the scheduled training obvi.
Already you’ve significantly increased the chances of hiring quality actors over quantity, and the chances of having enough costumes in a range of sizes has increased.
Security has to go through event SPECIFIC training. They NEED to understand that while we need guests to have a good time, it cannot be at the expense of the actors, bc w/o quality actors the event will suck and ppl won’t be repeat customers.
Boom, you’ve saved money on hiring, and in the long run on costumes too, plus you’re READY for the season come end of august, instead of scrambling in early September. This money can now go to the winter event, where you DO need quantity over quality bc in the end it’s damn near identical to any other service job except you wear a goofy lil outfit, and THAT is what the training should be focused on. The employees are not lil magical creatures of happiness and love. They’re the best at putting on that customer service smile and voice and grittin their teeth till break time.
As for the winter event specifically- shorter time for specialty shows where employees and management are pulled from their posts, min. Of 2 employees per location, at least 1 walkie left during this time, w 2 managers set to roam each half of the establishment for quicker response times when called. Hell, leave $20 tracphones w a set amount of minutes, w the two (SET) roaming manger’s numbers put in. Sticky note w that nights manager written next to the phone, instructions to send “help @ ____” if walkies that can span an entire amusement park are too pricey (why tf a a walkie is like $100 idfk either)
Boom. Haunt is quality, both in skill & appearance. Winter event is staffed & safe.
“Bro, become a manager” if it was a fulltime, all year position, I would have. There’s a reason why there’s never any openings for the office positions. Them shits are easy, reliable paycheck, minimal risk to self. (In-fucking-sane that they get paid near double but okay. Not that they should make less, just that the poor bastards actually risking their mental & physical well-being should be paid more.)
As it is, that’s why I likely won’t be back as a creature for a hot min… the pay is meh, they don’t give ample time to flex my schedule to meet their needs, they don’t schedule prep shit at a time that makes sense (one weeks notice for a ‘required’ attendance? I LOOK jobless bc my main job pays like shit, not bc I am actually jobless) & that I could make work WITH my job on days I work, it’s roughly 2mo out of my year of bending over backwards for folks that clearly could not care less, and I need money to survive.
Basically: the place I work the seasonal gig at is, in fact, dog shit and worse every year. The best year was my first and it all went downhill. The employees are left to play supervisor w none of the power & no one backs them up when they “handle” shit like they were TOLD to do, so even when I can’t be a haunt actor, I will still be a guest, and I’ll be a god damn angel to them, a pigeon messenger, a doctor, a manager, security, idc. Whatever they need me to be, I will be, bc no one else is doing it.
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pain-is-too-tired · 4 months ago
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*Baps you. Baps you. Baps you. Baps y-*
Remember y'all. Caffeine is a stimulant. Stimulants typically have opposing affects on those with adhd. If a demigod drinks black coffee they ain't getting a burst of energy. At most they're going be able to focus their adhd more. Or just get tired and have heart palpitations.
Will is not staying up because of 100+ coffees. My man is awake out of determination and pure spite. The fact he hasn't snapped is a miracle.
Also. They're probably low on iron. Get those kids some supplements.
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batfossil-fr · 9 months ago
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I’ve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soon… I’ve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and I’m finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shop’s so broken rn lmao but that’s a problem for a later date it’s just nice getting back into art
#my mental health is starting to improve a bit#took a couple years but I found some meds that finally work better for me#ofc things aren’t 100% but I was really in a pit for a while#like ‘did not leave my house in months and slept 14 hours a day’ kind of pit#so. any improvement is better lol. but nah I’ve been making real improvement and im doing better. a lil shaky sometimes but that’s expected#diagnosed with chronic fatigue too. which is unfortunate but not unexpected. i am indeed god’s sleepiest soldier#i feel like a raisin slowly rehydrating but considering i was in a desert before any hydration is welcome#just learning how to enjoy things again overall#one thing I just couldn’t get myself to do (and enjoy) was art. doodles here and there but nothing to post#and it’s kind of funny because I feel like that downtime actually gave me a chance to think about what I wanted to work on#even when I wasn’t actively practicing#just paying attention to things I guess. enjoying art styles#i genuinely think my experimenting with stained is helping me learn colors#i spend hours in the scryshop im glad it’s paying off lmao#i want to tackle bigger things but i just gotta ease myself into the hang of things again#for now im having fun and that’s coooool. thank you all for your nice comments#i read all tags while kicking my feet and giggling. thank u all#that’s the update on Me tho. more to come hopefully#starting next month/julyish I will have a significant amount of time to dedicate to drawing which i intend on doing#so who knooowwwsss#rambles#funny enough coloring has become my favorite part of the process now. it used to be lineart. now lineart annoys me LOL#i also feel like i kinda lost my ability to write which has been frustrating but im focusing on art first#anyways that’s a whole different tangent rant over
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autisticlee · 10 days ago
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don't you love when you dream you were stabbed or shot or fell and broke something or some other thing and wake up to some kind of severe pain that makes you wanna cry but you can't do anything about it to stop it. and bonus points if you also have to pee really bad so have to force yourself to get up 😐
also I accidentally missed my volunteering today because I tried to get up a few times but it hurt and I gave up and fell back asleep and kept getting woke up by those pain dreams fbddsjjsjjs I feel so disoriented and out of it. idk what to do about it. Just ignore it I guess 🥲 have to go back to work in a couple hours and mop up salt for 5 hours again. ugh. can the snow and cold stop existing now?????? it's so painful 🥲😭
also I can't tell if I feel like i'm going to throw up because of stomach issues or because sometimes my chronic pains seem to make me nauseous for some reason in general. or both???? I want to disappear for a while. not go back to work 😭😭😭😭
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luna-the-cretar · 2 months ago
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It’s weird. I don’t normally cuddle with my other plushies (despite having 20 of ‘em) after the first day or so, even when I’m sick or hurt to the point where i basically have to be on bed rest, and yet. For some reason cuddling the ouaw plushes make me feel better. These little guys did not leave my arms when I was sick, and I keep alternating between Frost and Torbek right now (if not both, depending on my position and how I’m feeling)
I mean, they don’t make the pain go away, but they make it a bit more bearable. Until my grandma comes back with my pain meds, at least
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phagodyke · 3 months ago
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aouuugh my uterus......
#long long day at work codeine wasnt helping with cramps and my meds are less effective on my period :(#ive been doing okay most of the day tho just starting feeling kind of miserable omw home bc such a long wait at the bus stop in pain#and im kind of lonely at the moment but wont be able to climb tomorrow bc of cramps so thats my main social source gone :(#and it always feels worse at home bc if im having a hard time like in physical pain or feeling down my roommate cant rly handle it#like she cant rly be in the room with me the headphones go straight on. which is ok im realising its just how her type of autism works#so im trying not to get as upset at her abt it. with varying degrees of success but it just takes time#i mean i dont get upset AT her like ik its not her fault and i dont want her feeling like it is. I keep it internal + cry once im alone#just different social needs n boundaries innit. we're a bit incompatible is all#but its still hard. I'd like support from other ppl when I'm struggling i mean i think thats a fairly normal thing to want#but of the friends I would be comfortable talking to abt how i feel none of them have that kind of emotional availability#which again is ok like its not on them. and im very capable of dealing w my shit myself one way or another so its not a Need#but idk. it would just be nice. I feel like I've had to be so independent most of my teenage and adult life and I wish I could take a#break from that sometimes. even just a hug would be nice man#sorry i always come on here and talk abt the same problems... well youll see me do it again no doubt abt that 🫠#ughh and i feel so guilty for wanting things ppl cant give even though i know its not really my fault either and im allowed to want things#and i dont cross boundaries or make them feel bad abt it. i really hope i dont anyway. but still ahhh...#its so hard for me to feel connected to anyone if they cant rly engage w me emotionally at all like its a non negotiable#factor into closeness and trust for me and i get so frustrated bc i feel so distant and alienated from the ppl i care abt most#and ik i overreact bc of my rsd so maybe its just that its probably not even a real issue. but its real to me bc im the one who gets upset#man. anyway its okay just a really really long day. im gonna wash my dishes and then shower#and finish my book. maybe i should play some dead cells i miss it. i dont really want to think abt how i feel anymore#maybe ill see if anyones free to hang out tmr evening so i dont have to feel as lonely even if i cant leave the house after work#all good nice to have a plan anyway. done sniffling. my hot water bottle is helping thr cramps a littlr i think#.diaries#oh i dont think its helping actually ow. i took more codeine an hour ago why doesnt it do anything. not fairrr 😭
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adhdheather · 3 months ago
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i regularly forget that my 40yo older sister follows me on instagram and the only updates she gets abt my life are:
- outfits im wearing to college & shows
- posters for my weekly movie events on campus
- occasional stories like “finally investing in a high quality clown nose”
which has to look weird in comparison to the other accounts she follows
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tittyinfinity · 1 year ago
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bodies are so WEIRD
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viksalos · 1 year ago
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anyways i'm on new psych meds that are kinda sorta serving their nominal purpose of turning down the anxiety BUT more importantly have like 90% solved my chronic pain issues cus it turns out they were due to nerve damage and not actually anything wrong with my organs lol. so that's basically why i've been on here less; don't need to be on social media as much to distract myself from the pain. i will still check in occasionally tho cus i miss you all <3
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orcelito · 1 year ago
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Determined to finally get my license within the first few months of this year. Gonna get my permit renewed next week. After I get my license, I will look into buying a car... which... ugh. But with my tax return, if I find smth relatively cheap with a decent payment plan, I think I can do it
I just think that the independence of being able to drive myself places will help me a lot. The rest of the things will follow.
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erythristicbones · 2 years ago
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having a weird time after this seizure bc like. the docs didn't really tell me what to expect w it
like im not overwhelmingly tired or fatigued, but i can only do like 2-3 tasks before i get that way. but then i also recover quick? like i thought taking a nap would help but i sat for 15mins and then bolted back up with plenty of energy. also one half of my body/joints is more injured than the other, bc my right arm + leg don't have anywhere near as good of range of motion
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milo-is-rambling · 2 years ago
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Chronic pain really got me going to bed before it’s even dark out (also my little pink unicorn lights Millie got me look so cool in the second pic)
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#my back and shoulder are killing me and I’ve done nothing but smoke weed and stretch and I just hurt so bad#so I’m gonna go to bed and hopefully feel better tomorrow#I work at nine again tomorrow so if anything hopefully going to bed early helps that#I’m excited to sleep hopefully a lot and hopefully really well bc 1) weed. 2) took sleepy cough meds to try and mooch extra pain reliever#out of meds in my cabinet. 3) took a back and muscle pain Aleve (even tho I hate taking pills and it took me like three whole min to get it#down my fucking throat. 4) tired from actually using my brain and anxiety from work tired#5) period tired and chronic pain tired#like guys my brain and my body are both exhausted and the idea of getting up tomorrow and doing any of it again makes me miserable and I did#nothing but sit at a computer for three and a half hours that’s itttttt#like doing two week road-trip then non stop either emotional or physical shit every day until my first day at work#like I’m already setting myself up for this to be the summer of the grind#gonna make a bunch of money (and spend too much and blame it on the summer time and needing a little treat every time I venture out into the#heat or work a day or do anything at all) and then save a bunch all fall winter spring and once it gets colder and I feel like I can handle#my job more I want to focus on how to make moving out happen. like I need to figure out if maybe there’s somewhere I want to live that has#an Office Depot I could transfer to cause office depots are everywhere and maybe that’s an added way for me to figure out where I want to#move#hmmm okay I’m gonna lay in bed on google maps looking at Office Depot locations in New England and I’m just gonna daydream and try to fall#asleep and I’ll look at / add to my Pinterest board of house and apartment inspo#going to think about the future because I want to live !!!!#anyways yeah this is the summer of being miserable and spending all my money on bullshit and daydreaming and disappointing my mother#and also the summer of my weed tolerance doubling forever until I’m back to smoking constantly to the point where I’m making myself sick and#then I’ll get sick of smoking weed for a bit and that’ll lead me into saving money again#or force me into a tolerance break where I stop buying weed#either way I’m going to smoke all summer it’s gonna be weed and sweat and fresh fruit and laying in my room during all of my days off and it#it’s gonna suck and I’m gonna be thinking about my dad the whole time and it’ll be depressing and isolating and lonely and I’ll come out of#the summer recentered and motivated towards big goals again like I always am#and then I’ll crash and burn next spring as always. cycles continue forever thank u seasonal depression.#I want to grow up and mature in the ways I deal with myself my health and advocating for my mental health I feel like I need to grow up a#bit so I hope I do that and it feels good. I hope I make friends and I can daydream about the future every night and my room will smell like#weed and incense and sweat and love and tears and it will be incredible
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naomiknight-17 · 2 years ago
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Person I don't know on my cat blog: Here's a small essay about how to give pills to your cats spread over several replies! I am sincere and trying to be helpful and explaining as best I can!
Me, who already gave my cats their pills and announced my success on the blog over an hour earlier: ok 🤐
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cocainecowgrrl · 6 days ago
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womp womp
#I’ve fucking ruined everything again. Cool cool#the only thing I have now is my job and if I actually try and get help which I probably need now I will lose that too#radical#I’m just fucking scared and alone with my thoughts here#all my support system is 900mi away#this is so fucking dumb but I miss my mom and I just want someone to tell me it’s going to be ok and that it will get better#it just never feels like anything gets better for me#I’m so so tired of making my life worse#I feel like such an abject failure and defective life form#like I’m fucking worthless below the fucking dirt#the only thing I’m good for is my job and my work and I can’t lose that either#i have a psych appointment on Friday and I’m fucking terrified they’re going to send me to the hospital#-_-#dumb shit yapping#I don’t think anyone is reading this I don’t really want to talk about anything though I am just venting to the wind#I can’t tell any of my irl friends this tho bc they’d be concerned#which rightfully so but I don’t want to burden them with that knowledge#I just do not know how much longer I can keep doing this and being alive#I kept crying on new years bc I was scared and I don’t think I can make it until 2026#and I just feel so fucking unfixable and defective that therapy and meds aren’t actually going to fix what’s wrong with me#it goes deeper I am inherently flawed and subhuman#there are a lot of core human moments in life that I just never will experience#i can’t lie to myself and act like I’m the same kind of person things Can get better for#I’ve always been like this#built differently built wrong#I’m gonna go take a nap and watch co09 again#not gonna do nothing just try and shut my brain off#last time I had a really bad mental breakdown though my mom took me to go get boba bc I couldn’t eat anything#and I know she’s my mom and she has to but like#It was just really comforting and touching in a way that I can’t do for myself
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ozz-ball · 3 months ago
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basically every day since nov 5;
4am-6am: We are all going to die
6am: Hydroxyzine
7am-onward: ok.
5pm: We are all going to die
6pm: Hydroxyzine
7pm-bedtime: ok.
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shepherdfeathers · 3 months ago
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Oh boy oh boy here comes the yearly “are these the early signs of appendicitis or am I just severely dehydrated!”
Haha I am in pain
please just be dehydration I don’t want to go to with this whole hospital thing again for them to tell me “yeah so she’s just really fucking thirsty”
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