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autisticlee · 7 days ago

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don't you love when you dream you were stabbed or shot or fell and broke something or some other thing and wake up to some kind of severe pain that makes you wanna cry but you can't do anything about it to stop it. and bonus points if you also have to pee really bad so have to force yourself to get up 😐

also I accidentally missed my volunteering today because I tried to get up a few times but it hurt and I gave up and fell back asleep and kept getting woke up by those pain dreams fbddsjjsjjs I feel so disoriented and out of it. idk what to do about it. Just ignore it I guess 🥲 have to go back to work in a couple hours and mop up salt for 5 hours again. ugh. can the snow and cold stop existing now?????? it's so painful 🥲😭

also I can't tell if I feel like i'm going to throw up because of stomach issues or because sometimes my chronic pains seem to make me nauseous for some reason in general. or both???? I want to disappear for a while. not go back to work 😭😭😭😭

#chronic pain #lee rants #regular pain meds like ibuprofen dont work on me #once i was in so much pain i took like 10 or 12 (lost count) of them in 3 hours because they woulsnt work and i just threw up lmao #now they make my stomach hurt so i refuse to take them #so i just suffer and accept my pain #never tried stronger stuff but dont want to because reasons. also its so hard to get prescription pain meds here because #i live in an area with high rates of addiction and drug abuse and stuff so pain meds are barely prescribed now. they will deny you #actually i lied i tried some after i had a surgery. surgery area didnt hurt much but my back pain and migraines were AWFUL and #the prescription opioid did nothing for either of them. so i just never took them. i still have them. but dout you can take 5 year old meds #so i probably shouldnt try #afraid to talk to a doctor about my chronic pain since theyre all used to everyone aroujd here only seeking drugs #and heard horror stories from family about doctors and even emergency clinics denying them pain meds becasue #they were accused of faking for drugs. its so bad here. ill be labled as “drug seeker” and get ignored #even tho i dont even want them! i just want some kind of useful help so i can sleep and walk without my joints feeling like HELL.#and my muscles screaming and my nerves electrocuting me every time i move!!#sighs. all i have to do is get used to the growing pain over and over and keep learning how to ignore it

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xxplastic-cubexx · 2 months ago

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How would you redesign Headmaster Magneto? Just out pf curiousity because while he served it didn’t feel like… Erik.

i have to keep it 100 i have no idea without just. rerunning his original design but with a palette swap LOL but we try around here

#xmen #xmen comics #magneto #erik lehnsherr #snap sketches #CAUSE LIIIKEE i want to keep SOMEE elements of the headmaster look obviously #i like its design intent. or how i see its design anyway idfk .... idk what im sayin im sleepy #just gotta. throw a few more things on there .... maybe... again i dont know 😔#the bigass M just makes me think of megaman gigamix i cant even lie #having/wanting to keep this as a one piece/leotard with that big ass m is probablyl whats stumping me if im so tbh #for some reason the lack of 'underwear' and helmet really is doing a lot for it Not feeling like magneto #the helmet i get Thats His Symbol ATP but the underwear ..... girl idk Strong Man or something like that #its just awkward because headmaster magneto is Supposed to be more tame or . 'domesticated' i guess vjALKE #not less powerful but he shouldnt be as intimidating/outwardly powerful if. that makes sense???#the first thought seeing him shouldnt be 'hes going to stomp me to death' it should be. Not That LKVJAEKj #BUT AT LEAAASSST in the back of the mind being likek 'he could probably stomp me to death'#SOME power but not to a threatening degree idfk what im saying my TUMMY IS RUMBLIGN AGAIN #what did i eat todasy. i ate like five hot pockets today thats what i ate. and some grapes #idk im tired. maybe ill try this again down the line #anyway enjoy if you can. saturday is upon us which means i can DOODLE AGAIN

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solargeist · 9 months ago

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i wanna redesign Watcher Mum chat what do we Think

#BC I DONT KNOW im trying to actually think this time bc the original was random loL #i like the feathers covering most of her face bc it adds the spooky shadow #but grian just sees feathers #and all curent watchers were once players so i wanted her to still look so #seeing her with pupils is so odd. she has eyes adjgkjkadg #i also said awhile back i wanted to do four eyes instead of six bc it adds up with the symbol and wings #probably shouldnt have eyebrows but for drawing sake they're Ther #but thtey would likely be under feathers #my art #sketching #the watchers #i dont like having her skin gray. the original was like. void. with freckles n stuff but. i no longer want this

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euri-matsuri · 13 days ago

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cant think of a cute dialog caption . come up with one for me i trust all of your guys' judgment collectively

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artlatrine · 4 months ago

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those tentacles got them good!

#me arty #pregnancy kink #i figured i probably should try to make a different tag for pregnancy stuff bc like i dont want my kink art to end up in places it shouldnt #so it's pregnancy kink now

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frobby · 6 months ago

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I think it would be really funny if rin was the more helpful one around his house. Like u would think rin would be the disrespectful one who always bails on housework or mass but its actually yukio who would always have an excuse not to go or forget about chores to the point that rin just does them instinctively now

#this post lagged my phone so bad i had to save it as a draft and switch it to my computer #god is trying to stop me from spreading my 'yukio is an atheist' ideals #anyway this extends to when they live together and when they are adults to the point that rin comes over and does all the chores for yukio #cuz this created an oroboros since rin always did them as a kid now yukio doesnt have them in his brain #he tries his best tho he would neveradmit (at least in highschool) that hes kind of a boyfailure at housework #rin is a homemaker this is my truth #rin is like kinda resentful but not enough to act on it and its so deep down he doesnt even realize its there #like yeah its kinda fucked up that he would ask yukio for help setting things up for mass or doing the laundry but yukio has a busy scedule #and hes wayy smarter than rin so obviously he shouldnt waste his time on stuff like that but rin would never voice those in a negative way #rin doesnt hate helping his brother tho if yukio asked him to come over and clean his house everyday forever he would probably do it #its just the principal of yukio being a perfect angel and rin not getting any credit cuz hes doing 'thankless jobs'#and yukio kinda feels bad even tho he really did have things to do he just couldnt tell rin cuz it was exorcist work #im just writing fanfiction now #accept my okumura twin fanfiction headcanons #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #yukio okumura #rin okumura #'blue exorcist' 'ao no exorcist' yukio okumura' 'rin okumura' are my most used tags on tumblr #am i in your hearts yet blue exorcist tumbr?🥺

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backfliips · 2 months ago

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Someone totaled my car today and I do not like being in insurance limbo

#i did all the stuff i was supposed to but im gonna call my insurance again tonorrow just to double check #i had a green light and someone left turned into me like super late #like idk how they thought they could make that turn #but my airbags all went off and my hood was a mess so i think my car is fully toast #siiiigh #:(#i dont want to have to buy a new car......#i just moved out too so dealing with this + rent + living expenses is not ideal #i wish ppl knew how to fucking drive and i still had my car.#im trying to be zen and cool about this and just go well getting mad wont solve the problem but like #if people paid attention while they were driving then i wouldnt be out a car having to use a sick day tomorrow #and i wouldnt have to probably spend more than what i get from insurance on whatever my new car will cost #and i wouldnt be having to deal with insurance and getting rides places and hopefully getting a rental car #so maybe i can be a little mad for a while and get upset for myself for once #i just roll over and accept everything all the time and while intentional apathy has gotten me this far #maybe i shouldnt cling to it forever

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g0blinm0d3 · 5 months ago

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Wisdom saga stole my voice.

#i love this saga so much but im not built for it 😭#legendary is at the very bottom of my natural register #i am not at all professionally trained and probably shouldnt be attenpting Teagan's belts but I literally cant not try.#and dont me get started on Beast Mode!Zeus #or Antonius and the suitors #epic the musical #epic the wisdom saga #the wisdom saga #wisdom saga #jorge rivera herrans #teagan earley #luke holt

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sunbloomdew · 11 months ago

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To The Moon Minisodes Eva's diary entries

In both of the minisodes if you leave out Eva's diary (so when you don't click on it while playing as Eva) you can later read it when the player controls Neil.

Minisode 1 diary entry:

Neil's reaction is fear, if you try to read the entry again he will say something like: "Nope."

Minisode 2 diary entry:

This time the only reaction is a speech bubble with three dots.

#hey did you know that when you try to screenshot to the moon on steam a thingy pops up #so u cant take screenies with the steam ss function unless ur like really fast #that doesnt apply to the minisodes you cant ss them in steam at all #so this is the labor of my manual screenshotting oh how i have missed you #anyways #i am on my freebird games seasonal replay and MAN #to the moon my beloved #although finding paradise is my favourite entry in the series #to the moon #to the moon minisodes #to the moon minisode 1 #to the moon minisode 2 #freebird games #eva rosalene #neil watts #gamer hours #did someone do this already? probably #but hey i do this for me and myself only #i missed them sm #the only doctors i would allow to perform surgery on me when i shouldnt cause they're not that type of a doctor lmao

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raccoonnutella13 · 10 months ago

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why are ppl always so mean about taz :(

#every time theres a new arc everyone who only liked balance is like 'oh if u dropped off after balance u have to listen to THIS arc bc its #JUST LIKE BALANCE'#every damn time.#it happened with ethersea a bit but especially w steeplechase and vs dracula #and u get ppl in the notes of these posts saying 'oh yeah i fucking hated everything after balance sooo glad theyre finally doing exactly #what i want them to!!'#like. its ok to have personal preference but dont be mean about it :(#and comparing every campaign to balance is rlly annoying sry #let them be their own thing #stop being so blinded by nostalgia ig #like not to be rude but. i think ppl think balance is the most Perfect Thing Ever but its rlly...not #all the campaigns have flaws but i aint canceling them for that #like what happened with grad #idk its like if balance came later ppl would probably be much more mean about it #bc they wouldnt be blinded by nostalgia as much or smthn #anyways #at the end of the day the mcelroys shouldnt be expected to make a replica of balance every campaign #and thats not what theyre trying to do. theyre doing what THEY personally want to do. like they clearly dont care abt what others think lol #theyre experimenting and having fun #its like. a free podcast with a bunch of silly dudes playing for funsies. they shouldnt have such high expectations or be demonized #in any way #my point being. if i see anyone being mean abt taz u get blocked #>:(#coon speaks #not tagging taz. i dont wanna see nasty ppl in my notifs ty

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 1 year ago

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pray for me please

#SHITTY morning guys #I messed a bunch of things up before even leaving home and now I feel devastatingly worthless and awful #like... nothing can fix this my day is ruined kind of feelings. I'm trying to fight them but all the proof is that #they're true. I effed up and then made it worse by reacting poorly repeatedly when I should have gone forward differently #repeatedly #so.... yeah #anyway. I'll probably feel better in a little while but i should never trust my feelings with stuff like this. they're nasty little buggers #idk. I feel like I SHOULDNT feel better. I need to change so much about my attitude and behavior why should I have a good day #how can I????#idk ANYWAY. I'm gonna stop wallowing. pray for me please??#prayer request

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mint-is-here · 8 months ago

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Day 1 of the @lmk-season-5-drawing-challenge :D

I thought i would be the only one who would draw Nezha for this day but nop!!!

Anyway this is sort of for my au? I mostly use this Nezha outfit in my sk8ter boy au but i also just. Use it outside of the au in general. So yeah.

#This took me too long and i didnt even really color it but im tired #Also i did this in ibis paint #I havent done a proper drawing in ibis paint for. A while...so that was fun #I dont think ill be able to do all of the themes since this month is going to be really busy for me but ill try doing at least some #Probably going to be like. Tradicional doodles/inking though #Since i mostly do this sort of thing during school and stuff #anyway normal tags now #My art #Lmk fanart #Lmk nezha #digital art #Lmks5dc #LMKSeason5DrawingChallenge #Its not as polished as i would prefer(the outer lines not being thicker is bugging the heck out of me)#But its a daily chalenge so i guess i shouldnt beat myself up if its not perfect

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lokh · 6 months ago

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this says something about me i just dont know what

#honestly zulf probably shouldnt be there but i felt like three was two little and also i remembered the venn diagram i made #of him and akaza lmao.... i was thinking of trying another mashup oc #with my most recent fav characters and. well #FUCK i figured it out. they all have tension with their own culture and the one they find themselves in #though maybe with akaza somewhat less so and its more classism?

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dick-chugger · 3 months ago

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I need to get a cat NOW

#trying to get my dad to buy one #like i could technically buy one myself but i dont really wanna pay for it and talking to like someone selling it sounds stressful #also i live in my dads house. so probably shouldnt just show up one day with a cat

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xxplastic-cubexx · 22 days ago

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Or even better, you can become a YouTuber. That way you can edit your streams or just ramble non-stop about lore for shit you like

oh i fear that'd involve listening to my voice and i'd rather die than do that

#snap chats #there's no sound i hate more in the world than my own voice. that and forks scraping against plates but anyways #the idea's always sounded fun to me and im a firm believer you shouldnt let small things like hating your voice stop you #so who knows ... youd have to shoot me to get serious lore review videos out of me tho LMAO #i am NOT intelligente nor organized enough for that. im just a silly man on the internet #in any case i did used to post stream vods to my youtube. and then i deleted all of theme vjEAKJAEKVJ #at least with vods i could just post them since Theyre Vods theyre meant to be unedited and not reviewed and whatever #i did think of editing streams down so its not just like three hours of dead air and then SOMETHING mildly interesting happening #idk. maybe ill try recording a rivals vid tomorrow or something #see the idea of streaming just might be awkward if i want to look at chat tho since i only have one monitor buuut i do have a phone #and my tablet or whatever. i used to use my phone as a Slightly Better webcam than my cpu's built-in one but anyway #im putting too much thought into something im probably not gonna even do vJLKVJAELKJ #i like thinking ... cause again i just think itd be fun and silly and fun ..#OH WELL

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lollytea · 11 months ago

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I do love the netflix avatar in my own way because it provides me with enrichment in the same way brain puzzles do for chimps. Like something is WRONG here and it's your very special job to figure out why! And then you will get juice reward!!

#its been making me think about the cartoon a lot lately for the sake of comparing and contrasting #so thats great #it was a very good cartoon #i do actually think that its stupid to complain about how its objectively bad when an adaption makes changes to the original #because that SHOULD be the point of an adaption. to try things in a new way and somehow improve on the story #but i think its funny how this show is constantly like ''we're gonna take a DIFFERENT route with this character''#and then the DIFFERENT ROUTE leads to them driving the car off a cliff #we will not get to our destination this way bestie #out of all the changes theyve made to the original i think the most misguided and overall dogshit is how theyre portraying Azula #it annoying when people say ''theyre ACTUALLY writing her as a victim of her father's abuse this this''#''shes ACTUALLY sympathetic this time''#girl i hate it here #netflix show is a COWARD for showing Azula this way in season 1 #not that its not somewhat in character. if ozai started playing mindgames with her she probably would start spiraling like this #the problem is that we shouldnt be SEEING IT!!#avatar is regarded as Baby's First Media Analysis for a lot of people #and boy oh boy there was a lot of analytic meat to Azula's character #but the netflix version? this is a skeleton!! bones!!!#like obviously if you were watching the cartoon as an adult it would be immediately apparent #that this 14 yo girl acting not only like a grown woman but a calm calculated genocidal tyrant is very concerning #and it makes her sympathetic by defualt on the grounds of being a child #but a kid isnt going to realize that!! Azula is supposed to be polarizing!!#youre meant to buy into the narrative that everything is easy for her. that no effort troubles her mind #her unflappable nature is meant to unsettle you. intimidate you. she has no weaknesses shes unstoppable and shes pure evil #as a kid who is still learning how to think deeply about things thats how youre to perceive her #and then. AND THEN!! then the show pulls the rug out from under you and makes you question everything #Azula's gradually unraveling sanity in book 3 is jarring and unnatural and it forces you to challenge your own opinion of her #you become uncomfortably aware that shes a victim too. after all this time youve spent hating her #just like zuko. just like the fire family child that you had already come to realize was ''actually good''#after that first watch its hard to decide how you feel about her. as a kid anyway. but its sad. its all so very sad

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