#theyd hate to know they have something in common

[dayurno]

no matter what the funniest thing about the perfect court is always that for both riko and jean their entire support system was kevin day. we are master and pet and you have tortured me in ways i cannot admit to myself let alone others but the only person in the world who gives a damn about you is the only person in the world who gives a damn about me. twinsies?

[onawhimsicot]

it would be so niche and i dont even know what id put in it, but ive finally finished listening to the blazing babe arc of naddpod + the short rests and im so tempted to like write the most terrible romance between mavrus and mac. i just think they could be even more worse for each other, their friendship is so toxic in canon and their romance would be even more so and thats why they should kiss about it imho peace and love on planet earth <333

[apricotforher]

it infuriates me that i had to be born w a bum eye. most ppl who got coloboma dont have any vision loss w it but i just had to be part of the ones that does have vision loss. and through the years its ruined my perfectly okay eye too so it cant see well now either. and its just gonna get worse forever!!!! and i got cataracts in it!!!!!!!!!!

[craske]

HI

UH

I AM VERY CURIOUS ON WHAT THE HELL IS SHADOW MILK'S BEHAVIOUR AND INTERACTION WITH THE ANCIENTS AFTER GETTING HIS SOUL JAM STOLEN

DOES HE TRIES TO LIKE, GET IT BACK OR SOMETHING?

ALSO LOVE SO MUCH HOW YOU DRAW HIMM

HI THANK YOU SM IM HAPPY YOU LIKE IT 🥺

yapfest incoming

the interactions are very uh. complicated. as you can probably imagine. considering thats the fucking Beast that not only was tormenting Pure Vanilla and White Lily but also killed Elder Fairy and devastated the Faerie kingdom. so things are a little, itty bitty slightly tense between him and literally everyone

if they could theyd leave him there for dead but thatd be really irresponsible so what else was there to do than to apprehend the still big (literally) threat. for quite a while tho he is just trying to adjust to not being this all powerful force (meaning hes being a miserable wet thing with a very bad migraine) (dont worry it doesnt stop him from brewing plots)

bc a very large portion of his powers is gone, he isnt really that dangerous anymore (but also he isnt neutralized). and since all of this is a speculation because we currently have No Idea what will happen in the future of the Beast Yeast arc, i like to believe the beast yeast expeditions retreated back to Crispia and Shadow Milk is being held as a prisoner. under constant supervision of couse, cant have the clown start doing his clownery again

since im a biiig sucker for antagonists turned begrudging ally (or an actual ally as time goes on), he turns out to be a good source of intel, plus provides some surprisingly important insight. yeah they all hate eachother and hold massive grudges (esp in case of the two doomed lovebirds) but they have a common enemy. and shadow milk wants his powers back.

but.... wouldnt it be funny if the lack of overwhelming almost limitless power had an effect on his (and by that extent, other beasts) mind? if that force didnt push and pull and mold and break down and put it back together? and maybe something started to change, or in fact revert?

well who knows! imagine that happening lol

[cosmicjolteon]

so like if youre lgbtq+ and in a queerphobic environment and you see someone talking about an lgbtq group they found all like "theyre GAY also they hurt kids but MOSTLY THEYRE GAY" and i mean thats a common argument from those people yk? Bringing child abuse into it? and of course youre not gonna assume they have your best interests in mind like i mean theyre queerphobic they hate people like you. and this is the only lgbtq+ community group youve ever heard of also.

and so of course you go and join. and then theres things you maybe disagree with (on topics of child abuse especially) but youre... youre lonely, your new friends loooove you, and dont you know theyd be sooooooo sad if you didnt agree with them? so you push it down because where the fuck else are you gonna find anything.

and it just keeps going and going and going again and again and again and they say youre basically Queerphobe Lite if you dont agree with them and they fearmonger, they say no other lgbtq+ group will acceot you, and youre so scared, and you kind of just end up believing it,

and maybe then you get out but all the people against that group are queerphobes and also stopped talking about it several months ago so you cant even go to anyone with information!

anyways thats pretty much how i got roped into pro contact nonconsensual paraphilia spaces!!

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i know paraphilias and lgbtq+ are not really the same, im using this as a metaphor because its something a lot of people on tumblr can relate to, being queer and encountering queerphobes. i hope this post can help bring awareness to how this shit happens to people, especially vulnerable kids, especially when the people warning them away from something hate them.

[jiraisupportgroup]

hi!! is it so wrong to be a young jirai?

i feel so young in this community and idk what to do.. it feels like if people knew my true age theyd shame me or something. i respect the lifestyle and have felt the most comfort here than ever, but im so scared of people finding out my age and just blocking me

There isn’t anything particularly wrong with being young and in spaces like this - a lot of older people just don’t want to interact with minors for their own comfort (& vice versa). I can’t speak for everyone but there’s a lot of reasons for this. Especially in spaces based around mental health (and even more so with Jirai Kei being a space which isn’t inherently recovery based).

A lot of older landmines will talk about or RB things that are sexual in nature & it can feel kind of weird or gross when people who are much younger interact with posts about that stuff. Some people are also afraid because technically you can get in actual trouble if you’re posting nsfw content and knowing that minors follow you / will see it - although functionally there are hardly ever legal repercussions for this. It can still feel icky.

A lot of older landmines also just have trouble relating to younger landmines - our struggles might be similar but there can also be a lot of differences it really depends on the situation. Like a 20 year old and a 15 year old dealing with even the same issues can look extremely different, and sometimes we just can’t relate. Also the language that we use tends to be a bit different. I notice that it’s much more common for younger people to use more heavily romanticized language when talking about certain issues and a lot of older people can’t really relate because a lot of us are at a point where we’re just so defeated and sick of it. I don’t know how to explain this without giving examples but younger people make certain things look fun and new and exciting and like a thing to do while some of us older people have long past that phase and it’s just like a crushing reality for us at this point. It’s not fun anymore. And seeing people have fun with it can be upsetting for a number of reasons. That’s not specific to minors it’s just kind of a trend I’ve noticed. (I don’t know if I explained that well at all)

Another thing (and idk if this is just me) is that seeing teenagers talk about the same issues we have / had as a teenager is genuinely gut wrenching sometimes. It can be really hard to watch young people go down the same paths we went down and just wanting to scream at them to stop and turn back but knowing there is not a single thing we can do to help them - it can feel extremely disheartening sometimes. Especially on Tumblr bc a lot of us grew up on Tumblr and our illnesses were heavily influenced by the mental health spaces we were in on Tumblr & I mean for me at least I can confidently say that it had a negative impact on my mental health as a teenager and now being older it’s like aaaa fuck I don’t want the vents or things I post being shown to teenagers who could be negatively impacted by it just like I was at their age. Real Catcher in the Rye moment.

& some people just don’t really want to interact with minors. The differences between even 18 year olds and 15 year olds are pretty big. I mean I’m 24 and like I don’t really hang out in real life with people under 19 just kind of naturally - like not in “oh you’re only 18 we can’t hang out” kind of way but we just genuinely tend not to vibe. But again that’s just my personal experience so it’s super different for everyone.

There’s also a lot of minors who don’t want anyone who’s over 18 interacting with them for similar reasons. Often times it’s protection, but a lot of minors find adults annoying or not super relatable, which is just as valid.

Tldr: everyone has different comfort levels. It’s not that you’re doing anything wrong or that people just automatically hate you bc of your age, it’s more so like the difference between teenagers & 20 year olds can be pretty big so sometimes they don’t want to interact with each other.

[triptychofvoids]

Autistic medic gives me life ❤❤. Any random hcs for him? /nf /pos

of course! autistic medic is canon to me

ive already talked a bit about him being autistic before so a few of these maybe be things ive already mentioned but ill say them anyway

this is already obvious to everyone already but his special interests are surgery and medicine! anything medical really. hes also very interested in anatomy and pigeons (specifically pigeons. he probably couldnt tell you a lot about parrots for example, but if you want 100 facts about doves then hes your guy). and of course hed have a bunch of other hobbies and interests but those are the big ones

hes more prone to shutdown than he is to meltdown. not that meltdowns would never happen, theyre just more rare. usually a shutdown would come first and on the occasion hes pushed past that then a meltdown would follow, and after a meltdown then hed have a second even worse shutdown. thankfully situations like these are rare

like ive said (and drawn) before his main stims are rocking, hand flapping, echolalia, tensing up and hand wringing, and biting. a few other less obvious/not as common that he has are sparkly/flashy visual stims, he also loves both feeling and seeing anything gorey, he likes petting his birds, certain noises would be very pleasant to him like his doves cooing or coins clinking together and the sounds of the mediguns. hed love the smell of coffee and isopropyl. hed have a few others stims too but theyd be more rare and very situational like hitting himself or toe walking.

hes weird about his gloves and his coat. as in he would put them on for a specific reason but once he gets used to having them on he would absolutely hate taking them off. he has to keep them on for the rest of the day no matter what. and vice versa, if hes not wearing his gloves or coat then he cant just?? randomly put them on?? no no its all or nothing theyre either going on for combat and then staying on for the rest of the day or not at all

hes very excitable and loves to talk and if hes engaged in a conversation or excited about something then his voice will gradually get louder and louder and he'll keep interrupting or talking over people. he wont even notice it until someone points it out to him

you cant take him to the store because hes going to touch everything and then very quickly regret it when hes suddenly overcome with the overwhelming soul crushing need to wash his hands and theres no sink around. its so over :[

bad at left vs right and identifying north, south, east, and west. nothing else to say here, its not that he gets lost easily, he can find his way around just fine its just that hes awful at directions

very strict about his routines and lists. he cannot stand it if he makes plans and they get postponed or canceled. he hates it if he makes a list of things to get and then cant get everything on the list exactly correct. hes actually more than willing to do things on impulse in the moment but only if hes already mentally planned to do that or if it doesnt interfere with something else he has going on

hes very blunt and direct. he says exactly what hes thinking and answers questions very honestly and directly. people often find him to be rude for this but he doesnt get why. speaking of him being seen as rude, he used to get in trouble for always rolling his eyes or talking back to people because for the longest time he didnt realize that trying to stretch your eyes or avoid eye contact or staring could all somehow be considered 'rolling' your eyes. or rude. and talking back... isnt that how a conversation works? hes never been very good at knowing when he is or isnt supposed to reply to statements.

ive said it before but i will say it again. he has little to no empathy. every autistic person is different of course and not all autistics have low empathy, but im tired of low enpathy being seen as a bad trait. im tired of people with low empathy (autistic or otherwise) being seen as evil and uncaring. having low empathy doesnt make you a bad person. he has very low empathy and often struggles to connect with and understand others. he frequently will have the wrong emotion for the situation and may sometimes come off as uncaring when he is not as sad about something as they are, etc etc etc but he is not some horrible evil monster for it and i do not want to see anyone saying that because its just completely incorrect. hope this helps

anyway!!!! theres some autistic medic!!!! i hope you like him as much as i do!!!!

[pumpkinsy0]

Fem curly headcanons? Maybe a little genderbend purly splashed in the mix

going crazy over these genderbent ask i love genderbent aus sm dawg, we just gonna keep the trend of everyone bein genderbent here for funsies

•ik u want to know her real name here and its either like christelle or claudette/claudia, but if we wanna b funny and keep that “outlier” name curly got goin on, it could be antoinette, these r pretty common haitian names

•considering angelo and curly r twins, despite curly being older, i could see ppl mistaking him to b the older one a lot, the height gap dont help either

•now curly as a woc would obviously change em a bit more, shes even more so put in this box and that annoys her so badly bc she just wants to b herself and doesnt care what others think, however that leads her into getting into trouble and potentially taken advantage of, and thats where angelo being protective of her comes into play, shes also protective of angela tho

•curly is very pretty btw, not in the same way angela is but yknow, still pretty, and she has her own friend group, shes something like a queen bee at school, but not rlly a queen bee???? theyre def well known but ppl dont take her THAT seriously on her own, i hope u get what i mean</333

•shes fetishized a bit bc of her accent, ive always hc’d that out of the shepards, its curly that doesnt have THEE best idea of english at times and still has a bit of her haitian accent when she talks, she knows ppl get hung up on her voice and she tries to take advantage of that when she can, however shes not like angela where u pretend to b sweet, shes VERY upfront about what she wants and rarely uses that sweet talk tactic

•now when it comes to curlys relation ship w tiara (thats tims new name, i aint like tiana no more lmao), id say its closer, at least more obviously, i dont think there rlly WOULD b a shepards gang at least in the way we know it in this au, and so tiara would b way more open to showing affection to curly bc she can afford to be, then add on that once again, theyre both woc, so they HAVE to stick together, ON TOP of that curly looks up to her, so they just,,,click!!!!

•now normally, ive always hc’d curly to b a mamas boy and getting more “positive” attention from their mom, but for this au, curlys mom is like her and tiaras first hater bc of internalized misogyny, their mom obviously plays favorites and her fav is angelo, especially w him being the youngest

•BECAUSE U MENTIONED PURLY, another name u could go w is roseline, its a common name in haiti and long explanation short can b translated to “soft horse”, and so i think it would b funny if they both had that horse thing goin on w their names, for this au, curly hates ALL her parents man

•curly will definitely try on different lipsticks and then kiss pony w it to leave marks, theyre like that one painting “two women” by andrew loomis but edited w the kiss marks

•toxic masculinity/misogyny is helping them out here a bit im ngl, they could kiss in front of ppl and theyd go “oh theyre just two girl friends”, like yea theyre girlfriends alright

•truly wouldnt surprise me if she used the same lines boys would say to her on pony, her mouth is definitely somethin man

•i just realized they would hold hands in this au, like full on, guys omg,,,they hold hands in this au this is truly a win, they can truly cuddle now without curly dodging the fact that it is cuddling, we r WINNING

[crazylittlejester]

since it’s almost Hyrule Warriors anniversary…do you have any lttc warriors facts you’d like to share 🤲 also I’m going to draw him as part of my drawing links from different links meets thing I do for each game’s anniversary. It will happen I promise you so uh. idk if you have additional facial descriptors for him that you left in the other posts 🤲 but I’m pretty sure I can draw him accurately enough with the information already provided 👍 anyways, hope you have a good rest of your day!

OH BOY A CHANCE TO YAP ABOUT MY BLORBO!!!!!!

- Zelda keeps trying to promote him and he keeps refusing and she’s so frustrated by it, but he refuses to accept a promotion for something he doesn’t believe he accomplished

- He genuinely thinks he’s so sneaky with the lifts he has in his boots, he’s genuinely convinced no one knows

- Proxi can acknowledge how much he’s grown, but she still sees him as her wet cat son who just desperately needed someone to look out for him. She’s very proud of him, but she still thinks he’s ridiculous

- It took him a hot minute to become fluent enough in ‘hyrulian common’ (english) to be able to understand fast conversations with slang in them and to be able to speak back and converse with other soldiers at that level because it’s not his first language (this is why he sometimes stares at people with an incredibly blank expression during the war, he doesn’t always understand what they’re saying). Proxi continued to speak on his behalf until he’d perfected a castle town accent as well because he didn’t want anyone knowing he didn’t grow up within Hyrule kingdom

-Regularly abuses the fact that the general public has a certain image of him in their minds, and when he does not meet that image he can literally walk around wherever the hell he wants without being recognized and it’s so good for his mental health. He’s still paranoid and worried, but people just don’t recognize him because they hear all the tales of a strong, confident young man and Warriors is actually fairly quiet and comes off as a bit shy, plus people just aren’t expecting the hero to randomly be walking around on his own. Without the make up, fancy clothes, and boots and all that, he can just walk around markets like a normal person, and without the green tunic, Mask can too. So he’d pretty regularly just take Mask around towns to buy sweet treats and they both got to experience what it might’ve been like for an eighteen year old to shop with his little brother

- During the war, he and Ravio got quite close. They’re a dangerous combination and make each other worse

- He and his Zelda are incredibly close, they’re extremely good friends and they like to get together every so often and just YAP

also for any additional descriptors: LTTC Wars looks pretty much exactly like how I headcanon LU Wars. He was deadass created from You’re A Part Of Me Wars when I one day sat back and went “oh my god at this point I’ve just made my own guy-” the main difference between LTTC Wars and You’re A Part Of Me Wars is that LTTC Wars grew up outside of Hyrule Kingdom surrounded by a different culture and he struggled a lot more with a language barrier when he went to Castle Town (while my version of LU Wars grew up IN Hyrule Kingdom and had to struggle with learning his mom’s side of the family’s culture while being unable to fully interact with it), and a few details of the war. But physically they’re the same guy, so my pfp pic could be used as an additional ref if you needed :) THANK YOU FOR DRAWING MY GUY I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH

i love to stick lttc wars and you’re a part of me wars in a room and see what happens, they’d both hate it but I think theyd have so much to say

[bestofbothworldstour]

i find myself irritated when people i know constantly post pics hanging out with friends bc it sends the message to me I HAVE FRIENDS AND YOU DONT. I LIKE TO HANG OUT WITH THESE PEOPLE AND NOT YOU. but i think ive realized my main problem is specifically when my coworkers do this. bc they constantly hang out with each other, often in big groups comprised entirely of coworkers, but there are very few coworkers i hang out with outside of work and even then we don't hang out very often. i feel like just posting a general oh hey im hanging out with these people isnt that bad. but when youve clearly picked from a limited group of people, youre seeing whos included and who isnt. one of the hardest parts is that at work, there are plenty of people who i like and seem to like me and we chat plenty and even share interests but even those people don't include me. getting the impression someone wants to be your friend then being excluded can hurt as bad, or sometimes more so, than being excluded upfront i feel like.

there was one coworker i had who was in a very cliquey clique and she left late last year and the clique problem hasnt been as noticeable ever since she left. obvs there are still problems as its still bothering me but that made a noticeable difference. and heres the thing, she always very specifically talks about this group and its EXACT members (again, all coworkers) which i feel can be so hurtful to other coworkers, at least to me. like yah im in group chats and i hang out with those specific people but were not deliberately excluding any other specific people? not to say that like. there should never be friend groups amongst coworkers but idk my coworkers give off more exclusionary vibes than im used to.

ive been at my job for more than 3 years and some of these people in these groups have only been here for a few months like...

also, i may have talked about this on here already but with the exception of a few people, my coworkers cant even conceptualize indulging in fandom or anything like that, and im so constantly surrounded by them that its making me feel like the odd one out and i have to go out of my way to indulge in such stuff when im not at work.

its just harder than in college where all we did was what the class required. i knew very little about most of my classmates and looking back, i liked it that way!! no need for social competition or being othered, and i was still able to make plenty of friends by other means (ex. disney club where you're going into it with the knowledge that these people, to some degree, ARE like you, so you have less of a fear of being othered than you have in a more or less random group of people.)

and yah, part of it is on me to put myself out there more, but sometimes when ive tried, it hasnt gotten me anywhere. there was a girl i really liked who i had common interests with, we seemed to talk about our interests on a deeper level than she did with the people she actually hung out with, interestingly enough. but when i tried to start a friendship with her outside of work, it didnt go anywhere. she left a while ago and i recently found out she unfollowed me on insta which kinda hurt. (another coworker said she had caused some drama in her group tho so hopefully it has more to do with her than me.) another time i asked if a couple coworkers wanted to do something outside of work (again, theyd given me the impression that we like each other and share interests) and they left me on read. i really thought wed left this kinda behavior in hs but i guess not. and sure, there are people i don't wanna hang out with, but if i don't, i wouldn't give them the false impression that i do.

BOTTOM LINE, this all comes back to autism!!! ofc it does!!! and i dont mean that as in "i hate being autistic" bc i really, truly do not. if anything, i hate that other people aren't more accepting. which sounds cheesy and a common thing to say, but it truly does surprise me the lack of emotional intelligence neurotypical people seem to have a lot of the time. i like to think i socialize fairly well for the most part for an autistic person, what am i STILL doing wrong?? i ranted about this situation at work to a fellow autistic friend last summer and they said it really just all goes back to autism and honestly yah it does. i just really dont get why other people are like this.

for a while i was getting very fed up at work thinking "oh my god i have to get out of here and work somewhere else as SOON as possible" (not just for the social reasons but other reasons too) and i dont feel that way rn ill admit. i dont love it or particularly enjoy being there, but i dont think ill ever feel that way with a job. but i do think being around these types of people is having subtle and gradual negative effects on my mental health and self esteem and i want to be more cognizant of and careful with that. hopefully working remotely is in the cards for me someday, bc i feel like being exposed to other people's social lives significantly less would be really good for me. like i said, college was better in that sense, and i feel like working remotely would involve even LESS interaction with others like that.

[chichariann]

It's weird to read people's post about how they hate this episode cuz

The lack of a zebra

Already knowing what the lotus casino is a trap

Grover being the only one who got trapped

The gang being "too smart"

Luke's mom's expositioh

Lack of action

The deadline passing

4 pearls

Episode is mostly dialogue

Idk. Honestly but heres what I thought as the episode went on...

Very long post. Read the red text if u just want points

Okay, they suspect the wrong person to be the thief (typical detective trope - still fits)

Cute grover and percabeth banter

They already know about the lotus flowers. Makes sense as there are 3 greek myth knowledgeable kids there. At least on of them should know.

They split up. Bad idea

The pair are being cautious

Grover is gone now

Percy and annabeth are searching for hermes so makes sense they'd be at the casino area. I dont see how they could be trapped—nop they already were the moment they stepped in

May Castellan exposition. Okay, revealing the premise of being a seer but not telling us what happened to her as a result is good. Without context from the books, we now know that something's happened to his mom and we do not know except for Luke blaming Hermes for it

Hermes parenting talk - this happens in Sea of Monsters but its nice to at least see a contrast of how he's gonna feel pre-betrayal vs post-betrayal.

Poseidon was the one who warned hermes about trying to be close to luke. Contrasting Poseidon, now, wanting to meet Percy

They past the deadline - what does this mean???

They almost forgot Grover but eventually finding him

Grover started this episode saying that his friends would never understand his personal quest to one day save the natural world, and here he is now, memories wiped except for what he wants to do with his life. And percy understands and is hopeful for him

Hermes taxi scene was hilarious

Percabeth moment

Teleport to Santa Monica

Percy meets the Nereid who tells him that theyd passed the deadline

Percy still wants to finish the quest 1) to save his mom 2) get the bolt 3) stop a war

4 PEARLS???

What I'm taking from this:

There were A LOT of changes to how this scene played out in the books. I like that the kids are smart. I like that Grover got to tell Percy about his personal quest even if it was just a glimpse of it.

Should there have been a Zebra? MAYBE. I wouldve loved to see Percy talk to em but its not exactly plot relevant. Do I wish they had gotten trapped by just playing games? Yeah, but then how would they get to talk to Hermes. They would've just forgotten why they were there in the first place. Do I wish there was more action? No, not really. Do I wish the kids had flaws? THEY ALREADY DO. Grover got trapped by his own desires and personal goal over the quest he was on. Percy and Annabeth may not have shown their flaws this episode but... They already had in the past episodes. Maybe they shouldve but Im not mad that they're just... There.

I actually love that they're past the deadline and Percy has 4 pearls. Cuz it makes us wonder what would happen next. I think as book fans, we pride ourselves of knowing what happens next. Immune to any surprise. But when we do, there are 2 reactions: 1) intrigue and worry and unfortunately common, 2) despising the changes. I fall under number 1. I like that I dont know what could happen next. I know how it SHOULD go but I like that Rick is still surprising us despite knowing what could happen.

I like that we get Hermes parenting moments in this episode. Because instead of learning a sliver of why Luke betrays Percy at the end of the season at the last episode, we get a bit of exposition into his early life.

Annabeth says not to talk to Luke about his dad

Something happened to his mom and Luke hates Hermes for it

Hermes is keeping his distance because he knows that whatever he does, he's gonna end up hurting Luke

All of this sets up what will happen not just later in the books, but LATER IN THE SERIES. Rick wrote The Lightning Thief without any concrete idea of how the later books will play out. NOW HE DOES. So it makes sense to give us a way to understand Luke. To know why he makes the final decision in the book.

I would have found it weird if the gang went on the quest, got back to camp, got a sliver of Luke's opinion of the gods, then betrayal. NONE OF US WOULD UNDERSTAND. We get that he hates the gods but we won't know why. Now we do. By giving us all this material to work with, it gives its viewers the opportunity to really think, if you were in his shoes, would you have done it too? Would you be like Ethan or Chris, and joined him in that rebellion? I definitely could.

Because I for one would know that when I first read the books then reread it after, I would never even think about joining him given the context of the first book. We really only understand why he betrays the gods at like... The 5th book. When we finally get his backstory. Throughout the series, it has just been Percy hating Luke and being annoyed that Annabeth was so forgiving of him. Then on the last book, we finally get the backstory. Because, when you write in first person perspective, you cant give backstory IF the narrator is not talking to the character or is at the place where it happens. Throughout the whole series, Percy never thinks about what pushed Luke to make his decisions until, Nico had to bring Percy to where it all started. IN THE LAST BOOK. IN THE 5TH SEASON. THATS WHEN WE FINALLY GET TO UNDERSTAND WHAT MAKES LUKE CLICK.

It brings Luke out of the characterization of being someone who hates the gods and wants to overthrow them cuz they dont care about his kids. To someone who was abandoned and ignored by his father. To someone who is a victim to the gods' rules and their world (his mom). I kinda understand why he is the one leading the war here. Its cuz he's experienced one of the worst things that could happen to a demigod. Losing his mom. Getting ignored by his dad. Undervalued by the gods.

THIS ENTIRE SEASON HAS JUST BEEN SET UP FOR LUKE'S STORY. BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW... THAT IN THE LAST BOOK, RACHEL TELLS PERCY THAT HE IS NOT THE HERO OF THIS STORY. HE IS NOT THE ONE TO STOP THE WAR. LUKE IS THE HERO AT THE END OF THE SERIES. AND IT WOULD'VE BEEN WEIRD IF WE NEVER GET TO UNDERSTAND WHY UNTIL.... THE LAST BOOK.

[threeeyedharemp3]

🏚 🔮 🪚 ⚰️ 🩸 for the character ask game bc theyre all interesting asf & im curious :P

YAY THANK YOU im assuming you mean for my ocs? i had tagged that game as them & i dont think we have a lot of media in common hehe but YIPPEE i answered ⚰️ here already :)

🏚 - what would your character do if their house was haunted? are they haunting their house? does the house reflect their state of mind, or does the house love/hate them and vice versa?

ooh it kinda depends cos strangeways can talk to ghosts, if it was a standard Dead Person haunting she'd be able to just hang out with them. like she probably wouldnt mind so much. haunting as metaphor for hanging on to the past etc. but if i was something a lot more nebulous she would 100% go full horror protagonist by a) trying to research & document & figure out whats going on and b) therefore providing a complete record of her haunting :) (she works in an archive specialsing in supernatural & extraterrestrial events in folklore lol)

mihangel would be the one haunting the house. or the house is haunting him. the house is representative of his doubt and how she feels his identity could slip away from him any moment and he doesnt know how to stop life carrying on, pulling her along with it. she is still living in the house that she knows is haunting her because she has forgotten what it was like before

rest of qs under the cut its kinda long lol

🔮 - if your character had a dream they or a loved one was going to die a horrible death (that is probably inevitable), what would they do?

strangeways would probably, very very deep down, a bit relieved - because of her Time Thing she is aging slowly and isnt sure if she'll ever die, and really cant think of much worse than living Forever. but she'd still be afraid. being theoretically able to die and seeing your own death barelling towards you is quite different. if it was someone close to her? she would walk to their house in the middle of the night and make sure they were safe.

mihangel kinda canonically has this? like he has dreams about his time Being Dead and theyre very real because it. Was real. he would only start getting Worried if it wasnt the same dream yknow? but if it was about someone else he would probably tell strangeways about it and then they would panic together lol

🪚 - what would happen if you put two of your characters in a saw trap maze together?

panic & cry & bleed a lot probably idk much about saw traps but it sounds pretty bad theyd hate it needless to say

🩸 - if confronted with a monster, would they romance them, befriend them, fight them, run away, kill them? something else?

strangeways would be taking meticulous notes & even attempting a few sketches and getting out a tape recorder to ask them a few questions & respectfully sitting down to listen. mihangel would be trying to leave but if strangeways did end up actually interviewing/documenting/petting a monster she would probably chill out a bit but maybe not get toooooo close. he's been to space & met aliens but he was also killed by one so while he knows most of them are chill she's well aware a lot of them are Not lol. he is one of those people who as a kid fully believed in fae & convinced his friends at school the beasts of exmoor were real & he'd seen one too (not in exmoor but on his grandparents farm in wales so that was pretty close when youre eight) so yeah he would be immediatly Scared by a monster. though it does depend on how Big & Feral it is ig

[system-of-a-feather]

To preface this, this is not at all meant to be a response, retort or anything to the post on this topic that had us internally talking about it and quite frankly, that post is fair and they have a right to say it, so our direct commentary on that will end there

But when the topic of "unforgivable parts" come up, Riku and I always look at one another and go ".... ehhhh" and have a short sentimental giggle cause as far as parts doing horrible shit to another, we both have piles of dirt on the other that we wouldnt be wrong at all for being angry at each other about. I'm a lot more of a typical sounding "ex persecutor" (I dont ID with the term because I dont agree with the term as a role in the first place beyond system community common verbage) but a case could be made that Riku was by far a worse one - a thing theyd admit. The whole dynamic of ours is why we threw the role "persecutor" out the window and changed it to "persecutory behavior".

But anyways, we really fucked eachother up pretty bad and as far as other "persecutory" parts go, we've had some really really shitty internal interactions, one of which can be partially "blamed" for the reason "Riku" as a part is a subsystem - but honestly? I don't think our system has ever found something that was "unforgivable" if solely on the account that there really doesn't seem to be anything that we could do to one another that would allow us to foster that sort of self hate at this point in our healing as a system.

That being said, not all systems are equipt to handle the more extreme persecutors, not all systems are able to hold the understanding that even their most "atrocious parts" are still them, and just in general, the mind set is not practical or fit for every system in every situation and while theoretically you shouldnt force persecutors silent or whatever, chasing theoretical ideals when living as a system is honestly how you probably ended up with DID.

The need to live to a theoretical healthy standard and best practices is good and important to keep in mind, but you have to leave space for the reality of the moment as well as the genuine experiences that come with it and work with what you genuinely can give at the moment. Trying to work above that, 9/10 pushes and reinforces an EP/ANP divide that is foundational in DID so its important to learn to accept that while you know the theoretical healthy and best thing to do, from time to time you have to accept that you AREN'T perfect and can't live to an ideal perfect standard of healing and that you first have to focus on the reality of your moment and what you can bear right now.

You are allowed to experience your mental illness as a mental illness and honestly, people who criticize you healing "imperfectly" really need to focus on themselves and their own life rather than people on the internet (exceptions apply imo but thats another topic)

... lol this post went an entirely different way than I intended, cause I was originally planning on talking about persecutors and the nuances of their behavior as I'm our systems "persecutor wrangler" but I think what ended up being said is more important anyways lol

Anyways, thats my gym cardio ramble of the day.

[gypsypendragon]

Pieces of the Heart

2: Coin Hunting 

There had been a lot of things Shachi and Penguin would have used to describe Law when they’d first met him; while they were still getting used to him. Things like meticulous, paranoid, sadistic were a few of the most common that sprung up over the years. Hell they were even more likely to put insane over a few other adjectives. Bepo’s choice of adjectives were a little more lackluster, but they couldnt really say they were surprised taking in their navigator’s more timid nature. Probably two or so years into sailing with him they discovered something quite, un-Law like. 

He collected coins of all things. 

The duo would have guessed something as wild as bones, or skulls long before even considering their teen captain collected coins. He’d denied it, sternly, when they’d asked about it one day. He looked almost appalled theyd even think he’d be into such a “frivilously pointless hobby”, and he’d been so convincing about it the two had thought they’d severely missed the mark. 

All those coins they’d seen on the table one day must have been a fluke, or something else despite how meticulously they’d been set out. 

Promptly after the inquiry the coins disappeared and they never saw them again. Bepo didnt seem to know anything about it either, so the two eventually forgot about the whole thing entirely as the months stretched on. 

At least, until Shachi personally witnessed Law bartering with a shopkeeper over a coin. 

They’d gone ashore, leaving conspicuous Bepo and his powerful electro to guard the tang, to do a small resupply. The island was quite busy; bustling with merchants and traders of all sorts. A large number of other ships had found port at the island, and after talking with locals it appeared the port town was a common resupply and trading outlet. Most didnt even see the trio of teenagers as they moved through the crowds let alone peg them for pirates. Shop owners easily bartered and bargained with them, and locals were eager to share town gossip or snippets of information they’d supposedly heard here and there. Law did most of the bartering; his dealings with merchants far more numerous than Shachi and Penguin’s experience. Swallow island hadnt exactly been a place of heavy trade and commerce after all. Information gathering was their job at the moment. They picked up any information that might be useful to Law and his (still a little vague about it but they were getting pretty clear clues lately) goal, or important for pirates to know in general. 

By the time they’d returned from a round of gossip chasing they’d found Law at a smaller stall. He and the shopkeeper seemed to be talking quite effortlessly, Law’s face and stance neutral telling them easily he wasnt currently being underestimated (he quite hated when adults underestimated them, him, and his posture would change dramatically if it happened warning the two of his coming temper). A small pile of the shopping sat near Law’s legs, and as far as they could tell it looked like that should have been all they needed. Assuming their captain was probably pining after something medical at this point Penguin wandered to a stall selling a number of weapons. Shachi had acquired a katana he was quite happy with a few islands back, so opted to continue towards Law. As he grew closer though, the shopkeeper lifted up whatever they must have been talking about and Shachi halted his advance. 

Low and behold, a shining gold coin was held up in the man’s fingers as he gestured to the face of it, and to Shachi’s curiosity Law nodded like he knew exactly what the man was talking about. In fact, as Shachi dared to creep just a bit closer, he realized Law’s eyes looked a little more lively than they usually did.

He ducked behind the wares of a partially crowded stall when Law turned his direction as if he could tell someone was watching him. Shachi remained hidden for a while pretending to inspect the merchandise around him before he peered around the crowd carefully. Law had turned and retrieved the shopping before leaving the stall. Shachi wandered forward slowly as Law moved away before turning to the shopkeeper himself. He was so curious… 

“Hey, you sell coins here?” He asked bluntly as his eyes scanned the merchandise from behind his glasses. 

The older man chuckled before shaking his head, “Used to son, but a boy ‘bout your age or so just bought the few I had.” 

Shachi grinned, “Oh, no problem then!” 

He slipped away just as he saw Penguin coming down the street; looking around for them no doubt. Spotted, the older boy trotted over.

“Seen Law?” He asked simply.

Shachi broke out into what Penguin would have described as a “suspiciously pleased” grin. The shorter of the two threw his arm over Penguin’s shoulders pulling the older down a bit to his height as they started walking. 

“Remember those coins?” Shachi started. 

It took Penguin a second to realize what the ginger was talking about, but he nodded. 

“Guess what I just saw Law buying at that stall back there…” Shachi’s grin widened, “Old man said he got all the ones he’d had left!” 

Penguin blinked at him for a second before standing up straighter, “Coins? If he’s actually interested in them, why’d he brush it off so aggressively?”

The ginger shrugged as he folded his hands behind his head, “Dunno, but whatever the reason guess he doesnt want anybody to really know.” 

The older boy huffed, seeming almost to take offense to the statement, “Well fine, I guess. We’ll just pretend we dont know anything.”

“Think Bepo knows?” Shachi asked after a moment of silence.

“It’s Bepo; he’s glued to Law. He’s gotta know.” 

…

The duo had spent a while trying to spy on Law after the discovery of his, apparent, secret hobby. They hoped to catch him slipping just to confirm they were indeed right about his secrecy, but Law was meticulous. No matter how long or how many times they tried they could never quite catch him doing anything with coins.

Over time the intensity of finding out faded to a simple, it is what it is, and the secret just became a part of Law to them. 

One island brought a particularly rich merchant presence, but Law had stayed on the Tang with Bepo after coming down with a mild illness. Sent to resupply and gather information alone Shachi and Penguin had taken their time to stroll a bit. Penguin ultimately ended up stumbling upon a particular stall where the woman was selling “collectables”, but what caught him was a small coin in the mess of wares. It was a shining gold, imprinted with a multitude of numbers and such he didnt understand, but there was an intricately designed depiction of a Sea King on the back of it. It certainly wasnt a coin Penguin had ever seen exchange hands before, and he collared Shachi as the ginger rejoined him to have him look at it too. 

“You think those are the things Law’s looking for?” Penguin muttered as the two stared at it, “I’ve never seen a coin like that before; that means it’s special right?” 

Shachi nodded slowly, “I’d definitely say so… I mean, I doubt he’d be going around buying regular common coins…?”

“Do you boys collect these?” The sales woman had at some point come over to them.

They looked up, a little startled. 

“This one’s quite a good find if you do!” She nodded smiling brightly, “The Sea King coins are hard to come by you know! I heard a lot of them got lost!”

“So these are, collecting coins?” Shachi asked slowly as Penguin took a closer look at it, “A friend of ours is into these…” 

She beamed suddenly, “If that’s the case then you would definitely be doing them a favor! Even if they have one already, each Sea King on the back was designed differently so duplicates are impossible!”

“That’s gotta be what Law’s doing right?” Penguin speculated to no one in particular, but he glanced at Shachi quietly. 

The ginger regarded him for a split second before nodding lightly. 

Penguin looked at the woman carefully, “How much are you selling it for then…”

She looked down at them, studying the pair for a moment. The shorter ginger boy would have been better alone she guessed; he didnt seem as savvy as the taller boy. The gaze currently on her was cautious and familiar with how bartering worked. 

She sighed as she leaned back, crossing her arms lightly over her chest, “I havent had many people come through here that are even aware of coins, so I’ll tell you what… buy two more items from me, and I’ll let you have the coin for a quarter of what I was originally going to sell it for.”

Shachi seemed eager to accept, glancing back between her and Penguin with an eager twitch to his lips. Penguin though mulled over the offer. A quick glance around the other wares told him there wasnt technically anything they needed here, and he could only guess maybe a want or two and light ones at that. 

The woman’s eyes studied him carefully; the older boy wasnt stupid. 

“One item full price, the second half, and the coin a quarter.” Penguin finally offered. 

Her tongue clicked against her teeth for a moment as she considered. She’d had decent business today, and like she’d said the coins werent something anyone who frequented was ever after. The pair hadnt seemed interested in anything else she had but the coin, and any business was better than none. 

“Alright.” She finally relented with a wave of her hand, “But the more expensive of the two you pick remains the full price item.”

“Deal.” Penguin finally agreed. 

The pair picked their items half heartedly, both just grabbing something that mildly caught their attention right away, before they were finally on their way back to the Tang. Law’s coin was tucked carefully in one of Penguin’s pockets as they discussed how to get it to him.

“Do we just… give it to him?” 

Penguin shook his head, “Na… I dont think Law would take it if we did; he’d deny wanting it again… maybe I can sneak it onto his desk somewhere…”

Shachi laughed, “Think that’ll confuse him?”

“I dont think it’s that easy to confuse Law.” Penguin sighed, “But guess we’ll find out.”

Law was wandering the halls of the Tang, albeit slowly, by the time they returned. He looked a little less worn out at least. His attention had been drawn to the odd trinkets they’d been carrying but between the two of them and their commonly random impulses he didnt think twice about their half assed cover of ‘they’re cool looking arent they?!’ 

The Tang soon set out from port, Law lingering up in the control room with Bepo as they began charting their next direction. 

The pair took the chance to slink away toward the rooms to deposit their hidden treasure. Law’s room was, despite himself, always a little messy. They’d been in and out of it before, and it had surprised them the first time they’d seen it. The desk was always just slightly covered in half heartedly stacked papers or books; the bed was only ever half made; even rare occasions would yield a few clothes on the floor. This time, they took the slight mess as an ally, as they slipped the coin onto the desk. 

“Put it under the papers a little bit!” Shachi said quietly, “He’ll think maybe he forgot to put it away or something!”

Having not seen a single coin since the day they confronted him about it all that time ago, Penguin doubted Law would have “forgotten” to put them away, but it was as good as place as any.

Despite their, attempts at sneaking around though, a body lingered outside the door of the room unbeknownst to them. 

Golden eyes stared at them quietly as his hand hesitated on the doorhandle. He’d come back intending to lie down again when he’d heard the two of them inside. Rooms had never been a, private, feeling between the four of them. All of them often coming and going as if doors didnt exist, so Law hadnt thought twice about hearing their voices from inside. 

He’d paused though, when he’d heard them mention coins in their (particularly not) hushed discussion. Unable to help himself he’d bristled a little and had intended to storm in and throw them out; he’d thought they’d long since given up trying to figure that line of inquiry out. 

Their next few words though, had stopped him. 

“We’re going to keep looking, right?” Shachi had asked Penguin with genuine, dare Law say, concern in his voice. 

What was there to be concerned about? It wasnt as if there was any threat hanging over them if they didnt; in fact Law was set to argue there was more threaet from him if they did. 

“Of course!” Penguin seemed oddly enthusiastic all of the sudden as he turned to the ginger, “Law’s not… I dont know… normal about stuff!” 

Law blinked; what was that supposed to mean?

“If we want to do something for him we gotta be quiet about it.” Penguin had luckily continued, their odd silent communication not the choice of voice this time (thank goodness, Law would later think), “Let’s face it Shachi, we all suck at expressing.”

“I express enough!” The ginger seemed offended.

“Yeah, anger!” Penguin’s words were followed by a soft thwack to the back of the head, “You know what I mean! Law took us with him even though he could have totally left us. He keeps taking us with him; keeps patching us up; keeps teaching us. If we're gonna thank him for it all, we gotta be quiet… he’ll never accept anything like this straight.”

Shachi grumbled, but nodded, “Yeah, but wont he get suspicious if they keep showing up?”

“We’ll just, space out dropping them off or something…” Penguin half suggested with a shrug, “He’s always so busy with medical stuff or the library I’m sure he wont notice one or two every so often.” 

Law had quietly let go of the door after that, turning and carefully walking down the hall back to the control room. He felt a little offended, kind of, but found more concern with the creeping, warm sensation that tugged at his chest and face. While he didnt think they needed to go to so much trouble, let alone thank him for anything, he’d let them do as they would if they really needed to do something for it all. 

Besides, he definitely couldnt let them see him like he was right now or he’d never hear the end of it….

… 

As time stretched on, and the crew grew larger, the odd shore habit of the pair was quickly picked up on. New crew members would catch one or both wandering away from the main group to inspect rather odd choices of stalls. The pair had slowly begun to search more frequently as Law’s attention was drawn further and further away from his own thoughts, and into the consuming realm of Doflamingo and his goal. They’d picked up the seriousness of Law's disregard for himself after witnessing him glance over a set of coins before forgoing even inquiring about them (they had promptly picked them up in his place before the Tang departed that island).

Ikkaku was one of the first to find out what the two were up to, and instantly had been on board keeping an eye out for these coins their captain apparently collected. She clued in Uni some time later when she and the taller man were sent on shopping duty, and he’d been eager to help look for the little gifts for Law. The information spread slowly, but surely, through each member until all of the Heart Pirates were aware of their captain’s not-so-secret secret. Some, like Bepo, who would be able to obtain the coins but lacked the quietness of sneaking in and dropping them off, often turned to Penguin for help. Though Shachi was pretty good, no one matched Penguin’s ability to traverse quietly through the Tang. More often than not it fell to the older to take the precious trinket and sneak it into the room while Law was gone, distracted, or (the easiest of times) when he was holed up in the ever accumulating library. 

Hakugan, rarely one for shore based activity, stumbled upon a rare find one time that ended in many of them spending much of their personal allowances in one go. A rather stingy seller had a numerous amount of coins (many none of them could recall obtaining previously) that the Heart Pirates knew they could not leave without. Though more bodies searching now made coin spotting easier, it did not make finding them any more frequent. Coins were few and far between, especially ones that looked like they would be something Law’s meticulous mind would enjoy, and they were not about to pass up such a treasure of a find as this one. 

It had taken Penguin, Ikkaku, and Clione (the most frequent of the shore run participants) to haggle, argue, and exasperate the man down to a, questionably, reasonable price for the lot. In the end a number of them forked over the beri needed to obtain the whole amount, but no one complained. 

Law had been driving himself into the ground lately, and they were all for trying to find anything that would help give him some form of serotonin.

The lot had yielded a grand total of 10 gold coins, and five strange silver ones none of them had ever seen before. Having never seen silver in Law’s possession before Penguin had been skeptical, but the detail of the designs had been enough to include them in the purchase. It was, however; a large amount of coins to just slip onto Law’s desk. 

In the end they decided to divide the coins into two at a time over the course of at least a few months. Seemed reasonable enough, especially with Law’s distracted attention lately.

The first round was set a week later to avoid suspicion, and soon Penguin found himself creeping outside their captain’s room. No one had seen Law all day, so he was either in the library, or for a more difficult outcome, in his room. Penguin had a few back up lies in case their captain was indeed in his room and inquired about the spontaneous visit. 

He pushed the door open as quietly as possible, but in the silence of the Tang that late at night even the tiniest of sounds felt agonizingly loud. Creeping forward slowly Penguin made sure not to trip over the pair of boots that were haphazardly thrown near the bed as he rounded toward Law’s desk. The desk that currently held the sleeping form of their captain; much to Penguin’s misfortune.

Law seemed, for once, deep asleep despite the hunched over positon he’d fallen into. Penguin stood quietly next to him for a long while as he made sure Law was indeed asleep. Most of the crew members’ mere presence too close would wake the younger man due to his Haki, but he, Shachi and Bepo had apparently been around Law long enough that they didnt so much as register when they breached his personal space anymore. 

With Law, Penguin took the wins where he could get them.

The man remained fast asleep, and finally Penguin moved. He fished the two coins out of his pocket before scanning the desk for a good place to slip them.

There was quite a mess around this time; Law’s form actually sleeping across some of it. A bit of luck seemed to favor Penguin that night though, since he realized Law must have been in the middle of going through his coins before passing out. There were rows of them spread out neatly in one side of the desk while others were piled together atop one another; clearly waiting to be organized with the others. Penguin took a second to take in the amount, and finding it quite a lot more than he would have guessed at. As he looked at the desk he realized Law’s arm was over a small notebook. A mess of jagged scribbles he recognized as Law’s handwriting filled the book in messy, but meticulous, columns. He couldnt see all of it, obscured by Law’s arm as well as the low light, but Penguin could make out enough that he almost barked out a laugh. 

Rows of scribbling read in meticulous order the numbers engraved on each coin, followed by a date, and then a name. It wasnt some random name either, but a name of a Heart Pirate. Some were written confidently, Penguin and Shachi’s names the most common, while others were less sure. Small question marks lingered near Ikkaku’s name on one, and Clione’s another. 

Penguin realized they werent as sneaky as they thought they’d been. Truthfully, he guessed, they should have given their captain far more credit than they had. Law wasnt dumb; far, far from it in fact. He sighed, silently, before a smirk spread across his lips. 

Well if Law wasnt going to say anything, and was going to keep playing this “secret” game with them, he’d certainly do the same.

Shaking his head Penguin returned his attention back to his pervious mission; finding a place to put the newest additions Law would have to catalog. He glanced once more around the desk before his eyes landed on a pair of wooden boxes sitting near the unorganized pile of coins. 

One was much smaller and held a pristine condition, but the slightly larger one it sat on was far more worn. Areas of the paint around where one might lift and close it from were wearing away; fading slightly against the rest of the color around it. Curious about them, but deciding he’d spied on their captain enough, Penguin carefully placed the two coins on top of the boxes before turning and heading out of the room. 

Shachi was lingering around the corner as he closed the door, “What took so long?” 

“Just… making sure Law didnt wake up.” Penguin said quietly as they moved away from the room, “He was in there, asleep at the desk of all places. Moved a little, so wanted to make sure he was still asleep before I tried to leave the coins.”

“Law mentioned something about a long term recon somewhere; think we can slip all the rest while he’s away?”

Penguin grinned lightly, “Maybe… if he hasnt clued in yet, he probably wont notice then…”

…

When Law finally returned to his crew after a long, draining dive into the underbelly of a particularly large island; the resounding chorus of cheers were a kind of remedy he would never really be able to prescribe. They partied, ever his rowdy crew, and made sure Law was ever present in the center of their groups as if they wanted to make sure he wouldnt disappear again. Well into the night it went as the Tang sailed calmly under the dark waves.

He’d been exhausted when he’d first boarded her, and had been sure he wouldnt have kept up with his crew’s antics. Yet as he quietly left the sprawled out crew in the common room to return to the cool atmosphere of his own, he felt oddly re-energized. He sighed, heavily, as he closed the door to his room and let the quiet atmosphere envelope him for a moment. It was tidy and clean, and he huffed out a small smile; of course they’d fixed it for his return. 

Shedding his jacket, letting it lazily pile near the end of the bed, Law fell into the cool sheets. The Tang hummed quietly around him, it's familiar sounds and smells welcoming him back in it's own way, and he felt a wave of comfort slowly wash over him. Deep beneath the waves, with his crew and the Tang; Law would never feel more at ease anywhere else.

He turned his head slowly, eyes lazily sliding over his desk which had also been (partially) tidied up. He stopped though, when something subtly reflected the shimmer of the water outside. Sitting atop the boxes he left carefully stacked at the corner of his desk, closest to the bed, was a numerous amount of coins. 

Helpless against the feeling rising in his chest, Law laid there and stared at them for a while as he grinned to himself in the quiet darkness of his room. If they kept this up any more, he was going to have to get another box for those secret coins that kept strangely appearing on his desk.

Not that he minded much really; he was more fond of that collection now than the other one anyway…

XX🐠🏴‍☠️XX

I've returned with another short, some light fluff.

I wont lie these soft short stories are a bit tricky for me, I'm an angst/hurt/comfort writer tbh. I dwell in the tragedy and injury devastation side of writing.

These are good practice for me though, so it's nice. There will most certainly, probably, be some angsty shorts in the future though. I can only deny my nature so long haha.

If you've got any suggestions for a prompt or so also let me know! I'm always fishing for more ideas.

I always thought law's coin collection hobby was an interesting choice on Oda's part, but I'm also a little bias. My dad used to collect coins, specifically quarters, he had whole boards of the US states that he could put each respective quarter from that state of whatever year he was after. I cant even remember how many he had tbh; there were a lot.

(Also if you're ever looking for all the pieces im going to be posting for this shorts collection im going to be tagging them all with "Pieces of the Heart by KC" in the tags so they should hopefully be easier to find.)

[theepicestmonkey]

ok this is really out of character for me but i just need to rant and get it out of my system because it is poisoining everything i interact with online and IRL feel free to ignore

antifascism has always been shorthand for fascism i could go into countless examples from the interwar WW2 cold war or even since then but im sure most people know this. what i cant stand is communists who scream fascism at the left opposition. the soviets rounded up and slaughtered imprisoned and deported the anarchists in bulgaria who FOUGHT AGAINST THE NAZIS they betrayed the alliance with Makhno. communists might act like were all in it together but its not true. being vageuly anti status quo does NOT put us all on the same team. i mean obvisouly when it comes to specific actions or moevemnt big tent parties happen all the time but i roll my eyes everytime someone acts like center left socialist liberals with morals so conventional theyd make the 1900's progressives blush would ever accept non-conforming trans people or anarchists or furries or whatever it is. reddit is such a cesspool of trans people OBSESSED with being cis passing (obviously theres nothing wrong with wantingto be passing its all about fulfilling your needs, but its like their on a crusade against people who dont want that which i think is wrong) and wouldnt you know it, those same reddit using conformist puritan trans people LOVE to larp communists. its a correlation that clicked in my mind recently and its just sucks seeing left wing content online and feeling like some anticommunist fascist idiot because yes, you do have to pick a side being a centrist is worse than any extremist because they enable all extremists. but communism at its core is based on the same common goodness that milktoast socialist liberalism is based on. of course this whole time ive been saying communist which of course is SO nonspecific so no, i dont hate communists of specific varieties but i cant stand "communists" who base their suppoed communism on an aesthetic of revolution without holding actual revolutionary beliefs.

its imposible to critize communism because half of communists arent actually communist the other half would throw anyone under the bus to make their movement look better and the people critizing them are actual fascists who ARE worse than even the worst communists. not to mention the obligatory "i may be communist but i wholly disavow all communist leaders and movements and actions which their responsbile for and i fully align with american center left liberals"

all that being said, this is just something that annoys me. when it comes to whats happening right now in the world i would gladly put up with everything i complained about if it meant combatting the fascist dogs sprouting up across the world. (not that i "combat" anything. im a lazy computer addicted drop out) gunthrie was singing propganda for the US to socialist the energy industry and kill fascsits in the 30's, i can only hope America will be like that again

[ewaneneollav]

i dont think i would ever judge a person on hinge app for not being ok with the fact of me being “transgender” (as they call it), because i think pretty much every impulse people have in this kind of interpersonal area is completely insane & inscrutable, & it’d be fucking absurd of me to expect things to only be insane & inscrutable within a specific range of tolerance ethically condoned by me. you cannot box in life. also, when i call it all insane, i’m not being cynical or misanthrophic, i just think it’s the beautiful common insanity, the inscrutability of many of these feelings

right, so: i dont ever count on it necessarily being ok, but i also never ask them if it is, because its much too awkward to present in a way that preemptively scandalizes it. nor do i ever mention it in advance, because i dont experience it as a central enough aspect of my being that it would be on my shortlist of things to bring up about myself, & i dont really humor the idea that its “objectively” central enough to be worth mentioning. i just kind of latently count on them not experiencing it as a central aspect of my being either

but if they do, & its not ok, i genuinely hate the thought of placing them in that position because oftentimes i think they’d have to find some kind of pretense, because they would not at all fucking feel like they could say what theyre really thinking, because to them itd feel monstrous or unacceptable, even though i would understand cause i know things are inscrutable. so theyd be in this position of - things have been so socially comfortable & clearly nothing in that area has spoiled - but theyd just have to - kind of - kludge it - rely on tangibility & ambiguity - & say that - theres just some problem, we met in person & theyd say, they just got a different impression from me or something like that, chalk it up to inscrutable feeling so they dont have to say anything that feels ugly to say

the irony is it is all inscrutable - its just hiding a real but disallowed inscrutability behind a fake but allowed instructability

if it ever became an issue between myself & a person with whom i had up to that point developed a relationship that felt sufficient “pure” then, i might actually completely succumb to feelings of having some kind of corrupted body & essence & kill myself but i dont think thats their problem. there are agonies essential to being human & i long ago parted with any notion that theres ever necessarily a light at the end of the tunnel that is the experience of living as a human

the thing is even if theyre ok with it, it only means my body avoided being inconvenient in one specific way. its not going to make me myself accept my body, & im going to be walking around with that for the rest of my life even if it were a life mercifully spent with a soul mate