#cataracts point is important btw cause if they remove the cataracts i lose all vision in that coloboma ridden eye | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

apricotforher · 11 months ago

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it infuriates me that i had to be born w a bum eye. most ppl who got coloboma dont have any vision loss w it but i just had to be part of the ones that does have vision loss. and through the years its ruined my perfectly okay eye too so it cant see well now either. and its just gonna get worse forever!!!! and i got cataracts in it!!!!!!!!!!

#i... hate to think abt it #and ive never asked her..#but coloboma is semi common w fetal alcohol syndrome #lolol shed get so defensive #i hate it. i know she did the best she could and that she loves me..#i wish i could .. idk fix my eye its so depresssing having to deal w it #or idk i wanna spoon it out #sometimes when im angry that i cant see something or i cant see well in general i go into a crazy monologue #abt removing my eye #as violently as possible #cause u know the violence is part of the reclaiming #what am i even saying anymore...#idc #cataracts point is important btw cause if they remove the cataracts i lose all vision in that coloboma ridden eye #doctors said to me its not worth it cause it still gives me peripheral(?) view of stuff #but honestly i feel like id be better off w that fucker carved out of my face #.. they wouldnt do that obviously theyd just leave it in to be a gross reminder #just dull and not responding to anything #fucking EW #im gonna be sick i think thinking abt my eye situation

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