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Hey besties friendly reminder that my inbox/DMs are always open if you ever wanna talk fandom things or just like talk to me pls I’m so bored but idk how to initiate conversations pls I have so many thoughts about silly gay people
#they say like they aren’t at work rn#red white and royal blue#six of crows#osemanverse#alice oseman#I was born for this#radio silence#loveless#firstprince#wesper#bicci#daled#pip x rooney#rooney x pip#idk their ship name
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I need to talk about my robins
#I say my robins as if they’re my ocs they aren’t#I’m actually worried I’m mischaracterizing them#If anyone here is a fan of Tim drake hmu bc I know the least about him and I’m scared I’ll write him ooc#Rn I have that he’s a genius and a great detective and strategic#And somewhat mad that he isn’t robin anymore#And he get rlly angry but appears calm (?) that’s something idk about idk if that’s ooc#Jason is snarky and sarcastic and a joy to be around but he does rlly care about all of them#He’s just working on some inner demons 😞🐺#Dick is the one that keeps them all together and like the peace maker and typical eldest daughter but he’s dying inside#And Damien is Damien idk how to describe him#I’m thinking for my story Batman is alive but being affected by jokers laughing gas shit#And the 4 of them are all in the mansion together trying to figure out what to do#And no one wants to take the mantle of Batman bc Bruce is still alive#So they have to work together to find a cure and save the city bc jokers on the lose with other pals#I def want ivy scarecrow and two face in it#And other batfam members will be helping out but NOT in the manor#Dick is the leader and the mc bc he’s my fav and I’m biased#And I want to write flashback scenes to him as robin bc dick Grayson boy wonder is ICONIC#I grew up with him I love him sm
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So ummm a!au inspired madoka magica au??
#Had soooo much fun with the designs#Also tried to do my eye style with madokas eye shading/lighting style n I think it looks cool..#Gonna draw shapes and Vanessa too probably but not rn bc my outfit ideas aren’t as clear for them just yet#But WOOO MAKING MAGICAL GIRL OUTFITS MY BELOVED#a!au#ahit#ahit au#madoka magica au#this idea is basically just me saying “ok how can I translate aau lore/characters into madoka lore” and it works surprisingly well#I might explain the story idea later but not rn I’m tired oof#I probably will after drawing van n shapes and after brainstorming other ideas#I actually am considering doing this as a fic at some point just bc it’s really clear in my mind#BUT i know that I’d never finish it lol it would probably be just a one shot or a hypothetical thing that doesn’t continue further idk#Actual aau fic is my main priority n stuff but having a little side thing would be fun too#Like I said it’s all just hypothetical but yaya I’m very not obsessed with my current ideas totally normal and regular#ahit moonjumper#ahit the snatcher#ahit the prince#pmmm oc#madoka magica oc#<ig???#They’re basically ocs lol they are very detached from aau outside of similar base concepts and ideas#Crossover but not really idk like I said it’s based on aaus concepts but that’s basically as far as it goes oof
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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on
https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share
(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.
(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceived™️)
anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more 😂
- @bondedpairs
ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you don’t want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! we’ll all love you for it!!!
#like. i don’t know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows he’s being put into the codependent rookies arc.#he’s aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack aren’t getting together because mack’s gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcan’s#many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows he’s inside a story but#not in a way where he’s trying to do anything to it. he’s just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand#liv in the replies#bondedpairs#happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! also hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3#we’re 2gether p much 24/7” no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance#this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure he’s having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in will’s life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice#it’s like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. you’re the only kids#close in age to each other but they’re NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey#(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that i’m saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not#where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like ‘invested early in stock!’ & it’s a picture#of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks he’s sooo#like that but it’s will smith saying my god you are insufferable but you’ll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. there’s layers to this here ANYWAY) we’re building a life#i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much#smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. you’re gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & i’m like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred#i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO#blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at#a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)
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Ok, podcast website, I desperately seek advice on a podcast I can start listening to!
-nonfiction/informational is good as long as there is not a ton of banter (big hater of banter when it’s just like guys who are supposed to be teaching you something). fictional/story based stuff also works!
-bonus points if there is some sort of transcript I can follow along with cause my ass is Audio Impaired
- podcastable interests I guess?: medicine, magick, Hellenism, animals/bio, punk rock, horror, gay shit hell yeah, comics, art, film, uhhhhhh anything crazy weird or creepy
-I got through like a season of welcome to nightvale and it was pretty good, I got further in the magnus archives but it got boring when they stopped just being monster of the week type dealio and I don’t wanna have to relisten to it all again rn (in the future perhaps)
#I need something for my new drive to work#podcast#I swear to god it’s SO hard to find a nonfiction podcast that isn’t just like mostly banter???? what I want is someone reading the#articles and information I can’t look up rn if I’m driving and also aren’t coleceted in An audio format like an audiobook but then they dont#insert their own shit opinions and little jokes and discussion I have to sit through forever like shut up shut up I just want information#I need someone to make Wikipedia into an audio scrolling type recording and if It goes over a link I find interesting I can say ‘ooo link to#page about fava beans’ and it will automatically jump from the page about beans in America to the fava bean page and start reading that#THATS my desired auditory informational experience what podcast is closest to that
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i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much
#marzi speaks#it’s worse with my brother but he’s doing more to actively work on improving that#my dad however has very subtle internalized ableism that i don’t think he recognizes is there#which is. fun#like earlier. either last night or this morning i don’t remember#i was talking to him about how while ideologically i have nothing against accepting needing help and things like that#in practice it’s very challenging to adjust to being disabled even temporarily. and that if i do end up with a diagnosis that’s gonna be#a lot to handle. both mentally and just with the lifestyle changes i’ll have to make#and he makes a bit of a face and goes ‘i wouldn’t quite call you disabled. i’d just say ‘ill’’#and i just sort of look at him. and i blink. and i go ‘i am physically Un-Able to do things i am normally able to do’#‘i can’t walk long distances at all. i can’t sit in chairs for too long without causing pain’#‘i’ve spent the last 24 hours staring longingly at my computer because i want to draw but am currently Not Able To’#he didn’t argue with me but i can tell he was still unnerved by the idea of picturing his daughter as disabled#also like . illness and disability are not mutually exclusive? several disabilities are or involve chronic illness#i shouldn’t be surprised though. i mentioned considering starting lexapro#and he went on his ‘you’re an adult and it’s your choice in the end but i wouldn’t recommend it’ spiel#(he’s anti-psychiatry bc he doesn’t like the idea of breaking the brain down into smth so purely physical)#(and also doesn’t like the idea of someone being dependent on pills their whole life)#(which i’m giving him some slack on rn bc he is a just-got-clean recovering opoid addict. so)#(btw before any of you say SHIT abt my dad he took his pills legally prescribed for chronic pain and did not abuse them)#(and even if he DID that would give nobody a right to make a moral judgement on him. ok cool)#i then reminded him that my mom takes anti-anxiety meds and they really really helped her#and he just goes ‘true.’ and moves on#king u got some shit to unpack#it’s fine if u didn’t want to start antidepressants when it was recommended to you meds aren’t for everyone#but like come on now. u don’t gotta be so fundamentally against it when literally ur own wife who you adore takes psych meds#anywho my mom handled me making the disability comment much better. she was basically just like ‘ur fear is totally understandable’#‘u have a good support system we’ll help you through it’#which. thanks mom 👍 that was very kind of her to say
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I cannot fathom the level of self importance some people must have to behave this way
#it’s more so selfishness lmao#idk I’m getting unnecessarily worked up about this but 6 months ago I kinda vanished off of everywhere and then I noticed she deleted some#messages#girl I would’ve responded later calm down gosh the messages aren’t going anywhere nor are they disappearing#dora daily#I think of all people who should be mad you’re the last one because tell me why you were so viscerally rude to me since the beginning and#played a massive part of the roaa situation by being complacent when oh ! I thought you’d side with your alleged best friend ME#girl you have no right to complain at all not to mention you take FOREVER when you have no excuse to reply back but when I’m struggling I#apparently have zero excuse ☠️ girl bye#not to mention the fact that when I was so frustrated with myself having these bad headaches and being so incapable of doing anything when#exams were so close all you had to say was what can I do#well bitch what could I have done when you were at hospital#I guarantee you I was the only one texting you 24:7 asking how you were#reassuring you that it’s okay to feel upset about being in the fucking hospital and you don’t need to have such toxic positivity all the tim#oh but when the other girl had freaking back pain from her period or something apparently that’s more of a concern#girl bye#not me who has chronic headaches and cannot even study and nothing sticking cause it’s that bad#oh but go ahead compare it to your chronic illnesss like yes it’s horrible and yes it impacts you a lot#but I don’t think it impacts your brain and memorisation capacity#not to mention how fucking jealous she is of everything like I can say oh god I was so stressed and girl she has not felt stress in her life#compared to what I go through yet she is jealous of the fact I can stress ? tf?#and when I say I almost passed out cause of exhaustion she doesn’t give a shit when I was being so serious#in truth I’ve come to realise nobody does seem to care at all lmao they all think I’m lying#why would I lie about that be so fucking fr rn#anyways this is why I simply don’t want to talk about my physical condition with anyone anymore because they’ll think I’m a liar anyways 🤷♀#not to mention the fact if you even knew me a little you’d understand that it’s so impossibly hard for me to feel comfortable enough to#complain to talk about me feeling sick or sad or whatever I only do it here cause no one follows me and no one will rlly see it at all#but even here I feel like my throat closes up and I can barely breathe when I do complain#so pls …#this one sided friendship thing is crazy cause girl how do I shake you off?
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got sad abt fawn’s little motel room again 😞
#gideon shut the hell up challenge#we were thinking abt it in canon but then thought abt it in v3/v3au so. now we have to talk abt those#themmy who gets to be the first to get invited over. it takes a bit to build up to it and then even after they all think they’re ready#it takes another few days to actually Work Up To It. themmy gets first pick bc they’re the least intrusive of the group#the ortegas are close to the group ofc but they are nosy and pushy but this is The Becker’s space. so they get told no when they ask#if they can tag along. (they ofc get approval later after a few times of themmy getting to visit#bc 1. they won’t stop asking but 2. they’re more comfortable w the permitted intrusion that they get a test run)#honestly I feel like one of the ortegas would offhandedly ask Whose room it is (bc they expect them each to have their own)#and the siblings are like no it’s Ours. plural. and then the topic gets dropped bc they’re skittish enough already they won’t push more rn#ohhh the besties giving them little house warming gifts to help spruce the place up but next time they go over it still looks just as plain#except u ask ‘hey what happened to [xyz]?’ and they retrieve it from wherever it’s squirreled away#solo!survivor au…. imagine having to go back to the motel room alone for the first time#you know where the traces of your siblings are hidden. but they aren’t in immediate sight so it feels so Empty.#digging out all of their belongings just to have them closer to you even if it goes against everything you’ve all done this whole time#maybe you don’t stay alone. maybe you invite an ortega over. maybe you invite both.#maybe they show up with a bottle of wine each and none of you say anything bc you don’t know what you even would#maybe they help you pack up everything to move apartments. maybe you don’t let them touch anything. maybe them just being there is enough
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#this is my only safe place where my irl friends aren’t following me#so i can vent ab them in peace#but we had our big halloween fundraiser tonight for my club and i was working the whole time and hardly got enjoy the event#and i was invited to an after party and i was excited to go#and then i got told that (bc the party was being held at a fellow officer’s parents’ house)#that their parents were upset with how many people were going and they were told to make cuts on the guest list#and i got cut :/#i try so hard to be people’s friends and fit in and i thought i finally had broken through and was like. appreciated and valued.#but i suppose not.#i guess when it comes down to it#whatever.#feeling very t swift mastermind rn#nobody wanted to play with me as a little kid#so i’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since#to make them love me and make it seem effortless#like dude. i try so hard. and at the end of the day nobody cares.#makes it hard for me to like.#i just feel like i have no friends.#bex says
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Finally sat my white ass down and read hs2 (I left off at Sollux being reintroduced for a four years in the making joke) . So like. God I love Homestuck?
#also as an aside I’m gonna sound like a total dickbitch in future homosuck related discussions from now on#bc if one person comes out of the wood work screaming Dirk and Rose are too ‘*ncesty’ or whatever#literally fuck off . I cannot stress enough how badly you need to fuck off#idk if you’ve noticed but the people behind Homestuck rn aren’t freaks weirdos or degenerates#Dirk and Roses interactions are the perfect level of pseudo-father-daughter strilalonde bullshit to make it compelling#did we even read the same webcomic? Dirk and Rose have always been this weird it’s just now they’re talking to each other and not others#sans Terezi who I promise doesn’t give a damn bc she’s not high and mighty on her stale relationships horse with her thumb up her ass#Homestuck is a media and the characters in said media are weird but they’re not *gross*#this ain’t no rick and morty#and brother rick and morty is shockingly similar at face value but . it’s not#the writers on that show ARE weirdos#but for the record Beth on Beth lesbian Yuri fingerbanging is cool . you should fuck your clone#the rest is weird. but also makes sense for the fake-philosophical bullshittery that show presents#and I say this as someone who has seen every episode of it#what the fuck am I talking about#READ HOMESTUCK. the epilogues are good homestuck^2 is good beyond canon is good#fuck you fuck you fuck you
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If I gotta be around some racist transphobe one more time I’m gonna bash my head into a concrete wall until i can no longer see or hear or think of these these stupid ass idiots. I’m so sick of these ppl god
#sorry I have to vent#i defend one thing and they go off on my ass. like kys but if i lunge at u im the bad guy okay now everyone thinks im the crazy one#can they just die like come on I can’t do this by myself#they serve no purpose on this earth they’re gonna be here forever and I’m so sick of it why am i the crazy one when i defend then#they get SO OFFENDED when i call them out and say that what they’re saying is insane. walking hypocrites#I’m gonna go insane i wnat to get out#like what are you???????? god plz die i literally cant bc of law but can u just fuck off forever#i have to hold something and grip it until i calm down but that isnt even working#i do not want to bite anything so im just gonna have to repress it and look insane for the next few hours#im not gonna feel comfortable until i move aren’t I#yeah hahahahahahahahaah omfg i love this world i wish I can buy something rn i wanna watch ososan i don’t feel safe I wanna go to my room
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Hey, you seem like a big warriors fan on tumblr. I keep seeing Warriors stuff on my feed. Thinking about potentially reading the books, but do you have any tips when there are literally eight major arcs, with six books in each, not including the standalone stuff. I’m really curious and I don’t have a lot of space in my house for 50 new books, do you know about any way to kind of pare down the amount of reading necessary. Do you need to read every single book to understand what’s going on? Or do you just need to know the stuff about the most recent arc(broken code) and the recent new book(Starless Clan: River) to fit in with the fandom? Any books I don’t have to read and I’ll still be fine?
Hi!!! So, in terms of not having room in your house for a ton of new books, I can definitely recommend using your local library or reading free pdfs online (or buying them if u prefer)! There are also plenty of audiobooks too :)
As for reading them at all, I’d honestly suggest reading the first arc (The Prophecies Begin) both because it’s the start of it all and bc I think it does a great job at establishing the world building and all that! Plus, the protagonist is like the most famous cat of em all LOL. Aside from that, I think the most “important” arcs are probably The Power of Three, Omen of the Stars, and The Broken Code, personally, but I do also love the rest and would recommend all of them if you have the time. I think the prequel series, Dawn of the Clans, is the least relevant at this point of time in the fandom? U don’t need to read any (all?) of the novellas/mangas/super editions to know what’s up rn but they are oftentimes a good read—just not necessary. The Warriors wiki has both simplified and detailed plot descriptions for every book that you can skim through instead of reading the whole book if you’d rather catch up sooner than later.
Also, there’s no need to Fit In with the fandom or anything. I don’t know if I’m even necessarily a big part of it, I just like engaging with it and other fans and making some art, that’s all. I haven’t read tooooo much besides the main arcs, actually, so there’s a lot I’m missing on the sidelines!
Ehhhh this is a lot, sorry, but TL;DR: start with the first arc, and use online resources or the library if you don’t want to buy books. Get into it bc u like it, not bc u want to join a fandom :P
#these are all obviously personal takes so if anyone disagrees or has anything to add feel free to say so#I’m also not anywhere NEAR being a huge influence in the fandom and I’m out of the loop on a lot of things!#these are just answers I resonate with ig#imo tpb and tbc are the best arcs#but a LOT happens in between and getting to know big characters is hard when u skip arcs#also yes everyone is talking about the newest arc obv but it’s not finished yet so I wouldn’t rush into it imo#ALSO. the books and the writing and authors are#as always with every creator & creation#not exempt from being or creating something that is problematic or has themes that are poorly handled#there is a Tribe in the 2nd arc and then here and there after that is notably racist in origin#and there r several issues with inc*st & p*dophilia even on-screen between characters#ofc no work is perfect but don’t expect to jump into something perfect and fun and amazing 24/7!#anyway if anyone has anything to add pls do lmao I’m not like. the knower of all that is wc#nothing against tnp avos nor dotc btw they’re also great but I think to know what’s going on rn they aren’t as big#well maybe tnp a bit cause of Ashfur and tbc but idk#not design#not a design#ask#lexiskillinit
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I feel like a lot of discussion in worlds of how we do socialism and also people trying to (with varying levels of genuineness) do philanthropic or ethical versions of capitalism we talk about ‘the working class’ as if either they’re some people to empower or a human rights problem to fix. and yes there’s a struggle of power and for ownership of profit and yes we need to do that fairly and ethically but I think what people miss either deliberately or from trained and systemic invisibility of marginalised groups is that the working class have never been the lowest class. in fact the average person you could say is and has always been working class (don’t let the middle in middle class fool you). there are an entire diverse caste of people who have fallen out of the bottom of society due to inability to work or fit into a nice role in the system and when some of us don’t fit, none of the systems people think of to ‘help’ are going to work when they’re within the same narrative. disabled people can’t work the same as a abled people, so what is a fair share of the profits? neither can addicts, at least not without help. and this group of people often do actually require more capital to have their needs met in ways your average working class person doesn’t. like I don’t want to invalidate your working class plight but. do we not remember centuries of shame when something befalls a relative causing them to fall into that category, be it at birth or later? do we not remember the people we locked up away from society? to those of us who have always existed and exist now, I love you. you deserve to have your voices heard and your needs met and your value not tied to your productivity. you deserve to be centred and not sidelined in these discussions and you deserve a new conceptualisation of how we create an equitable society. and while I don’t see that in mainstream yet I want to normalise as able, working to meet our own needs and then some for those we love who we can feed into the ecosystem and invest in. I want to normalise celebrating the work of existing and being present and staying alive and caring for yourself more than working to feed the economy. that’s work we can all do. and I want to be careful in saying this, but I want to normalise the idea that there is no leisure until we can all have liberation and sustenance. there is rest and reminding ourselves we’ve done enough and we are enough. but there’s no sitting back in comfort, which many of us raised in middle class lifestyles might be used to. not while part of society is still invisible.
#this is mostly a critique of discussions of socialism tbh#and like. many of us are disabled I know what we define as leisure is well needed rest#many of us fall into multiple conflicting social classes#and I’d say for those of us it’s parts of us too who are invisible#but like. I really want to discuss socialism and look at possibilities but I find it very hard to take seriously rn#when often the lucky ones of us use our middle class privileges to survive our disabilities#and when talking about workers’ rights (important) quickly becomes You Must Work 40h/wk To Survive#I don’t mind working more. but I also have to be very accommodating of how I need to work in order to do it#and I am so aware of others for whom this isn’t the case#that tbh I don’t think I’ll ever stop working as hard and as smart as I sustainably can#at least not while peoples needs aren’t met#socialism#sustainable development goals#neurodivergent liberation#mad liberation#disability rights#disability liberation#punk christianity
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you know, I feel like, as little money as I have, I still haven’t put into perspective how much I have that could still be of use. I’m not so poor that I can’t make a difference. I can still buy a meal if I go out. I can buy a trinket. I’m not so poor or struggling with life that I don’t have food in my stomach and a place to sleep. Donating like I have this week has me wanting to do something that I hope many others are already doing. For every cent I would have spent for myself, on groceries, deliveries, gifts, etcetera (beyond the strikes where I am not spending money on anything but Palestinian causes) I will donate equal or greater that amount to Palestine. Because if I have money for me, I should have money for others. This is not me setting myself on fire to keep others warm, I know I would be of no use long term if I destroyed myself by going entirely broke with no way to survive myself. This is considering things beyond medical bills and life expenses that I need to keep going. When I count groceries, it’s things like when I use Instacart bc I can’t go out, because even though I don’t have a means of transportation, delivery is a luxury and if I can afford to pay for that, I can afford to donate. If I buy something non-essential like some snacks or the like, I have to match it with a donation. Because if I can afford to buy that, I can afford to donate. And just due to the nature of being a reminder, every time I get my period I’m going to donate to sanitary products for Palestine, because while pads are an essential product, donating even a little bit towards helping others get even the opportunity to get the same access as I do is an important reminder. There’s $5 donations available for those, and that’s about the cost of an average subscription I would be able to afford— it won’t buy a whole kit, but it will still put money towards that goal. I may not be able to do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good that I can do. As much as I can spare, I will donate. I only wish I could do more.
#idk it kind of hit me this week when I had to spend some money what I would do to make an impact with my money since I had to spend some#that the policy of matching whatever I spent here with donations to Palestine would be a great way to keep up action#and a reminder with every cent I spend of Palestine#I only pray that someday soon I will gain the freedom to actually do some more physical irl work as well#rn I’m not in a safe place to do so without the risk of losing my freedom to do anything and health#i can’t even call out loud when my parents are in the house because any word I would say would be grounds to take away more of my freedom#like they did when I donated to Black Lives Matter and they physically took me to a public place to scold me#and have monitored my bank account ever since.#I’ve been using PayPal mostly for donations ever since due to that not showing up immediately but#I DID use my direct card to send. sanitary kits. they won’t win that one if they take me out to scold me though lol#anyway these tags aren’t important I’m just equal parts emboldened and frustrated#emboldened by the idea of a way I can make a more direct impact beyond sharing and archiving#and frustrated that even then my options are slim and I have to be cautious#I wish I could risk it all but I would be of no help if I put myself in a position where I was either homeless or unable to act at all#I hope this doesn’t come across self important#it’s just me making a statement that I want to follow#idk this is just me working out the complexities of my situation and what I can do long term#while still actually making an impact directly on the world both right now and sustainably
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sorry to be cliché but i really hate men sometimes :/
#like getting this sentiment from men i meet throughout my life (understandable)#from my dad (checks out )#but from my little (lol) brothers? (fucked)#it’s a phase they r going thru puberty ~#fuck that bc when i was in my angsty phase (and tbh im kinda in it rn bc having been a pleasure to have in class made me a late bloomer)#i was NAWT saying slurs and saying swear words so openly and comfortably#like my other brother threw my glasses on the table after he picked them up to ask what they were doing there#and i told him to leave them there bc HONESTLY#they aren’t even in his way#and they were set on a lamp bought for ME#like damn dude why don’t u punch a hole in the wall while u r at it#they are being misogynistic in such a cliché boring way#and to top it off#they r grind ass kissers#like if still choose to believe in working ur way into wealth fine but leave me along abt my job status that’s MY problem#why don’t u pick a major 🙄#but if i were to say that id be given a bitch glare#at this point im getting a job to spend less time at home#🎟️
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Those are the numbers for adoptions by parents who have no prior connection to the child like imagine u make 5k a year and u can’t afford to care for ur child so u get pressured into relinquishing them to a private agency and an infertile couple who HAS to have a baby drops 50k to adopt ur baby and they are strangers and your baby isn’t even going to be cared for by somebody in your own community who is able to but instead is going to whoever can foot the massive bill and the adoptive parents consider this a “win-win” situation cuz now they have a baby and the baby has a loving home but u were a loving home ur just poor and now u have been forever changed by this experience nobody wants to acknowledge
#the first time i heard somebody say infertile and same sex couples feel entitled to a baby I was v uncomfortable but then u really get to#thinking about it and it’s like……yeah people DO want the infant with no attachments or backstory because they believe wanting a child is#enough to get one#like adoption should be an extremely rare thing…..we should be unsettled by adoption the way it works rn#the priority for a child should be keeping them in their home or close community …#and if more couples who would have relied on adoption as a family building tool don’t get to have children#cuz poor mothers that want to raise their babies have the means to do so…….then that is objectively better for the kid and people will just#have to learn that they aren’t entitled to others peoples babies
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