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new-haven-psych-ward · 2 years ago

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Kamen Rider Geats episode 41 poorly summarized via memes with as little context as possible:

#kamen rider geats poorly summarized #kamen rider geats #kamen rider geats ep 41 #so much happened #good for you tsumuri for being plot relevant again #ik her arc is about the fact she has no agency or anything #and like shes learning to care and do stuff #but like damn really wouldve appreciated more of that talk with keiwa #granted they showed enough to get the point across #both that tsumuri is choosing to do this #and that keiwa is uhhhh making Decisions #but still #love that ace rewrote the world and kept his dumbass fame #theres no reason to keep that anymore #in fact it is detrimental at times #but pretty boys gotta get their attention somehow ig #neon i am so sorry everyone in your girl group keeps dying #if the door makes no sense just think about how one might describe keiwa this week #i love watching the boys fight #also their alliance sucks so bad #ace you couldve told either of the two riders about the stage 2 jyamato #or better yet CAPTURED IT #instead of just zoooming out of there #so that the jyamato could go on to then attack the construction site and nearly kill people? potentially kill people offscreen?#love buffa's 'shit not again face'#also speaking of fights CANE #that's all

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jackass-jones · 9 months ago

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Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah #this one just rawrrfrrr #and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’#nice #im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it #god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like #hnnnghhh #hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot #the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM #sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’#like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke #but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me #and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards #the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome #the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear #its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe #but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill #and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill #you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit #and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it #and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was #very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me #which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me #yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year ago

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thinks about the master & the doctor cuddling thinks about them cuddling thinks about them cuddling thinks about them cuddlign thinks-

#its a vrry specific flavor of cuddling its like.#its exhausted. first of all. and its lonely.#its the kind of cuddling that starts because one of you literally flopped on top of the other and wouldnt move #and then started squirming to become an even bigger hiderance than they already were if they were being ignored #its a puppy pile of two. they are in the weirdest most uncomfortable looking positions imaginable #you look at them and you think ‘this is how glass sculptures would cuddle if glass sculptures had feelings and were touch-starved’#its a cuddle that might end with one of them putting the other in a full body lock for whatever reason. either to keep them from running #or because they had a nightmare. they do have nightmares you know. and they aren’t fun to sleep next to. the best comfort is a good defense #its the kind of cuddling where one of them is awake for too long. breathing slowly so they dont disturb their partner and staring.#memorizing. taking note of every difference since last time.#its the kind of cuddling where even if you walked in on them at a point where while they were asleep theyd scooted apart and weren’t #touching anymore. you’d still notice that they’re practically mirror images. curled up the same way and facing each other. until one of them #kicks in their sleep and disturbs the illusion. but still.#you get me?#and also theres biting.

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science-lings · 9 months ago

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imagine being Misty Fey and leaving your daughters in the care of your asshole sister who frames one of them for murder and is literally just about to do it again, knowing that the asshole sister has a daughter who killed two (debatably three) people and nearly killed another. You keep track of one of your daughter's life enough to notice that that one kid that your niece tried to kill interned with your daughter and defended your other daughter for the first daughter's murder because they met at the crime scene and became instant buddies and the first time you meet your remaining child she doesn't recognize you. You will never be able to tell her who you are because you get murdered that night.

#i am always thinking about a bridge to the turnabout btw #you think she looked at phoenix interacting with Maya and was like 'welp I guess I have a son now'#lost one lawyer daughter and gained one lawyer son #her reputation had to have been crazy for her to disappear for so long like holy crap #i bet she was at Mia's funeral in a disguise #she's kind of fascinating actually i wonder how much she actually knew...#she may be a deadbeat but she's so interesting to think about #i like to think she tried to silently keep up with her kids but couldn't contact them #she definitely shouldve though #at least after morgan was jailed like... what are you waiting for? dl6 was solved! maya could channel greg again and ask why he lied!#theres literally no reason to just dip out forever anymore!#i hate her i want to study her I want her to haunt the narrative more #misty fey #ace attorney #i want misty to watch courtroom recordings because she's desperate to see her daughters #she gets to know phoenix as shes trying to keep up with Mia and Maya #middle child phoenix supremacy #imagine realizing that this random guy has done more to protect and save your daughter than you have by just being there for her

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nightgarla · 12 days ago

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god i wanna get top surgery so bad

#when i was like slightly younger i thought i wouldnt want it #but now that im out in the real world again the issues with having f cups r rly making themselves known again #and as much as i love stressballs i cannot take it anymore #im also deathly aftaid of breast cancer so rly theres no reason to keep them #mechtalks

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ana-rends · 6 months ago

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i would rather live with ana for the rest of my life than binge like this ever again

#rending.txt #i dont know how to stop binging i was doing so well yesterday and then for no reason it fell apart #i just want to stop #i have so much to do today but i just dont want to do anything im so depressed #im just going to lay in bed and eat all day and think up ways to die #i already know my chosen method i just cant be bothered right now so maybe later #i just want to keep sleeping #i called in sick to work today because i was so so tired and i slept i think nearly 12 hours which isnt bad #i wanna go on a walk and work out and stuff but i just. cant right now. i need to work on my job presentation but i just cant #i just want to keep eating and go back to sleep and then wake up and end it #but i just need to make it to therapy tomorrow and maybe itll get better? who knows #i dont even have the energy to walk up to tesco to get blades or more food so im laying im bed eating dry granola like a pathetic pig #i dont wanna talk to anyone but my boyfriend but hes asleep and i dont want to vent to him anymore because it makes me feel guilty #and it doesnt help to vent to him anymore so i just make him sad for no reason and i dont know how to vent to anyone else #i havent changed my bedsheets in weeks and theres so much trash on my floor you can barely walk in my room and i havent showered in a week #i just dont have the heart to cry anymore i just want it to stop #i did everything i was supposed to so i could prevent binges and it didnt work at all so i think im beyond saving lol

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kellystar321 · 7 months ago

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#periodical life updates #eurgh. hiiii im so tired just got home from the family gathering thing im. exhausted hkjfh. and i still gotta draw the eca #still gonna be quiet for a while sorry gang <3 anyway lets not talk about any of that hdkjf ARTFIGHT THEME REVEAL!!#you'll never guess which team jace ''kellystar321'' starlight is choosing for seafoam vs stardust hfjkh #*gestures at my oc list* but also. what if i dont CARE anymore hfjkhf obviously i want to draw for people! its my favorite part! but like.#GODDD i dont care about my ocs anymore!! :') ive always been more of a fandom guy i dont... /want/ art of my ocs?#like yeah obviously agent my beloved! alexandria my beloved! eca has a whole daily blog! but my actual interest in them is sooo low.#there's so many people on artfight who LOVE their ocs like their children. their ocs are their blorbos!! but my ocs are like nothing to me?#i like fandom characters :'0 i would not be as excited to see art of my characters as someone else would be who actually likes their ocs!!#people should focus more on drawing art for people who CARE about their ocs. because if /I/ don't care about my oc and /YOU/ don't care #about my ocs then WHOS FLYING THE PLANE HJFSD no but theres ZERO ENJOYMENT coming out of it you get me? it doesnt make sense to draw for me #BUT ALSO. for silly ''i dont like seeing them all greyed out/hidden :('' reasons i dont want to archive them and hide them from everyone #/BUT ALSO./ i DON'T WANT ART OF THEM. ATTACK SOMEONE ELSE PLEASE. SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR CHARACTERS hfjkfh urgh.#like hey sorry i dont? care enough about the guys i made up? can you draw reader or kim k!tsuragi instead? thank you. hdjhfg;;;#also ive been. so tired :'> how much will i even be able to do this year? every year i gain more targets to attack because i keep meeting-#new friends all the time. i have some people from lgbt club im attacking this year! my stickmin friends. avm friends. my hell gang hkhg #my hlvrai friends and my longtime mutuals and MY BUREAU OF BALANCE GANG... not to mention revenges from last year :'>#its a lot. and im so tired;;; so. im not sure. i'd still like to join for my 8th year of artfight but damb. i dunno. :'> <3 #okay thats all GOTTA DRAW AN ECA GOODBYE I LOVE YOU!!

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nightfallsystem-moved · 2 months ago

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i hate my stupid life everytime i look up did / osdd symptoms i have a LOT of them but if i get diagnosed what if my mother abuses me for it. she doesnt like when im mentally unwell. like really. really doesnt like. like threatens me when im unwell. what then. then ill like. die. THEN ITLL GET WORSE .

#im not saying “i googled did once and now i think i have it!” btw. i dont know if i have it #but my memory is FUCKED and i have alters and i keep feeling dissociated. i can barely feel my body evertyhing feels so numb #and this owrld barely feels real.#BUT ITS HARD TO TELL IF MY SYMTPOMS R BAD ENOUGH??#we mask SO much its not even funny i am constantly trying to control them lest we get UFCKING MURDERED BY MY 'MOTHER'#i think itd be ''severe'' if i didnt mask so much.#NOT OT MENTION I DONT KNOW IF MY TRAUMA IS BAD ENOUGH TO HAVE IT????#because i fucking forgot msost of it. but also cuz im not too affected by it anymore because its nto MY trauma. *i* didnt expereince it #and i feel like i experienced most of my trauma too late to have it???#i hate. my brain. just fuckig remmeber. idiot #this is stupid. im sure its nothing but idk anymore.#I CANT REMEMBER SHIT FROM PAST WHENIW AS . LIKE. 13-14 OR SO #SURELY SOMETHING HAPPENEDRIGHT??? why cant i remember #this is stupid i probably dont have it and just want attention. but i cant tell until i seek professional help for it #but the mental health specialists are out to get me. theyll hurt me i think.i cant trust anyone anymore #theres probablya reason its stopping me from remembering. i shouldnt look too far into it ...#ANWYAY I NEEDED TO GET THIS OUT SOMEHWERE....#sorry for the long text #tw abuse

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maggot-baggage · 4 months ago

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Sorry im bitchin sumn fierce

My grandparents are both ridiculously annoying to deal with but my grandfather specifically is pissing me off rn. Bc he's always been the one to say one thing and then do another so I know I can't trust him. I didnt tell them I moved back home bc I wasnt gonna deal with them calling me talkin bout how stupid and dependent I am when like. I just missed having people around who actually fucking like me. And he has the nerve to call/text me trying to have me come to Florida with him as if the past 3 years didn't happen! I'm already too far away for that but also funny to assume I have the time for that when I've mentioned more than once that I'm in school. Saying "I'm always here for you <:)" after treating me like shit and making me feel bad for wanting better doesn't fix this! Acting as if I didn't literally BEG you to talk to me instead of berating me doesn't fix this! I don't want anything to do with people that have said out right that they don't respect me or my life! Idec if they're actually worried or whatever, I finally have something going on for me and I'm not lettin you back into my life bc you just now feel like you fucked up. I want an actual conversation and apology. I want you to acknowledge what was said and done without hearing "well if you weren't lazy/stupid/etc". Otherwise leave me aloneee

#he keeps texting me trying to get me to come to florida like again. we havent talked since i moved out. im not doin that #there's a reason we havent talked since i moved out #theres a reason we literally almost never talked when I still lived there! and it wasn't jus tthe fact that I was working all yhe time!!#im so exhausted with my dads family they love to bicker but hate to actually fix shit #so im not gonna bother anymore either i asked to have a civil conversation and still havent gotten it so goodbye #mag.txt

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spacedlexi · 2 years ago

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day 5. the bots are starting to make fan accounts

#ive been watching them for a few hours now and im getting more that look the same so im PRETTY SURE theyre bots #theyre writing bios now with their fandoms listed..........#its like 'hi! im [name]! and im in [fandoms]!' pretty copy paste but with random fandoms listed #this is psychological warfare at this point #like how am i supposed to be able to 100% know #it speaks #ok yeah ive been getting more of them theyre all acting identically but im still keeping an eye on them #for science reasons #also woke up to 200 bot follows overnight so that was fun to deal with this morning #I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#afraid if i send some complaint to tumblr theyll just nuke my blog like they nuked all the tags that had bots in them #i dont know how much longer i can keep up the fight for #ALSO they are all brand new blogs so i doubt theres a mass wave of new owl house fans joining tumblr all at the same time

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jamesbukkakebarnes · 6 months ago

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#idk man. i think im just gonna post any remaining art i have and then just quit. it just isnt fun anymore? idk #life mostly isnt fun anymore tbh. i had a bad night/morning at work and just. its making me think abt things #mainly the thought that keeps running through my head is whats the point?#i think the only thing that makes me happy rn is my dogs. one is turning 10 next week and thats making me v depressed on top of everything #maybe ill change my mind lmao i probably will but. even thinking abt being creative makes me so sad for some reason #which sucks! everything fucking sucks the only emotions i feel lately is anger depression anxiety and embarrassment #and ive been trying to be optimistic but theres only so much positivity in me. i cant do this shit anymore #maybe things will get better or at least not get worse but that seems unlikely #ignore me

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obnoxiousarcade · 7 months ago

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I have a longing to be understood more than anything else i think

#someone very recently acknowledged something that usually goes unseen and it wasn't even that great of an acknowledgement but ive just been #staring at the messages every once in a while. its great. not really i sort of feel like a real weirdo #im very lonely. i cant say why but let it be known that i am very lonely #ok i have a question to those who lie their eyes upon this post: tell me what you know about me please?#so much lies in my social perception and i am just. not being perceived. at all. darn #i have a lot to cry about but morally i dont think i should-- specifics would mean being mean to the people i love #talking to anyone anymore just makes me feel horrible. doing anything anymore makes me feel horrible..tmbg has my back though ill live for #another.week or a few. and then my birthday will happen and rhen um #.Well. it sucks that sucks man. i dont want to disclose my age but to elaborate on why ACTUALLY HOLD ON #the thing i am about to say is not true; it is a metaphorical thing: it is my 21st birthday soon.#i decided that i wouldnt live past this age around 5 years ago and the only reason ive lived five years is being killed this year. i dont #think every thing ive been desperately clinging on to for the past 2 (?) years can keep me alive past then..i think im going to die. i have #to #NO MORE BEING A DOWNER #fox (vulpes vulpes) on the Internet for the first time #okay maybe a little more..i dont know who im talking to in this post. my friends do not read my tumblr and. i dont know anyone else.really.#uh #I'm listen to tmbg right now i love them #hey reader; i can only think of 3 people who see enough about me to check my blog. so i have separate questions for the each of you.#one of you likes (liked? school came in and i couldnt see your blog much past then; idk if its changed) tmbg. what do you think of The Else?#and uh you there... the guyyy. Google john flansburgh..i dont have a reason to this one ive just not been able to stop thinking about askin #you what you think of him.#um third person..... um #okay theres nothing iecan ask. i do want to apologize to you though: im sorry.#iThis is bullshit #im gonna delete this soon #Um also sorry if my wording here is. really wack. i tend to do that #i dont think anyones going to see this as is always #i think i just like talking to the hypothetical beast. yeah

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teknikolor-walters · 7 months ago

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google how to believe your friends when they tell you that they love you quick solution

#cicadas vent tag #honestly i think a lot of this stems from the idea that nobody truly loves me #i'm only loved because you feel like you have to to keep me from killing myself . or to make me feel better . or because i'm something you #can save or get your rocks off to #im only ever talked to because im intresting #i can tell you a bug fact or write about your ocs or talk about being an alternate or mikey walters #without that im nothing #theres no reason to be my friend anymore #eventually something more interesting and pitiable will come along and ill be alone #hhhhhhh #i hate friendship

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arc-archernar · 1 year ago

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#vent #it feels awful #not knowing what the fuck to do #i WANT like a fucking gluttonous beast #i wanna be good at everything #i wanna be good at art and singing and worldbuilding and writing and editing and animating and academics #and i never feel satisfied #and no ones forcing me to do any of this #i just fucking want to for some reason and its destroying me #i just end up being not good at anything. im shit at studying and sleeping and keeping to deadlines #i want there to be enough time for me to explore everything #for me to learn everything at my own pace and perfect my skills #but it just feels like i have no time for myself anymore #everything i have i must dedicate to studying for a levels and its so tiring. i wanna draw and be creative too but theres so much course #content that its killing me. i want my free time back #and im forever thankful to my parents for moving with me all the way to the uk so i can learn about things that actually interest me but #even that doesnt really mean anything anymore thanks to the standardization of education and especially exams and exam boards #so my parents spent all that effort and money for nothing and i really just want to break down and cry and say sorry #but that would just hurt them even more and even i dont have the heart to do that so im stuck with this and im so goddamn tired #and of course by spreading my attention and efforts so thin everything i do is lackluster so of course my grades are shit #and i get sick often so my attendence record is also shit #it just feels like im a burden for existing like a malignant tumour #and i have to relearn how to cry. imagine that. a grown adult not knowing how to cry #i never knew there was supposed to be emotional relief when crying sometimes because whenever i cry when im overwhelmed...or anytime really #i get told to stop immediately so i got trained to hold everything in.and i get that its easy for the adults to deal with a not-crying child #but i kinda feel cheated #i want that emotional catharsis that comes with crying your feelings out and i have to teach myself how to do it #how pathetic is that #had to get this out there its just too much for me #arc 3am logs

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sydmarch · 1 year ago

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watching jordan's dad be a huge dick about their gender when a couple hours ago I was on the phone w my dad & he's like "mom was telling me you said you were gonna officially get your name changed you know I have you in my phone as syd you have to do what makes you happy in this life & not hold yourself back for other people's sake" is just so like. ok cryign now.

#there was one person i was wanting to keep the peace with by not changing it & now that theres been an unrelated falling out i have no #reason not to anymore. im just glad my parents are like actually cool i never would've reallt expected it when i was a teenager #texticles

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moafleco · 4 months ago

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i hate that duality that your mind can be your safe heaven that helps you get through some difficult things, keeps you going and brings you happiness at the worst of times. and at the very same time it could be your worst tormentor that won't let you rest and won't let you breathe, literally for no particular reason at all. and you can't leave or silence it. can't get it to stop when it gets dark in there. can't get the light in when you desperately need to feel a respite instead of suffocation.

#its so difficult #sometimes its too much to handle #yeah particularly today im just.. screaming internally #and the inability to do something YOU LOVE due to your brain having one of those bad days so everything feels fucking BAD is just so unfAIR #its frustrating #the only thing you can do is sob apparently #my room doesnt feel like my room anymore all i feel is fear and dread #i just dont understand why and how it came to this point i want out #nothing grounds me to reality or to my normal state and im afraid #instead of watch fav movie to get better ill count the duration time and decide thats its too long i dont have that much time #i will be painfully aware of numbers and wb scared of them and then ill just not move at all immobilized at place #i cant #all i could do is desperately bother my friends trying to connect to them and hiding that obvious ache #i dont have capacity to soothe myself with my favorite guys and gals from games and movies i dont feel anything at all #and i hate that but also i cant do anything im so idk what i feel like but like im not anything #i lost myself i lost my favorite things to do and my hobbies and my spark and everything i dont even know anymore #on small bad days you could conjure a good thoughts and watch somethinf and think about what makes you happy #theres a void in my head now that just counts and counts and counts and cant do nothing #i will just open up a chat w friends and look at empty textspace i want to connect so badly but i wont send anything just freeze still #i dont feel that im in here but i want badly to be here and yet i cant grasp anything to still keep myself real #and like i have a feeling that in next 2 hours I'll just vanish spmething bad will happn carcrash orso i cantbe spendin much timeon anythin #i hate this #suddenly your brain just want you dead and fills you with dread unimaginable and my dumbass thinks that it's right #that my brain is right and im inclined to believe in this shit. im not but deep down i kind of is so thats why this anxiety causes me probl #ms for the whole week i didnt done anything i just could not i want it to stop #its so sure of itself that i will pass away in couple of hours by unknown reasons that it imagined so why even try

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