#the way my brain just clicked for them

[v7lgar]

just want to say. lily × bellatrix potential is turning my mind inside out rn. i see the vision i see it so clearly. it's beautiful it's everything i've ever wanted. make it happen...........? (no pressure implied nor intended, this is just an overall applause at your brain) (good day / night to u !¡¡!!)

yeah like imagine??? lily is younger than bellatrix but she doesn't care the age gap, she is attracted everything bellatrix does and did and will. bellatrix calls her young lady at first bcuz she wants to put out the age gap but lily is like so what??? honestly bellatrix gives mommy vibes and lily is so down for it. like ofc bellatrix is very attracted to lily? she wants to fuck her so bad it's a crime bcuz she knows she can give everything or anything to lily and lily knows bellatrix is bad news. she saw it from miles but she doesn't care. she is wearing her green lingerie that knows bellatrix would go insane for and that's what lily wants. she wants to see her lose her mind over her. she wants to seduce her but she also can't help but feel angry at her bcuz she is an awful human being? but yeah, that doesn't mean she can't fuck the enemy or let her fuck her lol

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile

[icewindandboringhorror]

Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Oh!

Oh oh oh! I think I’ve cracked the Tim code and I’m feeling rather insane about it - might throw up actually.

Bear with me while I compose it into a post (which means an essay because it’s me), but I think we’ve been looking at it all wrong when it comes to T*mmy and now I understand why Buck is getting the Gerrard storyline and the golf scene. If I’m right it’s pure genius actually and the red herrings have had us all looking in the wrong direction this entire time.

Omg I’ve been so dense!!!

[artheresy]

I can’t stay quiet about this, I need to scream it to SOMEBODY ANYBODYYY

Dan Heng and Blade were Dan Feng and Yingxing. “Dh and Bld are Df and Yx!” Nope, their current selves aren’t them, that lacks nuance. “Dh and Bld aren’t Df and Yx!” THAT ALSO LACKS NUANCEE they are still connected and fundamentally shaped by their past identities, they aren’t entirely separate from them while also still being separate in a way. The best way I can describe it is like a venn diagram, there is overlap, but there also are still areas where they don’t.

To expand more, I wanna talk about the way they foil each other a bit in this sense. For Dan Heng, even if he is a botched rebirth, simply a “de-aged Dan Feng” not fully reborn, he is still not Dan Feng. While Dan Feng has made up the basis of his personality and he accepts him as his past, I think we forget that Dan Heng had his own entire childhood after the molting rebirth was completed. One he spent imprisoned by the Ten Lords Commission, and then he was exiled when he was old enough leading to his whole journey until he became apart of the Astral Express crew etc etc. Dan Heng is made up of a basis of Dan Feng + All of his own memories and experiences. While he shares traits with Dan Feng such as personality aspects like his stubbornness, his technique with a spear, and being able to connect with his old items, he also is very much himself with his own outlook and traits shaped by what he’s learned rather than what he has been born with. To treat him as if he is Dan Feng exactly is a disservice to both of their characters and the greater narrative that they apart of. He may still carry the burdens and karma of Dan Feng, but Dan Heng is still making his own future.

Now, Blade. Blade similarly is not Yingxing, not completely. Though he accepts Yingxing’s sin as his own and is intent of repaying the sin of Dan Feng and Yingxing (and getting Dan Heng to repay it too), there still are distinctions between him and Yingxing. In fact, I’d argue there are more things separating them. I could talk for so long again about the layered use of craftsmanship to connect, or rather disconnect, the two identities of Blade and Yingxing, but there’s more than that. “Now, ██ had died. His first — and only — death.” “From this moment on, that body will be the one and only "Blade."” Although Blade was Yingxing, a disconnect exists between them through the death of Yingxing. He awoke with no memories of his past, no even his name, until Jingliu came along, instilled in him her ideologies, made him remember, not only his past sins but the feeling of death so that he might inflict it onto others. As she said, he was reborn and had even given himself a name…

I want to add that the specific ways in which their current identities exist in proximity to their past ones foil each other. As I said, Dan Heng, in part as his sabotaged rebirth, is built upon the foundation of Dan Feng and all of his own experiences and memories. He has the capacity to gain back more memories of Dan Feng as his DH IL character stories outline, and though he is still himself and still moves forward, we see him accept his relation to Dan Feng eventually. Though that past life of his is clouded by fog and mist, he may eventually be able to push away the clouds that block him and understand more, about Dan Feng and in turn about himself. With Blade, it is so heavily emphasized in game from his relic lore to the very sword he uses that his mind is essentially broken, due both in part to the trauma of Jingliu’s “teachings” and the mara that was brought on by those lessons. He can’t fully remember everything about Yingxing, in fact actively remembering such or seeing familiar things is harmful to him. Like his shard sword, he is made of broken pieces, put together in a way that can never erase the cracks, and continuously shattering before being glued together again. His life is shaped by Yingxing’s past, the trauma he has endured is directly caused by his past actions. Unlike Dan Heng, he hasn’t had this whole life to build up and live. Though he’s experienced new things, they don’t shape him and change him in the way that Dan Heng’s built his identity up.

Where Dan Heng basically has supplements to Dan Feng’s identity that make him who he is, Blade is the broken shards and pieces of Yingxing that weren’t lost to the waves, making him who he is. Dan Heng is a next chance, finally free from the Preceptors’ control and of the role that stripped his past selves of their individuality, meanwhile Blade is the husk left behind of Yingxing’s regrets, broken by trauma caused due to Yingxing’s past actions, forever tormented by his past until he inevitably is able to die. If Dan Heng is more than just Dan Feng which is why he is separate but intertwined with him, than Blade is less than Yingxing, in a way that has caused such a severe disconnect that has caused Blade to have his own identity still shaped. And looking at this, not to again bring up my craftsmanship post about Blade, Dan Heng can connect to Dan Feng. He can clear the fog, remembering his memories through dreams even if he can’t fully connect emotionally to him, and he finds sentiment in many of items that once were his, smth not many Vidyadhara actually are capable of doing. To contrast, Blade is forever separated from connecting completely to Yingxing’s identity. His memories will always be fragmented, his own path entirely changed. He can’t connect to Yingxing’s past goals and passions, seen through the distinct decision made in his character stories to talk about how he can no longer use his hands to forge weapons (something that completely defined Yingxing’s life and legacy, tied to his childhood trauma and hatred of the Abundance, something that became his genuine passion), and how none of that mattered to Blade.

All of this, the ways they foil each other and the separation between their past selves and current, just makes me love their dynamic and their lore a lot. Makes me want to cry most days of my life if I’m honest. And it’s part of why I do take issue with the way nuance has completely left this argument, only having two extremes of “Dan Heng is Dan Feng!” Or “Dan Heng isn’t Dan Heng!” Again… Dan Heng WAS Dan Feng, he wouldn’t be Dan Heng without Dan Feng, but he is still himself. That’s part of the tragedy between them. They are still fundamentally defined and shaped by their past selves, similarities able to be spotted if they can be remembered, but they’ve also experienced so much that has changed them, and they can never truly go back to being Dan Feng and Yingxing. It would never be fully the same again.

[no1ryomafan]

I realized more and more how my “robo autism” as I call it differs from other people’s obsession with robots because I’ve seen people who like robots completely looking un human as possible and there also be little humans within in the media, they just want robots, meanwhile the reason I enjoy robots is when they are used as a way to look into the philosophy of being human.

I like robots that are made to look human and interact with human for the conflict it causes of “how human can you make something that’s not human? Is it worthy of being accepted as a person?” since it brings up a lot of existential and interesting questions. I only tend to like robots that don’t look super human if they’re mechas cause they still have a relationship with humans, the sentience can go either way as even if I do like robo sentience not every mecha story needs it and I oddly prefer the route of “it can’t speak but it’s alive” rather then it talking, because it just feels more eerie then a giant talking robot.

I know to some people if they see this I’m gonna come off boring and like yeah maybe I do cause I know robot designs have more potential when they aren’t bound to human stuff, and I’m not saying anyone who enjoys the other way is bad, but this is just why I realized certain robot media clicks with me and others don’t. (Also my brain makes everything needlessly complicated lol)

[grimalkinmessor]

Thinking about an AU where Ritsu is the one who ends up being Reigen's student instead. Say he's there when Mob sees the sign, dissuades him from going in because "it's probably a scam anyway!" But then of course, little envious Ritsu ends up coming back the next day, unable to help himself at the chance, the possibility that someone could help him develop psychic powers like his brother. He figures Reigen out almost immediately, of course, because he demands to be shown Reigen's power. But Ritsu is desperate, and Reigen has always had a kind way with words, and soon enough Ritsu and Reigen are going ghosts adventures! Leaving Mob behind :') Even more alone than before :'))

And as S&S fills up with things of ACTUAL spiritual significance, like artifacts and purified salt and herbs at Ritsu's obsessive insistence as he tries to find an in to psychic powers and Reigen tries to encourage him without encouraging him, Ritsu and Reigen get closer. Ritsu is more surly than Mob, less inherently trusting and more emotional, more easily annoyed—but he has no reason to hate Reigen in this verse. Reigen has never even met Mob, much less used his powers for his own gain. Reigen grows incredibly fond of this desperate boy, good at everything but the one thing he wants to be good at, and tries to lead him away from those feelings of jealousy and inadequacy. In turn, Ritsu himself is healthier. A little easier going, though still almost perpetually bristling with temper 😮‍💨

He and Mob are closer as a result! He becomes Mob's only friend, more open with his own thoughts and feelings and, thanks to Reigen, far less afraid of him. Mob is more emotionally stunted than ever, and though he has some tentative acquaintances in the Telepathy club, he's still mostly alone and isolated. All of Reigen's helpful advice on dealing with his autism (identified by how Ritsu speaks about his Shige-nii and the behaviors he says he exhibits) is relayed through Ritsu, who comes to understand Mob a little more because of it.

But—oh, didn't I mention? This is a soulmate AU :)

Ritsu has two marks; one for Mob, and one for Reigen. Mob never develops a mark for Ritsu, but he expects that, obviously. Reigen also doesn't develop a mark for Ritsu, but given their age difference, Ritsu also expects that. He's a smart boy, and he knows that not all soulmarks are reciprocated. It's fine. They don't need to be. Ritsu has mostly made peace with his lot in life.

That is, before Mob and Reigen finally meet in person. And instantly develop matching soulmarks.

...Ritsu's psychic awakening is only slightly better than his brother's.

[strawberryfaced]

thinking about what parent and child relationships are really about and I’m going to rant in the tags!

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

[toxooz]

i Need to take up embroidery now rIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[idk-i-want-mcl-content]

Me rn:

(not mine)

[verifiablebot]

here are all of my favourite books that i own. just in case anyone wanted recs :)

[stewyhosseini-bf]

If you had to turn someone into a kenstewy truther with only one of their scenes, which one would you pick?

really good question.. first and most obvious answer I think would either be 'go to the bathroom have a little sth sth' combined with the whole bathroom scene or the friend card scene.

but this question had me thinking back to when it clicked for me that there is more to them, and weirdly the very first time I watched the show I did not really pick up on kenstewy for a while (even though I was already convinced ken was bi from ep 1 on, don't ask me how that works. but that's also why I think kenstewy isn't the strongest evidence for bi ken but I digress). Like I was raising my eyebrows at the friend card scene like okay what's all this then, but was telling myself I'm probably just reading too much into it .... but what actually did it for me was the josh aaronson / stewy hug with kendall watching from the plane window lmao. don't ask me why. but something about this

had me like. hold on a minute. even though the scene isn't even that loaded with subtext or anything, like of course Ken's defeated and devastated about losing Josh's vote, like whatever. but for some reason that's what did it for me and then I went back to their other scenes like. okay actually these bitches are gay and I was not reading too much into it lmao. so idk, if the first ones i mentioned don't work to convince that real or hypothetical person of kenstewy try this one!

[itspileofgoodthings]

tags continued from prev post.

[haleigh-sloth]

I think I'm figuring out what is feeling so ominous about Blue Lock's current arc right now. I definitely feel like Blue Lock is going dark in the sense that everything happening is being televised and used for profit, the money-hungry dudes are talking in the background about god knows what, Kunigami is a test subject and we don't even really know what that means, and the kids all keep looking at social media and looking at the comments being made about them online, and their ranks are literally dependent upon the salaries being offered to them.

Everyone is all worried about the characters spiraling which, yes that's a thing that's happening. But the more I observe the details of these chapters the more I realize that lots of characters are feeling offput by their new environment that is monetizing their wins and losses and exposing them to the public's opinion of them as well.

On an interpersonal level I think the relationship Isagi and Rin have is the main conflict, Isagi's dynamic with Kaiser is something like a side show that drives the situation with Rin forward since they're similar in nature. On a big plot-level I think the issue that is stirring is something much larger scale having to do with the fact that these teenagers are slowly losing their self worth over salary offers and internet opinions.

Just overall as soon as the NEL arc started the SHIFT in the energy of the story changed so quickly. Isagi was immediately separated from everyone he found comfort in from his earlier days at Blue Lock, isolating and setting him up for a lonely environment on top of what was about to be an already stressful and competitive environment. We started seeing "tweets" and internet comments about the kids and the kids taking that to determine how valuable they are. And then the salary thing...fucking crazy.

It's giving the same energy as the hero rankings from my hero academia which, not good. The major difference is that in Blue Lock it'll likely be upheld as a bad thing lol.

Like these people were always lurking in the background but haven't really been that important, and I just breezed past this interaction several times because I wasn't interested when I came across it. But upon re-reading everything I'm seeing that yeah this is Not Good lol.

I think what feels so Ick (intentionally, I don't think this will go unaddressed) is that they've all been turned into products. And that's not a good thing.

[heymacy]

okay fINE i'll just say it!! i miss fandom!!