#the way my brain just clicked for them

[v7lgar]

just want to say. lily × bellatrix potential is turning my mind inside out rn. i see the vision i see it so clearly. it's beautiful it's everything i've ever wanted. make it happen...........? (no pressure implied nor intended, this is just an overall applause at your brain) (good day / night to u !¡¡!!)

yeah like imagine??? lily is younger than bellatrix but she doesn't care the age gap, she is attracted everything bellatrix does and did and will. bellatrix calls her young lady at first bcuz she wants to put out the age gap but lily is like so what??? honestly bellatrix gives mommy vibes and lily is so down for it. like ofc bellatrix is very attracted to lily? she wants to fuck her so bad it's a crime bcuz she knows she can give everything or anything to lily and lily knows bellatrix is bad news. she saw it from miles but she doesn't care. she is wearing her green lingerie that knows bellatrix would go insane for and that's what lily wants. she wants to see her lose her mind over her. she wants to seduce her but she also can't help but feel angry at her bcuz she is an awful human being? but yeah, that doesn't mean she can't fuck the enemy or let her fuck her lol

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Oh!

Oh oh oh! I think I’ve cracked the Tim code and I’m feeling rather insane about it - might throw up actually.

Bear with me while I compose it into a post (which means an essay because it’s me), but I think we’ve been looking at it all wrong when it comes to T*mmy and now I understand why Buck is getting the Gerrard storyline and the golf scene. If I’m right it’s pure genius actually and the red herrings have had us all looking in the wrong direction this entire time.

Omg I’ve been so dense!!!

[artheresy]

I can’t stay quiet about this, I need to scream it to SOMEBODY ANYBODYYY

Dan Heng and Blade were Dan Feng and Yingxing. “Dh and Bld are Df and Yx!” Nope, their current selves aren’t them, that lacks nuance. “Dh and Bld aren’t Df and Yx!” THAT ALSO LACKS NUANCEE they are still connected and fundamentally shaped by their past identities, they aren’t entirely separate from them while also still being separate in a way. The best way I can describe it is like a venn diagram, there is overlap, but there also are still areas where they don’t.

To expand more, I wanna talk about the way they foil each other a bit in this sense. For Dan Heng, even if he is a botched rebirth, simply a “de-aged Dan Feng” not fully reborn, he is still not Dan Feng. While Dan Feng has made up the basis of his personality and he accepts him as his past, I think we forget that Dan Heng had his own entire childhood after the molting rebirth was completed. One he spent imprisoned by the Ten Lords Commission, and then he was exiled when he was old enough leading to his whole journey until he became apart of the Astral Express crew etc etc. Dan Heng is made up of a basis of Dan Feng + All of his own memories and experiences. While he shares traits with Dan Feng such as personality aspects like his stubbornness, his technique with a spear, and being able to connect with his old items, he also is very much himself with his own outlook and traits shaped by what he’s learned rather than what he has been born with. To treat him as if he is Dan Feng exactly is a disservice to both of their characters and the greater narrative that they apart of. He may still carry the burdens and karma of Dan Feng, but Dan Heng is still making his own future.

Now, Blade. Blade similarly is not Yingxing, not completely. Though he accepts Yingxing’s sin as his own and is intent of repaying the sin of Dan Feng and Yingxing (and getting Dan Heng to repay it too), there still are distinctions between him and Yingxing. In fact, I’d argue there are more things separating them. I could talk for so long again about the layered use of craftsmanship to connect, or rather disconnect, the two identities of Blade and Yingxing, but there’s more than that. “Now, ██ had died. His first — and only — death.” “From this moment on, that body will be the one and only "Blade."” Although Blade was Yingxing, a disconnect exists between them through the death of Yingxing. He awoke with no memories of his past, no even his name, until Jingliu came along, instilled in him her ideologies, made him remember, not only his past sins but the feeling of death so that he might inflict it onto others. As she said, he was reborn and had even given himself a name…

I want to add that the specific ways in which their current identities exist in proximity to their past ones foil each other. As I said, Dan Heng, in part as his sabotaged rebirth, is built upon the foundation of Dan Feng and all of his own experiences and memories. He has the capacity to gain back more memories of Dan Feng as his DH IL character stories outline, and though he is still himself and still moves forward, we see him accept his relation to Dan Feng eventually. Though that past life of his is clouded by fog and mist, he may eventually be able to push away the clouds that block him and understand more, about Dan Feng and in turn about himself. With Blade, it is so heavily emphasized in game from his relic lore to the very sword he uses that his mind is essentially broken, due both in part to the trauma of Jingliu’s “teachings” and the mara that was brought on by those lessons. He can’t fully remember everything about Yingxing, in fact actively remembering such or seeing familiar things is harmful to him. Like his shard sword, he is made of broken pieces, put together in a way that can never erase the cracks, and continuously shattering before being glued together again. His life is shaped by Yingxing’s past, the trauma he has endured is directly caused by his past actions. Unlike Dan Heng, he hasn’t had this whole life to build up and live. Though he’s experienced new things, they don’t shape him and change him in the way that Dan Heng’s built his identity up.

Where Dan Heng basically has supplements to Dan Feng’s identity that make him who he is, Blade is the broken shards and pieces of Yingxing that weren’t lost to the waves, making him who he is. Dan Heng is a next chance, finally free from the Preceptors’ control and of the role that stripped his past selves of their individuality, meanwhile Blade is the husk left behind of Yingxing’s regrets, broken by trauma caused due to Yingxing’s past actions, forever tormented by his past until he inevitably is able to die. If Dan Heng is more than just Dan Feng which is why he is separate but intertwined with him, than Blade is less than Yingxing, in a way that has caused such a severe disconnect that has caused Blade to have his own identity still shaped. And looking at this, not to again bring up my craftsmanship post about Blade, Dan Heng can connect to Dan Feng. He can clear the fog, remembering his memories through dreams even if he can’t fully connect emotionally to him, and he finds sentiment in many of items that once were his, smth not many Vidyadhara actually are capable of doing. To contrast, Blade is forever separated from connecting completely to Yingxing’s identity. His memories will always be fragmented, his own path entirely changed. He can’t connect to Yingxing’s past goals and passions, seen through the distinct decision made in his character stories to talk about how he can no longer use his hands to forge weapons (something that completely defined Yingxing’s life and legacy, tied to his childhood trauma and hatred of the Abundance, something that became his genuine passion), and how none of that mattered to Blade.

All of this, the ways they foil each other and the separation between their past selves and current, just makes me love their dynamic and their lore a lot. Makes me want to cry most days of my life if I’m honest. And it’s part of why I do take issue with the way nuance has completely left this argument, only having two extremes of “Dan Heng is Dan Feng!” Or “Dan Heng isn’t Dan Heng!” Again… Dan Heng WAS Dan Feng, he wouldn’t be Dan Heng without Dan Feng, but he is still himself. That’s part of the tragedy between them. They are still fundamentally defined and shaped by their past selves, similarities able to be spotted if they can be remembered, but they’ve also experienced so much that has changed them, and they can never truly go back to being Dan Feng and Yingxing. It would never be fully the same again.

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

I think I need that "Wow, I haven't stubbed my toe in five months! I was then shot fifty-seven times." Audio again

[strawberryfaced]

thinking about what parent and child relationships are really about and I’m going to rant in the tags!

[toxooz]

i Need to take up embroidery now rIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[idk-i-want-mcl-content]

Me rn:

(not mine)

[haleigh-sloth]

I think I'm figuring out what is feeling so ominous about Blue Lock's current arc right now. I definitely feel like Blue Lock is going dark in the sense that everything happening is being televised and used for profit, the money-hungry dudes are talking in the background about god knows what, Kunigami is a test subject and we don't even really know what that means, and the kids all keep looking at social media and looking at the comments being made about them online, and their ranks are literally dependent upon the salaries being offered to them.

Everyone is all worried about the characters spiraling which, yes that's a thing that's happening. But the more I observe the details of these chapters the more I realize that lots of characters are feeling offput by their new environment that is monetizing their wins and losses and exposing them to the public's opinion of them as well.

On an interpersonal level I think the relationship Isagi and Rin have is the main conflict, Isagi's dynamic with Kaiser is something like a side show that drives the situation with Rin forward since they're similar in nature. On a big plot-level I think the issue that is stirring is something much larger scale having to do with the fact that these teenagers are slowly losing their self worth over salary offers and internet opinions.

Just overall as soon as the NEL arc started the SHIFT in the energy of the story changed so quickly. Isagi was immediately separated from everyone he found comfort in from his earlier days at Blue Lock, isolating and setting him up for a lonely environment on top of what was about to be an already stressful and competitive environment. We started seeing "tweets" and internet comments about the kids and the kids taking that to determine how valuable they are. And then the salary thing...fucking crazy.

It's giving the same energy as the hero rankings from my hero academia which, not good. The major difference is that in Blue Lock it'll likely be upheld as a bad thing lol.

Like these people were always lurking in the background but haven't really been that important, and I just breezed past this interaction several times because I wasn't interested when I came across it. But upon re-reading everything I'm seeing that yeah this is Not Good lol.

I think what feels so Ick (intentionally, I don't think this will go unaddressed) is that they've all been turned into products. And that's not a good thing.

[verifiablebot]

here are all of my favourite books that i own. just in case anyone wanted recs :)

[stewyhosseini-bf]

If you had to turn someone into a kenstewy truther with only one of their scenes, which one would you pick?

really good question.. first and most obvious answer I think would either be 'go to the bathroom have a little sth sth' combined with the whole bathroom scene or the friend card scene.

but this question had me thinking back to when it clicked for me that there is more to them, and weirdly the very first time I watched the show I did not really pick up on kenstewy for a while (even though I was already convinced ken was bi from ep 1 on, don't ask me how that works. but that's also why I think kenstewy isn't the strongest evidence for bi ken but I digress). Like I was raising my eyebrows at the friend card scene like okay what's all this then, but was telling myself I'm probably just reading too much into it .... but what actually did it for me was the josh aaronson / stewy hug with kendall watching from the plane window lmao. don't ask me why. but something about this

had me like. hold on a minute. even though the scene isn't even that loaded with subtext or anything, like of course Ken's defeated and devastated about losing Josh's vote, like whatever. but for some reason that's what did it for me and then I went back to their other scenes like. okay actually these bitches are gay and I was not reading too much into it lmao. so idk, if the first ones i mentioned don't work to convince that real or hypothetical person of kenstewy try this one!

[itspileofgoodthings]

tags continued from prev post.

[whattraintracks]

how many transformers iterations have u read/watched so far 👀

Hi hi! Not very many, and of them, I've only finished a couple. I'm mostly just having fun with whatever I come across.

Transformers: Prime - the only show I've seen all the way through

Transformers: Rescue Bots - I've seen season one a few times, and now I'm s l o w l y getting through the rest. Currently somewhere in season 2

Transformers: Rise of the Beasts - I watched about 3/4 of this film, plus I have some vague recollections of seeing one of the other live-action movies when I was younger

Transformers One - the only movie I've seen all the way through

The Transformers 1984 - so far, only the pilot miniseries and a couple random episodes

Transformers: Animated - I just finished season 1!!

More than Meets the Eye - just started reading this thanks to languajix!

[heymacy]

okay fINE i'll just say it!! i miss fandom!!

[supergraphicultramoderngirl]

aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[trickster-shi]

It has taken (checks watch) a…year and a half, but I finally had a breakthrough on the next Home Across the Universe one shot and kinda feel like shouting it from the rooftops. Like, I’ve been fighting this one shot for FOREVER it feels like and it did not want to be pinned down and written.

But I now have a solid outline for the next four scenes. There is joy and some angst and some cuteness and some self discovery that Derek has been avoiding.

And Kate. She’s there and she has an evil plan and I cannot wait to get in there and let her set it up because it will make her eventual defeat so very sweet.

But I’m still at work so I have to wait until I can settle in at home to actually do any of this. I know where the story is going, though, plus I have a title and summary, so I’ve made it through the hardest parts. Now I just gotta finish writing it.