#and it just makes sense like it clicked in my brain

[idk-i-want-mcl-content]

Me rn:

(not mine)

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[dolokhoded]

i'm supposed to be studying but i have a hot take which is that could we start again please should have been an ensemble number mostly led by mary and peter's verse should've been divided to him, john and james if not more of them

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

[varjopeura]

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[lucreziaces]

okay so i've finally figured out a way in which I could see rodrigo suggesting an incestuous polygamous marriage between his three favorite oldest children!! basically, it'd have to be an au where paolo never shows up in rome and juan never has him killed so all is well between juan and lucrezia. so, because juan hasn't done anything to warrant rodrigo's anger that means he's not made to pick a wife and sent off to spain when the french king makes his desire for revenge known. leaving rodrigo in a tough spot because now he knows juan to be incapable of leading the papal armies and they can't very well send him out there to negotiate terms with the french king when his little sister did that for him last time while he retreated. so, he decides there's only one path forward. offer cesare the chance to prove himself worthy of being the gonfaloniere over juan. and cesare would pull the same deception as in the show, chasing the french armies away from rome with fake canon. but instead of just ignoring this win, rodrigo decides to reward cesare. but to do that without causing such a great upset to his younger son, he decides he will have to marry lucrezia to juan. he runs the idea by vannozza first who tells him cesare will still find reason to envy juan. when he asks, "why is that?" she explains cesare's never been good at sharing her with their brother, not even as children. "you were often away on vatican business, so you don't remember but there were countless timesi caught him throwing pebbles at juan while he played with lucrezia. he does not understand the concept of sharing her, rodrigo." reluctantly, rodrigo would then decide that there was only one solution if he was to have peace between his children. marry all three of them to each other. though, this would still prove disastrous for him somehow in my mind as I can't imagine a scenario in which cesare gets to call lucrezia his wife, but has to share her still—with juan of all people—and it goes well? or maybe it would be fine because lucrezia would be too caught up in cesare to pay attention to juan, and therefore, cesare would never feel like he's sharing her even if on a technicality he is? plus, now he'd be busy planning the unity of italy. okay, yeah, idk it might be a reach, but maybe they could happily co-exist this way? I mean, it would more or less be the same situation the siblings are in, anyway, with the exception of cesare being in charge of the papal armies as he feels he should've been all along and ceslu is fucking/getting to be even more openly affectionate with each than they are in the show, erasing the shame element in cesare's mind probably. and juan being left out, still. except perhaps on the wedding night when lucrezia's made to make sure he's included in the consummation of the marriage (hello think I just found my threesome scenario.....will I ever write it, though, that's another story lol) and when cesare is away conquering italy in their father's name (which mind you would would often be weeks or even months....and all that time she would be horny and using juan for relief which would bother cesare, at first, until he realizes she enjoys laying with him more.)

[k-phoenix]

hello! i would love to hear the rant about PET scans :3

Holy shit so okay I'm in the train for the next 20 minutes, and I _know_ that's not enough time to get into all of it, but I could rant about this for hours, so. Maybe we cap this at 20 minutes. [20 minutes later] Okay so I wrote a huge wall of very boring text that barely started getting into it, so let me provide way less detail, actually:

It is massively expensive. A PET scanner costs a lot. And it's not a one time purchase, and then you can do scans, no, you wish. You also need some very expensive equipment to create radioactive tracers (which are what is used to do a PET scan) on site, because that stuff needs to be created fresh (under an hour) before every scan. To create the tracers is ALSO incredibly expensive. A single PET scan costs multiple thousands.

This also means that PET research makes use of as few participants as possible. A study with 15 participants is considered big. You simply cannot infer from 15 participants to the whole population. This also means that, statistically, it is highly likely that you don't find an effect even though it exists - meaning if your PET study looks for the effect of A on B, it is highly likely that it will find that A has no effect on B even though it does - simply because you didn't have enough participants (if this explanation doesn't make sense, let me know, and I can explain in detail)

This, together means, that an absolutely absurd amount of money is used for research that, by design, will not find results, because to find results, they would need more participants and even more money.

Because scientific publishing is a shitshow at the moment, research that doesn't find results very rarely gets published, especially not if you can't even be sure whether the result is right. So absurd amounts of money put into research that doesn't even get published.

And I haven't even talked about the results they did find and issues with them. Don't ask me to explain those. Don't tempt me to put hours into writing a multiple page essay that nobody will read.

So, in conclusion: PET is an absolutely amazing feat of engineering that is magnificent in detecting cancer and with it we could learn so. Much. More about the brain and how it works. But to do that, a lot of the basic organisation of how we do science would first need to change. Many labs would have to collaborate and be okay with making the collected data openly available, so appropriate sample sizes (=numbers of participants in a study) can even be achieved (Here's a paper on that). That probably won't happen, though.

Now, obligatory note: one of the professors who taught me about PET is a man who wrote an extremely controversial paper about exactly this stuff, despite also using PET in his research. If you like niche drama in science, look into this paper and all the articles that are responding to it.

[undertale-fic-librarby]

I love being called a librarian.

[canisvesperus]

Math can be so fascinating and mysterious and FUN if you have the right professor to inspire those feelings. It really shouldn’t be a chore. Math is as amazing as linguistics, if not more so.

[paradife-loft]

istg every time I'm trying to wrap my head around legal rules and restrictions based on the concept of "(rights to) private property ownership of land", I feel like the stupidest person alive

[velaraffricate]

i'm not sure if malakawi truly counts as polysynthetic, i don't think i can be the judge of that, but it is certainly far up on that side of the morphosyntactic alignment spectrum, and it basically kind of happened on accident. at first i just wanted polypersonal agreement, then i played around with noun incorporation, and suddenly i'm at the point where an 11 word english sentence can be expressed with only 4 words in malakawi

[takami-takami]

I literally NEED to write Hawks comfort to channel my emotions like I HAVE to but I cannot. I can't, like. You know.

[hegrowth]

me, just now realizing kaey stims with his hair:

[rainerghost]

Google didn't give me any answers to my question (womp womp) sooo...

Question.

What's it called when you start thinking a sentence but then you have to start over because you didn't "think it right"?

[swiggity-swexual-i-am-asexual]

despite many years in many art classes and having it explained to me several times by several people, I still just don’t ‘get’ colors. if I wanna use them I either got have a palette made for me, have just memorized what looks nice together, or just hope for the best as I pick out the colors. I am insanely jealous of people who just. understand them. y’all are wizards.

[merkerlerspeaks]

Sometimes I can almost feel my brain actively Healing and its just so nice