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gottarunfromthelaw · 4 months ago

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Not to sound like a sore loser but I feel art doesn’t always need to improve or have steady permanent growth. Especially if you are a hobbyist and have no desire to pursue it professionally. It can be more satisfying to constantly be improving but. To be fair. Sometimes you are at a level where you are fine where you at. You have the skills to draw what you want. And sometimes there’s no more drive than that. Or sometimes a lack of growth is because you don’t have time to put love into your hobby because you gotta pay bills. Or hell even disability’s both physical and mental can be a huge road block to get growth that some would say is required with the amount of time you put in it. Anyways yeah. Sorry.

#this is more for myself and the constant guilt I feel #but also my hands hurt all the time. my body will hurt all the time.#and if I constantly choose to draw instead of putting effort into my social life I would kill myself #like. emotionally I would not be well #anyways.#I keep seeing stuff and with my personal art journey I feel I’m actually doing worse than I was as a teenager #I think I have actually declined in quality. my sketches and anatomy may be better but I can’t do more than a sketch #and the time to actually finish a peice is way more than as a teen finishing a peice #a part of this. was because my health problems weren’t as bad and also I had no job #but now. it’s. no good.#and I keep seeing posts and discourse going ‘omg the person hasn’t improved in years lolll’ and that just. makes me feel ínstense guilt #which is shouldn’t!! art isn’t my job. I don’t need to worry about it.#but also it does bother me my art is stagnant #And also o haven’t really done more than like three finished peices a year Vs when I was in highschool trying to get into art school. I had-#-done over 100 finished pieces in like two years and some of it was way better than the stuff I do now #the thing vents #sowwy I have guilt and issues with this

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vilea777 · 8 months ago

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sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

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worthless-mess · 1 year ago

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

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doom-dreaming · 7 months ago

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"when i was your age, i was working three jobs to help support my family" and "when i was in college i was sleeping on a mattress on the floor and living off of soup"

YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO DO THAT. NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO DO THAT. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN TO YOU THAT THIS ISN'T A CHARACTER-BUILDING LESSON, IT'S JUST BAD

#have you maybe considered even once that an 8-5 job is not the natural human state #'i never had a job with so much leisure time'#YOU NEVER WORKED A SHIFT JOB #EVEN WHEN YOU WERE SCRAPING BY IN COLLEGE #I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU THINGS HAVE GOTTEN EVEN WORSE SINCE YOU WERE MY AGE #screams forever and ever #sorry this is literally just incoherent venting

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commonzinnia · 4 months ago

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i wish i could feel emotions the normal amount

#bpd thoughts #borderline problems #bpd feels #bpd #bpd safe #borderline thoughts #borderline personality disorder #borderline things #bpd vent #bpd problems #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd mood #cluster b

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nozomi-kaizoku · 2 months ago

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aliendietcoke · 2 months ago

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for my girlies who struggle with binging

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professionallyunstable · 12 days ago

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the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere

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wowlookwhosspirallingagain · 5 months ago

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i don’t want to live like this. i only exist at this point. all i do is distract my mind so i don’t kill myself

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gottarunfromthelaw · 3 months ago

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Small thing that doesn’t matter but it feels weird that Levi and Marina get treated like children. I mean they are 18 so of course of the the older characters in the game sometimes won’t take them seriously (Dann not giving Marina a drink even though she is of legal age.) but then Samarie who is a similar age as them doesn’t really get this treatment? Their ages are also an excuse to woobify Levi which feels weird. Because he is one of the few characters that have actually killed people before the game starts. Is it because he was a soldier who had his teenage hood stolen from him because of the war? But I doubt a heroin addict would enjoy being coddled. I don’t think treating everyone in game who is younger as a child helps their character much. Small thing bothering me sorry

#this is incoherent #but also I have feelings. and the feeling is I don’t think the characters would like being treated as children.#like they are all young and maybe not mature. as the rest of the cast. although we don’t any indication of that from the game.#it just feels like the fandom doesn’t consider what their actually characters and story are about and how the characters actually are #but it’s fine there’s so many characters and you have to work to get characterization and interactions.#still. idk.#the thing vents #actually you know what post this fucka you

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vilea777 · 8 months ago

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sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine