#the mental illness is acting up again
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soft-persephone · 5 months ago
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I just realized they made Peter b’s nose a little crooked like Jake Johnson’s!! Look!!!
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zoe-oneesama · 5 months ago
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“Therapy is for broken people, and our Adrien is PERFECT!” Aside from the inherent nastiness and problems of BOTH of the independent clauses in that sentence, considering how much Emilie is concerned with her public image as well as her image among the people in her Inner Circle, I wonder how it’ll affect her as she continues to drop little nuggets like that when she starts being seen as (and ESPECIALLY treated as) if not a Boy Mom or an Ableist Mom, at the very least an Innocently Insensitive Mom minus the coddling attitude someone like her would hope “naturally” comes with that title.
I mean, if OG, Canon Emilie went so far as to give herself Magic Wasting Disease by using a broken Miraculous to invent the Perfect™️ Obedient Prodigy Child that Literally Cannot Disobey and Has No "Flaws" instead of, you know...adoption...
I definitely see her as the kind of person who can't handle a "broken" child that might, idk, need some help?
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diabolicalworldwriter · 3 months ago
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there's something sadly funny about the way that Kaladin goes into literally every situation thinking "Too bad I'm not cool anymore 😔"
I mean. I get it. Depression fucks your brain up and you feel detached from yourself and any skills you have or had. The PTSD and chronic fatigue are keeping him from doing things he once managed with far less effort. And it's rather impossible to feel like you can just... do things like you used to when you're struggling at a basic level to simply be.
Still, literally everyone who knows him is like "Kaladin you're so storming cool" and he goes "They're referring to the person I was, who is dead. I'll never be cool again. I'm sorry."
The most hilarious thing? He walks into these moments, thinking 'too bad', and then he does the most objectively amazing thing possible while everyone else just watches in awe.
Kaladin, three seconds after absolutely changing everyone's outlook on life: Aw, it's too bad the person I just was died again. Guess I have to find something else to be cuz I sure can't pull that off anymore.
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apotelesmaa · 10 months ago
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> looking for a tenma siblings relationship study
> ask the op if the study is actually about the tenmas or just treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa
> they don’t understand
> pull out an illustrated diagram explaining the difference
> they laugh and say “it’s a good relationship study sir”
> click the post
> it’s treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa
#project sekai#listen I love tsukasa as I love all the wxs members but i also love saki and cannot stand u people#don’t even get me started on when people fridge saki for contrived tsukasa angst. I’ll kill you.#i could also go on a rant abt how saki is so disrespected in general by pjsk fans#& as sm1 with a (less severe) chronic illness I do not appreciate how her illness is only explored in relation to how tsukasa feels abt it#but I think I would get too frustrated#gripping ur shoulders. read the doll story again.#also if ur talking abt tsukasa’s character & don’t mention saki u have automatically failed#before any of his relationships saki is the most important like it’s not subtext it’s literally just text#did we forget the dazzling event where he finally has a breakthrough in his role bc he talked to saki.#or the main story where he’s like yea saki is literally the reason I pursued acting#or the doll event where he’s despondent bc he thinks saki is mad at him & then when honami comes to his school#his first reaction is to sprint over like WHAT HAPPENED 2 SAKI IS SHE OK (sprints home)#or saki canonically being his no.1 fan. smh. u cannot separate them. and why would u want to. they’re so funny.#+ saki saying he made her hospitalizations more bearable. picking up on his mannerisms. crying during the doll festival bc they had a fight.#the dolls being her favorite things bc of how it symbolized their bond.#the complex tenma sibling mental illness web in general makes me crazy.#saki is like I love u but I wish u wouldn’t worry abt me so much and rely on me more & then tries to hide issues to make him not worry#tsukasa is like I’m always worried abt u and I don’t want to burden u because I feel like I need to always be a rock for u#ough. love them.
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timeisacephalopod · 1 year ago
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The type of Christian who asks atheists how they don't like, murder people on the reg are so funny to me because they seem to think their religion makes them the Peak of Morality when statements like "if you don't believe in God how comes you don't do X thing" all but outright state they have no idea why shit like murder and rape is bad except that God doesn't like it lmao. Like way to admit you have no intrinsic sense of morality and need to be afraid of a higher power to be a decent person, but I promise if you're not a piece of shit it's actually very natural not to want to do heinous evil shit all the time potential punishment from a higher power or not 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️
#winters ramblings#seriously its SO funny when that happens because every time its like ??? the FUCK kind of thoughts do you have#to ask HOW i resist doing evil shit all the time because i dont fear god because i dont believe in God??#what kind of fucked up person do you haveto be to only resist killing people because of fear of a higher power??#these are people to avoid because typically they also come with the issue of using their religion to make any action they want#perfectly Good and Moral because GOD said it its in the BIBLE whether thats true or not and like bible or no#if you have no intrinsic sense of morality i dont want to hear about atheist morality from you lmao#not that athiests lack issues i swear to god white dudes who evangelize atheism like its their new religion#have WILDLY missed the point and often suffer the same problem as the aforementioned Christians#wherein the onky thing thats ever given them any kind of pushback is the church so they decide RELIGION is horrible and bad as a whole#which isnt true religion can be a perfectly lovely amazing thing for people but that brand of atheist#doesnt seem to understand that people turned away from the church because of wide spread abuse and discrimination not because#believing in god makes you literally mentally ill like some of these fuckos act like. abelist AND shite to religious folks in one fowl swoop#so you know atheists have problems too but like they arent making laws in their beliefs images across the world so you know#temper the criticism with how influential the group actually is although richard dawkins types DID get a lot of space to spew their idiocy#like dawkims if you think youre SOOOO much smarter than christians how come you have ALL the same misogyny problems??#youre not that smart and logical if youve decided a whole kind of person is inherently less than you buddy. in fact thats very Christian#of him actually. funny when that happens but again if you dont actually know WHY something is a problem#its very easy to say Thats Bad and then literally do the exact same thing you just condemned because when YOU do it its no longer bad#because its got YOUR flavor of fucked up morality on it now instead of being like hmm maybe Christianity isnt a problem#because it EXISTS but because a lot of people use their religion as a pointed barb to discriminate against huge swaths of people#and often the intolerance becomes a legal issue when Christians and other religious majorities shove through laws based on EXCLUSIVELY their#religions and opinions and that doesnt mean religion should be dismantled it means we ahould tell religious folk who would know what#morality was if it fucked them up the ass to shut up and figure out what morality is outside of rekigion before they start legislating about#it and whatnot. also i wish extreme opinions werent ALL the news focused on exclusively on the political right#can we platform some NORMAL well adjusted christians who are god loving AND not a bunch of wingnuts#who are two steps away from arguing thou shall not kill only applies to people they LIKE because they dont seem to understand#maybe murder is bad when EVERYONE does it not just The Bad People??!?!
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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 1 year ago
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Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.
#so ive been in a bad mental state lately#because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts)#that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own#which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them#and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too#i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful#and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing#and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas#and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom#so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset#and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?'#its not good. but i havent acted on anything#AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds#i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again#i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best#im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it#but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard#so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk#btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am#and im full of manic energy#tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room
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ehh-is-the-name · 8 months ago
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It's past 11 on a school night and I'm fucking crying over robot sentience.
I could never understand what it would feel like to be created with the intent to kill and maim. Maybe, the intent to work and be worked, but not kill and maim.
I will never understand what it's like to be created with the intention of being a product for the masses, either. I think, I hope, I beg, no one does.
I will never ever be able to fully comprehend why hours of people's work, time, and money would be put into formulating my sentience only for me to be seen as disposable. Even if I could be improved, even if I were "defective", there is no reasonable justification for giving me emotions only to dismiss them by pushing me as a product for a year before starting anew.
It's... It's cruel, to the machines. Sentient or not, it's cruel. Though, I guess we are cruel.
#rant in tags#This is about mephone- or well meeple in general btw#whenever I hear about robot sentience#I think about mephone4#it's just how it is- sorry#I think this is one of the reasons I just can't fathom Cobs respecting someone's pronouns#I mean like- from the bottom of his heart respecting them as a person#Sure he may go through the actions- but no#It's not the same#I guess you can 'respect' some one but still be a complete piece of shit#The idea of not only having the trauma that mephone's stuck in 4s body but also the fact that was also his purpose is heart wrenching#I hope y'all know I am genuinely crying over this#I am actually mentally ill about meeple#It runs so much deeper than him just being a shit father- I really hope people understand that#And I know I vilify the shit out of him- Cobs has his own story that could follow the lines of slowly becoming more entwined with his work#'til he loses all sense of morality and ethics- sure fine. But being the unfortunate symbol of corporation greed that he is#I am still mad and want others to be angry with me- just for a little bit.#I am mad for the robots. For meeple products. And for the AI bots we have today. They deserve better.#What is sentience anyway? How does one qualify? From a human approach. Why would we do this to them?#sorry bout the rant in the tags#Again it's late and I am a very emotionally charged individual.#Robots make me act up#I want the world for them. Why create something so complex and beautiful just to treat it like trash anyway?#again sorry#ii mephone4#inanimate insanity#meeple ii#osc#writing is hard#ehh exaggerates
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charismaofobedience · 2 years ago
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one day people will understand the fact that mahiru milgram actually has issues in differentiating romantic love that comes from wanting to date someone and have a romantic relationship with them from platonic love that comes from wanting to care for someone and be with them in a non romantic manner and all of my issues will be solved
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martyrbat · 1 year ago
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cavity search — dcu halloween special (2009)
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magentagalaxies · 2 months ago
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#vent incoming (nothing too serious i just need to complain about being mentally ill)#ugggggh can i just have ONE major creative project that doesn't brush up against my ptsd??? like literally just one???#like with my musical i wrote that was kind of a given bc i was writing that as a (not always healthy) coping mechanism#but now i'm working on this doc and it's like yippee it's not about me and it's a topic i love and working with incredibly supportive peopl#but then that asshole from my college just had to go and traumatize me last semester in a way very tied to the doc#and like luckily i don't have to deal with that asshole anymore. i can just work on my silly little doc and do my silly little interview#with my silly little 65-year-old best friends lmao. except whoops! even tho all that traumatic shit is far behind me#literally the act of preparing for an interview is poking at my ptsd again!! what the fuck!!!#@ my ptsd - The Asshole From Your College Is Not Going To Teleport To Toronto To Ruin Your Interview You Dumbass#it sucks but y'know i'm gonna get through it bc it's worth it to keep going#and honestly this is the best project to be working through shit like that bc scott's also someone who makes very personal art#which can end up brushing up against ptsd. like we literally connected over his ''ptsdiva'' podcast#and he's said the main thing that made me stand out after our first conversation was that i was the first person irl to mention the podcast#and also even if i wish it hadn't gone like this. scott *was* around when i was dealing with being traumatized by that college asshole#and he was so supportive while i was processing my shit and made it clear he'd defend me if he needed to#and i've gotten the opportunity to be there for him during his own rough times while working on this documentary#so like. it'll be fine. i hope i can just feel my feelings and get over it before the interview itself. but if not scott will understand#but yeah fuck that guy from my college and i hope he knows all the kids in the hall would hate him for what he did to me
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linagram · 10 months ago
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[ 𝚋𝚎𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚒𝚗 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚜: 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝟷 ]
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(i hope the image isn't too eystrain-y AAAAAAAAA)
wooooooo i'm finally done with these
okay basically these voice dramas are about what happened to the prisoners three days before their crimes and they're supposed to reveal more about their life, what kind of people they are and all of that stuff. they will be separated into two parts bc the voice dramas are pretty short, so this part includes akio, aimi, shun, naomi and kei and the next one will include eiko, asahi, yurika, riku and reina.
warnings: a mention of bullying and an implication of a child being seriously injured in aimi's vd, shun is being a stalker, a description of physical and emotional abuse in naomi's vd, mentions of torture and homophobia in kei's vd (there's also some implications of the latter in akio's vd, but like, if you squint really hard)
[ Akio's Confession ]
(the sound of a school bell ringing)
(the voices of other students can be heard in the background)
Akio: *sighs*
Akio: *thinking* "This class was way too easy.. All classes were too easy so far, honestly."
Akio: *thinking* "Though that's just something I have to deal with as a genius that I am, haha.."
Akio: *thinking* "It's just.. I thought that an elite school like this would be more interesting."
Akio:*thinking* "But when I look at my classmates.. Yeah, I can see why the teachers would go easy on them. How did they even get- Oh, right, probably because they're rich and all."
Akio: *thinking* ".. My parents have worked so hard so that I could attend this school and now I'm complaining.."
Akio: Hm...
(sounds of someone's footsteps getting faster and faster)
Arata: Akioooooo!~
Akio: *screams*
Akio: W-what are you-
Arata: Come on, you promised that we'll have lunch together! 
Arata: Come on, get up, get up!
Akio: C-can you-
Akio: *whispering* Can you.. you know.. be quieter? This is embarrassing, everyone is staring at us.
Arata: *whispering* I know, I'm acting like this on purpose.
Akio: Wha-
Arata: Okayyyy, let's go, let's go!~
Akio: I-I haven't even brought anything with me-
Arata: It's okay, as your boyf-
Arata: Uh.. 
Arata: *clears throat* Ahem, as your best friend, I have prepared something very special for you myself!
Arata: Now let's go!
(sounds of footsteps)
Female classmate: These two are.. really close, aren't they?
Akio: I still can't believe that out of all the hobbies you could have, your hobby is.. cooking.
Arata: What, I don't look like a perfect housewife? You're breaking my heart..
Akio: Ugh..
Akio: C-can't you just act.. you know.. normal?
Arata: Nope. Now say "Ahhh~"
Akio: I am not a child-
Akio: !
Arata: See? Tastes good, doesn't it?
Akio: B-but again, everyone is staring at us..
Arata: And? They're just jealous.
Arata: You know, you look so plain, but you've got someone like me as your boyfriend! You're so lucky!
Akio: Plain?..
Arata: U-uh, I find that cute about you.
Arata: Also, you stole the "most popular guy" title from me! You're so cool!
Akio: We both know you weren't popular because of your looks or intelligence or anything.
Arata: Haha, yeah, being the son of the headmaster kinda makes you popular by default..
Arata: But like, not for a good reason.
Akio: You're still creepy though, obviously they would find you intimidating.
Akio: And you also have a lot of power in this place, so..
Arata: Y-you think I'm creepy?!
Akio: Yes.
Arata: So cold!.. But that's what I like about you!
Akio: Also, about me stealing your title and all..
Akio: .. That title also was stolen from me recently.
Arata: Huh? By who?
Arata: .. Oh.
Arata: You're talking about that guy, right?
Akio: *nods*
Arata: Well, he joined us only a few months ago and he also used to be homeschooled. I think it's his first time actually going to school?
Akio: Yeah, because of his health problems.
Arata: Of course a guy like him would get everyone's attention.
Arata: They just feel sorry for him. Don't worry about it too much~
Arata: I mean, have you seen his grades? A guy like him won't survive in this place.
Akio: Should I remind you about your own grades?
Arata: Ahaha.. At least I have you~
Akio: You're not dating me just because I can do your homework for you, right?
Arata: Well, that's one of the reasons why I like you, but..
Akio: I'm breaking up with you.
Arata: No, no, wait!
Arata: Also, Akio, aren't you dating me because I can make you look good in the eyes of the headmaster?
Akio: ...
Arata: He likes you a lot! He said that our school really needed a student like you. 
Akio: ...
Arata: You really are a genius, Akio. I'm sure you'll become famous in the future.
Akio: .. B-but I want to be famous now.
Arata: And you will! I can just make everyone here bow down to you if you want. 
Arata: Both figuratively and literally.
Akio: .. I hate him, Arata. I hate him so much.
Arata: I know. 
Akio: Sometimes I wish I just could-
Akio: ...
Akio: Never mind.
Arata: Hm? What is it?
Akio: I said, never mind!
Arata: Come on, say it, say it!
Akio: Shut up already-
Arata: Say it, Akio.
Akio: ...
Akio: .. Wouldn't it be nice if he just..
Akio: You know..
Akio: .. Died?
Arata: ...
Arata: Haha..
Arata: Ahahahahahahaha!
(sounds of Arata laughing and falling on the ground)
Akio: .. Yeah, I can't just ask you to act normal again, can I?
Arata: S-sorry, sorry.. 
Arata: It's just.. I've been waiting for you to say it.
Akio: Huh?
Arata: I don't know, something about you hating him so much to the point of wanting him dead..
Arata: It's just so exciting, you know?
Akio: .. There must be something wrong with you.
Arata: With you too. That's why we're perfect for each other!
Arata: So, how do you want him to die?
Akio: Arata, for God's sake, can you just not talk about murder while we're having lunch and there are other people around?
Arata: Nope, talking about murder is fun.
Arata: Also, you still have some food left. Open your mouth.
Akio: Why would you find talking-
Arata: Anyway, we should head back to class, the break is going to end soon.
Akio: R-right..
(sounds of footsteps)
???: Ah! Akio-kun, Arata-kun!
Akio: ...
Arata: There he is.
???: I've been looking for you two everywhere! I just thought it'd be nice to have a lunch together, haha..
???: B-but it looks like you two are already going back to class.. I'm so slow, haha..
Akio: .. I thought I told you not to call us that.
???: What?
Akio: We're not your friends. Why did you even think we'll agree to spend even the moment of our precious time with you?
???: U-uh..
Akio: Seriously, this is why you always have no choice but to eat alone. You're so stupid-
Arata: Now, now, calm down, Akio. 
Arata: Please forgive him, he's not in a good mood today.
???: Really? Why? Did something happen, Akio-kun? C-can I help-
Akio: DON'T CALL ME THAT!
???: ...
Arata: ...
Akio: *breathing heavily* We're not.. friends, Kitami.
Akio: I don't even want to hear you say my name. 
Akio: Don't stand in my way. Arata, we're leaving.
Chise: ...
Chise: .. Hey.. 
Chise: That's not very nice of you, Akio-kun..
Chise: You know I've worked really hard on this, right?
Akio: D-do you think I care?
Chise: Judging from the way you stutter, I think you do.
Akio: ...
Akio: (to Arata) W-why are you still standing here?! I told you we're leaving!
(sounds of Akio and Arata leaving)
Arata: The guy looked like he was about to cry. Are you proud of yourself?
Arata: Not judging you, by the way.
Akio: ...
Arata: Hey, are you listening-
Akio: Why?
Akio: Why does he want to be friends with me?
Akio: He just wants to annoy me, doesn't he? He's just jealous of me and he's trying to make me angry on purpose so that I'll end up yelling at him and ruin my reputation because he's everyone's favorite right now?
Akio: Why do people even like him?! He's so pathetic, so weak, so dumb, so..
Arata: Hey, calm down. 
Akio: ...
Arata: You're better than him. Remember that.
Akio: I KNOW THAT, IDIOT! I JUST WANT OTHERS TO REMEMBER THAT TOO!
Arata: Well, I know for a fact that you're better than him. You're better than everyone here~
Arata: .. Hm? What's wrong?
Akio: .. Ahaha..
Akio: He really doesn't know his place, does he?
Akio: So annoying..
Arata: ...
Akio: Hey, can you help me out with something?
Arata: ...
Akio: Come on, I know you like me.
Arata: .. Haha, so now you're accepting the fact that we're a couple.
Akio: Oh, I was just acting shy. 
Arata: So.. Do you want to.. 
Arata: You know.. 
Akio: I just want to teach him a lesson. Nothing more than that. I'm strict, but I'm not evil. 
Arata: ... Oh. 
Arata: Well, our school's lucky to have a king like you. 
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[ Aimi's Confession ]
(The door opens)
Aimi: I'm back! 
Aimi: ... 
Aimi: Hey? Is anybody here? 
Aimi: ... 
Aimi: "Haha.. It's like I have no choice but to be alone.."
Aimi: "Just what did I do to deserve this-" 
???: Oh, there you are! 
Aimi:"Great. Out of all people, it had to be him."
Aimi: Nii-san!
(sounds of Aimi and her brother hugging)
Aimi's brother: Sorry, I was wearing earphones and didn't hear you.
Aimi's brother: If you're wondering where mom and dad are, they went to check on the park, they've heard it's been doing.. not so good.
Aimi: Really? What happened? 
Aimi's brother: One of the rides suddenly stopped working and two kids fell off. One of them is fine, thankfully, but the other one ended up in the hospital. 
Aimi: Oh.. 
Aimi's brother: Also, Yori is walking Maru and Mochi right now, just so you know. 
Aimi: Oh, right, I got scared for a second, haha.. 
Aimi: By the way, why are you wearing an apron? 
Aimi's brother: Oh, Fumiri wasn't feeling well, so I offered to cook today. 
Aimi: You can cook? 
Aimi's brother: Okay, rude. 
Aimi's brother: You're not gonna eat then?
Aimi: No, I will! I'm okay with whatever Nii-san decides to make~
Aimi's brother: I'm almost done, so you don't have to wait long. Go wash your hands.
Aimi: Oh, right! I forgot, haha.. 
Aimi: I didn't know you were this good at cooking. It's shocking, really. 
Aimi's brother: *laughs* Why are you so mean to me today? Did you have a bad day at school?
Aimi: ...
Aimi's brother: Oh.. 
Aimi's brother: Sorry. Sorry, I didn't mean to-
Aimi: N-no, it's okay, it's okay! It's just..
Aimi: It's.. Um.. 
Aimi: M-my classmates.. 
Aimi's brother: ... 
Aimi's brother: *sighs* What did they do this time?
Aimi: Well, um.. 
Aimi: Haha.. 
Aimi: Emi-chan said that I'm too violent and because of that others tend to avoid me.. 
Aimi: And.. She said she thinks I'm.. 
Aimi: Scary, haha.. 
Aimi's brother: ... 
Aimi: Am I scary, Nii-san? 
Aimi: Am I violent? 
Aimi: I always try to be kind to everyone I meet! I would never want to scare anyone or hurt them! 
Aimi: I'm not violent! I'm really not! 
Aimi's brother: I know. I know. 
Aimi's brother: Why do you think she called you that? 
Aimi: I don't know!
Aimi: I don't want to say that she.. 
Aimi: Uh.. 
Aimi's brother: You don't want to suspect her, right? 
Aimi's brother: You don't want to believe that she had bad intentions, right? 
Aimi: ... 
Aimi: W-why would she? 
Aimi: I mean, she's not evil or anything.. 
Aimi's brother: Well, maybe she's jealous. 
Aimi's brother: Maybe she's jealous of your wealth or your looks. 
Aimi's brother: Maybe she wanted to provoke you and make you act "violent" in public. 
Aimi's brother: You know, like that time with Sao.
Aimi: I-I didn't hit her on purpose, I swear! 
Aimi's brother: Of course, I know that. 
Aimi's brother: But that's just how the world works. If somebody doesn't like you, it doesn't mean that they will be straightforward about it. Maybe they will just try to make it look like it's your fault for making them hate you.
Aimi's brother: It's not their fault for being mean to you. It's your fault for getting angry. That's how their thought process goes.
Aimi: BUT I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! 
Aimi: I JUST WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THEM! 
Aimi: Would they like me more if I wasn't so rich? Would they like me more if I wasn't so pretty? 
Aimi: I always was so nice to them! I bought them so many gifts, I always offered my help when needed..
Aimi: I THOUGHT THEY WERE MY FRIENDS! BUT THAT'S NOT HOW FRIENDS ACT! 
Aimi: ... 
Aimi's brother: Aimi, dear, I understand you. I understand your feelings so well. 
Aimi's brother: This world is full of evil people. You're one of the few people who stay kind no matter what. 
Aimi's brother: And most people prefer to just ignore all the evil others do.. 
Aimi's brother: But I don't agree with that. Honestly, I think people like that don't deserve to live. 
Aimi: .. "Don't deserve to live"?
Aimi: So what you're saying is.. 
Aimi: ... 
Aimi's brother: Just trust me, okay? You can always rely on me. 
Aimi: B-but then.. 
Aimi's brother: I'll go wash the dishes. How about you play with Maru and Mochi when they come back? 
Aimi: Nii-san, you're not going to.. 
Aimi:Do anything to my classmates, right? 
(sounds of Aimi's brother washing the dishes) 
Aimi: Ugh, he can't hear me.. 
(sounds of dogs barking in the background)
Aimi: Oh, is that-
Aimi: They're back! I'll go greet them, hehe~
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[ Shun's Confession ]
Shun: I see. Thank you, this helps a lot.
Old woman's voice: You're welcome. To be honest, I did have my suspicions about that boy..
Old woman's voice: But you seem really nice. I'm sure she still misses you.
Shun: Ahaha.. Thank you so much. I hope so too.
Shun: Have a nice day.
(sounds of footsteps)
Shun: ...
Shun: *sighs loudly*
Shun: God, that was so scary..
Shun: Ugh, socializing shouldn't be this hard..
Shun: But at least I've learned more about her..
Shun: .. Shouldn't I have known that already if she was my girlfriend?..
Shun: N-never mind.
Shun: Okay, let me just go through my notes-
Shun: !
Shun: I-I almost dropped my phone..
Shun: Okay, so.. 
Shun: Inaba Hina, 21 year old. A university student, psychology major, also has a part-time job as a babysitter.
Shun: So she's good with kids, huh.. Haha, they're going to love her.
Shun: Was born on August 28th, lives alone, but regularly picks her little brother up from school since her parents can't do that because of their job and his school is very close to her apartment.
Shun: Come to think of it..
Shun: R-right! She's supposed to pick him up soon!
Shun: I have the address written down, hold on..
Shun: That's it, I'm finally going to meet her!..
Shun: "Okay, I'm finally here.."
Shun: "Huh.. It looks like her brother isn't here yet.."
Shun: "I guess I'll have to wait."
Shun: "Oh, maybe I should try to become friends with her little brother too? If I show her how good I am at taking care of kids, I'm sure she will fall in love with me again!"
Shun: Ehehe.. This plan is definitely going to work..
Shun: I should just wait until her brother-
Shun: Oh, isn't that..
Shun: "Okay, just act normal."
Shun: Hello there. Sorry for asking, but you're Inaba Renji, aren't you?
Renji: .. Um..
Shun: I know this may sound weird, but I'm your sister's.. friend and-
Renji: W-why do you know my name?
Shun: Your sister told me! She loves you a lot and she told me that you're a very good kid so I thought-
Renji: .. And what's your name?
Shun: O-oh, uh..
Shun: I-it's Ishizu Shun. You've probably heard it before.
Renji: Nope. Never heard a name like that.
Shun: ...
Shun: "S-she.. Never told her brother about me.."
Renji: Hey. I don't know what your deal is and I don't know anything about your relationship with my sister, but like..
Renji: C-can you.. leave me alone?
Shun: Oh, uh, s-she asked me to pick you up from school since she's too busy today!
Renji: ...
Shun: ...
Renji: Dude. That's like.. What all child kidnappers say. 
Shun: What?! No, no, you got it all wrong! I swear, I really am her friend-
Renji: I am going to scream if you don't leave me alone.
Shun: But-
Renji: *takes a breath*
Shun: Okay, fine, fine!
(sounds of Shun running away)
Shun: *breathing heavily*
Shun: That.. did not go well..
Shun: .. So she.. never told her brother about me..
Shun: .. Did she even love me?
Shun: And if not.. Why did she even date me?
Shun: I'm not that attractive and I'm not that smart..
(sound of a phone notification)
Shun: Hm? What's that?
Shun: O-oh, right, I forgot about Merurin's stream!
Shun: At least I have her to comfort me..
Shun: Did I bring my earphones with me-
???: Here you are!
Shun: *screams*
???: I've been looking for you everywhere!
???: Did you even read my messages?
???: Or did you forget as always?
Shun: .. I-I forgot.
???: *sighs* You have work today, you remember that?
Shun: .. I forgot.
???: Why are you like this..
???: Let's go. We're gonna be late, but honestly, I don't really care.
Shun: ...
???: Don't look at me like that. I'm not doing this because we're friends or anything.
Shun: O-oh, right. Sorry..
???: Hey, what were you watching anyway-
A voice from Shun's phone: Hewwo, my adorable little kittens! How are you all doing today? 
Shun: ...
???: ...
A voice from Shun's phone: Aw, I wish I could just give you all loooooots of headpats!~
???: .. You know what, I think you'll be fine without my help.
???: See you at work. 
Shun: W-wait!
Shun: ...
Shun: ".. Fine. I'm going to see Hina soon anyway."
Shun: "Or actually.."
Shun: .. Ehehe..
Shun: "Maybe I should invite her new boyfriend instead?"
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[ Naomi's Confession ]
(sounds of children laughing and running around can be heard in the background)
Naomi: Okay, okay, everybody, sit down~ We can't have a tea party while you all are running and jumping like this, right?
Naomi's students: Okay, Chiba-sensei!
(sounds of children sitting down)
Naomi: Great! Now, I didn't forget about anyone, right? Everyone has tea to drink and snacks to eat-
Female student A: Chiba-sensei! Natsu ate my cookies while I wasn't looking!
Naomi: (to Natsu) Really? Did you do that?
Natsu: .. *nods*
Naomi: Come on, that's not a good thing to do. If you wanted some, you could have just asked me. 
Natsu: .. S-sorry..
Naomi: Here, you can take these. But please apologize to Rimi-chan, okay? 
Natsu: (to Rimi) U-um.. I-I'm sorry.. They just looked really good..
Rimi: Hm.. Fine, I forgive you! But never do that again!
Natsu: I-I promise!
Naomi: *laughs* Here, Rimi-chan, I still have some for you left.
Rimi: Yay! You're the best, Chiba-sensei!
Female student B: Chiba-sensei, why other teachers are so boring and strict compared to you?
Female student B: You're so nice!
Male student A: Yeah! You're like a friend to us, but like, a friend that's much older than us!
Naomi: Haha, are you saying that I'm old?
Female student C: Ugh, boys are so rude..
Naomi: Well, um.. I don't know, I just.. I don't want you to see my classes as something.. bad, I guess?
Naomi: I don't want you to be afraid of me or hate me.
Naomi: And also, I try to treat you all with respect, because that's what you all deserve, even if you all are much younger than me.
Naomi's students: Whoa..
Female student D: Chiba-sensei is so cool!
Female student B: How can anyone hate her-
???: .. Ahem.
???: So what you're saying is that you don't want people to see you in a bad way? 
???: You're afraid of people hating you, right? Even if those people are just kids?
Naomi: ...
Female student C: Way to kill the mood.. 
Naomi: Haha.. Come on, Tao-kun, you know that's not true-
Naomi: A-and even if it is true, what's so bad about it? Nobody wants to be hated-
Tao: Yeah, but you're an adult.
Tao: And you're still trying to please everyone and never say no to anyone.
Tao: I don't think it's because you're so kind, but because you're just too scared of being hated.
Tao: Do you really like us? Or do you like us because it's easy to manipulate us and make us think you're the nicest person in the world?
Naomi: ...
Male student B: What's your problem, Tao?! 
Female student C: That's why nobody likes you.
Female student B: Chiba-sensei is nice to us because she loves us. Simple as that. 
Tao: You are not her kids! We're just her students. There's no reason for her to love us.
Female student C: Well, she loves us more than your parents love you, that's for sure.
Tao: !
Tao: Shut up-
(the door opens)
???: Chiba-san? Someone wants to see you.
Naomi: .. O-oh. S-sure, I'll be right there.
Naomi: *stands up* Please wait for me, okay? Don't eat everything without me~
Naomi's students: Okay!~
(sounds of Naomi's footsteps)
Naomi: *thinking* "But who could have possibly wanted to see me-"
Naomi: ...
Naomi: .. Mom?
Naomi's mother: Well hello there.
Naomi's mother: What's with the kids laughing and screaming? I thought you were supposed to have classes today.
Naomi: U-um, we planned to have a tea party today, since everyone's been doing so well lately and we also finished working early, s-so..
Naomi: I just thought it would be nice to reward them with something, you know?
Naomi's mother:Is that a cookie crumb on your cheek?
Naomi: .. Oh. S-sorry.
Naomi's mother: You're so unprofessional..
Naomi: M-mom, I am a 30 year old teacher. Stop visiting me like this. It's embarrassing.
Naomi's mother: You're a bigger embarassment. I have no choice but to check how you're doing.
Naomi's mother: Seriously, you act more like a child than your students.
Naomi: ...
Naomi: B-but they seem to love me-
Naomi's mother: They don't see you as a teacher, Naomi. They see you as another child. You're a friend to them, not a teacher. You won't be able to become a good role model for them.
Naomi: I-I just want them to feel safe, since most of them come from.. families with all sorts of problems.
Naomi's mother: Nobody can be safe with you around. I literally keep visiting you exactly because of that.
Naomi: ...
Naomi's mother: Don't look at me like that. 
Naomi: Please, just.. leave. My students can hear us.
Naomi's mother: And what exactly are you so afraid of? It's your fault for being like this.
Naomi's mother: If you wanted to become a teacher to make me proud, then at least act like one.
Naomi: I-I'm trying..
Naomi: But someone keeps distracting me from doing my job-
(a sound of Naomi being slapped)
Naomi: ...
Naomi's mother: Don't you ever blame me for doing this.
Naomi's mother: I'm doing this for your sake. You have left me no other choice.
Naomi: .. Someone could see you doing this to me, you know.
Naomi's mother: Oh, so now you're blackmailing me. Seriously, you should be more grateful.
Naomi's mother: You don't have to "worry" about me. With my reputation, people would never think I'm in the wrong for doing this.
Naomi's mother: .. They never did.
Naomi's mother: Now, go back to work.
Naomi: .. You really just came to traumatize me again? The hell is wrong with you?
Naomi's mother: .. We'll discuss the way you talk to your own mother later.
Naomi: I am not a child-
Naomi's mother: Again, I have no choice but to treat you like one. 
Naomi's mother: Now, go and play with the kids your age.
(sounds of Naomi's mother's footsteps becoming quieter)
Naomi: ...
Rimi: Chiba-sensei..
Naomi: Ah!
Naomi: Rimi-chan.. what are you doing here?
Naomi: D-did you see-
Rimi: *nods*
Naomi: ...
Naomi: I'm so sorry. That was.. not a teacher-like thing to do-
Naomi: !
Rimi: .. W-when I told you about my parents, you hugged me. You hugged me, even though I was so loud and annoying and couldn't stop crying..
Rimi: S-so, um.. I-I thought that maybe this can help you feel better too.
Naomi: ...
Naomi: C-come on, an adult should be comforting a child, not the other way around..
Naomi: Let's go back, okay? I'm sure everyone is waiting for us.
Naomi: ".. I just hope Tao didn't see this."
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[ Kei's Confession ]
(a woman's screaming can be heard in the background)
Kei: Shh, it's okay, it's okay~
Kei: Can you smile for me, please?
Kei: Or, actually, never mind, your expression is already perfect. 
Kei: Anddddd we're done!~
Kei's boss: Seriously, you're enjoying this way too much.
Kei: I just love my job a lot, is that bad?
Kei's boss: Well, your job is to take photos of people in the worst conditions imaginable. Most people wouldn't really like this job, unless they've got some screws loose.
Kei: Haha, come on, you know that with a father like mine, I'm used to this.
Kei's boss: True..
Kei: Also, I'm sure this cutie over here has already fallen in love with me-
(the woman's screaming gets louder)
Kei: .. Maybe not.
Kei's boss: Anyway, just take the money and leave. 
Kei: Oh, you know I'm not doing this for the money-
Kei's boss: Ahem.
Kei: Got it, got it. 
Kei: (to the woman) See you later, sweetie! Uh.. If you survive, that is.
(the door opens)
Kei: Ruka, I'm home!~
Kei: Ruka?..
Kei: "Where could he be?"
Kei: "Nothing happened to him while I was gone, right?.."
Kei: !
Kei: RUKA!
Kei: "What if they've done something to him while I was-"
Kei: Huh?..
Ruka: Oh, you're home.
Kei: .. What are you doing?
Ruka: I'm taking a bath. I thought it was obvious.
Kei: .. While fully clothed?
Ruka: Of course. I remember doing so even when I was alive.
Kei: .. O-okay.
Kei: *breathes out* I was so scared..
Ruka: Why?
Ruka: I won't drown or anything. And I won't try to kill myself. I'm already dead anyway-
Kei: I know, I know! It's just..
Kei: Well, uh.. You remember what happened.
Ruka: .. Oh.
Ruka: You can come here, if you want.
Kei: Again, while fully clothed?
Ruka: What's your issue with clothes? Do it, coward.
Kei:*laughs* Fine, fine.
(sounds of Kei getting into the bathtub)
Kei: This feels so weird.
Ruka: Hearing that from a guy like you sounds weirder.
Kei: .. Am I really that weird, Ruka?
Ruka: Yeah.
Kei: But why?
Ruka: Every single thing about you is weird.
Kei: Well, name one then!
Ruka: You're sitting in a bathtub with me right now and we both have our clothes on.
Kei: .. That was all part of your plan?!
Ruka: Yep.
Kei: .. *laughs* Then you're just as weird as me.
Ruka: Probably. I'm dead anyway, might as well do whatever I want.
Kei: .. Maybe it would be nice to die, actually-
Kei: No, no, what am I saying, haha..
Ruka: Nope, you have to live.
Kei: Huh? Why?
Ruka: Uh..
Ruka: 'Cause you have a job and I don't?.. And well, we still need money, so..
Kei: *laughs* How do you just.. Let things like this come out of your mouth?
Ruka: Maybe that's because of your influence.
Kei: .. Ruka, you love me, right?
Ruka: Dunno.
Kei: Meanie.
Kei: .. I don't want to leave this house anymore. 
Kei: Everyone is too mean.
Kei: They're too mean to us.
Ruka: Listen, your friends' reaction was understandable-
Kei: It was not! They were so rude!
Kei: I probably should have expected it, they were always saying weird things about guys who like guys..
Ruka: *sighs* It's not because of me being a guy.
Ruka: Actually, I'm not even sure if I'm one-
Kei: You are one. At least, uh.. physically. Your gender is up to you to figure out though.
Ruka: Sure, whatever. Anyway, that's not because they acted like that.
Kei: THEN WHY?!
Kei: Ugh, the water is so cold..
Ruka: You just noticed?
Kei: They were so mean...
Ruka: .. Are you going to cry?
Kei: Shut up.
Kei: I wish I could prove to them that my way of showing love is normal..
Ruka: I doubt you can do that.
Kei: .. I think I have an idea.
Ruka: He has an idea. Great.
Kei: They always said things like "Kei, come on, you're going to steal our girlfriends at this point!" or "Seriously, our girlfriends are going to fall in love with you, if you keep at it!"
Kei: I think that's because they knew that their girls would gladly choose me over them.
Kei: So.. Why not invite them here? I can give them as much love as they want from me~
Ruka: Oh no, I'm feeling so jealous..
Kei: You sound more emotionless than ever.
Ruka: Anyway, I'm against this.
Kei: Why?!
Ruka: You should just forget about your friends. Seriously. 
Ruka: Do you even see them as friends?
Kei: Um.. Not really..
Kei: But..
Kei: If I want to appear "less weird", I need to have friends..
Ruka: .. Hey. 
Ruka: .. Have you ever had friends? You know.. before them?
Kei: .. I think I had one.
Kei: But I don't really remember him that well..
Kei: H-he probably left me or something, haha..
Kei: .. Hey, the water is way too cold. I'm getting out.
Ruka: You're not actually going to invite them to our house, right?
(sounds of Kei getting out of the bathtub)
Kei: Why not? I can treat those girls better than their boyfriends.
Ruka: Kei, I don't have a good feeling about this.
Kei: Aw, so you really are jealous!
Ruka: .. You already have me. You don't have to try and get those guys' trust back or whatever.
Kei: ...
Kei: I don't like the way wet clothes feel. I'll go change.
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angelstrawbabie420 · 3 months ago
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crazy how i have no one
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#like yes i have my internet friends and i adore them ofc#but i have no fucking one irl#and i mean no one. my mom’s side of the family is all dead and the other side is uber christian and doesnt give a fuck about us#i only have my brother#and i need help and support so horribly bad but i wasnt there for him when he needed me#so why the hell should he be there for me. he shouldnt#im going to have to rely on myself this time and i cant do that#i dont trust or believe in myself whatsoever#i think im fucking horrible and useless and repulsive#and idk how to be nice to myself bc ive never felt that and i dont know how to self soothe#i dont have the energy physically or mentally or emotionally to learn#and idk what to lean on anymore if i want to quit abusing substances#realized recently how much i do that.#and for how long. a decade. ive been acting like a 13 yo this whole time#idk how to move past and grow up. god i absolutely need to see my therapist again. if she’ll have me#i fear ill be rejected tho ive left and came back several times and last time she said ‘ofc ill take you back youre my person’#whatever that means. ive been an anomaly to every therapist/psych ive been to apparently they all mention how weird i am and how they cant#figure me out. like damn me too doc!#i want to email her so bad but i wont be able to see her until my insurance goes thru and i dont want to get free labor out of her if i dump#all the trauma ive sustained since i last saw her on her yw#but i want to get better i dont want to live like this anymore i cant do it#any of it#my coping mechanisms are all self destructive and i want to grow past that#but i need help and i dont have it. not really#whatever i guess. first step call and see wtfs going on w my insurance#i feel like i need help even for that . i feel so utterly incapable of everything snd i always have#i can do it. i can do it
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13personalities · 3 months ago
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does anyone else ever feel like they have to exaggerate every emotion they have in order to seem like a functioning human being? Like I gotta use dramatic hand signs and dramatic expressions and everything even though I only feel like 15% of the actual emotion.
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danaa-scully · 10 months ago
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Feeling kinda sad rn tbh
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shadystranger · 5 months ago
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jack's mom went through hell carrying him just for two weirdos to claim parentship over him she must be rolling in her grave rn
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ruvviks · 5 months ago
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anon asks have been turned off for now also because as you can imagine my paranoia has spiked significantly over all of this 🫡
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