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hohoz · 4 years ago

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How RE Village (8) SOLVED almost every problem that I had with RE Series

Okay - a few weeks ago I made a post that was “The ones that suffer the most” where I showed and explained my main problems with Chris and Jill and the RE series in general

RE 1 is my fav game of this series and probably one of my all time favs, I player every RE there is to be played except 4 (because I dislike Leon, sry)

Recently, specially after 4, the franchise had a few problems, specially in writing/map design/lore

Resident evil 5 for example (I love this game) but it has it flaws, Chris there is only driven by anger and action - Sheva is used as a tool for lore exposition and to be Chris’s new partner

PLEASE: be aware that game at that generation didn’t have much lore - with some exceptions, like God of War 1 2 3 were a simply game with a simple lore, and the most recent GoW has evolved a little bit in the storytelling

Until we hit rock bottom in RE6 - I know a lot of people like this game, but this is only and action game, bad writing and generic stages.

Chris there is so mistreated that makes me mad (if you want to read more about this go to my other post “the ones that suffer the most”)

Until RE7 appeared, Capcom had a new engine and they wanted to do a game that was more horror like - since RE is know for being a Survival horror game.

I liked 7 - some people complained about Ethan being without emotion and others complained about the mold, a few didn’t like the FEAR vibes from Eveline.

I personally enjoyed the game, I thought RE series was going back on track, that game has it’s problems but it was really nice compared to what we had in 6.

After that game I had a conversation with my best friend and I said that I wanted a game that portrayed Umbrella’s fall since the only game that shows this is Umbrellas Chronicles (and that is most a resume of what happened)

And I said: “Bro, I wish that when they made that game, they could tie some mythological lore and human evolution before Umbrella - using Spencer, this would solve LOT OF STUFF and open new ways to handle this series”

and guess what - this happened in RE8 and kudos to the one writer that did that, i have my gratitude.

RESIDENT EVIL 8 is probably one of the BEST RE games that we had IN YEARS

And I want to address all thing that I loved in this game and do some predictions to what will happen in the next games.

“WELL WELL IF IT ISN’T ETHAN WINTERS” (The Father of the year)

My father was not a great guy... really, so I want to be the best dad ever, I really want be like Ethan - a guy who is ready to sacrifice and fight every monster in the way to save my family.

Ethan was a character that in RE7 was used to make us fell like that it was us in the Baker’s house, so that is why he didn’t had that much personality (in my opinion) but they changed that in RE8, here he has nice dialogues AND a diary

He has one of the best story line in the whole REverse, a guy that did EVERYTHING in his power to save his daughter - and you saw that playing the game, every sentence line that he delivered, he tried to save others too and even tho Chris said to him stay put ... but he couldn’t, he had to go to the altar, he had to help Chris, he had to go forward and keep going, specially after having the tools to face Heisenberg.

The plea from a father, that was his last wish, after he heard that Mia was alive he knew that someone had to stop that monster, he made a promise to his daughter “Daddy won’t let those weird fairy tale monsters get you” so he trusted Chris, to be the one that teaches his kid how to be brave and strong

I will not address Chris and Rose situation here because this is Ethans part and he deserves completely all the spotlight, his sacrifice was 100x times better than Steve (CV)/Piers(6)

My cheers to Ethan Winters - You have my respect !

Revelations -> RE8

So leaks from earlier times said that RE8 sucked and Revelations 3 was amazing

Revelations FYI is know for using old tales in RE stories

Revelations 1 - Dante’s Inferno

Revelations 2 - Frans Kafka

Revelations 3 - Dracula

But since RE8 sucked, Capcom said to the REV3 team that they could make REV3 become RE8 and they accepted

Revelations series is one of the best in the games, they handle Jill in a way that I love, Claire and even Barry - so they deserve all the spotlight for making this awesome game - you CLEARLY can see that they love this series and that they treat all the characters with the love that they deserve.

Keeping that in mind, they are the same team that made Rev 2 and in REV 2 we have this file here

So they had a plan for Jill and we can see that in RE8 - I will address that later but keep that in mind - this team cares for the old characters, they were the ones that brought Barry back to the games :V

Chris Redfield

This is a hard one, because he is my fav character and I usually have the most critics regard him, since I’ve expect a lot from Capcom

In the latest games they made him kind dumb, only muscles type of guy and an alcoholic that let all the people in his surroundings die (RE5,RE6,Vendetta)

RE6 treats him the WORST

But in RE8 he had an amazing part in the storyline, it was obvious that he wasn’t evil and they FIXED HIS EYE COLOR - FINALLY

I still don’t like the model face that much but it’s way better than 7 - so I believe Capcom, I still feel that he need more jawline

But let’s go to the most important thing - here he really feels like a squad leader and a veteran, he has his team but he is the one in the front line, he covers and ask for help when he needs, everything about his line delivery makes you feel like “Woah, this guy is a badass, he is not some stupid guy only driven by emotions”

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR FINALLY GETTING THIS RIGHT

If you remember my post about the ones that suffer the most / Jill is also in that list and I will talk about her a little bit later but if my guess is right RE8 saved her character aswell

Another thing that I enjoyed here is the fact that he is kind of a mercenary / Neo Umbrella kind of guy, even tho he is one of the founders of the BSAA

So I will give you all my score to this game:

9/10

I won’t give 10/10 because of some technical issues, the cursor lock didn’t work and mouse sensitivity was i dunno, not the best.

RE8 and the future (PREDICTIONS) - Jill Valentine, Chris Redfield, BSAA, Neo Umbrella, Ada Wong and Rosemary

First let’s look Rose

The first time I saw Rose all grown up - I thought to myself : She has the same problem as Eveline (age a lot faster than normal)

But she also absorbed Miranda’s power since the metalicite (something like this) thought that she was a better host. - so maybe she will live longer or something because I doubt that they will do a 14 years time skip.

This is not the same as Terra Save logo (Claire’s job) but it kind reminds me of it - her shoes appeared at least 3 times in this cut scene so maybe they are trying to show some hints with this

She really reminds me of Jodie (Beyond two souls, a game where a girl has a lot of power and the gov uses her in missions and stuff, but she also is learning how to be her own person)

Another thing here is that they don’t have a logo in this car, it really reminds me the car that Chris as using in RE8

This supports the theory that Chris’s organization is dealing with her instead of the BSAA, the she is a hot headed girl and that she had a lot of powers.

So here you can say that she is just a kid because she is a teenager, but what if she actually grows older really fast (like Eveline) maybe this is just 1 year later / 2 yrs later. (after RE8)

So this is the tricky part, this is Chris’s guard/soldier, someone that Chris trust to stand by her side, in my mind I do believe that Chris is kind of a father figure to her, so when this guys says this he is thinking about hot head Chris but she replies “Yeah” thinking about Ethan - (she has the mold memories, so she can actually remember Ethan’s memories)

Now let’s look at this

BSAA

So in REV1 is hinted that BSAA is not the best organization in the world, but since our heroes work there we think that they are the good guys right ?

In REV 2 (it’s important to remember that the team that created RE8 is the same from the REVELATIONS and they had this file here in REV2)

This email is from Jill and what does Jill have ? T-Virus

Wesker is a different case since he was a project and she had the vaccine but this would make a lot of sense if they had this tests with Jill to get the T-Virus

If that is the case, they explained Jill’s absence in the main games, could even explain why Chris left BSAA and opened a new window to a lot of possibilities

My Predictions:

- Chris had trouble dealing with BSAA and Jill’s case, he wanted to get her out of there, maybe he removed her from there but that resulted in him being expelled from the force

-Jill may or may not know what they are doing with her blood, but she will have a huge part in the BOW used by BSAA

-Chris is married to Jill (sorry- I had to place this here, in a perfect world he has two kids with her and they all love aunt Rose)

-Chris will hopefully be a father figure to Rose and they will be in a game together since in the end they came to get her

-Rebecca is still involved in BSAA activities (leak from new REV3) if you consider Vendetta canon, she maybe the one that used Jill’s sample of blood to create the virus soldiers

-Barry maybe retired

-I don’t think Leon will be in this game, but he will get his RE4 Rmk

- I do believe RE9 will be release after Code veronica rmk and MAYBE they will do a game about Umbrella’s Fall (Chris and Jill in Europe against Red Queen and BOWs)

But that is it, you can see a lot of elements from old RE games in RE8, they tried to do something really smart and the game felt amazing to play, that was something else and it’s been a while since a player a RE game that made me feel that way <3

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k-s-morgan · 3 years ago

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I became a fannibal almost 2 yrs later after Hannibal got cancelled. I was 15 then, when it was airing, and since I am Indian, not all american broadcasting agency were (still is) accessible here. So I never knew the real scenario why it got cancelled. Like I know, how Hannibal is so hugely popular, termed as 'Cult classic' (i'm kinda proud of how our fandom is so glorified🤭). But if it is so popular how did it got cancel due to 'low ratings/viewership' of all reasons. I try to conclude that Hannibal is 'much ahead of its time'. Is it?

And do you think Hannibal will get a renewal! While I seriously want it, I don't think its possible. As much as I love Bryan, I feel and must say, he lies a lot to hold the fandom. He's like a king of giving hopes!

Yes, in many ways, 'Hannibal' was ahead of its time. The ratings were indeed the biggest problem. 'Hannibal' was eating finances since it's not a cheap show, but it was bringing in very little. Its ratings were abysmal and they were climbing down, down, and down every season. S1 had 2.90 million viewers on average; S2 had 2.54; S3 had just 1.31. NBC could no longer support it. But why were the ratings so low? There are many reasons for it.

First of all, it was on NBC, which isn't the platform that the target audience of 'Hannibal' frequents. The show has a slow pacing; it's artistic to the point of being pretentious, which is not for everyone; it has no 'hero', telling a love story of two male anti-heroes instead; it's focused largely on character development but was advertised as crime procedural, which attracted the wrong audience. This is actually a huge issue, in my opinion. Even now, when you go read descriptions of seasons or episodes online, it's all wrong. I mean, just look at IMDB page. The mentioned genres: crime, drama, horror. You cannot describe this show without "dark romance" genre. It's full of surrealism and gothic, it's not your average crime show. Then let's look at the offered summary: "Explores the early relationship between renowned psychiatrist Hannibal Lecter and a young FBI criminal profiler who is haunted by his ability to empathize with serial killers."

No! No, it doesn't explore the "early" relationship - it's not a prequel to anything, it's its own universe. Will's ability to empathize with serial killers is far from being his main descriptor.

As long as 'Hannibal' is marketed as a prequel to SOTL, a crime drama and a procedural, it'll never get enough popularity to become a mainstream show. People who love procedurals watch it and dislike it because it's too weird for their tastes; people who love dark romance and blood-soaked operas ignore it because they have no idea what it's really about.

I actually made a thread once with my proposed summaries for the seasons, you can check it and other people's replies here if you want.

Apart from this, the show is incredibly complex, so it's a bad fit for viewers who expect everything to be explained clearly; it's so character-driven than if you miss one episode, you might lose the point. I think all these nuances contributed to the current situation - it's just a very niche show, and I don't think it'll be renewed. Bryan genuinely wants to and he tries, but if it hasn't happened yet, I doubt the situation will change.

#hannibal #hannigram #cancellation

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seancekitsch · 4 years ago

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You Know: Klaus Hargreeves x Reader Kinktober fic, part of the Prize Buck Series

Warnings: Semi public sex, groping, mirrors, if you have ever peed in a bathroom that looks similar to the one described in this fic well congratulations yr immune to bacterial infections, costumes, twin peaks references, dry humping, fingering, edging

Halloween, the thinning of the veil and all of that shit. You still have no clue if thats bullshit or not, it being Klaus’ excuse last night for some sex against the ceiling. Your hands touching the ceiling was thrilling, but today as you knock back some themed cocktail in a crowded bar, you feel the cramping in your calf. The dull ache makes you wish you were one of the lucky couples sitting in one of the booths, or even at a stool at the bar. Klaus seems refreshed, a new vigor in not only his drinking but his mood. He was full of the devil tonight, to say the least.

Klaus aptly dressed for the night as Klaus Nomi, having you sit on the counter in the bathroom while you applied white greasepaint and black eyeliner and lipstick. But your partner being himself, forgoes the rest of the costume for a tuxedo tee shirt he borrowed from Diego and some gloves that make him look like a street predator rather than a German opera and new wave icon.

You had gone a much more relaxed route, dressing as Killer Bob from Twin Peaks. You left your hair unbrushed, a fake mustache, a denim shirt unbuttoned enough to show some cleavage, jeans and your heavy winter boots. Halloween was always your favorite holiday, but when it came to dressing all of your creativity left your mind.

The bar you choose for the night is your favorite, Klaus decided a little levitation was enough for the year and he wanted to knock a few back with you held close, surrounded by damp walls covered in wheatpaste graphics and old eroded gig posters seemingly coated on by the ages. It's crowded and noisy and the two of you can easily slip into a comfortable anonymity together, standing a little too close as the burning liquid slips down your throats.

It's when you go up to order the next round that you first feel it. It, meaning Klaus’ rock hard dick straining against his pants and pressing itself against your ass as you lean over the bar slightly to grab the drinks.

“Klaus what do you think you’re doing?” You ask, as innocently as you can, and the shit eating grin he flashes in the peripherals of your vision is all you need to know.

“I have no idea what you mean! I'm an affectionate partner. It's a holiday!”

He’s full of shit. He's dry humping you in public, and hopefully it's not obvious. You grip the rim of the drinks hard as he keeps rubbing, disguising it as dancing in the bumping bar, loud music making everyone sway a little harder than usual.

His hand comes down, like a claw from the heavens to swipe the glass meant for him from your hand, taking a generous sip, not letting it leave his mouth before it's done. He slams it down on the counter and urges the rim of your glass to your lips. You follow suit, do the same as him. The cocktail you ordered wasn't terrible, pomegranate and jalapeno and tequila making it an interesting taste down your throat. You'd probably order another one of those tonight. But the second your glass touches the counter, he's grabbing you by the hips pushing and leading you back away from the bar.

He drags you into the bathroom, a gross single stall, a sink clogged with toilet paper, stickers and graffiti all over the walls, the toilet looking like… it might not actually work. It was gross, but on a good night it would do. He locks the door behind you and pushes you up against the rim of the sink, facing away from him while his hands come up around your sides, to turn on the sink. You look back at him questioningly, but he just non committedly shrugs as he rinses his hands, a bastardized washing. Then he wipes the hands on his pants before they come back up to grope at your chest, one hand dipping down under the neckline where you’d unbuttoned the shirt to feel your skin on his. He gropes a handful of breast, fingertips digging into the flesh until it almost hurts.

A whine pushes its way through your lips as you gaze into the fluorescents above. Klaus chuckles as he buries his face in the side of your neck, surely marking your neck from the black lipstick. Everyone outside would know exactly what you did when you leave this place. Somehow, that makes it even better as you press your ass back against him, trying to urge him to give you more of his body.

The other hand slides its way down your front, hand coming fully between your legs to grip your cunt harshly, grinding his hand into you and adding extra friction from your jeans.

“Klaus, touch me,”

“I am”

“Please,”

He holds you there for a moment longer, taking the time to grind his hips into you, relieving some friction of his own. He groans into your hair, rocking up and down against the curve of your ass, rocking you against his hand as he goes.

“You’re fucking delicious,” he pants with another squeeze to your breast, before he moves to unbutton your pants. He fumbles slightly but soon his hand works the button and gets the zipper down enough of the way to slide his hand in. he teases again, rubbing his fingers against your cunt, letting you feel him without really feeling anything. You turn your head in frustration, ready to tell him to get on with it.

“No, no, fraulein don't look away, we can't have that now,” he almost sings, teasing as his hand roughly comes up around your jaw and forces you to look forward once again, “See how pretty you look?”

Pretty isn't the word you'd use to describe yourself, but it's also not not what you would use. Your eyes are heavy, dark, looking half crazed. Your mouth hangs open, jaw resting to one side, sweat making the fake mustache droop and fall off your face. You look like one of those girls at the end of a horror film, driven feral by the need to persevere, rage and lust and living all becoming one. You look like a force of nature more than a human being. If you were to scream in this tiny bathroom, you'd alert someone, but you'd be completing the image, you think as his middle finger finally finds and circles your clit, content with his hand on your jaw and your obedience to what he wants. You have to breathe deep to keep yourself steady, if you want to hold out and not let Klaus win so easily. But he’s not playing fair. He knows that. He can see your hands straining to grip the edges of the sink as hard as you can, the way you're shaking and resisting as he's trying to spread you open for him. Maybe you should get one of those big mirrors in the apartment, he thinks, so the two of you can see how goddamn sexy you both look all the time.

“Klaus, play nice, please,” you beg, his fingers teasing and merciless on you.

“Oh, Play nice you say? Alright, I’ll play nice,” but his tone is anything but nice, pushing his fingers lower into your pants, plunging a finger into you as you cry out. His pace is fast, keeping his finger deep inside you all the while, the palm of his hand brushing against your clit.

Part of you feels dirty, coming undone around his hand, being groped and fondled in a disgusting bathroom, but there's something extremely thrilling about it all. You're pretty sure the lock on the door doesn’t even work. His grip on your jaw tightens, forcing your mouth open just slightly. Just enough for Klaus to slide his index and middle finger into your mouth, not even having to urge you to suck. You do so dutifully and silently thank that he had enough foresight to rinse his hands before they skewered you from two ends. He speeds up, his rubbing against you, the angle of his finger buried deep inside you, the fingers brushing the back of your throat.

You can feel it building, kettle on stove within you white hot as you pant, staring at Klaus’ eyes through the mirror. You're there, you're there, you're-

“I think that's enough for now,”he surmises, halting the movement of his hand immediately, snaking it out of your pants as you gape at him, open-mouthed like a fish on the dock.

“No?! It's most certainly not enough!” you sound shrill, childish, but you were there. You can feel it still.

“Shhh, be good, lover. If you're good until we get home I’ll give you seven.”

It doesn't matter how uncomfortable you feel, arousal dripping down your legs, that shuts you up. Seven would be a new record for the two of you.

You nod as he laughs, breaking into a big grin as he kisses your hair, wipes his fingers off on your shirt, and lets you button your pants back up before you rejoin the crowd.

#klaus hargreeves x reader #klaus Hargreeves smut #prize buck series

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home-is-where-beels-tiddies-are · 4 years ago

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i lost the post i had that gave all of caragan’s info, so i’ll just post it again here. first pic is caragan after they die, because only obey me could drive me to design a character post-death

i did design the sigils myself. then i added the sin marks from the cards, put that little pact symbol on it, and i took the original symbols from the actual demons and simplified/altered them. because i didn’t think it was a good idea to use the actual symbols. don’t wanna manifest something ya know lmao

very long info dump under the cut. (info dump is copied from the post i lost) and yeah, caragan is a generic super powerful protagonist. so prepare for cheese

likes: drawing, reading, gaming, and staying at home. they are drawn to dark things; horror, dark colours, literally most things dark.

home/family: they live alone, but near their parents, and they visit almost daily. they have a cat and three snakes (while caragan is away, the fur and scale babies are taken care of, don’t worry)

age: 27 yrs old, born Jan 7th

gender: nonbinary, they/them

height: 4′10 / 147 cm

occupation: part time job, they also make bits and bobs to sell; art, crochet, etc. they went back to college too (and how they signed up for a certain exchange program; in my headcanon, they signed up for it and expected something mundane) then, after their first visit to the devildom, they start learning about the peace that diavolo proposed in their own time, and volunteer for the human organizations involved

the design after they die: neither angel or demon, appearance shows physical attributes of both. (i also have a lot of post-death info, but… this is already so much, so i will leave it out) the ref i made is below: (worth noting that before their “fall,” using the term very, very loosely, everything on them that is red was white)

appearence:

they wear all black with small, brightly coloured accessories

brightly coloured accessories are normally bracelets, scarves, or pins. socks are also always nauseatingly bright

casual outside attire: black hoodie, black t shirts, black ripped jeans, and converse

casual around the house attire: grey sweatpants, obnoxious socks, a tank top, and sometimes a sweater or jacket they’ve stolen from the brothers

formal attire: usually a suit, but asmo can convince them to wear a dress by finding amazing ones and wearing a dress too

school uniform: jacket sleeves rolled up, or while in classrooms, off completely. no tie, ever. dress pants, wears black flats instead of dress shoes. during their first year, they kept their hair in a ponytail in class

always wearing their favourite necklace

first year piercings:

left ear - bar piercing in top, three normal piercings on bottom

right ear - three normal piercings on bottom

second visit piercings:

left ear - same

right ear - three normal piercings on bottom, and two new normal piercings on top

they wear binders to their classes and almost always when they go out for less active shenanigans

rarely wears a binder in the house of lamentation; the first thing they take off when they get home

hair is greying on both sides of their head, also some greys on top

always, always has dark circles and bags under their eyes

brothers + romance: they are absolutely smitten with all of them, and they are very blunt and obvious about it. their favourite, though, is beel. this is kept as plainly obvious as their feelings for the others. since they love all of the brothers, they don’t hide their attraction to anyone. for the most part, it works out.

pact mark locations: (see first ref pic)

lucifer - throat

mammon - upper back

leviathan - lower back

satan - left inner thigh

asmo - right inner thigh

beel - right inner wrist

belphie - left inner wrist

overall, they’re very shy and awkward, and they like to joke around to cover it up. generally quiet, even around those they’re comfortable with. (they don’t talk a lot unless they’re having a ‘moment’ - a day where they’re hyperactive) they have crippling anxiety and depression, but the medication they take eases it. gets irritable around loud noises/people. they make an attempt in having a decent sleep schedule, but most nights they’re awake for hours longer than they intend to be. sleep schedule is more erratic when in the devildom. (probably belphie’s fault.)

everything below is uh… like, how they act/react to the other characters.

lucifer: they mirror what lucifer offers them; if he’s being soft, they will be soft in turn. if he is upset with them, they will apologize and attempt to do better, and they expect the same if the roles are reversed. stuff like that. they don’t openly flirt with lucifer the same way they do some others, instead they focus on gentle interactions. they kept close to lucifer when they first arrived in the devildom (when mammon ditched them) because they deemed him more trustworthy than anyone else.

mammon: when with mammon, every filter caragan has is demolished instantly. given mammon never tried to kill or charm them, they grew to respect him very quickly. they also don’t treat mammon like an idiot; they’ve dealt with that themselves enough. yes, they tell him off for doing things that will very clearly come back to bite him in the ass, but they never target his intelligence because they know he’s smarter than he lets on. they openly flirt with mammon because they like to make him blush. they both get into trouble often, but they have each others’ backs throughout.

leviathan: they don’t spend as much time with leviathan, but they do enjoy his company. they usually lock away their info dumping and interests, but not with leviathan. he gets to gush about the things he loves, and they match his energy. he tries to offer the same courtesy. they also like to flirt with leviathan to make him blush, but they don’t do it as heavily or as often because his rejections/self deprecating comments make them feel bad. they are also thankful that they can talk to him about their anxiety and he understands it. they rarely call him “levi.”

satan: they also don’t spend as much time with satan, but less so than leviathan. they can’t help but feel stupid when they’re with him, so they don’t socialize with him often. buuut any time he offers to socialize, they don’t turn him down. in fact, caragan gets excited. he’s also where they turn to when they’re struggling with their studies or curious about something demon related. they do attempt to joke around and flirt with him, but it’s like a game of chicken, and caragan always ducks out. fairly quickly, too.

asmodeus: caragan adores asmo, but they can’t really place why. they also consider him as much a work of art as he does himself. they are very soft with asmo and they rarely flirt with him in a conventional way. even though they reject most sexual advances, they are as handsy as asmo is. asmo is their official cuddle buddy and they love to shower him in gentle affection. if asmo is in sight, they can often be caught staring. at first, they’re very embarrassed by this, and the brothers poke fun. eventually, though, they’re utterly shameless and just widen their smile if asmo catches them.

beelzebub: they love beel more than life itself, and that is absolutely not an exaggeration. at first, they were very avoidant and anxious when it came to beel, but when they started to hang out with him, they found him very easy to be around. the attraction started then, but then became way too strong when beel went into full demon mode over his custard. (mood) they started following him around everywhere. they continued that trend well into the year and the following visit. they’re very affectionate and clingy, sitting his lap and hugging him constantly. they carry around as many snacks as their pockets can hold for beel and beel only.

belphegor: they knew from the start that belphie was lying to them in the attic and probably meant them harm, but they never held it against him. they never really held their death against him either. they’re quiet around belphie for the most part, even when they started to like him. they often nap with him (against their better judgement) too. the two of them talk a lot about their ideal “me and you and beel” future. more than is healthy. their conversations outside of that are often filled with snark and a weird tension that caragan doesn’t understand. it usually melts away after a cuddle and a nap, though.

diavolo: they instantly liked diavolo. they’re very cautious and anxious around him, but they try to be warm in their interactions with him. they do call him “lord diavolo,” and treat him with due respect. he usually throws them for a loop with most things he does, but they try to keep up and be understanding. they have a strong need to get closer to him, for reasons that they don’t understand or even try to understand. they don’t do much about it either. his demon form causes them to become flustered. very flustered. the not-oblivious brothers tease them for it. they have such a huge crush on him.

barbatos: they don’t interact with him that much, or try to interact with him outside of things that are necessary. they have nothing against him, they just don’t feel the need to. they’re very polite to him, as polite as they are to diavolo. while they’re curious about him, they don’t go out of their way to interact with him. there’s really not much there besides mild curiosity.

solomon: they think he gives off a copious amount of mischievous vibes and it puts them off. at first. they are kind and polite towards him, and they would consider him a friend. the friendship is essentially that “we have no friends in this class so we will become friends to fill the void. but only in this class. we will never speak to each other outside of this place.” it’s not nearly as specific, but that’s the flavour of friendship they have in the beginning. eventually, he grows on caragan and they end up looking forward to seeing him. they just find him very fun.

simeon: they think simeon is beautiful and has been caught staring almost as much as when they stare at asmo. with simeon though, they will never be shameless about their staring. they continue to be embarrassed about it forever. forever. they’re polite and kind to simeon, but they feel he keeps himself closed off from them. during their second visit to the devildom, with the play and all, they become a little scared of simeon. it doesn’t change the way they interact with him, but it does put them off for a bit. and after some overthinking, they end up being more drawn to him.

luke: they were very anxious around luke, at first. they don’t like kids, and generally become twice as awkward around them. eventually, they found him adorable. when they speak to him, they will focus on child logic, but they do speak to him the way they would speak to anyone. never patronising. happily helps him with studies if they can, gives him affirmation and reassurances whenever needed, and is protective. they have even been known to stand up to lesser demons when they target luke. (when simeon isn’t around; it’s rare) even though caragan is scared shitless the whole time, they try anyway. seeing as they’re only 4′10, they never make short jokes or anything of the like. when the brothers make short jokes, they shoot disapproving looks and will express disappointment if it drags on too long.

the end of their life time: they go on to live for a while, dedicating themselves entirely to diavolo on the human side of things, even becoming a public speaker for it. sharing their experiences n all that. which is something they’d never do for anything else.

at a certain point though, about 50 yrs old or so, they do stop visiting the demon brothers because they’re getting old. they die shortly after in an accident. brothers don’t find out because caragan was already avoiding them. (though, there is general unease because of the bonds they have with caragan. they know something’s very, very wrong but not what. they fear the worst, and they’re right to.)

but for all the things they did for “the cause,” they were to be judged in the celestial realm. (and… i see it as… in a horrible, horrible way, the big guy upstairs knew everything that would happen with lilith, and deemed her and her brothers an acceptable loss in exchange for peace. it was all orchestrated. i also think that diavolo knew the plan, for the most part. he has his own reasons for wanting the peace, but he does know what the plan was.)

but they’re escorted to The Big Guy by simeon and luke (a cute reunion with hugs) and he straight up asks caragan what they want. like they can stay here, go to the devildom, or remain in the human realm.

in any case, they’ll be given all the attributes needed to thrive in all three realms, but only if they continue in their trying to maintain peace. obviously, caragan is all for continuing. and of course, they choose to make their home with the brothers. god’s all like, “you will retain your angelic status, but you do have to fall to achieve the status of demon. are you sure?” they have to have demon attributes to ensure survival and comfort living among demons, so that’s why.

and caragan straight up says, without missing a beat, “even heaven is hell without them.” everybody knows who they’re talking about. simeon is torn between “that’s so rude” and “that’s so sweet” and luke is horrified. god just laughs.

they all talk a bit longer so caragan knows exactly what they’re getting into. they will have a lot of power as both angel and demon, but they have to keep their humanity in exchange for that power. which means, inevitably, their long life will become a curse. no human is built to live for a millennia, so it’ll take a toll on their mind and at the end of it all, they won’t be themselves anymore.

caragan basically says, “yah, worth it. lezgo.” god hands them paperwork, some explaining what caragan is and why, as well as a peace treaty thing to give to diavolo when they get home. i was thinking it’d be something cheesy like “the treaty of the last fallen angel.” no more fallen angels after caragan, they fell so no one else has to again. idk, symbolism or something. but even the future angel/demon hybrids won’t have to fall.

cue caragan yeeting themselves from the celestial realm.

diavolo knows caragan’s about to fall (barbatos n all that) and gathers the brothers to the place it’ll be. caragan is just a ball of blue flames, then a crater, the brothers are baffled.

falling hurts a shit ton (even without losing wings and all that), so caragan ends up crying, but they cry blood. (for angel reasons. i dunno why i think angels cry blood.) which drips from their face and onto the white fabric of the thing they’re wearing, and then everything white fades into a red, even the white of their eyes. (i want to try very roughly animating that one day.)

then there’s another heart warming reunion, but also with a shit ton of heart break because not only did caragan die, they also just fell. the brothers are angy.

before the brothers can get all “let’s fight god,” caragan hands diavolo the paperwork, all of which he reads out loud for the brothers.

uh. roll credits.

just tidbits:

caragan is an angel of perseverance and a demon of despair.

they have six wings and six eyes on each wing.

their halo was a tangible ring of golden light, but when they fell, it became horns. but like… still in a ring shape. still a halo. just different.

they are barefoot in their angel/demon form because they have talons and also just… hate shoes.

when all the white turned red, all the gold turned silver.

they look as they did during their second visit to the devildom when they enter their “afterlife.”

their human form is also just… them. hoodie, ripped jeans, everything, they’re just themselves.

#obey me #mc:caragan #obey me mc #long post #dump #i wanted to post this as like... my first post but since i couldn't find the original i knew i had to go to my google docs where i copied #the post LOL #it was just effort #so now i'm not screaming about caragan into the void... there are PEOPLE here now and they're gonna SEE it #shit makes me nervous jhgdsgkfjsd

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tfw-no-tennis · 4 years ago

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animorphs!!!

ok I read animorphs when I was 10 or 11 I think? and I only read it once, along w/the spinoffs and stuff, and I've always meant to revisit it...SO HERE I AM....

and oh MAN I forgot how good this series is. like I knew it was good but some things from your childhood don't hold up yknow? especially books aimed at younger audiences

but oh boy does animorphs hold up. they're easy to read and perfectly balance the line between dark/adult topics and more kid-friendly lessons. excellent

so yeah I'm loving it so far. I forgot how fast some stuff happens lmao, like I forgot that tobias gets trapped as a bird in the FIRST BOOK

also I just adore how realistically disorganized/confused the animorphs are. like, they got the elevator pitch version of the conflict from elfangor before my mans got eaten, and also they're middle schoolers. of course they’re always just like ‘wtf do we even do’

so like...their plans mostly don't work. and even when planning they run into tons of logistical issues w/morphing, traveling, communicating etc.

and I love how they clearly need to maintain their normal lives as well in order not to raise any suspicion

and I like the little details like them not spending all their time together at school because they didn’t before so that would be suspicious

oh man and I love the different family dynamics in the series. you have jake, whose family seems pretty normal until we find out that tom is a controller, and rachel, whose parents are divorced, and who has to deal w/the complications of that. and then cassie, who is an only child (I like that we have a mix, with rachel and jake having siblings), and of course marco...

iirc marco was one of my favs (if not my fav, but its hard to choose) back in the day, and I forgot how reluctant he was to participate in the animorphs thing...and the fact that he was about to quit the team and then runs into visser 1.....

another fucked up little moment I liked - when they morphed dolphin and marco had to morph back to human bc he gets injured and he was like ‘I cant swim, and my mom drowned, I don't want to die like she did’ I was like oooof

also on that topic I adore how little the animorphs know about how anything works. like they once wondered if there's a limit to how many morphs they can acquire and they were basically like ‘idk guess we’ll find out’

and then when marco got injured as a dolphin and they were like ‘morph back I guess and hopefully you'll be okay?’ like damn luckily that worked

basically these books do The Most Excellent Job showing that these are just kids. like they're literally in jr high which is 90s speak for middle school....they're like 13???? at most???

and the narrative reflects that perfectly!! all of them, even rachel who is pretty much the most gung-ho about fighting and stuff, have nightmares and all these terrible experiences bc they don't have basically any guidance

and even with ax, it’s immediately obvious that he’s also just a kid, even though he’s this deadly alien....

also oh mannnn I love so much how we’re introduced to the andalites as this heroic race and how that slowly changes over the course of the story

like, when elfangor introduces himself as ‘prince’ you assume he’s part of the andalite monarchy - but later we find out that ‘prince’ is a military rank, and the andalites are a lot more militaristic than we would assume at the beginning

its so fantastic how it starts off as a fairly black and white conflict of andalites = good guy aliens and yeerks = bad guy aliens

and you even have some background stuff going on w/the taxxons being controllers by choice, and the hork-bajir being enslaved

but as the story goes on, all of those lines get blurred in different ways...

also ooof the poor hork-bajir. I always felt so bad for them. it’s crazy that even in the first book, the animorphs are killing their enemies - at least I inferred that in book 1, but it becomes way more overt later on...the tough situation of them knowing that the hork-bajir are unwilling hosts but that they’re so dangerous that not killing them could be fatal to the good guys

and ngl this time around I have a lot more sympathy for the yeerks, even tho they don't really deserve it (at least in the early parts of the story where I am rn)

like...they're just these blind helpless slug creatures, but they're also fully sentient and intelligent? like, that's so fucked up. imagine yourself as you are now, but you're just a sensory deprived slug swimming in a pool. that's pretty fucked. and then the fact that the yeerks are biologically made to be parasites...its kinda no wonder that they ended up the way they are (and it also makes stuff like the yeerk peace movement really compelling)

also wow I kinda forgot about all the body horror w/the morphing. like ik that's one of the things that animorphs is known for but like. I forgot how much it happens and how creative the horrifying descriptions are. I love it

and omfg so when I first read this series the ellimist stuff confused me a lot bc I didn't read the books That closely (I mostly wanted to see what would happen next) but I loooove time travel bullshit so I’m really enjoying it so far

even tho tbh I think even if I had paid more attention as a 10 yr old I still would've been confused bc the ellimist stuff is kinda just inherently confusing lmao

ok and I just love the characters,,,I love that the books switch perspectives, and KAA did such a masterful job of portraying differing and realistic reactions to their situation....like, all the animorphs react so differently to their circumstances, but their reactions are all so grounded in realism and also their personalities

like man I love rachel. she was one of my favs as a kid too bc I always loved female characters and she was just so cool. and she still is, and so excellently written too

liiiike the fact that even though she’s so tough and brave, she’s still a kid and has plenty of moments when she’s scared or uncertain...

and I just really like the fact that she out of all of them is the one who’s tough and loves to fight...and the fact that she also unapologetically loves shopping and stuff like that...its about the multifaced characters

just like how marco is the ‘funny guy’ but they make it very clear from the beginning that this is his way of coping w/shit like his family falling apart, and then alien BS

and also marco is really smart? I kinda forgot abt that (sorry marco) but I like that bc that's uncommon to see with ‘funny’ characters

oh mannnn and ax. I love ax. I forgot a whole bunch about the early stuff w/him and how conflicted he was w/keeping secrets from the other animorphs

KAA did such a fantastic job w/ax - he really comes across as the perfect mix of ‘fish out of water alien’ and ‘young teen/tween’ and ‘alien from a strict militaristic society who is in training to become a soldier like his famous older brother’

n that was so sad n fucked up when he called the andalite home world and had to tell everyone (including his parents) that elfangor died, and then the elders or w/e forced ax to take blame for elfangor breaking their laws in order to preserve elfangor’s postmortem reputation, even at the cost of ax’s career/life :(

and man I loved the part where ax is like ‘well, we didn't help the hork-bajir even tho we could have and now they're all enslaved. I'm not letting that happen to the humans’ and the council or w/e is like ‘well you should let it happen, don't interfere’ and ax basically realizes oh shit sometimes adults are wrong

basically I love the conflict there, where the andalites are the ones who gave the yeerks the technology that led to them spreading across the galaxy like a disease, and now fight to stop them due to their guilt, but also refuse to directly help the less advanced species who are being invaded by the yeerks for fear of making a similar mistake like w/the yeerks....

ooooof and the part where ax is like ‘guess I have to go fight visser 3 and die’ :( he’s just a babyyyy

and augh when alloran asks them to kill him....geeeez there’s so much fucked up stuff already and I'm not even in the double digits yet

oh my god and the brutally awful fact that any freed controller will just get tracked down by the yeerks and murdered so the secret invasion stays secret...and the animorphs think that by destroying the kandrona they've freed a bunch of controllers but really they just signed their death warrants - what a catch 22

oh and I love how even early on the yeerks aren't a completely unified force - we have the obvious rivalry w/visser 1 and visser 3, with visser 1 even arranging the animorphs release from visser 3′s prison bc of this, and that yeerk who told ax where to find visser 3 because he was pissed that his yeerk gf got killed by visser 3 - even though the reason she was killed was due to kandrona rationing, which was caused by the animorphs...i love the layers

ok what else. oh yeah I love tobias sm, he was one of my favs as a kid too, his whole story is so deeply tragic but also interesting and we haven't even gotten into all the stuff w/his parents yet

the part where he’s freaking out as a hawk and he’s gonna fly into the windows even tho he knows it’ll probably kill him...christttt

also tobias and rachel are so romance aughhhh

ok also jake - he was never my favorite when I was younger bc I felt like he had Basic Protag Man Syndrome but now I can appreciate his character a lot more. like, he basically got elected the leader and he’s kinda like ‘guess I have to do this now.’ and that of course ends up fucking him up majorly in the long run bc even tho he’s more serious and responsible, he’s still just a kid too

and I loooove the horror of finding out that tom is a controller, and jake having to contend w/the fact that it’s very likely that he’ll have to fight and/or kill his brother someday

also the book where jake gets infested w/a yeerk was one of my favs and still is. so fucked up and interesting. the fact that that yeerk was previously tom’s made it even more fucked, w/the yeerk taunting jake the whole time

and then the yeerk dying in jakes head...so messed up

omg and cassie too. I love cassie. I didn't appreciate her as much when I was younger bc I was a straightforward kid who liked action, and cassie is all about pacifism when possible and compassion, which I love a lot now that I Get it more.

cassie being such a gentle person but still fighting in this fucked up war bc doing nothing would be worse is super compelling. plus the conflicts with her having to figure out where she and humanity fit in the circle of life and whatnot is great

I loved the contrast of her being very aware of how nature works bc of working w/her parents and all these injured animals, but also being so compassionate that it still bothers her to see death and especially participate in it

like her feeling awful about killing the termite queen even tho its ‘just a bug’ and stuff

basically what makes the series great isn't that it’s got all these fucked up moments and horror elements and is overall quite dark - it’s that all of it comes together to make the point that war is hell, and child soldiers are gonna end up traumatized pretty much no matter what happens

it’s a very strong message, and the story never feels like it’s being dark just for the sake of being dark, but rather never letting the reader forget how awful things are

TL;DR: anirmorphs is to the YA genre what hunter x hunter is to the shounen genre

in animorphs, the heroes of the story are kids who get cool powers and get to fight aliens - in any other YA story they would have a bunch of fun adventures and come out on top most/all the time - things might get darker towards the end, but good would prevail. the evil yeerks would be stopped, and the main couples would get married and have kids and live happily ever after.

however, war isn't like that, especially when the soldiers are kids. so instead we get animorphs, and it’s brutally realistic. they barely ever get to enjoy their powers - on the rare occasion that they get to, something usually goes horribly wrong

compare to hxh - it seems like a regular shounen story about kids participating in a fantastical mostly-adult world and being able to match the adults bc they're Special - but as the story wears on it becomes clear that the kids are just very traumatized. this all leads to gon’s berserker collapse in the chimera ant arc, which is led up to masterfully w/a bunch of adults treating gon as an adult even though he’s a child.

essentially the same thing happens in animorphs - with jake being shoved into the leader role and becoming a military general as a kid, which leads to him committing horrific war crimes because he’s been put in a position no child should ever have to be in

similarly, kurapika has what would be a very straightforward revenge plotline in any other story - but this is hxh, so the bad guys aren't just 2-dimensional evil caricatures, and the road to revenge just leads kurapika to ruin. we root for kurapika to win bc they’re a character we like, but it becomes clearer and clearer as the story goes on that getting revenge is not the path kurapika should be taking

nothing is ever as straightforward as we want it to be, basically. and the same applies to animorphs. so many times they're faced with conflicts that seem to have an obvious answer, only for it to be revealed later that the choices they made led to other unforeseen awful consequences

ok i need to stop rambling this is already super long. basically: animorphs good. I’ll probably do another post like this semi-soon as I continue reading (I'm partway thru book 10 now)

#not me doing another liveblog that i probably wont finish #animorphs #lj reads animorphs

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misterbitches · 4 years ago

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Hello! @flootweed replying to the post from before. the long format was killing me. why does tumblr look like this...

I haven’t watched episode 8 yet...or have I? If it’s the most recent one. No.

Is the hornbill a bird? It probably is but I have a terrible memory and I’m dumb so. I skipped the last few weeks because I’m scawwed. How are you liking it? I did see someone say that the hornbill makes sense (without knowing what it is...at all) bc heart transplant patients only live like 5-15 years after but someone in those comments pointed out that he was so young when he got his and that’s pretty rare so he has a higher likelihood of survival. Frankly, this is the only way I will proceed. Since when did shows ever care about the heart transplant health? Never and it needs to stay that way!

What did we think of ep 6? LMAO. I need opinions! And omg it makes me feel special when I can point things out to people because I so...rarely get to LOL. Editing is like one of my favorite things ever so I can be super particular about it but I try to do the thing you do when you’re supposed to see if it works within its context. I’d like to go in with scissors and glue but alas.

THe mic covering....the rustling....it’s like guys...please. Ironically the audio today wasn’t great. I don’t know why. IDK if you watch c-dramas but I am not even sure what’s worse between them because they dub their dramas. But actually no it’s best to have the dubbing because even tho it is painful they have to put a lot of effort into it. LOL.

Right? @ Aey! It’s just weird if they would show us more about what he’s done instead of saying he’s done sth bad and not even explaining that....like you could even do some shitty exposition. I think if he is to be a true villain then we really need to be privvy. All the warnings make it seem like he’s a fuckin’ serial killer so when we get the scene of him at home it’s like....actually this is really serious? Maybe his pain is like...for a reason. Althought you won’t even TELL US WHAT HE’S DONE WRONG BESIDES BE JUST FUCKING WEIRD AND ANNOYING! So from what we have it’s just a realllllllll fucked up sad person lol. god i forgot about the dinner! and i totally agree. he really needs them to succeed. i like your theory because it would make the scene where he like blocks the twitter user make more sense. he also says they dont really know each other etc so it’s realllllyyyyy probable that he just sees it as a way out. if not then we shall pretend u wrote it :)

god yea i wouldnt say it is art but i also guess we technically have to since it is technically. in the way that technically performance artists are artists but mostly i uh technically ignore them. Also one of my fav BLs is called the best twins. If you do not know what it is I will not elaborate further.t

i want to know more abt poli sci majors lmao but they sound DRAMATIC/ hopefully most ppl in ur cohort arent losers!

hahahha i understand. there was just a thing on twitter about DSA and then the day before about reading discourse. the same thiings. over. and over. and over. and over. we are our own worst enemies but also our own best friends? but i hate tankies and that wont change. but hasan’s a decent guy. he said sth abt black ppl during biden’s primaries in GA or whatever and i was like chill. but he’s insecure and has adhd which means ur more open to being wrong and changing otherwise u will suffocate and die.

and totally about hiding fuck ups. i’ve tried really hard bc of organizing IRL to like...be honest, question, etc but also like...approach it naturally? because if you’re trying to be perfect and so worried you’ll fuck up you don’t realize that puts more stress on you, makes you seem like a robot, and could potentially not make you realize the mistkaes you made. also if we’re privileged in certain spaces there is just no possible way we won’t get something wrong. im light and i know that honestly any way to speak up on colorism is going to be difficult and that’s a space where i have power so i just have to figure it out. we should be uncomfortable because we have to sit with unpleasant feelings and sort through our own whatever. that just makes the next time even better and people can trust u more. i think some people sweat it sooo much or maybe they think their personal life and what theyve been through is more the norm? on the other hand people can be sf reactionary in the worst way and idk what their issue is. there was also a user who said sth very inch arresting about tankies which i thoroughly enjoyed (how like violent lefitsts or tankies / ppl who are like ooh a gun whatever just want to be violent in another space so they have shit tendencies from jump and nothing of substance which i think i agree with tbh fo ra lottttt of ppl. like their anger is actually like “no im about to beat that ass” instead of what we actually want to get done)

sort of in the same vein re: taking it easy...we coudl all be more understanding too. to slow it down like you mentioned about not being privvy to fucking eveyrthing and saying anything on our mind. i saw this person talk about y2k which was a huge deal while happening bc it was the turn of the millenium (bruh were u even alive?) but this twitter user grew up in a super super SUPER religious household and was like why do ppl make jokes about Y2K it was insanely traumatizing? though my first instinct was confused ive tried hard to like look more before i judge especially thanks to a friend of mine. turns out that with the further reading the more we found out he was just really traumatized; it was very common in religious households to be afraid of 2000. so we could have come at him with no understanding and he could have thought that everyone had the same experience with that year that he did. his feelings sit precedent though but i think it was just very hard for him to fathom.

i didnt reply bc he didnt need that and what could i have said? he’ll see what the truth is with exposure and unfortunately this was something he really did go through.

and that’s what makes most people think others could be over the top. because it sounded ridiculous but then it was this huge traumatic thing that we could have never known about. so maybe when someone sounds like actually crazy they have an explanation? of course some ppl are just batshit or annoying but that’s anywhere not just leftists it’ just means more i guess when a ~~librul is annoyed~ but it can be easy to want to make fun of ppl too. lmao. basically what i am saying is the internet? especially twitter? for leftists? in this economy? bitch it’s the wild west out here.

i am 29! idk if i said it or not. i am OLD u probably werent even born in the year i was talking about wah. i know not old-old or old at all but compared to you i’m due for a colonoscopy.

omg i hope u can get vaxxed soon! are you wfh rn? i hope ur also not in a bad state as in state state not state as in ur being :| bleh what a fucking time. it sucks that you have to fucking do work. well unless u like school. which i hope u do. i just assume everyone hates it cos i did lmao

was it the lindsay ellis drama? that bitch is dumb. if there was other drama oh wait the drama i was referring to it all happened on the same day. idk book twitter that well but i saw something from someone who was abt that shit and wowie! the american people are not that.....intelligent to put it lightly.

i’ll get better. ppl tell me they miss me and im like aw. i have insanellllyyy bad insomnia and a lot of stuff happened this year HOWEVER I SLEPT FOR TWO DAYS FOR 8 HOURS AT A REASONABLE TIME. im a new woman. anyways you too! i hope ur not too burnt out with school. we just dont know when the burnout is or we just dont know we are burnt out until we are. the panaramiciccici hit and all the things i was ignoring kind of just fell on me and sooo much happened at once. and frankly it’s hard to take care of ourselves. lord.

Like if you aren’t interested in expanding on the issue in a way that hasn’t been done before all you gotta do it like… spread resources and donate if you can. I dont see the point in having to say something about every issue especially if you (not at you specifically just in general) aren’t immediately impacted by the issue. Like is the 14 yr old white marxist named sarah on twitter really gonna have meaningful insight on anti-asian violence ?

this is part of why i cannot telecommunicate. i dont want to do shit on the internet. i am able bodied so i know that this time has been of such ease for other people. but mentally i just can’t. i don’t have a comment on hand like that and i hvae no desire to engage with ppl that way. i am a super super super solitary person but thats bc it’s MY time so when it’s like all this effort with other people i dont ever want to be alone. it’s the same with the way i approach filmmaking. it isnt a sole thing so i hate it not together. that’s part of how u can get so sucked in and repeat doom scrolling. i was in this webinar last may after [redacted] and this black woman prof said “read with a community and talk” because otherwise she said we are torturing ourselves. you can’t carry that weight all on your own. unfortunately i hate zoom, discord, slack, signal, whatsapp, facetime. you name it this panera has made it evi.. L

you make a really excellent point. i think the young young gen zers are really really just interesting because it’s like this whole new world for them with leftist politics and they just can’t grasp the horrors of the world and the kind of freedom being a leftist can bring. and so many people don’t grow out of it. those people so happen to be the “least productive” in terms of how much time they spend IRL withe these issues. naturally, younger kids are gonna have a harder time. they are not as mobile as well so the internet becomes this place. but then it’s this echo chamber. and many times just things posted without sources. and social media NEEDS that to exist.

i think of the irony of leftist kids on tik tok and while i am happy it’s reaching them it’s just....different. very different. the growth of social media is so good but also so fucking sad, it’s too much! i think the point about not writing everything is major. even i have to do this which is part of the disappearing.y ou need to detach and make sure your head is on straight again. but when you think eveyrone has to be privvy to every thought and you can’t just sit back....which twitter and social media doesn’t encourage. you have to join in. that’s often why when i have something to say it is dense because i don’t feel like repeating it. ever. lmao ust ever. i cant pay attn. social media is a fucking minefield for my brain u can get so lost in it and absorb it but once u start talking you may not be able to stop.

i think a big part of that is it not being a leisurely thing but sort of just in our lives always. this sounds like a grandpa rant but ykwim. We dont have to see the same thing over and over again. And eventually it gets sincerely diluted or its diluted bc of capitalism or whatever. Or if theyre very young or maybe they don’t have like the greatest way of sharing the knowledge? then it can be butchered. I hope this is making sense...i’m talking beyoond the boring surface-level milquetoast shit. i see really ahistorical stuff on there from leftists (like this thing about NK + africa and it being a beneficial rship as opposed to a um not beneficial one. and it isn’t. beneficial but this young black girl was talking abt it and noname rtd and i was like it’s just too complex. there’s no good/bad here just bc it’s not america. dont get me started on this.)

but Lol that was kinda off topic but I think what I meant in my last reply about not turning off the voice in my head is about when I consume media, not necessarily when I’m online talking about. Even if I have criticism for something, I’m usually pretty chill when consuming fandom content bc I think being serious online all the time is kinda boring. Like sometimes I’m analyzing theme and shit but really most of the time im memeing.

exactly.........gotta laugh. thats why sometimes im like i cant think lmao. unfrotunately i have been ARGUING with ppl on the internet for rly no reason when i could have replied to ur very nice fun wholesome message. i love torture. i miss memes.

“ i think the people who get the least enjoyment out of that are those so obsessed with getting upset with anyone thinking outside of their lines as if it equates to them “ EXACTLYYYYY

kekekekeke im glad u got it. it’s like with conservatives throwing around snowflake. now im beginning to question who the real complainers are.

LMAO exactlyyyy. i posted a screenshot of this writer from twitter saying that exact thing. Like first of all, I’m...an adult? and if you are as well uh? i’m sorry for you but are we 12? But how is it affecting u this viscerally? And if it does why dont u...do...research? pihgofuaipoajghou but honestly everything u said. we’re trained to go into it with nothing. i was only around ur age when i started to get more serious about this stuff but you’re like lightyears ahead of where i was at 21. did i say this but i’m in iww and literally i can tell u in 2016 i did not think 2019 me would be in a union bc i told my friend in a train station that we don’t need unions. i was 23...but the thing is i didnt know what i was talking about. at all. and i knew i didnt know and she knew i didnt know and now i am the clown.

also yes at critical engagement. i had to learn so much through experience and this is tuff that i coudlnt be shielded from. there’s an empathy you kinda have to develop and this understanding that you move through the world as this person who is “nowhere and everywhere; nothing and everything” so i’ve always had to think about things differently just to survive. that’s also what can drag a lot of people towards it like theres so many black kpop fans bc i think a lot of the pain in SK can be mirrored (sort of) through our history. and theres currently a history now but it had to be forged. uh what was my point oh yea however i wouldnt have been able to move further if i didnt have my background to go off of bc i knew something was off when i started getting into all these things (ill give u a hint) but if i had no prior knowledge and didnt have to think about it then the critical approach is either stale or stupid.

i had to research but i dont understand how ppl are so bold with little to no research and understanding? thhey just inherently know with also like ZERO experience in what they need experience in. engaging critically means “how i see the world” with dashes of trying to be open adn understanding or whatever. actually that’s another thing like being afraid of criticizing things bc theyre foreign to you so u give it a pass (like we discussed) but it doesnt hAVE TO BEEEE JUST REAAAAAD and then take all the info ur teensy brain and apply it. be a normal human being and dont be fucking rude and racist. thats it! u can complain abt literally anything without being a dick.

as we start with LW and end with LW.....what do we think (i asked this already) omg please share wbl thoughts i THINK i know what ur talking about. well it could be two things; their rship when they came back and the physicality and then pei shou yi. i almost dont even want to use my brain to fucking look at that. i think wbl can get away with more bc of visual~*~*~* reasons (like literally, the look of the show. there’s more space to get lost in the frames. many thai dramas are a lot more literal? this isn’t the right word but it’s very heavily character focused particularly bc of $ i think) though good production also underscores flaws so i am also wrong. but like do u know what i mean? u have to kinda focus on it? or maybe it’s just cos like.....ur so used to it in thai bl idek. i’ve seen tw bl ofc.

look i swear i will justify this forever bc there are some things we miss right but if u feel like someone’s a bad actor....theyre bad. it’s about tone movement etc etc etc and since most thai bl productions have 0 interest in that....well. they take these newbies and put them in these situations. we dont understand thai but if we see them and we’re like “wow this is really bad” then they’re bad lmao. IDC i will never be like cos idk what theyre saying NO WHY HE LOOK LIKE A ROBOT???????? DOES HE EMOTE? why is he CRYING WITH NO TEARS? and it’s not even a total requisite to cry with tears(i mean for me it is) but it’s just like what is happening on ur face right now young man????????

painful.

the inflection stuff is very valid ooh good point tho but that’s only a part of the piece. plus we get used to the way they communicate. like the ppl from sotus were prtty bad. i dont like that show but thats an ex of ppl liing the actors and the person i thought was better other ppl dont think that? well apparently hes a shitty guy but. um. so when theres decent acting its so glaring.

although i must say even tho i dont care for 2gether anymore and would never like to be reminded about its existence (only bc i just cringe lol) i honestly....didnt think bright was a bad actor? but people keep saying he is and i am much more inclined to believe them than myself. though i am not often dickmatized that could have been it. until he opened his mouth and ruined it and then i stopped paying attn.

although honestly i’m so much more critical than i could be positive. i have ben stumped for the last day about how i wasnt mad at his acting in the show. is it me? is it him? who’s......the wrong one.....(me)

oh shit they have been denied? i haven’t been paying attn to whats been going on recently. i just got into it on MDL because of snowdrop. sometimes i literally cannot engage bc ill just be like alright well im black so this power button in my head is going off when ppl talk abt that shit. back in the day when kpop jawns were saying some real outta pocket anti black shit (now everyone is slick with it) it’d always be THEY DONT HAVE GOOGLE THEYVE NEVER SEEN A BLACK PERSON but really it’s like no...maybe they are just racist? that’s ok too.

also the past 2 weeks have been um atrocious bc how fucking easily people fell into the pit of white supremacy and started to turn their ire towards black people and making a competition between our groups just like they wanted. it’s not about the women who are dead anymore, who were sex workers, their womanhood, being asian, being poor anymore. it’s about how much black people get attention and why people only pay attn to us. i am not feeling very generous this week for ppl to excuse that hsit.

on a lighter note, ppl say that abt the whole husband and wife thing. i dont know how to explain how angry that shit makes me but maybe it’s because i do not want to think of my body in relation to a fucking penis at all hours of the day. if bls could kindly not do that it would be nice lmao

yes there are a lot of those. who are only there to gawk lmao. and just idk worship bc of the cult of personality thing bc of how weird and open they have to be as actors. some of the others are people who /think/ theyre really smart (i think im asmart but i also think i am very dumb and i have adhd to prove that MEDICALLY!!!) but are actually not? or their observations arent great? or idk if they are they arent interesting? but i think well..........we have more refined palettes :P

jk also theres just different personalities. you and i mesh more bc we have a lot of the same beliefs and are coming from the same place. that makes it easier to understand as well. i really try to remember that but some people are really weird so. again just...the perception of certain things even down to acting skills. but i also dont like.......believe this genre can really do anything at all. on one hand i want them to do it right bc it’s a piece of work so they should. be proud of it. cos most things arent advancing us bc representation and culturalism are a lie bla bla. it’s just that when the depictions are negative or not done well it adds to the problem as opposed to the things that are well done are fairly benign and can’t really pull us back (perf example is the black panther film. i woudl definitely not say it was transgressive as a literal work but visually it’s just stunning. and it’s sad that it’s stunning and surprising but still with basically an all black cast of mostly dark people abd like what it means in the zeitgeist yes. it’s also just a good movie. but it’s still imperialist prop and unfortunately and this is fucking pathetic to say it “opened eyes” in other countries where they hate black ppl and ignore their own racialized minorities HENNYWAYSSSS a better ex is moonlight except moonlight isnt mainstream and is indie tho...still thru a funnel of capital bc a24 but who cares bleed the fuckers dry is my motto. my point is moonlight is both a great work and doesnt bring any failures to the table and its existence helps in ways outside of art but they arent the defining things giving us material advancement sooooo i mean it’s complex (this is my conclusion to everything um guys it’s complex)

er i had one more point in conjunction to above. oh yea so i like dont need all these extra things to make it progressive. like people really want more women in the show and i am honestly like i really dont. i dont want them to actively do this. if they cant do it naturally then let someone else do it. i am not asking for more bc i dont want it from them. when something comes along i embrace it but i do not see why women should be represented when the genre RELIES on patriarchy. there is no complete satisfying existence for the women in these series. i dont want it. i dont ask people to show us~*~* or respect~* like fuck no the people who make it make it and hopefully more will make it in the future but i will not beg bc THEY DONT WANT TO DO IT SO WOULD FORCING IT MAKE IT BETTER? just fucking leave them out entirely. that’s the answer if theyre gonna make nasty female characters then those bitches can geaux. we have other plcaes to be. booked. and. BUSY!

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Well, Pathologic 2, you’re One years old! It’s as good a moment as any to reflect upon and shatter the time-lines you’ve drawn out for us. OR; Reading His-Story Against the Grain

i saw this post about pathologics incongruous timeline stuff the other day and i ended up Getting Into It.. this piece draws on stuff from patho classic but its focused on patho 2, especially on a comparison ov the Diurnal and Nocturnal “endings,” and contains spoilers for both games, probably, i guess, on varying levels ov abstraction and explicitness. i/m going to attempt to stand on a street corner and point towards Pathologic’s overall construction/presentation ov “time” as the Now-time, Exploded time, Messianic Time.

from dear daniil dankovsky, on Angels; “An angel is a nightmare. Their purpose is to instill primal, oppressive horror. I think if angels existed, they’d resemble a divine pillar of light---from the heavens to the earth. Devoid of anything remotely human.” We commend this Puppet for his drama but would like to take a slightly different approach. Even awful dreams are good dreams, if you’re doing it right.

“A Klee painting named ‘Angelus Novus’ shows an angel looking as though he is about to move away from something he is fixedly contemplating. His eyes are staring, his mouth is open, his wings are spread. This is how one pictures the angel of history. His face is turned toward the past. Where we perceive a chain of events, he sees one single catastrophe which keeps piling wreckage and hurls it in front of his feet. The angel would like to stay, awaken the dead, and make whole what has been smashed. But a storm is blowing in from Paradise; it has got caught in his wings with such a violence that the angel can no longer close them. The storm irresistibly propels him into the future to which his back is turned, while the pile of debris before him grows skyward. This storm is what we call progress.“

on the content ov patho and in a real Life context, im also going to be discussing genocide ov Indigenous people, colonial Violence, police brutality, and anti-Black violence in this piece. i’ll also be contextualizing some views on History through the writing ov Walter Benjamin, a German born Jew living in the early 20th century, and friend ov Bertolt Brecht, who you may be familiar with if yr into patho. In 1940, shortly after writing On the Concept of History (referenced here),while fleeing persecution for neutral grounds, he was trapped in catalonia by a franco government cancellation ov travel vistas and,under threat ov repatriation to nazis by the spanish police, commited suicide on the night ov september 26. His theses were passed on by surviving members ov his group who were granted “safe” passage after his suicide, being later taken under the care ov Hannah Arendt and Theodor W. Adorno. His Grave reads -in German and in Catalan, reproduced here in english-

"There is no document of culture which is not at the same time a document of barbarism"

(from section 7 ov On the Concept of History)

i will also be using sections from baedan, which has been dear to me over the years, on Benjamin’s Concepts. some songs will be dispersed throughout (featuring Laurie Anderson, Owen Pallett, and some good ol tmg), with relevant links beneath. you’ve heard that old Brecht aphorism about dark times, singing, whatever? i’m nearly sick to death ov it. these stories, in addition, will be based on a few things i know Myself. follow the threads as you see fit <3

Because History is Stories...That we half-remember... And most of them never even get written down. And so when they say things like "We're gonna do this by the book," You have to ask "What book?," Because it would make a big difference if it was Dostoyevsky or just, You know... Ivanhoe.

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“Read what was never written,” runs a line in Hofmannsthal. The reader one should think of here is the true historian. ~ Walter Benjamin, omitted notes to the theses on history

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Isidor Burakh: All I wanted was for you to understand, not to follow any particular fate.

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Isidor Burakh: The Town needs to move forward, but it doesn’t insist. Facing the Future is the the way of Love. Facing the Past is the way of Love. But the two are incompatible, and it broke my heart. //// //// //// ////

so,,, depending on who you ask within Pathologics narrative, the history ov the Town-on-Gorkhon stretches back to Time Immemorial, constitutes a few hundred years ov settlement, or only goes back about as far as You have been playing the game. You’ll hear conflicting narratives around just about everything in this Town. Simon Kain, hundred something years old, mystic, spiritual founder ov a several hundred year old settlement. an executed general’s vengeful daughter, Artemy and Rubins foggy backstories ov military service, what military?, what war? Who sent in the Military and Inquisition, how can We get at the Powers that Be? looking outside ov the narrative and towards history for these sorts ov questions will give us All and None ov the answers.

The Termitary (internment/interment/intermediate/immediate/intermittent) looms over the Home ov Isidor Burakh, Menkhu and sole Medical Practitioner ov the town(excepting disciples. consider the spread ov knowledge, what different Knowledges are at hand and how they perpetuate...we can see how Isidor himself looms from his grave Quite well!), colleague ov radical intellectuals from the Capital and serving with Simon in tandem with the Mistresses to hold the Town together by force. Everything is Happening at Once.

Look at What/Who is Moving this Story Forward. Different ruling families will give you again, different Numbers, different Stories. One can’t trust the Numbers, we say! and One can hardly trust the Stories either, mind you. This engenders an approach based on following Patterns, exploring Roots, pulling back the curtain to ascertain the shape ov things, reading the lines so to speak. one Bull or Several bulls? silly question. again, we’re trying to looking beyond the Numbers. consider Time as a Multiplicity. consider Rhythmic and Linear time, Time Stratified, Unending Time, Plague Time and Empty Time, Lived Time and Time un-Lived, if one pleases!

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“Historicism rightly culminates in universal history. Materialistic historiography differs from it as to method more clearly than from any other kind. Universal history has no theoretical armature. Its method is additive; it musters a mass of data to fill the homogoneous, empty time. Materialistic historiography, on the other hand, is based on a constructive principle. Thinking involves not only the flow of thoughts, but their arrest as well. Where thinking suddenly stops in a configuration pregnant with tensions, it gives that configuration a shock, by which it crystallizes into a monad. A historical materialist approaches a historical subject only where he encounters it as a monad. In this structure he recognizes the sign of a Messianic cessation of happening, or, put differently, a revolutionary chance in the fight for the oppressed past. He takes cognizance of it in order to blast a specific era out of the homogenous course of history—blasting a specific life out of the era or a specific work out of the lifework. As a result of this method the lifework is preserved in this work and at the same time canceled*; in the lifework, the era; and in the era, the entire course of history. The nourishing fruit of the historically understood contains time as a precious but tasteless seed.”

*The Hegelian term aufheben in its threefold meaning: to preserve, to elevate, to cancel.

Everything is happening at once, already, and, for the purposes ov Our story, A plague is on. (why is there a plague on? in this Specific Case, read: Specimen, there is a plague on because infection serves as a very useful allegorical device. haha. see also dominant theories ov infectivity in russian imperial medicine, policy, and social science) Crisis as Inflammation. Violence and Control intensified along multiple vectors. Mobs, Witch Burnings, The Quarantine, districts carved up and kept under surveillance, the Town Police, Arsonists, government or Otherwise, the Military, the Inquisition, Hangings in the square, tallies ov the Dead in the Termitary... Was any ov this new? did it Crystallize from thin air? here’s an aphorism: There’s Nothing New Under the Sun. what can we find beyond the Sun’s reaches? what has the Sun given us, and what has Earth? shall we keep them apart? whose bodies are restricted in their movement over the earth, and how severely are they restricted? who is targeted? who enforces the control? is this what Crisis looks like? when did the Crisis start?

“To articulate the past historically does not mean to recognize it ‘the way it really was’ (Ranke). It means to seize hold of a memory as it flashes up at a moment of danger. Historical materialism wishes to retain that image of the past which unexpectedly appears to man singled out by history at a moment of danger. The danger effects both the content of the tradition and its receivers. The same threat hangs over both: that of becoming a tool of the ruling classes. In every era the attempt must be made anew to wrest tradition away from a conformism that is about to overpower it. The Messiah comes not only as the redeemer, he comes as the subduer of Antichrist. Only that historian will have the gift of fanning the spark of hope in the past who is firmly convinced that even the dead will not be safe from the enemy if he wins. And this enemy has not ceased to be victorious.”

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But do not be scared Surely some disaster will descend and equalize us A crisis Will unify the godless and the fearless and the righteous

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In a certain slant of light the feeling will hit me Like a man against the waves and a violent wind Waking up in a bloody morning With the warmth of his forgiveness around me The shared dream left me shaking The memory is threatening to capsize every ship upon the sea

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Pathologic, having mapped out these lines, and being a concatenation ov narrative fiction that could not have existed without the precondition ov colonial expansion and the Extermination and Assimilation ov Indigenous populations and Life ways, can be can be unwound through a conventional historical approach by investigating various moments, epidemics, and movements in The Steppe (and all Land and Living Beings subsumed by Russia’s internal colonization) and looking for similarities, sources, influences, reflections, distortions... You’ll never find quite an exact parallel to the events ov pathologic, and you will find that the Trick that the devisers have given you in fact resides in laying out what can be gleaned from the Tangled view.

“…they make the work a process of learning or experimentation, but also something total every time, where the whole of chance is affirmed in each case, renewable every time,”

— Gilles Deleuze, Difference&Repetition

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“For Benjamin, the conclusion of the movement of history through time is not some inevitable utopia—capitalist, communist, or otherwise. Rather than viewing the progression of civilization as an accumulation of gains and reforms toward freedom and justice, history can be seen as the continuous defeat of the exploited by their oppressors; the intensifying alienation of beings and their re-construction into capital. History not only serves to justify today’s rulers, but also to encode our memory with a narrative that reads historical events as a necessary chain of events along the path toward some future revolution or techno-utopia. He describes this as “a view of history that puts its faith in the infinite extent of time and thus concerns itself only with the speed, or lack of it, with which people and epochs advance along the path of progress.”

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In your Twelve Days in the town as a Healer, what did you see? piles ov wreckage, debris, bodies stacked under streetlamps flickering in the night? a town spreading across a steppe? a Utopia growing through the Earth? do you think you saved any lives, and was any-body's life yours to save in the first place? a Plague moving through living organisms? a Plague moving through non-living organisms? did you observe any Organisms, living or otherwise, over the course ov the play? do you have Mirrors in your house? have you seen a still, clear, body ov water recently? what are the waterways where you live called, and have they been called anything else in the Past or Present? did you become the Haruspex, and following what paths does becoming-haruspex entail? are you winning, son?

When the hunger turns in on itself, it begins to devour its host Who do you turn to for help? Who do you love the most? When the word comes down the wire that they're looking To make an example of you Skin and bones around a campfire beneath the stars No good end in view I dance with the ones that brought me I dance with the ones that brought me here

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did you observe a Fever? can you feel a Fever? can you Imagine a great crack ov lightning striking across the Steppe, illuminating in raw detail the beauty and horror ov all that you have experienced? how would it smell afterwards? can you smell the Twyre on the air? is Twyre even a real thing? what may influence your imaginary ov its scent? Feel small, dirty hands reaching out for beetles, marbles, raisins, souls within nuts and names without people. Living on pemmican, Living on military rations. razors, fish-hooks, scalpels and syringes passing through the hands ov children as well. noticing the flows present in everything, spots where they are arrested, and the intensities they assume. we could run through the Game and Count up the Number ov Clocks present, and we could also look at how many hours we have Clocked in our Playtime, and the date ov this Play’s Production. did the Kains succeed in their mission to Produce Time? was this the Kain’s mission Alone? how is your mental Clock? We got the Body Count at the end of the day, and commentary too. cant beat that courtesy, *hem hem* but again, looking beyond the Numbers. how many Bulls did you see? when is a question also a trap?

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“‘In relation to the history of organic life on earth,’ writes a modern biologist, ‘the paltry fifty millennia of homo sapiens constitute something like two seconds at the close of a twenty-four-hour day. On this scale, the history of civilized mankind would fill one-fifth of the last second of the last hour.’ The present, which, as a model of Messianic time, comprises the entire history of mankind in an enormous abridgment, coincides exactly with the stature which the history of mankind has in the universe.”

what are the Consequences ov inserting Living Beings into a Linear Framework? where did Architecture come from? how was this Story constructed? What do you remember about the Town?

We can take the Diurnal “ending” as a fairly straightforward allegorical Byway for the Forces ov Progress. Boundaries are set, You are not the Town, the Town is your Soul-and-a-half.( wikihow to not be a cartesian dualist, consider also Spinoza if laying bare the path ov immanence was ov interest to you) What lays beneath the Sunlight? what still lays beneath the Earth? What time is it? things are weirdly cozy, in some ways. mimesis, echoes, ghosts. Are their voices still heard? grace tallies up the bodies. are You ready to Leave Artemy here? is this a comfortable future for you to imagine? how are you with uncertainty? Does the costume itch? do you ache at the seams, or are your joints sore from all the strings pulling at them? got arthritis? i’ve used stinging nettle. can a Story devour a human being? why would something with that power stop at One?

What Do You Think Will Happen Now?

One can also make the Choice to step into the Darkness. One with many names has returned to the Earth,(”One” ov many False Deaths and Smart Tricks too. love ya girl <3)... taya as mistress-ov-bulls, grace as mistress-ov-dead, changeling as mistress-ov-absolutley-whatever. Mistresses, Mist, Tresses, Bulls, Brides, Worms, Plague...the Theme/s to note here is/are Multiplicity. Is there a difference between imagining the future and the past? Where are you? Where did You come from? the Nocturnal ending already asks enough questions to make me quite happy. sitting next to the Girls now, looking out at the New Sky. same as the old sky, Full ov Magic. if we take Death ov the Author into account, we could say that the Polyhedron belongs to the Dead in more ways than one. We can see your house from here! i wouldn’t say we’ve even gotten to the Prophet yet. When did our Hero leave us? did We have any use for Heroism? the Steppe is in the Stone Yard now. The World is returning to Life. what does it mean for me?

how many angels can dance on the head ov a pin?

how many worm brides can dance in the cathedral?

....“The way in which the dead are present is as the “caress” of a “breath of… air,” as an “echo,” or as a sister who one no longer recognizes. In other words, the past is present and everywhere, touching us every moment and “in the voices we hear,” but only suggestively, in and in spite of our own inability to recognize it. But the possibility for redemption, the weak messianic power, lies in the chance that we might.

In the intimate, ever-present opportunity he describes there is a tremendous deal at stake. For, he writes in the fourth thesis, the “refined and spiritual things” that live in the class struggle “as confidence, courage, humor, cunning, and fortitude, and have effects that reach far back into the past… constantly call into question every victory, past and present, of the rulers.”

Later, turning to the historians he criticizes as tools of the ruling classes, Benjamin makes it clear in his seventh thesis that their resurrection of the past is an entirely different kind. The nature of the sadness—rooted in an indolence of heart—that Flaubert described feeling in his historical study of Carthage is clearer, Benjamin says, when we remember that the historian’s empathy is always with the victor, and thus with the present rulers. It is the kind of sadness, then, that gathers to the loyal servant or minion in knowing that it is being used for its ruler’s purposes”

“Figured another way, the task of interruption requires us to locate the clocktower that we could fire upon to stop the day. Homogenous time no longer flows through the monolithic machines in the city centers. Now, a range of technological advancements have diffused and integrated the machinery of time into our very thoughts and rhythms. Everywhere we go, we are surrounded by and permeated with devices which serve to manage the regime of time. Where once a singular apparatus mediated our relationship to time, its dictatorship is now imposed by an innumerable array. A desire for interruption must now reckon with the countless apparatuses that segment our memory and integrate our very being into capitalist time. But rather than waste time lashing out against all these clocks one after another, let us cut through to what underlies them.

History’s servants promise us a shining future. Whether by means of technological innovation, hard work and sacrifice, or the Revolution, we are assured of a heaven-on-earth of light and crystal. But all of these glimmering apparatuses can only serve to adorn the monumental pile of wreckage in which we live. All around us, the carnage and corpses of our ancestors form the architecture of our daily existence. Not only the walls and freeways and shopping centers, but the smart phones, pornography, surveillance and entertainment systems—all monuments to the same enemy that has never ceased to be victorious. Capital, Leviathan, civilization, society: so many names for the process which turns life into an assemblage of death, which would integrate us as machines into a grander machinery. Futurity is the logic that drives this regime of subjection and assimilation, but is also the science which desecrates our memory of those who also struggled; the treachery which turns their struggles into so many more ideological cadavers. Where living beings once struggled to be free from futurity’s domination of their lives, we are told that they dutifully sacrificed themselves for society’s future. We too are called upon to procreate and raise up children who might one day live better lives than we. But just as we were born into the halls of the dead, so too would our children be the stillborn janitors of these halls, breathing circuits embedded in a massive cybernetic cadaver. Ghosts call out to us: they ask that we tear apart the sutures of this Frankenstein’s monster which they’ve come to constitute. They call on us to cremate their remains and bury the ashes, to end the reign of the dead over the living.”

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"I am not afraid," ze said "Of the non-believer within me Nor delight at the pain of my enemies Nor tears for any friends I have lost" ...

I’ll never have any children I’d bear them and eat them, my children

I’m gonna change my body In the light and the shadow of suspicion I am no longer afraid The truth doesn’t terrify us, terrify us My salvation is found in discipline, in discipline

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“It is apparent from the foregoing that all accumulation is cruel; all renunciation of the present for the sake of the future is cruel.”

— Georges Bataille, The Accursed Share, Volume III

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“The Haruspex is blood and organs... ...The Haruspex’s overarching idea is the interconnectedness of everything and restoring the connections... ...The Haruspex hears (rhythms)... ...The Haruspex: water + forward vector. „ — [from the game’s design documents]

“ The Haruspex, a butcher, a killer, one could even say a murderous psychopath, gets the warmest character arc. It’s about love. „ — [from the game’s design documents]

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Infinity Mirrored Room—All the Eternal Love I Have for the Pumpkins -

Yayoi Kusama, 2016

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A long “personal” anecdote: there’s music on the air and i hear a familiar buzzing. it isn’t twyre growing, nor it is the hum ov flies. we Keep bees here, to get honey. I should try to remember to bring some to my wife tomorrow, though making the journey on its own is a bit daunting these days. 1 hive, 2 hives, the bees build and swarm and our Keeper rearranges the frames, adds in new boxes, tries to give them enough space that they'll stay within our domain. I think about the complex roles being fulfilled within the hive, and how any egg can grow into a so called “Queen” if need be. These Hives haven’t always held the same populations, sometimes a swarm will depart and won’t be Recovered. Look around the neighborhood, find the buzzing tree, you may be able to get them back yet but... have you tried getting a swarm ov bees into a box before? good luck finding the queen! (hoping i don’t have to do this but a bit excited by the prospect at the same time.)

Our honey bees didn't originate from this region, i see them in the “yard” alongside native bees (one tries to plant for Everybody) but obviously, Our Hives are here so i’ll always see more ov the honeybees as long as they’re occupying them. Native bees to our Bioregion are leading very different lifestyles. Different threats, dynamics, and places in the ecosystem as well. Bumblebees are the most Beloved. Native Bees here- vital pollinators, ground and stem burrowers, more solitary souls than most, but are any ov us really alone? what are their favorite flowers?

I think about Bees a lot now. I’m standing here thinking about Bees, and where I’m standing is in between the entrance ov the Hive and their favorite Ceanothus (see also soap brush, red root, buckbrush, see medicinal uses...). Very precious grounds to these Bees, not somewhere where I’m welcome. I Haven’t always known as much about bees. I get stung right inbetween my pinky and index fingers, on the palm ov my hand. yeowch! Bad luck, but i could still use a shovel the next day. This was an anecdote about Paying Attention to Your Surroundings.

The Ceanothus isn’t flowering anymore, and hasn't been for a few “weeks” (i think?) The Bees have other concerns now. In fact, it was heavily damaged in a snow storm a couple years back, and half ov its branches collapsed under the weight ov the ice. Its a bit ov a twisted thing now, what remains still flowers but what remains is not so much. At some point in the future upon yr reading ov this, it will have been cut down and possibly dug out ov the earth. I wouldn't be surprised if a few more, smaller, iterations made their way to this space in remembrance/ tribute. The branches lost in it’s first wounding are still stacked up nearby, all sorts ov creatures love that stuff. Dead trees in the back that Birds still frequent stay for the birds. We never get that many plums because we’re not smart or quick enough, or as willing to take one great bite ov a fruit and let the rest fall to the soil. I didn’t really get stung by a Bee in a situation exactly like what i described up there, it’s drawing on a few different times that sort ov thing happened. I hope you’ll forgive me for my obscurantist tendencies.

Looking past the Hives and onto the Streets, I am a White Settler(family fled the reach ov the Soviet Union to integrate into America, family fled family to a different part ov land under the Reaches ov said “America”,cave fled family but stuck with the Land, recurring patterns, what would my views be if i had grown up in Czechoslovakia? geography, chronology, trick questions) living in a segment ov Town that, until 1968, was a legally a Sundown Town, see Racial Restrictive Covenants. I still don’t see than many Black ppl around my neighborhood. I do see grocery store parking lots swarming with cop cars, more cops than i can Count, at least two k9 units, all to pursue One Black Body through the rainy night, My own Body lets me move through the world without these Forces being brought upon me in this intensity, lets me Watch.

Certain alignments ov directions ov Struggle have brought me into the position ov the Other at the end ov the cudgel, a body in a crowd under the looming eye and long barrel ov the sniper, the surveillance camera. Visibility is a Trap. Any ability i have to Get Off The Hook is based not on Luck or Fate, but due to the way the color ov my skin is reflected in the eyes ov Those in Power. what can i do from inside This Skin, and what can i do with the veil ov a mask obliterating my “selfhood”? How are we to heal? If you didnt read this into my Musical choices already- im a bit ov a flaming/smoldering queer. sitting in the planned parenthood lobby, one among many, gripped by recollections ov the devastating history ov HIV/AIDS and a cluster ov other Crises, memories ov beloved souls lost to policies and hegemony ov extermination and neglect. blood in vials, piss in jars. how does the time spent waiting for results feel?(how long? weeks months?)

I have more free condoms on hand than i’ll ever get through. A veritable theoretical eternity ov Safer Sex. There are Reasons why Queer Institutions give access to free condoms. But i’ve gotten them from some delightful Quakers as well. on another squeamish, libidinal subject, administering self injections isnt so daunting when you’ve seen it done a Million times before. It’s like watching somebody sneeze, or pinching yourself. HRT as potions, mechanical intrusion to will a slow transformation. getting into the fat is easy, some other avenues less so. “This requires the Gentle Hand of a Surgeon, step aside!” i know a lot about what Doctors Don’t Know. (veins and arteries as streets- easy. nerves as streets - you hear this a bit less. streets as eyes, the opening ov your mouth with a railroad track running down it, eyes as streets, whose streets? fuck streets! tear up the concrete)

The aforementioned streets are closed to Traffic due to the Quarantine, and i hear folks and families from the neighborhood walking/hoverboarding/skateboarding/biking down the street,(mostly the new work from home yuppie class and their spawn respectively, but there's some real ones around here too. all ages. have yet to live anywhere that people don't ask me for cigarettes) chattering away, masks or no masks. If i take a long walk down past the cemetery, I’ll find myself passing by a Native American Youth Home, created to provide support for a population that is currently disproportionately represented in this Town’s already Massive Homeless population. (their covid19 resources and donation info) Even with the Plague on, New Condos are built and Old Condos stay empty. Who do the bones in the soil beneath my feet belong to? When did all ov this Start, and how Long will it go on? why does the Map look the way it does? I would rather listen carefully than dig. This Story is not the only Story, nor should any be.

do i remember how the damp asphalt smells Here after Lightning Strikes? do i remember the feeling ov my body thrown to the concrete and the chaos and disorientation ov Crowds mobbing over me, slick with rain and sweat? who saw, and how many hands reached out to lift me up, who saved who? is that my blood trickling down the sidewalk? Flashbangs and Flashes ov Lightning, take yr pick. you can get similar experiential learning in the moshpit. this is an anecdote about Paying Attention to Your Surroundings.

i’ll try to bring us nearer to the point with baedan’s conclusion, a reflection on the First thesis from On the Concept of History. I will leave it up to You to investigate the original text if you are so Inclined.

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“For every pretty theory that presents itself, study it only in the way that a cat studies its prey: for the enjoyment of the hunt, to be sure, but also so as to seize upon whatever unique revolutionary chance may appear as in a flash of lightning. So that when that narrow gate opens, you pounce without a moment’s hesitation. In the meantime, by all means, enjoy the diversion of the theory’s lines and moves, but if you are to avoid becoming its tool you must ever have in mind to shatter the system of mirrors and confront the dwarf that has been pulling the strings all along. Faced with this ugly little creature behind all the lines of play you’ve enjoyed and suffered, able at last to read the lines of its face and the dark of its eyes, as time stands still and the entirety of the past falls to you, you will have to make a deeply ethical decision that nothing in all the games before could prepare you for. The only decision that truly matters.”

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Artemy Burakh: Any Choice is Right as long as it’s Willed.

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Hansel and Gretel are alive and well And they're living in Berlin She is a cocktail waitress He had a part in a Fassbinder film And they sit around at night now Drinking schnapps and gin And she says: Hansel, you're really bringing me down And he says: Gretel, you can really be a bitch He says: I've wasted my life on our stupid legend When my one and only love Was the wicked witch

She said: what is history? And he said: history is an angel being blown backwards into the future He said: history is a pile of debris And the angel wants to go back and fix things To repair the things that have been broken But there is a storm blowing from paradise And the storm keeps blowing the angel backwards into the future And this storm, this storm is called progress

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TLDR; pathologics shitty timeline is cool because it fosters a metagame where the imperative is to make history explode in real life.

specific thanx to: every1 included above, my local subversive lit dealers, Whoever gave the talk last ABF about Queer Wanderings in the anti-nazi Underworld, have not stopped carrying those stories with me since. thanks to the Dear Listener, thanks 2 my wife for pragmatic and personal encouragements <3

a personal acknowledgement to the lives and legacies ov the dxʷdəwʔabš (Duwamish) people, past and present, First People ov the Land i currently Occupy, alongside the entire City ov so-called “Seattle.”

#pathologic #pathologic 2 #pathologic 2 spoilers #long post /#patho tag

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HELLO EVERYONE ! i’m rlly excited to be here at hearsay. actually is a new kind of rp concept for me so if im a little slow in coming up with ideas please be patient w me, i promise i’m engaged and interested. i’d also love recs of your fav murder mystery stuff for inspo! neway some info about ren is under the cut (along w some plot ideas!) and ill message yall once i have a chance to read over the apps so that hopefully i can come 2 u with some thoughts for plots~ ur also welcome to message me first of course or hit that like or really anything else lol!! discord avail on request for plotting, too, if thats more your style.

kwon loren is a 26 yr old scorpio, horror enthusiast, entrepreneur (cough, drug dealer), n webtoon artist and she’s never met a villain she didn’t want to write a redemption arc for.

yes i almost exclusively chose her name bc it can be nicknamed into ren which obviously sounds like wren and i thought it was punny / suitable lol.

unfortunately the only one of those that makes any money is the entrepreneurial bit and that is a totally illegal path. so her day job is her night job as the overnight manager of the gs25 near her dingy apartment building. she works sunday to thursday nights, usually, since she makes the schedule she selfishly schedules the part timers on prime weekend night slots. she also draws weird commissioned porn for folks w strange kinks (tentacles?? yoikes no judgement but yoikes) when she needs the xtra won.

she was the black sheep of her family even before her personality really showed itself, and once she revealed herself to be a tomboyish, unruly, temperamental, reckless, passionate, and alarmingly contrary child the whole thing just got worse. rlly the only person she was ever very close with was her grandfather, who is a somewhat-renowned murder mystery / horror writer. sneaking peaks at his books and manuscripts was probably what kindled a lot of her weird proclivities as a child, which she carries forward to now.

she’s quite excessive in a lot of ways. too much smoking, too much drinking, too much feeling, too much dreaming, too much scheming, too much writing.... basically the only thing she doesn’t overload on is sleep?? so check out those atrocious under eye shadows sometime bc its a yikes from me yall.

u can track her moods pretty easily despite the fact that she’s got a hard to read face. once you get used to her habits and mannerisms its rlly clear to see that she’s an open book. the only thing that can throw it off is that she’ll try to stop smoking abt once every 3 months, at which point she becomes a complete nightmare w very little notice. it usually doesn’t last very long unfort for her lungs.

speaking of smoking shes the kind of person to immerse herself in things easily and get totally wrapped in them. like, she’s v prone to addictions or obsessions. this can be with things, people, television shows, etc. she’s never known a good series she didn’t binge as quickly as possible, a good book she didn’t read cover to cover, sleep be damned. this means she’s often kinda grouchy or trying to sleep something off. she’ll also talk ur ear off about whatever she’s fallen into at the moment.

just for a weird fact, she has a complex about her hair. its naturally relatively coarse and bushy and curly and frizzy. her mum used to pull it back every morning in a rlly tight ponytail and pin down all the unruly bits with bobby pins or barettes and she hated it, it always made her head hurt and obviously it made her feel like her hair was ugly. so for a long time she chemically straightened it and did all kinds of treatments, but now she’s trying to maintain it more naturally. so yeah sometimes it looks like a birds nest but at least it’s healthier.

she’s very picky about her surroundings and organizing her personal space, especially when she wants to work on something. she gets picky about things being in a good visual order, and if she notices something is out of place around her, she’ll hyper focus on it until she can fix it. this can be something meaningful (noticing she didn’t do the dishes) or something absurd (noticing someone left a napkin on the ground at the cafe, across the room, and having to go throw it away before she can focus on anything else).

just like with her surroundings, with aesthetics, and with substances or media, she hyper focuses on people too. when she decides someone is ‘hers’ she will go all in on them, becoming loyal to the point of honest to goodness fault. this isn’t to say she’ll tell them they’re the best at all times or be unrealistically enamored with them. she’ll still be fully cognizant of and happy to point out faults, but she won’t turn her back on them. she’d help you bury a body, basically, but she’d tell you what a goddamn psychopath you were as she did.

FOR SOME PLOT THOUGHTS

her only real established canon relationships have to do w her drug trade or her much better cousin (just ask anyone in her family) so she’s very well open to just about anything. she’s canonically close to magpie and cousins w swallow, of course, and sells to an established handful. i’d love to get her a bit wrapped up in things these days, maybe some secret trading or ferreting things out. i imagine she feels loyalty to magpie and resents those who might come out with accusations against him.

i’d love her to have an outcast ride or die best friend from high school, someone who was also on the black sheep side of things. she did participate in the high school literary magazine (layout) and on the newspaper (though not as seriously as one might have hoped) and certain undesirables spread rumors about the english teacher “favoring” her (at least some guiding figure finally liked her dammit). so bullies from high school are fully possible. she was kind of a weirdo (duh) so i imagine it would have been pretty normal to pick at her here and there, though she did try to fly under the radar a lot. people who used to harass her coming to her for pills now could be a thing to explore, or someone who dated her in high school but didn’t really want to be “out” about it due to you know like dumb high school social differences so resentment grew and it was a whole teen movie drama that ended up without the happy ending and now its weird when they see each other, which could go many ways. those she’s befriended or so forth since coming back to town down on her luck, also, would be welcome!

anyway if you made it to the end of this ily very much and i hope we can plot asap huhu

#?? OOC #queued for opening i hope

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missjackil · 5 years ago

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4th Anniversary

Today marks 4 years that I have spent with the Winchester boys.

I remember the day clearly, as Leap Day has always stood out to me as some sort of magical kind of day. I know it’s only to keep up with the Earth’s rotation so that June doesn’t land in winter eventually but as a kid, I thought of it as a special day, like a “gift from above” kind of thing. So I have no trouble remembering I started watching SPN on the Leap Day.

The day itself had nothing to do with why I started watching, It had been a very cold, very snowy winter so my friend Dawn, my daughter and I, got into binge-watching stuff on Netflix like House MD and Nurse Jackie. When it was Dawn’s turn to pick, she said we should watch Supernatural, she had been watching it since day one and we would probably like it.

At the time, it was live in S11 and there were 10 seasons on Netflix and I was like “11 seasons is a huge commitment” and she said “Yeah but I think it’s the last season, and if it helps any, it stars 2 hot dudes that just keep getting hotter every season!” So I listened to her pitch, she knows I love bromance, and assured me if I enjoyed House and Wilson’s bromance, I would LOVE Sam and Dean’s, and it has a lot of religious elements which she knew I was interested in. So we watched the first 2 episodes.

I will admit, I wasn’t sold. Sam and Dean were cute and they had interesting interactions with each other but they were too young for me to consider “hot” and I didn't think they were very good actors. Not only that, but the color was nearly black and white which bothered me, and made the dark scenes almost impossible for me to see and low budget horror isn’t my thing at all.

Dawn was disappointed and didn't think I gave the show much of a chance, Sarah kinda liked it, she was about the same age as Sam and he was her favorite. So I agreed to watch the first 2 seasons, but if I still wasn’t sold, we move on.

I’d say the first episode to really impact me was Faith. Until that point, I didn’t think Sam cared all that much for Dean. I felt like Dean was (forgive me y’all) whiney, clingy, and too immature for me to believe he was 26-27 yrs old. I thought Sam was snobby and Jared, as an actor, was trying too hard. However, Faith changed my mind about Sam. It showed he really did love Dean. This was very important for my love of bromance. If one seems to want to get far away from the other, then that’s not very bromantic., but the scene in the Hospital when Dean says “I’m gonna die and there's nothing you can do about it” and Sam says “Watch me” made me go “hmmmmmm”

Season 1 did get better, but the first half of season 2 still had me thinking I wouldn't want to continue watching. Playthings was the next episode to impact me. No, not really because of the Wincesty-ness of it because TBH drunk Sam was cringy to me LOL but I loved Sam’s rescue scene in the pool! After that episode, S2 was better and by the time we got to All Hell Breaks Loose, I knew I was hooked!

I never would have thought such a show would become so much a part of my life that I'm literally heartbroken that it's almost over., I wonder where I'll be the next time Leap Day rolls around. I wonder if I will still have such fond memories of that one time, the Leap Day was literally, Supernatural.

#supernatural #my 4th anniversary #i love this show #sam and dean forever #my stuff #spn

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haich-slash-cee · 5 years ago

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Being Human (UK)

This is a show that I recommend to people... but I add a lot of caveats.

The recommendation: A werewolf, vampire and ghost are flatmates. This show is hilarious! So much macabre and slice of life humor! And horror and whump!? Also, the show was run by a side-channel of BBC (BBC3) and I guess they had no production money, so the actors mostly look human and they just refer to each other as being a 500-year old vampire or ghost or whatever. Which makes it even better. The werewolf is Jewish, recites a Jewish prayer at least once, and hangs out watching “The Real Hustle” with the vampire. They work in a hospital as janitors. The ghost has a habit of making everyone tea to soothe herself and the flat is cluttered with tea mugs everywhere all the time. Also, people do get fang-y or wolf-y or do weird poltergeist stuff. And gore happens.

Longish post, more below the cut.

PS, this is the 2008-2013 UK version of Being Human, which I hear had a cult following. There’s certainly stuff on Tumblr. I found the BBC version through the US remake of Being Human, but I’m much more charmed by the BBC version. (The US version has the vampire and werewolf as hospital doctors? Why?) Also I watched the show maybe 4, 5 years ago, so impressions are from that.

And the caveats: There’s a lot of sexism which was hard to watch. It’s engrained in the premise and plot and occasional gross sexist jokes. And there’s other problematic stuff in the writing. It’s like having glass shards show up the meal you are enjoying, and it’s why I’m not sure I’ll rewatch the series (or not in it’s entirety, anyway). There’s also a limited spinoff web series called Becoming Human which also had some problems for me, including some gross sexism and fatphobia. (John Boyega from Star Wars does show up as a character in that series, for anyone interested.)

Back to Being Human and overall series recommendations. So the 1st season was good. I kind of forgot what happened in the 2nd and 3rd season (I think they got depressing and slow?). The 4th season picked up again, much to my surprise, and I remember liking the 4th and 5th season a lot. Even though [spoilers] there was a complete cast change by this time. But it worked, somehow. The show did go from at least having one woman of color to having an all-white cast at the end, which was not great. And there’s other racism too.

For people who like their happily-ever-after: uhhh so I vaguely recall that a lot of characters don’t really get a happy ending. Granted, half of them are walking around dead already, so...? Overall, the ending of the 5th season is... Is that a happy ever after? Happy for now? The Bonus on the DVD kind of makes it a happy-for-now with a continued possibility? It’s an acceptable HFN?

.....And now, the notes for all the hurt/comfort people and whumpers:

Holy crap people, there is SO much h/c and whump!?

OK first -- George the werewolf. George’s transformation sequence, SUPER whumpy.

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Also, George ends up naked often, come to think. And he screams a lot during the show, for various reasons. The actor himself, in the bonus DVD interviews I think, cheerfully says something like, “People really like the way George screams, I do too.” (This is like when David Tennant cheerfully talked about how he enjoys playing a character who is unconscious and sick and gets fussed over by people.) And George is a very sympathetic, nerdy character who is easy to feel for. Who occasionally turns into a SNARLY SCARY WEREWOLF AGAINST HIS WILL. As mentioned, I think I liked season 1 George more than seasons 2 or 3.

Emotional hurt/comfort -- so Annie the Ghost provides a lot of the emotional centering, as I recall. Throughout all 5 seasons, all the characters lean on each other for support and there’s a lot of lovely warm fuzzies from that. Also, one of the later werewolf characters, Tom, is generally a sweet kid. I’m glad they didn’t do too much of the transformation horror with him, honestly. George/Russel Tovey could carry that, but I thought Tom’s strong point was looking puppy-eyed and folorn-eyebrow’d and trying to navigate the world with a mix of naivety and half-feral-ness.

Above: exhausted naps on the couch.

Below: Classic Being Human humor. A review of house rules and vampire stabbing etiquette, between Annie and Tom --

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[Spoilers from here on] Okay, so as mentioned, the cast changed over between season 4-5. And to my surprise, I think I loved the new trio as much as, or more than, the original trio. I liked how loud Alex the ghost was. And I liked both Annie and Alex.

Also, I did not expect this either, but I got so interested in Hal! Yo! First of all, Hal is a centuries-old Vampire and speaks/looks like, idk, a Regency Character. And then 19-yr old Tom puts Hal to work at a fast food shop and bosses him around, and Hal’s indignation is hilarious. So already, this is excellent.

And somehow, Hal is very, very whumpy? So: the character of a “vampire who is trying to be good and suffers” is not new, and I’ve encountered versions where I haven’t been interested. (I was lukewarm about Mitchell, the original vampire in the show.) But for whatever reason, I really dug Hal. Maybe, for me, Hal was just the right mix of very serious and earnest but also ridiculous and tragic all at once. (I read some interviews with the actor Damien Molony, who mentioned how he’d done a lot of history and addiction research in to prep for the role. The new trio actors also had a lot of chemistry and fun on sets, it sounds like. So I might be picking up all that.)

Also, Hal is actually two characters -- the ridiculous indignant serious Good Hal who is desperately trying to keep the horrible, rude, murderous, Bad Hal from taking over. But, as one of the show producers, a woman, cheerfully commented in the DVD extras: “And then Bad Hal shows up, which is great, everyone likes a bit of Bad Hal”.

Honestly, why do we even pretend to hide our fascination with the macabre and the whump, when showrunners and actors are cheerfully not hiding it all.

Here’s clips of Good Hal in Season 4:

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Oh, I forgot about this part until I rewatched the last clip -- but at the end of season 4, Hal asks his flatmates to forcibly bind him to a chair, because he’s trying to fight off Bad Hal. Based on my perusing of the whump community, pretty sure that scenario is of interest to someone.

Also notable is the episode “No Care, All Responsibility” (Series 5 ep 3). In one scene in particular, where Natasha has offered Hal a way to control his bloodlust and there’s this mix of vulnerability and power with Hal asking Natasha to put a stake against his heart, I remember thinking -- “I bet a woman wrote this ep and I bet she knew exactly what she wanted”. And I was right, that woman is Sarah Dollard, a queer woman who has also written a lot of other things (including Doctor Who). She also wrote Being Human goofy web extra eps with Alex, Hal and Tom called “Alex’s Unfinished Business” and they are so good ! (Interview).

Also... the opening 3-minute backstory in “No Care...” made me cry. You get a glimpse of the show’s baddie showing real care and emotion in rescuing this little kid (an important character). When this kind of scene is done well, it just gets me. every. time.

Anyway here’s an appearance of Bad Hal (much later), being completely awful, murdering people and turning them into vampires and singing Broadway tunes during this.

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Side note on Vampire narratives. Although Hal’s narrative arc of season 5 was interesting, and I’m aware this is show is urban fantasy, I still have qualms of the show enforcing IRL stigmas/ideas that addition is incurable and addicts are doomed. They’re not. (General overview on NIH page.) Addiction research is a growing field. From listening to NPR and reading articles, my impression is that addiction treatment will change quickly in the next few years. Related to the vampire blood addiction trope, Terry Pratchett covers vampires finding ways to be “dry” (one vampire, Maladict, swaps out blood addiction for coffee addiction) and you can find fanfics about the topic as well. (General link to Being Human Ao3 fanfics, why not.)

Side note on Hal’s dual characters -- recently, I did consider, “Is there overlap with Hal and portrayals of Dissociative Identity Disorder (MPD) folks?” IRL DID people have complained about movies with gross portrayals of people with DID. To me, Being Human’s Hal feels removed from that and closer to a fantasy.... but, I’m also not multi, so.

* Update: after having learned more about plural history, I’m even less sure now. (Note: my opinions are of someone who isn’t plural, as far as I know, so note that.) There’s a number of early problematic movies and books that hugely affected the popular narratives of plural people in the west, and still affect how therapists and non-plural people treat plural people even today. These include the movie “The Three Faces of Eve”, which has the narrative of “Good Eve, Bad Even, and later smushed together become ‘Fixed Eve’ or whatever”. There’s practically a whole lecture series on how the books/movies were made with sensationalism and formulas in mind and pretty gross things. Chris Costner Sizemore, the IRL Eve, had to fight the movie studios in court because the studios claimed they owned her life story. (There’s practically a whole lecture series on early plural history in the west, I might link more information later). Like, even today, multi people feel pressured to hide their plurality because they are afraid singlets or other people are gonna say “oh so which one of you is the ax murderer”, or that they are going to be fired from work. So.

This post turned into a “Being Human seasons 4 + 5 Appreciation Post”. I guess Season 1 and 4, 5 were my favorite. I watched the show through library DVDs, but I think there’s eps of the show on YouTube. The DVD extras are probably on this YouTube playlist?

(Also, there is a pilot episode, with different actors except George/Russel Tovey. I don’t think one needs to watch the pilot to watch the main series; I kind of recall that the main series recycled some of the pilot. There is a funny scene in the pilot where George and Mitchell meet Annie.)

Being Human: a macabre, hilarious, horror-filled, flawed, sometimes dragging, emotional, whumpy, oddball show that I still think about sometimes.

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Hey! Can you rec some obikin and obianidala fics with bottom anakin? I feel like they’re always so hard to find

Thanks for sending this love!!💝💝💝😊😊😊 I’m super sorry for answering this late!!:((( This legit took me 500 yrs to post but I did it y’all!!! *collapses*

Here’s some that I read that are bottom!anakin!😊💝😊 I tried to rec some that I haven’t recced before!! I hope you enjoy these as much as I have!!! These fics are always so damn lovely to read and I absolutely love them!!💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝 I hope you like this rec list!! I’m super sorry for the wall of text and lack of read more I tired to add it but tumblr wouldn’t let me and I cry :((

Obikin

https://archiveofourown.org/works/18053237 Desire by @katelgranny : First of all?????? This fic is a goddamn gift and I am living for it!!!! It’s one where it Anakin craves that d/s relationship and wants to be told what to do but it also explores Anakin’s wants and his issues with it and the way he sees Obi-Wan. And I really love the structure of the fic where Anakin is still a mess and knows what he wants but doesn’t know how to ask for it. That Obi-Wan absolutely loves Anakin so much and would do this for him-give him that guiding hand he wants so much and I love the portrayal of their relationship in this!! I really love the way it flows to, that it’s about Anakin’s fantasies and what he wants and him trying to figure it out because he never thought of Obi-Wan that way before and then you see him trying to sort out his feeling and desires. Honestly this fic is everything to me!!! The characterization and the writing and the pacing of this fic is all just so damn gorgeous!!! This fic has quickly become one of my faves tbh!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17666315 Baby, Put On Heart-Shaped Sunglasses by @tarvek-sturmvoraus : I honestly owe Destiny my life????😭😭🙏🏽 Like seriously bless her for writing this fic and filling my prompt bc this fic is everything to me!!! I’m always here for spoiled!bratty!Anakin!! Everything from the pet names to the humor to Palpatine’s life being ruined and yeeting his com out the window!!! That Obi-Wan loves spoiling Anakin and Anakin getting him to sign a written confession and just how much of a brat he is in this fic is an absolute treasure!🔥🔥🔥🔥💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16521950 Let It Happen by @gffa : God I owe Moonlight my entire life for this fic 😭😭😍😍😍💕💕💕💕 It’s a oneshot based on a text post of mine and tbh I still owe her two fics that are coming along!!! It’s Anakin getting slowly taken apart by Obi-Wan’s fingers, getting fingerfucked by his Master and only getting what Obi-Wan will give him. Obi-Wan stretching him out and rubbing at his sweet spot just absolutely ruining Anakin until he comes right and there, imaging how Obi-Wan will give him his cock and as he comes from just having three fingers buried inside him. And Obi-Wan spanking him and just god this fic is so damn good and Obi-Wan cuddling him at the end just ahhhhhhh #fuck the noise out of Anakin Skywalker’s head 2kforever!!💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10876062 Bound Up By You by @gffa : One of the things that I absolutely love about Moonlight’s writing is her use of the unreliable narrator when it comes to Anakin in this fic!!! I love her characterization of the both of them and the way she writes their relationship and especially the way she writes Anakin’s voice in this!! That who he thinks Obi-Wan is-the way he thinks Obi-Wan will react to his messy wants and desires isn’t how he would react. Anakin who wants to be tied up so badly and ride the fuck out of Obi-Wan is just so satisfying to read!! And I just love that abut this fic-that Anakin is so adamant that Obi-Wan wouldn’t understand or want this when in reality he would!! This fic is just one of my absolute faves from her and it’s just as gorgeous and wonderful as her other fics!!💦💦💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10659555 Needing Attention by @gffa : Moonlight…..your mind…..👌🏽🙏🏽 This fic always hits all the right spots for me because Anakin just wants Obi-Wan’s attention to be on him all the time-wants to have everything that Obi-Wan has to give and just wants more and more. That Anakin isn’t satisfied until he gets to have Obi-Wan’s attention all on him and when he does get all his attention he isn’t really prepared for it and I’m just so fucking here for it!! And I’m absolutely here for how much of mess Anakin becomes and how he melts with Obi-Wan touching him and giving him attention!! Holy shit it’s so fucking amazing tbh!!!🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10487280 Reunion by @gffa Can I just???? Cry about how much I love this fic???????? Like??????? It is an actual gift and I’d like to thank not only god but Jesus too!!!! It’s a ficwhere Obi-Wan was taken prisoner instead of Anakin because he knows Anakin wouldn’t have made it and Obi-Wan gosh Obi-Wan who missed Anakin just as much and decided that he wouldn’t push him away, that he wants Anakin just as much and Anakin does!!! And I absolutely loved the way Anakin needed to reassure himself that Obi-Wan was really there with him!! What really made this fic for me was the #touch starved obikin bc I really and absolutely adore and love touch starved obikin so much!! The writing and the characterization is absolutely lovely!!🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17412617 Passionate Reunion: Holy fuck this fic ruined my life in the best way possible!!! It’s a fic where they’ve missed each other after being apart for so long!! One where’s there’s a bit of teasing before Obi-Wan eats Anakin out before fucking him!! It’s a fic where Obi-Wan shows just how much he missed Anakin and what he though while being gone!!! It’s just very lovely and satisfying to read!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17337386 One Touch And I Ignite: This fic is one of those that I just could not get enough of! It’s one where Anakin makes different choices and the portrayal of Anakin and Obi-Wan’s relationship is just so damn good!! It’s one of my favorite spectator about the entire fic tbh, from the way that the undercurrent d/s relationship is there and that Anakon very much wants and craves that guiding hand is just damn wonderfully done!! I love the pacing of it and how it deals with verything-that Anakin works through his problems and his feelings (with other people’s help). That Anakin’s love for Padme is acknowledged, but it’s a possessive type of love, that it’s always been about soothing him and her beauty and how she’s his and it’s Anakin learning to let her go and Padme being her own person and just I really love the way it was written!!! That Anakin in this isn’t an entirely reliable narrator through the fic. It’s a fic where Anakin learns to deal with his emotion and his angers and that he’s loved and he’s a mess. That there’s Senators and Jedi investigating all the shady stuff Palpatine has been doing in the background and I am absolutely here for it! It also deals with Anakin’s issues with wanting the things that he does-that he wants to be told what to do and just this fic is so lovely and one of my absolute favorites!! It’s a slow burn fic that leaves so much room for everything to happen and doesn’t leave anything out and it’s just really so incredibly satisfying to read!!!💦💦💦💦💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17151722 Maintenance: Holy fuck y'all this fic is just so damn satisfying to read!! Obi-Wan and Anakin are doing negotiations on a planet when Anakin started mouthing off at the wrong moment and the leaders of the planet decided Anakin needed to be disciplined and that Obi-Wan should be the one to do it. It’s just so damn hot and it hits every single spot, especially when Anakin gets bent over his lap and gets spanked and it’s clear just how much Anakin is enjoying it!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10793313/chapters/23940549 Equinox by @writegowrite : Lily’s writing is always so damn lovely!! This fic most definitely has to be one of my faves from her!! It’s a gothic horror fic where canon!Anakin and Obi-Wan meet their Sith!counterparts on a planet. It’s a fic that absolutely draws you in and leaves wanting more and the writing is absolutely stunning in every way possible!!! It also deals with Anakin’s wants and desires as well as his issues with a d/s relationship. That he wants to be told what to do-that he craves that guiding hand but thinks he shouldn’t. And god honestly I will always love their sith!counterparts in this and I for one got really attached to them-that they’re like Anakin and Obi-Wan except they’re not. And their interactions with each other absolutely make this fic for me!! But what also makes this fic me other than they’re relationship is the gothic horror aspect of this fic and I will always be here for that!!! It’s written and done so damn wonderfully tbh!!! It’s a fic that’s so damn lovely: everything from the writing to the characterization!!! Escpecially for the warmth and love between sith!Obi-Wan and Anakin and canon!Anakin and Obi-Wan!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10348461 Home Again by @writegowrite I swear to god Lily came for my life with this fic!!! It’s a fic where Anakin doesn’t listen until Obi-Wan makes him behave and listen-one where Anakin very much craves the guiding hand at the back of his neck and to be told what to do! Anakin who wants so much but doesn’t know how to ask for it-that he wants all of his Master’s attention on him and to have the noise be fucked out of his and just damn I love it!!! The writing and the image is just so damn gorgeous!!! 🔥🔥🔥💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9054601 Coda by @writegowrite : I’m pretty sure everyone has read Coda already, and if you haven’t You should bc it’s honestly such a gorgeous fic-everything from the characterization to the writing to the plot, it’s all so damn beautiful and it leaves you wanting more with every chapter you read!! This one will always be one of my all time fave fics ever!!! It’s a modern au where Anakin is a ballet dancer and Obi-Wan is choreographer for the company and it’s just so absolutely charming. Their interactions and the fluff and the angst and just how much they want more of eachother but don’t know how to ask! The love and affection between them in this fic is just everything to me tbh!!!! It’s a fic that is so damn good and always so satisfying to read in every single way possible and I love it so much!!🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/7324675 The World Undone by @writegowrite : This is one that I’ve recently read and I’m still reading it but holy shit it just pulls you right in!!! All of Lily’s fics are super lovely and the writing is so gorgeous!! This one is a sith!Obi-Wan au and it’s a seduction to the dark side where things aren’t always how they seem and I love the way tis fic is written it’s so damn beautiful and I cry and it’s so damn good in every single way possible!!! I love this au so much it’s so damn good!!!!💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8713081 Release by @writegowrite : #God bless 🙏🏽 This fic is so damn hot and so damn satisfy to read!!!! It’s one that I go back to and never get tired of reading!!! Everything from the way Anakin whines and wants more and the way Obi-Wan fucks him as he pleases and the toughness of it and how much they both just want more, more, more is so damn fucking wonderful!!!💦💦💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6390733/chapters/14633164 Seed by @belldreams This is another one of my all time fave fics ever!!!! Goddamn the writing is so so beautifully and the characterization always leaves me for dead and I die and I just love this fic????? I love the progression of their relationship I love Anakin’s a voice in this and I love Obi-Wan’s too!! It’s a fic that just always leaves shook and I die every time I read it!!🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/15233109 A Spring Haze by @belldreams BRUH!!! This fic!!!! Holy shit I love this so much????? It’s so so damn good and the writing holy shot the writing I die!!! It’s so damn beautiful and the characterization is so damn spot on and I love how how bratty Anakin is in this and the characterization of both Anakin and Obi-Wan!!! It’s so damn good and I enjoy it so damn much!!!💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/7545853 Good Boy: This fic is also one that enjoyed reading!! It has Obi-Wan collaring Anakin bc Anakin craves and wants it and it’s just such a damn satisfying fic to read!!! That Obi-Wan will do this bc it’s Anakin and bc it’s Anakin that wants this and it’s just such a very lovely fic!!!💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5803273 Master: This one is a university au with professor!obi-wan and Anakin being his student who is crushing on him (and often thinks about him fucking him) and holy shit it’s fuck amazing y'all like this fic is definitely a must read!!!! It’s a oneshot and it always has me coming back for more!!! Everything from the writing to the characterization to the way the d/s dynamic is written absolutely makes the fic!!! Especially when Obi-Wan makes Anakin behave and the way Anakin just wants more-wants to be told what to do, just everything about this fic is so damn wonderful!! 💦💦🔥🔥💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5568490 Rough Day: Just as the title says, Obi-Wan has a rough day and fucks Anakin so damn thoroughly and Anakin enjoys it so damn much!!! And I really absolutely love the rough edge when they fuck, that it’s something they both want and crave and it’s just so damn satisfying to read!!! Honestly this fic is just so damn good in every way possible!!!🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5448797 Five Hundred: This fic is one where they’re in an established relationship and it’s a fic that I will read again and again!! It’s a fic that I enjoy so much for everything that this fic is!!! The writing and the dynamic are so damn good!!! Everything from the writing to the characterization to the interactions of everyone to how bratty Anakin acts in this and how Obi-Wan fucks the noise out of his head absolutely make this fic for me!!🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/11573538 Don’t Let This Be The End by @anikenobi WHAT A GODDAMN GORGEOUS BLESSING OF A FIC THIS IS!!! Anakin is so very needy and bratty and desperate in this fic and I love it!! Obi-Wan decides to tease him and punish him a bit after being in the front likes for so long, it’s sweet too because they do love each other so much and it’s honestly so amazing to read!!! That they come him from a party and they’re desperate for each other, that Obi-Wan teases him until Anakin is such a whiny and needy mess. That Obi-Wan wants him to be good for him and Anakin promises he’ll be so good for him if he just gives him what he wants and there’s this rough edge to it and its so damn gorgeous!!! 🔥💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13093920 All I’ve Ever Wanted by @kierkegarden: Fun fact I literally had to yell about my feelings about this fic to August after I read it bc MY FUCKING FEELS Y’ALL!!! Like August didn’t have to come for me the way she did goddamn!!! Seriously though this fic is so so damn gorgeous and so haunting and the writing is so damn lovely!!! And I absolutely love the characterization of Obi-Wan and Padme and Anakin in this!!! I love the feelings and the realization of them and gosh especially this like “Maybe you just wanted to fuck me while you were my superior.” To which Obi-Wan responds with, “Maybe you just wanted to be fuck by me while you were my inferior.” Like the build up and their voices in this just leave me so fucking shook????? Like August JFC I owe you my entire life!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦🔥💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/14193495/chapters/32717064 All Spaces Are Liminal by @kierkegarden : This is another one of my fave fics by August and it’s a sith au and just so damn fucking gorgeous and August also came for me life with this fic and I cry!!! But like in the best way possible!! I love the writing and characterization it’s so damn gorgeous and absolutely love the way this fic is set up and I love the entire au so much tbh!!! It’s so damn lovely and I love this fic so so much!🔥🔥💦💦🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17493704 Stability by @singmanyfaces : I really adore this fic!! It’s a fic where Obi-Wan loves quieting the noise in Anakin’s head and Anakin is so peaceful after getting thoroughly fucked! It’s a softer and just so damn lovely!!! That the gentle moments between them and the intimacy and how in love they are with each other is written so beautifully just like everything else in the fic!! It’s super satisfying to read and one of my faves!🔥🔥💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/11590083 Young Lust: This one is such a damn good and satisfying fic to read!!! It’s Anakin as a mechanic and Obi-Wan as a professor!!! And I also really enjoy this fic for how bratty and demanding Anakin is in it and how much Obi-Wan loves that!!! And their relationship in it is so fucking good and I love it!!! Especially for how much Obi-Wan adores him already and how much Anakin adores him too!!! It’s just such a lovely au and I love this fic so much!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8938735 Anything For You: this a oneshot and takes place in modern au but ahhhh I just love it so much!!! It has Anakin and Obi-Wan sexting and the d/s dynamic is so perfect and Anakin who wants to listen and please and Obi-Wan who loves taking care of him and fuck it’s just so perfect and I love it!!! It does have Obi-Wan slapping Anakin (it’s consensual and something that Anakin enjoys in the fic) incase that’s something that isn’t for you! 🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10811946 Better Living Through Lack of Chemistry: This one is an abo au where they’re stuck on a planet and Anakin has run out of suppressants. And I really just love this fic so much, not to just for the writing but also the interpretation of their relationship and of Obi-Wan and Anakin in it!! And how much Anakin loves Obi-Wan but wouldn’t dare to ask for this and how much Obi-Wan loves him and would do anything for him!! And that they’ve both thought about this when they were alone and it’s just honestly such a damn good fic!!💦💦💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/14603040/chapters/33751389 Tumblr Prompt Drabbles by @captain-kenobi This one is a collection of drabbles and they’re all just so damn good!! I really love Drew’s writing especially when it comes to Anakin bc I love the voice she give home and Obi-Wan!! And I love that it’s angsts at times but like a soft angst of that makes sense??? And I love how she writes bratty!Anakin or the way she writes him as being needy and demanding and it’s just such a joy to read!!! But I also really love the softer side she gives them and how much they’ve missed each other! It’s just such a good series of drabbles to read and I love it!💕💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13788882/chapters/31697406 My Moon, After the Tide: This fic is another personal fave of mine and all time fave!!! It’s anakin having been temporarily paralyzed after going on a mission and Obi-Wan taking care of him. It’s also Anakin and Obi-Wan realizing their feelings and Anakin enjoying having Obi-Wan have control/taking care of him while like that! The writing is so damn beautiful in this and god I love the characterization of both of them and their feelings and dilemmas they have about it and just it’s such a goddamn gorgeous fic and I love it!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9351233/chapters/31551594 Tumblr Prompts by @glare-gryphon : This chapter is an au of Negotiation, where things might have been different had Obi-Wan not done what he did and how their relationship might have gone had things taken a different turn or how it might have stayed the same!! And I love the last line at the end tbh bc it just gives such a gorgeous haunting feel to it, bc of Anakin’s own struggles with his desires and Obi-Wan being who he is. I realize enjoyed this chapter so much!!🔥🔥🔥💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6032002 Admire The Foilage: WHAT AN ICONIC FIC TBH!!!! God I love this fic so much!! It has one of my fave tropes ever: sex pollen!!! It’s Anakin getting fucked by both a plant and Obi-Wan while on a mission and just holy shit this fic is just so amazing!! Everything from the plant tentacles and to Obi-Wan finding him like that and Anakin being hella thirsty for Obi-Wan and enjoying the plant tentacles like yes!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/12325608 Lines: This one is also one that I really love bc of the style and also because of the way Anakin keeps pushing Obi-Wan until Obi-Wan fucks him and how also because for how much Anakin enjoys being tied up by Obi-Wan!🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5081807 You Wanted To Be Found, Didn’t You?: Gosh I love this fic so much! It’s so me where Obi-Wan finds Anakin in a compromising position and the way Anakin teases him is just so damn good and it’s so damn satisfying to read!! Not only with how he is the fic but the way that Obi-Wan absolutely adores him and wants to absolutely tail him and it’s just such a damn good fic!!! I love everything from the way they tease each other to the way Anakin just wants Obi-Wan’s attention!! And I really love how Obi-Wan tries to hold back but he just loves him so much and god it’s just so damn good!!🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6060861 This Makes You Mine: One of the reasons I really enjoy this fic is for how bratty Anakin is in this fic!! And the way Obi-Wan puts him in his place and pulls his hair like yes pls!!! It’s just such a good fic that I love so much!! And I love the way Anakin keeps on being bratty and keeps pushing Obi-Wan until Obi-Wan fucks him and how much they both enjoy that like #god bless!!🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6060691 The Wakeup Call: I really enjoyed this fic so much!!! It’s one where as the title suggests, is Obi-Wan waking Anakin up and both of them enjoying the hell out of it!! I really love this fic so much because one it’s so wonderful and two it’s just such a joy to read and how much they love and enjoy each other!! It’s really good and one the I adore! And I especially love the way Obi-Wan teases him in this and how much Anakin loves it!!💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/3107201 Never Out Of My Sight Or Heart: This fic is another one that I absolutely adore!!! I love the pacing of it and the way their relationship progresses in it!!! I also really love that Anakin is very much protective of Obi-Wan despite the fact that Obi-Wan is more than capable of protecting himself bc it’s the same way Obi-Wan is protective of Anakin and I just love it!! I love the writing and the characterization and the realization of feelings and how those feelings come to a head when they realize it!!! It’s just so damn satisfying to read and I love it!!💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/12817194 Lose Myself Tonight: The sith au of my dreams tbh!! I just love bratty!Anakin so damn much and this fic does such a lovely job with that!! I love Their characterization in this and the way Obi-Wan makes him behave and how Anakin just wants his Master’s attention all on him!! I love this fic so damn much and it’s one that I always go back too!! And I especially love the way Obi-Wan knows exactly what Anakin is doing and indulges him!!🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6054631 Locked Up Tighter: I know I’ve said it before but I just really absolutely love bratty!Anakin with all of my heart tbh!!! This fic does such a wonderful job with bratty!Anakin and how Obi-Wan handles him!! That Obi-Wan absolutely him in his place and Anakin loves that!! And the way that Anakin gets all whiny and desperate for Obi-Wan’s touch and how Obi-Wan makes him wait !! It’s just such a wonderful fic and one the I love reading!!🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6254191 Colliding: I just really adore this fic too!!! I love their relationship in this and just how much of a brat Anakin acts in this and it’s so damn wonderful!! And I love the writing so much it’s so beautiful and I love Obi-Wan’s thoughts throughout this fic bc goddamn he loves and adores Anakin so much and the way he wonders how different things might have been-had they met in a different time, as different people and how he thinks he would still love him like not gonna lie y’all I was in my feels because these two deserve so much good stuff and they’re so happy!! Gosh the way Anakin is also so into being chocked by Obi-Wan like #god bless!!! And just this fic is super amazing and I love it!!🔥💦🔥💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/12842958 Zelteon Assistance by @igaveyoufairwarningThis fic is one that I absolutely enjoyed so much!!! I love the d/s dynamic in it and the way Anakin has these desires that he didn’t realize he had and the way Obi-Wan absolutely loves him and the way Anakin craves this-how much he wants this! I love the writing and the characterization of it so much and it’s really one that I enjoy reading!!🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5897314/chapters/13594078 Tell Me What It Is You Want: This one is a university au that I really adore with all my heart!! I love their relationship and the way it progresses here and it’s just such a charming fic!!! And I love that Anakin is so damn thirsty for Obi-Wan and the way he gives him heart eyes throughout the fic!! And I also really love Obi-Wan in this so much bc he knows exactly what he’s doing and just the ust in this fic is so damn good and this fic is so wonderful!!💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6323521 Like A Supernova: What an #iconic fic tbh!!! Seriously this fic will always be an all time fic of mine and I just really absolutely love it so much!!! It’s a sith au fic and god I just absolutely love Obi-Wan’s characterization in this!!! Bc Obi-Wan falls for Anakin in this au-that he loves him so much that he fell for him and the way it’s portrayed is just so damn gorgeous!! And I love Anakin’s characterization so much too!! Bc I think his actions, both their actions tbh, are perfectly in canon because where Obi-Wan goes Anakin follows and that’s one of the many things that I love about this fic-that Anakin would absolutely follow as I-Wan to the dark side if he fell first. And I love that Anakin does have a dilemma in this because he wants so desperately to do the right thing but he also wants to stay with Obi-Wan. And they way that Anakin declares his loyalty to Obi-Wan and when he recites the sith oath and I legit died!! I love this fic so so much and it’s just so beautifully written and I love it!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6907405 Skyfall: This fic is a personal fave of mine! There’s so many things I love about it-the writing is so, so damn gorgeous! The characterization of Anakin and Obi-Wan in it is everything to me tbh! That Anakin teases him and wants to have his attention on all on him, and the way Obi-Wan wants more-that he loves Anakin but tries not want him and just the relationship between is written in such a stunning way that I always come back to it!! The relationship between them and the fic itself has d/s undertones to it! This fic is just absolutely perfect in every single way possible and I love it so much! 💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9799646 Destination: Nowhere by @skywalker-anakin : Can I just say that Kass blessed all of us with this hella amazing fic??? Seriously though this fic is damn gorgeous in every way possible from the writing to the characterization! I absolutely love the portrayal of the d/s dynamic between them, the way that Obi-Wan gently doms him is just perfect tbh!! This fic gave me everything I never knew I wanted or needed and it’s absolutely one of my all time faves!!🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5863810 It Felt Like Exploding: This is another fic that I absolutely adore!!! One of the many things that I love about this fic is the way their relationship is portrayed in it!! Their voices are so good in it and they way they so clearly adore each other and also the way Obi-Wan fucks Anakin into next Sunday is something this I absolutely love about this fic!!! And their banter is just so good and that even with the war going on they still make time for this, that they love each other so much and you can see it in the fic and I love it so damn much!! There’s some softer moments too and I love it because it’s a reminder that thing weren’t always bad-that they loved each other so damn much before things happened. It’s just such a lovely fic and I love it!!🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13483197 Things Freely Given: This fic is one with vampire!Obi-Wan with a sith take on it and it’s really good!! It’s Obi-Wan not wanting Anakin bc he’s afraid of what he’ll do and Anakin who refuses to give up on him. And I also really like their voices in this one bc there’s this protective feel to it and that Obi-Wan wants to have this one thing, that he wants to love Anakin and that Anakin wants Obi-Wan just as much. It’s super good and I enjoyed it s much!!💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/16115249 The Scared Texts by @teambakerst This fic is so !!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥 Obi-Wan has an exhibitionism streak, that Obi-Wan gets off on it and that he teaches Anakin, that he fucks him in different positions and has him suck him off and Anakin enjoys it just as much as Obi-Wan does, that thrill of nearly getting caught and both of them getting off on it 🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13196715 Saber’s Hilt: this fic came for my life too tbh!!!! One of the many reasons why I love this fic so much is the way it has Obi-Wan teaching Anakin to be patient and to ask for what he wants and fuck it’s just so hot and amazing and I love it!! There’s spanking and Obi-Wan calls him a slut and that he’s his just as much as Obi-Wan is Anakin’s. Just-I just really enjoy this fic so much!! There’s this slight roughness to it, that they both get of on and it’s still tender and sweet. That they both indulge in this and that Obi-Wan cuddles him and praises him throughout the fic and it’s just so damn satisfying to read and it’s def one of my fics!💦💦💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9107710 Punishment: Listen I’m always here for Anakin being punished by Obi-Wan and Obi-Wan making him learn how to behave and follow directions! And I will also always be here for spoiled!Anakin!! This is also one of my all time faves because of how bratty Anakin is in it and how much he just wants Obi-Wan’s attention on him!! It has Obi-Wan edging Anakin with a vibrating butt plug as Obi-Wan feels him though the force bond and knows that Anakin gets close to his orgasm but can’t quite get there on his own. And Obi-Wan deciding that he’s learned his lesson and thoroughly fucking him until he’s a wrung out mess! It’s just so so damn good and I love it!!💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/11472330 Brightside: Everyone needs a Mr and Mrs Smith au and this fic does such an amazing job with that au!! It’s one of my fave fics tbh!!! Just as the au suggests they’re assassins and fighting and making up with some angry and satisfying make up sex with Obi-Wan fucking Anakin on the couch and until he gets whiny and they’re both wring out and oversensitive! It’s such a good fic and one that I love!!💦💦💦💦💦 🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6104400 Somewhere, This Is True: This fic will forever be one of my all time faves ever!!!👌🏽🙏🏽💝💝 It’s a canon divergence au where Obi-Wan has a dreams about Mustafar happening and one where he constantly wonders how they could have come to that-that he could never hurt Anakin except that he does, he sees what happens in the dreams and what happens. And it’s an AU where Obi-Wan doesn’t so much as realize his feelings instead admits them. Anakin hears exactly what he needs to and how that changes everything. That Anakin and Obi-Wan are so very in love and its shows and it’s raw and I love it so damn much!! Everything from the writing to the characterization is so damn gorgeous!!!🔥🔥

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/12506336

Only Ones Who know: Holy Shit y'all this fic is everything to me!!! Anakin is so content and happy to be between his two favorite people, to be between his dom and domme and how much he just wants to please them which personally for me I’ve always hc Anakin as the type of sub who wants to please his partners, who wants to be told he’s a good boy and this fic gives exactly that with Padme pegging him while Anakin sucks Obi-Wan’s dick. The way that Anakin just melts between and how safe he feels with them absolutely makes this fic for me tbh!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/12838323 Only Ones Who Taste: y'all like fuck the fic gave me everything I needed because holy fuck comeplay (cumplay? I still don’t know how it’s spelled rip me) and the fic actually inspired one of my hcs and linked it before! This fic is a sequel to Only Ones Who Know and it just hit all the right spots for me and the way that Anakin just wants to please his partners. Wants to make them feel good and wants them to make him feel owned by them and just goddamn it brought me back to life. That Padme has him eat her out and the way Anakin loves it, loves that Padme pulls him by his hair as he goes down on her and Obi-Wan loves watching them until Anakin sucks him off and he praises Anakin and pulls him off and comes on the covers and has him lick it up and just god a really satisfying fic!!💦💦💦🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6872377 Bruise: Ahhhhhhhh???!!!!!! A damn fucking good oneshot that always just satisfies me when I read it!! Obi-Wan and Padme tag team Anakin until they’re satisfied that Anakin knows he’s theirs-that they fuck and make sure he knows how loved he is and also that he belongs to them. That it’s exactly what Anakin wants after he teases them at a party, that they make sure to mark him up like he craves and also has to wait and patient until they decide he’s learned his lesson. And it’s damn good fic to read!!! That Anakin is so content to be between his dom and domme and fuck I love it!!!🔥🔥💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17735966 Physical Examination of a Submissive: This is exactly what it says!!! It’s a medical kink/role play where both Obi-Wan and Padme thoroughly dom in the way that Anakin craves. That Anakin is nervous about this scene and they comfort him and role play with him as they stretch him open and how pliant he gets as the scene goes on! That they both check in on him constantly to make sure he’s comfortable and still okay with the scene!! And I really loved that when Anakin said yellow they both immediately stopped and asked him if he was okay/what’s wrong and how Anakim just so desperately needed to come and how Obi-Wan told him he can come for them!! I just absolutely really loved the setup of this fic and how comfortable the three of them were with each other!🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/12833562 For the Sake of the Mission by @thekinkawakens : This fic is so damn good and it always leaves me so #shOoK!!!! They’re on a mission and they have to preform public sex as a ritual between Obi-Wan and Anakin. That Obi-Wan is hesitant to do this with Anakin and Anakin is all for it-that he wants this so badly! And when the two of them do give in Obi-Wan loves it just as much Anakin does!!! It’s a very lovely and gorgeous fic!!🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9351233/chapters/37737944 Tumblr Prompts by @glare-gryphon : Can I just say that Glare came for me with this one???? Like #god bless!!! It’s canon setting where Padme watches Anakin getting fucked by Obi-Wan in her office against the glass windows as she sits in her chair after her turn with Anakin. That Anakin loves being put on display like this-loves having both their attention solely on him! That he gets off on the idea that anyone could look over and see him getting fucked in plain sight in her office by the two of them. That Anakon loves being so thoroughly marked by then and how much they both love him just as much as he loves them!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/9351233/chapters/23733690 Tumblr Prompts: This one is a different chapter than the one above!! It’s also canon setting and it’s one I always go back to read!!! It’s a somewhat established relationship where Padme and Obi-Wan are very much aware of the others relationship with Anakin and that they’ve talked about this before!!! And can I just say #BLESS THE FUCK UP!!!! Like goddamn this fic came for my life and left me for dead!! It’s one where Anakin needles Obi-Wan and demands for his attention-that he gets Obi-Wan riled up enough that he fucks Anakin, puts him on his hands and knees and fucks him as he pleases as Padme l listens to Anakin whine and beg for more and Obi-Wan’s own dirty talk as he describes him to Padme. That Padme plays with her clit and fingers herself in the bathroom as this goes on and that Obi-Wan is fucking her just as much as he’s fucking Anakin and Anakin can feel both of their pleasure!!! It’s such a damn gorgeous fic and one that I absolutely love!!!🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦💦💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/10551660 Patience by @gffa : First of all Moonlight’s fics are always just such a treasure????? Like I love her characterization of Anakin and Obi-Wan and Padme and the relationship between them!!! That Anakin wants more wants to have their attention all on him and how greedy he is for it! That the slow touches they give him is meant to make him be patient and behave. And the way Anakin just whines for more-that they make him wait and even though he doesn’t want to and it’s so fucking worth it in the end! I really love the way Anakin just melts between his two favorite people until all that’s left is them and no room for anything else!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/6706048/chapters/15338128 Another Universe: WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALL!!!!! This fic is one of my faves!!! Just like it says on the tin it’s a canon divergence au where Anakin makes different choices and it changes everything!!! Where Anakin and Obi-Wan realize their feelings and it all comes to a head and one where Padme is just so done with these two disasters and always knew about their feelings for each other. That they all love each other so much-that this is the future they could have had if things had been different, if Anakin had made different choices. It’s a softer au where they get to be happy and I’m always here for that!!!🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/5606686 Crack Open: What I really love about this fic is that Anakin keeps all his feelings bottled up and Obi-Wan and Padme know this. That they work to get Anakin to the point where he absolutely melts between them. That they fuck him so thoroughly that there isn’t any room for the doubt and the pain and the anger-that they fuck the noise out of his head. And I absolutely love their relationship in this-that they really do love each other so much! That when they get Anakin to that point-when he lets everything go and it’s quiet and it’s perfect-I just really absolutely love it so much!!! And the writing and the characterization is so damn gorgeous!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8500909 It Comes To Me, As Of A Dream: This fic is a sequel to Somewhere, This Is Truth and holy shit I honestly owe this author my life!! 🙏🏽🙏🏽 It’s so damn raw and lovely and so, so gorgeous-everything from the characterization to the writing!! It’s the aftermath of what happened after the first fic and Anakin confessing to Padme what happened between him and Obi-Wan. The fic does such a goddamn gorgeous job writing the characters and the feelings of being cracked open and exposed and the realization of feelings. That Obi-Wan and Anakin have always come in matched set and that the realization shifts that differently and the three of them navigate the relationship. And I just absolutely adore the writing so much and everything about this au is so damn lovely that I cry!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

https://archiveofourown.org/works/2195865 Comfort In Wartime: #threesomescouldhave saved the galaxy!!! It’s a canon au where they give in to each other. That the three of them had these feelings underneath that finally come undone and it’s absolutely perfect!!! The way Anakin absolutely melts between his two favorite people to the way that Padme and Obi-Wan kiss to the way the three of them fuck until there isn’t any room for anything else!!! It’s so damn wonderful!!!💦💦

https://archiveofourown.org/works/7421110 A Few Smutlets: This a collection of drabbles some with obianidala and some with obikin and its so damn satisfying to read. Its has Padme pegging Anakin as he sucks Obi-Wan. Anakin riding the fuck out of Obi-Wan as Obi-Wan holds onto his hips. Padme and Obi-Wan tag teaming Anakin and ruining him. Obi-Wan fucking Anakin in front if the mirror and just honestly this fic is always so very satisfying to read!!!! The way Anakin gets to melt between his two favorite people or get so thoroughly fucked that it doesn’t leave any room for anything else!!🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

I’m definitely missing some fics but I hope you enjoy this rec, I know I had a lot of fun reccing them!!💝💝💝💝! (And if I’m missing some others I promise it wasn’t on purporse!!!💝)! I tired to talk about the fic and not just yell my feelings a out how much I love these fics so I hope I did this rev justice!! loved these fics a lot!! Also if y'all enjoy this fic rec I always have more I’d love to rec!💝💝

#obikin #obianidala #fic rec #lovely writing by lovely people #my fic recs #inquiries #lovely anon #i hope you enjoy these!!!!��💕💕💕💕

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