#surgery in general will be a pain
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not me tracking out an entire plan to finish my transition before this time next year
#thanking whoever i wasnt born in this state#bc my state is so transphobic you cant change the gender on your dl OR bc#the state i WAS born into is practically down the road from me#i can change my dl gender marker there too#i just need bottom surgery atp#and that's looking good#so the 'most' from a broad perspective i need to do is move there#and Wait i guess#is it going to be expensive as fuck? yes#surgery in general will be a pain#but i would literally rather die than go back#trane
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thinking about . ellen the night after the three set out on the orca. the last time she's mentioned in the film is after quint brushes her off over the radio, when he says that brody's just caught some fish and that they'll "bring 'em around for dinner" (specifically that they "won't be long"). but then. evidently they don't go back for dinner - they just stay overnight on the boat. that's.. potentially hours and hours without knowing if her husband is ok or even alive. did brody call her that night to let her know. she's so, so scared when he leaves. she runs off in tears. did brody call her that night to let her know he was ok i need to know :(((
#ellen unable to sleep until brody calls her. ellen unable to sleep even after brody calls her. ellen sick with anxiety knowing that#she can't do anything !! it really would fit her as a character wracked with guilt . as lorraine gary has apparently suggested#if i were any kind of fic writer.... hoo boy. but i have many ideas that will never be satisfactorily put to paper i fear#jaws 1975#ellen#brody#been housebound for over two days now while recovering from dental surgery. while the mouth pain & generally being bedridden kinda blows#i've had Sooo much time to think about characters. especially ellen & brody. head full many many thoughts
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trying to work out how much pain is normal after having teeth removed because like, we're in less pain than before the surgery, but we are in pain and weirdly the pain was mildest the day after the surgery and then started bothering us more the day after that.
our gums have felt noticeably better each day, but the pain is mostly in our jaw and that pain has been relatively consistent since day 3, and it's kind of like a dull ache in the bone. kind of a combination between migraine pain (but just in our jaw) and feeling like I've been punched in the face. it's mostly on the left side where they pulled out the molar that the dentist tried to remove in May but couldn't because it was too sensitive.
idk if it's just because the roots on that one were really deep and had like, an awkward curved shape and were apparently very close to the nerve, but it does keep making me paranoid that something's wrong even though I know logically your jaw is in fact going to be painful after having a tooth pulled out and we were expecting more pain than this and seem to have gotten relatively lucky with it
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#<- kind of?#also we've been getting more migraines which might be from our jaw clenching a lot and our ability to eat properly being kinda fucked#and we've just been very worn out which I guess is to be expected when recovering from surgery#but we also keep getting nerve pain in our face and generally feeling unwell in a way where I can't quite tell what's wrong#we're still hallucinating a lot too and have had a lot of dissociative seizures which isn't super surprising#but I'm not used to having that many in such a short amount of time. we had a bunch of them in one day and it wasn't great#oh also our stomach is fucked. it almost feels like we've got food poisoning or something and it's been like that since the surgery#idk what's happening there but it fucking sucks
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mess mess mess
#this selfie is from Sunday morning before I even knew I would get to see miw live at pukkelpop for free lmao#it was also 10 days after wisdom teeth removal surgery and yes I'm fat but also my jawww 😭😭😭#like I'm still having swelling and pain. it's going away at snails pace#AND last but not least the old kitchen laying behind me lmfao we've broken it to put the new one in and our backyard looks like a dump now#that's the messes in this picture. + me n my face generally but oh well#anna talks#self#< really need to mass post edit my selfie tag to smth else bc of the weird interactions this one gets but I have yet to decide to what
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Is my discomfort with my boobs gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, or just a general discomfort with the sensations of having a human body that comes with possible neurodivergency
#ramblings#it's probably all three tbh#it's not severe. like i can live with this. it's fine#but also i generally wish i had a flatter chest#every time i imagine myself in my head i see myself with a flatter chest#but like do i wanna go through the trouble of getting rid of them entirely#or should i just try getting a binder or something#or should i just. leave things as they are#idfk#i don't think top surgery would be an option bc money and. i'm scared of surgery honestly#and the recovery looks painful as shit#and like what if i regret it? what if i was wrong and that wasn't the best option for me?#i think i should just try to get a binder or something. just see how that works for me#and contemplate surgery when i'm older and can support myself and am more sure of whether that's right for me or not#also i'm. hesitant to call it anything bc again it's not really that severe#it's like. a thought that occassionally crosses my mind. at least once a day.. and doesn't leave for a while....#hm yeah no maybe it's not as mild as i thought it was actually. wonderful realization to come to in the middle of writing a post#anyways. idk if anyone has any binder recs or anything i'll take 'em#also maybe tips on how to approach my mom abt this?? idk if feels like something i should talk abt with her but idk how to even bring it up
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a distant friend from college asked about the recovery for getting your tonsils taken out. how do i say "it was the worst scariest most horrible recovery period ever" without totally freaking them out??? bc like they'll probably have a normal experience. i literally had the worst case scenario happen but it's extremely unlikely to happen for them. like the odds are literally less than 5%. but also how do i give advice for the average recovery when mine wasn't??? do i even tell them how bad mine was just to prepare them?? idk man
#hikey#pro tip: getting your tonsils taken out as an adult should be a last resort option#i do not regret getting mine taken out but i see the recovery as frontloading all the shit i would have had to deal with anyway#like if i hadn't gotten them out i'd be in urgent care at least 3x a year to get steroids and antibiotics every time i got sick#all the pain and discomfort and misery were just consolidated into three weeks of torture after the surgery#it's a trade off for sure - keep being sick and suffering but for shorter time intermittently OR feel the worst you've ever felt for 3weeks#in the past year i have gotten ONE cold which has only ever happened during the peak years of COVID with social distancing and masking#and it was so mild compared to every other cold and flu i've gotten it was like the average cold most people experience#again - i don't regret getting the surgery. AND. it was awful and terrifying and traumatizing bc of the complications#idk if i would have wanted someone who had experienced it to tell me how scary complications can be#that's why i'm torn telling my friend like My Truth versus general advice for recovery#disabled lyfe
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Part of making a vegan world is making a world with enough social systems in place to support all humans. It’s just not going to happen without it and a world that doesn’t support its human community, especially its disabled communities, isn’t a just one either.
There are people with food intolerances who would like to have a plant based diet but would need an elaborate food preparation routine in order to do that safely. I know people who are spending that time and money everyday which is extremely impressive but it really shouldn’t be necessary. Ideally there should be government funding towards restaurants, programs or government paid at home chef’s to cater to these needs.
Same with pollution, it would be nice to reduce the amount of plastic people use but the person who has chronic fatigue or chronic pain might need to be able to buy a pack of microwaveable food and have dinner done in two minutes rather then twenty. Or have a chef on call to prepare them what they would want at no cost. Or maybe they could prepare it themselves if insurance had bought them the wheelchair and treatment they needed, giving them more low pain days.
I’m just saying people are all different so we’re going to need a lot of different ways to achieve that goal. Veganism that includes ableism is less than worthless and it’s not going to be effective. What’s practical and possible for one person isn’t for another person and we have to put time and resources into giving everyone as many options as possible.
#also just in general give disabled people chefs dammit#we shouldn’t have to pay for anything non disabled people don’t have to#they don’t have to pay to see free glasses and surgery. they don’t have to pay to walk pain free wheelchairs#actually that’s a whole nother post hold on#veganism#ableism#human rights#vegan for the animals#animal rights
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Aetna intentionally denied multiple pre-authorization requests for my upcoming surgery with the SOLITARY purpose of delaying it until it was too late to schedule a surgery date in 2024. I was scheduled to have the 3rd of 3 surgeries on 27 NOV 2024. My remaining Out of Pocket MAX for the 2024 year is down to $509, and Aetna wanted to be able to put more of the financial burden (Deductible and reset out of pocket ax) back onto me. My doctor submitted pre-authorization requests on 30 OCT 24, 08 NOV 24, and 12 NOV 24. Each time, Aetna came up with a new and unethical reason to deny or delay their approval. On two separate occasions, AETNA cancelled the requests internally, and outright lied as they tried to claim that my doctor's office had withdrawn the requests. Only when pressed in a three way call with Aetna and my Doctor's Scheduler on the phone did they admit that teh cancelled requests were their doing. Then they asked for a new request submission, claiming that it was not a "Denial of Service." Next, they denied service stating that my doctor and surgical center were "Out of Network." not only are both "IN NETWORK," both are considered Tier 1 Preferred by Aetna, as stated on Aetna's own website provider listing. After more than a month of phone calls, clarification requests, cancelations, re-submitted requests, transfers to various Aetna Departments, my request was finally approved on 06 dEC 2024... AFTER my originally scheduled date had past, and ONLY AFTER Aetna fully realized that it would be too late to schedule a surgery date by 31 DEC2024, at which time all deductibles and fees due from me reset all over again.
At no time were any of these delays out of a concern for my health, wellbeing, or safety. Aetna had one goal at purpose... delay, deny, depose for the purpose of saving Aetna money and costing me thousands $,$$$. I'll not even go into all of the details about denial of service for procedures already performed... like authorizing cervical fusion surgery and paying for the fusion plates, but denying payment for the screws used to fasten the plates in place...
#fuck Aetna#aetna insurance provider#aetna#delay deny depose#delay deny defend#medical fraud#unethical#greed#deductible#out of pocket max#denial of service#insurance#medicine#healthcare#aetna medicare provider#surgery#pain#cervical fusion#back surgery#missouri attorney general
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getting an mri tomorrow (i have being waiting a year for this)
#its mainly just for my shoulder/general back area because sometimes they hurt a lottttttttttt like i lift my arm and it feels like ive been-#stabbed yk 😭😭 its strange#so fun amazing wonderful inspirational life changing fact about me is 2 years ago i got a MAJOR surgery done on rhe full length of my spine#which. was an experience. definitely didn't cause me a lot of pain (I CAN'T EVEN JUMP ANYMORE)#brutus rambles
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anatomy was honestly the worst class ive taken in uni to date because the teacher would spend at least 30 minutes every class bragging about himself
#julia.txt#this is what happens when you have doctors for teachers <- gross generalization im just salty#NO YOU KNOW WHAT WAS REALLY FUNNY#he has a ratemd page or whaetevr that website is#and the reviews are HILARIOUS. well really bad but like. insane#i think there were 4 separate reviews saying that they wouldnt go back to him even under pain of death#every single class he would tell us that he helped create the university website (implying that he played a big part)#and then me and my friends checked and it said he was on the consultation committee. LIKE BROTHER#HE WOULDNT JUST BRAG ABOUT LIKE SURGERIES IS THE THING#he would brag about being a good driver about being a gourmet about going to paris about his historical knowledge????#we are here for anatomy. please dear Lord#and then i got a 50 on the exam <3 peace and love on planet earth
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i feel a wisdom tooth coming in. i am terrified. i am genuinely so scared of getting them removed😭 and i’ve been procrastinating bc it scares me so much😭
#idk i hate being embarrassed so i do NOT want to be filmed#and i have a friend who got them removed and they didn’t put them out and tHEY COULD HEAR IT#AND ANOTHER FRIEND HAD COMPLICATIONS SO THE RECOVERY WAS LONGER#and my mom or dad would want to be involved bUT WHAT IF I OUT MYSELF ON THE MEDS#W H A T I F#idk surgery in general freaks me out#but just. ahhhhhhh#it freaks me out sm#but my wisdom teeth have been bothering me a bit not like Pain omg but like hi i’m here don’t forget about me😭#and now i can like Feel a tooth so ik i need to get them removed#anyways here’s a stupid post with corey ft one of her stupid fears lol
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I've cried 4 times today over the same thing and like every single time I am alone in a room I start sobbing
I'm tired so I put my phone down but istg the second I put it down I started thinking ab it and nearly started crying again and had to get it back on
#halloween is like my favorite thing and i love the entire month of october. like i was so fucking exited this year#im always super excited but like it was pretty much the thing i was most exited for this year#like i had a shitty september and ive generally been feeling pretty shit#and im having surgery the day before.#its a toenail removal (my second one- isnt that fan fucking tastic m) and i wont be able to walk for at least a week after#and it was so so painful for at least 2 months#but like its booked in the half term 5 days before i go back to school (im doing gcse mock exams pretty soon so i kinda have to go in)#every time i see halloweeny stuff i feel really sad which is so weird for me bc like i love halloween so much#im full on crying now and its before midnight so thats 5#this sounds so overdramatic but having surgery was the most painful thing ive ever gone through#and having to do it again was literally my worst fear like a few months ago i was crying at the thought of having to do it again#and now its rlly happening and on such a bad time for me#im so so sad and im rlly scared#theres so much stuff you can do to get rid of this without surgery but none of them have done it#if anything its worse now#vent post#in the tags#personal rant
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oh wow the endometriosis post-op pain is. especially bad today
#it's been a slow recovery in general (it's only been a month tho)#but i went out on a date yesterday (went very well :3)#and it has Taken Me Out for today#i knew it would happen but still like. ow#why is it my right ovary what's goin on there 😭😭😭😭#been thinkin about how my last surgery was Six Hours Long#like i was just all fucked up in there#honestly i think the reason im so focused on still being in pain this long after recovery is#im subconsciously worried it'll grow back really fast again like last time#since i do have some on my pericardium and my diaphragm still#and maybe more up there who knows#just what my surgeon saw laparoscopically#i don't have as many and as severe thoracic symptoms as i do abdominal symptoms#so thoracic surgery isn't gonna happen at least if i don't get bad symptoms from that#still just. weird to know it's there#surgery tw#surgery#endometriosis#my whiny ass using tags as a diary again#i'm in ouchie though .. the endometriosis subreddits have been helping#like it's just nice to see other folks with the same issues
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why do i feel weirdly guilty for taking a day off of work to have necessary surgery 🤡
#they said i could go back to work but i did that last time and it was a pain so i took the day off#and i did a bunch of errands and Accomplished Things instead of napping which is what i wanted to do#then finally sat down to watch a movie and eat and im like....feeling guilty for not being at work#insane#to be fair the hour before i left yesterday was crazyyyy bc we had a kind of crisis#ibstayed a half hour late bc there wasnt enough coverage due to the crisis and i did my coworker's clean up for her bc she literally left#without finishing it#bc she was freaking out#crisis is one of the kids had lice lol#anyway she left without finishing her cleanup even tho the owner of the school and our boss's boss dropped by#to let us know the health department was coming thennext day (today)#and she Went Home even tho there was literally cottage cheese all over the floor wtf#anyway i was watching the kids while my supervisor bagged up all the stuffed toys and sheets and blankets etc to wash#then i did my other co teachers cleanup while my supervisor tried to do afternoon diapers but she was so late starting only 4 kids were lef#out of like 8 or 10 that probably should have been changed#so half of them went home without a final diaper change lmao#anyway#bugs 😬#i got a lice treatment shampoo and leave in conditioner but yuck#anyway i just felt really bad bc im out and they always need people but also im out on the day we're getting a ladt minute health inspectio#and i know that classroom is gross bc the cleaning crew thats supposed to come in every night has definitely not been doing that#this has been a shitpost#anyway my eye surgery hurts so bad wah 😭#its not even supposed to hurt that much but im like wicked sensitive to the light or something that it hurts a lot even w eye shields#and nobody is babying meeee#my mom made me clean the kitchen and the barn when we got home :(#my brother is making gf cookies for me tho but not bc of the surgery he just wants to try baking gf for me in general bc he's nice#also he's making 61 cookies by accident instead of 18 bc he doubled the recipe and then realized it was a recipe forngiant cookies lmao
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also shoutout to the hospital for sending us a bunch of PDFs with information about preparing for surgery and what to expect, except the information was all generic stuff where most of it does't actually apply to wisdom tooth removal, so I had a huge panic attack where I nearly threw up because a bunch of the stuff mentioned in there is extremely triggering for us, only to then find out that stuff literally doesn't apply anyway, but now I feel like I have even less of an idea of what to actually expect because it's so hard to figure out which information does apply
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#posts made on pain meds#emetophobia tw#the thing is one of the PDFs is actually specifically for us and has our name in the file name and has been edited to be the right info#but it's only for one specific thing while all the other information about what to expect is just generic stuff#which makes it even more confusing because it gives the impression that it's all specific to this surgery when it isn't#also it's 13 fucking PDFs and we're supposed to read through all of them#but I managed to skim over like 2 paragraphs from one of the generic ones before I started panicking so hard I nearly threw up#(I tried to read the others while already panicking and you can imagine how this went)#it would be nice if people could fucking communicate with us clearly about what's going on#instead of whatever the fuck this is because now we've had multiple instances of being confused as fuck because nobody explained shit#and also if medical professionals could actually fucking understand how medical trauma works and maybe work with us#to figure out how to make this less distressing so we don't have to keep dealing with panic attacks like this#we're not freaked out by the procedure itself. it's a bunch of the other stuff around it that probably doesn't seem like a huge deal#a lot of it feels very dehumanising and like we don't get a say in what people do to us#and there are lots of little things you can do to make us feel less like we're in control and less like we're being dehumanised#but nobody does that and they don't seem to get why certain stuff would be distressing#also the kind of panic attacks we have with this are ones where we don't seem to be able to calm ourselves down#we literally have to use the ''shove an ice cube/something really spicy in your mouth'' trick when we have them#because our brain will not fucking stop and then we spend the next couple of hours really dazed and struggling to process anything#and obviously I don't fucking want that to happen in a hospital because nobody is gonna handle that well#I'm concerned the nurses won't understand how dissociation works and will keep refusing to let us go home#because of us being really spaced out and woozy from the dissociation because they'll assume it's from the sedation instead#when going home would be the thing that would help us stop being so spaced out because we'd be leaving the triggering environment
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I was trying to avoid taking Tylenol but I might have to… abdominal pain is getting real bad here
#does not feel real that I had surgery today#though the pain is definitely real#though if I take Tylenol I’ll have to eat and I really do not want to because it might make me feel worse#contemplating just going to bed and taking some in the morning if I still feel awful#surgery#i've never gotten *a ton* of engagement on my personal posts or my writing ones but sometimes it does make me a bit sad#my experience on tumblr has gotten lonelier over time but i know that's partially my fault#just in a weird mood tonight#lonelier in general tbh
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