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I just found the absolute WORST diagram of the human heart. It is an affront to science.

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The tragedy of my life is that I keep acquiring and displaying fetish art and having to be corrected by my friends.

Most recently, a friend came over my house and saw my computer background and went, "Wow, um, I didn't know you were into that." To which I look at the picture of the well drawn muscular female minotaur in historically accurate Greek clothing and I start geeking out about how I love the detail the artist did with the clothing and I point out the period appropriate folds and pins, how the artist even inserted the native plant that was used to dye the clothing this particular shade in the background, and even how the belt has technology AND historically accurate weaving patterns on it.

Then I start explaining how I love the muscular choices of the minotaur, that I was so impressed with the artist's anatomically correct depiction of the muscles converging into the neck. That many people get an upright cow's neck wrong because cow's don't have collarbones, so it can be very difficult to merge the upper arms and a chest of a human with a cow's body. I draw her attention to the beautiful way they've merged the pectoralis major so smoothly while also staying true to how muscular they've depicted the rest of the body.

I finish up with my thoughts on the artist's bold choice to depict the minotaur as a female, and despite the underlying themes of a minotaur being violence, child murder, strength, and muscles. I segue into how unlike bulls, cow are perceived as mothers. That they are the major source of milk in human culture, and that idyllic depictions of them in a field usually depict calves frolicking nearby, yet the minotaur kills and eats children.

I finish and there is a long pause.

"Urban, this is fetish art." and she takes me to the artist's twitter and god dammit it's fetish art, not a bold statement on cultural perceptions of women and violence throughout history. I have been tricked again.

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Something about pigeon watching makes me feel so happy and content.

I love logging down all the colourations I see 🙌

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Me: You know how when you were a kid and you’d wish that you’d get sick or injured in a way that would justify why you didn’t live up to your potential?

Everybody, apparently: No?

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i feel like we dont talk enough about how distressing and disturbing memory loss issues are. forgetting what you were talking about halfway through a sentence, putting something down and instantly forgetting where you put it. having to reread one paragraph over and over again because by the time youve moved onto the next sentence you dont remember what the one before it said. always doubting if your memories of things are real, not being able to remember important life events.

its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.

“i forgot” is treated like a lazy excuse when it’s genuinely such a big issue for so many people.

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he let me hit because I keeping rambling about the nature of life and death and the importance of predators and parasites and decomposers for their ecosystems and for the existence of life as we know it, complete with the reminder that you and most of the things around you are made of recycled dead things

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imagine if people still took last names from their trade like fisher, smith and fletcher. imagine some guy introducing himself to you as jonathan podcaster

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i genuinely think ocd is incredibly underdiagnosed bc i will see people posting what are obvious rituals, compulsions, intrusive thoughts, spiralling, hyper morality, etc and its like Have You Considered This Might Be An Issue

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Sometimes, you just need to scream

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and that's when i started sobbing

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I need to work on the Big Drawing because I kinda need to catch up with last week's work on it and then also do this week's work, but I still haven't got ClipStudio set up the way I want.

I had to download a bunch of brushes that used to be default brushes but I guess they got removed in an update, and the settings for them were completely different to what I'm used to and I'm struggling to figure out the right settings again, which means the brushes aren't doing what I expect them to and it's gonna be really hard to draw stuff in our usual style if I can't figure out the settings.

I might try and work on figuring out the brush settings some more later but I have a really bad migraine again so it depends on whether I can get that to ease off

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I'm so proud of fellow nature lovers in the world!

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trans people will literally go “i have a complicated relationship with my history with gender and sometimes see it as a gender i ‘used to be’ and i don’t really look like a cis person of either gender and i don’t think i can fit it into simple categories” and everyone will spontaneously combust

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THE SWIMMING PIC HAS ME SOBBING 😭😭

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I need to stop reading high fantasy it’s fucked up my brain pathways. Every time I start reading a new series I lose my grasp on normalcy a little further. I met up with a former coworker today and afterwards when my mom casually asked me how lunch with my old colleague went I said “It went great, I feel like she’ll be a powerful ally in the years to come”