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ceasarslegion · 4 months ago

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We figured out what was wrong with my peace lily

Because I wasn't overwatering it. It got enough light. It wasn't too dry, I keep my apartment warm, and I've had these plants before all through uni with no issue

Ikea sold me a lily with fucking root mold

#so i guess its just. a lost cause #im really pissed about this #because now i not only have to throw out one of my favourite house plants to have #but i wasted my time my effort and my money and now i have to deep clean a perfectly good pot #and watch out for mold infections on my other plants #which means i might have to get a fungicide for them if it catches on any #and i have a bamboo tree within spore spitting distance of it

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serenhob · 1 month ago

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I could be sleeping but this is what I choose to do instead

#Jttw #journey to the west #monkey king #sun wukong #It's not the best thing I've ever done but it is 5am so it's actually fine #The fire is ugly tho #And I refuse to fix it #At least until tmr #i think i'm funny sometimes #My favourite part was drawing all the freaking out gods #My fave is probs the guy in fetal position by the red house or maybe the one on the floor #Sun Wukong is ginger again cause I looked up ginger monkies and they are cute #It is not hard to guess what meme I'm referencing but at the same time I probs wouldn't be able to guess if I didn't make it #That just cause I'm stupid tho #My mum always told me I have no common sense and she is sadly right #If the lighting is wack...I don't care #I lost my digital art pen for my phone and its really stressing me out #Like I want my £12 back #And it meant I had to use my fingers to draw and it looks so janky #If you are wondering why I using slang from like 50 years ago. Blame my best friend #there is something wrong with her

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moeblob · 3 months ago

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"Him? Oh, you know, he's kind of a loser." - probably everyone except for his younger brother.

Germaine is based on the layer of hell (Dante's Inferno) for material wealth before self, others, and god. So basically very materialistic and possessive of his belongings. Unfortunately, his younger brother qualifies as a belonging in his mind. So he does his absolute best to keep his brother safe and sound and scratch free - which is a bit tough in a post apocalyptic setting but he mostly manages.

Also a fact I just like to mention: he is incapable of lying.

#my characters #germaine wellington #welp guess who watched an anime recently (its not complete) and the dad of the mc made em think of a loserman big brother oc #its me! correct! the dad just reminded me a bit of germaine and i blame appearances mostly but also the dad was kind of a loser (i love him #and germaine does practically raise tremaine which further messes up their absolutely awful codependency #like yeah both brothers would kill for many reasons (survival and resources mainly) but !#if tremaine lost germaine hed probably cry and become incapable of moving on and eventually just dying w no reason to live #but if germaine lost tremaine hed go insane cause no no no thats HIS brother and hed start blaming everyone #and lose all rationale and logic while hes actually one of the most logic based in the group #hes a loser but dont let him lose things or he loses it more #but when hes really mad at tremaine for whatever reason his best friend is like uh huh what are you gonna do about it #and germaine is like........... we both know i will sigh and accept it and probably pat him on the head next i see him #which is incredibly honest and exactly what he does because yeah hes mad but even mad he cannot say #im gonna slap some sense into him because thats a lie he wouldn't hurt his brother #everyone in their group knows he cant lie so when he gets hesitant after being asked something they just know #hes trying to plot the best way to skirt the answer bc its apparently Not Good #he looks angry and annoyed often but its just resting bitch face #he lights up when he sees tremaine and he lightens up a little with his best friend #like lil smiles for his bestie and brother but when talking ABOUT his brother? he lights up and beams because hes so proud #of the coolest and smartest thing in his life (his brother)

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 5 months ago

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silly guys that make me lose followers on tumblr dot com

#my art lol #vocaloid #zhiyu moke #persona 3 #ryoji mochizuki #omfg lmao i normally dont do this kind of thing ever... but the circumstances are so fucking funny i HAD to #no cause its so amusing to me. so u can put up w/ my unhinged ramblings in the tags a bunch of dumb uninteresting shit etc #but seeing the same fuckass gif too many times in a row is the final straw?? ok sure #LIKE IM NOT REALLY MAD OR ANYTHING its just hilarious to me that THAT is some (2) people's final straws w me. thats their limit #i only reserve spam reblogging the same post in a row for very special occasions when im extremelyyyyyy unwell abt smthn (pos or neg)#so its really funny to me that on two separate occasions that was enough for two separate people to unfollow my main. LOL #couldnt handle the mokening/ryojiing 😔🙏 tragic! anyways.#NO BUT ALSO i once did reblog. the same video of shadow the hedgehog like 50+ times in a row #i dont remember if i lost anyone because of that though??? if i didnt then THATS HILARIOUS LOL everyone just loves shadow #but some fuckin chinese computer program and death the teenage boy??? i want those twinks obliterated. blocked and unfollowed.#my lessons ive learned: i can weaponize random ass gifs of random ass anime boys i guess?????????#also this is from today. and serves as a good precursor to whats abt to happen which happened far from today 🥴😭😔😔😔

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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show us the antithesis of cute and funny 👀👀👀 the people demand it!!!

patience my friends i have at least 14 asks about cats to get through first ☝️

#snap chats #actually the people demand felines but i will listen to the crowd who wants to see my nonsense. i GUESS 🙄#i finally decided to start grouping my asks for this weekend and the tally is incredibly funny #BUT YES TRUST i will share at least. One this weekend. thats my goal.#i wont be able to answer all like. what 40~ asks in my inbox this weekend realistically prob so im just gon do ones i can link together #it should take out a chunk of em but anyways #i think one of them could kiinda be cute but both ideas at the forefront of my brain are melancholy in nature #and the one im gonna do this weekend gon finally be the one i made those power ref sheets for. or at lesat the erik one jveVKJELJ #in retrospect its funny cause i only really intend for his powers to be used for like. maaaybe a panel or two out of ilke what. 10 #i still wanted to draw out how they work regardless so ... nothing lost i assure you ..

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hissterical-nyaan · 1 year ago

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#don't you love it when you come home during festivals hoping to feel happy and get stress relief from college #but it ends up being more horrible and triggering than even college #cause your family just openly bitches about you and judges you while you're within earshot #repeating all the bad shit that you tell yourself when you're alone #confirming your fears of being the most horrible and inconsiderate person on earth #i feel exactly like I felt some 4-5yrs ago #sobbing on my bathroom floor trying to not harm myself further #it's a lost cause #i will never have a family who will understand #and now guess what I'm so exhausting that telling all this to my friends seems horrible too #there is only one way I'll ever be happy and god I hope its soon #I'm done with healing and trying to make people understand how much I suffer everyday #vent #I'm sorry I have no where else to go #delete later

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thetimelordbatgirl · 9 days ago

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Can I say its kinda funny how in Girl Meets World when they had Farkle get ganged up on by Riley, Lucas and Corey as they tried to force their god and belief's onto him- I say their god since this show did not acknowledge other religions in this episode and tried to act like their god was the god basically- , Corey went for, "the air you breath is god's making", when like...if the writers wanted Farkle to be the atheist character who uses science as his logic, he could have brought up what the air is made up off and what science says explains it??? Let alone then proceeded to have the science/smart atheist not just respond with uh homes/people/animals when asked by the trio what's in those buildings and instead have him go he cant see in them so he doesn't know, giving the religious trio a chance to one up him???? That's not even a science atheist response, that's just a normal one he could have said while wondering why they treating him like he's stupid or why the teacher who gave them a religious discussion topic for class is showing bias when it comes to favoring religion seriously I know its outside of school this scene happened but Corey is still Farkle's teacher and last I checked teachers aren't allowed to force belief's onto students-

#im rewatching a critical video on the show and this episode among others got brought up and just #i still hate it oh my god #for a religious discussion episode they surely leaned to religion so much the two characters who are either agnostic (maya as she honestly #doesnt care about religion while giving valid responses to riley whose acting like worst friend this episode) or atheist (farkle as he #really makes it clear he doesnt believe and gives science logic and is the only one who doesnt cave at the end to religion due to peer #pressure so good for him) get basically shit the entire episode #with maya getting shit the most really like riley out here shaming her for picking up some dropped money in school and riley #acting like its a crime to god and even trying to replace the money only for maya to grab that too which....funny as fuck tbh deserved to #riley there if she thinks a student will remember where the fuck they dropped some money or that lost and found would give a shit #also shout out i guess to the bitches who pick up dropped money guess i'll meet you in hell if thats a crime to god since i did that #a few times as a kid lmao #but the episode ends on maya leaving money in the place in school cause she saved to peer preasure to believe which...great #way to end discussion episode...riley FINALLY about to embrace her friends despite differeing beliefs....only for maya to say she prayed #that morning and riley instantly happy like....again shout out to farkle for not caving like maya....

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castielstiddies · 2 years ago

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It's time to play guess which episode of House md I just watched for the first time!

Here's a clue: I cried for the entire episode and after finishing it I'm left with a black hole in my chest where my soul used to be

#guess what episode of house md i just watched #thats right #Wilson's Heart #i could write an entire essay on the layers of house loving wilson and wilson loving amber and wilson loving house and amber being a #mirror for house and wilson loving amber because she's a house that he can actually be with and wilson losing amber who's a mirror for #house so its like hes lost house and than having to deal with the fact that he's not only lost the house that he can be with but hes #constantly plagued by the house he wants to be with but cannot be with and also house is the cause if amber's death and #so glad i watched this show #can't wait for it to go downhill from here and I'll still love it because it's an integral part of my psyche now #house md #hilson

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fruitsyrups · 11 months ago

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i think your hat post is really cool and interesting but susan’s hat is a cat and i will die on this hill

this is true!!! when i was talking about the modern human hats not resembling animals i meant all of these ones

(excluding the minerva-bots and finn of course)

#wait. wait. i just thought something #finn wearing his bear hat -> bc it makes him feel connected to the humans #and martin & the hiders (that old woman with the tiger at least) not wearing hats bc they don't feel that personal connection w/ the island #ok this is so obvious but i just think comparing and contrasting finn and martin is so interesting #but i don't think martin really was a hider. i don't think he felt particularly connected to any ideology or viewpoint in particular #he's a floater #yk #martin is so interesting #i dont like the amnesia theory or whatever (that martin also lost his memory in some capacity)#like to me its just that. he was able to commit enough to start a family but not committed enough to go back to them #after being seperated & having freedom #& he just super duper avoids thinking about it bc it makes him feel guilty. but not guilty enough to do anything about it #like when he said he doesn't like thinking about minerva cause it stresses him out that doesn't come across as 'can't remember'#it very much comes across as 'nah im not gonna expend energy into thinking about something emotionally difficult'#like if he actually tried to be a dad to finn he'd have to face all the time he spent not looking for him. instd of just avoiding it all #like where's the fun in making him less Complicated. you know?#whenever finn is in the vicinity martin's always tryna get out of there as fast as possible 😭#i guess that could also just be seen as him trying to avoid the consequences of his actions (like when he's worried finns gonna try to rip #his arm off lmao) but i personally interpret it all as a guilt thing too #none of this is related to the ask but yea 🫣

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localsharkcryptid · 2 months ago

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#ha not me venting on main again #but ya know its good to get feelings out and all that and idk sometimes you have to do that by yelling them into the void of tumblr #I know I bitch a lot about being lonely but god I think I officially am gonna start hating the holidays #cause nothing and I mean nothing is more lonely feeling inducing than sitting here bored out of my mind and depressed at the same time #all cause I don't have anyone all my friends everyones off doing stuff with family with their parents and im not #i lost my mom when I was a lot younger and i lost my dad this past February so im just alone #idk im just upset at the world and very lonely rn I know it'll pass but god it hurts #I just feel suffocatingly alone I guess everyone I consider my found family is busy with their real families and I'm just here without that #I'm just idk were emotioning I guess who knows maybe I'll channel it into something productive #to be deleted eventually #....

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radlegowaffle · 1 year ago

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(not so) doodle page of a friends dnd character magdelene! character belongs to @pixellyix

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clockworkcheetah · 6 months ago

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kinda realised that suzie/the mages convo in 2x06 is similar to the brotzly on in 2x07

#todd haters dni ur not welcome here #they both stem partly from selfish reasons (on todds end- suzie /is/ 100% selfish she wants power/to be queen)#todds putting his own goal (finding amanda) on the side to help dirk- WHICH HE DID #but similar format i guess? like the mage/dirk give up because they lose/lost and suzie/todd is like??? uh?? no?? im gonna keep at it #and mage/suzie arent friends so theres not much connection or meaningful disappointment to be had mage is just a loser to suzie cause he is #but dirk and todd are friends and todd did put his shit on the side to help #todds right- friends help each other so i get the frustration of dirk refusing to do any of it #even if it wasnt 100% at the best time for todd to say it- but like it wasnt out of nowhere #and he wasnt being abusive or callous hes in a fucked situation for the past 2 months trying to keep dirk inspired for the past week #like its not just dirk and its not a competition on whose feelings are more valid theres no nobility in suffering #i will defend 2x07!todd till the ends of the earth

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romantichopelessly · 1 year ago

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literally the catch 22 of making urself less to keep people around you directly leading to people leaving u bc you’re not opening up to them 🧍‍♀️

#like !!! I’m trying to be what YOU want!!! I’m sorry you didn’t want me like that and now you’re mad I’m fake ?!!!??!!#I’m trying so hard but I don’t think I have an authentic self to live confidently as #bc everyone says the only way to rly be happy is let go of expectations and be your real self and find your real people #but I don’t think I have a self tbh #I think I’m a collection of experiences and expectations and I don’t know how to return to the origin point #oh well I guess!!!!! lost cause!#‘you can’t give up everything for someone and call that love’ WELL WHAT IF ITS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO LOVE ?!#yeah I’ll never have real love bc I only expect to love and not be loved #but let’s be entirely real. you can’t love a mirrorball ! a set of masks ! a changing thing !#and yeah I know it’s my fault I’m like that but it’s fucking impossible to stop #how can I take chances and live authentically like ??? what the fuck that goes against my like. core being.#idk I’m making it sound stupid but UGH #and then I just become upset later that they don’t love me the same. maybe it’s bc they don’t know me. like sure. they never asked.#but I never told.#i talk sometimes

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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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this is like my fourth or fifth consecutive bad gym session I might as well just kill myself

#was fine when it was bc of my wrist injury just frustrating that i was so limited in what i could do #but its mostly better now and i still feel like im not doing anything near what im capable of i dont fucking know whats holding me back #both physical limitation and also i just have no grit at the moment. lost my mojo :-(#well ik itll take a while until my wrists are fully functional again and i probably am still healing so its partly that #and just a lot on my mind lately. im usually fine at work but for some reason the gym makes me ruminate n i get so frustrated n miserable #by the end of a session and ppl start to annoy me bc they act like they can read me n make wildly wrong assumptions abt how im feeling #and then im reminded that even ppl i consider good friends consistently do the same no one actually knows me at all i guess #and it makes me feel very unloved and upset but whatever its all on me bc i cant communicate in ways other ppl can understand #and i dont trust or feel safe around other ppl so i just alienate myself and fold myself up around the immense distress it causes me yayyy #and ill be thinking this shit at like 8:30pm halfway up a wall and demotivate myself and slip and graze an elbow or whatever #ughhhhhh. and then i cycle the whole way home until i get thru the door and start sobbing idk how many times this is now #i have a stupid headache and im going to be so fucking tired at work tomorrow im going to bed.#its fine really. im not actually depressed anymore i dont think. these are just my regular old wounds ive had since the dawn of time #and i just have this dumbass fucking brain that for some reason instead of giving me endorphins and a high from exercise as a reward #just makes me really sad instead. maybe im just not eating enough around when i workout idk like it could be low blood sugar #and i am mildly worried abt some things bc well. they could be very very difficult for me to deal with if they happen. and if they do #happen well thats good in other ways but i have to be prepared to take some major fucking hits. ive only recently started to feel like ive #mostly recovered from how fucking shite this summer has been after the mental damage done in may/june. i cant spend another season there #can i just catch a fucking break like forever please. and a shoulder to cry into im so touch deprived its unreal who even cares anymore #fine reallt tho i promise just worked myself up innit. ugh. anyway gn #.diaries #.vent

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nightfallsystem-moved · 10 months ago

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u guys ever think about killing urself for everyone elses sake.

just so people wont have to go thru the annoyance of talking to me or the disgust of seeing my face so they can be happier by talking to their other friends instead of me so they dont have to deal with my actual fucking stupidity

#tw vent #tw suicide #ingnore this. btw. or dont i cant stop you lol #imsso close to cutitng off everyone i know so they can be happier i alreadyblocked a few people i knewnow ionly know one person irl #imf so glad she found other people so she'll be completely fine if i disappear out of her life her life sounds like its going great actuall #ruining my life ^_^#i dont want to talk to people but for their sake #IM GENUINELY SO FUCKING STUPID AND UPSETTING TO TALK TO .#does anyone even love me anymore #im probably doign this for my own selfish reasons #i dont go outside anymore for everyone else sake. so they dont have to see my ugly face. or deal with my awful speech #at least i can still draw.... only way i can mkae people happy..#im mean to myself more than anyone else is mean to me at htis point. why #im not even capable of becoming mentally well at hthis point. im a lost cause #tell me what you rlly think . just tell me to shut the fuck up. just call me annoying. whatever u say cant be worse than what i do to mysel #pleasee im just dragging u down and making u feel worse whenever u tlak to me DO YOU NOT REALISE IT #i dont want to feel better for myself i want to feel better so i can be useful to others #i fucking hate people but i love them a lot . i gues i just hate how i affect others. social outcast i guess

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mo-ok · 1 year ago

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TWICE. LOST GALAXY HAS SHOWN AN UNSUITED GINGAMAN CHARACTER T W I C E. FIRST GOUKI AND NOW SHELINDA I AM LOSING MY MIND

#like did they just not care or did they assume no one would notice #i guess tbf i can see how the lil Shelinda could have gone unnoticed but the gouki one was so so bad #but its so fucking funny #cause when the episode started i thought 'oh this is about Damon - i wonder if they are gonna pull from the Hayate v Shelinda fight'#and then thought 'nah Shelinda isnt in a suit they cant really use any of that footage'#only to eat my fucking words cause they used a long shot with her vibing in the damn corner lmao #before watching gingaman i just couldnt ever get in to lost galaxy but oh boy am i so glad i gave it another shot #the way they use parts of ginga feels so bizzare and delightful #idk how to explain it but it just FEELS different to how other pr seasons feel...#maybe im just too attached to gingaman lmao #or maybe its the super jarring colour and quality change every time we jump to gingaman footage 😂😂😂#lost galaxy

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