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[js-dragonart]

Seeing Ghosts Part I - Choices

I have decided to make the sappy fluff drama AU Comic into a little series. It will have four parts, with "Seeing Ghosts" ultimately being the third part chronologically.

Honestly, I have no idea where the pink color scheme came from when I made this part, but it looked nice so I rolled with it (It´s also the reason why their eyes don´t look properly purple lol).

[vilnan]

you learn fast.

[shcultureis3]

SH + DID culture is... One of your Alters cutting themselves and then the host waking up not knowing what happened

@moon-n-starfalls

im a system 2 actually

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

How DID Disrupts Appropriate Decision Making - A Personal Switchy Ramble

This is based on our personal experiences with being a DID system. Seemingly each alter was split to hold clashing personalities that couldn't be integrated. This is because we as a child needed one "extreme" persona for one environment and another "extreme" persona for another environment

For example, our alter Sof is bubbly, forgiving and diplomatic, while I, Levi, am quick to anger, hold intense grudges and won't trust other people. My acute stress response is always fight, while Sof is more prone to fawn. I would not mind watching evil people being tortured to death (and participate), but Sof possesses very high empathy, since we wouldn't survive if we didn't forgive and submit to our abusers. I got to store the whole "never forgive, never forget" shit, while Sof can't help but see that evil person as if they are a victim deserving of another chance

This makes it extremely hard to act appropriately to everyday situations. We have been so used to living between extremes that mundane shit is difficult to understand. I am quick to cut off people and move on, while other parts will let us be walked all over instead of setting boundaries or just avoid everything going on - thereby isolating us instead of addressing what needs to be dealt with. Because our self is fragmented, our decisions will fluctuate as different alters front. When one alter makes a decision, the rest will panic, since they believe it was the wrong one, which leads to heavy dissociation and even panic attacks, self destruction and/or flashbacks

I think a lot of people, including us, have this wrong idea of having alters being some sort of superpower where you have experts in all kinds of things who can do tasks for you when you yourself can't handle them. But there's a reason CDDs are classified as severe mental disorders. Being a system isn't a superpower. Being a system is the result of severe childhood trauma, and traumatised people struggle. Of course decision making is hard when the consequences of one misstep could be detrimental for you as a child. When every decision feels like life or death, because that's what PTSD does. We are stuck in the past while time still goes on. It's like living in two dimensions

Idk this ended up very rambly and kinda reassuring towards myself at the end, but I'm gonna keep this in. There's definitely been other alters helping me write this during the last part (yo lol, Sof here). I wanted to make a more coherent post, but hey, this is what DID is like, so just gonna keep it like this

[rmelster]

BookTook for some reason: Would you like to read a book about Wirt from Over the Garden Wall where he is a weathered and very tattooed demonslayer obsessed with the main character? He would be super possessive and the book is going to have tons of smut and violent and degrading s*x scenes.

Me: …

[cabeswatercowboy]

POV: You're unintentionally dressed as Silent Hill protagonist, Harry James Sundermason, and on the way to work you hit a ton of fog--

T.G.I.F. (Thank God It's Foggy)

It's probably fine.

[spacestationsystem]

art about myself

[dreamdroplittles]

shoutout to you!! - Shane/Theo/Bug/Angel/Locket

[uncanny-tranny]

If there's anything I wish I could do, I wish I could clue in every parent who says or thinks, "my child is my property, not your property!" into what their future will look like

I've gone no-contact with my abusive family - I haven't seen, spoken to, or acknowledged them. This has been for twenty and ten years, respectively, to the parental figures who abused me. I blocked one of their numbers. I call them by their first names when talking about them. I am happy for once, I am free! I haven't harmed myself nearly as often or as horribly.

This is the future you're potentially setting yourself up for. I know this because I was always seen as property first and never as a child. I was never allowed the grace that the adults in my life expected. Is this what you want? If you want property, then do children a favour and just buy a car.

[problematic-alter-culture-is]

Bit of a vent;; s.h implied as well

Problematic alter culture is the rest of your system hating you because you hurt the body.

I can't say I'm sorry, because I'm not. I can't say I'll change, because I don't want to. But I still don't want to be hated...

-🌀

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[albtrauming]

dolly n joey, art from start of the year

[yippie-madness]

53 34

53 last thing you did before eeping

tumblr because im addicted lmao

34 what was ur last dream about

uhmmmm idk honestly i don't dream much. i think it was a self harm dream tho because i am also addicted to that lmao

[timeshift-playground]

It's no longer a question of how long until I escape, it's a matter of how.

[bah-circus]

A level three brainmade freak!! Literally make them as much of a threat to the human race but make them look as innocent as possible x 3 have fun with it dude!!!

We hear your request dear audience, and have found the perfect performer for you! We hope this performance suits your needs, but you are free to make any adjustments you wish. //CW SH Mention

❣︎For Our Next Act, Please Welcome,,,❣︎

A seemingly innocent threat to the human race,,,,

°·⊱ Name: Avarice, Saint, Isabella / Izzy, Marie

°·⊱ Nicknames/Titles: (prn) Who Feigns Innocence

°·⊱ Age: 14-19 (Age-Slider)

°·⊱ Race/Species: Human? (TransElf)

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°·⊱ Sex: Female

°·⊱ Gender: Guromaiden Acheamtoxic Fleshripped Dissecaregender Goodoriune 

°·⊱ Pronouns: It/Its; She/Her; Soft/Softs; Fuzz/Fuzzy; Plush/Plushie; Candy/Candys; Bun/Buns; Nuke/Nukes

°·⊱ Sexuality: Objectum (Plush / Has a white bunny dressed in a pink ballerina tutu) , Lesbian / Sapphic

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°·⊱ Personality: Incredibly calm and collected, even under great amounts of pressure. Is the first to put a plan into action, especially if no one else in the system can. 

°·⊱ Likes: Ballerinas, Horror Movies / Games, Testing the Effects of Radiation on Humans, Poison, Homemade Cooking, Cute Things, Taking body parts from different creatures and putting them together, Testing new ways to kill (radiation is her favorite), Literally anything that causes harm to others.

°·⊱ Dislikes: Motorcycles / Loud Engines, Dolphins, Being Cold, Ice in Drinks

°·⊱ Role: Janusian, Anchor, Persecutorflux, Protector

°·⊱ Emoji Sign-Off: ✨🧸🖍️🍬🔥☢️

°·⊱ Typing Quirk: Spaces punctuation away from words ( Like This !) believes it makes the sentences look neater, so would prefer to always use it. 

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°·⊱ TransIDs: FauxHarmless, TransInnocentHarmful, Innocencefluid, PermaMenace, TransElf, PermaScarred, GodBlooded, TransLandMine, TransAdored, TransHappyTone, TransImmortal, PermaCuteBandaged, VanillaCakeScentian, PermaSH, TransHaemolacria, TransAutism

°·⊱ CisIDs: CisHarmful, CisManipuLover, CisKiller, CisUnethicalExperiementer, Blue Eyes, Blond Hair, OCD, BPD, ADHD, CisIrradiated

°·⊱ MUDS: Kawaii Escapism Syndrome

°·⊱ Paras: Ⰱ, 🐾, 🐙, ⚰️, 🦴, ⚱️, 🤕, 🐊, 🥀, 💤, 🍬, 🫀, 🩸, 🌑, 🔥, 👀, 🚨, 🔪, 🔫, ⛓, 💧, 🦷, 🦿, ⛏️, 🤮, 🍇🌙

°·⊱ Faceclaim: 

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[systemtermz]

Sh Holder/Protector

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An alter that holds/controls sh urges and cleans up the body after sh.

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