#self deprecation

[bookmothic-dyke]

My mutuals are being nice to me again!!!

Help!!!!!!

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from i mother it the absence of her, iii. i am not a person that can be loved for a very long time excerpt from moony moonless sky.

[yourgirlinpieces]

i hate that kind of sadness where your chest physically hurts

[aamerchive]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s my body is a slaughterhouse.

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[nofuckingideawho]

I don't even matter to myself anymore

[mizaryy]

please just let me kill myself.

It will be the first good thing I’ve done for myself in a long time.

[scrumptioustrawberry]

That manic feeling when even wearing your own skin feels unbearably uncomfortable 🙄

[whumpster-dumpster]

"Honestly, you couldn't have picked anyone worse to ransom. Everybody knows I'm the throwaway. Expendable."

[ineffectualdemon]

Hey if you can't stop being self deprecating because it hurts yourself do it because it hurts others

When you post a fic and leave a note saying "sorry it's so bad!" You have just insulted every reader who enjoyed it

When you say "god I'm so ugly" you just insulted the people who think you're pretty

When you say "I am so annoying and awful" you just insulted everyone who likes you and hangs out with you

Your self deprecation hurts everyone around you as well as you. It's telling them that you think they are wrong or stupid or have bad taste etc

And for friends who think you are prettier then insulting your appearance also says "if I'M ugly then YOU are hideous"

And I get it. It's so hard. I struggle with this daily

Do you know how many times a day I say I hate myself out loud?

This is something I am still constantly working on. I know it's a real struggle. Especially in real life where the compulsive need to degrade yourself verbally is really hard to overcome

(I try to push it into talking about how much I love my friends and family instead. That helps a little)

But when you're online you have the time to stop and delete the self deprecation before you post it. And you might even get to a point where you don't write it at all. With writing you have time to deal with that compulsion.

And you don't have to write praise for yourself either. Just practice not being mean about yourself online. Remind yourself that it hurts more than just you

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘we were put on this earth desperate, hungry and willing.’

[text id: in a sharp set of knives, i looked for a hand to hold. / i could not stop myself from needing to belong somewhere, even if that somewhere was a burial ground.]

[yourgirlinpieces]

i be like communication is the key and then not tell people i dont like what they did/do and just keep my feelings to myself cause i feel like if i say it out loud its not gonna get better and it'll turn get worse but oh well its getting worse either ways

[jiangshinigami]

I'm a terrible person

thought of "femboy milking idle game" and I had to make my brain to shut up

[niabridges]

Lowkey cringing. Brainrot.

[scrumptioustrawberry]

What really stuns me every single time is how I can feel ok, feel like I'm doing ok. What an absolute horrid illusion. Because out of the blue, completely without trigger or warning, I am in despair. Feeling absolutely worthless. Body dysmorphia heightens, and the noise in my head grows louder, the feeling that everything around me is uncomfortable and pointless. Feeling unworthy of existence. It's inescapable, and there is no cure.

[bookishpraiseprincess]

abandonment issues 🤝 attachment issues

crying when he's not replying

because im afraid he doesn't

actually like me and wants

to stop talking to me

[mizaryy]

I wish I could have one more conversation with you,

just to talk for an hour or two.

cuz right now I feel like I need you.

I miss the way you made things

feel real, feel better, felt like things would end up ok.

I know we aren’t really friends anymore, no matter how many emotional ties we have.

I’m not a stupid, but I am a fool.

So for a minute, can we pretend

that’s it’s still the same?

I just want to feel real again, like back then.