#self deprecation

[scrumptioustrawberry]

There’s a kind of loneliness that has nothing to do with being alone. It’s when you're surrounded by people but still feel like no one really sees you. Like you're speaking in a language only you understand, and no matter how loud you scream, it gets lost in the noise. I’m tired of feeling like I have to shrink just to fit in — tired of carrying thoughts too heavy to share. Maybe I’m not looking for answers, just a place where I don’t have to explain myself.

[yourgirlinpieces]

i hate that kind of sadness where your chest physically hurts

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, from i mother it the absence of her, iii. i am not a person that can be loved for a very long time excerpt from moony moonless sky.

[aamerchive]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s my body is a slaughterhouse.

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[nofuckingideawho]

I don't even matter to myself anymore

[mizaryy]

please just let me kill myself.

It will be the first good thing I’ve done for myself in a long time.

[bookmothic-dyke]

Okay. Instead of self deprecating. I’m gonna make a list of my accomplishments.

- I moved out of my mother’s house. She never thought I’d do that.

- I’ve had five short stories published at my community college.

- My novelette Date Bite online has over 100 favorites and readers.

- My TTRPG Mystwork Heart is entering playtesting with friends and is moving along well.

- I have almost 950 followers on tumblr. (This is very important to me lol)

- I’ve been confessed to by like at least 22 people over the last six months. And flirted with many more.

- I have two amazing girlfriends.

- I earned 4 associates degrees. And am on track to earn my bachelors next spring.

- I beat out 90% of applicants to get my internship.

- I’m frankly just hot.

- I have acquired a large number of friendships.

- I’ve made nsfw audios… and people have used them lol.

- I’m not awful at drawing and get better whenever I put in the effort to work on it.

- Transitioning on E and now about to change my legal name and gender.

I’ve done a lot with my life. Especially in the last couple years. And I won’t let myself deny it. Fuck you Wren, you’re unfortunately kinda cool and capable sometimes.

[whumpster-dumpster]

"Honestly, you couldn't have picked anyone worse to ransom. Everybody knows I'm the throwaway. Expendable."

[ineffectualdemon]

Hey if you can't stop being self deprecating because it hurts yourself do it because it hurts others

When you post a fic and leave a note saying "sorry it's so bad!" You have just insulted every reader who enjoyed it

When you say "god I'm so ugly" you just insulted the people who think you're pretty

When you say "I am so annoying and awful" you just insulted everyone who likes you and hangs out with you

Your self deprecation hurts everyone around you as well as you. It's telling them that you think they are wrong or stupid or have bad taste etc

And for friends who think you are prettier then insulting your appearance also says "if I'M ugly then YOU are hideous"

And I get it. It's so hard. I struggle with this daily

Do you know how many times a day I say I hate myself out loud?

This is something I am still constantly working on. I know it's a real struggle. Especially in real life where the compulsive need to degrade yourself verbally is really hard to overcome

(I try to push it into talking about how much I love my friends and family instead. That helps a little)

But when you're online you have the time to stop and delete the self deprecation before you post it. And you might even get to a point where you don't write it at all. With writing you have time to deal with that compulsion.

And you don't have to write praise for yourself either. Just practice not being mean about yourself online. Remind yourself that it hurts more than just you

[scrumptioustrawberry]

Just doing a mental health check on you. If you're reading this, then yeah, I mean you. Sending good vibes, I'm proud of you.

[yourgirlinpieces]

i be like communication is the key and then not tell people i dont like what they did/do and just keep my feelings to myself cause i feel like if i say it out loud its not gonna get better and it'll turn get worse but oh well its getting worse either ways

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘we were put on this earth desperate, hungry and willing.’

[text id: in a sharp set of knives, i looked for a hand to hold. / i could not stop myself from needing to belong somewhere, even if that somewhere was a burial ground.]

[jiangshinigami]

I'm a terrible person

thought of "femboy milking idle game" and I had to make my brain to shut up

[niabridges]

Lowkey cringing. Brainrot.

[mizaryy]

I wish I did it when I had the chance

[bookmothic-dyke]

My mutuals are being nice to me again!!!

Help!!!!!!