#same goes for women btw. if she’s a lesbian she’s a lesbian.

[henrysglock]

Idk if people think it’s “uncool” or “uninclusive” or whatever to acknowledge that a character is specifically coded as a homosexual…but it is cool. You can say that a guy is gay coded.

You should say that, actually, because there comes a point with specific gay coding where it becomes weird and, for lack of a better term, icky to continue to assert it as blanket queercoding.

To lump a guy who displays an aversion to/no interest in women intimately and who also displays overt attraction to/questionable closeness with men in with multi-gender sexualities would be weird and subtly homophobic via the erasure of that lack of attraction to women.

Being gay is cool. A character’s coding specifically implying they’re a homosexual is cool. Subtext isn’t a validity “gotta be inclusive” contest, it’s a puzzle.

Sometimes the puzzle says: He’s the fruitiest fag the side of the Mississippi.

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

the thing about chilshi is that i see it as super one-sided on chilchuck's part and that's some shit he's bringing to the grave with him

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

can u plsssss yap more Abt ur opinions of fanon Marlene more??? I agree with everything u said Abt the rant Abt fanon Remus, James, Sirius, regulus, and Marlene, but wanna hear more abt her (and maybe the other girls too???)

yes bby OKAY so.

i lowk hate marlene's fanon. she's so mean lesbian and i dont . i dont like that. mainly because she's only mean to sirius (&is a remus dickrider lowk,) and like . i hate men too bby but like there is a time and place for it yk idk. i get that bc her personality is entirely headcanoned its more necessary to 2d-ify her but i wish she had more personality than liking effie, being mean and being a lesbian :(

lily !!!!!!!!!!!! let her be dumb. please. i want my silly goofy girl. also !!!! i see a lot of content of her being discriminated which yes true because muggleborn but i feel like it's canon/safe to assume that she's well off !! i want to see more cunt lily. but not like a bitch yk just a cunt. also !!! more lily getting in trouble AND GETTING CAUGHT please. please. she's not a super genius mastermind who can play the godliest pranks with her girls and then never get in trouble. more flawed women please.

also !!!! this is specifically @ people who pair james w someone else (jegulus, bambibelle, wolfbucks, etc.) i dont like. actually. i lowk hate when lily's a lesbian. like bfr is the only reason shes not w james bc shes a lesbian? i love marylily and stuff but i feel like i want to see more lily with a man (i KNOW what this sounds like i swear im not being like 'STRAIGHT REP MATTERS AS MUCH AS LGBT REP 😠😠' )

i want to get into moonflower but like idk any fics yk. ☹️. and !!! i want to see her studied without having a love interest. OH AND i want to see her not end up single in james/man ship fics. idk why this peeves me. i think this goes for a lot of women actually. like idk let her find someone yk. oh and !!! this is just a random fandom complaint but like just because someone is single doesnt mean theyre aroace. sometimes people are just single!

also !!! more lily friendships. more lily as a popular girl. as liking quidditch. i feel like she's so underdeveloped even though she's the ONLY marauders era girl we have SO MUCH information on. :((

MARY MACDONALDDD my BELOVED . my BETROTHED. i love her. but. shes so oversexualized. i say this as someone who also views her as dating around a lot btw not shading anyone but like . !!!!!!!! she should be seen as more than that. same as lily, let her be seen as a character and judged as one before you ship her with someone. also, idk again why this bothers me since i dont see her as that, but i feel like i require some insecure mary content. just like a mess of insecurities, ACTUAL insecurities which are real and not simply in her head because she's the most drop dead gorgeous girl in the whole world. maybe as a mother. i love her as a mother. because mother mary skfsk. ummm yeah . i love her. my wife. please treat her right guys. ALSO if someone has any mary centric fics haha . give me.

[clownishstarfish]

Hunter x Hunter ships I personally don’t like

These are ships that are NOT supported on my page.

Edit: I have left my hater era… while I do not like these ships myself I won’t shame you for liking the legal ones. I am no longer present in ship discourse. I do not like these but I won’t stop others from enjoying them…. With that said please enjoy the LONG ass read.

Please note a couple things before reading.

1, I do not hate any ships for being WLW, MLM or NL (hetero) unless it’s the result of representation erasure (An example of this is in the Owl House Community. People ship Lunter and say that it’s ok because Luz is a canon Bisexual but it’s still WLW relationship erasure!!! I do not support Lunter btw…)

2, I’m gonna mention stuff like proshipping and toxic relationships so please be warned if you’re triggered by those types of things do not read under the cut

3, I’m also gonna talk about ships I lovehate due to having extremely mixed opinions.

Alright that’s all!! Enjoy your reading and please remember to respect my opinions and interpretations of the characters. This will also include spoilers for the entire animated series.

Killunary (Killua x Canary)

There are a couple reasons why I don’t like this ship but it’s mostly because of the power imbalance. Certain employee x employer ships just don’t work due to extreme power imbalance. The main example of this is the Zoldyck family and their abusive nature towards all the butlers, including how Kikyo treats Canary when she got close to Killua.

The other reason is because I see Killua as a heavily MLM coded character. And I’m sorry if you don’t agree but based on both his canon and non-canon interactions with the various women of the story, I don’t think he’s straight. I personally think he might be gay/vincian but it’s up to interpretation!! I cannot see Killua dating a girl. (This includes ships like KilluRetz and Killumane)

Hisomachi (Hisoka x Machi)

Again, Hisoka is a heavily MLM coded character with Machi being the only woman in the series he’s shown possibly romantic interest in. Hisoka himself is an extremely harmful stereotype of a gay man being overly flamboyant but also predatory towards kids and women. That is a stereotype that is shown and pushed VERY often with Hisoka. (If you do view Machi as WLW, which I do, she’s also a harmful stereotype of the mean, man hating, lesbian./lh)

Also the fact that Machi straight up rejected his dinner offer in the Heaven’s Arena Arc should be enough to push the fact that she doesn’t like him…

Edit: while Hisoka is MLM coded I personally see him as a pan man due to some random factors and just cuz I like it that way

Kuroneon (Chrollo/Kuroro x Neon)

Ok I only have like one reason but I feel like it’s validated tbh!!! He literally attacked her and stole her ability. And I don’t wanna go on a whole rant about Neon and her complexities rn but her nen ability, lovely ghostwriter, was essentially the only reason for her father to love her and care the way he did…

Also their age difference urks me ALOT cuz Neon is about the same age as Kurapika (17-19) and Chrollo is pushin 30… T-T

Kurokura (Chrollo/Kuroro x Kurapika)

A lot of people ship them because “lol omg enemies to lovers!!” But like. This isn’t that kind of enemies to lovers hun… :// Chrollo and the troupe literally massacred the Kurta Clan with zero mercy and left Kurapika alone and almost defenseless in an unfamiliar world. He destroyed everything Kurapika had. That’s not something Kurapika would or will forgive easily. Kurapika is literally destroying himself inside out because of what the troupe did to the Kurta Clan. This ship is just ugh it’s so toxic I hate >:(

Also again, even if Chrollo didn’t destroy the Kurta Clan, age difference. Kurapika’s the same age as Neon (17-19) and Chrollo is PUSHING 30!!!!! Icky!!!

Tbh this goes for any of the Troupe x Kurapika… gross age difference and disgusting enemies to lovers dynamic.

Pitokai (Neferpitou x Kite/Kaito)

One of my biggest icks ever is Victim x Killer because like how would YOU feel if you were violently murdered for seemingly no reason and then find out that there are people out there who think you and your killer would be cute if you dated O.O

Yeah it’s like… really toxic. I don’t have the energy to go into all the details of it but Killer x Victim has no reason to be as popular as it is…

Wisky (Wing x Bisky)

(I couldn’t find any GIFs of them from the movie so you get this still image)

Teacher x Student dynamics really ick me as well… in most but not all cases the teacher is somewhat of a parental figure and the student is very young, in most cases a minor!!! We don’t exactly know if Wing was a kid when Bisky taught him nen since she refers to most people younger then as kids but the idea that she was extremely influential in his earlier years and has that older adult figure role in his life makes the idea of shipping them just.. it makes my skin crawl tbh ^^|||

Also there’s a HUGE age difference with Bisky being 57 and Wing being in his early 20s.

Gingkite (Ging x Kite/Kaito)

Again w the teacher x student guys… the same reasons as with Wisky expect we know for a fact that Ging met and started training Kite when he was a teenager! Makes this extra icky.

Again with the age difference! Ging is in his 30s I think maybe 40s? And Kite is in his early 20s. Pretty big age gap!!!

Any incestous Zoldyck ships

The fact that I even have to state this… dude… c’mon…. Incest is NOT cool chat!!

Any ships between the siblings? DISGUSTING!!

Between the kids and the parents? GRODY!!

Between Zeno and his grandkids? OUTRAGEOUS!!

This isn’t even just limited to the Zoldyck family dude… Mito x Ging is a thing apparently…

Any Child x Adult

Again… why do I need to state this… shipping adults x children is WEIRD!!! And NOT OK!!!

Hisoka x Gon? GROSS!!

Killua x Illumi? DOUBLE GROSS!! INCEST IS ALSO NOT OK.

Killua x Machi? STILL GROSS!!!!

Please if you ship canon children with adults… please… just get off my page :^

Merupouf (Meruem x Shaiapouf)

Gonna be so fr w you guys… I used to ship this… i thought they were funny :’) I’VE RECOVERED DW!!! (/lh)

Uh yeah so the power dynamic is really erm!!! /neg I genuinely cannot go into detail about how toxic they are but I’ll try to summarize… Pouf has like a perfected version of Meruem in his head as the king but when Meruem starts to change for the better he rejects it and thinks he knows what’s best for the king and shit!!! Also Meruem treats his Royal guards like shit (at the beginning) their relationship gets only slightly better towards the end but it’s still abusive!!!

Also my friend pointed out that the Royal guards exist solely for Meruem. Like they are Meruem and Meruem only. Everything is for him and that adds like a super fucked up dynamic to this ship…

Also forgot to mention earlier, ANTCEST. All the chimera ants came from the same mom so shipping them is really weird even if they don’t all see eachother as siblings

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Ok so that’s all I can think of rn… please try to understand that this is MY interpretation and perception of these characters. It is ok if this is not how you see these characters, but it is how I see them.

[ewy-na]

On Astarion’s sexuality, again…

I’m sorry, I’m going to go on a bit of a long rant here but it seems like it still needs to be said since there are still comments roaming around claiming that “Astarion is 100% gay”, that “he’d be be gay if they did not make him ‘playersexual’ to appease the ‘cishet women who fetishize’ gay men”, that “it’s disgusting to see him with a female Tav”, that “people who romance him with female characters are [insert any kind of insult here]”.

No Astarion is not gay, he’s PANSEXUAL. HC whatever you want in you own game, HC that he’s fully gay if that’s the only way for you to enjoy the character, but stop claiming your HC as absolute canon and trying to control how other people play and interact with the character, especially if you’re going to be nasty about it, and even more so when people who worked on the game and the game itself show that your HC is not actual canon. The same applies for anyone who would claim he’s fully straight btw (haven’t see these takes myself, but that doesn’t mean they don’t exist somewhere)

The romanceable companions are not playersexual. 

They are all canonically pansexual, it was confirmed by people who worked on the game and it’s visible in game as they all have lines or behavior that indicates attraction to more than one gender / regardless of gender. And in Astarion’s case, it was also confirmed by both his writer who calls him “a man of all the appetites” or “medieval Deadpool”, and his actor, who has been on record more than once confirming it, he also romances him with a female character in his own playthrough.

A few examples of the top of my head : 

Astarion : comments on Wyll’s horns being flattering on him, comments on the bloodlust look being very flattering on Lae’zel or calls her “spicy food” in a very suggestive way, calls Shadowheart “vintage port on two legs” or says she’s “enticing”. Has flirty banters with Gale, Shadowheart and Lae’zel. Will sleep with Lae’zel at the Tieffling/Goblin party if none of them is romanced

Gale : has a known ex-girlfriend, offers his blood to Astarion in a party banter and comments on Raphael, and is the most open to stay with a Tav who turned Illithid.

Halsin : talks about former lovers, both a maiden and a male sailor, and is clearly down for anything who can consent.

Karlach (i’ll focus a bit more on the male side here since she’s also often called just lesbian) : has an erotic fantasy where she’s with a man and a woman at the same time, has an erotic fantasy with Dammon, says she’d ride Astarion to the Feywild and back, several comments about Wyll being attractive with his horns, shows interest in Halsin too.

Lae’zel : Will sleep with Astarion at the Tieffling/Goblin party if they're not romanced, will try to bed Wyll or Gale if Astarion is unavailable, and will apparently go for Shadowheart if none of the guys are available. Makes some comments about Karlach and has flirty banters with Minthara.

Minthara : refers to a former female lover, flirts with the ladies and says she’d catch Astarion in her web if she was still living in the Underdark.

Shadowheart : makes thirsty comments about both Karlach and Halsin. And has flirty banters with pretty much all the companions.

Wyll : makes comments about both Astarion and Halsin being attractive, flirts with Lae’zel and Shadowheart.

Now on to the arguments usually said to prove he’s gay or has a heavy preference for men : 

He’s too feminine / flamboyant to be attracted to women : 

A man can be feminine and flamboyant and not be gay. Ever heard of Prince or David Bowie ? They were both pretty androgynous and flamboyant and one was straight, the other was bi. And not every gay man is effeminate or flamboyant. 

Can we stop with these outdated stereotypes ? 

All this really makes me wish we could see more feminine and flamboyant straight or bi/pan men and more super masculine gay men in series, movies or games, same goes for women, give me a masculine straight, bi/pan woman and super feminine lesbian every once in a while.

Just let people carry and express themselves in a way that makes them feel comfortable without assuming they have to be a certain sexuality.

Besides, the very theatrical / flamboyant side of him his mostly a mask he puts on, it tones down quite a lot whenever he's genuine with Tav.

He talks about "handsome virgin" and "prince-type". 

Well in the context of the game these are very much gender neutral.

Handsome can be used for both men and women, and it is used in game for both, like Minthara calling herself handsome or Karlach calling a female Tav "handsome and talented" for instance.

As for the "prince-type" comment, nobility titles in game usually default to their masculine form, even for female characters like Duke (not Duchess) Stellmane who is a woman, Duke Wyll who can name a female Tav Duke (still not Duchess) or Gortash telling a female Durge that the two of them will rule as Kings (not King and Queen). In that instance Astarion is also talking about what we consider irl as the archetype of a fairy tale prince, just like when he calls Volo a "Damsel".

Not to mention in both cases, considering the tone he uses, the context of these lines and in the case of the "prince-type" comment, the other things he says in the very same conversation he's likely just being sarcastic (if not salty in the “prince-type” one) anyways.

He also uses words usually more associated with women like “pretty” or “dowry” regardless of the character’s gender.

He has slept with more men than women for the past 200 years… 

We don't really know that since we know of, what, 5 of them (which would be 0.05% of the estimated number of people he’s slept with), but to be quite honest considering he was hunting in the middle of the night in taverns, brothels and in the streets, yeah i’d expect most of them to be men, he probably had a bigger pool to choose from with men in these kind of places, regardless of any kind of preference on his part and men may have been more likely to follow a stranger just to have sex.

But, in any case, he’s very clear he wasn’t doing any of it by choice and he didn’t enjoy it.

He compares himself to a prostitute and especially as Origin Astarion he can have an interesting chat with Nym and Sorn Orlith at Sharess’ Carress where he tells them “I was once in your position, in a way” and when Sorn asks him how it was, all of Astarion’s answers are negative 1/”I try not to think about it any longer”, 2/”Just what I had to do to get by.”, 3/”I was forced into it, but it sounds as if you weren’t” and last but not least 4/”Horrible. Unfathomably so.”. He can also tell Haarlep “I already lived an eternity devoted to pleasure and it was rather dull.”

He also says himself about these relationships and his conquests things like :

“The entire reason for my existence was to seduce anything with a pulse.”

“I spent two hundred years using my body to lure pretty things back for my Master. What I wanted, how I felt about what I was doing, it never mattered.”, 

“I've gotten on my back ten thousand times or more, and forgotten half of them.”, 

“Enjoyment ? That didn't come into it. I never had a choice. I have bedded thousands of people. Half of them I barely remember. Most of them didn't even grant me temporary bliss.”, 

“Being close to someone, any kind of intimacy was something I performed to lure people back, for him”

“They’re my conquests. I pursued them, seduced them, then brought them back to Cazador.” 

 “They weren't lovers... not in the way that you mean. They wanted me more than I wanted them.”

… and he only talks about the men in his past :

Hm, he talks about exactly 2. The darling boy and Sebastian.

We don’t know much about the darling boy other than he was apparently pretty young and too nice and innocent for Astarion to force himself to bring him back to Cazador (we don’t even know if he actually slept with this one, only that he let him go, which led to Astarion’s worst punishment), whether that was because he somehow had feelings for someone he just met or felt too bad about ruining his life (especially if he was one of the very first, if not the very first person he ever had to bring back to Cazador), is up to interpretation. 

As for Sebastian, people really like to call him Astarion’s ex-lover/boyfriend, and claim he had some deep feelings for him, but he was not a lover, only a victim. Astarion remembers him because he was one of the first and one of the few who didn’t abuse him and he feels guilty for ruining this nice man’s life, but even so, when meeting him as Origin Astarion, he needs to succeed a DC 18 check to even remember his name or pass a DC 10 check to dig it from Sebastian’s head, all the other options are some variation of “I can’t remember”. And then, the only dialogue option implying he was even attracted to Sebastian is a DC 20 [DECEPTION] check.

So, if these relationships are supposed to show a huge preference for men, what he himself says would do  a pretty good job at showing the opposite to be quite honest…

He’s bad at flirting with women despite being a super skilled seducer :

He’s not really a skilled seducer actually, he’s also bad at flirting with men. Gale will outright reject him, and Tav, regardless of their gender can also call him out on his cheesy pick-up lines. He never really needed to be good at it actually considering he was picking up his victims in taverns and brothels and they were more than likely drunk and/or very horny, so he only really needed his good looks. His 10 Charisma doesn’t come out of nowhere.

There’s a party banter where he’ll reject Lae’zel:

This one only triggers if you are romancing him, he’ll also reject Gale’s offer for his blood, which can be taken as Gale flirting with Astarion (both because his blood is nasty, but also because he’s in a relationship with Tav), he’ll also decline Halsin’s offer for a threesome. It appears Astarion just doesn’t want to be involved with anyone else if he’s with Tav. Lae'zel will also reject him if she's romanced btw.

If neither Astarion, nor Lae’zel is romanced though, they’ll actually hook up, which proves that unlike what some claim, he can in fact tell her no when he’s not interested, and he’ll do the same with Tav if he doesn’t like them enough. Considering he also admits to a romanced Tav that he was attracted to them and that he has quite a number of flirty banters with Lae’zel, yes he sleeps with her for protection, but like it’s the case for Tav, there still seems to be some level of attraction here.

Now let’s see what happens during the events of the game. 

He expresses in various dialogues that he finds both the male and female companions attractive, it’s possible he talks slightly more about the men, but his actions seem to lean slightly more towards the ladies actually.

He consistently flirts with Shadoheart and Lae’zel the most out of all the companions through all 3 acts, but he also invites Karlach on a date or Jaheira to a threesome (in that last case, he’s probably being sarcastic as well though).

He can sleep with Lae’zel at the Tieffling/Goblin party if the player doesn’t sleep with any of them. She’s the only character outside of the player’s he will actually sleep with during the events of the game. 

He can also invite Alfira to his tent, and if not romanced he’ll flirt with the girl in the sewers in Baldur's Gate.

If he catches the player cheating on him with Mizora, UA will admit that he would’ve been interested in sleeping with her too before, and AA will admit that he’d be interested if she offered, complain that he wasn’t invited to join and ask to be invited if there’s a next time

So he is clearly written and acted as pansexual, he shows attraction towards both men and women and it’s not even clear whether or not he actually has any preference. 

In the end he falls for Tav/Durge no matter what’s in their pants because they’re the first person in 200 years who shows him genuine care and kindness, who isn’t with him only for his body but likes him for who he is and with whom he can form a real loving relationship.

[beanghostprincess]

*yurifies your sanuso* transfem Usopp that helps transfem Sanji to transition and accept her identity.

Them going on cute little shopping dates, Usopp helping her with makeup and hair and other things.

Usopp being so supportive the same way Sanji supported her when she first came out.

Sanji going to Usopp when she first started to question her gender and Usopp being the first person she came out to.

Sanji being there when the strawhats meets with the readhairs and Yasop when Usopp felt nervous to meet with her dad again.

Usopp being there when Sanji feels overwhelmed with her ties with her blood family and disphoric (is that how you write it?) from time to time, like she's afraid to look like her father and Usopp just being gentle and understanding of her.

*holds them gently* they're very dear to me :((

I LOVE THE YURIFICATION OF SANUSO I LOVE LESBIANS I LOVE SAPPHICS I LOVE WOMEN I LOVE TRANS GIRLS I THINK WE ALL SHOULD APPRECIATE THEM AND WORSHIP THEM EVERY DAY AND THIS IS THE BEST THING IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!!!!!!! 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Usopp holding her hand when she's coming out to the crew,, Sanji getting so overwhelmed by the support she breaks down and starts crying and Usopp hugs her tightly,, And Sanji just- She starts laughing out of nowhere. Relieved. She has never felt this free. And everyone is a bit shocked at first but then Luffy is the one to fill the room with laughter and he goes to hug her too, and it turns into a huge group hug that makes Sanji cry and laugh even more.

Usopp is good with makeup because even though she doesn't wear much, she's always been a good artist and it's just a natural thing for her, right? So Sanji asks her to do her makeup most of the time. You know that picture? With the two girls, one on top of the other and the one on top doing the other girl's makeup? Well, that, but make it fem Sanuso.

They're not established yet, okay? They're pining. Pining hard. Because I love Sanuso being head over heels for each other. And lesbians are known for being fucking stupid and awful at flirting (I don't count I am fucking great at flirting) (I just lied on the internet). And they're best friends. The bestest of girl friends. And I think their first kiss should be when Usopp is feeling insecure because of her dysphoria (<- This is how it's written, by the way! <3) and Sanji hugs her and kisses her tears away... In a friendly way, of course. But then she can't stop herself from praising and worshipping Usopp and telling her everything she feels... And they end up kissing for real. And they laugh. And it's so so sweet... Ugh, I love them. They make me sick.

They share clothes too, by the way. And seeing Sanji wear Usopp's large t-shirts she uses to work (stained with paint and oil and smelling just like Usopp) while she cooks makes Usopp's heart go wild. Same thing happens to Sanji when she sees her girlfriend wearing her dress shirts.

Sanji constantly having gender and dysphoria crises because of the Vinsmokes and Usopp always being there to whisper sweet nothings to her and hold her tight until everything passes. Usopp reminding her that she's not like them. That she's her own person. That's she's the most empathetic, genuine, and wonderful girl she has ever met. That she's beautiful just the way she is.

Sanji lets her hair grow longer because of her mom and Usopp loves braiding it and playing with it and brushing it and taking care of it every damn relaxing moment they have together. She says it reminds her of gold and Sanji always blushes at that, but Usopp is being 100% serious when she says Sanji is her most precious treasure.

Usopp being all anxious when she meets Yasopp again, and we know Sanji has a uhhh complicated relationship with that man because she doesn't know how to feel about him abandoning Usopp and she doesn't want her girlfriend to get hurt again. So she's there all the time, holding Usopp's hand and introducing herself as her girlfriend (in a very protective way btw). But everything goes fine and Yasopp accepts them both and it's just,,, So sweet.

*holds them gently* I wish I could talk about fem Sanuso forever and ever and ever because they mean the world to me.

[jussst-lurking]

Lesbian Lestappen

Ok, seeing a picture of girl Max unlocked an entire fucking story idea in my brain! Here goes (this is long btw):

It would sort of be lestappen through the years (cliché I know) but!!! they’re both girls. So imagine, Max and Charlene in karting as the only girls and they are both really really good, Max was basically winning everything in the regional Dutch championships, and even though it’s her father who’s doing this with her, she’s always compared to her mother (maybe also because ppl see that she’s talented but no one thinks she’ll actually take this further than karting).

Meanwhile Charlene is really successful in the regional French championships and when they both start racing internationally and against each other and as the only girls in the classification people start whispering about them. Some see them as promising young talents, others don’t look on them as favourably.

Anyways, the two of them get pitted against each other a lot (as society tends to do with women and girls) and they constantly fight each other for wins and they cannot fucking stand each other (especially Charlene, because Max tends to get the better of her more often than the other way around, and she really has this mindset that there can only be one girl here.)

Fast forward a couple years: in a shocking move that nobody saw coming Toro Rosso offers Max a drive for 2015. People are outraged, say she’s too young at 17, say she won’t be able to take the pressure, write disgusting speculative articles about whether she’ll be able to keep up with the boys, or that she’s getting the seat because she’s a girl or some shit (as if you’d get preferential treatment in motorsport when you’re female). Anyways, Max enters the sport and serves absolute cunt, not taking shit from anybody, achieving multiple p4 in a car that clearly doesn’t belong there, she’s battling with many of the well established drivers and wins (sometimes) but she also gets criticised a shitload for her ‘overly aggressive’ driving style, with many calling it unnecessary and dangerous, others even joking that it’s not ladylike to drive that way. Max obviously doesn’t give a shit, says that’s the way she drives and that people should deal with it.

Then, in 2016 more shocking news: they’re putting her in the Red Bull not even half way though the season. People criticise the move left and right, again the arguments of her being too young, too immature, unable to handle the pressure of a top team, that she’s driving too aggressively and will only bring the team down etc. Max shuts them up by winning her first race for the team, with an RB 1-2 in Malaysia, and that phenomenal drive in the wet in Brazil. Rules get changed because of her, older drivers are afraid of her (see: Nico Rosberg in Abu Dhabi 2016) and the discourse around her never really stops.

People also see how well she’s getting on with Daniel, and oh, they’re vile about it! Say she’s flirting with him and manipulating him and all of that good stuff. Some people think she slept her way into that rb seat anyways…

At the same time, Charlene is setting the junior categories on fire, winning f3 and gp2 in a row, both times as a rookie, and it’s hard to look away from her. It seems almost inevitable when it gets announced that Charlene will debut in f1 with Alfa Romeo. Like with Max, there’s backlash, but maybe less so because Charlene proved herself by winning 2 junior categories in a row. Still, some question the direction f1 is headed in. (Also when f1 gets rid of the grid girls and many see it as pandering to woke culture and all of that. Maybe they even try to blame Max (and Charlene) for it.)

There is an absolute shitstorm when Ferrari kicks out Kimi (of all people!) and signs Charlene for 2019. People say the nastiest shit about her.

She doesn’t want to admit it at first, but all the vile comments and inappropriate interview questions get to her and so she reluctantly seeks out Max.

Max herself is dealing with the news of Daniel leaving and people blaming her for it, saying the team is building around her, trying to make her the first female world champion and so on.

Charlene confides in Max that she’s struggling with all the things people say about her and that she sometimes questions whether she actually deserves the seat. Max tells her that people are assholes and that Charlene shouldn’t listen to them because she 100% deserves that Ferrari seat, but also that it’s harder for them here, that they basically have to be twice as good to get half the recognition and therefore it’s important to just keep pushing, keep your head down and do the talking on track.

Things heat back up between them in 2019: they are in a fierce battle for 3rd in the championship and shit hits the fan in Austria, people are taking sides, pitting them against each other even more. The battles they produce are some of the most entertaining races of the entire season.

Things calm down in 2020, what with the pandemic and Ferrari being shit, there isn’t really much happening between the two of them except for that incident in Sakhir.

But then 2021 comes around and Max has her first proper chance to fight for the title. She grabs her opportunity with both hands and leads the championship by Monaco. Even though Ferrari is better this year, Max and Lewis are in a league of their own and all the attention is on them. Then, Silverstone happens. A heated battle turns into all out war, splitting the fan base, and Max is getting slandered and demonised by the media and she has so much pressure on her shoulders. She appears to handle it well, but Charlene sees all the vile and sexist shit people are saying about Max and she absolutely is not having it and reaches out to Max to make sure she’s ok. They start a tentative friendship, mostly bound to the paddock and even though Max isn’t saying it and it’s not visible from the outside, her friendship with Charlene, who can relate to her in a way others can’t, gives her so much strength to keep going. Max wins her first Championship in the most controversial fashion possible, but she holds her head high and ignores the people calling her a fake champion.

She takes the number 1 for herself, mostly because that’s what she always wanted, but also to remind people who the reigning champion is. The gold details on her helmet and the golden boots are there to highlight it even more.

2022 starts with a bang, the new regulations seem to be working as Max and Charlene battle for the win and for the championship. Everybody is surprised by how well they seem to get along with each other, and despite multiple attempts by the media to put the two against each other, they have nothing but kind words to say. The battle for the championship doesn’t last very long though, because Ferrari keeps screwing up the strategy and suffer from unreliability. Max is Charlene’s number 1 defender when people try to put the blame on her. They get closer, get into a habit of discussing their races together and sometimes they go out after a race or meet up in a hotel room to watch a movie to unwind. Max is always there to comfort Charlene after a bad race and they both start to fall for each other (or maybe in Max’s case she starts realising that she’s had feelings for Charlene for a while now) and then, probably in Austria (because where else would it be) Max ‘accidentally’ ends up kissing Charlene during their race debrief that evening. Max apologises but Charlene says there’s no need to and kisses her. They get together and everything and Max wins her second title and then maybe they appear at the fia gala together but they don’t explain anything? And all of f1 is going crazy about what that means and so on and so forth, and then there are those cryptic pictures on instagram and then in 2023 they are so obvious and when Charlene gets pole in Baku Max just straight up kisses her, but they both refuse to elaborate on it, and that’s how everyone gets to know they’re dating.

[beautifulmorningstar]

No I'm mad because. Because when Fracesca kissed Mr Kilmartin at her own wedding she made a face of, clearly, dislike, and I wondered why she did that but I didn't think further. And now she meets his cousin and looks at her like that???

There's so much to explore here IF Shonda is explicitly making Francesca's character a lesbian (I just saw a post saying that Michaela is actually Michael in the books, and I've never read the books, but it's clear Francesca is straight in the books). Like is it believable that this woman did not know she was exclusively lesbian until she touched a man and felt nothing but physical disgust? Fine, I'll accept that, she's living in a lesbophobic society where any woman's sexual interests are heavily suppressed. But the idea that she's never conceived of being interested in women until her current age (what...20?) because she specifically met one single woman she's attracted to??? That part I find difficult to believe, and more so I am super grossed out that she's already just married a man. Like I get that she never touched anyone with romantic intent until her wedding kiss... (this is why dating before marriage is so important even if it's mild barely-physical dating btw) but it's just absolutely unhinged to put a lesbian in this position jesus christ but anyway it's still within the realm of believability I'm just super mad ab it so back to the part that ISN'T so believable - repressed or not, lesbians DO encounter attraction to women earlier in life throughout their life. As a lesbian who was fucking!!!! Repressed!!!!! I would KNOW this. I look back at my younger self all the time with the dawning realization at things I've done/experienced in regards to women I was attracted to (proposing to my kindergarten teacher, trying to befriend a quiet girl at school that was soooo fascinating to me (crush), etc etc I'm not exposing my wilder stuff) and I think if Francesca is being portrayed as a lesbian (instead of bi) they should definitely have some sort of indication of this PRIOR interest in women, because that would at least click a few things into place within the realm of believability

However if Francesca is to be bisexual, all this goes up in smoke bec it makes perfect sense that she might not have realized an attraction to women (many bi people express that they had to discover attraction to the same sex later in life) BUT they put in that scene of her face after kissing her newlywed husband which is why I'm assuming they're not aiming for bi, they're aiming for lesbian. And I really hope this isn't going to be yet another terrible portrayal of a lesbian character

[meowsticmarvels]

im curious. who are your fav characters from each mainline persona game that you have played 🤔🤔 (take this as an invitation to ramble about them)

YIPEEEEEEEE here we go will be long so im hiding it under a readmore again. also since you said mainline im not including toshiro or eri but you Know...... im abnorma, abt them

i have NOT played p1 and i've just barely started p2is (though ive watched snippets of someone elses's playthrough) but i will say. based on my limited knowledge i rly like hidehiko, ayase, naoya, tatsuya, jun, eikichi, yukino, maya, and lisa

p3 and p4 are difficult bc theyre the ones im the most autistic abt and the main entire casts as a whole are comforts for me. but anyways. going to talk about p3 first Yes I Will Include SLs too. im abnormal. top 3 main insaners for p3 though are akihiko, yukari, and junpei. for me

makoto/minato sooo so gender envy. im obsessed with his design a lot. his character i do also like hes a little goofy and so mecore but mainly his design is something i love a lot

same with kotone. also love how she has a sort of distinct personality that you can tell with slight dialogue changes that her counterpart doesnt say. shes rly real. love reload but i miss her...

as stated yukari's one of my favs. she didnt Use to be (i did like her but Not as much) but she's slowly become one and man. i love that silly girl. her haters will not survive the winter actually. it does piss me off though because like. yeah shes not perfect no character rly is but she's a traumatized mentally ill teenage girl with a dead dad and a neglectful mom cut her some slack maybe? god forbid women do anything. idk. but im obsessed with her. her character is actually so interesting to me and not a lot of people talk about it? like her whole fear of death causing issues with summoning her persona like at the beginnning, her dad being involved with the kirijo groups shit, how she puts on a cheerful front but is actually deeply really lonely :(, her kinda playful insult friendship with junpei (deep down they do care abt eachother. i wish that was explored more. i found a rly good fic abt it once.) and etc etc. idrk what to say but shes sooo. i also love how she initially HATES mitsuru and is super jealous of her and then. Well. gay tension is real. anyways shes a transfem lesbian to me btw. yukamitsu ftw

junpei's also become one of my favs. somehow. in a similar vein to yukari in that he wasn't initially my main fav character but i think his character's also pretty interesting and has. a lot of unexplored potential. he's very silly and i love him for that a lot but something i don't see many people talk about is like. his Issues. like yeah hes silly but he's also got some fucked up self-worth issues!!! remember the scene on 5/9 where he kinda gets really upset and goes off on his own and stuff. for example. like i think him being imperfect and having these moments where he's NOT cheerful and goofy all the time and actually deeply really jealous of you because he feels that fighting's all he's good for and he's not worth much else is what makes him interesting. do you get it. like him being tbe silly funny guy isn't all he is as a person yk!!!!! also as far as characterization I point a lot to the scene where yukari's more than willing to go confront the people in the alley while junpei's worried, or scene near the end of the game where yukari teases junpei and he snaps at her, confessing that while he doesn't show it he really is terrified. they all are, at that point. yk what I mean? also people don't acknowledge his trauma with his father enough (maybe because it's only really discussed at all in femc's route... his SL is so good but not enough ppl see it... BUR YEAH did not think I'd go off on a tangent about junpei fucking iori tonight but he's real. hashtag brokeback tartarus. also he's an adhder to me. (oh yeah also want to point out this line in his SL where he says "maybe I have anxiety or something". yeah. that's a line!)

akihiko fucking sanada. ohhhh man. this guy. where do i even START. he's so so crazy like what if your local high school upperclassman boxing champion guy was also really gay for his dying childhood friend and autistic as hell and also traumatized. and he's doing boxing in the first place to overcompensate because the death of his sister made him fear losing anyone else again snd he needs to feel like he has power. he needs control. yk? like this guy made me insane for like several months straight in 2023 and he still makes me ill. to this day. as you can probably tell by my distaste for people seeing yukari and junpei at face value you can probably gather that I hate the protein jokes and i Do. he said it like. Once in p3. it never rly was funny????? and what they did in spinoffs esp p4a to just make him look like a gym rat and nothing more makes me upset bc of the REASON he's obsessed with fighting. he's not just a dumb jock (he also isn't dumb lol he canonically scores very high on his exams) he's overworking himself because feelings of self doubt from trauma have caused him to feel the need to overcompensate so he never loses anyone again. you know? it would've been interesting to see him relapse in p4a if theyd actually done it well. like he doesnt rly give himself time or room to grieve in game (theres rhat onw scene on 10/5 and then he barely talks about it again. man i wish it was developed more...) so realizing that grieving isnt a linear process that he can just repress for a long time and even years after it can still hurt would go INSANE. but no they just turned him into i love protein joke number 20. okay!!! (im very angry) thinking about when my non persona friend after hearing me explain some of the plot described p3 as like a greek tragedy because like. damn. he and shinji were doomed from the start with personas like polydeuces and castor huh. anyways. yeah. continuing writing now that i've watched october 4th in reload AND akihiko's breakdown as a reuslt and i wanna scream and cry and throw up that will be for another post but ooh man it mad eme cry like 3 times. and I KNOEW WHAT HAPPENS. THEYRE SOOOOOOOOOO if you know me im an insane akishinji truther. im just. i wanna talk abt other charactrs so ill stop here but always ask me about akihiko + akishinji + ships i like in general. i am really normal. oh btw transmasc akihiko is forever real to me. also he's autistic and a ptsder. to me (tbf what persona character Doesnt have some form of truama but like. this guy in particular). up there with my highest blorbos

i dooont wanna go on for too long abt every other character in p3 so ill keep this next part short and sweet but if u wanna hear me talk more abt any of them. feel free to. starting with fuuka i love he rmy transfem autistic girlie who has every disease. i also love mitsuru a lot who i Wish had people acknowledge her deeper aspects more. like. she was experimented on and also very sheltered and also a little bit of a girlfail. shes not fully the girlboss you all say she is shes also just a teenage girl!!!!!!!!!! koromaru can do no wrong hes forever the best. i love that dog. ken makes me so so sad he is just a kid!!! what the hell!!!!!! :(. and oh man. shinji. guy who is so wracked with guilt. guy that is dying no matter what happens. guy that dies in his lover's arms

as far as non-sees characters. i rly like strega. esp jin and chidori. dont think abt them enough. also as far as SLs i like keisuke, hidetoshi, bunkichi and mitsuko, kazushi, yuko, and etc etc...i need to see rio and saoris links too they look real. oh also i LOVE ryoji

p4 time !!!!!!

again gonna cut this short so i can actually Fit it all in one post. but wow. i do like all of the IT so so much but im just focusing on my favs. anyways i love yu so much his autistic swagger esp in the animation is amazing. like he is not a "chad" he's just an autistic teenager. ok. also the animation broke me when nanako gets kidnapped he sounds fucking distraught there. love when people delve into yu's issues also bc hes a bit fucked up but Man. ouch. just like me fr tho

i love yosuke in a similar way to why I like junpei because he's kind of a loser /pos snd has some insane issues that his shadow delves into that are Kind of Insane for the FIRST shadow of the game. like ok damn. i really do love his social link in general tho his was the first one I maxed out in my (unfinished because i didn't want to finish it) p4g playthrough so!!!!! many things wrong with him and also the lgbt community has forgiven yosuke hanamura. also similarly to junpei he's adhd as hell. souyo ftw

naotos probably my fav p4 character I think which is Pretty Painful Sometimes. sometimes I need to kill both other persona fans and atlus if ykwim. but anyways i hc him as transmasc for one thing but also if atlus weren't cowards and actually made his story abt rhat it would've hit so hard. his shadow in general is often overlooked apart from that bc what about the part where he talks about being mistreated by others and feeling utterly alone and not allowing himself to act like a kid!!!! it fucks me up!!! he's also super autism btw like god damn. but YEAH point is I love naoto so much and i hate how both some fans and atlus tjemself treat him because his whole arc and shadow had the potential to be super compelling

apart from who i listed above i do like the rest of the IT so much they're such silly friends (i love you chie i love you yukiko i love you kanji i love you rise i love you teddie.). can't think of any SLs off the top of my head that were crazy but I do like daisuke and kou. OH ALSOO the dojimas..... 😢💧😢😢💧 love them

p5 time :3 I'm into it less so than p3 or p4 but Still

yusuke's my favorite p5 character probably. i domt know what it is apart from the common trend of my favs being autistic as hell (see: akihiko and naoto) but he's like. such a fucked up guy. he's traumatized. he loves art. something is deeply wrong with him. obsessed with this gug

i also do like ren/akira, ryuji, futaba, and also mishima (unfortunately. but in my defense there is something deeply wrong with him slash positive). i don't know a lot abt all of p5's confidants but i like iwai I think.... this reminded me I need to make more progress in p5 what the hell. i miss you futaba (i haven't even got to her palace yet im still on kaneshiros LOL)

but YEAH! thank you for asking!!! from the ones I've played my top favs are akihiko + naoto + yusuke respectively so👍👍👍 loved answering this :3 if u have any thoughts on a particular character feel free to ask and ill elaborate :3

[g-l-o-w-y-l-i-g-h-t-s]

Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along-Blog but with lesbians would have been a masterpiece btw. If you even care. "Next up: Who's Gay?"

Captain Hammer: "The Hammer is my strap-on." Big muscly woman but she's managed to build a preppy wholesome heterosexual image of herself that fits what everyone wants to see. She fits in, but not as herself, whatever her civilian name even is. She's selfish and conniving and self-serving and a fuckboy lesbian and she has become all of those things because she felt she had to. She's also just kind of a bitch tbfh. Penny is an out lesbian and Captain Hammer, seeing that many celebrities are coming out, decides to make a whole Event(tm) of coming out and dating Penny and capitalizing on selling branded Captain Hammer Pride T-Shirts. "So I thank my girlfriend Penny. Yea, we totally had sex." It's honesty, it's self-acceptance even, but it's also a PR stunt. Because at this point, anything Captain Hammer does is a PR stunt. And Penny is just a self-actualization tool and stunt prop for her. And even so, Hammer is anxious about being openly dating a woman and makes sure that everyone knows that "quiet, mousey" feminine Penny is "Not my usual, but nice."

Dr. Horrible: "There's no happy ending, so they say. Not for me anyway" Billie has never actually been able to hide her queerness. Has always been cast as a villain. The doomed, corrupting Lesbian. And, much like her extant canon hetero-male counterpart, we watch as she spirals downward and becomes a femcel. Everything is already there. The camp. The "villain"/"hero" labels as more a marker of outsider status/popularity than actual moral value. The history of queer coded villainy in exactly the kind of media that this story is riffing on. The feeling that one's story is doomed to tragedy bc that's the version of the story you've seen again and again and again. And yeah, it does make you bitter.

Penny: "I cannot believe my eyes. Is the world finally growing wise?" An actually relatively well adjusted normal person type of Lesbian. We know Penny has been repeatedly rejected and denied job opportunities, and it would make sense for this to be because of her being openly lesbian. Maybe Penny herself was kicked out into the street as a girl and that's what got her started working to provide homeless shelters. Unlike Hammer or Billie, Penny has not allowed this to embitter or define her. She continues fighting to make the world better and came out long ago because she believes that the more people come out, the safer it will be for everyone else. And yeah, there's a cute gay woman who goes to the same Laundromat as her and gets fro yo and they flirt quietly and there's a sense of camaraderie in being two queer women even once Penny starts dating someone else. And that someone else! Imagine finding out that your celebrity crush is gay and interested in you specifically. And then!!! There's a huge pride event and everyone from your friends to the FUCKING MAYOR OF THE CITY is Congratulating you on this part of yourself that has been repeatedly rejected by society. And you're finally emphatically able to open a homeless shelter for queer people like you who were given no other place to go. Only to then realize that even your new gf is treating you as a cardboard cutout for photo ops and she has no real sense of queer community. Brutal.

Penny: She's really pretty and I thought she was kind of cheesy at first

Billie [under her breath]: trust your instincts

Penny: But she turned out to be totally sweet. Sometimes people are layered like that. There's something totally different underneath than what's on the surface.

Billie: And sometimes there's a third, even deeper layer, and that one is the same as the surface one...Like with pie :)

Bonus points:

Moist: "At my most badass I make people want to take a shower." Moist is a "gross sweaty dyke" with a weirdly sexual name and lives happily/vaguely sleezily ever after with the towelettes (if youve seen the comics you know what I'm talking about.)

Slightly different dynamic with the chorus of 3 Hammer fans. It is now two pining lesbian fangirls and one gay guy who is just hyped for there to be a queer superhero.

[antediluvianapocalypse]

juliana (26) and calypso (32) are roommates and they fucking hate each other but neither of them are willing to move out, like a game of psychosexual chicken. juliana freaks out at calypso at least once a week but calypso just kind of nods along until she stops screaming. (btw juliana runs an instagram pyramid scheme here. not relevant to the story but its part of my vision)

samantha (45) gets divorced bc she came out as a lesbian and starts dating calypso soon after. calypso deliberately tries to keep samantha and juliana apart and succeeds for a few months, but one morning juliana wakes up at 7am instead of after 12pm and she corners & interrogates samantha in the kitchen while wearing one of those tiny silk robes. after this calypso is putting out EXTREMELY hateful vibes towards juliana but it just goes rrrright over her head and she is soooo smug.

calypso takes an overseas trip after she and samantha break up (for reasons not unrelated to juliana) and juliana calls up samantha like Oh noooo how sad! Why don't we go to dinner and you can tell me alllll about it :)

samantha vents about the dubious ethics of hooking up with her ex's roommate who is almost 20 yrs younger to her cousin, isaac. isaac is like. Well if you were a man I would definitely say that's unethical but because of my views of women I will paint you as a conflicted and sympathetic figure.

Remember when i said juliana being an instagram scammer wasn't relevant? i lied. isaac is making a series of expose videos about juliana's products & her history of toxic behavior. juliana (who stalked all of isaac's social media after his first video came out) recognized samantha and immediately got into her head that fucking isaac's cousin = revenge (somehow)

isaac and juliana - within half an hour of existing in the same room - get into a screaming match . they get married 10 days after.

unbeknownst to all parties, calypso has cameras in her apartment and bugged samantha's house. she's been monitoring the situation from afar and is prepared to leak all of this onto the internet.

[snowglobe-system]

God I could go on and on about this forever. If you know me well, you know that around this time last year I was in a relationship with a bisexual femme who had just THE most internalized homophobia.

I'm butch. I've always been butch- this goes all the way back to middle school. And I have NEVER felt more shamed for it in my life than by my ex girlfriend.

She would go on about how women are oppressed and how she was looked down upon for being feminine, meanwhile she had an hours long makeup routine to cover up every single insecurity she had about her face and make snide comments about my refusal to do the same. She'd talk me into letting her dress me up like her personal barbie doll, and say that she was showing me how to be a "real woman" - as if being butch somehow made me less of a woman before.

She bragged to her sister, who is still one of my best friends, about how she was feminizing me, and how she could make me act like an actual girl. She tried to teach me the "rules" of being a woman, and firmly believed that performing femininity was the way to be a good and superior woman. She fit well into cishet groups- she knew the rules. She complained about not feeling like others saw her as queer, and then met a woman who expressed queerness in any way but the most conventional and tried to make me fit into the convention. It was never that femininity was cool as a form of self expression- no, she lauded femininity because it GOT HER WHAT SHE WANTED.

And, here's the thing. In the times when I let her overwrite my own sense of self with her own, people DID treat me better. Men talked to me causally instead of ignoring my very existence. Women would return compliments without looking at me like I was going to do something predatory to them.

Femininity as a woman is something that's enforced not even just by men, but actually majorly by OTHER WOMEN. It's self policing at its finest, and YES, as a woman you DO gain some advantages that butch women don't have by performing femininity. And btw- don't you guys think it's odd that most of the negative lesbian stereotypes are about butch women? Even other queer women don't fucking like us. It's like existing in gender purgatory all of the time- not men, but since we don't perform femininity, we're "bad" women. Don't you fucking dare come at me and tell me that women are oppressed for being feminine when in reality we are all oppressed simply for being women, and those of us who don't want to perform femininity pay a hefty price.

Some of you straight up hate masculine women and gnc women and I wish you'd just say that with your full chest instead of pretending women are oppressed for being feminine when in reality feminine behavior is expected and women are policed by men and each other if they don't present femininely enough. Femininity is looked down upon esp in men but that's bc it's associated and tied to women. Not bc women are oppressed for being feminine

[ghostofpolaris]

Well, I think I am going to take out information down on my gender identity and sexuality as I am quietly questioning (and panicking) over both right now. I will leave my pronouns up for sure still but until I can get a solid feel for both, I feel like it is wrong for me to fully identify a certain way anymore and will take that information down to prevent possible issues. Both seemed like for sure fields tbh for years but I think as I have healed from a ton of trauma, I actually think stuff is probably changing (which is good? maybe?? idk I am scared). Tbh any advice would be appreciated on both matters. I'll explain further on both topics under the cut for anyone curious. <3

More details under the cut:

So, as quick of a TLDR as I can make this out to be, let me explain both: I am born AFAB (please please please for the love of the gods I do not want radfems interaction please and thanks) and for years as a kid especially I felt comfortable taking on "princely" roles when it came to play pretend with girls. I always felt happy being their knight in shining armor (I know it's cringe bear with me) and their prince but I liked mainly feeling closer to a girl and presenting myself in a feminine way. Forgive me btw, I am fairly ignorant on proper terminology because I grew up in a place where getting support for matters like this was next to impossible. I noticed more often than not, I always seemed drawn to girls and fem presenting people IRL. Fictional men were nice, but mainly my focus seemed to be fem-presenting people (I hope I got the term right). I wondered if I possibly was trans too, as a lot of characters I did relate to a lot were characters like Link from Legend of Zelda or now even Stolas from Helluva Boss for example and it was a cycle of, "Do I like this person or want to be them or both?" until I thought, "Oh! I must be genderfluid because using He/They/She pronouns feels right!". That was back around 2019 or so, and tbh I just feel like an imposter now because I noticed my gender didn't feel as "fluid" as others had it. I noticed I gravitated more toward They/She and thought, "Oh wait am I cis after all???" but that didn't feel right either as I notice I don't entirely like using She/Her pronouns either. Once again, I feel almost stuck wondering if maybe I am straight up non-binary or not or if the reason I feel feminine in any capacity is because of my system (I have DID for context) who mostly are feminine in some way. Same thing goes for the sexuality side of things. Especially when I was younger, the first person I truly felt like I had a real crush on was a girl who was actually my bully in middle school (I know I was a fool) who was essentially the Hans to my Anna (I am so sorry but literally I have no other clue how to compare it because the comparison is quite spot on in my eyes). She was someone I was happy to let myself get kicked around for and wait on her hand and foot. I was happy to be a walking carpet for her and sacrifice anything just for an ounce of her love and in truth? I never actually had those kinds of feelings for any masculine kind of individuals.

Fictional men? Oh absolutely fine! Fictional WOMEN??? Even Better (Felicia Hardy you will ALWAYS have my heart tbh). Like, as awful as this may seem, the men I have dated I feel like I only dated them out of pity because they liked me and I felt bad and did not want to say no to them. This tbh led to a lot of trauma for me, yet I still somehow gravitated back toward cis men mostly that I never really felt a genuine connection with. I dated two (At the time) women in my life and for some reason even though I dealt with a ton of bs from them, I felt more inclined to date a woman again versus a man.

Back in middle to high school, I was stuck wondering if I was bisexual or lesbian, and poor poor exes of mine I literally felt so bad I could not figure it out and just assumed I was bi. Though another kicker came in: I really am not that interested in sex. I have had trauma with it yes, and tbh as awful as this may seem, I assumed it was from trauma. Yet I healed, and grew, and that didn't seem to be the case as time went on. I had experimented (tbh I wanted Taco Bell more than I wanted that person soooo oops...) and I figured, "Oh! This means I am Asexual!" Yet I still feel more romantic feelings toward fem people mostly. I stupidly thought being bisexual in highschool was transphobic (I learned better since them) and went with the identity of Pansexual, then Panromantic Asexual when I learned that being Panromantic existed, but now I once again am at a crossroads here too. I notice I have been really feeling my heart flutter seeing pretty feminine people more, and even wondered if I was even demisexual versus straight up asexual. I have done a lot of healing and I wondered if I too was sucked into the wormhole that is comphet but I just don't know. I don't really know who to talk to about it all and I can't help but go, "Oh I can't be lesbian because I am not a cis female" but learned you CAN be nonbinary and lesbian. Then I go, "but wait I can't be a lesbian if I like fictional men right??" but sure enough, I see lesbians who adore fictional men. I almost wonder if Bisexual was correct, but yet it just does not feel 100% right.

I even tried to go on the app Boo to find friends mostly, but I did mention I would be happy to try and date later down the road as I had a lot of healing to do. I met some guys that I figured could be cool friends, but I noticed that the only person I was even remotely interested in that liked me too was a guy in France who dressed in a feminine way and presented himself in a feminine manner. Like, it was to the point that I felt supremely fluttery in my chest and felt a sense of giddiness. It isn't entirely the same as the feelings I had for a friend of mine who is a girl. I almost feel sad thinking on it because I know she wouldn't probably like me back as she has so much going on and she has had friends confess to her and made her uncomfortable and I'd never want to do anything to hurt her, but man I think about her and my heart just soars. If you ever hear the song Heaven's Light from The Hunchback of Notre Dame, this is exactly how I feel about her. She makes me feel like I have a Morticia Addams of my own and thinking about how much my heart almost aches for her is hard to really encapsulate in words. I promise this is not some sappy love confession or anything, I want to respect her and she still lights up my life even though we are only friends. I just do not get the same kinds of feelings about a masculine individual unless fictional. I wasn't sure if it is me or the system or anything like that, but any advice would be great tbh minus the, "Just be patient with yourself! This takes time!" thing. No offense, but I am 28 years old and tbh as a system this I think is different than the average, "be patient with yourself thing". Yet the more I write, the more I wonder if I am answering my own questions too tbh. Sorry for the lengthy post!

[andyinmiddleearth]

One of my friends in my small red town high school was literally the second one. She was so “supportive” until I talked about medically transitioning, and she basically said what person #2 said, and that broke me. Later I found out she was a Trump supporter and had never told me😭

Same goes for a girl I had a crush on that pretended to be okay with my transness but was secretly a pro-life antisemitic Trump supporter and I didn’t find out until years later when one of my actual friends told me. Also broke me. You pretending to be an ally ain’t very girlboss of you.

I also had a white cishet man that was like “just because we disagree on politics doesn’t mean we can’t be friends 🤪🥺” like no, sir, I can’t be friends because you disagree with my very existence and vote for people that are oppressing me and committing genocide against my community.

Similarly, I had a dick in high school trying to “politely” cisplain to me why it’s okay for trans people to be banned from the military because we are “mentally ill and the military could be dangerous for us 🥹” like yeah no shit, welcome to the military industrial complex that YOU signed up for too, but I can’t. Also being trans isn’t a mental illness. It’s people like that that vex me the most.

Also, shoutout to the girl who broke my heart by completely ghosting me and never talking to me again after she found out I gave her an anonymous rose for Valentine’s Day. She lived in an even smaller red rural city so uh. Kaylee if you’re out there, I was in love with you and you didn’t even properly reject me, just. Stopped hanging out with me and that hurt. So much. I deserved an explanation at the very least. I would have understood if you didn’t wanna date me.

You know who were some of the best allies at that same place though? The girl that tried her hardest to use my pronouns, even though she once called me “biologically a girl” when talking about FAFSA.

It was my super progressive dual credit English teacher, who was a DOCTOR btw, who would sometimes call me “Miss *chosen name*” and then apologize for her mistake.

One of my closest friends, who to this day sometimes accidentally calls me ma’am, and corrects herself, and also said I listen to “lesbian music” one time (tbh she wasn’t 100% wrong).

My economics teacher who would mess up my pronouns over and over again, but kept trying anyways, showed up to my top 10% honors dinner and took pictures with me in a suit and tie, and defended my transness when my parents were being transphobic towards me.

My school nurse and principal, who offered for me to use the women’s nurse bathrooms because that was the only option available for me. And my principal also defended me and was quite “aggressive” according to my mom cause she refused to let my parents be transphobic towards me.

My Latina Spanish teachers, who did their best even though our language as Latines (I’m Mexican btw) is extremely gendered and were always so sweet to me. I don’t like being called “mija,” but it’s the affection that was there that matters.

It was my classmate who called me a queen when I offered her muffins but then was like “oops my bad, sorry king,” who restored my faith in Gen Z.

The white lady that took my senior picture, who offered me the fem outfit and when I told her I wanted to wear a suit she went “I can respect that, that’s valid” and gave me what I wanted to wear.

My two cis Black gay male friends, who would say stuff to me like “no ma’aaaaam” but later eventually caught on and then they were like “no sirrrrr…”

My biology Muslim teacher whose name I don’t remember (he wasn’t teaching for too long because he kept getting made fun of for his SWANA accent unfortunately, and that got to him) who would try his best to call me by my name even though he would use the wrong pronouns.

And my physics teacher, who let two of my classmates and I start my school’s first LGBTQIA+ club when no other teacher would (not even the only openly gay teacher) and put up with our weekly meetings and never outed anyone. He would say funky things like “do any of you girls think you might be homosexuals?” (I wasn’t out as trans then) He would also talk about how he thought it was cool that a type of fungi has thousands of sexes and would just. Vibe with us the way a sweet millennial ally uncle would. I think later he ran over a deer and a cop cause I think he was on drugs since he didn’t look too hot the last day I saw him in class, but anyways shoutout to him. I did not learn a single thing about physics in his class but I did learn how to catch crickets to feed a lizard.

People aren’t perfect, but I would much rather educate person #1 than person #2. And I say this as a queer transmasc nonbinary person that has been out for years.

"The trannies should be able to piss in whatever toilet they want and change their bodies however they want. Why is it my business if some chick has a dick or a guy has a pie? I'm not a trannie or a fag so I don't care, just give 'em the medicine they need."

"This is an LGBT safe space. Of COURSE I fully support individuals who identify as transgender and their right to self-determination! I just think that transitioning is a very serious choice and should be heavily regulated. And there could be a lot of harm in exposing cis children to such topics, so we should be really careful about when it is appropriate to mention trans issues or have too much trans visibility."

One of the above statements is Problematic and the other is slightly annoying. If we disagree on which is which then working together for a better future is going to get really fucking difficult.

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I don’t really have a dog in the lesbian Yang vs. bi Yang fight. But I will say that the people who act like it would be some kind of unthinkable OOC betrayal for Yang (or Weiss, or Winter, or any other character) to be into men need to realize that being bi doesn’t mean you like women any less.

I see people making these huge justifications for how Weiss liking Neptune in V1 was “just comphet because he’s a nonthreatening guy” and she’s really a huge lesbian, and I just wanna be like “Do you think being attracted to men is making her character worse?” Same goes for Yang “not minding” boys.

You don’t have to answer this if it’s too much discourse. I just felt like I needed to type it out

No, no, this is a valid point. I think a LOT of headcanons/fanons is just projecting onto the characters you like and I think a lot of specifically lesbians project onto yang so that's how we ended up with fanon!yang being a lesbian. Same deal with Weiss being a repressed comphet lesbian btw

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We got your opinion on Visenya. (I loved it!) What about Queen Rhaenys? 🖤

Hi there, Anon! 🤗

Sorry for this huge delay in answering but in my defense (do I even have a defense?) it took me a lot of time to answer the ask about Visenya as well XD

So, my opinion about Rhaenys (OG Rhaenys). Well, in a way I would say I started off with her in a completely different way than I did Visenya, this in the sense that Rhaenys was not a character I liked right away. Rhaenys was someone I learned to like and appreciate, and maybe in a way, it took me growing up and maturing a little to appreciate how cool she actually was.

Let's begin from the start of me finding out about her and this was almost 10 years ago.

As I have previously established I am one petty and shallow b:tch who has the ability to like or not care about a character solely based on their name, and on this account Rhaenys did not amuse me.

I don’t like the name Rhaenys (or Rhaena btw). I just don’t like how it sounds. And since Visenya is one of my favourite asoiaf names, to me it made the name Rhaenys sound all the worse. Then reading about her on the wiki (at the time the world of ice and fire hadn’t come out yet) I was like “omg who cares?!!!!”. It just seemed to me she did nothing and was just there to be the favourite and be prettier than Visenya 🙄 and create a female on female rivalry, which I usually can’t stand like oh look there, two women fighting over a man 🙄🙄 how original!

I make no secret of the fact that I am not a fan of polygamy, especially the traditional form of polygamy of one man two (or more) women. This included the more - let me just laugh for a moment here - “progressive” (lol) style of the women sometimes playing at being lesbians with each other for the benefit of the resident assh0le who married them and convinces them this is all very empowering. Like how about you suck on a d:ck imaginary dude? And if you are so progressive, please extend the same curtesy to your wives of f_cking someone else that not you. You’re welcome bestie :)

So yeah not a fave of the “role” George has Rhaenys play, and things didn’t improve for me when I read “The World of Ice and Fire”. Again she was in a way just there to be the “prettier” more feminine sister Aegon liked more. Again, how original. 

By contrast Visenya was a lot cooler like she had Dark Sister, she rode Vhagar, she was a traditional warrior in her own right... I did feel very sorry for Rhaenys though since she had a terrible death, and I did like the scene between her and the Princess of Dorne as well. Like the tension in that room! 

Fast forward a couple more years to 2018 when I read “Fire and Blood” and we were given a lot more details on the Conquest, and I did like a lot of what I read about Rhaenys. While at first glance she is presented as this “shallow” person with not a lot to add who only cares about dancing and music and frolicking around, you do start to see that there is more to her than that. 

She wants to help others. She has an interest in women. She doesn’t want Aegon to conquer something for the sake of it, she believes that they can make Westeros better, and this is what she tries to do. Rhaenys is also quite clever, shrewd as well, and we do see this in how she goes about making people bow down to the Targaryens, and she is a lot more subtle about it than Visenya. 

I feel Rhaenys embodied the whole “you catch more flies with honey” thing. 

Visenya, in contrast, is all strength and fear, there is no room for softness. Rhaenys is not like that, though she is not the complete opposite. In a way, Rhaenys reminds me of Dany. She knows there are times when you have to be ruthless and rain down fire and blood on your enemies, but like Dany, Rhaenys knew that that wasn’t what life and ruling was all about. 

She knew that you need to be loved as well, and that you can be soft at times and you won’t be a less effective ruler for it.

In a way, I started to realize she was more complex than her siblings, and though Visenya was meant to be the “mysterious” one of the two, and Aegon even more mysterious than his sisters, I felt that of the three the one we knew less well was indeed Rhaenys. 

Knowing what someone likes to do (like dancing and flying) doesn’t tell the entire story. Yes we know this about Rhaenys, but what more did we know? We are never told how she feels about Aegon. We are never told what she thought of having to share him, of being the clear favourite. We see she cares about the smallfolk because we are shown, but this is not expanded upon. We are also shown she had to be a great mother and have a very tight bond with Aenys from his reaction to her demise, but we get very little of her actual thoughts on him, and on motherhood.

I think Rhaenys, unlike a lot of characters, suffers from a bit too much show and not enough tell, and what we are told is just there for the most part to make her look like a shallow and slightly slutty woman. Which is done with other female characters so are we really that surprised? 

So, I really grew to like her and to be interested in her. I also like that what is shown in Rhaenys is quite different from what is told about her. In a way she and Rhaenyra have this in common (especially on Mushroom’s version of her) where sometimes what is said about them doesn’t match the behaviour that we see. And I really do like this.

Another thing I was pleasantly surprised with in “Fire and Blood” was that where the two sisters are concerned, there are no cat fights. Like I said in a previous ask, they seem to know who is who and one doesn’t want to be the other. I don’t see jealous from them or competition over Aegon. And again, although George once said in an interview that they did compete with each other for Aegon’s attention (#feminism #girlpower), we don’t see it anywhere. So, given that the golden rule of writing is “show don’t tell” I will stick to what you showed George :3 You’re welcome bestie! 

Nowadays, if you were to ask me what sister I like more, or which of the two do I think was a better person, the answer would be Rhaenys. 

Her qualities, the ones who really matter, and what makes her so compelling and complex aren’t evident (unlike what happens with Visenya and Aegon). In a way she’s not “easy to like” because you have to push the image they try to sell you of her aside and dig a little deeper. 

Rhaenys is not as cool as Visenya or Aegon, not as powerful, nor as strong. She’s the “weakest link” only she isn’t. She’s a warrior in her own right, and a mother, and she is feminine, and she threatens, and she laughs and likes jokes, and she loves, and she gave us House Targaryen as we know and love it! And we cheer her for it!

So long live Queen Rhaenys, the heart of the conqueror trio and the Mother of House Targaryen! And I just KNOW that the Targaryens’ musical talent came from her, and y’all can fight me on this!

And to celebrate our Queen, I am sharing below my very fav art of her by Amok, as shown in “The World of Ice and Fire”. 

All the best to you, Anon 🤗