#refused treatment

[sp00kysk3lly]

You want proof that the NHS doesn't care about anything but their pay packages?

The strikes that are going on right now, they don't care that their patients are left with no appointment, no surgery, no HELP! They just want their pay packages bigger! They literally have to be paid to GIVE A FUCKING SHIT!

I was REFUSED mental health support just for STICKING UP FOR MYSELF against a therapist who had lied to me about everything because she couldn't just admit to me that she was uncomfortable working with me! So, now I am being PUNISHED because I stuck up for myself!

I am treated like SHIT every time I go to that hospital! They have refused to help me for 7 fucking years! How is that caring? or being kind? They've given me trauma after trauma! Just because they for some reason don't like me!

I have NEVER made them hate me and I still don't know why they fucking do.

Yes, I can go into meltdown when I get admitted to the hospital overnight due to the trauma from them!

Yes, my conditions do cost a lot of money, but I wouldn't have these conditions if they had done their jobs in the first place.

Its so bad now, that I can't even go to my own GP because I can't trust her. I tell her I can't do group therapy, and what does she go and do? Get me group therapy. All I fucking want is a fucking diagnosis! That's all. A diagnosis for PTSD and Pure OCD, and I will be ok.

But clearly I am not getting that. And NO ONE (medical "professionals") aren't going to fucking believe me without a formal diagnosis from a doctor/psychiatrist!

It's to the point now where I am sitting in my room mostly crying because my mental health is getting worse by the day, and I have no support. I have no therapist I can fucking turn to. I have no friends to turn to and I have no fucking family to turn to!

So, there's your "kind, caring" NHS! Yeah, not so kind and caring after all, are they?

FUCK YOU NATIONAL HEALTH SERVICE, GO FUCK YOURSELVES!!!! FUCKING SCUM!

Addenbrooke's Hospital, Cambridge, UK

St Mary's Surgery, Ely, Cambridgeshire, UK

NAME AND SHAME TIME YOU SCUMMY CUNTS!

[mooneggtarts]

Radioapple week: Day 2 (Enemies)

Good thing the girls stops them before things gets WAY nastier than this! It is very intentional that Lucifer's wounds look like he was trying to tame a wild cat (Alastor) huaha!

[starry-scarl3tt]

this tv show is so insane. how am i supposed to watch the bdsm patient episode next to my mom. how am i supposed to watch chase try to dominate harvey. and why is he so good at it. how am i supposed to watch chase talk about his sex life with a banker and how he’s been to (potential bdsm) parties.

[dearestgentlereaders]

colin is so the type of lover boy to put his and penelope’s name into love calculator and have a panic attack if it’s anything less than 100%

[anna-scribbles]

truest thing gabriel everrr said was that adrien had emilie's flair for the dramatics

[gearchronocle]

this OPENING man. THIS OPENING. GOES SO INCREDIBLY HARD. FOR NO REASON. it should be illegal to have a song this good in a funny haha silly little comedy anime. I'm going crazy why is it so good. kaidou why r u going so hard on the vocals for NO!! REASON !!!

the fact that it's kaidou singing keeps me up at night. you go lil chuuni boy. eat that up like a full course meal and leave no crumbs not even the plate

[extasiswings]

I saw the post about Catholic hospitals I reblogged yesterday again and glanced at the notes (…yeah…yikes) and because this is a special interest of mine and a particular pet peeve—

No, people cannot just “choose” in most cases to go to a non-Catholic hospital (or other healthcare facility). Four of the 10 largest U.S. healthcare systems are Catholic systems. Something like 1 in every 6 hospital beds nationwide is in a Catholic hospital and in some states, more than 40% of the hospital beds are in Catholic hospitals.

And, because of mergers between Catholic hospitals and non-Catholic hospitals, people may not even be aware that they are in a Catholic facility governed by the Ethical and Religious Directives (ERDs), which, BY THE WAY, outright prohibit or otherwise seriously curtail the provision of a LOT of different health services (not limited to abortion specifically or even reproductive healthcare more broadly). But even if the ERDs were limited to prohibiting abortion (although again I feel compelled to point out that the ERDs consider things like regular miscarriage management to be abortion), that shouldn’t matter? If you are in the business of providing healthcare, and especially if you receive incredible amounts of federal funding out of taxpayer dollars to do so, you should not be allowed to refuse to provide normal healthcare to patients (many of whom are not Catholic) because you are following the whims of the USCCB, which, last I checked, was not composed of medical doctors or other medical experts and is not qualified to tell large swaths of non-Catholic medical professionals how to practice medicine to meet their own professional obligations for standard-of-care treatment.

[whats-those]

ST: TOS + text posts part 1!

Part 2, part 3

[al-luviec]

juvie buddies

[dukeofthomas]

My understanding of Jason Todd's age;

Jason dies when he's 15, 4 months before his 16th birthday. He is dead for any number of time; it doesn't count towards his age.

He's resurrected; he is in a coma for 1 year, then catatonic for another. He is then put into a Lazarus Pit. (These 2 years are practically useless, as he doesn't remember them and they contribute very little to the story. They could be condensed to 2 months and it would change basically nothing.)

He trains for about a year. You can then give him 1-12 months of prep and planning time before his debut as the Red Hood, and the story of UT(R)H, at which point he would be mentally 16-17, physically 18-19, and it would be (--) years after his birth.

[goemon-fan]

Why did no one tell me there was a Lupin special where Mamo sends Lupin back in time but Lupin fails to stick to the canonical timeline, and not only is Jigen homeless and begging for money on the street in this new cursed reality, but Goemon never realized that Momochi was abusive and therefore pursued professional assassination as Momochi wanted him to and he and Fujiko are in a power couple and he has stubble

[lizzydizzyyo]

I think what's really compelling about House's absolute unwillingness to bow down to anything or anyone (the ethical board, the law, extra rich CEO, vindictive police officer, and even the patients themselves) regardless of how absolutely batshit and downright illegal his actions are, is because it's coming from a chronically disabled person, in more ways than one.

He cannot walk without agony or his cane. His chronic and severe pain led him down the path of deep Vicodin addiction until he also becomes psychologically dependent on it too (once, Dr Cuddy gives him saline placebo and it "works", in that he is not feeling his leg pain anymore for a few hours).

He understands it deeply just how desperate people can be when they're in pain and nobody can (or are willing to) help them—at least, so far, until they land on his doorstep. Which is canonically the most extreme step patients take when everything else fails—you don't just go straight to Plainsborough Teaching Hospital and to Dr Gregory House MD's office; you have to go through dozens of other doctors in various specialties and failed treatments too.

(Although that's a separate discussion about how doctors, particularly resident ones, are overworked and underpaid and redtaped by shithead insurance companies even if they do know how to treat a patient and want to).

He knows, from the bottom of his heart, that having such a painful and life-limitting debilitating condition is comparable to hell on earth, because he has one. He knows, that despite his disability being visible to everyone, yet no one wants to put an effort to help him deal with it—is also hell on earth.

Cuddy simply throws money at him and turns the other way to his Vicodin abuse, like she is saying, "I don't care if he takes 10 Vicodin pills a day or more, and I have to pay at least $1M every year for lawsuits, as long as he gets the job done," (and when they decide to go into relationship, she immediately drops him when he relapses, even if the reason for his relapse is her—although, yes, there is another discussion to be had about keeping yourself and your child(ren) safe being a priority compared to helping an addict, recovering or not). Wilson, as loyal as he is to House, simply either enables him or lectures him without going into the root of the issue and thoroughly help House that way. His subordinates, especially after the original trio, are simply too scared, too ignorant, or too ambitious to even approach the issue and choose to keep their job than help House (also another discussion to be had about how you can't help people who don't want to help themselves and so on).

So when he sees a patient who has gone through hell trying to get a correct diagnosis and treatment, he becomes laser-focused on doing everything under the sun to get to the bottom of it and cure the patient. He doesn't care if he has to break into countless of houses (haha pun) and collect insane and probably biohazard samples to do it—he absolutely will, no question.

Yes, hate-criming and being a bigot is his favorite hobby (still livid at the asexual ep and the production's choice for the resolution, let's just say I still have beef with Hugh Laurie and the entire production team for it), and so is insulting patients in so many ways that Shakespeare would personally fly to New Jersey and shake his hands if someone manage to successfully perform necromancy on ol' Billy boy. But House is no one if not dedicated. "Yes, my patient is an idiot, everyone is an idiot too, but I WILL cure their condition like my life depends on it," is basically his middle name.

Besides, you can make the argument that he is more compassionate than all the other doctors around him, because despite his absolute disdain towards some of his patients' beliefs and stupidity, he still works his ass off to treat them. He will call your god an idiot in 7 different languages while putting you in a diagnostic machine he manipulated the whole hospital into letting him use so that you could get a test which weren't available to you before. He will tell you that your currently-happy marriage will end in a bloody divorce and your ex will leave you penniless so love is not real while injecting you with a medication he had to hack the CDC's database for.

There are even episodes that show him being truly earnest, like the clinic duty scene where he is snarky as usual to a girl who seemingly stupidly had unprotected sex until she lashes out, and House is like, "Oh shit, this is above my paygrade", and immediately goes to Cuddy with a very serious expression and no sarcastic dilly-daliying, demanding her to transfer the patient to someone else because he is not good with "curing" rape case (interesting choice on the writers' part to make the patient insist to have therapy with House, though).

There is an episode about a very workaholic woman executive in a fashion company who has tremor and partial paralysis, and later on it's shown that she seems to tie her worth as a person to her corporate success while band-aiding her deep psychological issue like her suicidal ideation, and House genuinely asks her, "Do you want to live? I cannot help you unless you want me to," or something along the line.

There is also the cursed 9-year-old terminal brain cancer episode where Chase kissed the patient (ew), where at first it shows House being a usual misanthophe to Wilson and saying, "She is not brave, it's the brain tumor clot talking because it must be near the amygdala." Later in the episode, House sits near the patient alone, and compassionately asks her if she even wants to live, going through the rest of her short-lived but horrible agony, even if they catch the clot. The surgery to find and get rid of the clot is risky and can debilitate her even more, and this is why House is laying the decision to her hands. That she gets to choose. This is what truly reveals to him that she is genuinely brave (aside from the scan showing the clot to be so far away from her amygdala), but for the wrong reason. She is brave for her mom, willing to go through horrible surgery and drag out her already painful cancer-ridden life because, "My mom needs me". When everyone is congratulating her in the end, you can tell House has a bittersweet expression of both awe towards her bravery, and sadness that this 9-year-old sick girl has to bear the brunt of her horrible pain just so that her mother is not sad. That he couldn't convince her to be a child until the nearing end of her life.

The most interesting evidence of his compassion to me is the gunman hostage episode. It might sound weird because in the whole episode, he is depicted to first want to outsmart the gunman patient, then becomes laser-focused but only because he sees it as a puzzle, then absolutely selfish and dangerous because he volunteers himself as the last hostage and gives the gun back to the guy after the MRI. I do think it's true that his dedication to solving patients-are-just-puzzle-to-me conditions shines through in the episode, especially the scene of him returning his gun, but there is something else I catch when I rewatched it before.

When the gunman patient is put in the MRI because Cameron tells him a theory through the hostage call, the remaining doctors in the room including House are wary at the gunman but also hopeful. Yet, when the result shows up on the screen, he realizes that the theory is wrong and the guy let go his only bargaining chip for nothing. If you watch this part carefully, you'll notice that House actually looks pitying and sad at the gunman's disappointed demeanor and expression. He realizes he is going to be another notch in the guy's failed doctors list, and at this point (with the gun given away and even the best, most talented doctor also not finding out what's wrong with him), the guy has given up hope that he will ever see the day he will be cured, certainly not behind the bars.

Yes, his thirst for puzzle is House's big driving force in giving back the gun, but you'll be lying to yourself if you don't notice House's compassion for the guy because he doesn't want the guy to go out empty-handed, with absolutely no more hope because House knows once they step out of the door, this guy will never, ever be allowed to be in the vicinity of any hospital or doctor ever again in his life, aside from jail's bare-minimum exams and medications. House can't handle the thought of putting someone else through his own disappointment—that nothing works to help his leg pain. He especially doesn't want to be the cause for this gunman guy's case either. Even in the end when House realizes the guy is a fucking moron because he doesn't know that Florida is, in fact, in earthwide-horizontal tropical zone and this is what stumps most of the guy's previous doctors—House still gives him a subtle salute to the guy while being handcuffed and led away, almost to say, "Enjoy your healing and the defeat of your arch nemesis The Sickness™, glad to be part of it."

Majority of his drive to stop at nothing until his patient is cured is definitely thanks to his own fucked-up leg, even if there are some dialogues with Cuddy and Stacy Warner (House's ex wife) that seem to imply he has always been a misanthrophe whose hobby is getting into malpractice (or general) lawsuits. I wholeheartedly believe that after his leg clot rendered him disabled and with chronic pain, he became much more dedicated and obsessed with getting to the bottom of a patient's medical information, even for info that seems innocuous or irrelevant that always turn out to be important (probably more like a plot armor than established characterization, to be honest), almost like this is his method of relating to the patients in his own weirdly human way, and maybe a little bit (actually, a lot) of projecting.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

[o-vera-nalyzing]

look i totally get it’s all love now but genuinely every kipperlilly sympathizer that only talks about how it’s so valid she hates the bad kids and how she’s a side character getting fucked by the main characters simply just feels like they themselves have hella side character syndrome and are relating to kipperlilly a bit too hard and might need to consider that they’re only a side character if they convince themselves they are

(my tags explain it a bit better but i was too lazy to copy them up here)

[reinanova]

so i started watching house md and my GOD house is such a bastard and asshole yet somehow i still kinda love him? idk i can’t get enough of this show

[rosenr0tten]

Say what you want about the Meljay relationship but I know for a god damn fact that if Mel was a man, the fans would’ve been eating that shit up.

The fics on ao3 would triple in numbers. People would be hyper analyzing + making gif sets of all their scenes. They wouldn’t be calling it boring anymore, instead being hailed as peak toxic yoai (even if they ain’t toxic but you know what I mean)

[moe-broey]

Quick and rough Plumeria redesign, mostly just cause...... I gotta do what comes naturally to me, man. Give me some Shapes. Simplify that design or so help me.

I don't have a lot of complex thoughts about it, actually! Just the idea of having a "sexy" outfit that draws the eyes to certain parts of the body -- while simultaneously being modest and Sharp. Having an edge to it. Also!!!! The luna moth inspired wings!!! I wanted to stay within her og color palette, but I've also always thought luna moth wings would suit her... the top wing is vaguely heart shaped, too!