#psychopathfree

[ramyeonupdates]

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[chrysen-16]

I recently finished reading an amazing book titled 'WHOLE AGAIN' by Jackson McKenzie.

I would highly ,HIGHLY RECOMMEND this book to anyone struggling with anxiety or feeling of tight chestedness, or emptiness around chest area/region...

Since i have completed reading it , and i feel really good, i just have this urge of starting to look after my life, to live in a way which make me feel alive ...

I haven't felt this good in weeks ...!

[deeprthoughtz]

#liarsandcheaters #emotionalabuse #betrayal #cognitivedissonance #traumabonding #narcawareness #narcsurvivor #narcfree #psychopathfree #narcsareliars #youarenotalone #explore #explorepage #youarenotcrazy #nocontact #sociopath #anxiety #codependency #manipulation #situationship #emotionalvampire #redflag #narcissisticabuse #brokenheart #itscomplicated #toxicrelationship #toxicabuse #machiavellian #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #deeprthought.z https://www.instagram.com/p/CFd_airjIQ7/?igshid=lubdt81qnbiu

[galactic-spec-of-dust]

Healthy anger is met by forgiveness bullshit from society.

[debbiescorpio]

[ellebelle2020]

Please help me.

I am for sure a moron.

Why am I allowing this person to destroy me?

Last weekend he ignored me for 5 hours, and his last statement to me was that he was talking to Megan in his driveway before hanging up on me. He wouldn’t respond to my messages or calls. And who the fuck is Megan? I cried. I screamed, I cried some more. I pictured him in bed with her for hours. I talked with my friend in Ireland about it. He tried to calm me down. I wanted to cut. I wanted to die. I hated how he was just ignoring me. Randomly. I finally calmed down. And realized he is phoning me. Over and over. Ugh. Why can’t he leave me alone? I call him back. He says he wanted to make sure I am okay and whatever I think happened didn’t happen. He ignored me because he was pissed I was upset? ........ Umm. That is sound logis, eh? He asks me to unblock him... and I do. And we text some and then just start fighting again. The fighting never ends. He would tell me the sky is not blue if I tried to insist that it was. I somehow make it through this day.

The following day we barely talk. And by the time I message him he is slow at responding. I ask him why. He tells me he “was doing something” and I ask him what. He says, “It takes time to crush up 27 percocets.” He hasn’t used in 3 years. What is he thinking? Why is he doing? My heart sinks. He sends a picture of himself with one eye swollen saying his nose hurts (from snorting them). His texts are dismissive and misspelled. I remember him saying in the past that 27 percs are considered an overdose for him (past experience I guess?) I panic and call him. I am crying and scared. I am telling him that his kids deserve better than this. He is laughing. And then maybe crying? He asks me if he can go to sleep now? I am trying to figure out if he is safe and he isn’t answering me. I am telling him I don’t know what to do. If I call an ambulance and the police come, they may send him back to prison for using drugs. If I don’t send anyone, I may wake up in the morning and he is dead. It would be my fault. In fact he told me it was because of he that he was using drugs. He could not take the hurt anymore. Really? He is blaming me!!!??? I decide to let him go to bed. I tell him I love him. I lay in bed hugging my self and crying. I am trying to not wake Joel up. I am messaging whoever will listen. I am trying to figure out how to send help. If I should send help. Who could I send? I message his cousin, Nadia. Who is known for running other women over and spending time in prison as well. I hope she doesn’t run me over too. I message her to see if she is awake and see if she can check on him. She never answers.

“Alive” says the text that he eventually sends me. He says he is “pill sick” but, alive. Thank god. However, I realize I never ever want to be the cause of someone’s overdose. 

As I write this I am crying, it is hard to breathe, and I feel pain in my chest. It was a scary moment and he shrugged it off. Was this another mind game? First he tried to make me think he was fucking another girl, and then he tries to make me think he is overdosing. 

Sadly, today he tells me he is going back to grinding. I have no idea what this means, but apparently it means selling illegal/illicit substances. My heart sinks. I sadly no longer recognize the man I fell in love with. I am sobbing. He is silent. 

He is angry that I talk to other men, even though it is platonic and nothing sexual. He calls me shady and talks to me like I am a whore. He doesn’t see or care what he means to me. And, I clearly mean nothing to him. 

How did my life get so off track?

[pokingholes-cptsdwarrior]

Boundaries like a boss. . . . #boundaries #nocontact #selfcare #selflove #selfcompassion #selfprotection #toxicfree #narcissistfree #psychopathfree #toxicfamily #narcissisticfamily #dysfunctionalfamily #cptsd #complexptsd #complextrauma #developmentaltrauma #childhoodtrauma #trauma #childhoodptsd #cptsdrecovery #survivor #warrior #narcissisticabuse #narcissisticmother #donm #acon #tellingmystory #sharingmystory #blogger #youtuber #mentalhealthadvocate @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz7diGTAiRa/?igshid=15am2fjbp53wb

[mholquinn]

Credit to from @badassbroad (@get_regrann) - Emotional abuse is a slow death. I’ve often said that relationship was where my dreams and former self went to die. Narcissists know exactly what they are doing, make no mistake. - It takes strength and courage to leave. But, more than anything it breaks you down to the point where you decide this is not where I will spend my dying days. - Leaving is the rebirth. In time, the healing allows you to see that you are worth living for. Never again the same, you’re transformed and playing dead is not an option. You find your voice and it’s loud and clear. Unwavering. - I used to be afraid, until I built a fortress using my voice. I’m alive and I will not be silenced. 🖤🦋 - #narcissistabuserecoverycoach #narcfreelife #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissistfree #narcissisticabuse #domesticabusesurvivor #psychopathfree #mentalhealth #selfcare #healing #selflove #empath #codependency #healingafterabuse #loveafterabuse #learningtoloveagain #consciouslove #consciousrelationships #badass #badassery #badassbroad @badassbroad - #regrann https://www.instagram.com/p/B513f2IAexA/?igshid=1xtzlp7j3ky4n

[overcomeandgrow]

. . . . . #love #peace #solitude #selflove #mindfulness . . . . . #life #selfcare #inspiration #mindset #happiness #positivity #loveyourself #motivationalquotes #goodvibes . . . . . #lightwarrior #verbalabuse #lovecoaching #selfloveclub #spirituallife #psychopathfree #lifecoaching #spirit #coachingtips #selfesteemmatters #toxicpeople #metaphysical #raiseyourvoice #validation #overcomeandgrow #jayshetty https://www.instagram.com/p/BxjN6pKnu0b/?igshid=1aqmhajva8c3w

[miramu1986]

Reposted from @divorceanarcissist 🚩 I was the “one and only” love of his life. It was the fairy tale I’d waited my whole life for. 🚩Until he turned into my worst nightmare. #drjekyllandmrhyde . Posted @withregram • @stevemaraboli . #npd #narcissticpersonalitydisorder #redflags #grooming #coercivecontrol #secretlife #abuse #domesticviolence #sexualassault #crazymaking #gaslighting #psychopathfree #woke #love #divorce #divorceanarcissist https://www.instagram.com/p/CUM-5H6LgZV/?utm_medium=tumblr

[indigochild1958]

#leaveapapertrail #gangstalking #groupstalking #psychopathfree (at Clifton Heights) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQm16qJhAK2/?utm_medium=tumblr

[thesunsetpodcast]

Reposted from @silenceofthenarcs Another term for a Covert Narcissist is a Highly Sensitive narcissists. These are the ones where no matter what you say is a direct dig on them! Eggshell city and a marriage and divorce made in hell 🔥👺 #highlysensitivenarcissist #covertnarcissist #hypersensitivenarcissist #walkingoneggshells #paranoid #narcissist #narcopath #sociopath #psychopathfree #hiddenabuse #grandiosity #noaccountability #nocontact #regrann https://www.instagram.com/p/CFEAszUj5Fs/?igshid=vzq0dh8w83w1

[deeprthoughtz]

#liarsandcheaters #emotionalabuse #betrayal #cognitivedissonance #traumabonding #narcawareness #narcsurvivor #loveyourselfmore #narcfree #psychopathfree #narcsareliars #youarenotalone #explore #explorepage #youarenotcrazy #nocontact #sociopath #anxiety #codependency #manipulation #situationship #emotionalvampire #redflag #narcissisticabuse #brokenheart #itscomplicated #toxicrelationship #toxicabuse #machiavellian #deeprthought.z @deeprthought.z https://www.instagram.com/p/B0mMrSHgl5B/?igshid=12gpwo9f9frzs

[galactic-spec-of-dust]

Why does this angel deserve to be destroyed?

Why does this angel deserve to have her life turn around?

Why does this angel deserve to be depressed?

Why does this angel deserve to be suicidal?

Why does this angel deserve to harm her self?

Why does this angel deserve to think she is ugly?

Why does this angel deserve to have her body distorted?

Why does this angel deserve to self sabotage?

Why does this angel deserve to take medicine she does not need?

Why does this angel deserve this unbearable pain?

Why does this angel deserve obsessive thoughts?

Why does this angel deserve to be invalidated?

Why does this angel deserve to be gaslit?

Why does this angel deserve to have to write a paragraph like that?

Too much. Too much.

[bad-and-brujii]

In the end, you will be better than ok 😊. #ifmywoundswerevisible #healingafternarcissisticabuse #narcissist #youmatter #nextchapter #narcopath #sociopath #cptsd #discard #psychopathfree #psychopaths #survivor #narcissisticabusesurvivor #mentalhealthmatters #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #lovebombing #narcissists #realtalk #facts #emotionalabusesurvivor #narcissism #npd #narcissisticabuse #npdsurvivor #emotionalabuse #traumabonds #ipvawareness #nocontact #gabbygoodbueno #gaslighting Repost @happy_but_complicated https://www.instagram.com/p/B9PNsALnvawoL83g_fUFmXxb_rihsOB-fJeTpU0/?igshid=1mjrz3fdi15r

[angeliqueshow]

Reposted from @badassbroad Healing is a process. There’s no one way to moving forward and it’s a personal journey. - Some days you can feel on top of the world and others will knock you on your ass. It’s okay. - You’re not weak. This healing work isn’t for the meek. - Stay Badass, Loves. You’re slaying. 🖤🤘🏻🦋 - #narcissistabuserecoverycoach #narcfreelife #narcissisticabusesurvivor #narcissistfree #narcissisticabuse #domesticabusesurvivor #psychopathfree #mentalhealth #selfcare #healing #selflove #empath #codependency #healingafterabuse #loveafterabuse #learningtoloveagain #consciouslove #consciousrelationships #badass #badassery #badassbroad @badassbroad - #regrann https://www.instagram.com/p/B7guKZTh9T3/?igshid=4rl8ad5bh0ad