#postive vent

[germcore]

mostly nonhuman art dump - shane

[r51011]

I'm so tempted I'm so tempted I'm so tempted I'm like just putting together that I'm probbaly nonbinary and I'm not out to any of my friends (it's a sureshot they'll be accepting—multiple of them are enbies themselves) The worst thing this effing discord pronouns box shitty 'his pronouns are they/them joke' is the first thing that has given this strong of gender euphoria and for how overly introspecive I normally am this flummoxes me, I glean nothing from my emotions.

[stroobooree]

CW: somewhat of a vent? Kind of a positive vent? I think?? I don’t usually get this personal on the internet LMFAO

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A few months ago (or maybe much longer, I have no sense of time) I cut contact with someone who I thought I could trust, but ended up being extremely toxic and borderline destroyed me mentally for a good while. But after that, I couldn’t even LOOK at some of my OCs due to them reminding me of said person. We did that thing that gay artists on the internet do when they realize they both have OCs- we shipped them together, made new lore with them, etc, etc. I used to love these characters so much, but now I get this horrible anxiety whenever I see them.

Recently, however, I’ve decided to try re-working these OCs completely, in order to make them feel like my own again- with no connects to… “that guy”. If I could hold on to their old stories, I would. But the more I hang onto them, the more I dwell on the pain of things that passed long ago. It’s about time I get a fresh start. I’m nervous, but I’m also excited to see what new things I can make with these broken pieces.

Wish me luck! :)

[worldwidewebzy]

I think the fact life is so special and could be taken away at any moment actually gives me a profound sense of just. Loving everything. The things around me are alive. Even the objects in my home, though theyre not alive in an traditional sense. I'm. Thankful I think. For just being alive right now

[spirituallupine-art]

I'm here. Flourishing, thriving, and blooming without you ♡

[chaosdisorganized]

We're dyeing our hair tomorrow and I can't wait!! We can't decide on a color so it'll be up to whoever is fronting at the store tomorrow to choose. Host wants red but I want to do pink again but instead of hot pink like last time, I want like a pastel pink. Another alter said pastel purple would be cool and I think so too.

Anyways, thanks for listening to my little positive vent I guess? Hope you all are having a great day! (:

[wowisuredoloveballs]

oh i never posted this! a positive vent i made❤️

ughh i love sunny so much, he protects me so well

[sweet-is-rambeling-about-anxitey]

Also if anyone is reading this, yes you are good enough.

[spirituallupine]

It still blows me away to look back on art that's only 2-3 years old and compare it to what I'm able to do now. I wouldn't say it was bad, especially not when I was dealing with my leech of an ex. I simply didn't have as much energy to put into my art as I wanted. Even though it was something that I always enjoyed.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm grateful to no longer be in that place, nor with that person. I'm going to continue moving forward to the bright future that lays ahead of me. I'm going to continue growing as a person and as an artist, for the better. It feels good to be able to draw the things that make me happy and be able to be proud of it when finished, even if few people end up seeing them. Ofc I greatly appreciate the people who've given me support on my art/in general, friend and stranger alike.

I'm going to enjoy the good things that I have in my life now. And I'll do my best to not stay from this road.

[chaotic-tinkaton]

Just a reminder since apparently some fans need to hear this; CHAMPIONS ARE NOT INVINCIBLE!!! Yes they're very strong but they win and lose some battles just like any other trainer.

The Horizons trio's win against Geeta fair and square not plot armor. Both sides put up a good fight with some awesome strategies ( like Sucker punching Crocalor to make Stomping Tantrum stronger ) and it was a great watch from start to finish!

[clawz-loopz]

keep trying

[lady-law]

ahhhhhh one of my friends that i have a crush on confessed to me that they have also had a crush on me and now we're gonna go on a date sometime soon and i have since been feeling all warm and fuzzy and giddy 🥰

this is the first time since i was a teenager that somebody i had been friends with (and not already more intimate with as a friend or meeting specifically through a dating/hookup app) opened up and said they like me and it's like an almost nostalgiac feeling i guess?

[peachviz]

You know what, Star Trek vs Star Wars debate over bc at least when I make a Star Trek edit I don’t get super rude and misogynistic comments or see really rude and super gross comments on other people’s Star Trek edits (except for the super super rare occasion)

Star Wars on the other hand…

[gob-lob]

me when someone talks to me online: yay!!! yippie!!!! hi!!! :D friends!!!

me trying to talk to someone online: hello. hi. sorry if I'm bothering you. I think you're the coolest person ever. anyways sorry for existing. yeah you can kill me if I'm annoying you I don't mind. sorry. my bad.

[officeobject]

So there is this person who has the same "brain-species" as me - and I only know a few besides them with that "brain-species", and so far, I think none of us are anything except asexual, and also this person happens to be exactly like an aroace character of mine, and also seems to act as if the only option to my extreme and hormonal emotions, is for them to be platonic (which is true, but they act like it's the only option), and they're implied to KNOW I love their body SO MUCH, in a platonic way (it has their personality, it looks pretty, I wanna cuddle it), and people normally don't believe I'm apothiaroace - not even other apothiaces for example - and the character they're exactly like, doesn't KNOW he's aroace and/or that there's a word for it, and the person seems more distant from their co-workers than the rest are from each other, and is also implied to do the platonic equivalent of thirst-traps for me, and doesn't react to how "weird" I am, nor the pride flag in the window, but nah man, I can't assume or guess, that they're aroace, or call them my apothiaroace icon, because that's a random real 30 year old who I haven't asked, and I hope people understand why that frustrates the shit out of me - then again, I can't handle the thought of them being anything other than "wholesome" - also,

Is it normal that we have almost the same body (besides maybe weight, muscle-amount and them being obviously a bigger person), and almost same body-language, and I'm under 25 and still seemingly have a while to go, through puberty, body-wise, so like, we had the almost same body, then puberty updated mine, and then we have THE same body, except those minor possible differences mentioned? Like, I don't even normally LOOK at these things, but I'm talking: curves (well, lack thereof), curve-placement, size of features, body-shape (already had that before though), shoulder-width, and more? Like, did puberty seriously SOMEHOW mold me to look more like THEM - or like, maybe our body-genes/development or whatever, just happens to be in a way that'd make me look exactly like THEM when I'd get older? Well, I fear some might comment on the fact that my body looks like that of a 30 year old that cis people would call a man without a doubt in their mind, but as I said, I LOVE their body, and theirs, makes me see the beauty in MINE (which doesn't reflect me when it comes to the fact that it's female, but otherwise DOES, but that doesn't mean I like it), and that makes me really happy.

Just in general though, they make me like traits of mine - and I could never like my body-hair for long, for example, even though I tried, and made it my mission, and saw positivity videos, and otherwise just wanted to try and do it by myself, like the emotionally independent person that people wanted me to be ... and after long absence in which I though they'd be gone forever, and 3 days of being back, this person made me love my body-hair, which is a love that hasn't disappeared since, and I didn't even THINK of it, for that entire time - they had nothing to do with it!

I know I've probably already posted this before, but like, what is my life?